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Title: Pieces of My Heart
Author: jake17
Pairing: L/M
Rating: Adult
Disclaimer: I own nothing Roswell
Summary: Is it possible to be too hurt to let someone in, or can love give you the courage and faith you need open your heart again.
This story is dedicated to dreamer19, Kristin. My friend, the beautiful writer, poet and artist. Thank you for being who you are, a truly amazing person.
Love you carrie
Chapter 1.
Liz's Pov
It hard not to be intimidated sitting in this room, how did I get here?
“Well that about does it. Thank you both for your corooperation.”
I smile awkwardly at our attorney and shake his hand. I feel like I’ve just made a business deal.
Kyle is out the door in seconds and I’m left standing there looking like a fool.
I feel sick, I can’t breathe. Ten years of my life has just disappeared as though it never happened.
“Ms. Parker are you ok?”
“Yeah I’m…no actually I’m not.”
I can see the pity in his eyes and I know that this is what I’ll be facing from everyone I know.
It’s not his fault. He’s been so kind, nervous actually I think this is new to him too.
Suddenly he’s by my side. I can’t help but smile as I look up at him. He looks like a kid who’s being forced to wear a suit for church. He takes his jacket off and loosens his tie as he sits next to me.
“That was a stupid thing to say, I’m sorry.”
I look at him completely confused.
“What do you mean?”
He lets out a big sigh and runs his hand through his thick black hair.
“Thank you for your corooperation, I can’t believe I said that.”
“It’s ok really, what are you supposed to say? Congradulations on your new shiny divorce?”
My eyes fill with tears as the weight of what just happens sinks in.
“Please don’t cry, can I get you something, water maybe?”
“You’ll have to excuse me Ms. Parker this is my first divorce.”
“Mine too.”
“Ok I think I just topped my first winner of a line. I just meant I’m sorry that I’m handling this so badly. I wasn’t prepared for how detached he would be.”
“Yeah he’s really good at that. It seemed as though we were strangers didn’t it?”
He stares at the floor searches for the right words.
Numbness takes over as I take a second to really look at the young lawyer my now ex husband chose to end our marriage. He’s nothing that I would have expected, not that I know many lawyers. He’s not confident or slick with his words. He seems kind of out of place in a way like he would rather be doing anything else.
His suit looks like he bought it at Sears. Leave it to Kyle probably the cheapest attorney he could find.
His voice is very calm and soft and his eyes, I’m not sure if I have ever seen that color before in my life.
Oh my god. What the hell am I doing? I have to get out of here.
I stand up so quickly I startle him and he jumps up nervously.
“Ms. Parker?”
“I have to go, thank you for being so nice. I umm …I have to go now.”
My heart is pounding as I walk as fast as I can to the first door I see.
Fuck, a closet he must think I’m a total basket case, god get me out of here.
Suddenly I feel his hand gently resting on the curve of my back. His whisper calms me for a moment as I feel the warmth of his hand on my body.
“It’s this door, just take a right and you’ll find your way out.”
I keep walking feeling like a complete idiot as my mind races.
As I step off the curb I’m absolutely oblivious to the cars rushing by the busy city street.
In the distance I can hear my name being called but I just want to go home. I need to go home.
First I hear the blaring sound of the car horn and the screech of the brakes and then I feel his hands on me.
From out of nowhere I am pulled back Just in time and find myself resting inside his warm chest. His arms are tightly wrapped around my waist as if he’s afraid to let go. I can feel his heart pounding against my back and his breath in my ear.
We stay this way for a couple of seconds as the man in the car slows down to yell some obscenities at me.
I can’t remember the last time I felt someone touch me this way, I close my eyes hoping for just a few more seconds of his strong arms around me when slowly he releases me and backs away.
“Are you ok?”
If you call never sleeping and constantly crying ok then yeah I’m fine.
“Yeah I’m fine. I’m sorry I didn’t see … I should’ve … I have to go.”
Fuck…I have to get out of here.
“Thanks.”
I look back quick to see him still standing in the same spot looking confused and out of breath.
He starts to say something but I can’t hear him over the noise of the cars rushing by. I smile quickly and run to my car.
My hands are shaking so bad I can barely put the key in the ignition. Without even looking behind me I pull out of the parking space and speed home.
Sitting in my driveway I’m looking at the house that we shared. One more week and some other family will be living here.
Everything in my life is different now and I’m left wondering if the emptiness I feel will ever go away.
I close my eyes as the tears begin.
Then suddenly he is there. I couldn’t get him out of my mind even if I wanted to. With his kind amber eyes looking straight through me, and his presence surrounding me holding me close I can’t shake the imprint he has left on me.
This is ridiculous what the hell am I thinking? As I step out of the car the cold November air hits me hard and I reach for my coat that isn’t there.
My coat. That’s what he was trying to tell me, that’s why he was outside.
What a fool I am. I’m sure I was just a pathetic girl he felt sorry for, felt obligated to comfort. I am such an idiot.
I laugh as I walk up the stairs remembering Kyle’s words as he told me it was over, the relief on his face, the happy expression of a man facing freedom.
‘I’m done with you’
Four simple words, who knew they could hurt so bad?
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Max's Pov
“Mr. Evan’s?”
“Molly please call me Max you’ve known me since I was five years old.”
Whispering my very sweet secretary sits next to me as I cutch her coat in my hands.
“I know but your father insists that we address you in a professional manner. He’s very proud of you.”
Yeah as long as I follow the plan, he proud, I wonder what he'd think of me if he knew how badly I hated this.
“Do you mind if I give you a piece of advice Max?”
“Of course Molly, like you need to ask.”
Molly has been with my father as long as I can remember, she basically handles his life for him. He has no idea how lost he’d be without her, how or why she puts up with him I’ll never know.
“Max I don’t think it’s good for you to get personally involved in your cases.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Come on Max I’ve seen the way you look at her, I bet you let her walk out of here without her coat so you had an excuse just to see her again.”
“Molly I ran after her I tried to…damn am I that transparent?”
“Like glass, but you’ve got the sweetest heart I’ve ever seen and that’s why I love you now give me that coat and I’ll make sure she gets it.”
“It’s no bother Molly she lives right by me. I can do it.”
“Max.”
I can see her pleading with me through her horn rimmed glasses to let this go, but I can’t. I have to see her again.
“Whoa look at the time! Don’t I have to be in court for the Rannish case at two?”
“You’re asking to get hurt Max, she just got divorced.”
I give her a kiss on the cheek and assure her that everything will be fine as I rush out the door.
As I drive to the courthouse I think of Molly’s warning, but it’s too late I have to see her again.
I need to see her again.
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