Here’s just a little background info. It’s after Departure, but Tess wasn’t pregnant, so Max wasn’t looking for his son. And he never did the dirty with Tess. But Alex is dead, unfortunately. Just read on and you will see how this goes...
Disclaimer: I don’t own a thing, unfortunately.
I Will Remember You
Dear Journal,
There were times when me and Max used to joke about what we would do if one of us died. I would always tell him that I would cry a few hours and then I would be over it. And his response was that if he ever died he would come back and haunt me. And then I asked if I died if he would ever get over it, and his response was no. He told me that if I died that a part of him would die and that he would never be the same. And that if I died he would have to die to be with me. It’s sounds so Romeo and Juliet like, that it’s almost funny. And then when he would say that we would just laugh it off and go on with our life. But the truth is if he ever died then I would never be the same. I wouldn’t be whole without him, it would be like a part of me would be missing. I just prayed that I would never have to deal with that sort of thing.
Max closed Liz’s journal, a single tear slid down his cheek. Only one, compared to the millions that he had cried earlier that day, and then the millions more earlier that week.
It had happened last week. It had been a sunny day in August, the kind that she had always loved. She was as beautiful as ever in her favorite jeans and her usual tank top shirt. Max had been breathless at the sight of her, as always.
He wasn’t sure how it had happened, yet he knew in his mind that he remembered every single detail. He relived the whole thing in his dreams every single night. And he always would.
At the mere thought of it Max closed his eyes and let the memories of that day flow through him.
~
“Max, it’s a beautiful day, come on lets go somewhere, do something, get away from this place. It’s such a bore.” Liz said as her and Max were walking down Main Street hand in hand.
“Ok then, where do you want to go?” Max asked chuckling at Liz and her ideas.
“Let’s go to the dessert we can bring a blanket and look at the stars, like we do here but the sky will be so much clearer.” Liz said excitedly waving her hands around her head. Causing Max to laugh.
“What?” Liz asked as Max was converging from fits of laughing.
“Nothing, you just reminded me of Maria there. And as for the star gazing thing, doesn’t it have to be dark, it’s noon right now.” Max said straightening up.
“Yeah, but we can always do something else in the meantime.” Liz said suspiciously.
“Like what?” Max asked curious as to what she had in mind.
“Rock climbing.” Liz said, laughing, she had known what Max had been thinking.
She ran off down the street towards his car.
“Men!” She yelled laughing, with Max close behind her.
~
Max wiped away the tears as he remember what had brought about that fateful end. If only he had said no, if only he had suggested that they do something else. If only he could have done something. Yet somehow he knew that he couldn’t have done anything, but it still didn’t keep him from beating himself up over it.
Max got up and took the journal that Liz’s parents had given him after her funeral and put it on his dresser. He knew no one would mess with it, because they knew how much it meant to him. It was all he had left of her, besides the memories.
~
“Max, I wanted to give you something.” Nancy had suddenly appeared by Max, where he had been with Isabel and his parents.
She held out Liz’s journal to him. It was beautiful, just the kind of thing that Liz deserved to write in. He gingerly took it from her reveling in the soft leather.
Liz had always writen in her journal, and that was the final breaking point for Max, he broke down and started to cry. The first time he had cried since it had happened.
“Thank you, Mrs. Parker.” Isabel said for Max, she knew how much he was hurting.
~
Max hadn’t done much that week. He had mostly stayed in his room and read Liz’s journal. It was filled with her thoughts and her feelings. It was almost too much for him to bear.
Suddenly there was a knock on his door. He looked up and saw Isabel standing in the doorway.
“Hey.” He said his voice breaking, he hadn’t really said that much that week.
“Hey, little brother. How are you holding up?” She asked. She had been really worried about him.
“How do you expect me to be holding up? The person that I love just died, how would you feel if that happened to you?” Max asked.
“Don’t you dare go there! How could you be so selfish? I had to watch them bury Alex not so long ago, so don’t go and give me crap about not know how you feel!” Isabel yelled and then stormed out. She knew she shouldn’t have blown up like that but it just hurt that he thought she didn’t know how he felt.
Max automatically felt sorry for what he had done to Isabel, but yet she still didn’t really know how he felt. Yeah she had loved Alex, but not the same way he had love Liz.
Altough he didn’t want to he replayed more of that day in his mind.
~
“Come on Max, you are the slowest person I know!” Liz yelled from ten feet above Max. He was slow, he just didn’t know he was that slow.
“Well I’m saving my energy!” Max lied, he really was going as fast as he could.
“Liar!” Liz laughed, Max laughed with her.
They had been climbing for a few hours now and it was starting to get dark.
“Liz it’s getting dark. We should start to go back” Max shouted to Liz who was now even further above him.
“Nonsense.” Liz said and she kept on climbing.
“Liz if we turn back now we will still have enough light to make it back to the bottom.” Max had yelled again, but either Liz couldn’t hear him or she was ignoring him.
~
“Max! There are some people here to see you! Do you want to see them?” Max was shaken from his memories by his mother yelling at him from downstairs.
“Not really!” He yelled back. He wasn’t exactly in the mood to see anyone at the moment.
He figured that his mom had told the people that he didn’t want to see them. But then there was a knock on his door.
“I said that I didn’t want to see anyone.” He said not even turning around to see who it was.
“Max.” A soft voice said. It was Maria, but not the usual Maria. She hadn’t been herself ever since Liz’s death.
“Maria, what do you want?” Max asked. He had turned around now and gone to sit on his bed. He hadn’t really talked to Maria since the funeral, and even then they hadn’t talked long.
“Max, I’m worried about you. In fact we all are.” Maria said. She had been taking the first steps to getting over Liz’s death, yet Max hadn’t even been trying.
“How touching.” Max said he wasn’t in the mood for people to tell him what they thought about how he was acting.
“I know that you aren’t really in the mood to talk to anyone. But if you are you can call me.” Maria asked and she sencerly hoped that he would call.
“Ok.” Max said. He really didn’t know what else to say.
“Well then, I’m going to go.” Maria said then she left without even saying goodbye.
Max sighed and then let himself remember how it had all happened.
~
“Wow Max, would you just look at it up here!” Liz exclaimed as soon as she reached the top. Max was still about ten feet below her.
“I would if I could.” Max yelled up at her.
Liz laughed. Max always loved to listen to her laugh. Which is why he always tried so hard to make her.
“Max, it’s kind of dark!” Liz yelled again when he was just five feet from the top.
“Yeah that’s what I said earlier.” Max said out of breath. He had been pushing himself harder to make it to the top faster.
“I can’t even see what’s two feet in front of me.” Liz said loudly, it sounded to Max like she was farther away than she had been before.
“Liz stay in one spot, you don’t know where there might be a cliff.” Max yelled, or at least he tried to, he was so out of breath that he couldn’t get any words out.
“What did you say Ma-” Liz said but she was cut off by a sound of rocks crumbling and then a short and sudden scream.
Max used what was left of his strength and made it to the top in record time. But when he got there he was all alone.
~
Max had tried to use his powers but it had been useless she wasn’t going to come back.
~
The funeral had been beautiful. There had been white roses everywhere, Liz’s favorite. Maria had even sang one of Liz’s favorite songs, I Will Remember You.
Everyone was there. There was so many people. Max had been touched knowing that Liz had been a part of so many people’s life.
It had been a closed casket. Max didn’t blame them for it. But he didn’t cry. He didn’t cry until Mrs. Parker had given him Liz’s journal.
~
Max didn’t do anything after he replayed everything in his head. He just sat there on his bed staring at his window, expecting to see Liz’s dark haired head to suddenly appear waiting for him to let her in so they could talk. But it never happened.
It was over. He could now come to terms to what happened. She was dead. She was never going to come back. He knew he would never be the same. But he had to go on. Liz would have wanted him to.
He got up and turned on his radio then he went to get the phone. He had an important phone call he had to make to Maria, she would be his rock in all of this. She would know how he felt. And then later he would have a long talk with his sister.
And just as Maria’s phone was ringing I Will Remember You came on the radio. A sure sign that everything was going to be okay.
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard
But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories
(I Will Remember You- Sarah McLachlan)
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I'm a girl on the verge of a nervous breakdown
I'm all messed up
Baby all cause of you
I can't sleep I went to deep
I'm a girl on the verge of a major meltdown
* Girl On The Verge- Sarah Hudson *
I'm all messed up
Baby all cause of you
I can't sleep I went to deep
I'm a girl on the verge of a major meltdown
* Girl On The Verge- Sarah Hudson *