
Title: I'm Not Afraid
Author: Crashdown_51
E-Mail: Torch_jo@yahoo.com
Rating: MATURE may turn into ADULT; haven't decided
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Roswell characters. Detective Dominic "Donny" Roma is my only property


Summary: Liz get's a new power that allows her to get premonitions from touching people. With her new ability she was able to save a local woman's life with Max's help, but when she got a premonition of her life in danger along with her Max. Michael, and Isabel, it was already too late. Now her and Max are prisoners inside of a place Max never imagined himself back in, The White Room.
Notes: During "Graduation", transcript from Crashdown site.
Banner: by Babilou
Preface
‘Are you telling me you just saw the future?’
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Chapter 1
Quotes: From "Graduation"
Song: Edge Of The Ocean by Ivy
There's a place I dream about
Where the sun never goes out
And the sky is deep and blue.
Won't you take me there with you.
Ohhh, we can begin again.
Shed our skin, let the sun shine in.
At the edge of the ocean
We can start over again.
shaa nah nah nah nah nah nah
sha nah nah
sha nah nah
shaa nah nah nah nah nah nah
sha nah nah
sha nah nah
There's a world I've always known
Somewhere far away from home
When I close my eyes I see
All the space and mystery
Ohhh, we can begin again
Shed our skin, let the sun shine in
At the edge of the ocean
We can start over again
sha nah nah nah nah nah nah
sha nah nah
sha nah nah
sha nah nah nah nah nah nah
sha nah nah
sha nah nah
Oohhh, we can begin again
Shed our skin, let the sun shine in
At the edge of the ocean
We can start over again
At the edge of the ocean
we can start over again
sha nah nah nah nah nah nah
sha nah nah
sha nah nah
sha nah nah nah nah nah nah
sha nah nah
sha nah nah
The Crashdown
‘I'm not religious, but I've been to church. I know right from wrong. And I know it's wrong to benefit in any way from someone else's passing. But I won't deny that Tess' death has freed me. Like a dark shadow passed over the sun before the light came flooding back. It's a brand new day, full of possibilities and hope. I haven't felt like that in a long... long time. It's different for Max. He lost more than his son. He lost a sense of direction to his life, a sense of purpose. He puts up a brave front, but... I know.’
“What're you still doin' here? Got it hot for some local waitress?“ Liz asks as she sees Max lower his head for a moment and then look back at her with a forced smile. How she hated seeing him like that. Defeated. It was definitely a character that didn’t suit him well.
“That's the rumor. ...Have you heard from Northwestern yet?” Max answers, changing the subject to a lighter to be less obvious of his depression.
“Still waiting...” Liz answers, lowering her head. In reality, she hadn’t really noticed that her acceptance letters haven’t arrived, unlike her father, who was practically glued to the mailbox whenever it was time for the mail to arrive.
“You must be nervous.” Max added taking a sip from his coffee cup. He had been sitting up at the counter for about four hours and been getting constant refills of black coffee laced with Tabasco sauce, by his fifth cup he started to sip the coffee instead of swallowing it quickly. She wondered if he was using his powers to warm it back up and then looked around and saw that the place was practically deserted which was safe for him to do so.
“...I'm trying to handle the whole college acceptance thing with grace and aplomb.“ Liz replied finally hearing his question through all her random thoughts.
“'Aplomb'?” Max repeated with a smile. Liz was definitely smart, as he should know since they were in practically every A.P. class together that West Roswell High had to offer. He remembered when they were back at Michael’s place and she told him to stop pretending that he didn’t know what they were studying, he replied to her that ‘it was all a mystery’, just as Liz was to him. Always surprising him with something new that made him fall more in love with her.
“Yeah...” Liz blushed in embarrassment as she bit on her lower lip “…it's an SAT word that I can't get out of my head. It's slowly driving me crazy.”
“Liz.” Max called out seeing her head snap up at the sound of her name. “What if I came with you to Northwestern?” Max offers with hoe in his eyes. He knew they both had great chances into going to college, but he never actually considered going given the circumstances that haunted them. But now to actually see Liz striving to continue living a normal life, he couldn’t help but wanting one too…with her beside him and all she had to do was say ‘yes’ but he noticed how Liz hesitated to answer and knew he was about to hear the opposite of what he was hoping for.
“Max... if you think that's something that you seriously think you could or would do, then fine. We'll... we'll talk about it. But otherwise... please don't put me through the whole emotional roller coaster?” Liz pleaded. Max looked down at his coffee and nodded, understanding why she would hesitate.
The Next Night
‘The trouble with making plans for the future... even when you can see the future... Is that fate has a way of intervening... and upsetting 'the best laid plans of mice and men.' Robert Burns, 1785. That was on the SAT, too.’
“So, you're clairvoyant now?” Maria asked confused as well as surprised as they walked back to wait for Michael to cook up their orders. Liz had briefly gone over the details of last nights’ bizarre events, but didn’t really let the information sink in since Liz told her over the phone at two o’clock in the morning while she was still half asleep.
“I'm not clairvoyant. It only happened once.” Liz said with a modest smile.
“All right, do you think you can tell me what's going to happen between me and Space Boy?“ Maria pouted anxiously as she held her order pad and pen closely to her in anticipation that Liz had the power to foresee the path to their drawbridge relationship. Then Michael came up to the order window and dropped the small basket of on the steel counter, looking back and forth at them with a skeptical frown before returning to the grill.
“It's probably beyond my capabilities.” Liz answered trying to keep a stern look without breaking into a laugh.
“Yeah. Tell me about it. Well... at least... we'll always have each other, right?” Maria asked with a hint of panic in her voice.
“Yeah, of course we will.” Liz answered taken back by the unexpected question of doubt. She took her order to her table passing Kyle along the way as well as the smell of sewer that engulfed him as he finished up his lunch, making sure she commented on the horrible stench as she walked past him. When she turned to head back for her Orbit Rings, Liz's dad comes into the room from the kitchens swinging aqua door holding up a letter and suddenly Liz couldn’t breath knowing exactly what he held in his hand was about to change the rest of her life as soon as she opened it.
“From Northwestern University.” Her father breaks the worried silence and steps forward a little seeing Liz was paralyzed at the sight of the letter.
“An acceptance letter?” Kyle asks watching the whole scene with sadness.
“Well, either that, or a dig letter.” Liz replied still hesitating to take the letter from her dad’s hand. The whole nervous occasion was interrupted by Michael, who suddenly rung the order bell. Liz and her Dad both turn to give Michael a look.
“Sorry.” Michael apologized for the intrusion after receiving piercing looks from Liz and her dad and then tossed another basket on the steel counter. “Your orbit rings are ready.” Michael announces before walking back to the grill. Liz's dad takes a deep sigh and hands the letter to Liz. As she reaches to take it, she touches his hand and has another flash and sees it is an acceptance letter.
“I've been accepted!!” She cheers as she turns to look at Kyle.
“You haven't even opened it yet!” Her dad says with an amused laugh on Liz’s positive aspect on the situation. Liz mentally kicks herself for almost exposing her new power and looks cautiously at her dad to see if he suspected her but saw he waited anxiously, relieved her cover was not blown she starts to open the letter, pulls out the folded letter and begins to read. Focusing on one word, ‘Congratulations’.
“I did, I got in!” She exclaimed as her father rushed to hug her while Maria and Kyle looked on with different sadnesses.
‘One of my men picked this out of the rubble a couple of nights ago.’
‘Is she the... thing... that destroyed our base?‘
‘Possibly.’
‘There are several candidates.‘
‘Can the Special Unit... deal with this?‘
‘The Special Unit no longer exists...’
‘Neither does this meeting...’
‘Right. When this is over... these creatures will never bother anyone ever again.’
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Michael's Apartment
Song: Inside You by Stabbing Westward
“Congratulations.” Max congratulates breaking their kiss with Liz sitting on his lap as they made out on the couch.
“You said that already.” Liz said with a smile.
“Oh.” Max answer and continues to kiss her.
“But I like the way you say it.” Liz adds making Max smile feeling confident by Liz’s confession.
“You 'college' girls.” Max comments.
“Hey, we wanna be loved for our minds, not our bodies.” Liz comments with a playful attitude as Max just smiled and nodded. “Are you serious? You know, about wanting to come with me?“
“I've never been more serious.” Max answers brushing her hair back. He then moves his other hand up under her shirt to caress her waist and back. “What a great... mind... you have.” Max flirts feeling Liz’s body coat with Goosebumps at his touch.
“Oh, I don't think that's my mind.” Liz informs him as she moves her hands around his neck. “But keep looking, I'm sure you'll find it.”
“Really.” Max answered taken back by her husky tease.
“Uhm hum.” Liz answers as she shifts her positions making Max's playful expression turn serious. “Remember I can tell the future? And tonight... your future... looks very... very... bright.” Liz advises coyly as she slowly pushes Max back into the cushions.
He closes his eyes as she bends down to kiss him, sliding his hands further up her back feeling the bumps of her bra as he brushed his hands up and down her back. Liz baked away from the kiss as Max slid his hands out as her body got out of range and then looked at her stunned when she gave him the most seductive smile she had ever given him and raised her arms behind her head as strip of her stomach was revealed by the movement. Max took his cue and lifted her shirt from the edges of her black cotton top above her head and tosses it carelessly on the side of them and sits back in admiration as he marveled at her never before seen black cotton bra. Liz couldn’t help but smile at his curiously innocent gaze and took the next step of taking his hands and placing them on her breasts. Max seemed almost frightened or more nervous than he had ever looked as he just held his hand on her for a moment before actually tightening his grip causing Liz to moan at the touch as she closed her eyes enjoying the feeling of Max touching her, knowing deep down inside after all her flashes that he had desired to explore her as much as he could.
“Liz I think we should stop now before I lose the strength to stop myself later.” Max advised as Liz watched as his Adam’s apple bobbed up and down from the heated swallow he took that caused his growing erection to throb anxiously against his jeans.
“Max, I don’t want you to stop.” Liz confesses and then hooks her arm behind her to gather her loose hair and flipped it between her shoulder and neck as she unfastened her bra and slid it off shyly, feeling him grip tighter at her waist as she sat half naked right in front of him. Liz blushed shyly as she bit her lip, letting her hair cover the side of her face, but then felt Max’s finger tuck the shielding strands behind her ear and then his hand slide behind her head pulling her down into a kiss as his hands experienced the softness of her bare back and the brushes of her breasts against the skin of his neck. He then felt the soft touches of her fingertips trying to pull his maroon shirt over his head and helped her by pulling on the collar of his shirt and swooping it off, tossing the shirt on the side over her shirt. Liz smiled at his chiseled chest, tracing every cut with her fingertips, remembering how Michael had seemed fit but the night Michael stayed over, while Max and Maria were on their quest to find Enigma, he had slept without his shirt and remembered thinking that Max had definitely won her vote on best physique. Not that there was anything wrong with Michael, but feeling Max’s body was a definite turn on.
“What are you thinking?” Max asked noticing she dazed off still looking at his chest though.
“Oh, uh, just glad that you and Michael don’t work out together.” Liz confessed snapping back into reality.
“You’re thinking about Michael right now?” Max asked penciled.
“No. No. I was just admiring your body and…”
“So…you like my body?” Max asked curiously watching Liz lower her head as she bit her lip in embarrassment and nodded ‘yes’.
“Do you like my body?” Liz asked softly feeling a little self-conscious. Max smiled and slid one hand across her back lifting them up with his knees and used his free hand for support on the couch seat cushion as he lowered her on her back and stretched himself over her.
“I ‘love’ your body.” Max admits seeing Liz blush as Max leaned on his side to get another glance of it and then rested on top of her again.
“You haven’t seen ‘all’ of my body.” Liz whispered huskily in his ear making all the hairs on the back of his neck stand up.
I feel your lips
I taste your skin
I need to know
I need to feel you from within
Max sat up and began unbuttoning her pants with trembling fingers and then removed them with panties and all, admiring her heated V-shape as he began to tackle his own pants and boxers and kicking them to the side. Liz laid wide-eyed at the size of his arousal before he climbed back on top of her, positioning himself between her. Max sensed her tense up and looked up at her to see if she was getting sudden regrets but his assumptions were washed away, by Liz’s lips that began to intensify the kiss she sprung on him. Liz moaned louder at the feeling of Max’s arousal rubbing against her heat, instinctively causing her hips to lift up closer to him.
as your blood burns through my skin
I feel complete
I breathe you in
it's where you end and I begin
if only I could stay here... forever
‘Ah.’ Max mouthed with no sound at the feeling and then adjusted his head past her wet folds. That warm feeling was enough to send him off the roof, but he then felt Liz stir underneath him anxiously lifting her hips again. “Don’t Liz. You’re going to hurt more that way.” Max advised as he placed his hand on her tummy seeing Liz’s pleading expression and couldn’t resist anymore. He hooked her leg with his hand and tucked the other under her neck and then looked down at their intimate connection before he looked into her sparkling urging eyes and pushed past her resisting muscles, causing her to moan louder than he had ever heard her or than he had ever made her.
so much to tell you
so much to give you
so much to confide
now that I'm inside you
Max trembled at the feeling of being inside her, breathing heavy in her ear and kissed the crook of her neck as he felt her plant soft butterfly kisses on his shoulder as she shook underneath him. “You okay?” He asked resting on his elbows as he kissed her lips, getting a nod from her and began rocking back and forth inside of her. He started off slow, but the sensation of going deeper inside her drove him wild causing him to increase his speed. Liz lifted her chin in the air feeling Max lips and tongue on it and trail down her neck, noticing how tiny she appeared underneath him.
we are flesh
we are one
so why do I
feel so much guilt for what I've done?
as your blood burns through my skin
I feel release
I breathe you in
it's where you end and I begin
if only I could stay here... forever
so much to teach me
so much to show me
so much to give me
so much to tell me
now that I'm inside
now that I'm inside
“You okay? You okay?” He asked repeatedly again getting another nod from her as they began to kiss more deeply and he rocked more rhythmically in her.
inside you
inside you
inside you
Max then felt her shivering walls about to erupt driving him to move faster and harder to hear her scream in pleasure and that he did. Her moan spilled into his mouth and pooled with his as he caved in right after.
so much to tell you
I'm inside you
so much to show you
I'm inside you
so much to give you
I’m inside you
so much to confide
now that I'm inside you
“You okay?” He asked again feeling Liz shivering uncontrollably underneath him with her legs and hand coiling around him tightly as she struggled to regain her breath.
“Mmm hmm.” Liz answered as tears streamed down the sides of her face. “I wanted this for so long.” Liz confessed as Max kissed her.
“You don’t know how long I’ve wanted you…needed you like this.” Max admitted as he brushed the beads of sweat off her forehead as she cupped his cheeks.
“Well, now you have me.” Liz confessed as they hugged.
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Liz’s Balcony
Max climbed over the ladder and turned back to see Liz coming up behind him. When she lifted her leg to hop over she winced at her soreness between her legs and felt Max’s arms wrap around her. “Liz, I can make it go away.” Max offered swaying side to side with her.
“I don’t want the feeling to go away.” Liz admitted as Max sat on the lawn chair and pulled her to sit on his lap. “I want to remember that it was you inside me that caused this feeling.” Liz said running her fingers through his hair and kissing him lightly on the lips. As they kiss, Liz suddenly has flashes of Max, Isabel, Michael, and herself being shot. She sits up gasping while Max looked at her with concerned.
“What?” Max asked.
“We're all going to be killed.” Liz answered frightened.
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So what do you guys think?