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The song's by Santana "Nothing at all"
Chapter 8-
It was only a moment
Breathing in the cold but refreshing air outside on her steps, she Eli walked with a strange comfort in her stomach. She felt as though she actually was looking forward to something in her life when it was just a normal day of her life. The dreams, if they weren’t an eye opener, then they were most definitely blinding her. Ever since she had woken up that morning everything seemed a little bit brighter, too bright in her opinion. She put on her dark sunglasses.
Nothing felt the same. Everything felt off or misplaced. It was the most difficult feeling to explain, but since when were feelings ever easy to describe? Maybe she just needed to get back into the roll of things. She couldn’t remember the last time she had gone to work, and according to De she had been out for a whole twenty- four hours. Besides being cold all the time, she felt fine. She didn’t feel ill of faint; she just felt… a little off.
She swore and shook her head when she found herself looking for Zan. She didn’t even know the guy and she was acting like a freaking schoolgirl hoping to get a glimpse of him. She didn’t know what the hell was wrong with her, but according to De she just needed to get laid.
She couldn’t answer De if she and her hot mystery man had actually done the deed. For all she knew they could have, because the only thing she could remember from the other night was that one moment they were in the hallway fighting and the next she and he were making out with no other passion she’d ever felt in her life. As soon as she had woken up, she had felt cold and completely alone. She still felt that way.
Pulling the coat even tighter against her body as she walked down New York’s streets, Eli occasionally felt her eyes wondering around her in search for something… for a stranger.
“Yo, Eli!” Rachel yelled from across the street with a wave. Eli smiled and waited for her to cross the street. She had to laugh when Rachel yelled and hit the cab’s hood that almost ran over her in the process.
“You look’n to be road kill Rach,” Eli laughed.
“Speaking of road kill, you look like crap Eli,” Rachel returned lightly, “Where the hell have you been girl? You don’t call. You don’t write.”
Eli rolled her eyes as she walked into work with the shorthaired brunette. “Yo De, Ms.
Thang finally decided to show up,” she shouted over the isle to Dee who currently had her leather boots propped up on the counter.
“About time,” she snorted, “What have another run in with Mr. Bump and grind?”
“Shut it Dee,” Eli reminded as she started to take off her coat but on second thought left it on.
“What’s she talkin’ about?” Rachel asked while wiping the counter down.
“Nothing…” Eli started.
“Oh you know the guy that Eli was up against the freezer with the other day,” Dee chimed. Rachel laughed and raised an eyebrow..
“You go all the way?” Rachel asked interested.
“
Hit it and quit it ain’t my thing Rach. You know that,” Eli reminded tiredly as she hopped up on the counter and laid flat of her back with her feet dangling off the side of the table.
“Oh, I forgot ta tell ya! You’ll never guess who I found yesterday. Eric Shunnings… you know him Rachel. Remember he’s that guy who pierced his….”
Liz didn’t here a word, as her eye grew heavy. ‘Damn not again… not here’ she thought as she felt herself slipping towards sleep. But the more heated her body became, the less she cared about falling asleep at work. She could practically feel his hand already on her hips slipping under jeans before she had even fallen asleep.
“G*d I’ve missed you,” he whispered hotly against her ear as his hands fell southward helpless to his want. He groaned loudly when she sucked on his neck.
Growling animalistically, Zan with no patience grabbed her and pressed her against the wall as his large hand came up to squeeze her right breast and molding her flesh as if it the very self belonged to him and him alone. Amara made a loud noise as she was pressed up against the hallway. G*d she could here people from the other hall only a mere few feet away from them. If someone even turned the hall they’d surely be caught and all hell would be brought upon them. But it seemed to only turn Zan on more as he impatiently grabbed her thigh and brought it high to his hip and thrusted his knee in between her legs possessingly. She moaned helplessly as her dark lusted eyes met his.
He cursed as it wasn’t enough time to do the things he wanted to do to her. Clutching his shirt, she threw her head back and moaned as his knee moved and grinded against her trying to subside the treacherous ache. She pressed herself against him harder and grinded her hips into his hardness. He growled painfully; his hands framing her body and leaning against the wall for support to trap her into his reach.
Taking her lips possessively with a blow and crash he sucked and devoured her. Intaking everything she had to offer, Zan painfully pushed into her needing to take comfort in her. There wasn’t enough time to do what he wanted with the beauty. This was what got him through the nights with out her, without her warmth during the dry days.
“Amara,” he whispered hotly against her as he warmed and wetted her lips with his own, “I can’t…” he begged before clasping her hands and bringing it to the place he most severely needed the most. She squeezed and together they moaned as satisfaction grew through out their bodies. The sweet agony poured and relieved them of their burden.
They lingered and held tightly against each other’s sweaty bodies. Perspiration remained on Zan’s forehead as his breath continued irregularly. His head buried in her shoulder, with shaky hands he lifted her head with his thumb and kissed her with an impossible softness for a king.
“I wish…” he started with sad longing. She stopped him with a soft finger against his lips.
“I know,” she assured him knowing all to will what he wished. She wished it to.
“Zan,” Rath’s voice called from not far from where they now were. He stood straightly and shakily kissed her one final time. God knew when the next time he’d be able touch her again.
“Eli!”
She broke the air with a gasp, as she shot straight up from the table alarmed and breathless.
“You okay?” Rachel asked watching her carefully.
“I told Rach not to wake you up unless she wanted some groping or a bitch slap from you,” De remarked with a sly smile not the least bit worried about her best friend.
“Shut up De!” Rachel returned angrily as she looked back at Eli with worry clearly in her eyes.
“Oh, would you relax already! It’s just one of those long, hot fantasies that she’s been havin’ lately. Its not called life-threatening Rachael. It’s called
not getting any,” De remarked.
Eli, finally done with dealing with her friend, grabbed her bag and jumped off the counter towards the front door.
“Eli, where are ya going?” Rachel yelled behind her, “What do ya want me to tell Erica?”
“You’ll think of somethin’,” Eli yelled back before escaping the stifling grocery store.
“What is up wit’ that girl?” she asked back at De. De just shrugged with confusion and went back to work.
She heard her door close as she walked inside the apartment while reading her mail and throwing half of it in the trash. Taking a big stretch as she pulled off her black “I’m with the band” t-shirt off her body, Eli yawned as she was about to climb back into bed. Screw work, responsibility… screw it.
She groaned into her pillow when she heard the knock at the door. She was grumpy and tired, so whoever was behind that door was going get a mouth full if she could help it.
Hearing the slamming on the door again she cried, “I’m coming… I’M COMING!”
Clutching the door knob and swinging the door open loudly with little patience, Eli started, “What the hell do you want…”
He smiled crookedly with the familiar arrogance as he leaned on the doorframe. For a moment she’d forgotten to breathe until she saw his eyes drift downward. Refusing the itch to cover herself up, she pushed her chin up straight and stared him dead in the eye with no reaction but perhaps hate and annoyance that secretly were contradicting her current fast heartbeat.
“Well?” she asked again with bravado.
He smiled evilly and said, “Well, I thought it was pretty easy to figure out
what I wanted sugar.”
She got chills down her spin at his cockiness and swallowed hard when her own eyes began to wonder downward as he crossed his arms. They bulged with every movement he made intensely. She knew how it felt being wrapped in those arms. G*d she knew.
“You gonna invite me in or what princess?” he raised an eyebrow.
“I don’t know. Are you gonna behave?” she protested.
“Can’t make any promises,” his eyes glancing up and down her body again only tp look her dead in the eye shamelessly.
Never breaking she stated, “You gonna answer my questions about what the hell’s been going on lately?”
“Baby… I’ll do
anything you want me to,” licking his lips.
A heavy sigh escaped her lips as she opened the door for him with little care at his presence on her face. He walked in with his heavy boots hitting the floor while taking a good look around. His smile grew bigger when his eyes landed on the bed. Before he got any
imaginative ideas, Eli warned, “Don’t even think about it.” He chuckled; he had a pretty good imagination.
Grabbing a hoodie, Eli pulled it on and closed her eyes as she felt his own pair on her. Did he ever stop watching her?
“So you wanna tell me what’s going on?” she retorted with a strong tone and crossed arms in front of Zan.
“I think ya already know the answer to that one
sweetheart,” he returned cruelly.
“No, I don’t. All I know is that I keep haven’ these jacked up dreams that don’t make sense to the least,” she told him back with the lack of calmness she would have liked.
“The dreams are real,” he stated simply. She stared at him dumb founded, not moving at him an inch. Did he actually expect her to fall for that?
“This ain’t no game Zan. I want the truth
for once!”
“You already know the truth Amara… you just haven’ trouble rememberen’ is all,” he explained tiredly.
“Are you one of those guys from the psych ward or somethin’? We’re talking about dreams… being real?” she stared at him with an unbelieving smirk thinking he was mad out of his head, “Tell me does this psycho babble work on most girls?”
“You already know the truth Amara… you know it’s real. You’re repressin’ it.”
“No… I,” she started but stopped herself.
“How else could you explain us havein’ the same dreams at the same time? I dream what you dream Amara…” he tried. How was he going to explain this to her? Remembering past lives from dreams? He doubted that she’d buy it, but he had to try.
“Stop calling me Amara!” she yelled stubbornly.
“Eli, you know it’s true. I bet you even wake up think’n I’m right beside you don’t you… when’s you wake up, you feel cold, and when I’m around… it’s like the suns beaming on ya?” he asked sincerely. He knew these things all too well.
How could she not? The dreams, they felt so real as absurd as it sounded. It felt more real than anything else in her life. And though she’d never admit to it, she did constantly wish for him “I can’t remember… I’ve tried but everything’s so vague…” she whispered.
“What do you want to know? Ask, and I’ll tell you Eli,” he promised.
She sighed and gazed upwards at him with knowing eyes “We had an affair,” she stated simply. He watched her carefully before nodding slowly with strange tormented eyes as he sat himself across the table silently.
“Did you leave her?” she asked.
He sat quietly and sighed with no energy left inside knowing she was talking about Ava, “No.”
“Did you leave me?”
“No,” answering again honestly.
“You… left me,” he whispered strongly.
“Why?”
Never looking away from her eyes, he looked her dead in the eye strongly, “You tell me. I’ve been wonder’n about it myself”
“Did you love her… your wife?”
“I suppose so Princess… I suppose so,”
“Then why me?”
He sat quietly and taking a moment to think, “It was an infatuation,”
“For what?”
“Of you” he answered honestly.
“The moment I saw you, I knew I had to have you,” he continued.
“Why?” she breathed.
“Because nothing’s more tempting than forbidden fruit,
peaches,”
He looked her dead in the eye as she stood quietly in the room. She wanted to ask more simply because she had so many question for him, but the thing was that she didn’t know if she was ready to know the truth. Supposedly the dreams were real, and that only seemed to be the beginning of things. She had so many questions but no words to ask them as confusing thoughts soon grew to anger. Why was this happening to her?
“I… no, this is wrong. All of this is wrong. It’s a mistake. I don’t… I don’t,” her breath rose dramatically; she gripped for anything to stable her body from falling down to the ground.
“Hey…hey,” he whispered as his strong arms were once across the room were now holding her safely with his warm breath caressing her hair. It seemed to calm her, so he stayed there.
It was weird in this human body… half human body he felt as if he had an obligation to protect her. But how could he protect such a stubborn strong woman as Eli?
He was the one that felt week in
her arms.
“Amara,” he whispered with a promise, “Do you want to remember… I can help you remember.”
“Yes, I want to… I demand to remember,” she lifted her head from his chest and held it high with a strong gaze into his eyes.
‘Such a fitting for a queen’ he thought to himself with calming eyes. “How far are you willing to get it?” he asked cautiously.
“As far as it takes,” she returned. He took along breath before taking a step farther away from her heat. His eyes… they weren’t dormant, but they held no passion or anger inside of them. It was something else, something similar to exhaustion or helplessness. It was an odd look for the man that glowed arrogance and wildness.
Slowly he walked towards the bed and whispered gruffly, “Come here Eli.” With little hesitation Zan reached and pulled off his shirt slowly to expose his bronzed chest. He looked up at her expectantly and carefully at her.
She didn’t move. Was she, the stubborn Elizabeth Parker, afraid to know the truth. She denied it, and put up her regular façade, but still her feet didn’t move… not one inch.
“I ain’t gonna hurt you princess.
I’s never could… now, come here,” he whispered with fascinated eyes as he watched her walk towards him slowly and he could swear to G*d in a primal way. His hand rose to her waist and under the hoodie and caressed the small soft skin. Without even glancing for permission, Zan rolled off the big sweatshirt off her body. He smiled to himself as the proverbial feeling that he could do anything and everything to her body that he wished. Hmm… maybe later, she’d asked to know the truth and that was exactly what he’d show her, and the only way he knew to show her was buy intimate contact. The more intimacy the easier it would be to connect with her. She’d see and understand everything in moment, and then it was all down hill from there.
She closed her eyes before she felt his hand caress up her shoulder and under her bra strap. With a gentle pull the small string fell off, as she had to swallow a whimper. She heard his breathing grow faster as it hit the surrounding air. Each breath beat against her ears. There was no other sound in the room but his breathing to her.
Swallowing hoarsely Zan found his voice gruffly, “Closer.”
When she didn’t respond, he growled and with one thrusting movement he grabbed her in his hands and positioned her on top of him. Finally acquiescing, she breathed shakily and straddled his lap gracefully.
‘G*d there was nothing more erotic than watching her straddle him he thought to himself as he tried to get his shit together. His hands took on a life of there own as her other bra strap fell from her shoulder. “Keep your eyes closed,” he ordered quietly adjusting himself as much as possible from the current uncomfortableness of pants.
She wasn’t into it as much as he was. She still didn’t trust him as he could feel her fighting inside herself to not let go. She still had doubts about him. Sighing heavily his hand gripped her arms and rubbed them softly releasing the built up energy inside of her. If he was going to show her what had happened, she was going to have to open up. And right now she was damn near tight. She moaned at his attempt but still she wasn’t letting him in. She wasn’t letting go.
Eli didn’t notice, but Zan’s eyes caught sight of the glowing markings following his hand on her skin. She really was made for him he swore tightly. The glowing marks that followed his fingertips only happened to an Antarian in heat, and Antarians only did that when they had found the love of their lives. It was so rare in his world, that maybe a handful from his planet had actually been so lucky as to find their soul mates. Antarians married for power and peace, but very rarely did they ever marry for true love. There simply were no words to describe how rare Amara was, how rare it was to find her… again.
Zan’s hand came up to Eli’s head as a final resort and let a flow of calming energy flood her mind. She sucked in the familiar spicy air harshly when the electric anesthesia intoxicated her in its deepest, animalistic form. She couldn’t fight this any more; it was no longer in her hands. She gripped his strong arm and threw her head back before feeling another dream come to life again. His hands holding her safely from falling were the last things she felt before completely blacking out from the present life and beginning to relive the past one. She could already here the music from the dream fill her head as she slowly slipped away. It was to late to go back now.
Walking away from the music that hummed through out the palace and passing by the singer on the form, Zan searched the palace with willful and overbearing motivation. His vains and desires were consuming an immense heat coursing through his body. The craving to be near, inside, and with her could be deprived from him no more. And still the heavy guitar’s melody hit him through his entire body. The music pumped through his chest only making his feeling more intense.
I am a victim of my time
A product of my age
Despite his strong effort, he could not find the small angel in the large and rather vigor crowds, but he could feel her still near... inside, within his body he could feel her, gripping at his gut. Zan made his way swiftly towards one of the kitchens and asked the head servant where she was with much diligence and urgency. G*d he knew it was forbidden. He knew that humans simply did not mix with Antarian blood especially royal blood such as his. He could loose his throne and possibly be exiled for it, but he no longer cared, as rational thoughts seemed to not exist within him any more.
There’s no choosing my direction
I was a holy man but now… but now…
“Your highness… I believe she’s in your bedding quarters preparing your bed to sleep in tonight,” the woman answered honestly. Zan’s heart skipped a beat at the words.
Finding his way up the quarters calmly and inconspicuously, Zan headed for his bedroom with his heart pulsing and rushing boiling blood through his system. The king had already made up his mind. He would have her and she would be his, no matter the cost. He was the Czar of Antar and if he wanted to take her then he would. He dared a fool to try to cross or stop him in his decision.
With all my trials behind me
I am weak in my conviction
And so I walk to try to get away
Building up confidence of a king’s as he walked the long marbled path towards his room, he breathed in the palace’s salty air with the hard steps of his souls hitting the floor as they echoed through the empty hallways. It was almost ghostly how no one was even in eyesight. Zan was sure that his guests were enjoying the festivities downstairs with their cold laughs and fallacious smiles.
Knowing that someday I will finally have to face
The fear that will come from knowing that
The one thing I had left was you
Breathing one final breath into his lungs as he reached his door, he turned the knob with assurance that he would get what he had come for. Zan noticed the dim lights, the heavy air, yes but what he noticed the most about the room was that no one but her was in it. Zan closed the door with so much noise as a whisper, as his eyes fell on Amara. She froze silently in her movements with held breath and parted lips. He could see her eyes helplessly close from where he stood before she looked up at him knowing fully who was there. She could feel his presence; who couldn’t with the strong ora he with held? Couldn’t everyone feel his heat when he entered the room, or was she simply going mad?
He leaned against the wall passively and studied her body carefully. She no longer wore the exotic satin cloth but one of her servant’s gowns, the white that was off the shoulders. He swore to himself as it fell so loosely to the swell of her breast. It was enough to make any man grown and bend helplessly to her will, and how anomalous it was that someone with that power was in servitude. He simply could not understand how it was so.
He swallowed and bathed in the pleasure he’d take in her. Studying her as prey, he watched with dark lighted eyes and slightly parted lips that wore strong hunger and envy in this woman. How was he able to go this long with out her he wondered?
“Forgive me your highness. I did not know you would come to bed so early,” she apologized with quit a strong voice for a slave, never once showing intimidation.
“I did not come to sleep Amara,” he informed her lowly.
And now you’re gone
You were a victim of my crimes
A product of my rage
…You were a beautiful distraction
“All the same your highness, I will be done and out of you’re way in a moment,”
I kept you locked away outside
Let misery provide
And now I am ashamed
“And if I asked you to stay?” he asked impatiently and still in the darkest corner of the room watching her, wanting her.
She stopped again and turned around coldly to face him, “What if I asked the queen if she’d approved?”
He gazed up at her eyes and found pure disobedience in them that turned him on even more so help him, “As king I don’t ask for her approval.”
And so I walk to try to find a space
Where I can be alone to live with my mistakes
“And as a husband?” she inquired boldly. He didn’t answer her for the thought of if it threatened him to feel hesitation and guilt. He swallowed strongly and finally left the wall he was leaning against to begin to tread a slow circle around her with slowness, taunting her with every step.
“Amara… you fight me. Why?” he breathed.
“Of course your highness, I forget my place in servitude,” she returned hotly.
And the fear that will come
From knowing that the one thing
I had left was you
“I’ve never treated you like a slave Amara,”
“You coming here has proven that you do,”
“How does the act of going to my bedroom offend you?”
Is there nothing at all
That I can do to turn your heart…
“I know what you want,” she provoked as she followed every movement around her he took. She wouldn’t admit that he was making her nervous just by the simple look he gave her and the circles around her that were so much like an animal would do before taking it’s prey. She’d never admit to it, not as a slave or a woman.
“What might that be Amara?” his quiet and calm tone only infuriated her temper more. His tone was more like a man speaking to an insolent child, and she would prove that she was no child at all costs this time. She turned her head a mere inch away from his own and looked him dead in the eye as her answer. She even pushed back the thought of retreating from his form. They were so close that she could feel his breath mingle with hers heavily.
“Are you finished with me your highness?” she asked.
Is there nothing to lean on
That could help erase the scars…
“No,” he answered roughly. The hungry king walked behind her and smiled smally as her shoulders were stiff and uneasy. Her fists were clenched into the sides of her dress trying to take control of something she simply could not. This… feeling was too unbearable to fight; it was too passionate to forget, and simply was too tempting to ignore.
She sucked in the hot air sharply as she felt his forehead touch softly against the back of hers and shuddered helplessly when his hot breath hit against her naked neck. How could she stop her erratic breathing or her shaking body? He had barely touched her and she was already at a loss for words.
And I could use a little strength before I fall
Is there nothing at all
“Why wont you give in Amara. That’s all I ask… that’s all I want,” he breathed into her air inflamed with her sweet delicate scent.
And you alone are my obsession
His hand slowly reached for the glow of skin on her shoulder. It tempted him so with such a beautiful color. He had of yet to lay a hand on her, teasing her as much as possible in hopes of her submission. He would get close but not close enough to satisfy the craving inside. But when he could take no more, his thumb grazed momentarily over the warmth of her skin. It was enough to wake her up from this trance he had created inside her.
“I can’t do this,” she breathed. She tried faintly to reach for the door, but he was quicker than she as he blocked her from the door. She had to close her eyes to keep calm as she could now feel his chest heave in exertion against her own.
And so I walk to try to get away
Knowing that someday I will finally have to face
The fear that will come from knowing that
The one thing I had left was you
“Let me go,”
“Never,” he swore taking her lips into his mouth and crashing into her body against the wall. Cravings turning rapidly into needs, Zan grasped her in his arms and groaned when his tongue gained entrance into her mouth.
She moaned carelessly when he pulled her to his body. The warmth in his body soaked into hers as week arms soon grew to week feet. Her body throbbed and begged for more, as she realized now that she had given up the first time she had ever tasted him.
Is there nothing at all
That I can do to turn your heart
Is there nothing to lean on
That could help erase the scars
It was a stolen moment, only a moment the two strangers would both swear later, but who would have ever thought that in one single moment, in one kiss and in one single night spent together in passion, could ever change the world so severely?
In history it is said that most of the results of love are happiness and good fortune, but the king’s love brought down the fall of the entire empire, and if a man ever asks you what broke the peace in Antar and started the iniquitous war, say it was the kiss of the two forbidden lovers that did it so. For nothing was more forbidden than the young king's love for his spirited human slave... Amara.
And I could use a little strength before I fall
Is there nothing at all…
Song: Santana "Nothing at All"