Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 8:48 am
ADDED BY ISLANDGIRL 5 FOR GALEN, AS ALL PARTS WERE POSTED IN SEPARATE THREADS
Series: ...And I Can’t Hide
Episode 1.2ØX: A Darker Sun
Rating: Teen
Summary: Max questions his identity.
Disclaimer: The rights to the characters and situations of Roswell are the property of Warner Brothers, Jason Katims Productions, Twentieth Century Fox, Fox, Regency Television, and Melinda Metz.
Series: ...And I Can’t Hide
Episode 1.2ØX: A Darker Sun
Rating: Teen
Summary: Max questions his identity.
Disclaimer: The rights to the characters and situations of Roswell are the property of Warner Brothers, Jason Katims Productions, Twentieth Century Fox, Fox, Regency Television, and Melinda Metz.
- Leaving the female to her nap, as Doug had suggested, the three trekked out to the dig site. But it offered little to view, either from the original period of use or from the date of its study; if there were any artifacts remaining, they still lay buried. “Yes, I know this place,” said Doug. “Quemaduras—and the pit.” He pointed toward the gaping excavation in the middle. It had shelves jutting out at different depths, the lowest thirty feet below ground level. Evidently the project had been discontinued before completion and left as it was. “The circle of truth was situated in the center, about nine feet down.”
“Circle of truth?”
“This was a holy place of the Mesaliko. A kind of shrine where they opened themselves to receive knowledge from the spirits of their ancestors—or their own imaginations, if you prefer. Nothing extraterrestrial about it.” He sounded disappointed again.
Max was not. Anticipation was swelling in him, and had been ever since they had arrived. Doug was right, no alien artifacts were to be found there, but it did not matter: this was the place he was meant to come. The proof was that everything that had happened—the quarrel with Liz, her sprained ankle, Shellow’s rescue of her, the sergeant’s knowledge of this place—had conspired to bring him there in spite of himself; to bring him where he had to be to receive the revelation, which was now at hand; this he knew, without knowing how. Aware, yet unaware, of what he was doing, he started toward the pit.
The Lodestone began to beep, faintly; this recalled him, and he stepped back. The sound ceased. Evidently, though the site was not one of those on the map, it contained a little of the same energy, the Vallosan energy; if he concentrated for a moment, he could feel its pull, but it was as weak as the signal the Stone had emitted. Perhaps there were many small repositories like this, scattered over the Earth; they might be almost anywhere, and might be responsible for powering all kinds of minor phenomena without anyone ever guessing.
“Did you hear a noise?” Doug asked.
Max feigned innocence. “Noise?”
“Step forward again,” Doug instructed him, with what sounded like true scientist’s curiosity. Max could not do that, could not reveal the presence of the Stone to the others. But what excuse could he make? At that moment, by luck—or some other agent—a welter of dust flew up around them. “Sandstorm!” Doug shouted. “Let’s go back.” He and Swift started off; Max lingered where he was. His time was almost upon him. Doug called to him. “We have to leave!”
“I’m staying.”
“You can’t! It’s not safe!”
“I’ll risk it.”
Doug stared strangely at him, as if he were almost ready to stay too. But Swift drew him on. “Let him git blowed away, if he’s that set on it. All this goo’s prob’ly his doin’ anyhow.” After they had gone several yards, they looked back to see him standing in the eye of the whirlwind untouched, with a circle of calm around him. “See?” said Swift. “What’d I tell you?”
Before they had reached the store, the sky began to dim. “Is it my imagination,” Doug began, “or is it getting—”
“The eclipse!” He had forgotten all about it. “Almanac said one was due.”
For miles around—downtown, at the high school, at the reservation—people stood like store window mannequins as untimely night fell. Liz, the only person of Max’s acquaintance who could have told him precisely when it would happen, was almost the only one sleeping through it.
At the edge of the pit, he turned to the black sun. What was the hour of darkness for others was for him the hour of seeing. He removed his jacket, shirt, and shoes. Barefooted, bare-chested, he climbed down into the excavation, to the heart of it, directly below the space where the holy circle had stood. There he sat cross-legged. Shut his eyes. And saw—
The same thing he had seen with his eyes open: darkness. But a lesser darkness: the blue night sky spread out above him, the desert around him. A girl child was standing with him—naked, as he was; this was the first scene in the sequence of his life on Earth. It was succeeded by a later one, and that by a later; scene upon scene, each supplanting the last more rapidly than the one before; dozens, scores, hundreds of them, catapulting him finally into today. And over them all hung the dark sun, in which he saw Feddin’s face—that is, the face he knew.
Then another face eclipsed it: Coach Clay’s. The mouth opened, the tongue emerged, and a pill was resting on it. For some reason this troubled him; it reminded him of someone else. Who? The face changed—to Doug Shellow’s. That was who it had been; Klima had taken his shape; and he would be with Liz now. But Max could not stop on that account, or on any account; the hour of seeing had arrived.
Liz opened her eyes, and for a few seconds was not sure they were really open. The back room had been dark before, but was darker now. “Why is everything so—” Then she remembered. “The eclipse! And I’m missing it!” She sat up. “Doug? Max?” She got no answer. “They must all be out watching it.” Then she stood. Her ankle pained her, but less than before. She limped to the curtain and peered out.
The shop was dark, as well as empty, except for a light from the museum, showing through the half-open door. She hobbled down to it and pushed it open the rest of the way. And the light— “Oh, my God!” It was the light of a handprint, inches from the floor, and showed up the face it was tattooed on: Sergeant Swift’s. Doug was gone. She knew now who he was. But where was he? Out watching the eclipse with Max. Fear raced through her.
Just then, Max himself was remote from present cares. His vision—the light at the heart of the darkness—had begun. He saw himself, and all his selves—the Vallosans; saw them in all their dimensions, ranging over time and space. In their true form, they looked human-like, but not human—greyer and more leathery. And their home world looked Earth-like, but not like Earth—its sunlight darker, its landscapes narrower. He remembered it from a life or lives past, but someone else’s, not his. Its natives, however, he knew; knew them in himself. If his knowledge of them had needed, sought, and found words, they might have been these:
Isolated. Alone. That’s what I am; what we all are. We Vallosans. Alone all our lives. We have communities, but no community. We have feelings, but they’re never shared; we believe they’re purer in isolation. There are myths of love and friendship, but they’re like the Earth myths of men flying: only children and dreamers believe them.
The one thing we have—almost the only thing—is war. War, always and forever. It’s our occupation, our avocation—our life. Not war between races or countries, because there is only one race and only one country; and not for a flag or a creed, because we don’t have those. It’s for ourselves; for individual gain and glory. In that sense, we’re all mercenaries. Life is a battle because we’ve made it so. War doesn’t scare us; why should it? If we’re wounded, we heal ourselves. If we feel pain, we anesthetize ourselves. If we die, it’s over. We fight for the necessities—space to live, bread to eat—but no more. We believe it’s wrong to want more.
We’re not barbarians. We have art and literature, but not as things apart: everybody paints, everybody writes. Why did I never write a poem for Liz, I wonder? Was it my human side that held me back? We create—but we don’t save what we create. We attach no importance to beauty for its own sake, only for the power it holds.
We have no religion—that is, most of us don’t. But we wonder about things. When we’re not fighting, we’re experimenting: figuring out how things work, and how to make them work better. That’s a different kind of war, I guess. There are a few holy ones—mystics and their disciples—who reject the Vallosan way and live on their own, in the desolate places. They’re left to themselves, and no one mourns them when they die. In fact, no one mourns any death, or celebrates any birth. Families are strictly biological. Children are assigned by lot. And raised to be—
Isolated. Alone.
So he ended where he had begun. And in fact his perceptions were not consecutive but concurrent, each one coexistent with all the others. “This is the other half of me,” he said aloud. “Why I can’t give myself to Liz the way she gives herself to me. Half of me wants it, the other can’t comprehend it. And I have both halves inside me. That will never change. I’ll always be divided—never whole.”
“Never,” a voice echoed.
Max opened his eyes. A dark figure was standing above him in the blackness, at the brink of the pit. “Klima!” said Max. “It was you who communicated that image to me at Swift’s place. So I’d suspect him instead of you.”
“One of the many stratagems I’ve learned in my time here to confound the humans.”
“You’ve done more than that. You murdered Hubble’s wife, Maria’s father—”
“Not murder—war. That’s why we’re here. Join the fight. Become who were you meant to be.”
“Then I’d become you. One is enough.”
“In that case, give me the Stone.”
“I need it. To take me where I’m going.”
Shellow—that is, Klima—smiled. “It will do more than that.” He searched mentally for it on and near Max, and realized at once it must be elsewhere. Max could not hide his first thought fast enough: Klima turned to the pile of clothes on the ground near him. A beeping arose from the jacket. At the same time, the dirt under his feet changed to ice. He slid toward the edge of the pit. Laughing to have been caught by such a basic trick, he spun around and propelled himself back toward the jacket. He reached out for it.
—but another hand grabbed it first. Liz was there. She had hurried to Max’s aid—hurried as much as her ankle would allow it—no matter whether he wanted it or not; no matter whether he deserved it or not. Klima turned on her. At once a tower of earth rose between them and toppled onto him. He dissolved it to a thick fog. From it bounded Max, helped along by the ground, which changed to springy rubber wherever he stepped. When he reached Liz’s side, he took up the jacket and unsheathed the Lodestone. The spiral bathed them both in its blue light. Max felt the power flowing into him.
“Hurt her,” he told Klima, “and I’ll kill you where you stand.” Hearing this, Liz was not as mad at him as she had been earlier.
Klima seemed to be debating whether to try him. “Coward,” he said. “Human. You’re not even part Vallosan.” But he let this be his parting shot. He plunged himself into a darkness greater than even the eclipse could account for.
Then day returned, and it was as if the night had never been. Max knelt by Liz. “Will you let me heal you now?” She extended her ankle. He passed his hand over it. She flexed it and felt no pain. Without another word, he rose and started away. She jumped up and ran after him, with no difficulty at all now. “Go home, Liz,” he said. But he was not angry this time.
“I saved your life.” Her voice was shaking, but she pressed on. “We saved each other. We’re—comrades in arms.”
His face relaxed, and he smiled at the double meaning. “All right. You’ve earned a place on the journey. We have little enough time left anyway.” And together they headed out across the plain.
In Roswell that night, two hours after having gone to bed, Diane rose, still asleep, and walked through the house to the laundry room, where Isabel was waiting for her. “Sit,” she commanded in a whisper, and Diane lowered herself into one of the pair of folding chairs Isabel had set up. She sat with her back straight and her eyes still shut. Then her daughter spoke to her, but not to her waking mind:
“I have to go somewhere. But before I leave, I wanted us to have a dreamwalk together. So I could tell you—what we should have told you before. You won’t remember most of it—sorry, that’s how things have to be for now—but I wanted to tell you anyway. There’s not much to tell. We don’t know much. Max has gone to find out more, and he’s summoned me to find out with him. I don’t know how long it’ll take, or when we’ll be back. But you don’t have to worry about us. Remember that. And maybe you can get Dad not to worry too. Tell him we’ve gone camping with Michael.”
She gazed at her mother affectionately. “You’ve been wondering lately who I am—what I am. So have I, and so has Max. All I know right now is, we came here from a place a long way off, where they can do things the people here can’t. Change things. Change ourselves—well, some of us can. See into other people. See into their dreams. I know it’s scary to think there are people who can do those things. But it’s scarier if you’re the one doing them. The thing you have to keep telling yourself”—and she meant herself as much as her mother—“is that it’s natural. As natural as it is for a bird to fly or a fish to swim.” She smiled at the song that began playing, unbidden, inside her mother’s head. “That’s right. Fish gotta swim, birds gotta fly. See it as just a part of the universe. Then you won’t be scared. Remember that too. And always remember—I love you.”
It was inadequate to her feelings. But words always were. Maybe when she knew more, she would be able to say more, or say it better. “Okay, you can go back to bed now.” Diane rose and walked off as if hypnotized. Returning to the hall, she did not see her husband, who, having woken to find her missing, had come hunting for her. He watched her curiously as she passed: he had never known her to sleepwalk before.
Glancing into the room she had come from, he saw Isabel; she was busy folding the chairs and did not see him. A look of suspicion crept over his face—but he was not sure just what he suspected. Still revolving it in his mind, he went back to bed. That was fortunate for Isabel because if he had kept watching he would have seen her leave by the back door. Michael was waiting outside. She could not take the Jeep, and he did not have a car. So the two of them left on foot, following the summons they had received from Max to join him in the desert.
Out there, before night had fallen—and it would be true night, this time—he had sighted, amidst a line of rocky hills, their birthplace, or the equivalent; the place from which they had wandered ten years before; the rocks pictured on the map. “That’s where I’m going,” he said to Liz.
“Then this will be our last night together.” He nodded. “Can we make it—something special?” Her look was openly inviting. He extended a hand. The earth ahead of him rose up to encurtain them on three sides, and to enroof them, and it became a canopied tent of red velvet. From the same earth he fashioned two golden goblets and a fountain of Bordeaux, filled the goblets until they overflowed, and gave one to her. Holding it in both hands, she sipped long and deep. Her head, not accustomed to wine, began dancing. “This is so, so great,” she said. Then she wagged a finger at him. “But it’s not ’xactly what I—”
“I know. But it’s all I can give.”
After two gobletfuls, she was feeling not only airy, but sleepy; she slid over to where he was sitting and leaned her head on his shoulder. He placed a comforting arm around her, and together they sat staring out the front of the tent toward his destination. Neither spoke for a while. At last Liz said, “You’re not with me, are you?—I mean, really with me.”
“No, but you’re with me. For tonight at least.” He added, “I sent for the others. The gate isn’t for me alone. The three of us must pass through it together.”
“How do you know that?”
He smiled. “Intuition.”
Another silence followed. “Max, what will happen to us? After tonight?”
“I told you, it will be different.”
“But we still might—we might—might—” Her voice trailed off with her thought.
He hushed her. “No sense trying to make out things when it’s pitch black. You humans spend too much time doing that.”
“Of course. What else is there to do?”
“What I’m doing. Wait.”
“Then I’ll wait with you. Wait long as you want.” She was still feeling the glow of the wine, and she snuggled closer.
“There’s that about humans. They’re loyal.”
“And you’re not?”
He pointed. “See that stone?”
“What about it?”
“It will be there tomorrow, and next year, and a century from now, unless someone moves it. But you can’t say it’s loyal. It’s just—fixed.”
For some reason Liz began to cry. She tried to stop herself, but could not. Pretending not to hear, he continued staring out toward the hills until the crying had stopped, to be replaced by an audible steady breathing. Then he began to speak, in a voice low enough not to wake her:
“Elizabeth Valerie Parker
child of this Earth
the day I found you
I also found myself
or thought I had.
Before that day
I never understood
what happiness was
in life on this Earth.
Then I understood
or thought I had
because we were happy
and I thought it was
the same kind of happiness
for you as for me.
But yours is face to face
and mine is behind a veil
as if I could not absorb it
could not endure it
could not understand it
unless it was filtered
filtered of impurities
the matter of this Earth.
So it seems in the end
I am not like you.
I thought I was
or felt I was
or felt I could be.
But the harder I tried
to be like you
to be of this Earth
to live on this Earth
the more my other side
rose up against it
my alienness
that is, me.
So I came here to find
that side of me
that alien side.
Maybe there never was
another side.
Maybe all the rest
was only you.
Soon I will know
soon I will go
and gaze into the mirror
waiting for me here
mirror of that self
mirror of Vallosa.
Then I will become
the thing I see
with no more pretending
no more Max Evans.
Dream of him softly
child of this Earth
after he is gone
into that mirror.
Dream of who he was
or was in you
once upon a time.”
And so he had written the poem he had never gotten around to before. But, being Vallosan, he did not trouble to save it, and forgot it as soon as it was spoken.
In the morning, Liz woke to find herself alone. And the canopy had disappeared. “Max!” she called. The only answer was her own echo. She began running toward the hills, and when she could run no longer, she walked. Eventually she saw him, but as a tiny figure far ahead. She called again, but there was no way he could have heard. At the foot of the hills, she saw two other figures waiting, and knew who they must be. The three of them joined hands and climbed up out of sight.
Against her expectations, she saw Max once more. Climbing the same slope they had taken, but an hour later, she attained to a view of a taller slope above and a valley below, where much of the ship’s core stood exposed. It had a hull of its own, the same color as the surrounding dirt—if it were not the dirt itself she was looking at. From where she was standing, she could see no way down. Yet there were Max and the others standing in front of the core. She did not know they had spent most of the time before her arrival evaporating the dirt it had been buried in.
Now Max pointed the Lodestone at it. A hatch appeared and slid upwards with a hum. The three entered, Max last of all. “Max!” she called. As the hatch slid shut, he looked back from inside—but with the same alien eyes as before; a stranger’s eyes. Then the hatch fell, shutting her off from him, maybe forever.
Inside, the three looked around them. The core was bigger than it had appeared from the outside. The walls were inscribed with the symbols from the cave. In making a reconnaissance, they discovered the large central chamber opened in one direction onto another, smaller chamber containing two sets of pod-like berths, four to each set, that were connected with tubes. The configuration was like that other symbol on the map, the one located near the symbol for the rocks: it was a picture of this. Into the wall behind them were set eight transparent cylinders, with more tubes running between them and the pods. That was all the apparatus they saw. “There are no controls,” said Michael. “How’d they work this thing?”
“The way we opened the hatch,” said Max. “By force of will. Or does that sound too crazy?”
Her sister gave him a look. “Max, we’re beings from another planet standing inside the ship that brought us. The normal rules about what’s crazy don’t apply.”
Outside, Liz was tracing the rim of the valley, searching for the path down. At last she found it. On reaching bottom, she pounded at the hatch, tried to pry it open—and even kicked it a few times—but soon realized her efforts were useless. She slumped down and began to cry; Max had said it was no place for her. She continued crying until she had cried herself dry. Then she continued sitting, having no reason to stay, but no desire to go.
Presently she felt the ground under her tremble, and heard the growl of engines. She climbed back up to the rim and looked over. On the plain below, a contingent of Army Jeeps was moving in, and a pair of earth movers with them. The Jeeps might have been the same ones she had seen at the Pohlman ranch, because Seaver was there too; she got out and strode among the soldiers, pointing here and there, shouting orders. She pointed to the hill Liz was standing on, but with some unrelated purpose; she was not really looking at it, and had not seen her. Liz ducked down anyway. It took a minute before the significance of the earth movers hit her. Then her fear—for Max, not herself—got the better of her common sense, and she started down the hill at a rush.
The three inside had no inkling of what was going on outside: the core was soundproof. Having finished their reconnaissance, they looked at one another uncertainly. “So, we’re here to find out stuff,” said Michael. “How?”
“Simple,” said Isabel. “By opening ourselves to it.”
The other two knew she was right. “Well?” said Max. “Are we ready?”
Isabel looked at Michael; he nodded. “We are now,” she said. They all took a deep breath and joined hands. Isabel shut her eyes, and the others followed her example.
For several seconds, nothing happened. Then a wild jumble of images, noises, and other sensations broke loose inside their heads. It was like playing a thousand VR games at once. They opened their eyes, but it made no difference: their true surroundings had vanished, lost in the chaos. They had to struggle to keep it from sweeping them away with it, away into madness. “It’s too much!” Michael shouted.
Isabel was resisting best: she was used to psychic spaces that made no sense. “Focus!” she cried. “Pick out one thing and use it as a lens.”
“The Lodestone!” Max felt blindly for it and held it out in front of them. “We can focus on this.” They did so, with much effort, and saw it as solid and immobile, a fixed center in the whirling disorder; they channeled their perceptions through it, and little by little, the disorder sorted itself out. Presently they became able to understand some things, first one and then another. And they did so in communion: the understanding of one was the understanding of all. “I see,” said Michael, in a tone of awe. “I mean, I’m starting to.”
The soldiers outside did not notice Liz until she reached bottom. The nearest one, whose dog tag identified him as R. Aguilar, Corporal, moved to apprehend her—without need, since she was coming to him. “What are you doing here?” she demanded.
“That would be my question.” He nodded toward a no-trespassing sign like the one she had seen at the ranch.
She thought fast. “Rock collecting. For a geology project.”
“Where are your rocks?”
Maybe she had not thought fast enough. “I didn’t find any. Of the right varieties, that is.”
“Where’s your car?”
“Don’t drive.”
“You hiked from Roswell?”
“I’m a wizard hiker.”
Seaver stepped up to them. “What’s this girl doing here?”
“That would be his question,” said Liz, rather tartly.
“Says she walked from Roswell.”
“Which is true, oddly enough.”
“Take her to the motor area,” ordered Seaver. As began started to lead her off, Seaver made a chopping gesture in the direction of the earth movers, and they roared to life.
Liz started back, but Aguilar held her fast. “No! You can’t do that!”
Seaver turned. “Why? Are there others with you?”
Liz could only say “No.” She searched for some other reason. “You’ll destroy the ecosystem.”
“A system that’s no use to humans should be destroyed.” Liz was prepared to debate the point, but never got the chance. “Get her out of here,” said Seaver. Liz watched helplessly as the big machines lumbered into position and gouged out their first load. The attack had an immediate and unexpected result. The entire hill began to vibrate, the vibration spread, and earth came pouring down in an avalanche, raising a fog of dust. The operators of the machines scrambled out of the way. When the dust cleared, the hill was only half as high as it had been, and flat at the top, though the whip-like rocks above remained untouched. The core could not be seen. Liz would have been happy for that, but she realized it was now completely buried, and those inside were buried with it.
They themselves were still unaware of what passed outside, absorbed in the vision they were undergoing. Now that they had learned how to read it, they discovered they had determined its form through their unspoken questions; it was a compilation of all the data required to provide the answers.
...They saw Vallosa as it had been, and one of its many battlefields—probably a permanent one. But the combatants were fewer than they had been a decade before. Constant warfare dwindled a population, even allowing for the ability to heal and to resurrect. Too busy fighting, the Vallosans had not been tending their planet as they should have, and so its resources had dwindled too....
On an airfield, a fleet of ships sat waiting—ships to carry the seed of Vallosa to a planet that was not dying yet. One of them was the ship whose core they were standing in now. In the enclosing section—the part that would later be jettisoned—sat a cot, of a sort, but no other amenities, and no controls. Feddin entered, in uniform. He shut the hatch, reclined on the cot, and strapped himself in. A holster on the wall beside him held the Lodestone. He laid a hand on it and willed the ship to take off....
In mid-voyage, while he was sleeping or in some form of suspended animation, the ship was jolted by some outside force (the envisioners were not told what, because the core itself did not know). Five of the wall cylinders were dislodged, their seals broke, and the contents trickled out. That was what had become of their shipmates....
The ship landed in a field. A fiery projectile shot out of its side into the earth and sped underground, its glow visible on the surface as a circle of blue, light gliding across woodland and desert. From the hull it had abandoned staggered its pilot, injured and shaken, but alive. Far away, under a range of rocky hills, the core came to rest, and there went dark....
Back in Roswell, in the present, an olive-drab Jeep pulled up outside the Crashdown, and Liz climbed out. She surveyed the facade, tinted purple by the dusk. Not long since, she had expected never to see it again, and she still felt divorced from the place, as if it were one she had known in her childhood and was now returning to for the first time.
When she entered, her father dropped what he was doing (which he had had no very clear idea of to start with) and ran to her. “Lizzie!” She had not given him a thought until now. He and the customers stared at her soiled jeans and weary stance. “Are you all right? Where in Pete’s sake have you been?”
“I ran away. With Max.” She felt as if the voice were issuing from someone else.
“I knew that kid couldn’t be trusted! Glad you came to your senses.”
“I didn’t. He sent me away. Turns out we’re—from different worlds.” Her father did not know what to make of this. Liz saw past him to the girl working the tables, and realized her face was familiar. “Maria?” She was not supposed to be there, was she? Or had that all been settled? Liz could not quite remember. “Maria’s back?”
“Girl I hired quit. So I re-hired your friend.” Maria was looking at her with what might have been concern or mere curiosity, but when Liz volunteered a smile, she returned to her customers. “I want to know exactly where you’ve been,” Jeff was saying, “and what that boy did to you.”
“Dad, he didn’t do anything—at least none of the things you’re thinking. I would have been back sooner, only I sprained my ankle.” He looked toward it. “It’s fine now.”
“Quick recovery,” he observed.
“Has Mom gone?”
“No, she insisted on sticking around until we knew you were safe.”
Liz remembered it all now. She had slipped back into her old place as if she had never left it. “I messed up your plans again, didn’t I?”
“Lizzie—”
“It doesn’t matter. Honestly, it doesn’t. Right now I just want to get some sleep, okay?”
Jeff had no choice. “Okay. But tomorrow we talk.”
“Yeah, tomorrow. ’night.” She started toward the back.
“’night, Pretty Pumpkin Peachy-Pie.” This surprised them both. Liz turned all the way around. “Wow,” Jeff said sheepishly. “Haven’t called you that in a long time.”
She stared at him in reproach. “You’re right, Dad. We really do need to talk.”
Back in her room, which was also as if she had never left it, she resisted the temptation to fall onto the Laura Ashley covers and instead went to the window, as if she could see the desert from there, and she prayed to the machine that had swallowed him and the others. “When you’re done with him, please send him back.” She could scarcely finish the prayer. “As Max, not a stranger.” She clung to that hope, even as she gave herself up to the inducements of Laura Ashley, while far away, beneath the New Mexico desert, the vision of the ship-borns continued into the night.
...Forty years passed. The core remained buried, and asleep....
Then one day it woke. A crowd was gathered above to celebrate the night of its coming; their accumulated energy penetrated to it, filled it, and brought it to humming life. It knew what it needed; it was programmed to know. Its energy called to one of those from above—a fifteen-year-old named Kathleen.
She probably did not know, probably thought she was going off exploring on her own. At the time, she had a curiosity about everything in the universe, very like Liz Parker’s now (and later, as a teacher, she would recognize the kinship). The thing drew her up into the rocks and then down to itself, eking out a passage in the earth for her. She ventured in, ventured deeper, and yet deeper. Too late, she realized she had gone too far; the tunnel had closed behind her. The thing drew her inside it, through its open mouth. And then....
What followed was missing. The next thing they saw was Kathleen lying in a faint under the rocks. When she recovered consciousness, they were the first thing she saw. But what she had been subjected to within the core remained a mystery. Maybe when it blocked her memory of the experience, it blocked its own. Or maybe it was programmed to keep the technical details confidential. But they knew what had happened to her, and why, even if they did not know how. Blood, or some other source of genetic material, had been transferred from her to the cylinders, to mingle with the Vallosan material already contained there. The synthesis would create hybrid beings—themselves....
And now they saw their own genesis. The material from the cylinders ran into the pods. Bodies formed there, and grew, their physiological processes slowed almost to stasis....
So they lay for twenty-six months. Then the boy who was not yet named Max had a dream, his consciousness propelled forth by the same energy that had conveyed him to this new, unknown world. He dreamed of a girl his age with long black hair. She had a name, but he did not yet know it. In her bedroom, miles away, she shared the dream with him. The two of them floated together in a cosmos of stars and shooting stars and rainbow clouds of gas. They regarded each other with the fascination of two different species, unlike but friendly.
“My name is Liz,” the girl said. “What’s yours?” The boy stared at her without understanding. “I live back there, in Roswell.” She began to float toward him. He floated an equal distance away. “What’s the matter? Can’t you get close to anybody?” Then she knew. “You’re from up there! Mommy says nobody lives up there. I knew she was wrong.” He floated away farther. “Come back!” He faded to nothing. “Come back,” she said wistfully. “some day—please?”
The boy sat up in his pod. The force of the dream had woken him. Its mental energy also woke the other two. Innocent of this world, of any world, they opened their eyes to life....
Max—present-day Max—broke out of his vision with the same force he had all those years earlier. And once more he brought the others out with him. Neither complained. They knew what they had sought to know, and would not have then been capable of absorbing more. They took long, deep breaths as they recovered from their exertion. “Visions kinda take a lot out of you,” Max observed.
In Isabel’s mind, one thought stood out. “We are human.”
“Half human,” said Max. “Vallosans made human. Destined to be at odds with ourselves, and everyone else.”
“And Topolsky’s our....” Michael for some reason found himself unable to finish.
“As far as anyone is,” Isabel said cautiously.
“So that’s what it was. We kinda messed up her life, you know?”
“I didn’t know,” said Max. “How do you?”
“Things she told me. She’s still not sure what’s real and what isn’t.” He shook his head. “We’ve messed up a lot of people, just being here.”
“Now we’ve seen the omega factor,” said Isabel. “Our planet’s ending.”
“And the alpha,” said Max. “Our own beginning.”
“And we know a lot more than we saw.” It was Michael who put this into words, but they were all equally aware of it; the vision had penetrated to more than their senses. “We know what they were thinking, and feeling. What they had in mind when they sent us here.”
“We were sent to take over,” said Max. “Not by waging war, like Klima wants. By invading the human bloodline, like Grunewald feared. But not to kill humans—to mutate them.”
“Turn them into Vallosans,” said Michael.
“Exactly. Except it won’t work. Maybe because we’re part human already. Liz’s blood is the proof of that.”
“Good,” said Isabel. “It was a stupid idea anyway.”
Michael was walking along the wall, running his eyes over the symbols. “I can read these now. Can you?” He laughed. “Yeah, of course you can.” He stopped at the spiral. “But not this one. And it’s the most important.” He tried, but gave up. “No information on it at all.”
“I think you have to—” But Isabel never got to finish, for just then, the light that radiated from within the walls began flickering. “Bet this thing used up all its juice on us,” said Michael.
“Sooner or later, the ambient energy will regenerate it,” said Max. “Until then....” He pointed the Stone at the hatch. “No use.”
“Leave it to me.” Michael melted the hatch through. The earth on top of them began to pour in through the gap.
“Well, I hope you’re satisfied,” said Isabel. “This is another fine—”
“We’ll turn it into rock,” Max said, more practically, “and bore a tunnel through it.” They turned toward it as one.
A few minutes later, they climbed out into a new day, not having realized the old one was gone. Also, the hill had changed shape. “What the hell happened here?” asked Michael.
As if in answer, a pair of heavy-duty engines started up below, and the ground under them shook. They looked over the rim—which was lower than it had been before—and saw the earth movers in motion: the onslaught had resumed. Even as they saw, they were seen; one of the operators pointed up at them, shouting, and they dropped down again. “We have to destroy the ship,” said Max.
Michael protested this. “There’s more information in it. A lot of things we don’t know.”
“That’s why we have to destroy it. If the Army get their hands on it—”
“Michael!” Isabel was looking down again. “Klima has to take pills, you said.” She pointed to Corporal Aguilar, alone at the foot of the hill, who was doing just that.
“Lot of people take pills,” Max noted.
“I got business with this one,” said Michael. He plunged his hands into the earth, worked it like clay, and lifted out a basketball.
Isabel clutched at his sleeve. “How do you know it’s him?”
He shrugged. “I don’t.” It appeared the knowledge he had gained at Feddin’s feet had not reformed him entirely. He rose to standing and hurled the ball down at Aguilar, or whoever it was, with superhuman force: more than his arm, by itself, was capable of. But perhaps he had known more than he had pretended to, perhaps some instinct had told him, for no sooner had the corporal spotted the approaching missile than it exploded. “It’s him. He’s with them!”
“I don’t think they know it, though,” said Max.
“That’s his advantage,” said Isabel. “He can become anyone he likes, any time he likes. If he’s out to make war, he can make himself the head of the army—of both armies. And if he gets hold of this thing—”
Michael turned to Max. “You’re right, it has to go. But are we powerful enough to do it?”
“Together—and with the energy here at our disposal—maybe. We’ll try melting it down.” They joined hands and concentrated. At first the core resisted. Then it changed into a tangle of energy that throbbed and whirled and sparkled.
“Are we doing that?” asked Michael.
“It’s doing it.” In response to their desire, and refueled by the same energy they had invoked, it was finishing the job for them.
“God, Max,” said Isabel.
Then, unexpectedly, the tangle leapt out at them, throwing them to the ground, before it dispersed into the air. As Max fell, the Stone slipped, or was pulled, out of his pocket and into the hole the core had left. Earth cascaded down on top of it. He grabbed after it, but too late.
Michael glanced below. Some of the men were starting up the hill. “Time we were out of here.”
“The Stone!” Max cried. “We have to get it back!”
“It’s gone, Max,” said Isabel. “Accept it.” After a moment, which seemed to her endless, he did, and they fled over the hill, just ahead of the soldiers’ arrival.
Late that night, as Liz lay in bed, he came in and woke her. Yet he was still out in the desert; it was his mind that burst into hers, causing her to clutch at her breast and gasp—and not out of fear: it was bliss having him inside her. Miles away, he gasped too, and sat up with a lunge, waking his sister, who was lying close to him in the tiny camp the three of them had made. “What is it, Max? What’s wrong?”
“I made contact with Liz. Didn’t mean to. It just happened.”
“And she broke it off?”
“No.” He sounded regretful but firm. “I did.”
And Liz, after his precipitate withdrawal, was left still tingling, still steeped in the sense of him, and wanting it never to go away. “I won’t sleep,” she promised, regardless of whether he could hear her or not, “until you’re resting here—back home—with me.”