Posted: Mon May 15, 2006 4:57 pm
Thank you all for the feedback. I believe that I'm going to answer most of your questions within the next few parts, so don't hate me for blowing you off in this author's note.
One question that I would like to answer, however, is why don't Tess, Michael, and Isabel heal Max. I've always viewed their healing powers as strictly limited. When Isabel was shot in Panacea, they all look for Max to heal her.
That and countless other things in the series have lead me to the conclusion that Max's healing power is his "special" power and he alone can heal major injuries. When Tess heals Max's cheek in Ask Not, I always thought it was because it was such a minor injury.
That's my personal opinion, though.
Thank you for all of the feedback. I wish that I had more time so that I could repsond to each of your personally, but that would make this author's note much too long for all of your liking, I'm sure. I'm going to try to respond next part.
I want to apologize for releasing this a day late. Timelord31 (my beta) and I bounced this chapter back and forth countless times. I wanted to make sure that everything was decent before it was released to you.
P.S. You guys have officially caught up to me with the writing/reading. The laspes of time may grow longer, depending on whether or not I have enough time to write. Hopefully I'll keep the two day schedule, but this seems VERY optimistic.
Chapter 11
The sheriff did as he was asked. He left the room silently.
Michael and Maria were in the kitchen, preparing soup and sandwiches for everyone. It’d been a long morning. Liz and Kyle were talking animatedly on the couch, occasionally joined by Isabel and Alex.
Tess was sitting in the chair near them, but making no effort to participate in the conversation. She had turned on the TV and was flipping through the channels casually. Nasedo was standing in the same place he’d been since Max had healed Michael. Jim cleared his throat, “Nasedo? Max wants to speak with you.”
The alien nodded and went into the room. Everyone looked at the sheriff. “He’s going to be fine. He’s healing himself right now.”
Jim went over to Tess and stood beside her, “You alright?”
She nodded and continued to flip through the channels.
He shrugged it off and went to the kitchen to help Maria make some sandwiches. “Smells good, Michael.”
“Yeah, well, the Crash’s taught me a lot.”
They worked efficiently. Maria had originally wanted to make sandwiches with some cold cuts, but Michael didn’t have any. The only thing he had was peanut butter and jelly. She settled for the American classic.
Michael’s French onion soup was simmering and he reduced the heat to low. “Soup’s done.”
Jim turned to Michael with a platter full of sandwiches, “Right on time.” Jim carried the sandwiches into the living room. Michael dished out enough bowls of soup for the present company and loaded them on to a platter. He carried it out and placed it on the table next to the sandwiches.
Everyone grabbed a bowl and a sandwich and ate gratefully. When they were halfway through their make-shift meal, Pierce walked out of Max’s room. Michael jumped to his feet with his hand outstretched. Pierce shook his head, laughing, “Michael, calm down. It’s me, Nasedo. Max’s ordered me to take Pierce’s form and fill in for him in the special unit; I can erase their records of Max and all of you.”
Without another word, he went to Pierce’s real body and slung it over his shoulder. He wrapped it up in one of the blankets that had been covering Max while he lay on the couch hours earlier and carried it unceremoniously out of the house.
Liz had finished early and she gathered her stuff. She walked into the kitchen and loaded her dishes into the dishwasher. She grabbed a bowl and a glass out of the cabinet. She filled the bowl with soup and the glass with water and brought them both into Max’s room.
The room was darker than the rest of the house. Someone had drawn the shades over the windows, allowing no sunlight to enter. Max was resting with his head to the side. His eyes were open and they were following a shadow cast by some trees outside of the window. It was swaying back and forth.
Liz walked to his bedside and set the bowl and cup down on his bedside table. She looked to him, “Max? Why don’t you sit up so that we can get you some food?
He nodded and tried to shift his weight, but he couldn’t. Liz adjusted his pillow so that it was folded over, able to support his back. She guided him into a sitting position and smiled, “There you go.”
He didn’t say anything as she took the bowl in her hands. She gave it to him uncertainly. He took the spoon in his right hand and dipped it shakily into the soup. He tried to bring it to his lips, but his hand was shaking so hard that the soup sloshed clumsily on his shirt. He cursed.
Liz was supportive, “It’s okay… I’ll help you.”
He hated not being able to do anything by himself. He felt shamed as Liz dipped the spoon back into the soup and brought it to his lips, but he was starving. He opened his mouth and allowed himself to swallow the liquid.
He gagged, trying to get used to the sensation of something flowing down his throat. Liz looked worried, “You okay?”
He nodded. She brought more soup to his mouth and he swallowed that, too. His stomach was churning. By the fifth spoonful, his stomach was ready to burst. Liz brought the spoon to his lips once more but he shook his head, “I can’t…”
“Max, you’ve barely eaten anything.”
“I’m full, Liz. I can’t eat anything else.”
His emotionless voice shook her. He moved towards the edge of the bed and gently placed his feet on the ground. He pursed his lips. He precariously teetered onto his feet, putting one in front of the other. He made his way to the bathroom door, limping. Liz took note of this.
He returned a few minutes later and limped back to the bed. She realized that with every step that he took he winced. She became suspicious, “Max, why are you limping?”
“I’m not.” He cursed to himself silently as he lowered himself onto the bed. He lost his footing and landed painfully on his shoulder. He stifled a scream and thrust his fist into his mouth, biting down hard. He closed his eyes in concentration and then lay fully on the bed, drawing his blanket up over his torso.
“Max, let me see your wounds.” Liz persisted.
Max shook his head, tempered, “Liz, I don’t have any. I healed them.”
She shook her head back at him, eyes wide, “Max, if you healed them then why are you still wincing in pain?” Her hand pressed against his chest and her eyes filled with emotion.
A connection formed. Max could feel Liz trying to push her way into his mind, but he wouldn’t let her. He focused his energy on reading her thoughts, finding out what happened between the moment he left and the moment he returned. When Pierce arrived. The flash flooded his senses:
Isabel paced back and forth, “I don’t like it. I don’t like that Max’s all alone.”
Michael grimaced, “It’s going to be okay, Iz. He can handle it. He needs some time. Give it to him.”
She nodded hesitantly. Maria went into the backyard and paced back and forth. She still couldn’t seem to fully process everything that was going on right now. She needed a minute to think.
Tess, Liz, Alex, Isabel, and Michael all sat around the room, staring blankly at nothing and making no attempt at conversation. What could they do? Would he ever be the same?
Maria screamed. Michael jumped from his chair and tried to walk in the door, but he raised his hands above his head quickly. Everyone else got to their feet.
Pierce entered the room with his gun drawn, pointing into the back of one of the two men that strode in before him. Maria was walking in front of them, her face ashy. Kyle and Valenti. The gun was pointing straight into Jim’s spine. Michael was backing up still, “Don’t hurt them.”
“I won’t, if you do what I want you to do.” Pierce responded slowly.
Liz was strangled, “What’s that?”
Pierce threw a ball of twine to Michael, “Tie everyone up. If you make one wrong move, I’m going to kill her.” He grabbed Maria around the neck, releasing the others, “I know as well as you do that Max’s little stories weren’t all the truth. Anyone of you could be an alien. I don’t trust a single one of you. Tie them! NOW!”
He was pissed. He had an alien in his clutches, and somehow the alien had escaped. It was just like so many years before. He’d thought that he was more prepared than his predecessors. He wouldn’t let this opportunity escape him.
Michael nodded, “Whatever you say, just don’t hurt her…”
He tied their hands together behind their backs, one by one.
Pierce threw Maria forward, “Her too!” He walked over to Isabel and held the gun to her head. Insurance.
Michael tied Maria up, too. When he was done he gulped, “What now?”
Pierce thought for a moment. He barked, “Kneel down in a line! Do it!”
Liz found herself sitting at the end of the line. She gulped as her insides twisted. Where was Max?
Pierce strode behind Michael and started fiddling with some ropes. He still held the gun in one of his hands as he worked, “If any of you makes any sudden movements, I’m going to shoot someone. Mark my words.”
“What do you want from us?” Alex managed to get some words out.
“Max Evans.” Pierce said simply, striding in front of everyone. He smiled down upon them, “And now… we wait.”
“I thought it was something like that that happened.” He ripped the blankets off of him and walked slowly to the door of the room. Liz was speechless. Max was never this cold to her, so blank.
“Thought what?” She apparently had no idea of the images that he received.
“That there had to be a reason why Isabel and Michael and Tess didn’t use their powers. He was threatening everyone else… all of the humans. Like he already knew that they weren’t. Human. I’ve tried so hard to protect all of you and I’ve failed so miserably. It’s not fair.” He looked even more defeated, if that was possible.
She shook her head, finally realizing what he saw, “You could have never known about Pierce coming into the house like that.”
“Thank you, for saying that, Liz. But it’s true. I’m a terrible, terrible person.”
She strode forward to him, cupping his face, “You are not, Max! DON’T EVER SAY THAT!” Tears were streaming down her face. “You are the most wonderful, caring, loving, honest person I know.” As an afterthought, “And I hate it when you shut me out like this. Let me help you. Let me see what they said and did to you in the white room. Let me have Max back.”
He whispered, “I can’t. Not yet, at least. I can’t.” He wrenched open the door.
She whispered to herself, “I love you, Max.” The door slammed, shaking her. He was gone. She threw herself over the bed, her arms under her head and she sobbed. Even if they physically had Max back, she didn’t know if he was ever going to emotionally return to them.
He stood just inside the room and all eyes were on him… again. He spoke angrily, “I’m going home. Can I have the keys to the Jeep?”
Isabel was perplexed, “I don’t think that’s such a good idea, Max…”
Jim agreed, “You’re not in any state to go driving.”
“I don’t care!” He roared at them, “Give me the damn keys!”
Michael threw them at him, apparently trying to avoid any more confrontation. Max caught them clumsily and hobbled painfully to the door. His hand reached out for the handle, but someone else’s knocked his away. He looked up furiously at the sheriff, “Let me out!”
“You are not physically or mentally fit to go on the roads right now. If you drive, you’re putting not only your life at risk, but whoever else happens to be driving on the roads of Roswell. If you get in that car, I will arrest you.”
Max fumed at him, “FINE! Take me home, then!”
The sheriff nodded mutely. He took the keys from Max’s limp hand. He turned to the others, “Any one else want a ride home?”
Isabel looked at Max, “Do you want anyone to-?”
Max fought to keep his voice under control, “No. I’m fine.” He was trying to mask everything he was feeling (or not feeling) with anger.
“Why are you limping?” Tess asked suddenly. It had just occurred to her that his movements were uneven.
He didn’t answer her. He opened the door slowly. He wasn’t sure of whether or not the sheriff would allow him out this time. When he felt no resistance, he inelegantly strode from the house, his weight unevenly distributed on each leg. He sighed in relief as he got into the passenger side of the Jeep.
Jim climbed in not long after Max. He didn’t attempt to say anything to Max for the whole ride. When they had finally pulled into Max’s driveway, Max stepped uncertainly out of the Jeep, “Thank you.”
Valenti nodded and watched as Max walked up the path to his front door.
Max’s feet were miraculously finding the ground. He felt so dizzy. Oh God, he was dizzy. Where was the door, again? His vision was swimming. Every step forward was an uncertain step towards the unknown. He tried to lift his foot but it wouldn’t come. The cement under his feet was softened and he blinked furiously. Where was the door?
His legs were shaking under him, he was so tired. His eyelids drooped down, barely opened. He fought them to keep them open. Where was he? Where was his house? His entire body was shaking.
“Max?!” Valenti’s voice called to him. His legs collapsed. Max fell face forward. It was like watching a car wreck. He dropped to his knees first, letting out a shattering cry, and then his body fell forward, onto the cold, hard ground.
Angry tears streamed from his eyes. Was he so pathetic that he couldn’t walk twenty feet by himself? He couldn’t see anything. Everywhere he looked was pitch black. He cried out in shock, thrusting himself up into a sitting position. He called out, “Sheriff?!”
Jim walked over to the boy, grabbing him by the forearm. The episode had frightened him, “Are you okay Max?” He helped him to his feet.
Max looked around frantically, trying to find the source of the voice, but he couldn’t seem to locate him. He blinked his eyes hastily, and he started to regain his vision. What was wrong with him? He’s so stupid!
“I think.” He added shakily. “What just happened?”
Jim nodded, “I think it’s from the lack of blood in your system. If you can’t heal this soon, Max…”
Max nodded, “I know, I know.”
Suddenly, the sheriff had an idea, “What if we have someone give you a blood transfusion?”
Max shook his head, “No, Michael’s just lost a lot of blood, which was given because of me, and I can’t ask Isabel or Tess for that. They’ve done too much for me already.”
Jim frowned, unbelievably at a loss for words. The kid’s selflessness was admirable, but it wasn’t helping him at all. For all he knew, Max could pass out at any second… for good. He was starting to think that agreeing to take Max home to his empty house wasn’t a good idea, “Max, I don’t think you should stay here alone…”
Max drew his arm away from the sheriff’s grip, “Please. I need to get away from everything. I can’t handle all of the pitying.”
Jim nodded, “I’m bringing someone back here soon, though. It’s not safe to leave you alone. Do you need help to the door?”
Max nodded, “But I’m not going to the door, I’m heading around to my window. Everything else is locked.”
Jim took the frail boy by the upper-arm and led him to the side of the house. A window was open. Max walked precariously to it, “I must have forgotten… to close it earlier…”
The sheriff nodded at him. He helped Max climb over the window sill. Max, now on the other side, thanked the sheriff. He spoke gravely, “I’m sorry… for the outbursts tonight. For Kyle getting shot. For you two being sucked into this madness. I don’t want or expect forgiveness, but I just wanted to let you know I’m sorry.”
“Max…” Jim spoke slowly. Max wouldn’t let him speak, though.
“If anyone gets hurt while I’m not there, promise me that you’ll rush them over here so I can try to heal them?” He placed his right hand on the windowsill, bracing himself to close it.
“Alright, Max. I promise. But you have to promise me that you’re going to keep on trying to heal yourself.”
Max nodded, “Goodbye, sheriff.” The window closed and Max bracingly placed his hand on the window sill. Once Valenti had turned around the corner, Max sunk to the ground.
He closed his eyes heavily. Since when was he winded and exhausted after walking a few feet? Hadn’t he just been knocked out? Didn’t that give him some form of rest? It seemed, almost certainly to him, that he was going to spend the rest of his life sleeping.
Oh god, he’d been treating Liz so badly. Everyone. They were only trying to help, but something about the way they were all treating him had really irked him. That’s it. They were treating him like a prisoner. He had just gotten out of Pierce’s harsh control and he wasn’t ready to throw himself into the pampering, stifling activities of the others. He just wasn’t ready. He wouldn’t ever be.
His whole life he had been so independent, but now he could hardly move without someone else’s assistance. He inhaled deeply, his body shivering. Why was he so cold? In that room, he was poked, prodded, and violated in so many ways. It all came down to control. Was it possible that the room felt colder than it had seconds before? He lost control. The mere thought was still tormenting him. How much colder could it get in here?! Wait a minute, could he feel his toes? He tried to wiggle them but he didn’t feel anything. Now that he though about it, his fingers felt sausagey and engorged.
He opened his eyes regretfully. Was he going to die? Here? Alone on the carpet, without a single person by his side? In his mind, he deserved it.
He reached to his back pocket and tried to take out the picture of himself and Liz that he put in earlier, but it wasn’t there. He didn’t even have pockets. Oh yeah, Michael had changed him earlier after he’d gotten shot. Crap.
Max had been trying to save his strength to heal himself, he really had. He could feel some of his powers slowly, at the pace of a rather old snail, return to him, but he wasn’t ready yet to heal himself.
He dragged himself slowly over to his bed. He drew back the covers with a shaking hand, and shifted his weight so his body slid underneath them. He let the blanket fall over him. It wasn’t helping to improve his body heat. Nothing was working.
Abruptly, warmth spread through his entire body. It wasn’t coming from the blankets; it was coming from the inside. His healing powers were starting to work again, and they were attacking his body with full force.
He concentrated fully, his face wrinkled in pain.
He had to stop the healing. If anyone else somehow got hurt while he was here healing himself…
He shuddered, not wanting to think about it. The freezing took hold of him once more. He reached over and turned on a lamp. He unsteadily lifted the blanket off of him and looked down at his toes. There wasn’t any blood in them. He rubbed them fiercely with the only hand he was currently able to move.
He reached up for the phone. There was only one thing that he could do: call someone. He grabbed the receiver and squinted at the buttons. His vision was going blurry again.
His face blushed with shame as he hit a speed dial.
“Max?”
“Yeah, Iz… I… um… I….”
“What is it Max?” She sounded so worried.
“I’m cold. So cold.”
Isabel was shocked when the phone conversation was cut off and the line went dead, “We need to get to Max… now.”
One question that I would like to answer, however, is why don't Tess, Michael, and Isabel heal Max. I've always viewed their healing powers as strictly limited. When Isabel was shot in Panacea, they all look for Max to heal her.
That and countless other things in the series have lead me to the conclusion that Max's healing power is his "special" power and he alone can heal major injuries. When Tess heals Max's cheek in Ask Not, I always thought it was because it was such a minor injury.
That's my personal opinion, though.
Thank you for all of the feedback. I wish that I had more time so that I could repsond to each of your personally, but that would make this author's note much too long for all of your liking, I'm sure. I'm going to try to respond next part.
I want to apologize for releasing this a day late. Timelord31 (my beta) and I bounced this chapter back and forth countless times. I wanted to make sure that everything was decent before it was released to you.
P.S. You guys have officially caught up to me with the writing/reading. The laspes of time may grow longer, depending on whether or not I have enough time to write. Hopefully I'll keep the two day schedule, but this seems VERY optimistic.
Chapter 11
The sheriff did as he was asked. He left the room silently.
Michael and Maria were in the kitchen, preparing soup and sandwiches for everyone. It’d been a long morning. Liz and Kyle were talking animatedly on the couch, occasionally joined by Isabel and Alex.
Tess was sitting in the chair near them, but making no effort to participate in the conversation. She had turned on the TV and was flipping through the channels casually. Nasedo was standing in the same place he’d been since Max had healed Michael. Jim cleared his throat, “Nasedo? Max wants to speak with you.”
The alien nodded and went into the room. Everyone looked at the sheriff. “He’s going to be fine. He’s healing himself right now.”
Jim went over to Tess and stood beside her, “You alright?”
She nodded and continued to flip through the channels.
He shrugged it off and went to the kitchen to help Maria make some sandwiches. “Smells good, Michael.”
“Yeah, well, the Crash’s taught me a lot.”
They worked efficiently. Maria had originally wanted to make sandwiches with some cold cuts, but Michael didn’t have any. The only thing he had was peanut butter and jelly. She settled for the American classic.
Michael’s French onion soup was simmering and he reduced the heat to low. “Soup’s done.”
Jim turned to Michael with a platter full of sandwiches, “Right on time.” Jim carried the sandwiches into the living room. Michael dished out enough bowls of soup for the present company and loaded them on to a platter. He carried it out and placed it on the table next to the sandwiches.
Everyone grabbed a bowl and a sandwich and ate gratefully. When they were halfway through their make-shift meal, Pierce walked out of Max’s room. Michael jumped to his feet with his hand outstretched. Pierce shook his head, laughing, “Michael, calm down. It’s me, Nasedo. Max’s ordered me to take Pierce’s form and fill in for him in the special unit; I can erase their records of Max and all of you.”
Without another word, he went to Pierce’s real body and slung it over his shoulder. He wrapped it up in one of the blankets that had been covering Max while he lay on the couch hours earlier and carried it unceremoniously out of the house.
Liz had finished early and she gathered her stuff. She walked into the kitchen and loaded her dishes into the dishwasher. She grabbed a bowl and a glass out of the cabinet. She filled the bowl with soup and the glass with water and brought them both into Max’s room.
The room was darker than the rest of the house. Someone had drawn the shades over the windows, allowing no sunlight to enter. Max was resting with his head to the side. His eyes were open and they were following a shadow cast by some trees outside of the window. It was swaying back and forth.
Liz walked to his bedside and set the bowl and cup down on his bedside table. She looked to him, “Max? Why don’t you sit up so that we can get you some food?
He nodded and tried to shift his weight, but he couldn’t. Liz adjusted his pillow so that it was folded over, able to support his back. She guided him into a sitting position and smiled, “There you go.”
He didn’t say anything as she took the bowl in her hands. She gave it to him uncertainly. He took the spoon in his right hand and dipped it shakily into the soup. He tried to bring it to his lips, but his hand was shaking so hard that the soup sloshed clumsily on his shirt. He cursed.
Liz was supportive, “It’s okay… I’ll help you.”
He hated not being able to do anything by himself. He felt shamed as Liz dipped the spoon back into the soup and brought it to his lips, but he was starving. He opened his mouth and allowed himself to swallow the liquid.
He gagged, trying to get used to the sensation of something flowing down his throat. Liz looked worried, “You okay?”
He nodded. She brought more soup to his mouth and he swallowed that, too. His stomach was churning. By the fifth spoonful, his stomach was ready to burst. Liz brought the spoon to his lips once more but he shook his head, “I can’t…”
“Max, you’ve barely eaten anything.”
“I’m full, Liz. I can’t eat anything else.”
His emotionless voice shook her. He moved towards the edge of the bed and gently placed his feet on the ground. He pursed his lips. He precariously teetered onto his feet, putting one in front of the other. He made his way to the bathroom door, limping. Liz took note of this.
He returned a few minutes later and limped back to the bed. She realized that with every step that he took he winced. She became suspicious, “Max, why are you limping?”
“I’m not.” He cursed to himself silently as he lowered himself onto the bed. He lost his footing and landed painfully on his shoulder. He stifled a scream and thrust his fist into his mouth, biting down hard. He closed his eyes in concentration and then lay fully on the bed, drawing his blanket up over his torso.
“Max, let me see your wounds.” Liz persisted.
Max shook his head, tempered, “Liz, I don’t have any. I healed them.”
She shook her head back at him, eyes wide, “Max, if you healed them then why are you still wincing in pain?” Her hand pressed against his chest and her eyes filled with emotion.
A connection formed. Max could feel Liz trying to push her way into his mind, but he wouldn’t let her. He focused his energy on reading her thoughts, finding out what happened between the moment he left and the moment he returned. When Pierce arrived. The flash flooded his senses:
Isabel paced back and forth, “I don’t like it. I don’t like that Max’s all alone.”
Michael grimaced, “It’s going to be okay, Iz. He can handle it. He needs some time. Give it to him.”
She nodded hesitantly. Maria went into the backyard and paced back and forth. She still couldn’t seem to fully process everything that was going on right now. She needed a minute to think.
Tess, Liz, Alex, Isabel, and Michael all sat around the room, staring blankly at nothing and making no attempt at conversation. What could they do? Would he ever be the same?
Maria screamed. Michael jumped from his chair and tried to walk in the door, but he raised his hands above his head quickly. Everyone else got to their feet.
Pierce entered the room with his gun drawn, pointing into the back of one of the two men that strode in before him. Maria was walking in front of them, her face ashy. Kyle and Valenti. The gun was pointing straight into Jim’s spine. Michael was backing up still, “Don’t hurt them.”
“I won’t, if you do what I want you to do.” Pierce responded slowly.
Liz was strangled, “What’s that?”
Pierce threw a ball of twine to Michael, “Tie everyone up. If you make one wrong move, I’m going to kill her.” He grabbed Maria around the neck, releasing the others, “I know as well as you do that Max’s little stories weren’t all the truth. Anyone of you could be an alien. I don’t trust a single one of you. Tie them! NOW!”
He was pissed. He had an alien in his clutches, and somehow the alien had escaped. It was just like so many years before. He’d thought that he was more prepared than his predecessors. He wouldn’t let this opportunity escape him.
Michael nodded, “Whatever you say, just don’t hurt her…”
He tied their hands together behind their backs, one by one.
Pierce threw Maria forward, “Her too!” He walked over to Isabel and held the gun to her head. Insurance.
Michael tied Maria up, too. When he was done he gulped, “What now?”
Pierce thought for a moment. He barked, “Kneel down in a line! Do it!”
Liz found herself sitting at the end of the line. She gulped as her insides twisted. Where was Max?
Pierce strode behind Michael and started fiddling with some ropes. He still held the gun in one of his hands as he worked, “If any of you makes any sudden movements, I’m going to shoot someone. Mark my words.”
“What do you want from us?” Alex managed to get some words out.
“Max Evans.” Pierce said simply, striding in front of everyone. He smiled down upon them, “And now… we wait.”
“I thought it was something like that that happened.” He ripped the blankets off of him and walked slowly to the door of the room. Liz was speechless. Max was never this cold to her, so blank.
“Thought what?” She apparently had no idea of the images that he received.
“That there had to be a reason why Isabel and Michael and Tess didn’t use their powers. He was threatening everyone else… all of the humans. Like he already knew that they weren’t. Human. I’ve tried so hard to protect all of you and I’ve failed so miserably. It’s not fair.” He looked even more defeated, if that was possible.
She shook her head, finally realizing what he saw, “You could have never known about Pierce coming into the house like that.”
“Thank you, for saying that, Liz. But it’s true. I’m a terrible, terrible person.”
She strode forward to him, cupping his face, “You are not, Max! DON’T EVER SAY THAT!” Tears were streaming down her face. “You are the most wonderful, caring, loving, honest person I know.” As an afterthought, “And I hate it when you shut me out like this. Let me help you. Let me see what they said and did to you in the white room. Let me have Max back.”
He whispered, “I can’t. Not yet, at least. I can’t.” He wrenched open the door.
She whispered to herself, “I love you, Max.” The door slammed, shaking her. He was gone. She threw herself over the bed, her arms under her head and she sobbed. Even if they physically had Max back, she didn’t know if he was ever going to emotionally return to them.
He stood just inside the room and all eyes were on him… again. He spoke angrily, “I’m going home. Can I have the keys to the Jeep?”
Isabel was perplexed, “I don’t think that’s such a good idea, Max…”
Jim agreed, “You’re not in any state to go driving.”
“I don’t care!” He roared at them, “Give me the damn keys!”
Michael threw them at him, apparently trying to avoid any more confrontation. Max caught them clumsily and hobbled painfully to the door. His hand reached out for the handle, but someone else’s knocked his away. He looked up furiously at the sheriff, “Let me out!”
“You are not physically or mentally fit to go on the roads right now. If you drive, you’re putting not only your life at risk, but whoever else happens to be driving on the roads of Roswell. If you get in that car, I will arrest you.”
Max fumed at him, “FINE! Take me home, then!”
The sheriff nodded mutely. He took the keys from Max’s limp hand. He turned to the others, “Any one else want a ride home?”
Isabel looked at Max, “Do you want anyone to-?”
Max fought to keep his voice under control, “No. I’m fine.” He was trying to mask everything he was feeling (or not feeling) with anger.
“Why are you limping?” Tess asked suddenly. It had just occurred to her that his movements were uneven.
He didn’t answer her. He opened the door slowly. He wasn’t sure of whether or not the sheriff would allow him out this time. When he felt no resistance, he inelegantly strode from the house, his weight unevenly distributed on each leg. He sighed in relief as he got into the passenger side of the Jeep.
Jim climbed in not long after Max. He didn’t attempt to say anything to Max for the whole ride. When they had finally pulled into Max’s driveway, Max stepped uncertainly out of the Jeep, “Thank you.”
Valenti nodded and watched as Max walked up the path to his front door.
Max’s feet were miraculously finding the ground. He felt so dizzy. Oh God, he was dizzy. Where was the door, again? His vision was swimming. Every step forward was an uncertain step towards the unknown. He tried to lift his foot but it wouldn’t come. The cement under his feet was softened and he blinked furiously. Where was the door?
His legs were shaking under him, he was so tired. His eyelids drooped down, barely opened. He fought them to keep them open. Where was he? Where was his house? His entire body was shaking.
“Max?!” Valenti’s voice called to him. His legs collapsed. Max fell face forward. It was like watching a car wreck. He dropped to his knees first, letting out a shattering cry, and then his body fell forward, onto the cold, hard ground.
Angry tears streamed from his eyes. Was he so pathetic that he couldn’t walk twenty feet by himself? He couldn’t see anything. Everywhere he looked was pitch black. He cried out in shock, thrusting himself up into a sitting position. He called out, “Sheriff?!”
Jim walked over to the boy, grabbing him by the forearm. The episode had frightened him, “Are you okay Max?” He helped him to his feet.
Max looked around frantically, trying to find the source of the voice, but he couldn’t seem to locate him. He blinked his eyes hastily, and he started to regain his vision. What was wrong with him? He’s so stupid!
“I think.” He added shakily. “What just happened?”
Jim nodded, “I think it’s from the lack of blood in your system. If you can’t heal this soon, Max…”
Max nodded, “I know, I know.”
Suddenly, the sheriff had an idea, “What if we have someone give you a blood transfusion?”
Max shook his head, “No, Michael’s just lost a lot of blood, which was given because of me, and I can’t ask Isabel or Tess for that. They’ve done too much for me already.”
Jim frowned, unbelievably at a loss for words. The kid’s selflessness was admirable, but it wasn’t helping him at all. For all he knew, Max could pass out at any second… for good. He was starting to think that agreeing to take Max home to his empty house wasn’t a good idea, “Max, I don’t think you should stay here alone…”
Max drew his arm away from the sheriff’s grip, “Please. I need to get away from everything. I can’t handle all of the pitying.”
Jim nodded, “I’m bringing someone back here soon, though. It’s not safe to leave you alone. Do you need help to the door?”
Max nodded, “But I’m not going to the door, I’m heading around to my window. Everything else is locked.”
Jim took the frail boy by the upper-arm and led him to the side of the house. A window was open. Max walked precariously to it, “I must have forgotten… to close it earlier…”
The sheriff nodded at him. He helped Max climb over the window sill. Max, now on the other side, thanked the sheriff. He spoke gravely, “I’m sorry… for the outbursts tonight. For Kyle getting shot. For you two being sucked into this madness. I don’t want or expect forgiveness, but I just wanted to let you know I’m sorry.”
“Max…” Jim spoke slowly. Max wouldn’t let him speak, though.
“If anyone gets hurt while I’m not there, promise me that you’ll rush them over here so I can try to heal them?” He placed his right hand on the windowsill, bracing himself to close it.
“Alright, Max. I promise. But you have to promise me that you’re going to keep on trying to heal yourself.”
Max nodded, “Goodbye, sheriff.” The window closed and Max bracingly placed his hand on the window sill. Once Valenti had turned around the corner, Max sunk to the ground.
He closed his eyes heavily. Since when was he winded and exhausted after walking a few feet? Hadn’t he just been knocked out? Didn’t that give him some form of rest? It seemed, almost certainly to him, that he was going to spend the rest of his life sleeping.
Oh god, he’d been treating Liz so badly. Everyone. They were only trying to help, but something about the way they were all treating him had really irked him. That’s it. They were treating him like a prisoner. He had just gotten out of Pierce’s harsh control and he wasn’t ready to throw himself into the pampering, stifling activities of the others. He just wasn’t ready. He wouldn’t ever be.
His whole life he had been so independent, but now he could hardly move without someone else’s assistance. He inhaled deeply, his body shivering. Why was he so cold? In that room, he was poked, prodded, and violated in so many ways. It all came down to control. Was it possible that the room felt colder than it had seconds before? He lost control. The mere thought was still tormenting him. How much colder could it get in here?! Wait a minute, could he feel his toes? He tried to wiggle them but he didn’t feel anything. Now that he though about it, his fingers felt sausagey and engorged.
He opened his eyes regretfully. Was he going to die? Here? Alone on the carpet, without a single person by his side? In his mind, he deserved it.
He reached to his back pocket and tried to take out the picture of himself and Liz that he put in earlier, but it wasn’t there. He didn’t even have pockets. Oh yeah, Michael had changed him earlier after he’d gotten shot. Crap.
Max had been trying to save his strength to heal himself, he really had. He could feel some of his powers slowly, at the pace of a rather old snail, return to him, but he wasn’t ready yet to heal himself.
He dragged himself slowly over to his bed. He drew back the covers with a shaking hand, and shifted his weight so his body slid underneath them. He let the blanket fall over him. It wasn’t helping to improve his body heat. Nothing was working.
Abruptly, warmth spread through his entire body. It wasn’t coming from the blankets; it was coming from the inside. His healing powers were starting to work again, and they were attacking his body with full force.
He concentrated fully, his face wrinkled in pain.
He had to stop the healing. If anyone else somehow got hurt while he was here healing himself…
He shuddered, not wanting to think about it. The freezing took hold of him once more. He reached over and turned on a lamp. He unsteadily lifted the blanket off of him and looked down at his toes. There wasn’t any blood in them. He rubbed them fiercely with the only hand he was currently able to move.
He reached up for the phone. There was only one thing that he could do: call someone. He grabbed the receiver and squinted at the buttons. His vision was going blurry again.
His face blushed with shame as he hit a speed dial.
“Max?”
“Yeah, Iz… I… um… I….”
“What is it Max?” She sounded so worried.
“I’m cold. So cold.”
Isabel was shocked when the phone conversation was cut off and the line went dead, “We need to get to Max… now.”