Posted: Sat Jul 22, 2006 9:56 am
All righty guys I've typed up the next part. Enjoy!
Chapter 11
Zan woke up to a tickling in his ear. He opened his eyes and looked up at a smiling Ava, a feather in hand. She touched her finger to her mouth, the universal sign of be quiet and pointed at Liz. She was still asleep. He pointed to his wrist and Ava put up six fingers. It was way too early to be awake. Ava mouthed the words ‘I have to talk to you.’
Zan nodded and sat up carefully not wanting to wake Liz up. When he made to turn her over so she lay on the couch she opened her eyes sleepily. She frowned looking around groggily until her eyes landed on Zan.
“Are you leaving?” she asked her eyes wide and her voice husky from sleep.
“Not yet.”
“Don’t go.” Liz whispered wrapping her arms around his waist hugging him to her tightly.
Zan was surprised she asked him to stay but lifted her in his arms nonetheless. Liz’s legs automatically went around his waist, her arms around his neck and her face buried in his chest. She hadn’t even noticed Ava watching the entire exchange with a smile on her face.
Zan laid Liz on her bed but she refused to let go of his neck.
“Liz…”
Liz shook her head. “I don’t answer to that name from you.”
Zan gave her a small smile. “Let go an’ go back ta sleep cherry.”
Liz gave him her best pout. “If I go to sleep will you still be here when I wake up?”
Zan looked into her beautiful face, her eyes big and round and her lower lip sticking out. “Yea, cherry. I’ma be here.”
Liz smiled and lifted up to give him a brief kiss on the lips before lying down and curling onto her side.
Zan just stood there for a while wondering what just happened. Remembering Ava was still outside he walked slowly back to the living room. Well, so much for he didn’t need anyone, Zan berated himself.
~~~
(Park)
“So, yous two looked pretty cozy on that couch.” Ava said wiggling her eyebrows and smiling.
Zan shrugged but didn’t comment.
“You wanna tell me what the fuck happened yestaday?” Ava asked all traces of humor gone.
“Nothin’” Zan said gruffly.
“Fo real? Damn, then I musta imagined you stormin’ out, then comin’ back ‘bout fiftenn minutes lata lookin’ like a fuckin’ robot.” Ava said crossing her arms over her chest.
Zan looked away.
“Come on Zan. Yous can tell me. We bitches rememba?”
Zan sighed. “I saw ‘er kissin’ ma bitch ass dupe.”
Ava’s eyes widened. “When they was talkin’?”
Zan snorted. “Not much talkin’ goin’ on when I saw ‘em.”
Ava nodded. “Aight lemme see if I can guess wat happened. You see Lizzie an’ Max together. Ya leave, hmmm I don’t know ya probably come ‘ere. Ya start thinking you ain’t shit. That yous is worthless and decide fuck it I’ma let ‘er make the biggest mistake of ‘er life an’ leave ‘er alone to be wit him. Am I on point?”
Zan looked at her his eyes wide with shock.
“Wow, I didn’ know you was such a bitch ass pussy. All this talk about how you da man, an’ you let some cornball from Rozzy steal ya bitch.” Ava said shaking her head.
“She was his bitch first.”
“Yea, but he fuckin’ left her. He runs off ta New York an fucks some otha hoe while yous takin’ care of Liz. She waz here cryin’ ova that jackass an’ he was havin’ the time of ‘is life. You two waz fuckin’ inseparable, you be lookin’ at each other an’ ya automatically know what the otha wants or be thinkin’ about. You gotta be a special kinda stupid not to see ya belong togetha.”
Zan opened and closed his mouth several times before speaking. “Yeah, but she love ‘im.” He argued weakly.
“Aight fuck this.” Ava said getting up. “If you wanna be a bitch ass go ahead. I jus thought I was talkin’ to da man. Ya know he always fightin’ fo wat he wants till he gets it. I ain’t neva seen ‘im run back home wit his tail between his legs.” Ava said getting up.
Zan watched her walk away, lost in thought.
~~~
(Cheese Factory)
“So what are we supposed to do? Wait here in this dump until you decide it’s time for us to make a move?” Nicholas said irritated.
“Just leave it to me. I know what I’m doing. Here stay at a hotel until I tell you.” Tess said handing him some money. “This may take a while.”
“I hope your plan works Tess, for your sake.”
~~~
(Crashdown)
Liz glanced towards the doors for the tenth time since she opened the Crashdown. It was ten o’clock in the afternoon and she still hadn’t heard from Zan.
“Table three needs you Liz.” Maria said walking by her to put a tray on the counter.
Liz couldn’t take her eyes off the door. What if he left?
“LIZ!”
Liz jumped. “What?”
“I said table three needs you.”
“Oh okay.” Liz glanced at the door one more time.
“He’s going to come chica.” Maria said smiling.
“How do you know? What if he left?” Liz said nervously.
“Has he ever given you any reason to doubt him?”
Liz shook her head. “He’s never lied to me.”
“See? Okay now go and take care of table three.” Maria said smacking her on the butt.
When the bell chimed a couple of minutes later Liz looked up quickly only to be disappointed when Ava and Kyle walked in. They sat I their usual booth in the corner. Liz walked over to them.
“Hey guys. What do you-“Liz stopped a smile spreading across her face. She looked up at the door a minute before Zan walked in.
He spotted her quickly and walked purposely towards her. Liz’s heart started beating wildly in her chest, when she saw the predatory gleam in his eyes. Zan closed the distance between them in three long strides and without warning crushed his lips to hers.
Liz eagerly opened her mouth and let him taste her. As soon as their tongues touched she was bombarded with flashes.
*Zan coming out of the pods first and helping Lonnie and Ava out.*
*A young Zan being rejected for a job.*
*Zan, Ava, Rath, and Lonnie stealing for food after two weeks of starvation.*
*Zan stealing books from the library after the librarian refused to give him a library card.*
*Zan helping Ava, Rath, and Lonnie read.*
*Zan and Rath killing skins.*
*Zan reading a message to them about the summit meeting.*
*Zan staring at a picture of Liz thinking she was beautiful.*
*Zan’s first kiss with Liz.*
*Zan’s hurt and anger when she called out Max’s name.*
*Zan spotting Liz kissing Max in the backroom.*
*Zan’s feelings of rejection.*
*Zan staring at a picture of Liz determined to leave her alone despite how much he loved her.*
*Zan wishing he was Max so Liz would love him back.*
Liz pulled back tears welling in her eyes. “I’m sorry.” She said softly stroking his cheek.
Zan wiped the tears that spilled over. “Don’ cry cherry. You know I hate it.”
“Hello? Um, hi. Yes we’d like some service. So if you two are done with the making out can we have two Will Smith burgers with space fries and two alien blasts.” Kyle said raising his hand.
“Fuck off Kyle,” Zan glared at him. “Baby yous don’ gotta get him anything.” Zan’s eyes softened when he looked at her.
Liz smiled. “Unfortunately I have to. I kinda work here, but can we talk when I take my brake?”
Zan grinned. “Aight.” She gave him a quick kiss on the lips before leaving.
“Oookay, what the hell was that?” Kyle asked his eyebrows raised.
Zan sat down on the booth and leaned back a smile plastered on his face.
“Wat can I tell ya? I’m da man.” Zan said winking at Ava.
~~~
(Back Room)
“OH MY GOD!” Maria yelled jumping excitedly. “That kiss was HOT!”
Liz covered her face with her hands blushing brightly, though her embarrassment couldn’t wipe the smile off her face.
“Okay, details chica!”
“Maria you saw what happened.” Liz said rolling her eyes.
“You know what I mean. How did it feel? How did you feel? Are you guys together?” Maria fired off each question rapidly.
Liz thought back to the kiss and her smile faded.
“What? Didn’t you like it?”
“No, I mean yeah I liked it. It’s just I got flashes.”
“And that’s bad?” Maria said looking at Liz skeptically.
“No, it-he saw me kissing Max. God, Maria I felt everything he felt. It hurt him so much. I’ve hurt him so much.” Liz said sitting on the couch tears forming in her eyes.
Maria sat down wrapping her arms around her. “Do you love him Liz?” She asked gently.
Did she love him? Her head was saying it’s too soon but her heart was screaming YES! Liz nodded her head slowly.
“What about Max?”
Liz sighed. “I still love Max, just not the way I used to. Not the way I thought I did. He’s changed so much.”
“You can say that again. He’s an asshole now.”
“Maria!”
“Oh, please you know I’m right.” Maria said waving her hand dismissively.
Liz got up. “Okay, we need to get back to work. Just because my parent’s aren’t here doesn’t mean we cans lack off.”
Maria rolled her eyes. “Liz we slack off even when your parent’s are here.”
Liz smiled and went to pick up two trays.
~~~
(Michael’s House)
Michael glanced over at Rath still a little weirded out that he was sitting next to someone who looked just like him. Lonnie was still asleep and they were currently eating two bowls of cereal, in front of the TV.
“Yo, I need to talk to ya ‘bout somethin’ that happened in New York.” Rath said never taking his eyes off the screen.
“What?” Michael said turning his head to look at him.
“The night befo the summit meetin’ I woke up an’ G wasn’ in her bed. I waited up fo her an she came back ‘bout twenty minutes lata.”
Michael raised his eyebrow. “Okay, who’s G and why do you care?”
“Tess. She wasn’ in her bed. Where the fuck you gotta go when yous neva been to New York befo? Then afta the summit thing she waz always out all day an sometimes she ain’t even come back till mornin’.” Rath said finally looking at Michael.
Michael narrowed his eyes. “Do you know where she went?”
Rath shook his head. “Nah, I ain’t eva had time to follow ‘er.”
“She wasn’t at the Crashdown when you guys got back. Where did she go?”
“She tol’ me to drop ‘er off at ‘er house cause she was tired. Iwasn’ about to argue wit ‘er. She ma fuckin’ annoyin’.”
“What did Max say?”
Rath snorted. “Yo, Max waz too busy fuckin’ his bitch to notice anythin’ around ‘im.”
“Do you want to find out what she’s up to?”
“Word? Yous wanna follow ‘er?” Rath asked surprised Michael believed him.
Michael shrugged. “Yeah, I mean you share my DNA. Obviously we have the same instincts.
Rath smirked. “Aight.”
Rath held out his hand, Michael stared at it before taking it. They smiled at each other and their handshake came naturally.
~~~
(Liz’s room)
“Mmm…Zan…we have…to…talk.” Liz said in between kisses.
Liz had taken her brake ten minutes ago and they still hadn’t gotten around to talking. She had led him upstairs for some privacy but Zan had sat down on the couch and pulled her onto his lap kissing away her protests. She felt his hands move down to cup her ass. Knowing they needed to talk before things got out of hand, Liz pulled back.
“Wait…Max...”
Zan’s eyes hardened and he removed his hands from her. “WAT?”
“Baby, we have to talk about Max, but I can’t concentrate when you kiss me.” Liz soothed stroking his cheek.
Zan sighed and lifted her off his lap. Liz sat next to him and turned his face so she looked into his eyes.
Zan didn’t want to talk. The talk he had with Ava had reminded him of who he was and had given him back the confidence to pursue her but he was still afraid of what she was going to say to him. Hey it was fun but I don’t love you I love Max?
“I know you saw us kissing.” Liz started quietly.
Zan stood up. “Yo, I forgot I waz supposed to talk to Lon’s ‘bout somethin’ I-“
“I don’t love him anymore.” Liz said cutting him off.
Zan frowned and sat back down. “Wat?”
“I mean I’ll always love him, he’ll always have a place in my heart but it’s like Kyle or Alex. They’re my friends and I love them but I’m not in love with them.”
Zan’s heart was hammering in his chest. Should he believe her?
“When he kissed me yesterday I didn’t feel like I thought I would. I didn’t feel a connection, I didn’t feel safe, I didn’t feel like I was coming home, I didn’t feel my love for him burst through me, I didn’t feel…like I always feel…when I’m with you.” Liz finished softly.
Zan stared at her at a loss for words.
“Zan I love you. It took me a while to realize it but I think I fell in love with you the first time you came to my room and wiped my tears away.”
Zan shook his head in disbelief. How could she honestly say she wasn’t in love with Max when all her thoughts had been consumed by him these past few weeks? He hadn’t gotten flashes from her in a while because he blocked them but he was pretty sure they were still of Max.
“Yous don’ gotta lie to me Liz.” Zan said.
Liz’s eyes widened. “Zan I’m not-“
“Do you know wat I be seein’ when I kiss ya cherry?” Zans aid getting up angrily. “I see yous two kissin’ at ya cornball restaurant, I see yous holding hands an’ laughin’ an’ it fuckin’ kills me.”
Liz could feel Zan’s pain and it brought tears to her eyes. “Is that what you see? When you kiss me now is that what you see?” How could it be Max he sees when all she could think about was Zan? All she wanted was Zan?
Zan didn’t answer.
Liz stood up. “Kiss me Zan. I want you to kiss me and let me see what you see.”
Zan shook his head. He didn’t need those images in his head again.
Liz stood on her toes and started placing small kisses along his jaw. “Please Zan. Open up to me. Kiss me.”
Unable to resist her plea Zan pulled her by her waist and kissed her. He tasted her sweetness and deepened the kiss letting her tongue play with his. He could feel her mind opening up to him and unblocked the images.
*Zan kissing Liz at school.*
*Zan kissing Liz in front of her balcony steps.*
*Zan wiping away her tears and making her smile.*
*Liz laughing while Zan ran after her trying to catch her.*
*Zan tickling her on the couch.*
*Liz snuggled up to Zan while they watched a movie.*
*Liz smiling at Zan when she won playing Mario Kart.*
*Zan kissing her on the bed.*
*Liz watching Zan laughing at something Kyle said and thinking he was sexy.*
Zan pulled back breathing heavily. Liz smiled up at him her breath coming out in pants. He looked into her shining brown eyes and grinned.
“Yous think I’m sexy?”
Liz rolled her eyes. “Oh shut up.”
Zan kissed her hard one more time. “I love you.” He whispered nuzzling her nose playfully.
“I love you too.”
Chapter 11
Zan woke up to a tickling in his ear. He opened his eyes and looked up at a smiling Ava, a feather in hand. She touched her finger to her mouth, the universal sign of be quiet and pointed at Liz. She was still asleep. He pointed to his wrist and Ava put up six fingers. It was way too early to be awake. Ava mouthed the words ‘I have to talk to you.’
Zan nodded and sat up carefully not wanting to wake Liz up. When he made to turn her over so she lay on the couch she opened her eyes sleepily. She frowned looking around groggily until her eyes landed on Zan.
“Are you leaving?” she asked her eyes wide and her voice husky from sleep.
“Not yet.”
“Don’t go.” Liz whispered wrapping her arms around his waist hugging him to her tightly.
Zan was surprised she asked him to stay but lifted her in his arms nonetheless. Liz’s legs automatically went around his waist, her arms around his neck and her face buried in his chest. She hadn’t even noticed Ava watching the entire exchange with a smile on her face.
Zan laid Liz on her bed but she refused to let go of his neck.
“Liz…”
Liz shook her head. “I don’t answer to that name from you.”
Zan gave her a small smile. “Let go an’ go back ta sleep cherry.”
Liz gave him her best pout. “If I go to sleep will you still be here when I wake up?”
Zan looked into her beautiful face, her eyes big and round and her lower lip sticking out. “Yea, cherry. I’ma be here.”
Liz smiled and lifted up to give him a brief kiss on the lips before lying down and curling onto her side.
Zan just stood there for a while wondering what just happened. Remembering Ava was still outside he walked slowly back to the living room. Well, so much for he didn’t need anyone, Zan berated himself.
~~~
(Park)
“So, yous two looked pretty cozy on that couch.” Ava said wiggling her eyebrows and smiling.
Zan shrugged but didn’t comment.
“You wanna tell me what the fuck happened yestaday?” Ava asked all traces of humor gone.
“Nothin’” Zan said gruffly.
“Fo real? Damn, then I musta imagined you stormin’ out, then comin’ back ‘bout fiftenn minutes lata lookin’ like a fuckin’ robot.” Ava said crossing her arms over her chest.
Zan looked away.
“Come on Zan. Yous can tell me. We bitches rememba?”
Zan sighed. “I saw ‘er kissin’ ma bitch ass dupe.”
Ava’s eyes widened. “When they was talkin’?”
Zan snorted. “Not much talkin’ goin’ on when I saw ‘em.”
Ava nodded. “Aight lemme see if I can guess wat happened. You see Lizzie an’ Max together. Ya leave, hmmm I don’t know ya probably come ‘ere. Ya start thinking you ain’t shit. That yous is worthless and decide fuck it I’ma let ‘er make the biggest mistake of ‘er life an’ leave ‘er alone to be wit him. Am I on point?”
Zan looked at her his eyes wide with shock.
“Wow, I didn’ know you was such a bitch ass pussy. All this talk about how you da man, an’ you let some cornball from Rozzy steal ya bitch.” Ava said shaking her head.
“She was his bitch first.”
“Yea, but he fuckin’ left her. He runs off ta New York an fucks some otha hoe while yous takin’ care of Liz. She waz here cryin’ ova that jackass an’ he was havin’ the time of ‘is life. You two waz fuckin’ inseparable, you be lookin’ at each other an’ ya automatically know what the otha wants or be thinkin’ about. You gotta be a special kinda stupid not to see ya belong togetha.”
Zan opened and closed his mouth several times before speaking. “Yeah, but she love ‘im.” He argued weakly.
“Aight fuck this.” Ava said getting up. “If you wanna be a bitch ass go ahead. I jus thought I was talkin’ to da man. Ya know he always fightin’ fo wat he wants till he gets it. I ain’t neva seen ‘im run back home wit his tail between his legs.” Ava said getting up.
Zan watched her walk away, lost in thought.
~~~
(Cheese Factory)
“So what are we supposed to do? Wait here in this dump until you decide it’s time for us to make a move?” Nicholas said irritated.
“Just leave it to me. I know what I’m doing. Here stay at a hotel until I tell you.” Tess said handing him some money. “This may take a while.”
“I hope your plan works Tess, for your sake.”
~~~
(Crashdown)
Liz glanced towards the doors for the tenth time since she opened the Crashdown. It was ten o’clock in the afternoon and she still hadn’t heard from Zan.
“Table three needs you Liz.” Maria said walking by her to put a tray on the counter.
Liz couldn’t take her eyes off the door. What if he left?
“LIZ!”
Liz jumped. “What?”
“I said table three needs you.”
“Oh okay.” Liz glanced at the door one more time.
“He’s going to come chica.” Maria said smiling.
“How do you know? What if he left?” Liz said nervously.
“Has he ever given you any reason to doubt him?”
Liz shook her head. “He’s never lied to me.”
“See? Okay now go and take care of table three.” Maria said smacking her on the butt.
When the bell chimed a couple of minutes later Liz looked up quickly only to be disappointed when Ava and Kyle walked in. They sat I their usual booth in the corner. Liz walked over to them.
“Hey guys. What do you-“Liz stopped a smile spreading across her face. She looked up at the door a minute before Zan walked in.
He spotted her quickly and walked purposely towards her. Liz’s heart started beating wildly in her chest, when she saw the predatory gleam in his eyes. Zan closed the distance between them in three long strides and without warning crushed his lips to hers.
Liz eagerly opened her mouth and let him taste her. As soon as their tongues touched she was bombarded with flashes.
*Zan coming out of the pods first and helping Lonnie and Ava out.*
*A young Zan being rejected for a job.*
*Zan, Ava, Rath, and Lonnie stealing for food after two weeks of starvation.*
*Zan stealing books from the library after the librarian refused to give him a library card.*
*Zan helping Ava, Rath, and Lonnie read.*
*Zan and Rath killing skins.*
*Zan reading a message to them about the summit meeting.*
*Zan staring at a picture of Liz thinking she was beautiful.*
*Zan’s first kiss with Liz.*
*Zan’s hurt and anger when she called out Max’s name.*
*Zan spotting Liz kissing Max in the backroom.*
*Zan’s feelings of rejection.*
*Zan staring at a picture of Liz determined to leave her alone despite how much he loved her.*
*Zan wishing he was Max so Liz would love him back.*
Liz pulled back tears welling in her eyes. “I’m sorry.” She said softly stroking his cheek.
Zan wiped the tears that spilled over. “Don’ cry cherry. You know I hate it.”
“Hello? Um, hi. Yes we’d like some service. So if you two are done with the making out can we have two Will Smith burgers with space fries and two alien blasts.” Kyle said raising his hand.
“Fuck off Kyle,” Zan glared at him. “Baby yous don’ gotta get him anything.” Zan’s eyes softened when he looked at her.
Liz smiled. “Unfortunately I have to. I kinda work here, but can we talk when I take my brake?”
Zan grinned. “Aight.” She gave him a quick kiss on the lips before leaving.
“Oookay, what the hell was that?” Kyle asked his eyebrows raised.
Zan sat down on the booth and leaned back a smile plastered on his face.
“Wat can I tell ya? I’m da man.” Zan said winking at Ava.
~~~
(Back Room)
“OH MY GOD!” Maria yelled jumping excitedly. “That kiss was HOT!”
Liz covered her face with her hands blushing brightly, though her embarrassment couldn’t wipe the smile off her face.
“Okay, details chica!”
“Maria you saw what happened.” Liz said rolling her eyes.
“You know what I mean. How did it feel? How did you feel? Are you guys together?” Maria fired off each question rapidly.
Liz thought back to the kiss and her smile faded.
“What? Didn’t you like it?”
“No, I mean yeah I liked it. It’s just I got flashes.”
“And that’s bad?” Maria said looking at Liz skeptically.
“No, it-he saw me kissing Max. God, Maria I felt everything he felt. It hurt him so much. I’ve hurt him so much.” Liz said sitting on the couch tears forming in her eyes.
Maria sat down wrapping her arms around her. “Do you love him Liz?” She asked gently.
Did she love him? Her head was saying it’s too soon but her heart was screaming YES! Liz nodded her head slowly.
“What about Max?”
Liz sighed. “I still love Max, just not the way I used to. Not the way I thought I did. He’s changed so much.”
“You can say that again. He’s an asshole now.”
“Maria!”
“Oh, please you know I’m right.” Maria said waving her hand dismissively.
Liz got up. “Okay, we need to get back to work. Just because my parent’s aren’t here doesn’t mean we cans lack off.”
Maria rolled her eyes. “Liz we slack off even when your parent’s are here.”
Liz smiled and went to pick up two trays.
~~~
(Michael’s House)
Michael glanced over at Rath still a little weirded out that he was sitting next to someone who looked just like him. Lonnie was still asleep and they were currently eating two bowls of cereal, in front of the TV.
“Yo, I need to talk to ya ‘bout somethin’ that happened in New York.” Rath said never taking his eyes off the screen.
“What?” Michael said turning his head to look at him.
“The night befo the summit meetin’ I woke up an’ G wasn’ in her bed. I waited up fo her an she came back ‘bout twenty minutes lata.”
Michael raised his eyebrow. “Okay, who’s G and why do you care?”
“Tess. She wasn’ in her bed. Where the fuck you gotta go when yous neva been to New York befo? Then afta the summit thing she waz always out all day an sometimes she ain’t even come back till mornin’.” Rath said finally looking at Michael.
Michael narrowed his eyes. “Do you know where she went?”
Rath shook his head. “Nah, I ain’t eva had time to follow ‘er.”
“She wasn’t at the Crashdown when you guys got back. Where did she go?”
“She tol’ me to drop ‘er off at ‘er house cause she was tired. Iwasn’ about to argue wit ‘er. She ma fuckin’ annoyin’.”
“What did Max say?”
Rath snorted. “Yo, Max waz too busy fuckin’ his bitch to notice anythin’ around ‘im.”
“Do you want to find out what she’s up to?”
“Word? Yous wanna follow ‘er?” Rath asked surprised Michael believed him.
Michael shrugged. “Yeah, I mean you share my DNA. Obviously we have the same instincts.
Rath smirked. “Aight.”
Rath held out his hand, Michael stared at it before taking it. They smiled at each other and their handshake came naturally.
~~~
(Liz’s room)
“Mmm…Zan…we have…to…talk.” Liz said in between kisses.
Liz had taken her brake ten minutes ago and they still hadn’t gotten around to talking. She had led him upstairs for some privacy but Zan had sat down on the couch and pulled her onto his lap kissing away her protests. She felt his hands move down to cup her ass. Knowing they needed to talk before things got out of hand, Liz pulled back.
“Wait…Max...”
Zan’s eyes hardened and he removed his hands from her. “WAT?”
“Baby, we have to talk about Max, but I can’t concentrate when you kiss me.” Liz soothed stroking his cheek.
Zan sighed and lifted her off his lap. Liz sat next to him and turned his face so she looked into his eyes.
Zan didn’t want to talk. The talk he had with Ava had reminded him of who he was and had given him back the confidence to pursue her but he was still afraid of what she was going to say to him. Hey it was fun but I don’t love you I love Max?
“I know you saw us kissing.” Liz started quietly.
Zan stood up. “Yo, I forgot I waz supposed to talk to Lon’s ‘bout somethin’ I-“
“I don’t love him anymore.” Liz said cutting him off.
Zan frowned and sat back down. “Wat?”
“I mean I’ll always love him, he’ll always have a place in my heart but it’s like Kyle or Alex. They’re my friends and I love them but I’m not in love with them.”
Zan’s heart was hammering in his chest. Should he believe her?
“When he kissed me yesterday I didn’t feel like I thought I would. I didn’t feel a connection, I didn’t feel safe, I didn’t feel like I was coming home, I didn’t feel my love for him burst through me, I didn’t feel…like I always feel…when I’m with you.” Liz finished softly.
Zan stared at her at a loss for words.
“Zan I love you. It took me a while to realize it but I think I fell in love with you the first time you came to my room and wiped my tears away.”
Zan shook his head in disbelief. How could she honestly say she wasn’t in love with Max when all her thoughts had been consumed by him these past few weeks? He hadn’t gotten flashes from her in a while because he blocked them but he was pretty sure they were still of Max.
“Yous don’ gotta lie to me Liz.” Zan said.
Liz’s eyes widened. “Zan I’m not-“
“Do you know wat I be seein’ when I kiss ya cherry?” Zans aid getting up angrily. “I see yous two kissin’ at ya cornball restaurant, I see yous holding hands an’ laughin’ an’ it fuckin’ kills me.”
Liz could feel Zan’s pain and it brought tears to her eyes. “Is that what you see? When you kiss me now is that what you see?” How could it be Max he sees when all she could think about was Zan? All she wanted was Zan?
Zan didn’t answer.
Liz stood up. “Kiss me Zan. I want you to kiss me and let me see what you see.”
Zan shook his head. He didn’t need those images in his head again.
Liz stood on her toes and started placing small kisses along his jaw. “Please Zan. Open up to me. Kiss me.”
Unable to resist her plea Zan pulled her by her waist and kissed her. He tasted her sweetness and deepened the kiss letting her tongue play with his. He could feel her mind opening up to him and unblocked the images.
*Zan kissing Liz at school.*
*Zan kissing Liz in front of her balcony steps.*
*Zan wiping away her tears and making her smile.*
*Liz laughing while Zan ran after her trying to catch her.*
*Zan tickling her on the couch.*
*Liz snuggled up to Zan while they watched a movie.*
*Liz smiling at Zan when she won playing Mario Kart.*
*Zan kissing her on the bed.*
*Liz watching Zan laughing at something Kyle said and thinking he was sexy.*
Zan pulled back breathing heavily. Liz smiled up at him her breath coming out in pants. He looked into her shining brown eyes and grinned.
“Yous think I’m sexy?”
Liz rolled her eyes. “Oh shut up.”
Zan kissed her hard one more time. “I love you.” He whispered nuzzling her nose playfully.
“I love you too.”