OUR SINS/CHAPTER 15 10/23/07
Posted: Mon Oct 22, 2007 10:41 pm
Hi guys... as always, thank you for your patience. I know it's taking me along time to post chapters but as you know RL really sucks.
I hope you like this new chapter.
Thank you for your feedback and for taking the time to read this story.
Love ya all!!!!
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Previously…
Officers, remove the prisoner.
No… this is not fair.
Sean calm down. You are not helping your case by behaving this way.
You know what you shut up. My mother is paying you a whole lot of money for what? You can’t even get me out on bail. You’re fired.
Officers…
Once Sean was removed from the Judge addressed the Court.
This case is adjourned until trial. Trial is set for February 28th. This Court is dismissed.
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Over the next few weeks life went back more or less to normal for Liz and Max. Liz went back to her house and resume life as best as she could with the help of her friends and family and Max went back to live in Church and resumed his duties as such. Max was still debating on how to deal with the changes in his life and what to do…
Max?
Yes Father Maurice what can I do for you?
I think it’s time we sit and have a real talk.
I know.
Tell me Max what have you decide to do?
To be honest, I really don’t know. I mean I know that I want to be a part of my daughter’s life but at the same time I don’t want to stop doing the things that I am doing know.
Max, we both know that you became a priest for the wrong reasons and I’m not saying that you haven’t tried really hard to be a good one but let’s be honest you don’t really have the desire or vocation to be one for the rest of your life.
I…
Let me finish.
Okay.
Max, I think that you are an amazing human being. I am very proud of calling you my friend and that our church is really lucky to have had you serving it for all these years, but I think it’s time for you to go into the real work and start living the life that you were supposed to be living. I think that it’s time for you to step down and hung the habit. This life is not for you. You need to go out into the world and be with your daughter and be the kind of father I know you can be for her. She really needs that and if you stay in church you are not going to be able to do so. This life takes a lot of you and as much as you will try and have a relationship with her and stay being a priest it’s not going to be enough. You already missed a lot of her life. You need to be there and help her completely once she finds out that you are her real father. That is going to be hard for her to understand and will need you there with her mother to through it.
Father I know all that but I still don’t know if that is the best. I mean even if I leave the church that doesn’t guarantee that I will have a life with her completely in my life. I still don’t know what is going to happen.
You are right Max you don’t but I think it’s time for you to stop hiding and face the real world.
I don’t know…
I’m not asking you to make a decision right now I’m just pointing to you the facts that you have to consider in order to take control of your life. Life is not easy Max you know that. You know that better than anybody else. You had your heart broken at a very young age and that is something that for some is not easy to get over it but have faith and really analyze what it is that you want your future to be. I think that you need to get away for a few days.
I can’t leave Father, not now.
I’m not asking you to leave all I’m saying is that you need to be away for a couple a days so you can organize your ideas and sort out your feeling and come to a decision to what is it that you want to do with your life.
Father…
Max I will make the arrangements for you to be away this weekend. I want you to go away and I want you to come to a decision. You can’t keep living like this it’s not fair to you and it’s not fair to those around you.
Okay father. I will go away. I’m going to talk to my family today to let them know.
Are you going to tell Liz?
I guess so.
Well, let me go and see what I can do. Remember Max, whatever you decide to do I will support you no matter what.
Thank you Father.
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Max was walking down the path to his favorite place. Every time that he wanted to sort his thoughts out this was the place that he came to. It was their special place ever since they were children and Max knew that it was the best place for him to talk to Liz. He knew that she was going to be waiting for him and as always it gave him butterflies in his stomach. How was it possible that after all these years she still had that effect on him. He looked down and saw her sitting there waiting for him…
Were you waiting long?
Hi Max, no I got here just a few minutes ago.
Where is Maxie?
She stayed with Isabel I think they were going to go shipping.
Again? I think that my sister is going to be a bad influence on her.
Nah, I had a talk with Isabel before I left. Um Max, why do you wanted me to meet you here?
I need to talk to you and I didn’t want to have any interruptions.
Okay, so what do you want to talk about then?
Liz, I’m going away for a couple of days and before I leave I wanted to talk to you about Maxie.
What about Maxie?
Liz, are you going to tell her the truth? I mean she is going to find out sooner or later specially with Sean’s trial and people talking.
I know… I want to tell her but to be honest I’m very scared.
Scared? Why?
I don’t know if she is going to understand or even if she is going to be okay about it once I tell her.
I know that this is going to be hard on her but she is a very smart kid.
I don’t want her to hate me.
Liz she is not going to hate you. She is probably going to be confused but if you are there for her she will be fine.
What about you?
What about me?
Do you want to be there when I tell her the truth?
Do you want me to?
Yes… No… I don’t know.
Liz I will do whatever you want me to do. I also want what’s best for Maxie. I want to be a part of her life. I want to be her father not her uncle. I want her to understand that I will do anything for her and that I will always be there for her because I love her.
Okay I’m going to tell her and I want you to be there with me. I want you to be there when I tell her the truth.
Okay, when do you want to do it?
How about tomorrow night? Can you meet me here after school?
I’ll be here.
Okay then.
Okay.
Max can I ask you a question?
Sure?
Where are you going?
I’m just going away for the weekend; I need to think about what I’m I going to do with my life from now on and Father Maurice thinks that going away is the best way for me to make that decision.
I’m sorry.
For what Liz?
For messing up your life.
Liz, you didn’t mess up my life.
Yes I did. It seems that’s all I know how to do well ever since we were kids.
No Liz, don’t say that. That is not true.
Yes it is. Ever since that summer years ago it’s all I do. If I had listened to you and let you help me then I don’t think that none of this would’ve happened.
Don’t you see Liz… everything that happened was for a reason and I for one don’t regret it because of it you gave me the greatest gift of all… you gave me Maxine and that is something that I will always be grateful for. To know that she is a part of you and me… God Liz it’s the most amazing thing.
I don’t regret her either Max. She is the best thing that ever happened to me too. She is the light in my life. I’m the one that is grateful to you. You are the one that gave me that gift Max. You gave her to me.
Well I guess we are both lucky but Liz, you have to get some help too. You have to open yourself to someone and deal with your problems too. You’ve been through so much and you never dealt with it. I think it’s time for you to do it, if not for you do it for her. After all of this is over she is going to need you to be there for her and she is going to need you strong.
I know and I promise that I will do that. I don’t want to feel this way anymore Max. I don’t want to hurt anymore… tears started running down her face and that was something that Max didn’t like. Every time he saw her crying it broke his heart.
He pulled her into his arms… don’t cry, please. I don’t like to see you cry. Everything is going to be okay.
How do you know? I mean I’m so scared Max. I don’t know how our baby is going to react to all of this… I don’t know how much my actions had damaged her already… it’s all my fault.
Shh… everything is going to be okay Liz… I promise you. Everything is going to be okay. I know it’s going to be difficult but in the end everything is going to work out you’ll see. You are not alone anymore. You have family and friends that are willing to help you and you also have me.
Thank you Max.
What for?
For always been there for me… for no hating me when all I’ve ever done is hurt you. I still don’t know how can you still look at me.
It simple… I love you.
She looked at him; did she hear him say that he loved her? was that her imagination?... what did you just say?
I said that I love you, how could I not? No matter what happened between us you are still my best friend Liz and I will always be here for you.
Oh… thanks. I guess we should be going. I have to pick up Maxie and tomorrow is a school day.
Okay. At what time do you want me to meet you here?
How about four?
I’ll be here.
I guess I’ll see you tomorrow.
Yes Liz… tomorrow.
I hope you like this new chapter.
Thank you for your feedback and for taking the time to read this story.
Love ya all!!!!
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Previously…
Officers, remove the prisoner.
No… this is not fair.
Sean calm down. You are not helping your case by behaving this way.
You know what you shut up. My mother is paying you a whole lot of money for what? You can’t even get me out on bail. You’re fired.
Officers…
Once Sean was removed from the Judge addressed the Court.
This case is adjourned until trial. Trial is set for February 28th. This Court is dismissed.
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Over the next few weeks life went back more or less to normal for Liz and Max. Liz went back to her house and resume life as best as she could with the help of her friends and family and Max went back to live in Church and resumed his duties as such. Max was still debating on how to deal with the changes in his life and what to do…
Max?
Yes Father Maurice what can I do for you?
I think it’s time we sit and have a real talk.
I know.
Tell me Max what have you decide to do?
To be honest, I really don’t know. I mean I know that I want to be a part of my daughter’s life but at the same time I don’t want to stop doing the things that I am doing know.
Max, we both know that you became a priest for the wrong reasons and I’m not saying that you haven’t tried really hard to be a good one but let’s be honest you don’t really have the desire or vocation to be one for the rest of your life.
I…
Let me finish.
Okay.
Max, I think that you are an amazing human being. I am very proud of calling you my friend and that our church is really lucky to have had you serving it for all these years, but I think it’s time for you to go into the real work and start living the life that you were supposed to be living. I think that it’s time for you to step down and hung the habit. This life is not for you. You need to go out into the world and be with your daughter and be the kind of father I know you can be for her. She really needs that and if you stay in church you are not going to be able to do so. This life takes a lot of you and as much as you will try and have a relationship with her and stay being a priest it’s not going to be enough. You already missed a lot of her life. You need to be there and help her completely once she finds out that you are her real father. That is going to be hard for her to understand and will need you there with her mother to through it.
Father I know all that but I still don’t know if that is the best. I mean even if I leave the church that doesn’t guarantee that I will have a life with her completely in my life. I still don’t know what is going to happen.
You are right Max you don’t but I think it’s time for you to stop hiding and face the real world.
I don’t know…
I’m not asking you to make a decision right now I’m just pointing to you the facts that you have to consider in order to take control of your life. Life is not easy Max you know that. You know that better than anybody else. You had your heart broken at a very young age and that is something that for some is not easy to get over it but have faith and really analyze what it is that you want your future to be. I think that you need to get away for a few days.
I can’t leave Father, not now.
I’m not asking you to leave all I’m saying is that you need to be away for a couple a days so you can organize your ideas and sort out your feeling and come to a decision to what is it that you want to do with your life.
Father…
Max I will make the arrangements for you to be away this weekend. I want you to go away and I want you to come to a decision. You can’t keep living like this it’s not fair to you and it’s not fair to those around you.
Okay father. I will go away. I’m going to talk to my family today to let them know.
Are you going to tell Liz?
I guess so.
Well, let me go and see what I can do. Remember Max, whatever you decide to do I will support you no matter what.
Thank you Father.
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Max was walking down the path to his favorite place. Every time that he wanted to sort his thoughts out this was the place that he came to. It was their special place ever since they were children and Max knew that it was the best place for him to talk to Liz. He knew that she was going to be waiting for him and as always it gave him butterflies in his stomach. How was it possible that after all these years she still had that effect on him. He looked down and saw her sitting there waiting for him…
Were you waiting long?
Hi Max, no I got here just a few minutes ago.
Where is Maxie?
She stayed with Isabel I think they were going to go shipping.
Again? I think that my sister is going to be a bad influence on her.
Nah, I had a talk with Isabel before I left. Um Max, why do you wanted me to meet you here?
I need to talk to you and I didn’t want to have any interruptions.
Okay, so what do you want to talk about then?
Liz, I’m going away for a couple of days and before I leave I wanted to talk to you about Maxie.
What about Maxie?
Liz, are you going to tell her the truth? I mean she is going to find out sooner or later specially with Sean’s trial and people talking.
I know… I want to tell her but to be honest I’m very scared.
Scared? Why?
I don’t know if she is going to understand or even if she is going to be okay about it once I tell her.
I know that this is going to be hard on her but she is a very smart kid.
I don’t want her to hate me.
Liz she is not going to hate you. She is probably going to be confused but if you are there for her she will be fine.
What about you?
What about me?
Do you want to be there when I tell her the truth?
Do you want me to?
Yes… No… I don’t know.
Liz I will do whatever you want me to do. I also want what’s best for Maxie. I want to be a part of her life. I want to be her father not her uncle. I want her to understand that I will do anything for her and that I will always be there for her because I love her.
Okay I’m going to tell her and I want you to be there with me. I want you to be there when I tell her the truth.
Okay, when do you want to do it?
How about tomorrow night? Can you meet me here after school?
I’ll be here.
Okay then.
Okay.
Max can I ask you a question?
Sure?
Where are you going?
I’m just going away for the weekend; I need to think about what I’m I going to do with my life from now on and Father Maurice thinks that going away is the best way for me to make that decision.
I’m sorry.
For what Liz?
For messing up your life.
Liz, you didn’t mess up my life.
Yes I did. It seems that’s all I know how to do well ever since we were kids.
No Liz, don’t say that. That is not true.
Yes it is. Ever since that summer years ago it’s all I do. If I had listened to you and let you help me then I don’t think that none of this would’ve happened.
Don’t you see Liz… everything that happened was for a reason and I for one don’t regret it because of it you gave me the greatest gift of all… you gave me Maxine and that is something that I will always be grateful for. To know that she is a part of you and me… God Liz it’s the most amazing thing.
I don’t regret her either Max. She is the best thing that ever happened to me too. She is the light in my life. I’m the one that is grateful to you. You are the one that gave me that gift Max. You gave her to me.
Well I guess we are both lucky but Liz, you have to get some help too. You have to open yourself to someone and deal with your problems too. You’ve been through so much and you never dealt with it. I think it’s time for you to do it, if not for you do it for her. After all of this is over she is going to need you to be there for her and she is going to need you strong.
I know and I promise that I will do that. I don’t want to feel this way anymore Max. I don’t want to hurt anymore… tears started running down her face and that was something that Max didn’t like. Every time he saw her crying it broke his heart.
He pulled her into his arms… don’t cry, please. I don’t like to see you cry. Everything is going to be okay.
How do you know? I mean I’m so scared Max. I don’t know how our baby is going to react to all of this… I don’t know how much my actions had damaged her already… it’s all my fault.
Shh… everything is going to be okay Liz… I promise you. Everything is going to be okay. I know it’s going to be difficult but in the end everything is going to work out you’ll see. You are not alone anymore. You have family and friends that are willing to help you and you also have me.
Thank you Max.
What for?
For always been there for me… for no hating me when all I’ve ever done is hurt you. I still don’t know how can you still look at me.
It simple… I love you.
She looked at him; did she hear him say that he loved her? was that her imagination?... what did you just say?
I said that I love you, how could I not? No matter what happened between us you are still my best friend Liz and I will always be here for you.
Oh… thanks. I guess we should be going. I have to pick up Maxie and tomorrow is a school day.
Okay. At what time do you want me to meet you here?
How about four?
I’ll be here.
I guess I’ll see you tomorrow.
Yes Liz… tomorrow.