Posted: Sun Feb 23, 2003 12:29 am
Title: Alone
Author: EmmyAwards
Theme Song: Alone by Emily Chai Kym
(Lyrics are on the first post, Song can be downloaded from this http://emmy.will.id.au.
Feedback: First story ever written and I suck at writing, but some feedback would be appreciated.
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Song For Part Eleven: Frustration by The Moffatts
There's no windows in this place
For me to show my weary face
Rage I hold within my soul
At times I cannot control
What's the point of me being here
When being me is what I fear
Every day it's all the same
Trapped again in my own pain
I cry myself to sleep
So many secrets I must keep
No one to reach me... nobody cares
Trapped in the middle of a distant stare
I've prayed that I was free
Of this grief that's filling me
Everywhere I turn
Every bridge must burn
There's no windows in this place
For me to show my weary face
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Part Eleven
“Max? Max?” Isabelle said knocking on his door softly. Using her alien powers she opened the door and stepped into the dark room. She made her way to the bed and sat down, gently patting the quilt in which her broken hearted brother lay under.
“I screwed everything up royally Is” came Max’s muffled voice. He poked his ruffled head out from the covers and Isabelle could see his red rimmed eyes, no pretence of being strong, her brother had always wore his emotions on his sleeve, particularly when it had come to Liz Parker, after all he had exposed their entire secret to her without a second thought.
Isabelle recalled those first few weeks after their secret had been revealed. To see the depth of feelings that Max and Liz had for each other had made Isabelle even colder to Liz then she would have normally been to most people. The Ice Queen she was known as, but she had always been a melting puddle when it came to her brother and Michael to an extent as well. They had been three aliens against the world, and were extremely protective of each other. Until Liz had entered their lives Max’s affections were shown only to Isabelle, even though he had harboured feelings for Liz since the third grade. It was something that Isabelle couldn’t handle. Feeling like she was losing her brother to someone else. But she had been so wrong. Liz had seemed to complete Max, something that not even Tess, his former bride could do. She had never seen Max so happy or so sad then when he was with Liz. As Max had once told Isabelle, being in love is when you’re the happiest you’ve been in your entire life, and the saddest you’ve ever been all at the same time. Isabelle had yet to feel that, she had wondered if she would ever feel that with Alex, but now she would never know. Someone had taken that opportunity from her and she made a silent vow to Alex that she would pick up where Liz left off and find his killer. She hated the thought of having to kill again, after destroying Senator Whittaker, but she would make an exception just this once.
“Max, you didn’t know” she said finally.
“Yeah I didn’t know, but it doesn’t matter anymore. I slept with Tess. I don’t think Liz will forgive me for that”
“But you thought she slept with Kyle” Isabelle pointed out.
“Yeah but she did that for the good of the planet. To save us. What reasons did I have to sleep with Tess for? Because I was upset about Liz? Because I wanted to get back at her?” Isabelle didn’t know what to say. She knew that Max would continue to berate himself no matter what she would say.
“What are you going to do about Tess?” she asked him.
“I’ve been avoiding her since then, which makes me feel like a jerk, you know like I was just using her to get laid, but I can’t… I can’t face her anymore, it reminds me too much of my betrayal.” My betrayal. Max thought. Never in his wildest imagination could he come up with a worse nightmare than what reality had handed him. Nasedo would be proud he mused, knowing that he and Tess had slept together. But the thought of it made Max’s stomach revolt. It wasn’t that Tess wasn’t pretty, or that she was a bad person or anything. She just wasn’t Liz that was all. He had always imagined that he and Liz would lose their virginity to each other, that they would get married and have their 2.5 children and a house with a white picket fence. He knew that his fantasy was never going to happen now. He had lost his virginity to Tess, something he could never regain, something he could never give to Liz no matter how much he desired to. He wondered vaguely if Liz had known, and that perhaps that was the reason why she didn’t want them to find her. He wanted so much to run around the entire country to look for her, grab her in his arms and beg for forgiveness. But perhaps after all the pain he had caused her he should respect her wishes. He should have listened to Maria.
“Give Liz up. Leave her alone. All this is leading nowhere and none of us belong with any of you. And I’m really sick of how much it’s screwing us up. I mean look at us we’re pathetic.”
“Max?” Isabelle asked as his mind wandered. He looked back at her, his flashback over. “You’re going to have to give her a straight answer sometime soon you know” he nodded and buried his head back under the covers.
“I know Is. But not now. Not yet.”
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Michael sat on his couch holding a tearful Maria in his arms.
“She left me. The three musketeers are no more. Everyone leaves me. My dad left me, Alex left me, Liz left me… and someday you’ll leave me too!” she said sobbing again. Michael sat there not knowing what to say. It was true that someday he may have to leave her as much as he didn’t want to. After everything they had been through since he had kidnapped her he couldn’t imagine his life without her there to bicker and make up with. Turbulent as their relationship was, he wouldn’t trade it in for anything else. After all, Max and Liz had always seemed the poster couple for love and look how that had turned out. Maria had fallen asleep, leaving Michael to dwell on his own thoughts. His thoughts turned to Liz. He had been so furious when Max had revealed them to her, all the danger that followed was because of that day in the Crashdown. But far from despising Liz for that, he actually had come to respect her a little. That she hadn’t freaked out about them, that she had brought them friends they could trust. Alex. Maria. Especially Maria. Now he’d been told that she’d sacrificed her happiness just to save his life. After being shunted back and forth and abused at the hands of foster parents like Hank, it still amazed Michael that people, humans like Maria and Liz could care so much about him. He knew that Liz was special the moment he had read her journal and he wished that he’d been friendlier to her when she had been there.
“It’s nice to know we have at least one friend in this town.” Michael said to Liz sitting down at the barstool…
“But why don’t you just destroy this Michael, because anyone who found this would know all about you.”
“No” Michael said shaking his head. “They’d know all about you Liz. Thankyou for giving me one more reason to envy Max Evans.”
He had envied Max. Envied him for his loving family, his stable home life, having someone like Liz who loved him so much. But now he had Maria, and because of her love for him he no longer envied Max. In fact he felt sorry for him. His whole life had been screwed by the notion of destiny just because some planet they had never been to said he was king. Yes Max had been an absolute ass lately, but after so many times of being bitten on the ass himself, wasn’t he given a little leeway to be one himself?
“I wish I were human Maria, just so it meant I’d never have to leave you” he whispered into her hair. She opened her eyes sleepily and whispered back.
“I don’t. I love you because of who you are Spaceboy. Czechoslovakian status and all.” Michael felt his heart swell at her words and he leaned over to press a kiss against her lips.
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Author: EmmyAwards
Theme Song: Alone by Emily Chai Kym
(Lyrics are on the first post, Song can be downloaded from this http://emmy.will.id.au.
Feedback: First story ever written and I suck at writing, but some feedback would be appreciated.
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Song For Part Eleven: Frustration by The Moffatts
There's no windows in this place
For me to show my weary face
Rage I hold within my soul
At times I cannot control
What's the point of me being here
When being me is what I fear
Every day it's all the same
Trapped again in my own pain
I cry myself to sleep
So many secrets I must keep
No one to reach me... nobody cares
Trapped in the middle of a distant stare
I've prayed that I was free
Of this grief that's filling me
Everywhere I turn
Every bridge must burn
There's no windows in this place
For me to show my weary face
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Part Eleven
“Max? Max?” Isabelle said knocking on his door softly. Using her alien powers she opened the door and stepped into the dark room. She made her way to the bed and sat down, gently patting the quilt in which her broken hearted brother lay under.
“I screwed everything up royally Is” came Max’s muffled voice. He poked his ruffled head out from the covers and Isabelle could see his red rimmed eyes, no pretence of being strong, her brother had always wore his emotions on his sleeve, particularly when it had come to Liz Parker, after all he had exposed their entire secret to her without a second thought.
Isabelle recalled those first few weeks after their secret had been revealed. To see the depth of feelings that Max and Liz had for each other had made Isabelle even colder to Liz then she would have normally been to most people. The Ice Queen she was known as, but she had always been a melting puddle when it came to her brother and Michael to an extent as well. They had been three aliens against the world, and were extremely protective of each other. Until Liz had entered their lives Max’s affections were shown only to Isabelle, even though he had harboured feelings for Liz since the third grade. It was something that Isabelle couldn’t handle. Feeling like she was losing her brother to someone else. But she had been so wrong. Liz had seemed to complete Max, something that not even Tess, his former bride could do. She had never seen Max so happy or so sad then when he was with Liz. As Max had once told Isabelle, being in love is when you’re the happiest you’ve been in your entire life, and the saddest you’ve ever been all at the same time. Isabelle had yet to feel that, she had wondered if she would ever feel that with Alex, but now she would never know. Someone had taken that opportunity from her and she made a silent vow to Alex that she would pick up where Liz left off and find his killer. She hated the thought of having to kill again, after destroying Senator Whittaker, but she would make an exception just this once.
“Max, you didn’t know” she said finally.
“Yeah I didn’t know, but it doesn’t matter anymore. I slept with Tess. I don’t think Liz will forgive me for that”
“But you thought she slept with Kyle” Isabelle pointed out.
“Yeah but she did that for the good of the planet. To save us. What reasons did I have to sleep with Tess for? Because I was upset about Liz? Because I wanted to get back at her?” Isabelle didn’t know what to say. She knew that Max would continue to berate himself no matter what she would say.
“What are you going to do about Tess?” she asked him.
“I’ve been avoiding her since then, which makes me feel like a jerk, you know like I was just using her to get laid, but I can’t… I can’t face her anymore, it reminds me too much of my betrayal.” My betrayal. Max thought. Never in his wildest imagination could he come up with a worse nightmare than what reality had handed him. Nasedo would be proud he mused, knowing that he and Tess had slept together. But the thought of it made Max’s stomach revolt. It wasn’t that Tess wasn’t pretty, or that she was a bad person or anything. She just wasn’t Liz that was all. He had always imagined that he and Liz would lose their virginity to each other, that they would get married and have their 2.5 children and a house with a white picket fence. He knew that his fantasy was never going to happen now. He had lost his virginity to Tess, something he could never regain, something he could never give to Liz no matter how much he desired to. He wondered vaguely if Liz had known, and that perhaps that was the reason why she didn’t want them to find her. He wanted so much to run around the entire country to look for her, grab her in his arms and beg for forgiveness. But perhaps after all the pain he had caused her he should respect her wishes. He should have listened to Maria.
“Give Liz up. Leave her alone. All this is leading nowhere and none of us belong with any of you. And I’m really sick of how much it’s screwing us up. I mean look at us we’re pathetic.”
“Max?” Isabelle asked as his mind wandered. He looked back at her, his flashback over. “You’re going to have to give her a straight answer sometime soon you know” he nodded and buried his head back under the covers.
“I know Is. But not now. Not yet.”
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Michael sat on his couch holding a tearful Maria in his arms.
“She left me. The three musketeers are no more. Everyone leaves me. My dad left me, Alex left me, Liz left me… and someday you’ll leave me too!” she said sobbing again. Michael sat there not knowing what to say. It was true that someday he may have to leave her as much as he didn’t want to. After everything they had been through since he had kidnapped her he couldn’t imagine his life without her there to bicker and make up with. Turbulent as their relationship was, he wouldn’t trade it in for anything else. After all, Max and Liz had always seemed the poster couple for love and look how that had turned out. Maria had fallen asleep, leaving Michael to dwell on his own thoughts. His thoughts turned to Liz. He had been so furious when Max had revealed them to her, all the danger that followed was because of that day in the Crashdown. But far from despising Liz for that, he actually had come to respect her a little. That she hadn’t freaked out about them, that she had brought them friends they could trust. Alex. Maria. Especially Maria. Now he’d been told that she’d sacrificed her happiness just to save his life. After being shunted back and forth and abused at the hands of foster parents like Hank, it still amazed Michael that people, humans like Maria and Liz could care so much about him. He knew that Liz was special the moment he had read her journal and he wished that he’d been friendlier to her when she had been there.
“It’s nice to know we have at least one friend in this town.” Michael said to Liz sitting down at the barstool…
“But why don’t you just destroy this Michael, because anyone who found this would know all about you.”
“No” Michael said shaking his head. “They’d know all about you Liz. Thankyou for giving me one more reason to envy Max Evans.”
He had envied Max. Envied him for his loving family, his stable home life, having someone like Liz who loved him so much. But now he had Maria, and because of her love for him he no longer envied Max. In fact he felt sorry for him. His whole life had been screwed by the notion of destiny just because some planet they had never been to said he was king. Yes Max had been an absolute ass lately, but after so many times of being bitten on the ass himself, wasn’t he given a little leeway to be one himself?
“I wish I were human Maria, just so it meant I’d never have to leave you” he whispered into her hair. She opened her eyes sleepily and whispered back.
“I don’t. I love you because of who you are Spaceboy. Czechoslovakian status and all.” Michael felt his heart swell at her words and he leaned over to press a kiss against her lips.
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