Dreaming of You (AU,M/L,ADULT) Ch9 - 11/4/04 [WIP]

[CandyDreamQueen]

More dreams I have to worn you that they are going to be a bit confusing. Hehehe. And here are a few other things you need to know about this chapter. Okay here are A Harlin is a huge bird that people use to fly on. Think really BIG eagle. They are different colors and the different colors represent different abilities that they have. Like speed, agility, tricks, etc. The colors are Red, white, green, blue, orange yellow, and brown. Harlin’s exist only on Antar. Lalala enjoy.

Chapter 9

Max knew that he would dream of Liz again tonight. The close proximity was driving him crazy, but at the same time it was also exhilarating. To know that she was right down the hall from him. That if he truly wanted to he could go to her right now. Take her right now. She wouldn’t object. In his heart of hearts he knew that he could have her in every sense of the words if he truly wanted to. But he wanted her to want him just as badly as he wanted her, and as long as she denied him, then he would resist her . Even if it killed him.

He watched her as she sore through the early morning sky on the back of the magnificent creature completely naked. She did it every morning. She didn’t think he knew. But he did. He would watch her from their bedroom window, and he would wish that she could be up there with her. As free as she was. But he couldn’t be and she could never know that he longed to.

Liz turned in her bed as she willed herself to sleep. On some level she knew that she would dream of Max. She even hoped so. It was one thing to give into the desire that she felt for Max when she was awoke. But when she was sleeping it was different. It was safe. She could feel however she wanted to feel, and she would suffer no fear of guilt from it. In her dreams she could remember the person she had been a long time ago. The person who had loved Max.

She flew for him. Every morning. Hoping, wishing, praying that he would somehow know of the statement she made for him. As the wind whipped her hair behind her she silently prayed to all the gods that he would know that she loved him. She could not speak of her love. Not ever. And she knew that he could not either, but she felt it. When she saw him looking at her when he thought she was not looking. When he brushed her hair from her face at night when he thought she was asleep. When they made love so passionately. When he kissed her so tenderly. But he did not say the words. She was fine with that. She did not need them. As long as she knew of his love no one else had to.

She turned her Harlin back towards the castle. The suns would be rising soon, and so would the rest of Antar. She must not be caught. Raining the animal back towards the pin where it was kept she silently crept through the walls of the castle and back to her room. He still lay in his spot eyes closed in a peaceful slumber as if all was right with the world. Completely oblivious to her morning escape. She sighed deeply. Someday she would tell him of her love. “I ride for you my love.”

Max moaned in his sleep as he was awash in the feelings and sensations of the dream. His longing to hold the woman he loved. To be with her cascaded over in his mind to his realty and for a moment he could not separate his own longing to be with Areliza from the longing of the him of his dreams wanting to be with his only love. And yet in both he was being held back. In his reality by Liz, and in his dreams by himself.

“I ride for you my love.” the words where behrly above a whisper, and though he did not truly sleep, they did not reach his ears. He held his breath as he felt her slide back into bed. Someday he would tell her of his love. Someday he would bask in it, and not let anything hold him back. But that day was not today. He could not share his love with her yet, but he would. He promised himself he would.

They both woke in a cold sweat, longing to hold and be held by each other.

TBC