Re: In The Course Of A Lifetime (CC, AU, Adult) Part 100 1/2
Posted: Sun Jan 29, 2012 5:43 am
Healerfan: Thanks!
By staying home Max is eventually going to have to face what happened with Andrew.
Thanksgiving will be a crazy, busy time.
Natalie36: Lol, nothing like planning holiday events for the family.
Earth2Mama: It’s a big step for Max to reach this place. He and Andy will get there too.
We’ll get a bit more M&M in this part.
Kyle couldn’t leave Tess alone right now.
begonia9508: Thanks! We’ll have to wait and see what happens with Tess.
Max making the decision to be home with his family is the best things.
keepsmiling7: Looks like those puppies have found a home.
Liz definitely has some concerns about the pregnancy, but Max will be there to support her and help her.
mary mary: A big Thanksgiving is a wonderful thing! What’s better than having a houseful of family and friends? It’s the best way to enjoy the holidays!
Alien_Friend: Who knew this idea would turn into a fic of this length? Lol, we had a great idea to work with though!
We’re less than 10 pages from hitting page number 1,000!
Thanksgiving Day... promises to be a great scene!
Lol, Kara will be happy to know she has someone else hoping for a girl.
Liz would be a great help to Tess if only she’ll open up to her.
Eva: Things are moving along for everyone and you can count on Thanksgiving being a great time!
Part 101
“Sounds like a full house.” He polished off the sandwich and took a drink of his coffee. “We’ve got a lot of work to do if we’re gonna have the kitchen ready for cooking a Thanksgiving feast.”
“You’ll help?” she asked, surprised.
He snorted. “If I’m helpin’ out I’m spending time with you, right?”
Maria blushed slightly, not used to the flirting going on. “Yeah.”
“We’ll all help a bit,” Liz suggested.
“See? We’ll all help out and it’ll come together smoothly.” He nodded and watched Liz chowing down on lunch. “That must be good,” he mused at her enthusiasm.
“It is...” she nodded.
Michael glanced at Maria. “That a pregnant thing?” he murmured. He’d had the chili dogs from the café and he didn’t think they were all that great.
“Totally, she normally doesn’t even like it spicy.”
Liz just shrugged. “I’m blaming it all on my husband.”
“Always the man’s fault, huh?” Michael chuckled.
“Without men we wouldn’t get into these situations.” She grinned. Not that she’d change it for anything in the world.
“An’ she’s already got twins,” Maria explained. Her eyes danced with amusement as she rested her back against his chest.
“True. Although I’ll be perfectly content with just one this time.”
“Twins are a lot of work, huh?” he asked with a smile and wrapped an arm around his woman.
“Not just twins,” Liz corrected. “Twin boys... a lot more than twice the work.”
“Justin and Nick, right?”
She smiled brightly. “Yes.”
“Good boys.”
“Thanks. They can also be major pains when they put their minds to it but for the most part we don’t really have any trouble with them.”
“Yeah, I don’t think you should complain about them,” Maria agreed.
“No, I really don’t have anything to complain about.” She chuckled. “Of course they’ve both just started dating so I’ve got my fingers crossed.”
“Girls are probably worse that age.”
Michael snorted at that. “That’s no lie.”
Maria turned to look at him. “When do you have to be back in school?”
He checked his watch. “Soon. I should probably get outta here in the next ten minutes or so.”
“So soon, huh?” She pouted.
“Um-hmm. I could ditch the rest of the afternoon but that sets such a bad example for the kids,” he said with a laugh.
“I guess... Not good for Andy.”
“No. Although you can bet I won’t be out hopping on a moving train if I’m ditching class.”
“Oh, please, don’t remind me,” Liz said.
“Dangerous for sure but we all did stuff like that when we were younger.” He shrugged one shoulder. “I know I got into all kinds of stuff that my parents never knew about.”
“Oh, Maria knows all about annoying her parents,” Liz winked at her friend.
“Hey!” Maria complained.
“Sounds like you’ve got more stories I should hear about,” Michael growled, his lips brushing her ear.
“Oh, yeah, Maria was the reason we all were damned to detention more than once.”
Liz laughed at the memories.
“Um-hmm, so you were a bad influence, huh?”
“That’s not true at all,” Maria denied.
Liz rolled her eyes. “You are so lying.”
“Shut up,” the other woman laughed.
“Alright, as much as I’d like to stick around I’d better get back before the bell rings and Principal Russell discovers I’m not in my office.”
“We don’t want that, huh?” Maria got up from his lap again and pulled him up as well.
“Nope, she might put me in detention after school.”
She walked him over to the door and wrapped her arms around his hips for a moment. “Wanna come over for dinner tonight?”
He stared into her eyes and thought how easily he could get lost in them. “I’d like that.”
“Come over about seven?”
He nodded. “Practice should be over by six so that sounds perfect.”
“Okay,” she got up on her tiptoes to kiss his nose. “See you tonight then.”
He tipped her chin up to give her a real kiss before taking a step back and grinning at her. “I’ll see you at seven,” he said with a wink and slipped out through the door.
Maria stared after him before she turned to Liz again, a big wide grin on her face.
“Sooo...” Liz said, drawing the word out. “Care to share?”
“Well... what do you wanna know?” She walked back to the chair and sat down, taking the coffee Michael brought for her.
She chuckled and shook her head. “I know you said Andy was okay with you and Michael dating but when did all this happen?”
“Pretty quickly. The next day Andy talked to Michael and he came over that evening...” Maria smiled brightly. “I’m just getting used to having a new boyfriend.”
“You look happy,” she observed with an approving smile.
“I am. I don’t think I’ve been this happy in a very long time.”
“I’m glad. You deserve it, Maria.”
“As well as you and Max,” she said and reached over to squeeze Liz’s hand. “I’m convinced the baby is a good thing.”
She sighed and brushed away a happy tear. “Yesterday he told me he wants the baby. He’s happy about it but he’s also scared and I totally understand that.”
“Being scared is a normal thing. Hell, Liz, I’d be scared too even though my pregnancy with Andy went normally. I’m sure you two will manage this and the baby girl will just as healthy as the rest of you.”
Liz brushed her hands over her stomach. “I think so too. We just have to be positive.”
*****
Andy ducked into the cafeteria at lunchtime, hurrying through the line and ignoring the other options as he headed for the end so he could get a couple of cheeseburgers. He made a face at the potato wedges because they still had the skins on them and asked for a couple bags of chips instead. He handed his lunch card over, waited for it to be swiped, and shoved it back in his pocket before taking his tray and pausing when he realized Sam wasn’t at their usual table.
He glanced out through the windows that walled one side of the lunchroom and frowned when he saw her sitting at a picnic table in the far corner of the quad. He backed the line up when he pocketed the drinks and chips before wrapping the burgers in napkins and taking off for the door. He crossed the quad and quickly reached her, sitting down next to her and putting everything on the table.
“Hey, not that I mind sittin’ outside but it’s kinda cold,” he said. Luckily the wind wasn’t blowing, but the air still had a bite to it.
“I guess,” she said, picking at the hamburger bun when he slid one of the burgers in front of her.
Andy took a big bite of his own burger, sinking his teeth into it and chewing heartily. While he wasn’t all that excited about most of the lunchroom offerings he did like the cheeseburgers. They were actually pretty good and he was hungry. He looked at her when he realized she wasn’t eating and he quickly swallowed the bite down. “Hey, what’s wrong?”
She shrugged and pulled the bun apart, tossing a couple pieces out to a bird that was hopping around nearby searching for something to eat.
“I actually brought this for you, ya know...”
“Huh?” She shook herself and turned to look at him. “Oh, sorry, Andy.” She forced a smile. “Thanks.”
He sighed, wondering if this had anything to do with her mother’s appearance. His gaze wandered between the food and her, before he shoved the rest of the cheeseburger in his mouth, wiped his hands on his jeans, and moved to sit behind her. His arms came around her waist, tugging her closer.
“I talked to my dad last night after you left,” she started haltingly.
“About your mom?”
She nodded and settled a little more deeply into his embrace.
Andy took the cheeseburger out of her hand and slapped it together again before holding it directly in front of her mouth, waiting to see if she would eat a bit.
In spite of her stomach grumbling she pushed his hand away and let her head rest against his shoulder.
He sighed and took a bite of his own since he was still hungry. “So what’d you talk about?”
“My mom.” She paused. There were so many emotions rushing through her that she couldn’t keep track of them. It just made her head hurt.
Okay, something was really wrong, he thought when he heard her cracked voice. He placed the food aside and tugged her closer. “Hey...”
“She’s got cancer, Andy.” She reached up to brush the tears away with the heel of her hand.
Damn, this wasn’t a conversation for a short lunch break. “That’s why she’s coming to look for you?”
She shrugged. “I guess. Dad said she’s in remission and maybe after goin’ through that comin’ back here isn’t as scary as it was before. Somethin’ like that anyway.”
“She’s in remission? That’s good, isn’t it?”
“Yeah. If it lasts. But what if she’s just like making up for stuff ‘cause she got sick and not really ‘cause she wants to see me?”
“Why would she come to see you just because she was sick?” he asked gently.
“Maybe getting sick like that just made her feel really guilty. Maybe she made a deal with God that if she got better she’d come see me. I don’t know.”
“Ya know,” he took one of her hands in his and looked down at it while his fingers caressed over hers. “Maybe the cancer is the reason why she’s looking for you now, but I don’t think she made a deal or whatever. It probably made her realize the more important things in life.”
Her gaze locked on his fingers and she turned her hand over under his. “Yeah, maybe. I was reading up on it and if you have a female relative like a mom who’s diagnosed you have like a 13% chance of getting it. That doesn’t sound like a big number, but you’re still twice as likely to get it than someone who doesn’t have a relative with it.”
“Yeah, but now you know and you can take the necessary precautions, right?” He buried his nose against her neck.
“I know it’s not like I’m gonna get it just ‘cause she’s had it, but...” she shook her head. “There’re all kinds of factors and precautions and things you can do to help prevent it. I’m just... I’m mad at her, Andy!”
“Because she left you alone and now she’s back with bad news?”
“I don’t know. I’ve never had to wonder if I was loved or it I was wanted, ya know? Dad’s always been there and he’s always made sure I knew those things were never in question. And he’s always been great about answering the questions about my mom when I know they had to be hard on him. Especially when I was younger.” She sighed. “And now here she comes and it’s just really confusing.”
“Yeah, but she’s still your mother I guess.”
“That doesn’t just give her the right to suddenly come in and upset my entire life.” She turned her head to look at him. “Don’t you understand that?”
“She’s not forcing you to meet her, right?”
“No, of course not. Dad said it’s up to me whether or not I meet her.”
“Yeah, well,” he scratched his head, “I guess your mom isn’t really in a winning position right now. Either way you’d be mad at her.”
She sat up straighter and shifted so she was facing him. “Are you... are you taking her side?”
“What?” He frowned. “No. It was just a fact.”
She sighed and shook her head. “You don’t understand.”
“No, I do understand, Sam,” he protested.
“Then why does it matter what her position is?”
“Because she’s your mother, that’s all. Look, I was just saying that after the mistakes she made it’s hardly possible for her to contact you again without you being mad at her.”
“Yeah, well, I have every right to be mad at her if I want to be,” she grumbled.
Andy sighed, not knowing what to say. “Yeah, alright.”
Sam played with the bag of chips he had put in front of her. She didn’t even know why they were fighting over this.
“Hey, Evans,” a boy called out to him. “We’re heading over to the gym, ya coming?”
He looked at his watch and moved to get up. “Yeah.”
She frowned and glanced at her own watch. “I guess I’ll see you later.”
“Yeah, probably,” he looked at her uncertainly for a moment, trying to decide if he should kiss her, but then he just walked off.
Sam bit her bottom lip. It just felt wrong to let him walk away without settling things. She wasn’t really mad at him, it was just the whole situation. She leaned back against the table and took a deep breath. “Andy?”
He turned to look at her. “What?”
She shrugged. “I’m sorry. I don’t mean to take it out on you.”
“I’m okay, Sam,” he told her and shoved his hands into his pockets. “See you later.”
If it was okay why hadn’t he kissed her? “Yeah, okay.”
*****
Michael glanced up when the old gym door creaked in protest as it was opened, the sound slightly louder than the whistle he was blowing to call a foul. He smiled when he saw Andy walking in, both hands shoved deep in his pants pockets.
“Hey,” the boy greeted him.
“Hey, Andy,” Michael said, “are you in for a game?”
“If you’ll let me?” the younger man asked hopefully. He knew Michael had said he would be welcome again, but yet he wasn’t so sure about it.
Michael nodded. “Any chance you’d wanna suit up and get out there?” He nodded at the sidelines where Troy Masters was sitting. “Our shooting guard took a bad fall last game and he’s gonna be out for a few weeks.”
“You serious?” Andy asked, checking the man’s face.
“Um-hmm, but if you’d rather not I understand. No pressure.” He could see the light in the boy’s eyes and he hooked his thumb over his shoulder. “Masters won’t be on the court with that injury.”
“Well... I guess maybe I could replace him... as long as he’s out?”
Michael grinned, knowing that between the injury and rehab Masters would likely sit out the rest of the season. “I think that’d be great and it’d really help the team out.”
“I don’t have anything to wear though.”
He pulled keys out of his pocket. “Locker room office, you’ll find uniforms in the box on the desk.”
“Is he joining the team, Coach?” one of the guys asked.
Michael glanced at Andy, letting him know the answer was up to him.
“If I’m good enough,” the teenager shrugged.
“Get suited up and let’s find out,” he said and slapped the boy on the back. “Two man drills, guys.” He blew the whistle. “Let’s go!”
*****
Kyle pulled off of the interstate and followed the service road around to the gas station, turning into the parking lot and driving up to the fuel islands. He parked next to a pump and checked on Tess before getting out to fill the tank. She had been sleeping for the past hour and he didn’t want to disturb her since she hadn’t slept much the night before.
He leaned back against the truck while he waited for the tank to fill and he squinted against the sunlight reflecting off of a nearby car window. His attention was pulled away by a woman coming out of the station, a baby in her arms. He watched her cross the lot, heading for a station wagon that was loaded down with luggage. As she approached it she smiled and he followed the direction of her gaze to watch the little boy excitedly talking while he used a squeegee to wash the side windows.
He chuckled and shook his head when he realized that the little boy wasn’t really doing much more than getting the windows wet. The pump clicked off without him noticing it and he stood there watching as a man emerged from beneath the open hood and the little boy called for him to come and see what he’d done. He shook his head and replaced the nozzle before putting the cap back in place and giving it a final twist. He checked on Tess and locked the doors before going inside the station.
He browsed the refrigerated cases and grabbed a couple of sodas then walked over to fast food restaurant that took up half of the building. He put in an order and then wandered over to look over the items for sale. He picked up his order when they called his number and on his way out stopped by the register to make an impulse purchase.
He settled back into the drivers’ seat, making room in the center console for the box of chicken and fries, opened his drink before setting both cans in the cup holders, and leaned over to place his purchase on Tess’ lap. He turned the key in the ignition, changed the station when the one he had been listening to blasted out a burst of static, and locked his seatbelt into place as he shifted around to get comfortable.
He pulled back out on the interstate and pressed on the gas until the needle on the speedometer was in the right place. He set the cruise control and reached for a chicken strip, biting into it and tapping his thumb against the steering wheel in time to the music. He was halfway through the second strip when Tess started to shift restlessly. He shoved the rest of it in his mouth and wiped his hands on his jeans before reaching over to rub her arm.
She had been suffering from nightmares off and on since she had told him about losing her baby and he wished he could do something to make them stop. Part of him wished he had never found that sonogram picture even though he knew at some point the truth would’ve had to come out. He wrapped his hand around hers when she reached for him and he pulled his eyes off of the road for a moment to glance at her. “Hey, you okay?”
Tess nodded as she pressed her bare feet against the floorboard to push herself into a more upright position. “Sometimes when I’m asleep I can hear her,” she said quietly. She shook her head and looked outside. “I know that’s ridiculous because that never happened. She never had the chance to…”
“It’s not ridiculous. It’s just your minds way of trying to find a way to cope.”
“Maybe. For a few minutes I feel such a connection to her but then it’s like I remember what happened and it’s gone.” She smiled at the single red rose lying in her lap.
“I wish I knew what to do to help you with this.”
She shook her head and lifted his hand to rest her cheek against it for a moment. “You are, Kyle. You’re doing everything you can do and I love you for that.” Her fingertips brushed against the velvety soft rose petals and she smiled. “Actually, I love you for so much more than just that.” She glanced over to watch him for a moment and she saw the gentle smile that settled over his features. She dropped her gaze to the food he had wedged into the console and she reached down to rest the backs of her fingers against it to see if it was warm enough to eat. She picked up one of the chicken tenders and pulled it in half before taking a bite. “You must’ve stopped pretty recently.”
“Um-hmm, figured we’d need to fuel up one more time. We’re about three hours from home but I went in to get us somethin’ to drink and the chicken just smelled really good so I grabbed an order of the tenders. Don’t care for the fries so much but it would’ve been kinda hard to eat the mashed potatoes and drive.”
“Good point.” She leaned over to offer him a bite and laughed when he took it and then captured her hand to press a noisy kiss to her knuckles. “You’re gonna make me all greasy.”
“Think of how great you’ll taste,” he said with a teasing grin.
“Eww, Kyle,” she said, her laughter turning into a snort. “There’s nothing even remotely sexy about smelling or tasting like old takeout. Especially if it’s chicken.”
He laughed heartily and reached for another tender. She was right about that, not that it mattered. The only thing that mattered was the goofy conversation had chased the shadows from her eyes. It had made her laugh and put a smile on her face and for him that was the important thing.
By staying home Max is eventually going to have to face what happened with Andrew.
Thanksgiving will be a crazy, busy time.
Natalie36: Lol, nothing like planning holiday events for the family.
Earth2Mama: It’s a big step for Max to reach this place. He and Andy will get there too.
We’ll get a bit more M&M in this part.
Kyle couldn’t leave Tess alone right now.
begonia9508: Thanks! We’ll have to wait and see what happens with Tess.
Max making the decision to be home with his family is the best things.
keepsmiling7: Looks like those puppies have found a home.
Liz definitely has some concerns about the pregnancy, but Max will be there to support her and help her.
mary mary: A big Thanksgiving is a wonderful thing! What’s better than having a houseful of family and friends? It’s the best way to enjoy the holidays!
Alien_Friend: Who knew this idea would turn into a fic of this length? Lol, we had a great idea to work with though!

Thanksgiving Day... promises to be a great scene!
Lol, Kara will be happy to know she has someone else hoping for a girl.
Liz would be a great help to Tess if only she’ll open up to her.
Eva: Things are moving along for everyone and you can count on Thanksgiving being a great time!
Part 101
“Sounds like a full house.” He polished off the sandwich and took a drink of his coffee. “We’ve got a lot of work to do if we’re gonna have the kitchen ready for cooking a Thanksgiving feast.”
“You’ll help?” she asked, surprised.
He snorted. “If I’m helpin’ out I’m spending time with you, right?”
Maria blushed slightly, not used to the flirting going on. “Yeah.”
“We’ll all help a bit,” Liz suggested.
“See? We’ll all help out and it’ll come together smoothly.” He nodded and watched Liz chowing down on lunch. “That must be good,” he mused at her enthusiasm.
“It is...” she nodded.
Michael glanced at Maria. “That a pregnant thing?” he murmured. He’d had the chili dogs from the café and he didn’t think they were all that great.
“Totally, she normally doesn’t even like it spicy.”
Liz just shrugged. “I’m blaming it all on my husband.”
“Always the man’s fault, huh?” Michael chuckled.
“Without men we wouldn’t get into these situations.” She grinned. Not that she’d change it for anything in the world.
“An’ she’s already got twins,” Maria explained. Her eyes danced with amusement as she rested her back against his chest.
“True. Although I’ll be perfectly content with just one this time.”
“Twins are a lot of work, huh?” he asked with a smile and wrapped an arm around his woman.
“Not just twins,” Liz corrected. “Twin boys... a lot more than twice the work.”
“Justin and Nick, right?”
She smiled brightly. “Yes.”
“Good boys.”
“Thanks. They can also be major pains when they put their minds to it but for the most part we don’t really have any trouble with them.”
“Yeah, I don’t think you should complain about them,” Maria agreed.
“No, I really don’t have anything to complain about.” She chuckled. “Of course they’ve both just started dating so I’ve got my fingers crossed.”
“Girls are probably worse that age.”
Michael snorted at that. “That’s no lie.”
Maria turned to look at him. “When do you have to be back in school?”
He checked his watch. “Soon. I should probably get outta here in the next ten minutes or so.”
“So soon, huh?” She pouted.
“Um-hmm. I could ditch the rest of the afternoon but that sets such a bad example for the kids,” he said with a laugh.
“I guess... Not good for Andy.”
“No. Although you can bet I won’t be out hopping on a moving train if I’m ditching class.”
“Oh, please, don’t remind me,” Liz said.
“Dangerous for sure but we all did stuff like that when we were younger.” He shrugged one shoulder. “I know I got into all kinds of stuff that my parents never knew about.”
“Oh, Maria knows all about annoying her parents,” Liz winked at her friend.
“Hey!” Maria complained.
“Sounds like you’ve got more stories I should hear about,” Michael growled, his lips brushing her ear.
“Oh, yeah, Maria was the reason we all were damned to detention more than once.”
Liz laughed at the memories.
“Um-hmm, so you were a bad influence, huh?”
“That’s not true at all,” Maria denied.
Liz rolled her eyes. “You are so lying.”
“Shut up,” the other woman laughed.
“Alright, as much as I’d like to stick around I’d better get back before the bell rings and Principal Russell discovers I’m not in my office.”
“We don’t want that, huh?” Maria got up from his lap again and pulled him up as well.
“Nope, she might put me in detention after school.”
She walked him over to the door and wrapped her arms around his hips for a moment. “Wanna come over for dinner tonight?”
He stared into her eyes and thought how easily he could get lost in them. “I’d like that.”
“Come over about seven?”
He nodded. “Practice should be over by six so that sounds perfect.”
“Okay,” she got up on her tiptoes to kiss his nose. “See you tonight then.”
He tipped her chin up to give her a real kiss before taking a step back and grinning at her. “I’ll see you at seven,” he said with a wink and slipped out through the door.
Maria stared after him before she turned to Liz again, a big wide grin on her face.
“Sooo...” Liz said, drawing the word out. “Care to share?”
“Well... what do you wanna know?” She walked back to the chair and sat down, taking the coffee Michael brought for her.
She chuckled and shook her head. “I know you said Andy was okay with you and Michael dating but when did all this happen?”
“Pretty quickly. The next day Andy talked to Michael and he came over that evening...” Maria smiled brightly. “I’m just getting used to having a new boyfriend.”
“You look happy,” she observed with an approving smile.
“I am. I don’t think I’ve been this happy in a very long time.”
“I’m glad. You deserve it, Maria.”
“As well as you and Max,” she said and reached over to squeeze Liz’s hand. “I’m convinced the baby is a good thing.”
She sighed and brushed away a happy tear. “Yesterday he told me he wants the baby. He’s happy about it but he’s also scared and I totally understand that.”
“Being scared is a normal thing. Hell, Liz, I’d be scared too even though my pregnancy with Andy went normally. I’m sure you two will manage this and the baby girl will just as healthy as the rest of you.”
Liz brushed her hands over her stomach. “I think so too. We just have to be positive.”
*****
Andy ducked into the cafeteria at lunchtime, hurrying through the line and ignoring the other options as he headed for the end so he could get a couple of cheeseburgers. He made a face at the potato wedges because they still had the skins on them and asked for a couple bags of chips instead. He handed his lunch card over, waited for it to be swiped, and shoved it back in his pocket before taking his tray and pausing when he realized Sam wasn’t at their usual table.
He glanced out through the windows that walled one side of the lunchroom and frowned when he saw her sitting at a picnic table in the far corner of the quad. He backed the line up when he pocketed the drinks and chips before wrapping the burgers in napkins and taking off for the door. He crossed the quad and quickly reached her, sitting down next to her and putting everything on the table.
“Hey, not that I mind sittin’ outside but it’s kinda cold,” he said. Luckily the wind wasn’t blowing, but the air still had a bite to it.
“I guess,” she said, picking at the hamburger bun when he slid one of the burgers in front of her.
Andy took a big bite of his own burger, sinking his teeth into it and chewing heartily. While he wasn’t all that excited about most of the lunchroom offerings he did like the cheeseburgers. They were actually pretty good and he was hungry. He looked at her when he realized she wasn’t eating and he quickly swallowed the bite down. “Hey, what’s wrong?”
She shrugged and pulled the bun apart, tossing a couple pieces out to a bird that was hopping around nearby searching for something to eat.
“I actually brought this for you, ya know...”
“Huh?” She shook herself and turned to look at him. “Oh, sorry, Andy.” She forced a smile. “Thanks.”
He sighed, wondering if this had anything to do with her mother’s appearance. His gaze wandered between the food and her, before he shoved the rest of the cheeseburger in his mouth, wiped his hands on his jeans, and moved to sit behind her. His arms came around her waist, tugging her closer.
“I talked to my dad last night after you left,” she started haltingly.
“About your mom?”
She nodded and settled a little more deeply into his embrace.
Andy took the cheeseburger out of her hand and slapped it together again before holding it directly in front of her mouth, waiting to see if she would eat a bit.
In spite of her stomach grumbling she pushed his hand away and let her head rest against his shoulder.
He sighed and took a bite of his own since he was still hungry. “So what’d you talk about?”
“My mom.” She paused. There were so many emotions rushing through her that she couldn’t keep track of them. It just made her head hurt.
Okay, something was really wrong, he thought when he heard her cracked voice. He placed the food aside and tugged her closer. “Hey...”
“She’s got cancer, Andy.” She reached up to brush the tears away with the heel of her hand.
Damn, this wasn’t a conversation for a short lunch break. “That’s why she’s coming to look for you?”
She shrugged. “I guess. Dad said she’s in remission and maybe after goin’ through that comin’ back here isn’t as scary as it was before. Somethin’ like that anyway.”
“She’s in remission? That’s good, isn’t it?”
“Yeah. If it lasts. But what if she’s just like making up for stuff ‘cause she got sick and not really ‘cause she wants to see me?”
“Why would she come to see you just because she was sick?” he asked gently.
“Maybe getting sick like that just made her feel really guilty. Maybe she made a deal with God that if she got better she’d come see me. I don’t know.”
“Ya know,” he took one of her hands in his and looked down at it while his fingers caressed over hers. “Maybe the cancer is the reason why she’s looking for you now, but I don’t think she made a deal or whatever. It probably made her realize the more important things in life.”
Her gaze locked on his fingers and she turned her hand over under his. “Yeah, maybe. I was reading up on it and if you have a female relative like a mom who’s diagnosed you have like a 13% chance of getting it. That doesn’t sound like a big number, but you’re still twice as likely to get it than someone who doesn’t have a relative with it.”
“Yeah, but now you know and you can take the necessary precautions, right?” He buried his nose against her neck.
“I know it’s not like I’m gonna get it just ‘cause she’s had it, but...” she shook her head. “There’re all kinds of factors and precautions and things you can do to help prevent it. I’m just... I’m mad at her, Andy!”
“Because she left you alone and now she’s back with bad news?”
“I don’t know. I’ve never had to wonder if I was loved or it I was wanted, ya know? Dad’s always been there and he’s always made sure I knew those things were never in question. And he’s always been great about answering the questions about my mom when I know they had to be hard on him. Especially when I was younger.” She sighed. “And now here she comes and it’s just really confusing.”
“Yeah, but she’s still your mother I guess.”
“That doesn’t just give her the right to suddenly come in and upset my entire life.” She turned her head to look at him. “Don’t you understand that?”
“She’s not forcing you to meet her, right?”
“No, of course not. Dad said it’s up to me whether or not I meet her.”
“Yeah, well,” he scratched his head, “I guess your mom isn’t really in a winning position right now. Either way you’d be mad at her.”
She sat up straighter and shifted so she was facing him. “Are you... are you taking her side?”
“What?” He frowned. “No. It was just a fact.”
She sighed and shook her head. “You don’t understand.”
“No, I do understand, Sam,” he protested.
“Then why does it matter what her position is?”
“Because she’s your mother, that’s all. Look, I was just saying that after the mistakes she made it’s hardly possible for her to contact you again without you being mad at her.”
“Yeah, well, I have every right to be mad at her if I want to be,” she grumbled.
Andy sighed, not knowing what to say. “Yeah, alright.”
Sam played with the bag of chips he had put in front of her. She didn’t even know why they were fighting over this.
“Hey, Evans,” a boy called out to him. “We’re heading over to the gym, ya coming?”
He looked at his watch and moved to get up. “Yeah.”
She frowned and glanced at her own watch. “I guess I’ll see you later.”
“Yeah, probably,” he looked at her uncertainly for a moment, trying to decide if he should kiss her, but then he just walked off.
Sam bit her bottom lip. It just felt wrong to let him walk away without settling things. She wasn’t really mad at him, it was just the whole situation. She leaned back against the table and took a deep breath. “Andy?”
He turned to look at her. “What?”
She shrugged. “I’m sorry. I don’t mean to take it out on you.”
“I’m okay, Sam,” he told her and shoved his hands into his pockets. “See you later.”
If it was okay why hadn’t he kissed her? “Yeah, okay.”
*****
Michael glanced up when the old gym door creaked in protest as it was opened, the sound slightly louder than the whistle he was blowing to call a foul. He smiled when he saw Andy walking in, both hands shoved deep in his pants pockets.
“Hey,” the boy greeted him.
“Hey, Andy,” Michael said, “are you in for a game?”
“If you’ll let me?” the younger man asked hopefully. He knew Michael had said he would be welcome again, but yet he wasn’t so sure about it.
Michael nodded. “Any chance you’d wanna suit up and get out there?” He nodded at the sidelines where Troy Masters was sitting. “Our shooting guard took a bad fall last game and he’s gonna be out for a few weeks.”
“You serious?” Andy asked, checking the man’s face.
“Um-hmm, but if you’d rather not I understand. No pressure.” He could see the light in the boy’s eyes and he hooked his thumb over his shoulder. “Masters won’t be on the court with that injury.”
“Well... I guess maybe I could replace him... as long as he’s out?”
Michael grinned, knowing that between the injury and rehab Masters would likely sit out the rest of the season. “I think that’d be great and it’d really help the team out.”
“I don’t have anything to wear though.”
He pulled keys out of his pocket. “Locker room office, you’ll find uniforms in the box on the desk.”
“Is he joining the team, Coach?” one of the guys asked.
Michael glanced at Andy, letting him know the answer was up to him.
“If I’m good enough,” the teenager shrugged.
“Get suited up and let’s find out,” he said and slapped the boy on the back. “Two man drills, guys.” He blew the whistle. “Let’s go!”
*****
Kyle pulled off of the interstate and followed the service road around to the gas station, turning into the parking lot and driving up to the fuel islands. He parked next to a pump and checked on Tess before getting out to fill the tank. She had been sleeping for the past hour and he didn’t want to disturb her since she hadn’t slept much the night before.
He leaned back against the truck while he waited for the tank to fill and he squinted against the sunlight reflecting off of a nearby car window. His attention was pulled away by a woman coming out of the station, a baby in her arms. He watched her cross the lot, heading for a station wagon that was loaded down with luggage. As she approached it she smiled and he followed the direction of her gaze to watch the little boy excitedly talking while he used a squeegee to wash the side windows.
He chuckled and shook his head when he realized that the little boy wasn’t really doing much more than getting the windows wet. The pump clicked off without him noticing it and he stood there watching as a man emerged from beneath the open hood and the little boy called for him to come and see what he’d done. He shook his head and replaced the nozzle before putting the cap back in place and giving it a final twist. He checked on Tess and locked the doors before going inside the station.
He browsed the refrigerated cases and grabbed a couple of sodas then walked over to fast food restaurant that took up half of the building. He put in an order and then wandered over to look over the items for sale. He picked up his order when they called his number and on his way out stopped by the register to make an impulse purchase.
He settled back into the drivers’ seat, making room in the center console for the box of chicken and fries, opened his drink before setting both cans in the cup holders, and leaned over to place his purchase on Tess’ lap. He turned the key in the ignition, changed the station when the one he had been listening to blasted out a burst of static, and locked his seatbelt into place as he shifted around to get comfortable.
He pulled back out on the interstate and pressed on the gas until the needle on the speedometer was in the right place. He set the cruise control and reached for a chicken strip, biting into it and tapping his thumb against the steering wheel in time to the music. He was halfway through the second strip when Tess started to shift restlessly. He shoved the rest of it in his mouth and wiped his hands on his jeans before reaching over to rub her arm.
She had been suffering from nightmares off and on since she had told him about losing her baby and he wished he could do something to make them stop. Part of him wished he had never found that sonogram picture even though he knew at some point the truth would’ve had to come out. He wrapped his hand around hers when she reached for him and he pulled his eyes off of the road for a moment to glance at her. “Hey, you okay?”
Tess nodded as she pressed her bare feet against the floorboard to push herself into a more upright position. “Sometimes when I’m asleep I can hear her,” she said quietly. She shook her head and looked outside. “I know that’s ridiculous because that never happened. She never had the chance to…”
“It’s not ridiculous. It’s just your minds way of trying to find a way to cope.”
“Maybe. For a few minutes I feel such a connection to her but then it’s like I remember what happened and it’s gone.” She smiled at the single red rose lying in her lap.
“I wish I knew what to do to help you with this.”
She shook her head and lifted his hand to rest her cheek against it for a moment. “You are, Kyle. You’re doing everything you can do and I love you for that.” Her fingertips brushed against the velvety soft rose petals and she smiled. “Actually, I love you for so much more than just that.” She glanced over to watch him for a moment and she saw the gentle smile that settled over his features. She dropped her gaze to the food he had wedged into the console and she reached down to rest the backs of her fingers against it to see if it was warm enough to eat. She picked up one of the chicken tenders and pulled it in half before taking a bite. “You must’ve stopped pretty recently.”
“Um-hmm, figured we’d need to fuel up one more time. We’re about three hours from home but I went in to get us somethin’ to drink and the chicken just smelled really good so I grabbed an order of the tenders. Don’t care for the fries so much but it would’ve been kinda hard to eat the mashed potatoes and drive.”
“Good point.” She leaned over to offer him a bite and laughed when he took it and then captured her hand to press a noisy kiss to her knuckles. “You’re gonna make me all greasy.”
“Think of how great you’ll taste,” he said with a teasing grin.
“Eww, Kyle,” she said, her laughter turning into a snort. “There’s nothing even remotely sexy about smelling or tasting like old takeout. Especially if it’s chicken.”
He laughed heartily and reached for another tender. She was right about that, not that it mattered. The only thing that mattered was the goofy conversation had chased the shadows from her eyes. It had made her laugh and put a smile on her face and for him that was the important thing.