Downstairs,
How is this even true? Jessica muttered to herself as she was staring at her cousin and wondered what the hell was going on. For so long, she, River and Mac had been the three musketeers in this life. River being the first born of course, followed by her and Mac. It had been only them all these years. Trying to figure out how to grow up in a complicated family structure and be different. And instantly they knew they had to blend in, and celebrate your true self,
but you are not to show it to anyone else. Keep it to yourself she would mutter.
So, River, Mac and Jessica would deal with in their own individualistic ways. Striving in many ways and looking for trouble in other ways. But keeping to the
family first motto.
It was only the three of us who knew what it was like she thought. Because even Jaime could not know. There was no one else. Even their parents having lived through the first generation, would not know what it meant to have to live up to what came before.
Still, they managed it, but only months before, things had started to change. Starting with Mariah. Now they were living in a different world. And trying to keep it from spinning out of control. Because she knew Mariah’s arrival was the first stone in their wall surrounding of their clan. More than a decade and counting from when and Mac had been born.
We could successfully blend in. Nothing was changing the basic structure. Things were quiet, which was quite the contrast because she had been told there had been plenty when River arrived on the scene. But by the time she and Mac were born, well, things had tone down dramatically.
And so, they lived a different life.
Once of relative normalcy except for the fact her own biological father had died in a car crash before but that had been a senseless crash on a slick road. She knew her mother and uncle, during a lucid moment of engagement had investigated it along with Mac’s father and found her father’s manner of death to be completely innocent manner,
there was no funny business, except it left her mother a widow, before the divorce degree could be finalized. Majority of her father estate at the time of his death would go into a trust fund for Jessica because by then Isabel was able to the assistance of her own family move on, and she had only needed a tiny bit for housing once she and her new baby moved out on their own. Sometimes she thought of her parents and wondered what kind of life they had. She knew her mother said that she was committed to the marriage, but from what Jessica gathered. The marriage likely would not have lasted long.
Not when you are not your true self with someone you love. Jessica knew her biological father was not able to wrap his head around her mother’s true self. And probably would have not been able to stick if he knew his only child would one day turn out to be like her mother, and uncle. She was taught by her mother, and especially her grandmother what kind of man her father had been, but knew the women were colored by their wishes, and especially her grandmother.
Her mother rarely talked about how complicated it was to be with her biological father. And if any of what she heard from Maria, and even her grandparents were true because they were upfront about how there was still so much, they did not know. But still Maria knew, and Michael too. She rarely was able to speak to her uncle about it because her uncle had turned into a recluse as time went on. So, if any of it was true than Jessica was happy her mother had found love in Jaime’s father, Kyle. Kyle was someone special to Jessica too. Someone who did not take over the role of father, but someone Jessica could go to over time, and she appreciated it.
As she thought of how her uncle had turned away from them as time went on. So, Kyle had been her male role mode.
So, with time. Things were toned down as she, Mac and of course River grew up.
As I said, we were the three musketeers. Able to be guided by what our parents knew, because they had come first with the knowledge. Knowing they had to stay quiet about who they were in front of the mere mortals, with Jaime exempted. Keeping their abilities to behind closed doors, which was fine for the three of them because why expose yourself to the judgment of others. Best to be your true self and not face the wrath of people who do not know better.
And then came Mariah.
And now Sierra. So naturally her first response would be,
are you kidding me? and said as much.
“Look I know,” River said. “We have not talked much about it, but yes, I know, and I have known since last night when I found out.”
“How did you find out?” Jessica asked.
“Does it really matter?” River asked. “All that matters is that she is one of us, because of her father. I do not know much more because from the little I know; her father has not been in this town since long before either of us were born.” he muttered. “How I know this is because you know, Rath, Lonnie, Ava?”
“Oh,” Jessica asked
them. “Yes, I remember hearing their names” she nodded as she knew the three of them had been warned of the case of the duplicates. About the fact there was another set out there, so, they would know not to be taken in by any version of her mother, nor Mac’s father,
because Uncle Max’s was currently dead, she thought as nothing these past years since they were born had risen doubt.
I
t was all a touch too sci fi for her she thought.
I like it more real she thought.
“So, you are saying, what, Sierra’s father is this Rath?” Jessica asked as she was trying to process it. “The duplicate of Mac’s father?”
“I have never met the man, but I am told that is what is going on” River muttered. “Sierra is sensitive about her father, because I suspect that they do not have the easiest of relationships” he wondered.
“So, the two of you cannot help but bond over your mutual Daddy issues?” Jessica asked with a smile.
“Jessica, please…” River muttered.
“Please what?” Jessica asked with a smile. “I was making a comment, that is all. I am just surprised that is all. Because I am trying to process all this because even though we were warned. Still, I never imagined it could happen. Because, yes, I know there are
others out there, and most of the time we seem to forget that fact, but it is easy to live in our own bubble,” she muttered. “And of course, we their children only know half of the stories. Or that were fit to tell us as we grew up.”
“Yeah,” River muttered as she thought of his half-sister upstairs “And some of us know too much, but still we do not know much about them except they came to town during junior year and needed my father to go New York with them, to some Summit,” he muttered
of the planets, and he omitted that part because they were still outside.
They had privacy, but he had no idea how much.
“Since my father’s “duplicate” is dead, then there was only one male other, and his name was Rath,” River muttered.
“And that means, what?” Jessica asked.
“Who knows,” River muttered.
I do not know of anyone who can tell you what is going on?
*
Because at the same time her daughter was trying to come to terms with the new world order. Isabel did not know what was going on. Or why this was coming back to them, at this point. Was it just blip?
Of course, we never did know what did happen to Lonnie and Rath she thought. Or if Rath did something with his life, which of course he did, or albeit just enough to create a child. What about Lonnie she thought.
A form of Vilondra she thought. Isabel remembered bristling at the knowledge they had a life on another planet and it how it set her off on an identity crisis of sorts with the finding of some of the downside of that life. They were not happy memories. She was more interested in the life she had here on this planet.
Michael was the one who wanted off, and then my brother when he impregnated the wrong woman.
Although he would end up a child with the woman he did love although he would not know it, she would mutter as she sat at the kitchen counter and looked door as she had spent time tracking where Rath and Lonnie might be today. All evidence was they were still alive. Currently Rath was somewhere on the other side of the planet and had not been seen in close to six months, not even by his own daughter,
so he is a crappy father she thought.
But Lonnie was in the wind. And now Isabel could not get a grip of where she was. Annoyed, and she was asking herself why she was doing this. Because it’s not like we are family. Because she and Lonnie were two very different individuals.
Lonnie is probably in jail or something, or maybe dead. Isabel thought.
So, why am I doing this to myself? But she knew she probably should be looking to find out where her duplicate might be so they could be armed, and not face any surprises. After all, she did not like surprises.
None of us do. So, she did not hear the door to the kitchen close and looked up and found her husband-to-be walking into the house. Surprised, but then remembered the high school was on break this week, and her fiancé had the week off just like their kids did.
In the past, they had taken the opportunity to travel to other parts of New Mexico, or even Arizona when the kids were small, but now the kids were older, and did not want to travel as much during their break off. And this year in particular, with everything brewing. They had decided not to plan something. Especially since they had a wedding to plan, and maybe a honeymoon to look forward.
The honeymoon was Kyle’s to plan.
So, they had spent the week off, and her fiancé tended to find things to do, or was making plans for the upcoming games once school was back in session. After all, Kyle coached football.
Kyle found his girlfriend in the middle of something. Something she had not been when he had left for his fishing day with his father. Now he was home.
“Did you catch anything?” Isabel asked as she perked up.
“No, not today” Kyle said. “Has there been anything with the kids?” he asked although he knew if something had truly come up regarding their daughters than Isabel would have reached out to him, and because she had not, except for a message ranting about
her duplicate, and explaining that Sierra was Rath’s daughter, therefore, it had not made a lot of sense until he figured out more on the drive home, but still that time with his father had allowed him to be blissfully ignorant.
“Nope, Jaime has been gone all day so far. Which is surprising given I believe all she had was a tutoring session with Lex,” Isabel murmured. “I have not heard from either of the girls so far,” she sighed at the knowledge that both the girls were becoming more and more independent as time has gone by.
And it was unnerving for their parents.
Which is why Kyle could only nod. As he was coming home so he was unsure of why his girlfriend was knee deep in papers, as she had them all spread out all over the table. After a rewarding day spent with father doing a little fishing, and drinking beer, and now he was back home, and all the craziness that brings to his life. When he had driven up, the car was home, so he knew someone was home. With neither of their kids within driving age,
and thankfully I still have a bit of time before I take on that worry Kyle thought in terms of his own daughter.
I do not have to worry about that, yet he thought. Although he knew time was ticking down as he was seeing the worry on Isabel’s face as his fiancée was dealing with that coming way too soon with Jessica only months away from her own sixteen birthday.
Jessica was already studying for the test.
Boys would have been better he could not help but mutter to himself. There were too many worries with girls he would mutter to himself, but he also knew he many worries that his own father did not have, not that we were speaking much he thought.
Because my father decided to follow Grandpa’s lead and believe in aliens, he muttered.
At the time, he laughed at the thought and
maybe I did not laugh much he thought as he believed his father was going down that road, a road that meant his father was following his grandfather obsession. Little did we know he muttered. As he remembered how he reacted at the time, Kyle knew he had too much before he started to settle down.
So, all types of kids have a knack of causing trouble, no matter the sex.
As he prayed that Jaime did not give him a battle once she turned into that phase of wanting to hate life, assuming that would be happening because he thought of his daughter. So, much of her was like her late mother. And the more rational side came from himself. So, he was not sure he would have to worry, but looking at Jessica, and knowing what the kids were capable of…
But Jessica was different than his own daughter.
And she was proving it each day, much to the frustration of both himself and Isabel.
Which is why it was worrying his fiancée.
One day she will be my wife he thought. Why they decided to change their relationship after a decade, he did not know except that life was short, you never know what was going to happen. He wanted that commitment, and after time Isabel had finally been ready to move on. She had been skittish about it because of his it had gone within his relationship with Jesse.
I am different from Jesse he thought.
I know, he thought.
Unlike Liz, he had never changed.
And we still do not know why I did not when Liz did.
Not that I was particularly anxious to start glowing he muttered as he saw his girlfriend perplexed by the papers on the table. As she looked up and said something, and he realized he had not heard what she had said, “Sorry,” he said coming back to reality. “Did you say something?” he asked of the love of his life.
Someone who he got, and who got him. Despite their differences. Of course, she knew the warts of his life. Just as he knew the woman was someone should not have loved. And knew his grandfather would probably have disapproved if he had any of his sanity left before death came calling. As Kyle remembered back. And knew how it shocked his father to realize that aliens did exist, and they were in the form of teenagers, and initially he harbored bad thoughts but would eventually come to see that they were only trying to live their lives, and were not trying to hurt anyone,
or at least some of them were not he thought now.
Kyle would come by the knowledge in a more brutal way.
Near death he thought. And for sure, he had not wanted any part of the life. And did not care for the sacrifices that were being called on to be made by his own father, and even of him once he was let in on the truth. And saw the real cost of the truth. There had been too much danger for one small group of teenagers, and he bristled at all that back then.
And of course, time would give him prospective.
And it did not help that he would fall for Isabel but could not have her at the same time because she had met someone else, who was probably inappropriate for her, although he was a decent guy. But anyone could have told Isabel that it was a mistake to go in
all in on that relationship and have it turn into marriage so quickly. But at the time, Isabel was trying to grasp for something that made sense after losing someone who was something more meaningful to her, but it was not enough.
The loss was just as painful as if she had actually loved him.
Someone who was lost to them in a senseless and brutal act of deception.
Kyle would always bristle at the flashes of that time because to lose Alex had been a body blow to them all. Because Kyle could not help but feel shivers even to this day because of his own culpability in it, as he tried to shake that memory out of his mind as he tried to cling to what he
did have now, something real and not horrible which was Isabel and their children; Jaime who had given him something cherish. And he did feel horrible that he and her mother could not make it work.
Teri was lost to us way too soon.
We were only just out of our marriage when she got sick. Treatments failed almost as soon as they begun, and it was not like he could go to Max and ask for help, because Max was lost to them by that point and then of course Teri did not know the truth. One of the many reasons why it did not work because there was
so much, he could not say.
And Teri sensed that there was something he was holding back. And he was. Because he could not be honest. But his wife would have pinned it on his unrequited love for Isabel even though he had always been faithful to his wife and was never tempted to stray. Still, and while Teri had known of his feeling
before they married…
Kyle believed he could move on and be with someone else.
Because it was not like Isabel actually looked at me as an option back then he thought. Unfortunately for his marriage. It did not matter, he and Teri suffered for it until they mutually decided to end their marriage. With Kyle pledging to be an active father, always be around.
Jaime would never feel like she was being abandoned.
He knew that feeling and did not want his daughter to feel it.
Unfortunately, illness would rob them of Teri’s life and Kyle had spent the last decade trying to be there for his daughter, to make up for the fact she did not have her mother. Isabel had helped immeasurably, and never tried to push to be more to Jaime than his daughter wanted his girlfriend to be, as it was always up to Jaime how much she was going to accept from Isabel. Fortunately, it helped that his daughter and Jessica were close thanks to the fact they were close to the same age and were able to get along.
And were the ones pressuring their parents to formalize their relationship.
As if living together was not a big deal commitment he thought but finally he felt ready to marry, and knew Isabel felt the same.
After all, he would have married her years ago, if she had wanted to.
But she was scared off by her first marriage. And it had taken a long time to get over those days.
“Yes, I did” Isabel said with a laugh, as she spotted her fiancé zoning out but now coming back to her. “Where were you?” she asked as she saw that she finally had her boyfriend’s attention back on her.
“Nowhere in particular,” Kyle said. “Sorry,” he said once again. ‘You mentioned Jaime?” he asked of his daughter.
His only child.
Although he did not consider Jessica just as much his as his daughter, but at the end of the day, she was not his, but he had helped raise her.
It was something they had talked back, having a child together. Both knew they were getting older, and it was one of the real reasons why they decided to finally to marry so that they could try for a child, born under marriage since he knew his girlfriend was traditional in many ways. Although not traditional enough to want marriage before living together, but still, a child was different. So, plans were currently being made even though they had not narrowed down a date as of yet. Although they were thinking lately of a July wedding, but they would be deciding any day now.
If there was not drama coming from other corners, then we might be deciding.
“Jaime, yes, she is not home,” Isabel murmured. “She did not come home after her tutoring session ended with Lex Anthony,” she sighed. ‘I did not think she had other plans?” she allowed. “Did she call you?”
“Nope,” Kyle murmured. ‘She does not always call. So, yeah, she is off, and therefore she is probably having fun,” he allowed. “I really do not think we have to worry.”
“I am not worried, just surprised that is all” Isabel murmured.
“Sure, you are,” Kyle said with a smile as once again he saw the papers. “She knows to call if it truly does get away from her,” he murmured because he had no cause not trust his daughter. “Which is something I think you know,” he said with a smile as finally referenced the paper. “What has gotten your eye?”
“Only research,” Isabel sighed as she glanced up towards her boyfriend. As she was wanting a diversion and hoping that the girls were up to no good so that she and Kyle would go find their mischievous girls but knew of either girl Jaime was not the one to worry about because she was normal, but even if she was not, and was like her own daughter. Jaime was the most even keel kid out there, and someone you would not want to go towards the trouble or the fire.
Now Jessica she thought.
Jessica gives me worries she told herself. The closer her daughter got to sixteen and getting out onto the road. And seeing the difficulties Mariah was giving to Liz, it made her worry.
But Jessica had it more together.
And he was not lied to all her life Isabel thought.
Okay it was not a lie Isabel muttered to herself because she believed that there was thought to wonder. She believed in that because for all her faults, Isabel knew that Liz would never have not told her brother. “Nothing serious.”
“I doubt that” Kyle muttered. As he knew when his girlfriend was looking for a diversion and was wishing their kids to dig up the muck and cause trouble, so she did not have to deal with whatever she was dealing with. “So, what are you doing?”
“Sierra Cruise has gotten me wondering,” Isabel muttered as she knew she had laid a trippy voice message on her husband-to be,
because it had me rattled, she thought.
It still does. “Of what we do not know.”
“What do you mean?” Kyle asked, as if he did not know.
He did.
“The duplicates, you know the clone versions of ourselves” Isabel muttered.
I never thought I would have to think about them again. “I want to say, twins, but twins have some difference to them,’ she sighed. “I need to know if I can find where Rath and Lonnie are?”
“Did you find out anything?” Kyle asked.
“More than I wish I had,” Isabel muttered.
And still, she did not know a lot.
None of them did.
*
Max had not left the Crashdown even though it was starting to thin out as the lunch crowd was finishing and the afternoon lull was now on, as he could not help but look over to see his son talking to his niece about something. Jaime had only just left, but River was staying, and Max knew it was because
he was still here in the restaurant. Although Max did not know why he was still here when it was obvious his daughter did not want to see him, and he should heed it and leave but he could not, and he did not know why.
Mariah had come back, and he should be taking that as a message, but he was, and he knew it was because he wanted to see her mother again, even though he had just seen her a few hours before. And he could not help but think back and remember how this had been such a daily ritual once upon a time.
When I was younger and did not have grey hair trying to peek through to show my age, he mused to himself.
Because once upon a time, yes, he had almost daily because Liz had been roaming the room as a waitress. Today, she had not made an appearance since he had been on the premises and he should be heeding it, he knew.
Give it up he told himself.
Be the big man here.
But he stayed.
As upstairs, Liz stayed put. She was still on the balcony talking to her daughter. She was having to come to terms with a lot, and it was not always pleasant. She knew she and Brady had given their children a good life.
A different one than the one they would have
here. if she and Brady had moved back here after university. Which had been discussed at one point, but only briefly because if it had not been obvious to Brady that his wife had a love/hate relationship with her hometown before than it would have become obvious once they finished with Northwestern and looking to a make a life together. With a young child in Mariah, and a young toddler by that point in their son, Alex.
They were not sure they wanted to stay in Chicago. But the first jobs offered came out of the Windy City. Still, they did not lock into where they had met, and fell in love. Brady had offered to move back to New Mexico if that was where Liz had wanted to be. But Liz had bristled at the idea, even though she knew fully well that the state was large, and they did not even have to settle close to Roswell.
They could have been anywhere in the state.
But no, she had bristled and informed her husband she was fine with settling in Illinois or anywhere other than her home state. So, yes, if he had not known it before, then he would have known it then.
And the first offer that was worth anything came out of Chicago, and so they stayed, and that is where they had made their life.
Until everything changed the previous November when they moved back here because of an offer that too good to turn down for her husband. Although Liz would now know her husband had been looking for the new offer because he was not like the relationship their daughter was in, back home, and once here, only two weeks later, their lives would again change forever.
And they were still feeling the aftershocks, and the rumble.
Now Liz was looking at her daughter, “I am serious,” she was saying to her daughter as she was trying to come to terms with the teenager so they could end the war between them. A war that was one-sided at this point. Because Liz was giving all the ground to her daughter and was aching for peace because this was not the 16th birthday that she was wishing for daughter. She wished her daughter could be having a happier day. Yeah, she wished Mariah could have a day that was memorable and not one that was full of doubt, angst, and change. But then Liz would not have described her
own as a celebration either as she had been up to her toes in trying to figure what was going on with Max.
It so early in the aftermath of the shooting. Still though it was all so normal, and then September 18th happened, and she was entering an abnormal world.
Whether she knew it or not.
As it was also a world that had has never left, completely, even when she believed she had. Because a piece of it was always with her.
But back then, she had not even known half of it, or what she would be sacrificing.
Or that she was willing to sacrifice it at all, and she knew she did make some major ones because she fell in love with an alien.
She had given up a lot, until a point, where it became too much and now nearly two decades after that day. She was looking at it all with a different vantage point because her daughter was now a player in this drama
as if I am not one also, she muttered to herself.
I left this town to be able to get back what I lost.
My normalcy, a normal life.
Wow that did not happen she muttered. And she was foolish to even think that it could have happened. When you are in love with an alien.
Any chance of a normal life is yesterday, and as a result, out the window. But I did try and now she knew she had been lying to herself and was in a state of unknown.
Liz took some of the blame of why she was like this, even if it was not warranted.
She felt like it was.
“For what?” Mariah asked.
“If I could change things for you, if things could have been different,” Liz murmured “But I need you to believe that what I ultimately did, was about you, but it was about me. I do not regret it. Because Mariah, I know I made the right decision for myself by walking away…”
“Because you would have had to deal with River?” Mariah asked as she could help but acknowledge how different her life if her mother had only stayed.
Yes, Liz though silently. “I do not know many women who would have been able to handle it,” Liz murmured. “Everything was intense. To be in the middle of it. Still, I wish I could have been strong enough to be able to, for you, but I was young, and I needed to leave. I needed to leave the situation I was in. To make a break of it all. It was about my sanity. Of course, when I left. I did not know about you, obviously, otherwise I would likely have made a different decision. Because I would have a hard time leaving.”
“You would have had to settle for a life you did not want?” Mariah wondered.
Would I want Mom to have done that? To stick only because she got pregnant and resented my brother. Because of me?” she asked.
I wanted the life. Liz sighed.
That was never the issue, even when it should have been she thought.
I just did not want to be a mother to a kid that was birthed by Alex’s killer. So, she did not know how to answer her daughter’s assumptions. But Mariah knew the answer. “It is okay, you do not have to answer me, because I know the answer.”
“No, you do not,” Liz said softly. “Look Mariah, I wish I could say I was able to handle it. But I was young. I know you think that is an excuse and maybe it is, but I also I was also naïve back then. I was living a different life. Striving for a different future. And then one day, one normal day, it all started to change. When gunshot ran out, I was dealing with the dying days of summer, and the beginning of a new school year. Working here at your grandparent’s restaurant during the day, studying or even dating Kyle…”
“Kyle?” Mariah asked. “Oh, right, River’s uncle”
and my uncle? she wondered. Because she knew some of the players.
Not very well.
Which is my fault she thought as memories of the diary she had taken which had opened her eyes to her mother’s world drifted through her mind as she now remembered how her mother mentioned dating the Sheriff’s son.
Who was now engaged to River’s aunt, although the wedding had not taken place yet but the title was still on, regardless of any formalizing of ties as her mind also drifted back to reality and she could see that her mother was also in her own little world.
So, was she?
“Yes,” was all Liz could say.
Mariah nodded.
“Everything was so normal, and then I almost died. And I would have died, bled out probably before anyone could have come to my aide, because in the mayhem they did not know what was happening. Whether they would have been able to save me. I do not know. But if it was not for one person. Someone who was here, watching me, and not acting until a gunman fired his gun and ran off. He could have run off himself given the weight of his secret, but he did not, and he came into the fire, and in ways someone else might not have.” Liz said softly. Thinking of the magnitude of what Max had one.
For me she thought. “Still, Max jumped in, and saved my life by healing me, and therefore he brought me into this insane drama that got more outrageous as time went on,” Liz whispered as Mariah felt like this unbelievable tale her mother was spinning could only exist in a movie, but it was real,
too real she muttered. And she knew her mother had to be telling the truth. Because she also could not fathom how it must have been to be that girl back then, unknowing, nearly dying and if not for some unique healing power, she might truly have died. “I wish I could have provided you a normal life,” she whispered once more to bring her daughter back into the reality of the moment.
Mariah felt for her mother,
finally. It had to have been hell. “You did,” she whispered. “Because I cannot say you and Dad did not give me or Lex a life back in Chicago that was as normal as possible, and I know you probably would have continued to down here too if Dad was not taken from us, like he was,” she conceded. “All my life I believed in a world, she sighed. “One that made sense. I did not know any different, and if we had not come here, then I might have gone on not knowing…”
“I am sorry…” Liz murmured.
I hate this.
“Don’t be” Mariah sighed. “You did not know any different,” she murmured. “You cannot blame yourself Mom. The only reason we found out was because of Dad because you know…”
“I know,” Liz sight as she thought of the ticking bombshell that had taken away her husband.
“As I said, I believe in this world, and I did not know any better or differently,” Mariah sighed as she looked out into the sun of the day. “But now I know, and it makes a weird sense because while I had a normal life, and I did, still thought, I was beginning to see that I am not normal, and it was not only stumbling on what I did to make me feel out of sorts. Because I have felt it for a while even if I did not know what it all meant,” she thought of this feeling.
Or you can call it a vibe she thought. But still she had felt different, and she did not quite grasp it back in Chicago. Where she was thinking she did was clashing against her grandparent’s money ways.
Oh, Liz thought. As she immediately felt guilty for not seeing it.
Maybe I did but I did not see it at the same time. “You did not say anything?”
“What was I going to say you Mom or to Dad. That I was feeling different. That I was getting these weird vibes, and even having imaginative and downright Hollywood type dreams. And I was not always asleep when I was having them…” she said speaking for the first time of the true burden she had been under, even before she had come to this town. Parts of herself that she had been able to shelve down deep and try ignore, and thank she was reading too much, and seen one too many movies.
Because I could not be possibility be like this, right?
I am human, right?
“Oh, god” Liz murmured. “If you had told me?”
“What would you have done, especially what would Dad have done? Would you have believed me because we had no reason to think anything differently? And back home, everyone would have looked at me like I needed to be committed, and maybe I would have needed to be, but coming here, and finding out what I did, well, it freaked me out, and it was way too much, but it made sense at the same time. I now knew there was a reason for feeling like I did, but it did not mean it made sense to me either so I wished I was back home in Chicago where Grandma or Grandpa would be trying to push their money ways on me, or thinking that I should be dating from the
right families, and especially not someone like Josh who was too low class for them,” she muttered as she thought of her grandparents views. And yes, mostly she had ignored them, and now she knew there was a reason why she never jived with their ways. It was not simply a grandchild rebelling against the wealthy class.
It was more. More than class.
She was not one of them.
She did not know why she wanted to be one of them anyways, and why she had been fighting
It was obvious I was not like them, and did not want to be…
But I always figured I was like Dad Mariah thought. Because she knew how her dad had walked away from the life, and so she figured she was like both her parents. Because they did not care for that life.
Now she knew.
Liz did hate to see her daughter in so much turmoil and how she was revealing so much she did not see or had been oblivious too a
nd I could not help but feel like her own parents during the time the aliens invaded my life she thought.
Mom and Dad did not see what I was going through or was classifying it as something it was not. And I have now ignored my own daughter’s plight. She knew of her husband’s battles with his parents, and certainly knew of her in-laws’ controlling ways. She also knew they disapproved of her daughter’s relationship with Josh Anderson.
Josh is many things, but not low-class Liz thought. She might have qualms about how serious her daughter had gotten with Josh, but the boy had been a good kid.
Just not from any of those families the Antony elders would have approved of for their only granddaughter she muttered because se she knew that feeling well,
because I was in that position once upon a time. Mitchell and Christina did not approve of me, and their son bucked against them. Although it helped that I was pregnant at the time of our marriage otherwise I might have had to deal with some of Mitchell’s heavy-handed methods that she had seen enacted with his daughter, Priscilla Liz thought.
Between marriages.
Having Mariah prevented a large part
or so I thought she muttered as she still had not talked to her sister-in-law about what her husband may nor may not have known about his daughter’s paternity.
Thanks to my son being nosey she thought of her son.
“Mom?” Mariah asked, concerned that her revelations might have sent her mother around the bend, one too many times. “Are you okay?”
Not on your life she wanted to say.
But Liz wisely did not. “You should have told me,” Liz murmured. “You have no idea how much I know that feeling, okay, maybe not to the degree that you are feeling, but I know the feeling.”
“What would you have done if I had come to you?” Mariah asked because she had every confidence whatever her mother might have felt at one time
was not what she was feeling
not even close she murmured to herself. “We have no idea or what we do now, and you had no reason to believe was not my father, so if I had come to you, could you have really helped me?”
“I would have tried,” Liz sighed even though she knew she would have been at a loss because there would have been no way she would have thought her daughter’s paternity was in question, and if she had, then she would not have figured it was Max unless of course she had heard of the daydreams, because she knew those all too well.
Still though “You should know that you can come to me with anything okay, and I mean anything, and same would go with your brother when he does get older, and I maybe I can be of some help.”
Mariah nodded.
Unsure of what to say and knowing that she needed to take a break from this and allow her daughter to have some time away from it. “Speaking of grandparents, okay, so, maybe not the ones we were talking of, but maybe it’s time to go back to your other grandparents, and your brother?” Liz asked. Aware that they had been away for a while and their absence was noticeable.
They probably do not know we are out here.
“I do not know,” Mariah answered unsure of whether she wanted to back and yet now she was understanding he mother a little more. She knew they still had a way left to go, but at least she did not feel so hurt, and unsure around her mother.
“What do you know?” Liz wondered. “Mariah today is your day. You can do anything you want with it, no restrictions.”
“Whatever I want?” Mariah asked a tad wearily. “No restrictions?”
“They go back on tomorrow,” Liz said with a smile. “You know that I do not like what you have been doing,” she murmured. “And you start working here on Monday,” she sighed of the agreement she made with her father for her daughter to be given a job. A job as a waitress. Something Jeff was thrilled to provide his granddaughter so that the girl could understand the business. While she could have started on the weekend, but they figured a weekday shift would been a better first day given that her daughter would be on suspension from school. And would not be heading back to classes with her friends, for two weeks. So, spending the days working would do her daughter some good so that she did not dwell on her misery, and she might come out of her funk sooner if she felt a part of the community.
Mariah of course had been resistant to it, but she knew she had no choice.
So, she accepted the offer from her grandfather, and agreed to show up on Monday.
Maybe it will be something to get me to know this town again she thought as if she could read her mother’s mind, and this instance she didn’t.
Once upon a time it held so much promise and then the accident happened,
everything went to hell she muttered. “I guess I do.”
“It is not a death sentence you know,” Liz said with a smile as she felt her daughter’s annoyance to be having to take the job. “You might enjoy it because I did. I loved interacting with the people down in the restaurant, and it will help you get your ground with this town. And an added plus is that it will help your grandparents out because they are getting older, and everyone could use some help, and you might get to know the town a little more,” she smiled.
Creepy Mariah thought of the ability her mother always had to see right through her, and now she wondered if this town and her biological father was the reason for it.
Insane she thought but did not say anything because it was bound to open wounds that she did not want to inflict today, of all days. “We have dinner with Grandma and Grandpa, right, later?”
“Yes, that is the plan.” Liz murmured as she felt that her daughter was thinking of something in particular. “What is up?”
“I think I might want to go downstairs and deal with what is going on down there,” Mariah murmured as knew what was going on downstairs. Although she had no way of knowing whether
he was so still down there, but she needed to go down and suck it up and stop hiding.
“Oh,” Liz murmured because she sensed what her daughter was really saying, and she could not help but feel a mix of pride and also surprise because she had not expected this of her daughter, but she knew was the only course of action that had to be taken. “Are you sure?”
“Yes,” Mariah nodded. “I need to do this…” as she felt acceptance come into her core. She did not know how it would go, but she needed to take a first step.
“Then you should go,” Liz said with the knowledge that one her daughter would be accepting Max in whatever way that felt normal for her daughter, and she Liz, had better get used to it because they were now in a very different world. “Whatever you end up doing. I will support you in anything you do, okay?”
“Anything?” Mariah asked with a smile.
A rare smile expressed at her mother, and her mother took it gladly.
As she could not help but smile to herself…
Was the ice thawing?