One hour later,
“Are you sure?” Max was asking as Liz was standing across from him, as they were now by the caves. After all, he had been wondering because he knew his son was in his home with his girlfriend and Max did not want to be thinking of what they were doing and given his skills as a father were seriously in question, he was not going to be the bad parent who put a stop to it because his son was seventeen,
eighteen in a few months he thought.
When did so much time elapse?
So, he had been taking the time to wander and thinking about what came next.
What could possibility come next.
Not that he knew,
none of us know, but then he had seen the car pull up, and seen the brunette beauty in the front seat, and he knew all his dreams were coming true. It did not matter what this adventure would end up being, but it would be enough to have Liz back in his life.
But he had not expected to hear what Liz had to say, although he probably should have been expecting because down deep it was something he had been dreading since he first learned she had moved back to Roswell.
She was leaving Max thought.
She is leaving me again.
She has decided Max also thought.
She had;
I have to do this she told herself. As she looked at the disappointment in Max’s face. And knew it brought back nightmares for him, and memories for both of them, and she was sorry for it but if it brought some semblance of normalcy to her son, she needed to do this.
I have to do this because I am a mother.
And my children come first even before what my heart wants Liz thought.
“You are sure?” Max was asking in a loop.
“It is not forever,” Liz was saying. “But it for now,” she was saying. “Mariah is not coming with us, so I will be coming back. But while we are gone, she will be staying with my parents.”
“She could stay with me, and River” Max offered, and got a smile from Liz. “What?”
“You do not have the room, and too much is still tentative for you and our daughter. The last thing you need to do is be a parent to our child,” Liz said with a smile. “It is too stressful, and she will be better off at the Crashdown. Where she will be working, which is why she is not going to be coming with us, because she needs some balance in her life. She needs to understand this town, and what her life is, and she has the job working for my parents, and maybe the time apart will aide our relationship.”
“I thought things were better?” Max asked.
“Barely,” Liz said. “I need to do this for my son. It’s almost like they have done a switch of their souls,” she said softly. “Lex is starting to act out, and so I think taking him back to Chicago to visit where we used to live, will do him a world of good.”
Max nodded, unsure of what to say.
“School?” Max asked finally.
“He’s being homeschooled or at least doing his classes on-line until September, and so he can do his classes from Chicago, and I figure he can see his grandparents, and see his old friends, and maybe we can figure out where to go from here, and he and Mariah could use the time apart.”
“It is never easy to know what we know,” Max murmured as Liz had confessed that her son now knew, and he did not hesitate to say it was fine, because he knew they were too far into this to be able to keep a secret, and being in that kind of life meant that Lex needed to know, at least something, and he did not envy his former girlfriend for her present situation.
But leaving he thought.
That was very different he thought.
What if she does not come back?
Even if Mariah is here, does not mean that she has to come back, right. Mariah is now sixteen.
“Work?” Max asked, thinking of any other reason for Liz to stay here. “I thought you were working?”
“I am, but I have a few remaining projects connected to my old job that I can check on,” Liz said, as she and Max started walking the distance towards his house, and where her car was, “I need to do this.”
“I understand,” Max said softly.
“Do you?” Liz asked.
“No, but I know you think you need to do this, and maybe you do” Max said softly.
“Maybe the time away will bring some prospective to all of us?” Liz asked as they continued to walk,
which is something we all need she thought.
To let this, settle down, and to find some ending in it.
Max did not say anything, as he knew he feared that she would never come back.
“I am coming back,” Liz asked as if she could sense what he was thinking. “This will not be forever.”
“Are you sure?” Max asked.
“Of course,” Liz said. “But right now, it is about my son, and I need to be thinking of him, and not what I want in all this.”
“What do you want?” Max asked.
“To be happy,” Liz murmured. “To have both of my kids happy,” she said softly as she did not want to leave him with the impression her children were not what was important when it was the most important thing,
for all of us.
And almost as she was thinking that she saw the door open and Sierra coming out of the house, as she pulled up her top, and smooth it, out and she saw Max and Liz coming at her, and they immediately remembered when they were both young, and in love.
“Mr. Evans,” Sierra said softly.
“Sierra,” Max smiled. “Have a safe drive home,” was all he said, and Sierra nodded and walked off, and got into her car.
“That was a good of you,” Liz said softly.
“As I have often said, my parenting style is very wanting,” Max said softly. “All I can hope for right now is my son to be happy…”
“Which is why I am doing this, so I hope you understand.”
“I do, I just do not like it.”
“I will be back Max,” Liz promised.
“I hope so,” was all Max could say as Liz only smiled and walked to her own car and headed off as she left Max pondering what would happen if she did not come back.
Or what might happen when she
did come back?
*
“You are not my mother,” Roxy muttered as she stood in the living room of the Valenti home and was having it out with Isabel who was hoping that being in the house will allow Roxy to see the value of having a roof over her head, and to stay in for the night. “You cannot force me to stay here,” she sighed. “I am sticking because the alternative is worse than this place, but it is only for tonight, but for now, I am going out.”
“You should stay here,” Isabel muttered. She was not used to be someone who was trying to handle a trouble teenager because of the two teenagers who should be staying in the house at the moment were the opposite of troubled and were not looking for trouble on a daily basis. She knew she was close to losing her daughter if this did not work out, and Jaime was also spending the night at her best friend Emma’s house,
out of desire to spend the night with friends not out of any attempt to stay away she thought.
“Be home by 11,” Isabel muttered.
“You are not even my foster parent, so you cannot tell me what to do” Roxy muttered once more and grabbed her coat, and walked out, and all Isabel could do was look at her fiancé. “I know you want to say,
I told you so…”
“No, I do not” Kyle said with love in eyes. “I understand what you are doing, or what you are trying to do, but you have to expect there will be push back,” he said. “It’s not going to be easy.”
“I know,” Isabel muttered. “I wish it were.”
“She is not going to take in something she has never had,” Kyle said softly. “I know how hard that can be, from when you know who lived with me and my father” he said of the girl who had changed so much for them, once upon a time.
Tess Isabel thought.
Which is why I am doing this she thought
so that we can get to her in time.
To prevent mayhem from breaking out she thought.
Because as she grows, she is going to see how useful her abilities are, and what she can do with them, and that is only going to cause havoc if it as not already she thought.
But it’s only been child’s play so far, she thought.
But as she grows up, she could move up to the big time.
Kyle knew it, but it was not easy to witness the potential for havoc playing out in their own home.
“Do you want to talk about that wedding?” Isabel asked with a smile, of the event that they should be concentrating on but was slowly moving into the background.
Kyle could only laugh.
*
“Where is our son?” Maria asked as she finally walked back into her home after being outside for the longest of times. After all she had spent some time thinking deeply about her life once her friends had gone off, and then she also stopped by her mother’s home on the way back inside because she needed to talk to her mother about a business decision she needed with the store. As she also could not help but think of the changes her best friend was confronting in her life. As she was making some drastic decisions.
Although unlike Max who feared Liz would not come home, Maria knew Liz could not stay away.
She will be back.
Chicago is her old life. Going back will only make that apparent Maria thought.
It does not have Max in it she thought.
But Lex needed time to come to terms, and Liz had to see what the future will hold because going back to Chicago will only make it known that Brady was gone.
And the future was now.
And Maria had to think of her own present, and her now as she walked into the kitchen and found her husband now home and toying with a light switch that needed fixing, and Michael was using the old fashion way in solving that malfunction.
Which is refreshing she thought.
This is my life she thought. She was so used to the abilities that came from her husband and son. “Mac?” she asked of her husband.
“Who knows,” Michael muttered. “I have not heard a peep out of him all night.”
“He should have been finished work by now, right?” Maria asked as she looked at the calendar. “He should have been done hours ago.”
“Probably with one of his friends,” Michael muttered.
“Maybe we should be paying closer attention to our son?” Maria asked. As she looked around and she saw the house she had made with her husband, and the family. “Our son is at a critical age.”
“He’s fine Maria,” Michael grunted. “I would know if he was not.”
“Would you?” Maria asked, wearily.
“Of course,” Michael muttered. “Our son knows what lines to cross, and yes he has been pushing his luck lately, but I am sure we would have heard if something had gone down” he said softly as his phone rang, indicating a text message. “Ah, speaking of the devil.”
“What is it?” Maria asked.
“He’s going to be spending the night at River’s,” Michael said. “He told us not to worry…”
“I guess he does not know us,” Maria muttered
I am always going to worry.
“He’s fine Maria,” Michael muttered. “So, what happened with Liz?”
“She’s
not fine,” Maria muttered
“Anyone could have told you that,” Michael asked as he finished with the light switch, and turned it on, and it was working. Such a statement to who they were as a couple.
We were not working, and then we were she thought.
“She’s going back to Chicago,” Maria muttered.
“Really?” Michael asked as he stopped scouting out more work to be done in the house. Work was dry, which made him pick up odd jobs at home, and now he was concentrating on his wife. “What brought that on?”
“Lex is having a meltdown,” Maria observed.
“Really?” Michael asked once more.
“Yes,” Maria nodded. “Lex knows the skeletons in our clan, and it’s caused him to have a nutty,” she said. “So, Liz feels getting him out of town for a while will let him calm down, and see that life is not so bad, and because he knows what is going on with sister, well, distance might help”
“Mariah is not going with them?” Michael asked.
“Nope, staying with Jeff and Nancy, and she has her job she’s supposed to be starting at the Crashdown, so she’s intending to come back but she does not know how long she will be gone for…”
“Whoa,” Michael muttered
I wonder if Max knows he could not help but think.
“I am sure Liz told Max,” Maria smiled as if she knew what her husband was thinking.
You did not have to have abilities to have a six sense about your spouse, she thought.
Sixteen years will do that to a wife.
“Which means he might join Lex in that meltdown,” Michael feared.
“Maybe he has grown up,” Maria muttered but she knew the truth.
When Liz is involved. One could not be too sure.
*
Max was trying not to meltdown.
I am stronger than this he thought as he walked into the house and saw his son going for a snack. Neither wanted to be talk about what Max could have witnessed in Sierra leaving, so Max leaned on something easier, “How are you feeling?”
“Stronger, with the headache is gone” was all River wanted to say because he knew his father wanted to say something but was trying to be good, and River appreciated it, because the last thing he needed was a concerned father, when so much of their relationship was anything but. “I am feeling better,”
not that I was ever that out of it.
“Was it Sierra’s visit?” Max asked as he was wondering if it was time to give his son the talk he thought.
Which was something I had to do before now or wished too for that matter he told himself.
I am a crummy father, he thought.
I accept that, and it was going to be hard to overcome now, when my son is seventeen. A few months from eighteen.
“Dad,” River muttered. “This is not something I want to be talking to you about,” he said. “It is a subject you have refrained from, so why start now?” he asked of his father, who nodded. “Please, leave it alone.”
“Sex is intense,” Max muttered as he did not relish having to have this talk.
I wish it could be anything else “I know I have not been a role model you should have been having during your life, but I know how much you care for Sierra, and I like her, so this is not about any kind of disapproval.”
“Dad,” River muttered. “Sierra and I are good.”
“I know you are, and I am sure you are being safe and protecting her in every way you can, because you never know what might come from taking your relationship to the next level. Because surprises are known to happen.”
“Of course, I know that Dad,” River muttered. “I was a surprise, remember” he muttered. “And plus, I was not exactly wanted by you at least,” he sighed.
But because if not for my dear old Mom who engineered my creation he thought. “But I am a fact of life because my biological mother wanted to get with you, and to get her claws into you,” he muttered.
Not the most ideal birth story I have here he thought.
“River,” Max muttered.
I hate this for River. “I am sorry.”
“For what,” River asked. “You can tell me sex is intense all you want, and that is true, and you can tell me to protect ourselves which we are, but it does not change the fact that I am here because of certain events my biological mother engineered, and you were pinned down by that…”
I was pinned by my own foolish desires, weakened by fighting with the love of my life because events that was becoming too much for us both.
“I wish things were different for you,” Max muttered. “That I could have been a better parent for you, but I did want you once we knew you, and once it was clear you were going to be born.”
“Yeah, you wish things could have different so you could have been there for Mariah,” River muttered. “You know it, I know it, and it is a part of my life Dad, and I am trying to make peace with it so, yes, you can tell me all you want that I should wait, and that sex is intense and to be sure I am with the right person…”
“That does not always happen, so I was not going to tell you,” Max said softly because
it only was once or twice that was the right thing he thought.
With Liz he though.
Still, I went there with Tess. “I like Sierra, I hope that the both of you are happy. But when you take this step, you need to be ready for whatever the ramifications are,” Max said. “That is all I can say. Because I cannot exactly say you should wait because I did not…”
“No, you did not because you obviously ended up with me,” River muttered.
“Yes,” Max said softly. “And because it now looks like I ended up with
two kids before marriage,” he muttered. “So, I am not exactly able to preach on waiting, but all I want for you is to be certain that it is right for you and Sierra. You do not know your future with her, but then none of us really knows our future with someone. I did not exactly see myself with your mother in any kind of the future,” he said. “I know that has to be hard for you to hear?”
“It's the truth, is it not?” River asked.
“Yes, it is” Max said.
“Then own it and let us move on. Mom is dead, and I do not know what kind of person she was before her death, so I only have yours or the family’s word for how she is, and if any of it was true than I might not have wanted to know her, but the two of you are my parents. At the end of the day, that is where we are, and you should be happy because you cannot dwell on what happened in the past,
or what did not happen.”
“No, we cannot.” Max acknowledged.
“I like Sierra, I mean I really like her,” River muttered. “She surprised me. Because I had a countdown clock to my departure from this town, and I did not see anyone or anything getting in the way of that, and she came into my life, and she surprised me,” he sighed. “We do not know our futures. She might be the right person for me, or we might end one day, I do not know for certain but for right now I want to see where it goes,” he sighed as he thought of the blonde beauty that had surprised him. “I know you probably will say I should say away from complicated?”
“You can only go by what your heart wants,” Max murmured. “That is how it was for me and Mariah’s mother. Liz and I were intense, and complicated. So, was your mother and me, and I am not happy with how it went, and you have a chance to have a different life. One that was not afforded to me, because I chose to go a different route. All I want is for you to be happy, to pick the road you want, without traveling down the bumps and the obstacles that we did in our day.”
“Thank you, Dad,” River murmured.
“You are welcome,” Max murmured as he knew once upon a time, only three short months ago, that sentiment would not have been given to him, or wished for, and all he could do now was move on, because the past was in the past, and they will never be able to get back what was lost.
For any of us.
And just like that there was a knock on the door. And prepared to expect anything, he was surprised to find his godson, although they did not have much of a relationship because of how out of it he had been most of the boy’s life. “Mac, what are you doing here?”
“I need a place to lay low,” Mac asked. “Can I spend the night?”
“Sure,” Max said as he allowed his godson into the house. “You can keep my son company,” Max said softly. “I am going out for a walk.”
“Again?” River asked, slightly amused.
“Again,” was all Max was going to be willing to say as he closed the door behind him, and it left the two teenagers in the house, alone.
“What is going on?” River asked his best friend.
“A lot,” Mac conceded as he had no desire to head home, and so he had sent the text to his parents without a firm plan of where he wanted to go. All he knew he could not be at home. And he could not be at his grandparent’s home, so he came out to find a friend. And from the sounds of it, his best friend had just had a in important talk with his father. “Can I stay here?” he asked as needed some place that was now about what he was feeling.
“Sure,” River nodded. Because from the look of it, his friend had a lot on his mind. And given the nature of the life he had lived with his father; Mac rarely had come here for a sleep over. River had mostly gone there, and now the reverse was happening. It was a signal that was a lot was changing. “Do you want to talk about it?”
“Maybe I do,” Mac muttered. Although he was unsure if he truly did.
“What is going on?” River asked.