Re: Falling (AU, M/L Teen) 7/21/2009
Posted: Sat Jul 25, 2009 8:43 pm
It had only been fifteen minutes - that was all the time that they'd had to spare, and they were now speeding down the streets of Roswell on their bicycles, figuring that they would just barely manage to be to school on time. It had been time well spent and a number of issues were resolved. It wasn't like it has been though - those carefree days of their youth.
Oh, they'd had a good talk. Max had been horrified when Liz told him about the exploding pressure cooker - but then laughed - and then commiserated with her - when Liz told him about the stupid things Pamela Troy had done that had driven their joint lab grade so low. Liz had allowed as how once this year was done she'd be desperately looking for another lab partner in eighth grade - and both agreed it'd be nice to be back together then. Liz had asked about paleontology the next summer and then changed the subject when Max had looked pained and started to stammer.
But if the pain of their argument was no longer as acute for either of them, it wasn't exactly gone either - or at least if it was it was now replaced by a sort of aching emptiness where it felt like something else should be - something that clearly wasn't there.
Still, a lot HAD been accomplished in a quick meeting and it was more than hot chocolate or the exercise of the fast pedaling that warmed Liz's heart as they arrived at the bicycle stands in the school yard. For her - well at least she had the plan and the plan allowed for the contingency that things might not proceed just as fast as she might like.
For Max it was a little different. It was a relief to have Liz not angry with him - to have at least to some degree his best friend back. OK, so they couldn't be close like they had been - that might keep Liz from finding her own special someone - but they could be friends and be cordial and next year they could be lab partners again. And they could be like that in the years to come - at least until Liz really DID find her own special someone.
When he'd awakened this morning that outcome would have been all that he could have ever asked for and he was still grateful for it - but as he helped Liz chain her bicycle to the rack - watching her breasts rise and fall as her respiration tried to catch up with the exertion of the long sprint form the doughnut shop, somehow something deep inside him said that a casual friendship wasn't enough - that watching her find her own special someone would be more painful than anything he'd ever experienced in his whole life.
But listening to that tiny voice buried deep in his subconscious threatened to take him down corridors of thought that he knew were never going to come true - corridors where just thinking the thoughts frightened him. His rejection of that tiny voice was automatic - taken without any real conscious thought.
If you open yourself to hope, you also open yourself to disappointment or worse - despair. You open yourself to admitting your own loneliness and need - he couldn't do that - not to Liz - not even to his own parents. No - he'd settle for what he had - parents who loved him because they didn't truly know him, and Liz who could be his friend as long as he kept his secret from her too.
"Thanks, Max," she said, squeezing his hand, ".. maybe we can meet after school - ride our bikes to the Crashdown and share a Martian Blast sundae or something..?"
"Yeah, Liz... I'd like that," he said as he watched her hurry off to her first class. Funny - he'd never really realized - not in all these years - just how beautiful Liz was. Whoever she chose to be her special someone would be a lucky human being indeed.
Three days later:
Latitude 5' 30" South, Longitude 23' 40" West
The freighter was old and poorly maintained. Like many old and poorly maintained freighters, it had Panamanian registry and flew a Panamanian flag. It had, however, never been to Panama. The Panamanian flag it flew was truly a flag of convenience. The owner sent Panama the registry fees, the Panamanian government sent them the paperwork indicating that the ship had been inspected and passed and was duly licensed to operate in international commerce in Panama - and through international treaties that Panama had signed - throughout the world. It was rumored that the Panamanian government would have a website up by next year which would allow the process to be completed without the inconvenience of any paperwork at all.
It was six days out of its usual port, Cartagena Columbia, enroute to Papua New Guinea where it's cargo would be offloaded to lighter and faster boats - better able to evade the Royal Australian Navy as they made their runs in to a half-dozen coastal areas from whence the cocaine could be trucked in to the cities. On the return trip it would be met by small vessels off the coast of Karachi Pakistan where it would pick up a sizable cargo of opium base to be returned to Cartagena where the morphine would be extracted and converted into heroin - likely to be the cargo for some future trip northward where it too would be offloaded - this time in cigarette boats along the panhandle of Florida.
The 'captain' of the vessel was below decks in his cabin in his usual state - drunk. The first mate - only one of three 'officers' on the vessel who knew enough to actually stand watches ( a group that did not include the captain) - was on the bridge. It had been an uneventful watch - the course had been carefully chosen to keep the vessel clear of the normal shipping lanes. It was only as the first mate went to log this otherwise uneventful watch that he noticed that the barometer had fallen precipitously - just in the last hour.
Eight years ago the first mate had been the third officer on a respectable passenger liner - before he himself had been caught using drugs on duty. Despite his current ready access to such drugs - the first mate himself had successfully rehab'd - although not quickly enough to save his maritime career with any respectable shipping firm.
Eight years ago he would have gotten on the radio and given the US Coast Guard a SEAS report. The anomaly could possibly indicate weather brewing that could seriously affect other ships in the future. But then the first mate remembered where he was and what they were doing and put it out of his mind. One more opportunity for the quirky little tropical low that was forming to become known to the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration had just been lost.
Back in Roswell-
There's one in every eighth grade boys PE class. Generally they can hide it until they get in a locker room surrounded by other boys - then they have to show just what sorts of dorks they really are. In this class it was Charlie Gresham.
The eighth grade PE class was just finishing. They'd played soccer up until the coach had sent them to the showers ten minutes ago. Many of them had just gotten out of the showers - a very few were just finishing up - and about a half dozen had just changed back into their street clothes - their classmates would be trying to keep upwind of them for the last couple periods of the day. These were the group that Gresham was currently trying to impress.
In fairness to Gresham .... well, why should we be fair to Gresham - I already mentioned he was a dork. But perhaps a little background is in order. Charlie Gresham was the new kid. Oh, he'd been there the whole school year - his father was a senior production manager for an oil company that was putting a new system in place to inject water in the ground to force more oil out of older wells . That's why he'd come to Roswell over the summer from Houston. Houston, of course, is a big town, and people come and go from it all the time. There is less mobility among the small towns and rural areas of New Mexico. Roswell had 45,000 inhabitants making it the fifth largest town in New Mexico, but the whole town was tiny compared to Houston's nearly two and a half million - in fact Houston's population exceeded that of all of New Mexico by a considerable margin.
Anyway, Charlie Grisham was the new kid - despite living in Roswell for more than six months - and he was a year older than the other eighth graders - the consequences of repeating the Third grade - and he considered himself quite a bit more worldly and mature than his small town fellow students having come from the big city. Also - he was the one in every eighth grade locker room who believed he could prove his manliness by being crude, rude, and lewd.
As Max Evans and a couple of other seventh graders who had their previous class in close proximity to the gym came in and began to suit up, Charlie Grisham was just getting going. He was wearing nothing but a towel around his waist - clearly the least apparel you want to have on in a junior high school boy's locker room where towel-snapping your classmates butt is considered somewhat of an art form - and enough guys had gotten done with their showers and started dressing to be an adequately sized audience.
"Any one notice perfect Parker today?" he asked to no one in particular. The seventh grade girls had just gotten done playing soccer on the girl's field and had doubletimed from the field back to their own locker rooms right past the eighth grade boys. Liz had spent the game in goal and her team had only won because she'd stopped one shot on goal after another. The goalie's jersey - added to the standard junior high gym outfit - Red t-shirt with the school name printed on it and her name in indelible marker and white shorts - had been really hot in the afternoon sun. The sweat from the heat and the exertion had pretty well plastered her t-shirt to her sport's bra once she took off the goalie's jersey, and it hadn't been just Grisham that had admired the view as she jogged by.
"Perfect Parker has some pretty hot hooters....," said Charlie. Now normally at least a third of the class - determined to show that they were as suave and debonair as Grisham - would have probably laughed at the comment - or made a few themselves. But they weren't the new kid on the block. Most of them knew - if only by whispered story and reputation - what had transpired with Billy Souto and all of them had heard about Max taking the guy over the cliff. So they sat there speechless - not laughing or saying anything while their eyes begged Charlie Grisham to look behind him and see who was listening to what he was saying - except of course, Grisham didn't know the history and wouldn't have known Max's nane unless he read it off his t-shirt. So like the dork he was - did I mention Grisham was a dork? - he went on to even cruder things, trying to impress the audience.
"Man, I was tempted to reach out and grab a handful of that as it jiggled by - second base on the fly..." Instead of laughs, all he got was wide-eyed looks of shock and disbelief - obviously a bunch of rubes.
"You know, I've seen better - I mean, hooters that is - but Parker does have one fine ass on her too - that makes up for being a little shy in the hooter department."
The silence was deafening - not just rubes, but a tough audience. Well there was something that almost always worked.
"OK, I'll tell you what. We have the all-school dance coming up in five weeks. If she goes to the dance I'll ask her to dance with me. She'll accept because I'm a big eighth grader and more sophisticated than the rest of you guys - and I'll bet you that I can cop a feel right out on the dance floor and she won't even tell the chaperones - hell, she'll probably love it."
Fred Gilland was actually somewhat of a dork himself, that's why he associated with Grisham, but he knew Max and he'd seen him break Souto's arm - the kid had been an absolute iceman coming out on the playground and provoking Souto and then just snapping the arm like a friggin twig. He would always remember the expression on the kids face as he did it - he had barely looked human - about like he was looking now. "Uh, Grish, maybe we ought to just break this up and go off to our next class? Before this goes too far?"
"Too far, you ain't SEEN too far. After I get her warmed up - moist and ready - chances are she'll just jump at the chance to jump my bod... I can see us now, off in some back room while everybody else is at the dance, ... screaming at me to give it to her...deeper ... deeper....Oh, yes!," he shouted, still wondering why nobody was laughing as he worked his hips back and forward in what he apparently believed was simulated sex...
Max had been trying to ignore the words of the big stupid eighth grader - he didn't even know him. It was only locker room talk - just some jerk trying to impress the guys. There was a kid like that in his gym class as well - although at least he had the good sense to talk about Pamela Troy - and the way she acted around the guy it was almost believable. But this was Liz and what the guy was saying - Max could feel the anger grow in him - he felt his fists wanting to pound the boy's face - smash in to the mouth that was saying that about his ... his ... his ... friend.
He wasn't sure just how he got to his feet, but suddenly his fists were clenched - suddenly he was off the bench and his steps were taking him directly toward the large boy.
As he continued pumping his pelvis, wondering why he wasn't getting any laughs, he heard the footsteps behind him. Grisham turned quickly - suddenly afraid that it was one of the teachers who had come in the door from the hall and overheard what he was saying. He should have been so lucky. The kid's head only came up to his chin, but the impact of his body sent him sprawling on the cold hard concrete of the locker room floor.
"Hey, who do you think you're running in to?" he asked in surprise and pain.
"Nobody," said the boy, "...nobody and nothing..."
Grisham figured he could take the boy in a fair fight - he was sure of it. But those amber eyes - they didn't look like a fair fight was what was intended - and even if the boy was shorter and lighter he had a decided tactical advantage standing over him - Grisham feeling pretty vulnerable naked except for a towel.
"Well, I'll let it go this time," Grisham blustered, "... just don't let it happen again."
Somehow sanity returned to Max. OK, he told himself, it was just adolescentt locker room talk. Liz wouldn't want me to actually damage the guy even if she'd heard it. Besides, eventually she almost certainly would even want someone ... sexually. Someone ... human. Someone with a lot more class than this guy.
"Right," said Max. "Let's not let this happen again. It might just get out of hand," he finished as he walked through the doors into the gym.
"What's HIS problem?" asked Grisham as soon as Max had left.
"Parker," said Gilland. "He's had the hots for her since the third grade. I don't think he liked what you were saying."
"Third graders don't have the hots for anyone," said Grisham. "Besides, even if he did, he doesn't scare me."
"Yeah, well Evans probably didn't scare the guy who tried to rape Parker either," said the seventh grader from two rows back, "...at least not up until the point where he figured out Max was going to kill him."
Grisham looked into the faces of the other eighth graders in disbelief, waiting for them to call the seventh grader a liar - but their eyes told him the kid was telling the truth. All at once he ran toward the toilet - he was going to be sick....
Oh, they'd had a good talk. Max had been horrified when Liz told him about the exploding pressure cooker - but then laughed - and then commiserated with her - when Liz told him about the stupid things Pamela Troy had done that had driven their joint lab grade so low. Liz had allowed as how once this year was done she'd be desperately looking for another lab partner in eighth grade - and both agreed it'd be nice to be back together then. Liz had asked about paleontology the next summer and then changed the subject when Max had looked pained and started to stammer.
But if the pain of their argument was no longer as acute for either of them, it wasn't exactly gone either - or at least if it was it was now replaced by a sort of aching emptiness where it felt like something else should be - something that clearly wasn't there.
Still, a lot HAD been accomplished in a quick meeting and it was more than hot chocolate or the exercise of the fast pedaling that warmed Liz's heart as they arrived at the bicycle stands in the school yard. For her - well at least she had the plan and the plan allowed for the contingency that things might not proceed just as fast as she might like.
For Max it was a little different. It was a relief to have Liz not angry with him - to have at least to some degree his best friend back. OK, so they couldn't be close like they had been - that might keep Liz from finding her own special someone - but they could be friends and be cordial and next year they could be lab partners again. And they could be like that in the years to come - at least until Liz really DID find her own special someone.
When he'd awakened this morning that outcome would have been all that he could have ever asked for and he was still grateful for it - but as he helped Liz chain her bicycle to the rack - watching her breasts rise and fall as her respiration tried to catch up with the exertion of the long sprint form the doughnut shop, somehow something deep inside him said that a casual friendship wasn't enough - that watching her find her own special someone would be more painful than anything he'd ever experienced in his whole life.
But listening to that tiny voice buried deep in his subconscious threatened to take him down corridors of thought that he knew were never going to come true - corridors where just thinking the thoughts frightened him. His rejection of that tiny voice was automatic - taken without any real conscious thought.
If you open yourself to hope, you also open yourself to disappointment or worse - despair. You open yourself to admitting your own loneliness and need - he couldn't do that - not to Liz - not even to his own parents. No - he'd settle for what he had - parents who loved him because they didn't truly know him, and Liz who could be his friend as long as he kept his secret from her too.
"Thanks, Max," she said, squeezing his hand, ".. maybe we can meet after school - ride our bikes to the Crashdown and share a Martian Blast sundae or something..?"
"Yeah, Liz... I'd like that," he said as he watched her hurry off to her first class. Funny - he'd never really realized - not in all these years - just how beautiful Liz was. Whoever she chose to be her special someone would be a lucky human being indeed.
Three days later:
Latitude 5' 30" South, Longitude 23' 40" West
The freighter was old and poorly maintained. Like many old and poorly maintained freighters, it had Panamanian registry and flew a Panamanian flag. It had, however, never been to Panama. The Panamanian flag it flew was truly a flag of convenience. The owner sent Panama the registry fees, the Panamanian government sent them the paperwork indicating that the ship had been inspected and passed and was duly licensed to operate in international commerce in Panama - and through international treaties that Panama had signed - throughout the world. It was rumored that the Panamanian government would have a website up by next year which would allow the process to be completed without the inconvenience of any paperwork at all.
It was six days out of its usual port, Cartagena Columbia, enroute to Papua New Guinea where it's cargo would be offloaded to lighter and faster boats - better able to evade the Royal Australian Navy as they made their runs in to a half-dozen coastal areas from whence the cocaine could be trucked in to the cities. On the return trip it would be met by small vessels off the coast of Karachi Pakistan where it would pick up a sizable cargo of opium base to be returned to Cartagena where the morphine would be extracted and converted into heroin - likely to be the cargo for some future trip northward where it too would be offloaded - this time in cigarette boats along the panhandle of Florida.
The 'captain' of the vessel was below decks in his cabin in his usual state - drunk. The first mate - only one of three 'officers' on the vessel who knew enough to actually stand watches ( a group that did not include the captain) - was on the bridge. It had been an uneventful watch - the course had been carefully chosen to keep the vessel clear of the normal shipping lanes. It was only as the first mate went to log this otherwise uneventful watch that he noticed that the barometer had fallen precipitously - just in the last hour.
Eight years ago the first mate had been the third officer on a respectable passenger liner - before he himself had been caught using drugs on duty. Despite his current ready access to such drugs - the first mate himself had successfully rehab'd - although not quickly enough to save his maritime career with any respectable shipping firm.
Eight years ago he would have gotten on the radio and given the US Coast Guard a SEAS report. The anomaly could possibly indicate weather brewing that could seriously affect other ships in the future. But then the first mate remembered where he was and what they were doing and put it out of his mind. One more opportunity for the quirky little tropical low that was forming to become known to the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration had just been lost.
Back in Roswell-
There's one in every eighth grade boys PE class. Generally they can hide it until they get in a locker room surrounded by other boys - then they have to show just what sorts of dorks they really are. In this class it was Charlie Gresham.
The eighth grade PE class was just finishing. They'd played soccer up until the coach had sent them to the showers ten minutes ago. Many of them had just gotten out of the showers - a very few were just finishing up - and about a half dozen had just changed back into their street clothes - their classmates would be trying to keep upwind of them for the last couple periods of the day. These were the group that Gresham was currently trying to impress.
In fairness to Gresham .... well, why should we be fair to Gresham - I already mentioned he was a dork. But perhaps a little background is in order. Charlie Gresham was the new kid. Oh, he'd been there the whole school year - his father was a senior production manager for an oil company that was putting a new system in place to inject water in the ground to force more oil out of older wells . That's why he'd come to Roswell over the summer from Houston. Houston, of course, is a big town, and people come and go from it all the time. There is less mobility among the small towns and rural areas of New Mexico. Roswell had 45,000 inhabitants making it the fifth largest town in New Mexico, but the whole town was tiny compared to Houston's nearly two and a half million - in fact Houston's population exceeded that of all of New Mexico by a considerable margin.
Anyway, Charlie Grisham was the new kid - despite living in Roswell for more than six months - and he was a year older than the other eighth graders - the consequences of repeating the Third grade - and he considered himself quite a bit more worldly and mature than his small town fellow students having come from the big city. Also - he was the one in every eighth grade locker room who believed he could prove his manliness by being crude, rude, and lewd.
As Max Evans and a couple of other seventh graders who had their previous class in close proximity to the gym came in and began to suit up, Charlie Grisham was just getting going. He was wearing nothing but a towel around his waist - clearly the least apparel you want to have on in a junior high school boy's locker room where towel-snapping your classmates butt is considered somewhat of an art form - and enough guys had gotten done with their showers and started dressing to be an adequately sized audience.
"Any one notice perfect Parker today?" he asked to no one in particular. The seventh grade girls had just gotten done playing soccer on the girl's field and had doubletimed from the field back to their own locker rooms right past the eighth grade boys. Liz had spent the game in goal and her team had only won because she'd stopped one shot on goal after another. The goalie's jersey - added to the standard junior high gym outfit - Red t-shirt with the school name printed on it and her name in indelible marker and white shorts - had been really hot in the afternoon sun. The sweat from the heat and the exertion had pretty well plastered her t-shirt to her sport's bra once she took off the goalie's jersey, and it hadn't been just Grisham that had admired the view as she jogged by.
"Perfect Parker has some pretty hot hooters....," said Charlie. Now normally at least a third of the class - determined to show that they were as suave and debonair as Grisham - would have probably laughed at the comment - or made a few themselves. But they weren't the new kid on the block. Most of them knew - if only by whispered story and reputation - what had transpired with Billy Souto and all of them had heard about Max taking the guy over the cliff. So they sat there speechless - not laughing or saying anything while their eyes begged Charlie Grisham to look behind him and see who was listening to what he was saying - except of course, Grisham didn't know the history and wouldn't have known Max's nane unless he read it off his t-shirt. So like the dork he was - did I mention Grisham was a dork? - he went on to even cruder things, trying to impress the audience.
"Man, I was tempted to reach out and grab a handful of that as it jiggled by - second base on the fly..." Instead of laughs, all he got was wide-eyed looks of shock and disbelief - obviously a bunch of rubes.
"You know, I've seen better - I mean, hooters that is - but Parker does have one fine ass on her too - that makes up for being a little shy in the hooter department."
The silence was deafening - not just rubes, but a tough audience. Well there was something that almost always worked.
"OK, I'll tell you what. We have the all-school dance coming up in five weeks. If she goes to the dance I'll ask her to dance with me. She'll accept because I'm a big eighth grader and more sophisticated than the rest of you guys - and I'll bet you that I can cop a feel right out on the dance floor and she won't even tell the chaperones - hell, she'll probably love it."
Fred Gilland was actually somewhat of a dork himself, that's why he associated with Grisham, but he knew Max and he'd seen him break Souto's arm - the kid had been an absolute iceman coming out on the playground and provoking Souto and then just snapping the arm like a friggin twig. He would always remember the expression on the kids face as he did it - he had barely looked human - about like he was looking now. "Uh, Grish, maybe we ought to just break this up and go off to our next class? Before this goes too far?"
"Too far, you ain't SEEN too far. After I get her warmed up - moist and ready - chances are she'll just jump at the chance to jump my bod... I can see us now, off in some back room while everybody else is at the dance, ... screaming at me to give it to her...deeper ... deeper....Oh, yes!," he shouted, still wondering why nobody was laughing as he worked his hips back and forward in what he apparently believed was simulated sex...
Max had been trying to ignore the words of the big stupid eighth grader - he didn't even know him. It was only locker room talk - just some jerk trying to impress the guys. There was a kid like that in his gym class as well - although at least he had the good sense to talk about Pamela Troy - and the way she acted around the guy it was almost believable. But this was Liz and what the guy was saying - Max could feel the anger grow in him - he felt his fists wanting to pound the boy's face - smash in to the mouth that was saying that about his ... his ... his ... friend.
He wasn't sure just how he got to his feet, but suddenly his fists were clenched - suddenly he was off the bench and his steps were taking him directly toward the large boy.
As he continued pumping his pelvis, wondering why he wasn't getting any laughs, he heard the footsteps behind him. Grisham turned quickly - suddenly afraid that it was one of the teachers who had come in the door from the hall and overheard what he was saying. He should have been so lucky. The kid's head only came up to his chin, but the impact of his body sent him sprawling on the cold hard concrete of the locker room floor.
"Hey, who do you think you're running in to?" he asked in surprise and pain.
"Nobody," said the boy, "...nobody and nothing..."
Grisham figured he could take the boy in a fair fight - he was sure of it. But those amber eyes - they didn't look like a fair fight was what was intended - and even if the boy was shorter and lighter he had a decided tactical advantage standing over him - Grisham feeling pretty vulnerable naked except for a towel.
"Well, I'll let it go this time," Grisham blustered, "... just don't let it happen again."
Somehow sanity returned to Max. OK, he told himself, it was just adolescentt locker room talk. Liz wouldn't want me to actually damage the guy even if she'd heard it. Besides, eventually she almost certainly would even want someone ... sexually. Someone ... human. Someone with a lot more class than this guy.
"Right," said Max. "Let's not let this happen again. It might just get out of hand," he finished as he walked through the doors into the gym.
"What's HIS problem?" asked Grisham as soon as Max had left.
"Parker," said Gilland. "He's had the hots for her since the third grade. I don't think he liked what you were saying."
"Third graders don't have the hots for anyone," said Grisham. "Besides, even if he did, he doesn't scare me."
"Yeah, well Evans probably didn't scare the guy who tried to rape Parker either," said the seventh grader from two rows back, "...at least not up until the point where he figured out Max was going to kill him."
Grisham looked into the faces of the other eighth graders in disbelief, waiting for them to call the seventh grader a liar - but their eyes told him the kid was telling the truth. All at once he ran toward the toilet - he was going to be sick....