Posted: Sun Nov 13, 2005 5:00 am
Chapter 19
“What the hell are you talking about?” Liz exclaimed in a deep shock. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw the others moving closer to them. It was the moment of the truth; Liz could feel it.
“I-I didn’t want to...But I couldn’t s-stop h-her...” Serena sobbed, “She was so much stronger, than m-me...” she looked Liz directly in eyes and added, “Please, Liz, you have to believe me...I never wanted to hurt you...You are my sister, Liz...You know that, right?” Serena asked somehow unsure and nervously.
Liz could hear Isabel’s and Maria’s gasps of shock so clear, that she didn’t even have to turn around to see their faces to know...They had never expected something like this...Heck, had Liz expected to find out someday that she had a sister?
“O-kay...I think it would be much better if we went inside,” Liz didn’t wait for the others to respond, she just went inside to what she supposed was Max’s and Serena’s living room. Their living room. Once more, Liz felt insecure. She didn’t know anything about Max’s feelings towards Serena. Maybe Liz was destroying their happy relationship?
But as soon as she looked at Max, into his hazel eyes that were directly looking at her with so much love, all her thoughts about Max and Serena as a happy couple flew away. For a moment, she even felt ashamed...How could she doubt about him? Especially again?
Liz saw that Maria and Michael sat as far as possible from each other. They were so insecure, that Liz heart broke once again. She wouldn’t wait anymore and would tell them everything she knew today...She wanted to end all their misery.
Then Liz saw Serena, who was just coming in the living room, still looking miserable. Liz knew that she really couldn’t believe and trust her anymore, but there was just something about Serena and the whole situation.
Since the desert incident with Kivar, something had changed, but Liz couldn’t figure out what exactly, no matter how hard she tried...There was just something in the air...Could it be that she was just picturing things that weren’t there?
Could she really trust Serena? Her heart said she could, but in her mind, Liz doubted it. Serena had done too many evil things to her. There was no way back.
“It was Tess,” Liz heard faint Serena’s whisper.
Could that be true? No, Tess was dead; Liz was the one who had driven her to the base. Could that be that Serena was lying once again?
“W-what?” Liz managed to say, when she saw the others more than shocked expressions.
“You are kidding, right?” Maria interfered, “You are fuckin’ kidding! Oh God, who are you and what the hell is going on here?” she demanded, her voice rising and becoming more angry.
“Please, let me to explain!” Serena exclaimed and once more looked at Liz, “Liz, she didn’t die then, Tess was just mindwarping and lying to you...She hated you, no matter what, and wanted you to suffer...That’s why she u-used me too in her dirty game...I never wanted that...You have to believe me, Liz...Please, I don’t know what I’m going to do if you don’t believe me...” Serena pleaded with tears in her eyes.
“Continue...” Liz said in a cold voice. She wanted to believe her...Her sister, but Liz knew she couldn’t. Not after everything...But something, deep in her heart told her to listen to her own blood; to her only sister.
Serena continued, “I-I was probably weaker than Tess, so she easily manipulated with me and ...I-I couldn’t do anything...I tried...Oh God, I tried so hard, but I couldn’t...fight. She was too strong...” Serena broke down in the sobs, “I’m sorry Liz, I’m so sorry...After Tess returned to earth, she was more powerful, because...she had slept with Kivar.”
“Why I should believe you?” Liz yelled, “You hurt me so much, Serena! I have lost many years of happiness; my children have lost many years that they could have spent with their father! And it was all because of you and your lies!” she accused.
“I couldn’t control that! She was much stronger, what I could do? Nothing, Liz. I tried so many times to tell you the truth, but every time I was going to, she manipulated me once more...Do you really think it was my pleasure to do all those horrible things? You want to know something? I hate myself!” Serena was now yelling too, “And just today I became free from her...You know what the first thing I wanted to do was?” she asked, “I wanted to kill myself, Liz...I really didn’t want to live in this world anymore, where everyone would look at me like some monster. But I couldn’t...I saw my son and all I knew that I couldn’t leave him. I love him, Liz...He is my and Chris’ son...Although I didn’t sleep with him of my free will, I loved him. And I love my son. I really do...”
Max just stood there dumbfounded. This wasn’t happening, that wasn’t just possible. Maybe he was still dreaming and this day had never happened? There was just no way, that Serena was Liz’s sister, who was manipulated by his previous life wife...Oh and by the way, Jason wasn’t his son, but actually his grandson! Ha, he was either sleeping or he had lost his sanity.
“Why now? Why has everything changed?” Max heard Liz’s question.
“Tess’ powers, and she herself were somehow connected to Kivar. She paid a high price for her stronger powers, because when Kivar died, she died too...Oh god, Liz, I could feel everything she felt...And there was so much bad in her...She was so dark, so evil, so...cold. She probably could mindwarp you all by herself, but she wanted you to suffer...So she used me, your sister...” Serena told.
Liz still wasn’t sure; heck, she probably wouldn’t be ever sure about Serena. There was no way she was going to believe her so easily.
It seemed that Serena had picked her thoughts because after some moments of silence she told her, “If you want, you can connect with me...” Serena quietly suggested.
Liz doubted it. What if Serena tried to mindwarp her once again...Although she had already told her so many times, that it wasn’t actually her, but Tess, Liz still had her doubts.
But she agreed. Something just felt right.
Liz simply nodded and watched as Serena slowly came towards her and looked directly into her eyes. Immediately she felt the connection between her and Serena.
Liz could see it all; her pain, her confusion, her disgust with herself...Everything...And she didn’t doubt anymore. There were just some things that you had to accept and Liz knew she did the right thing. Like she had never doubted Future Max’s true identity, Liz now trusted Serena too; although they both knew that the long road was still ahead them. They were sisters, but Liz’s heart still hurt. Not even just because of her and her problems, but she felt so sad that Serena and so many others had suffered along with her...
And it was Tess’ fault. Once again, Liz cursed the day Tess had showed in Roswell.
Liz believed Serena. Her sister. But there were so many things that needed to be done. Her...no, their father needed to know about his first-born daughter. The others deserved to know the truth also...
Liz was ready for that.
Max watched as Liz slowly turned around to face him. He gulped. She would tell him something important and Max hoped so much that she was going to tell him good, not bad news.
For a moment, he just prayed, although Max didn’t know to whom. He didn’t believe in God.
Max believed in Liz.
“Well, first of all, I want to tell that I’m sorry that I didn’t come back sooner, but...There were just some things...I couldn’t. Maybe I was afraid, I don’t know, but I hope you will be able to forgive me...” Liz said.
“Just say it,” Max said, although he couldn’t really understand about what she was talking about. HE had cheated on her, not even once, but twice; with her best friend and then with her own sister. And now she was saying sorry? Max was beyond confused.
Liz looked at Max and saw the silence support, which gave her the strength she needed so much, “Ok, I guess it would be better if I start from the beginning...And…Could you please not interrupt me? I promise I will answer all your questions, but I need to say everything before that...” when everyone nodded, Liz continued, “As you all know, after I saw Max and Maria together...in bed, I ran away. Not just from my husband and best friend, but also I abandoned my friends, my parents...my home. I went to Boston and I kind of met someone. I met Alex...Alex Whitman,” Liz heard gasps, but continued, “He didn’t die back then, Alex was saved by Zan. And the saddest part was that he couldn’t return to Roswell. Everyone thought he was dead; he needed to make sure that we were also safe from Kivar and to do that he needed to stay ‘dead’, although it hurt him. Maybe even deeper than I thought. Anyway, he told me that Zan was alive too; Ava had saved him. At first, I couldn’t believe it all, it felt so much like a dream; but Alex took me to their house. There I also met Chris and Serena. At first I didn’t know that Chris was you son, Max, I swear...” Liz sobbed.
Max tried to listen carefully to Liz’s story, but sometimes found it extremely difficult. Could it be true? He didn’t doubt about that, Liz would never lie to him. But...Alex and Zan were alive? He had heard Liz talking to Zan, but it still seemed to unreal.
Max could see how Isabel had tensed when Liz had mentioned Alex being alive. Although he knew that Isabel loved her husband, Max also suspected that the feelings towards Alex hadn’t completely disappeared either.
And Liz had confirmed that Chris was his son... “But h-how is that possible?” he asked.
“He was your and Tess’ son on Antar. Chris had been in a pod too; but he had come out from it later, when you guys were already gone. But he had a good life...More or less...” Liz whispered.
Max was stunned, although he’d accepted that Chris was somehow his son, now that he knew the whole story, he was shocked even more. It was the truth. Chris was his son and Liz’s husband. His Liz’s husband...
Liz continued her story, “So we lived together for a while peacefully, but then one day Alex and Zan came from this summit and told us that you, Max, had resigned...You had refused to be the King and the rightful ruler of Antar. And Chris had this powerful passion to be a King, but...” Liz paused and looked at Max. Liz knew that she had to tell him about twins, his twins, too, but that just wasn’t the right moment. She wanted to tell that when there would be just the two of them, “But...He could become a King, just by marrying the Queen. And I was, well I still am, the Queen of Antar...” Liz told as she heard gasps from both Maria and Isabel, while Michael remained calm and silent, but Max...In his face Liz could see so many emotions...Love, hurt, awe, admiration...even anger and confusion, but could Liz blame him for that?
“What the hell are you talking about?” Liz exclaimed in a deep shock. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw the others moving closer to them. It was the moment of the truth; Liz could feel it.
“I-I didn’t want to...But I couldn’t s-stop h-her...” Serena sobbed, “She was so much stronger, than m-me...” she looked Liz directly in eyes and added, “Please, Liz, you have to believe me...I never wanted to hurt you...You are my sister, Liz...You know that, right?” Serena asked somehow unsure and nervously.
Liz could hear Isabel’s and Maria’s gasps of shock so clear, that she didn’t even have to turn around to see their faces to know...They had never expected something like this...Heck, had Liz expected to find out someday that she had a sister?
“O-kay...I think it would be much better if we went inside,” Liz didn’t wait for the others to respond, she just went inside to what she supposed was Max’s and Serena’s living room. Their living room. Once more, Liz felt insecure. She didn’t know anything about Max’s feelings towards Serena. Maybe Liz was destroying their happy relationship?
But as soon as she looked at Max, into his hazel eyes that were directly looking at her with so much love, all her thoughts about Max and Serena as a happy couple flew away. For a moment, she even felt ashamed...How could she doubt about him? Especially again?
Liz saw that Maria and Michael sat as far as possible from each other. They were so insecure, that Liz heart broke once again. She wouldn’t wait anymore and would tell them everything she knew today...She wanted to end all their misery.
Then Liz saw Serena, who was just coming in the living room, still looking miserable. Liz knew that she really couldn’t believe and trust her anymore, but there was just something about Serena and the whole situation.
Since the desert incident with Kivar, something had changed, but Liz couldn’t figure out what exactly, no matter how hard she tried...There was just something in the air...Could it be that she was just picturing things that weren’t there?
Could she really trust Serena? Her heart said she could, but in her mind, Liz doubted it. Serena had done too many evil things to her. There was no way back.
“It was Tess,” Liz heard faint Serena’s whisper.
Could that be true? No, Tess was dead; Liz was the one who had driven her to the base. Could that be that Serena was lying once again?
“W-what?” Liz managed to say, when she saw the others more than shocked expressions.
“You are kidding, right?” Maria interfered, “You are fuckin’ kidding! Oh God, who are you and what the hell is going on here?” she demanded, her voice rising and becoming more angry.
“Please, let me to explain!” Serena exclaimed and once more looked at Liz, “Liz, she didn’t die then, Tess was just mindwarping and lying to you...She hated you, no matter what, and wanted you to suffer...That’s why she u-used me too in her dirty game...I never wanted that...You have to believe me, Liz...Please, I don’t know what I’m going to do if you don’t believe me...” Serena pleaded with tears in her eyes.
“Continue...” Liz said in a cold voice. She wanted to believe her...Her sister, but Liz knew she couldn’t. Not after everything...But something, deep in her heart told her to listen to her own blood; to her only sister.
Serena continued, “I-I was probably weaker than Tess, so she easily manipulated with me and ...I-I couldn’t do anything...I tried...Oh God, I tried so hard, but I couldn’t...fight. She was too strong...” Serena broke down in the sobs, “I’m sorry Liz, I’m so sorry...After Tess returned to earth, she was more powerful, because...she had slept with Kivar.”
“Why I should believe you?” Liz yelled, “You hurt me so much, Serena! I have lost many years of happiness; my children have lost many years that they could have spent with their father! And it was all because of you and your lies!” she accused.
“I couldn’t control that! She was much stronger, what I could do? Nothing, Liz. I tried so many times to tell you the truth, but every time I was going to, she manipulated me once more...Do you really think it was my pleasure to do all those horrible things? You want to know something? I hate myself!” Serena was now yelling too, “And just today I became free from her...You know what the first thing I wanted to do was?” she asked, “I wanted to kill myself, Liz...I really didn’t want to live in this world anymore, where everyone would look at me like some monster. But I couldn’t...I saw my son and all I knew that I couldn’t leave him. I love him, Liz...He is my and Chris’ son...Although I didn’t sleep with him of my free will, I loved him. And I love my son. I really do...”
Max just stood there dumbfounded. This wasn’t happening, that wasn’t just possible. Maybe he was still dreaming and this day had never happened? There was just no way, that Serena was Liz’s sister, who was manipulated by his previous life wife...Oh and by the way, Jason wasn’t his son, but actually his grandson! Ha, he was either sleeping or he had lost his sanity.
“Why now? Why has everything changed?” Max heard Liz’s question.
“Tess’ powers, and she herself were somehow connected to Kivar. She paid a high price for her stronger powers, because when Kivar died, she died too...Oh god, Liz, I could feel everything she felt...And there was so much bad in her...She was so dark, so evil, so...cold. She probably could mindwarp you all by herself, but she wanted you to suffer...So she used me, your sister...” Serena told.
Liz still wasn’t sure; heck, she probably wouldn’t be ever sure about Serena. There was no way she was going to believe her so easily.
It seemed that Serena had picked her thoughts because after some moments of silence she told her, “If you want, you can connect with me...” Serena quietly suggested.
Liz doubted it. What if Serena tried to mindwarp her once again...Although she had already told her so many times, that it wasn’t actually her, but Tess, Liz still had her doubts.
But she agreed. Something just felt right.
Liz simply nodded and watched as Serena slowly came towards her and looked directly into her eyes. Immediately she felt the connection between her and Serena.
Liz could see it all; her pain, her confusion, her disgust with herself...Everything...And she didn’t doubt anymore. There were just some things that you had to accept and Liz knew she did the right thing. Like she had never doubted Future Max’s true identity, Liz now trusted Serena too; although they both knew that the long road was still ahead them. They were sisters, but Liz’s heart still hurt. Not even just because of her and her problems, but she felt so sad that Serena and so many others had suffered along with her...
And it was Tess’ fault. Once again, Liz cursed the day Tess had showed in Roswell.
Liz believed Serena. Her sister. But there were so many things that needed to be done. Her...no, their father needed to know about his first-born daughter. The others deserved to know the truth also...
Liz was ready for that.
Max watched as Liz slowly turned around to face him. He gulped. She would tell him something important and Max hoped so much that she was going to tell him good, not bad news.
For a moment, he just prayed, although Max didn’t know to whom. He didn’t believe in God.
Max believed in Liz.
“Well, first of all, I want to tell that I’m sorry that I didn’t come back sooner, but...There were just some things...I couldn’t. Maybe I was afraid, I don’t know, but I hope you will be able to forgive me...” Liz said.
“Just say it,” Max said, although he couldn’t really understand about what she was talking about. HE had cheated on her, not even once, but twice; with her best friend and then with her own sister. And now she was saying sorry? Max was beyond confused.
Liz looked at Max and saw the silence support, which gave her the strength she needed so much, “Ok, I guess it would be better if I start from the beginning...And…Could you please not interrupt me? I promise I will answer all your questions, but I need to say everything before that...” when everyone nodded, Liz continued, “As you all know, after I saw Max and Maria together...in bed, I ran away. Not just from my husband and best friend, but also I abandoned my friends, my parents...my home. I went to Boston and I kind of met someone. I met Alex...Alex Whitman,” Liz heard gasps, but continued, “He didn’t die back then, Alex was saved by Zan. And the saddest part was that he couldn’t return to Roswell. Everyone thought he was dead; he needed to make sure that we were also safe from Kivar and to do that he needed to stay ‘dead’, although it hurt him. Maybe even deeper than I thought. Anyway, he told me that Zan was alive too; Ava had saved him. At first, I couldn’t believe it all, it felt so much like a dream; but Alex took me to their house. There I also met Chris and Serena. At first I didn’t know that Chris was you son, Max, I swear...” Liz sobbed.
Max tried to listen carefully to Liz’s story, but sometimes found it extremely difficult. Could it be true? He didn’t doubt about that, Liz would never lie to him. But...Alex and Zan were alive? He had heard Liz talking to Zan, but it still seemed to unreal.
Max could see how Isabel had tensed when Liz had mentioned Alex being alive. Although he knew that Isabel loved her husband, Max also suspected that the feelings towards Alex hadn’t completely disappeared either.
And Liz had confirmed that Chris was his son... “But h-how is that possible?” he asked.
“He was your and Tess’ son on Antar. Chris had been in a pod too; but he had come out from it later, when you guys were already gone. But he had a good life...More or less...” Liz whispered.
Max was stunned, although he’d accepted that Chris was somehow his son, now that he knew the whole story, he was shocked even more. It was the truth. Chris was his son and Liz’s husband. His Liz’s husband...
Liz continued her story, “So we lived together for a while peacefully, but then one day Alex and Zan came from this summit and told us that you, Max, had resigned...You had refused to be the King and the rightful ruler of Antar. And Chris had this powerful passion to be a King, but...” Liz paused and looked at Max. Liz knew that she had to tell him about twins, his twins, too, but that just wasn’t the right moment. She wanted to tell that when there would be just the two of them, “But...He could become a King, just by marrying the Queen. And I was, well I still am, the Queen of Antar...” Liz told as she heard gasps from both Maria and Isabel, while Michael remained calm and silent, but Max...In his face Liz could see so many emotions...Love, hurt, awe, admiration...even anger and confusion, but could Liz blame him for that?