For the Roses - Chapter 21 (12/4)
Posted: Sun Apr 11, 2004 2:09 pm
References: Sheridan and Shakespeare
Chapter 21
Sir, the scene is set, and everything is ready to
begin if you please.--
(The Critic)
Such welcome and unwelcome things at once
‘Tis hard to reconcile.
(Macbeth, IV-III)
“Alex!” I exclaimed rushing towards him just as Max wearily sank onto the abandoned chair.
It was so good to see Alex. Sane, sound and calm Alex would know what to make of these revelations. Thank god he’d arrived when he had and eased the tension with a well-timed joke. Yep, Alex would be my anchor to reality and normalcy. After the events surrounding and following my return to Roswell, I definitely craved normalcy.
“Hey Liz, Max,” Alex replied, hugging me to him.
“Alex,” Max responded, rubbing his face. “I thought you were going to be at home today?”
“Yeah, I was but I left some papers here. I didn’t know y’all would be here. Did I interrupt something?”
Before I could respond Max asked, “When did you get here?”
“Around the middle,” he replied softly looking over my head towards Max. He had a queer expression on his face. I couldn’t read it.
“Oh, so you…”
“Since senior year,” Alex said softly.
“I’m sorry,” Max exhaled avoiding looking at both of us.
“No, I….thank you,” Alex responded stepping away from me.
“It was our…it was MY fault, Alex. All of it. From beginning to end.”
“No, Max it wasn’t.” Alex said vehemently. “None of it was your fault. You can’t take responsibility for it. For her.”
I just looked at both of them as they continued to talk as I wasn’t there. I couldn’t make head or tale of what they were talking about. But whatever it was I was completely out of the loop and that wasn’t a feeling I was familiar with.
But they were still talking.
“I didn’t want you to remember any of it. I was almost too late, Alex. Anything could have happened. If Isabelle hadn’t pressed the issue, it would have been too late.”
“I remembered it later,” Alex continued his expression earnest. Crouching down in front of Max he said, “I never asked because…it was your secret to tell. You’re my friend Max, I trust you. You saved my life. None of this changes anything.”
Alex held out his hand, and after a moment’s hesitation Max shook it firmly. In front of my eyes, they reaffirmed their friendship and I felt more lost than ever.
“What happened to you Alex? When did Max save your life? Are you ok now?” I rushed out looking at my best friend with concern.
A look of dismay crossed Max’s face, just as Alex said, “I’m fine, Lizzie.”
“Now you are, but what happened? Why were you hurt? What did it have to do with Max and Isabelle?”
Irritated by their silence, I said, “Well, are you going to tell me or not! I can’t believe you’ve hidden this from me Alex. I thought you were my best friend.”
“And you,” I glared at Max, “I thought you were going to tell me the truth. Reveal everything. Is this your idea of the truth?”
“Lizzie, please,” Alex pleaded as I turned my tear filled eyes towards him. “Lizzie, we are still best friends. We always will be. I didn’t tell you about what happened because I didn’t remember most of it only bits and pieces of it. I just put it together in front of you. And as for Max, he is telling you the truth Liz, but I should tell you this part because it’s my story.”
“I just want to know what is going on Alex,” I cried hoarsely, closing my eyes to prevent the tears from rolling down my face. “I just want to understand.”
Sniffing, I spoke to Max, “I’m sorry. I know this is hard for you but it is for me too. And I just need to understand. Everything has just been so crazy and this…our meeting, it wasn’t anything like I imagined. I dreamed of it to, you know. Just like you.”
“Oh Liz,” Max said softly wrapping his arms around me. My back met his chest as he rubbed his cheek against my hair. “I’m so sorry. I would have done anything to prevent this. I didn’t want you to find out like this, but it just…”
“Don’t,” I cried gripping his wrists tightly, “tell me now. Please.”
Max dropped a kiss against my hair before gently sliding his hands away.
“Why don’t we sit down?” He said to Alex, guiding me towards a chair. “This will take a while. Are you up to it?”
“Yeah,” Alex replied firmly his voice steady. “It’s time.”
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(Flashback Senior Year)
Alexander Charles Whitman walked jauntily into school on the first day of the senior year. He and Maria had talked to Liz last night and it had been a great conversation. She seemed so happy it went a long way to relieve their anxiety.
Well Maria’s anxiety more like, Alex snorted. He had always known Lizzie would have a marvelous time in England. Oxford sounded great, just the kind of place she’d feel at home. He knew better than most, maybe even better than Maria how desperately Liz had wanted to strike out on her own. Underneath that science loving calm exterior, Liz was an adventurer and this was the perfect opportunity for her to shape up to be whoever she was most happy being. It was time to find out who Liz Parker really was, away from the prying and concerned eyes of her family and friends.
His cheerful blue eyes gleamed with excitement as he thought of his opportunity to go to Sweden. He had wanted to leave last year but with Liz leaving, he hadn’t wanted to leave Maria alone. But this year, this year Maria was set, and he was free to be a man of the world.
He was doing well in school, his study abroad program had been approved, and he had great new friends. Yes sir, it was going to be a wonderful year.
“Hey Max!” Alex called out to his chemistry lab partner making his way to their table.
The painfully shy senior flashed a smile before mumbling a greeting in response. They got on well, he and Max. They had been unwittingly paired together both trying to avoid their assigned lab partners. Alex trying to hide from Martin Shore’s smell and laziness just as Max stealthily avoided Pam Troy’s grasping hands. They’d hidden in the back of the class-room. Each had been surprised to see the other practically hiding underneath the table in their desperation. Drawn together by their mutual desperation they had swiftly paired up and by the time Mr. Seligman had entered they were setting up their lab experiments with the ease of long-time partners.
“How’s it going man?” Alex said pulling out his notebook and pen, chuckling.
“Not bad,” Max replied quietly. “What’s funny?”
“Oh, I was just thinking of when we hid in the back together. It was destined my friend that the two of us should respond to our instinct for self-preservation in the exact same way.”
“Yeah,” Max grinned. The smile transformed his entire face and chemistry class’ female population almost swooned in delight. Max Evans the hottest, most mysterious boy on campus was smiling. It was a rare sighting and those who’d seen it like the flash of a brilliant rainbow would lord it over the rest of their friends for the rest of the day.
While they were comparing chemistry notes, Alex said, “Don’t look now but that new girl is staring at you. Again.”
“Who?” Max asked surprised. He was just so invisible. Hiding behind the tree forever as his guidance counselor had admonished.
“Whatsherface!”
“That’s real specific Alex,” he shot back.
“What does she look like?” Max asked fighting against the sinking feeling in his stomach. Please don’t let it be her, please don’t let it be her he prayed to any and all the gods in the pantheon. She gave him the creeps. No, that wasn’t right. He didn’t know how he felt around her and that unsettled him even more. Why couldn’t she find someone else to stare at, he fumed.
And talking to his siblings about it hadn’t helped at all. Isabelle didn’t think it was strange. She thought he was imagining things. He’d talked to Michael about it as well, who had been immediately suspicious as he was of everything but that hadn’t helped either. If anything, it made Max feel even more…targeted, hunted.
“Max! Hey Max!” Alex elbowed him sharply pulling him out of his dark thoughts.
“What?”
“Lab’s cancelled. Seligman’s off and they haven’t found a sub yet.”
“Oh, ok,” Max replied relieved that he wouldn’t have to bear her staring any longer than necessary.
Gathering his books, he bent down to pick up his back pack and asked Alex, “Is she still there?”
Alex looked around quickly, to check but creepy girl wasn’t anywhere in sight. “Nope, coast is clear.”
Max straightened and brushed his hair out of his face. “So, what are you up to now?”
“I think Maria’s free now so we were gonna hook up in the band room and practice the new song.”
Max nodded. Of course, Alex and Maria were nearly always together. He envied their friendship, the ease of their conversation. Granted he had Isabelle and Michael and his parents but sometimes he just felt like talking to other people. He liked Alex. He even liked Maria. She was a little strange but fun. Thinking about it, he wondered if maybe they wouldn’t mind if he hung out with them sometimes.
“Hey, Alex would you mind if…”
“Max why don’t you…” they began simultaneously then grinned.
“You first,” Max said cringing from making the first move. God knew he had to take the lead in every other sphere of their lives, would it be so terrible for someone else to go first this time!
“I was just saying, if you weren’t doing anything, you could hang out with us,” Alex rushed out. Yes, he and Max were lab partners and they talked but that was in class. Maybe, they could hang out outside of class as well.
Noting Max’s indecision he plugged on, “Maria was asking about you. Said she hadn’t seen you in a while. She might get worried and you know what she’s like when she get’s worried,” Alex teased amused at Max’s expression.
“Ok. I don’t think I could survive another Maria worry session,” Max replied thinking about the last time Maria had been worried about him as they walked together towards the band room.
It had been when the dreams first started. They had seemed so strange at first. And they had freaked him out because he could never remember what happened in them. As a result he’d stopped sleeping at night, afraid to dream. Afraid if it was yet another indication of his alien-ness. He hadn’t even been able to talk to him mother about them. It just seemed so weak, so silly to be afraid. But he had been. And Maria, of all the people in the world, had noticed his abstraction and his fatigue.
He had only talked to her a half a dozen times but when she’d ambushed him in the quad, asking him about the dark circles underneath his eyes and tried to inflict cypress oil on him he had been completely taken aback. He hadn’t known that she cared. But she had because he was Alex’s friend and by association he was her friend. She told him to take care of himself, patted him on the head and had left him stunned in the middle of lunch break. Yep, Maria Deluca on the warpath could be very fierce. He appreciated the fact that she noticed and cared. It was enough to know.
The dreams had continued, their frequency and intensity had increased to a point where he had nearly drowned himself in a gallon of cypress oil. He would have done anything to take his mind off their strangeness. But it was on one sleepless night that it occurred to Max maybe this was a manifestation of alien maturity. And even if it wasn’t, he couldn’t avoid sleeping forever. Alien or not he needed sleep.
At five that evening, Max walked into his bedroom having told his mother that he was taking a nap. The exhaustion on his face forestalled her concern. Max anchored his consciousness to the sound of his mother’s voice in den. He knew it would at least be another three hours before she came to wake him up for dinner. That gave him plenty of time.
Settling on his bed in a pair of old boxers and a worn t-shirt Max prepared to sleep. His eyelids fluttered shut and his breathing evened out a few minutes after his head hit the pillow.
It was time to explore the dreamscape.
Chapter 21
Sir, the scene is set, and everything is ready to
begin if you please.--
(The Critic)
Such welcome and unwelcome things at once
‘Tis hard to reconcile.
(Macbeth, IV-III)
“Alex!” I exclaimed rushing towards him just as Max wearily sank onto the abandoned chair.
It was so good to see Alex. Sane, sound and calm Alex would know what to make of these revelations. Thank god he’d arrived when he had and eased the tension with a well-timed joke. Yep, Alex would be my anchor to reality and normalcy. After the events surrounding and following my return to Roswell, I definitely craved normalcy.
“Hey Liz, Max,” Alex replied, hugging me to him.
“Alex,” Max responded, rubbing his face. “I thought you were going to be at home today?”
“Yeah, I was but I left some papers here. I didn’t know y’all would be here. Did I interrupt something?”
Before I could respond Max asked, “When did you get here?”
“Around the middle,” he replied softly looking over my head towards Max. He had a queer expression on his face. I couldn’t read it.
“Oh, so you…”
“Since senior year,” Alex said softly.
“I’m sorry,” Max exhaled avoiding looking at both of us.
“No, I….thank you,” Alex responded stepping away from me.
“It was our…it was MY fault, Alex. All of it. From beginning to end.”
“No, Max it wasn’t.” Alex said vehemently. “None of it was your fault. You can’t take responsibility for it. For her.”
I just looked at both of them as they continued to talk as I wasn’t there. I couldn’t make head or tale of what they were talking about. But whatever it was I was completely out of the loop and that wasn’t a feeling I was familiar with.
But they were still talking.
“I didn’t want you to remember any of it. I was almost too late, Alex. Anything could have happened. If Isabelle hadn’t pressed the issue, it would have been too late.”
“I remembered it later,” Alex continued his expression earnest. Crouching down in front of Max he said, “I never asked because…it was your secret to tell. You’re my friend Max, I trust you. You saved my life. None of this changes anything.”
Alex held out his hand, and after a moment’s hesitation Max shook it firmly. In front of my eyes, they reaffirmed their friendship and I felt more lost than ever.
“What happened to you Alex? When did Max save your life? Are you ok now?” I rushed out looking at my best friend with concern.
A look of dismay crossed Max’s face, just as Alex said, “I’m fine, Lizzie.”
“Now you are, but what happened? Why were you hurt? What did it have to do with Max and Isabelle?”
Irritated by their silence, I said, “Well, are you going to tell me or not! I can’t believe you’ve hidden this from me Alex. I thought you were my best friend.”
“And you,” I glared at Max, “I thought you were going to tell me the truth. Reveal everything. Is this your idea of the truth?”
“Lizzie, please,” Alex pleaded as I turned my tear filled eyes towards him. “Lizzie, we are still best friends. We always will be. I didn’t tell you about what happened because I didn’t remember most of it only bits and pieces of it. I just put it together in front of you. And as for Max, he is telling you the truth Liz, but I should tell you this part because it’s my story.”
“I just want to know what is going on Alex,” I cried hoarsely, closing my eyes to prevent the tears from rolling down my face. “I just want to understand.”
Sniffing, I spoke to Max, “I’m sorry. I know this is hard for you but it is for me too. And I just need to understand. Everything has just been so crazy and this…our meeting, it wasn’t anything like I imagined. I dreamed of it to, you know. Just like you.”
“Oh Liz,” Max said softly wrapping his arms around me. My back met his chest as he rubbed his cheek against my hair. “I’m so sorry. I would have done anything to prevent this. I didn’t want you to find out like this, but it just…”
“Don’t,” I cried gripping his wrists tightly, “tell me now. Please.”
Max dropped a kiss against my hair before gently sliding his hands away.
“Why don’t we sit down?” He said to Alex, guiding me towards a chair. “This will take a while. Are you up to it?”
“Yeah,” Alex replied firmly his voice steady. “It’s time.”
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(Flashback Senior Year)
Alexander Charles Whitman walked jauntily into school on the first day of the senior year. He and Maria had talked to Liz last night and it had been a great conversation. She seemed so happy it went a long way to relieve their anxiety.
Well Maria’s anxiety more like, Alex snorted. He had always known Lizzie would have a marvelous time in England. Oxford sounded great, just the kind of place she’d feel at home. He knew better than most, maybe even better than Maria how desperately Liz had wanted to strike out on her own. Underneath that science loving calm exterior, Liz was an adventurer and this was the perfect opportunity for her to shape up to be whoever she was most happy being. It was time to find out who Liz Parker really was, away from the prying and concerned eyes of her family and friends.
His cheerful blue eyes gleamed with excitement as he thought of his opportunity to go to Sweden. He had wanted to leave last year but with Liz leaving, he hadn’t wanted to leave Maria alone. But this year, this year Maria was set, and he was free to be a man of the world.
He was doing well in school, his study abroad program had been approved, and he had great new friends. Yes sir, it was going to be a wonderful year.
“Hey Max!” Alex called out to his chemistry lab partner making his way to their table.
The painfully shy senior flashed a smile before mumbling a greeting in response. They got on well, he and Max. They had been unwittingly paired together both trying to avoid their assigned lab partners. Alex trying to hide from Martin Shore’s smell and laziness just as Max stealthily avoided Pam Troy’s grasping hands. They’d hidden in the back of the class-room. Each had been surprised to see the other practically hiding underneath the table in their desperation. Drawn together by their mutual desperation they had swiftly paired up and by the time Mr. Seligman had entered they were setting up their lab experiments with the ease of long-time partners.
“How’s it going man?” Alex said pulling out his notebook and pen, chuckling.
“Not bad,” Max replied quietly. “What’s funny?”
“Oh, I was just thinking of when we hid in the back together. It was destined my friend that the two of us should respond to our instinct for self-preservation in the exact same way.”
“Yeah,” Max grinned. The smile transformed his entire face and chemistry class’ female population almost swooned in delight. Max Evans the hottest, most mysterious boy on campus was smiling. It was a rare sighting and those who’d seen it like the flash of a brilliant rainbow would lord it over the rest of their friends for the rest of the day.
While they were comparing chemistry notes, Alex said, “Don’t look now but that new girl is staring at you. Again.”
“Who?” Max asked surprised. He was just so invisible. Hiding behind the tree forever as his guidance counselor had admonished.
“Whatsherface!”
“That’s real specific Alex,” he shot back.
“What does she look like?” Max asked fighting against the sinking feeling in his stomach. Please don’t let it be her, please don’t let it be her he prayed to any and all the gods in the pantheon. She gave him the creeps. No, that wasn’t right. He didn’t know how he felt around her and that unsettled him even more. Why couldn’t she find someone else to stare at, he fumed.
And talking to his siblings about it hadn’t helped at all. Isabelle didn’t think it was strange. She thought he was imagining things. He’d talked to Michael about it as well, who had been immediately suspicious as he was of everything but that hadn’t helped either. If anything, it made Max feel even more…targeted, hunted.
“Max! Hey Max!” Alex elbowed him sharply pulling him out of his dark thoughts.
“What?”
“Lab’s cancelled. Seligman’s off and they haven’t found a sub yet.”
“Oh, ok,” Max replied relieved that he wouldn’t have to bear her staring any longer than necessary.
Gathering his books, he bent down to pick up his back pack and asked Alex, “Is she still there?”
Alex looked around quickly, to check but creepy girl wasn’t anywhere in sight. “Nope, coast is clear.”
Max straightened and brushed his hair out of his face. “So, what are you up to now?”
“I think Maria’s free now so we were gonna hook up in the band room and practice the new song.”
Max nodded. Of course, Alex and Maria were nearly always together. He envied their friendship, the ease of their conversation. Granted he had Isabelle and Michael and his parents but sometimes he just felt like talking to other people. He liked Alex. He even liked Maria. She was a little strange but fun. Thinking about it, he wondered if maybe they wouldn’t mind if he hung out with them sometimes.
“Hey, Alex would you mind if…”
“Max why don’t you…” they began simultaneously then grinned.
“You first,” Max said cringing from making the first move. God knew he had to take the lead in every other sphere of their lives, would it be so terrible for someone else to go first this time!
“I was just saying, if you weren’t doing anything, you could hang out with us,” Alex rushed out. Yes, he and Max were lab partners and they talked but that was in class. Maybe, they could hang out outside of class as well.
Noting Max’s indecision he plugged on, “Maria was asking about you. Said she hadn’t seen you in a while. She might get worried and you know what she’s like when she get’s worried,” Alex teased amused at Max’s expression.
“Ok. I don’t think I could survive another Maria worry session,” Max replied thinking about the last time Maria had been worried about him as they walked together towards the band room.
It had been when the dreams first started. They had seemed so strange at first. And they had freaked him out because he could never remember what happened in them. As a result he’d stopped sleeping at night, afraid to dream. Afraid if it was yet another indication of his alien-ness. He hadn’t even been able to talk to him mother about them. It just seemed so weak, so silly to be afraid. But he had been. And Maria, of all the people in the world, had noticed his abstraction and his fatigue.
He had only talked to her a half a dozen times but when she’d ambushed him in the quad, asking him about the dark circles underneath his eyes and tried to inflict cypress oil on him he had been completely taken aback. He hadn’t known that she cared. But she had because he was Alex’s friend and by association he was her friend. She told him to take care of himself, patted him on the head and had left him stunned in the middle of lunch break. Yep, Maria Deluca on the warpath could be very fierce. He appreciated the fact that she noticed and cared. It was enough to know.
The dreams had continued, their frequency and intensity had increased to a point where he had nearly drowned himself in a gallon of cypress oil. He would have done anything to take his mind off their strangeness. But it was on one sleepless night that it occurred to Max maybe this was a manifestation of alien maturity. And even if it wasn’t, he couldn’t avoid sleeping forever. Alien or not he needed sleep.
At five that evening, Max walked into his bedroom having told his mother that he was taking a nap. The exhaustion on his face forestalled her concern. Max anchored his consciousness to the sound of his mother’s voice in den. He knew it would at least be another three hours before she came to wake him up for dinner. That gave him plenty of time.
Settling on his bed in a pair of old boxers and a worn t-shirt Max prepared to sleep. His eyelids fluttered shut and his breathing evened out a few minutes after his head hit the pillow.
It was time to explore the dreamscape.