~~~~~MAX~~~~~
"I'm sorry"
I hear her turn the knob of my door. A while later I hear it close behind her. Silently I get a plaster for my finger and cover it. Its bleeding quite badly, but I don't think any glass is in it.
I go and sit down on my sofa. And then I let my feelings overtake me. I sob into my pillow loud and noisely, but I don't care. I just want to cry forever.
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*Liz*
I walk out of Max's apartment building and down the streets. I walk to My block and go inside where face with my parents. "Liz honey whats wrong?" My mother said.
I looked at her as the tears keep running down my face. I wipe them away, "nothing. Please I don't want fight tonight." I said walking up the stairs and to my room. I clasps on my bed as more sad tears over takes my body.
I walk out of Max's apartment building and down the streets. I walk to My block and go inside where face with my parents. "Liz honey whats wrong?" My mother said.
I looked at her as the tears keep running down my face. I wipe them away, "nothing. Please I don't want fight tonight." I said walking up the stairs and to my room. I clasps on my bed as more sad tears over takes my body.
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~~~~~MAX~~~~~
When I can cry no longer, I turn over on the sofa. Im too tired and upset to move. So instead I just lie here looking at the ceiling. Whats the point? Whats the point in anything?
What does she want from me? I cant understand her. I just want everything to be over. For this pain to end. But it won't. It can't. I can't leave Roswell. I can't do anything anymore. She'll just shout at me for not "living a normal life".
I can't live a normal life. Why doesnt she understand that.
And now I can't live a normal life...and I have to do it alone.
When I can cry no longer, I turn over on the sofa. Im too tired and upset to move. So instead I just lie here looking at the ceiling. Whats the point? Whats the point in anything?
What does she want from me? I cant understand her. I just want everything to be over. For this pain to end. But it won't. It can't. I can't leave Roswell. I can't do anything anymore. She'll just shout at me for not "living a normal life".
I can't live a normal life. Why doesnt she understand that.
And now I can't live a normal life...and I have to do it alone.
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Michael
"M&M's. We absolutely must have M&M's." Maria tells me, and we wait as the guy behind the counter rings up our snacks. Paying, I again lead Maria over to the theater, tickets in hand. She seems to be in some sort of deep thought, so I don't interrupt her, instead just walk into the theater in silence. All I can really focus on anyway is the fact that I'm out on a date, and so far nothing is going wrong. I haven't said anything really idiotic, which is a good start, hopefully it'll stay that way. But the key word is yet.
"So.. there's been something that's been bugging me every since I left The Crashdown. I kind of had this talk with your sister in the break room before I came out and something seemed to be bothering her. Are her and Max still fighting?" She asks, looking concerned and I glance at her confused.
"Um, well they were fighting before she, you know, sort of forgot everything, but I don't know if she's talked to him since then," I say, realizing that I still don't really know what's going on in Liz's life, not to mention it was my fault they were fighting in the first place. That bothers me, because I really don't want her to go back to what she was doing before. The new Liz was growing on me. And I also probably sound like an ignorant jerk. I'm her brother, I should know if she's having relationship problems. Well, there is stupid thing to say number 1. I should start a list.
Changing the subject as we enter the dim theater, I notice there is hardly anyone there. Just a few people scattered about. "So, looks like we've got our pick of seats, where do you want to sit?"
"M&M's. We absolutely must have M&M's." Maria tells me, and we wait as the guy behind the counter rings up our snacks. Paying, I again lead Maria over to the theater, tickets in hand. She seems to be in some sort of deep thought, so I don't interrupt her, instead just walk into the theater in silence. All I can really focus on anyway is the fact that I'm out on a date, and so far nothing is going wrong. I haven't said anything really idiotic, which is a good start, hopefully it'll stay that way. But the key word is yet.
"So.. there's been something that's been bugging me every since I left The Crashdown. I kind of had this talk with your sister in the break room before I came out and something seemed to be bothering her. Are her and Max still fighting?" She asks, looking concerned and I glance at her confused.
"Um, well they were fighting before she, you know, sort of forgot everything, but I don't know if she's talked to him since then," I say, realizing that I still don't really know what's going on in Liz's life, not to mention it was my fault they were fighting in the first place. That bothers me, because I really don't want her to go back to what she was doing before. The new Liz was growing on me. And I also probably sound like an ignorant jerk. I'm her brother, I should know if she's having relationship problems. Well, there is stupid thing to say number 1. I should start a list.
Changing the subject as we enter the dim theater, I notice there is hardly anyone there. Just a few people scattered about. "So, looks like we've got our pick of seats, where do you want to sit?"
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*Maria*
He seems geniunely startled that I brought up his sister. Uh Oh. Was that a no no? Again, I reprimand myself for not knowing the proper dating do's and don't's. Struggling to find the words, he's looking for he answers uneasily,"Um, well they were fighting before she, you know, sort of forgot everything, but I don't know if she's talked to him since then," The not knowing seems to bother him. I'm kind of confused by his and Liz's relationship. In some ways they appear so close and in others they couldn't be furthur a part.
Now that she's working at The Crash I'll get to know her better. You're probably wondering why I would even care right? Well, it's obvious to me that family is important to Michael as a general concept, but Liz is more than that. She means a great deal to him. There for she's important to me.I just wish I knew what made her so unhappy. Whoa, I am getting way to emotionally invested in this. It's just a date. Looking at Michael it becomes more apparent to me that he is not just a date. He's so much more than that.
Once we enter the the theater the lights begin to dim and I notice that there aren't many people watching this show. Good.,"So, looks like we've got our pick of seats, where do you want to sit?" Thinking over his question for a moment I point to the very back corner that way we are off to ourselves. "That way we can make out all we want and no one will notice." Okay, so I meant that as a joke and I laughed after I said it ,but there was something about that look in Michael's eyes that made me not disregard the idea entirely.
Needing to get out of the very public isle I lead him over to the chairs I had suggested before taking a seat. "I'm just going to warn you now that while I love horror moves I tend to get a little... scared. So if it feels like I'm gonna take your arm off just let me know." I snicker gesturing to our joined hands.
He seems geniunely startled that I brought up his sister. Uh Oh. Was that a no no? Again, I reprimand myself for not knowing the proper dating do's and don't's. Struggling to find the words, he's looking for he answers uneasily,"Um, well they were fighting before she, you know, sort of forgot everything, but I don't know if she's talked to him since then," The not knowing seems to bother him. I'm kind of confused by his and Liz's relationship. In some ways they appear so close and in others they couldn't be furthur a part.
Now that she's working at The Crash I'll get to know her better. You're probably wondering why I would even care right? Well, it's obvious to me that family is important to Michael as a general concept, but Liz is more than that. She means a great deal to him. There for she's important to me.I just wish I knew what made her so unhappy. Whoa, I am getting way to emotionally invested in this. It's just a date. Looking at Michael it becomes more apparent to me that he is not just a date. He's so much more than that.
Once we enter the the theater the lights begin to dim and I notice that there aren't many people watching this show. Good.,"So, looks like we've got our pick of seats, where do you want to sit?" Thinking over his question for a moment I point to the very back corner that way we are off to ourselves. "That way we can make out all we want and no one will notice." Okay, so I meant that as a joke and I laughed after I said it ,but there was something about that look in Michael's eyes that made me not disregard the idea entirely.
Needing to get out of the very public isle I lead him over to the chairs I had suggested before taking a seat. "I'm just going to warn you now that while I love horror moves I tend to get a little... scared. So if it feels like I'm gonna take your arm off just let me know." I snicker gesturing to our joined hands.
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Michael
Maria answers my question by pointing to the complete back corner of the theater where no one is sitting. "That way we can make out all we want and no one will notice." She jokes, and I smile along with her, really thinking that it doesn't quite sound like the worst idea.
"The back's fine with me," I say in reply, following her over as I sit.
"I'm just going to warn you now that while I love horror moves I tend to get a little... scared. So if it feels like I'm gonna take your arm off just let me know." She adds, lifting our joined hands.
Like I'm gonna mind if she hangs on me when she's scared. "That I will," I again reply, feeling out of words for the moment, like I don't have anything else to say. The theater is getting dark, and the trailers are starting, so I turn to her, my voice low so I don't bother the other people in the theater.
"Here," I motion, passing Maria the bag of M&M's. "Good choice by the way, I love M&Ms." I tell her, unintentionally leaning over her to place them in the opposite cupholder. When I move to go back, I realize how close she is, and quickly lean back in my seat, trying to get comfortable. That was a little awkward. I swear, I jinxed this when I said it was going well. She's gonna think I'm a freak. I could have just handed her the candy instead of putting it in the cupholder for her. Watching the trailer for some war movie, I try to clear my mind of all stupid thoughts.
Maria answers my question by pointing to the complete back corner of the theater where no one is sitting. "That way we can make out all we want and no one will notice." She jokes, and I smile along with her, really thinking that it doesn't quite sound like the worst idea.
"The back's fine with me," I say in reply, following her over as I sit.
"I'm just going to warn you now that while I love horror moves I tend to get a little... scared. So if it feels like I'm gonna take your arm off just let me know." She adds, lifting our joined hands.
Like I'm gonna mind if she hangs on me when she's scared. "That I will," I again reply, feeling out of words for the moment, like I don't have anything else to say. The theater is getting dark, and the trailers are starting, so I turn to her, my voice low so I don't bother the other people in the theater.
"Here," I motion, passing Maria the bag of M&M's. "Good choice by the way, I love M&Ms." I tell her, unintentionally leaning over her to place them in the opposite cupholder. When I move to go back, I realize how close she is, and quickly lean back in my seat, trying to get comfortable. That was a little awkward. I swear, I jinxed this when I said it was going well. She's gonna think I'm a freak. I could have just handed her the candy instead of putting it in the cupholder for her. Watching the trailer for some war movie, I try to clear my mind of all stupid thoughts.
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*Maria*
"That I will," He assures me with with the cutest smile. Then he seems at a loss for words. Which is fine since the lights dim and the trailers start rolling. Michael leans in and I can feel his breath hot on my neck. Wow, that feels amazing. I turn to look him over and I am met with hestiate eyes. He looks so nervous. I can stop the smile spreading across my face. He likes me enough to be nervous. That' soo sweet. Okay, reject the urge to kiss him senseless. Let it pass... this is gonna be harder than I thought.
"Here," The hottie holds out my choice of candy and leans over to place it in the cupholder on the opposite side of me. When he brushed up against me completely unintentionally I'm sure. "Good choice by the way, I love M&Ms." His looks a tad awkward around me now maybe he could tell I was captivated by that smile. Shit. I just knew I was gonna mess this up somehow. The trailers finish and th movie starts in a fury. We are about halfway through the first murder scene when I grasp his arm tightly.
"Sorry." I mumble weakly hoping I didn't hurt him. I may be petite but I have quite the grip. Bringing his poor hand to my lips I place a chaste kiss on his palm. "All better?" I question looking deep into his eyes.
"That I will," He assures me with with the cutest smile. Then he seems at a loss for words. Which is fine since the lights dim and the trailers start rolling. Michael leans in and I can feel his breath hot on my neck. Wow, that feels amazing. I turn to look him over and I am met with hestiate eyes. He looks so nervous. I can stop the smile spreading across my face. He likes me enough to be nervous. That' soo sweet. Okay, reject the urge to kiss him senseless. Let it pass... this is gonna be harder than I thought.
"Here," The hottie holds out my choice of candy and leans over to place it in the cupholder on the opposite side of me. When he brushed up against me completely unintentionally I'm sure. "Good choice by the way, I love M&Ms." His looks a tad awkward around me now maybe he could tell I was captivated by that smile. Shit. I just knew I was gonna mess this up somehow. The trailers finish and th movie starts in a fury. We are about halfway through the first murder scene when I grasp his arm tightly.
"Sorry." I mumble weakly hoping I didn't hurt him. I may be petite but I have quite the grip. Bringing his poor hand to my lips I place a chaste kiss on his palm. "All better?" I question looking deep into his eyes.
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Michael
I'm watching the movie, actually interested when the gore starts up with the first murder. What can I say, I can be just like every normal, human teenage guy. Minus the whole, you know, human part. But who's looking at the technicalities. Well, it's just getting interesting when Maria grabs my arm, hard. It surprises me for a second, then it's actually comforting that she thinks I'm comforting. It does make sense, trust me.
"Sorry." Maria mumbles, placing a kiss on my hand where she had just grabbed it. "All better?" She asks, staring into my eyes, and just like that, the movie no longer seems interesting.
"Oh, no problem," I whisper, smiling. "You warned me, so I was expecting it," I continue, barely speaking loud enough to be heard. Partially it's because I have a fear of being kicked out of the movie theater for talking to loud, and partly because she's so close again.
"You can keep holding my hand if you want," I reassure her, gesturing to the still bloody scene in the movie. "I don't mind."
I'm watching the movie, actually interested when the gore starts up with the first murder. What can I say, I can be just like every normal, human teenage guy. Minus the whole, you know, human part. But who's looking at the technicalities. Well, it's just getting interesting when Maria grabs my arm, hard. It surprises me for a second, then it's actually comforting that she thinks I'm comforting. It does make sense, trust me.
"Sorry." Maria mumbles, placing a kiss on my hand where she had just grabbed it. "All better?" She asks, staring into my eyes, and just like that, the movie no longer seems interesting.
"Oh, no problem," I whisper, smiling. "You warned me, so I was expecting it," I continue, barely speaking loud enough to be heard. Partially it's because I have a fear of being kicked out of the movie theater for talking to loud, and partly because she's so close again.
"You can keep holding my hand if you want," I reassure her, gesturing to the still bloody scene in the movie. "I don't mind."
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*Maria*
The poor boy doesn't even flinch instead he flashes me this warm smile that makes me melt. "Oh, no problem," He replies in a seductive hushed tone. "You warned me, so I was expecting it," His lips are so close to my ear. All the tiny hairs on my neck stand on end at the sensation just his voice has on me. This is so pathetic. I better get it together before I fall in..."You can keep holding my hand if you want,"
He gestures toward the rather violent display of gore in front of us. "I don't mind." I nod unable to tear my gaze from the horror occuring acorss the projection scresn. The killer is chasing some chick and at this point it looks like she's going to get the stabby end of the knife. I gasp right as he draws up his weapon to plunge into her chest , and then I couldn't tell you what happned next ,because my face is snuggled deeply into Michael's shoulder.
"Tell me when it's over." I mumble weakly not caring how silly I look. A scary movie! What was I thinking?! I've lived in fear most of my life. Couldn't I have picked a nice stupid funny movie. Possibly with someone from Saturday Night Live in one of the leading roles. I'm so embarassed. He must think i'm a really scaredy cat.
The poor boy doesn't even flinch instead he flashes me this warm smile that makes me melt. "Oh, no problem," He replies in a seductive hushed tone. "You warned me, so I was expecting it," His lips are so close to my ear. All the tiny hairs on my neck stand on end at the sensation just his voice has on me. This is so pathetic. I better get it together before I fall in..."You can keep holding my hand if you want,"
He gestures toward the rather violent display of gore in front of us. "I don't mind." I nod unable to tear my gaze from the horror occuring acorss the projection scresn. The killer is chasing some chick and at this point it looks like she's going to get the stabby end of the knife. I gasp right as he draws up his weapon to plunge into her chest , and then I couldn't tell you what happned next ,because my face is snuggled deeply into Michael's shoulder.
"Tell me when it's over." I mumble weakly not caring how silly I look. A scary movie! What was I thinking?! I've lived in fear most of my life. Couldn't I have picked a nice stupid funny movie. Possibly with someone from Saturday Night Live in one of the leading roles. I'm so embarassed. He must think i'm a really scaredy cat.
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~~~~~MAX~~~~~
I force myself to get off the couch. Screw Liz. Screw everyone.
I don't need anyone. I don't need alcohol or anything else.
I can just be....Max.
So...I flip on my laptop and start to type out some CV's. I log onto messenger.... but since I have only...what....5 contacts. And they are those from high school and I don't even remember there surnames.
I also have Liz's address.... but she's not on...
And for some reason, no matter what mood Im in....I can't bring myself to block her.
So I continue typing up my CV's. Tommorow Ill apply to everywhere going...and you never know....I might get a job....
Heres hoping. Or Im gonna be ever so bored.
I force myself to get off the couch. Screw Liz. Screw everyone.
I don't need anyone. I don't need alcohol or anything else.
I can just be....Max.
So...I flip on my laptop and start to type out some CV's. I log onto messenger.... but since I have only...what....5 contacts. And they are those from high school and I don't even remember there surnames.
I also have Liz's address.... but she's not on...
And for some reason, no matter what mood Im in....I can't bring myself to block her.
So I continue typing up my CV's. Tommorow Ill apply to everywhere going...and you never know....I might get a job....
Heres hoping. Or Im gonna be ever so bored.