Roswell Fanatics

ALEX

I knew he'd start talking about marriage again. And like I said, I can understand him but ... it is getting a bit annoying I must admit.

And of course I'm reading what he sends me and i know there is lots I have to learn. Maybe I should start showing more open interest in the meetings, to make things easier for my father too.

Now, I guess I better focus on Liz and her reaction to the news, so I can help her as good as I can.

~KING JEFFREY~

"Nothing's wrong, sweetheart, I just got a message from Antar. You know that the wedding between you and Prince Xan will be in a couple of weeks now, right?" I ask. I want to make sure that time has not snuck up on her.

~KIVAR~

For some reason, her words hurt me. "Did you ever really love me?Or was that all a game to you?"

"I'll tell you the truth...I don't know much about games," I admit. I decide to confess something to her. I suddenly realize that it's been too long since she touched me willingly, without my having to coax her or threaten her. I miss it. I miss her smile that she used to give me so freely. "I love you more than I can ever say, Lon." She doesn't move and I say quietly, "Vilandra, look at me. There's something important I think you should know about me...about my past...about why I am the way that I am."

I wait for her response, to see if she'll turn to me as I hope she will.

Isabel

He denies playing any mind games with me and I feel like making a sarcastic comment but refrain from doing so.I don't want to get in to a fight.
"I love you more than I can ever say, Lon."
I take a deep breath and a lone tear makes its way down my cheek.I have been waiting for him to say that to me for over a year now.I do not know what to say in return.

"Vilandra, look at me. There's something important I think you should know about me...about my past...about why I am the way that I am."
It's almost as if he is begging for me to hear him out.With a tired sigh I turn to look at him but make no move to close the gap between us,"I'm listening." I say in a soft voice

Elisabeth

My heart starts to pound loud as I hear the words spoken by my father and a fine red begins to cover my cheeks. Had he really thought that I would forget my engagement to Xan of Antar? Even after all this time I can still remember well the day this ceremony was held and my disappointment about the fact that my future husband wasn’t there but have sent a substitute. Yet – somewhat I had lost a bit the time – was the wedding this near? I wasn’t ready for this! Nervous I push a string of hair that had fallen in my face behind my ear. “Yes father, I know my duty,” I mange to whisper. “But – so soon? There is a charity in six weeks that I promised to attend.”

ALEX

It is obvious that Elizabeth is surprised by the news but she is putting on a brave face. Or she is just resigned because she knows that there is no way that she won't marry Prince Xan.

"Liz, I'm sure that the Prince won't mind attending the event with you." I tell her softly, taking her hand in mine, squeezing it softly.

OCC: We have a bit of a problem. There are some people, Tess and Max mostly, that can't really get started until we have a Kyle and a Michael and I've gotten absolutely no response on either of them. Would anyone like to temp for them or take them on as a second character? I would take Kyle but I'm already playing three people, Maria, Kivar, and Jeff.

~KING JEFFREY~

I walk around the gigantic desk that I'm standing behind to take my daughter's hand. I give Alex a smile and nod at them. "Alex is right, Liz. I'm sure that the Prince will not want you to miss anything you've already committed to. I know you are scared about this whole arrangement but I wanted to tell you that I think it is going to go very well. You know that your mother's and my marriage was arranged. Of course, we were both Eurolgan and you will be starting a whole new life...anyway, the point is, we were happy. I found a great love in your mother and hopefully that will happen with you as well." I look over at Alex and say deliberately, "And hopefully your brother will be able to find the love match that he's yet to find."

~KIVAR~

She turns toward me and looks me in the eyes but doesn't move closer. It's a start that I'm willing to accept. "Lonnie, I know how close you are to your family and how, even though they are a royal family, you still got to spend a lot of time with your parents. I never saw mine much. My mother could not be bothered with me when I was little and she died having Ava. My father was simply happy to have an heir and what time we spent together was usually training for me to be king some day or we played war games."

I take a deep breath before continuing. "What I'm about to tell you, you must never tell a living soul, Lon. I detest looking weak or vulnerable to anyone but I feel that it's important that I share this with you. I spent most of my time in the company of my teachers, who always treated me coldly and taught me only the history of our system and the wars and how to contine them to the advantage of Tagorra, and in the company of my nurse. She was far too old for the job and honestly I think she hated children. She was forever snapping at us and she was the one who taught me the cruelty that I've displayed." Vilandra looks a little shocked at my admission and I can't tell if it's because of what I told her about the nurse or that I've admitted that I am sometimes cruel. "Yes, I know I can be cruel, Lonnie. I don't necessarily mean to be...it's just that it's all I know. She would beat me and keep food from me, she kept me locked in a closet when I was more than she could take...once for three days. When the guards found me, they tried to report it to my father but he was too busy to be bothered with me. I tried to shield Ava from most of it. But that put me in the middle. Hatred and war and cruelty and punishment is all I've ever known. You know that I tried to learn differently when we met. I want to be better again but it's so hard, especially here, where I was raised to know only what you see now."

I take a shaky breath and wait to see what she will say...what she will do. It's suddenly very important to me that she understand and forgive me. It's so very important that she display the kindness and love that she used to because she is the only one I've ever had show me that. I believe that even my own sister is afraid of me and she has never shown me the unconditional love that I so crave.

I didn't realize that I even crave that until this moment. Most of the time, I have nothing but ruling on my mind...power...war. I shake my head slightly at that. The biggest war I ever fight is the constant one going on inside of me.

~MARIA~

I go over to the cages where my birds are and change out their water. "Hello, my sweethearts! My but we are singing loudly this morning," I tell them happily. I glance over at Shasta, my black cat with the golden eyes. She is watching me with interest but doesn't move other than to blink. "You like their singing too, don't you Shasta? Have you been hunting this morning? I didn't see you when I first woke up."

I love my animals, but I do try to limit how many I have in my chambers at one time. The birds are in my sitting area and Shasta is the one cat here at the moment. The huge dog that's in the corner, Basil, is my one constant companion that never leaves my side except when forced to. He's gentle as a lamb, nevermind that he reaches to above my waist when standing on all fours. I am grateful that the king, my uncle by marriage, has an understanding heart and lets me take care of animals. I love all kinds and try to help take care of them as much as possible. I look at the window at the glorious day and sigh happily. Maybe Liz or Alex will want to go riding with me later.

Walking over to the door that leads to the hall, I yank it open and stick my head out. "Charles, is the Princess in her chambers?" I ask the guard. He shakes his head and tells me that Liz and Alex are with the king in his study. I thank him and close the door. Hmmm. I wonder what that's all about. Well, I suppose they'll tell me later. For now, I think I'll curl up with the book I've been reading until I hear from Liz. I sit on my couch and open the book in my arms. Shasta immediately jumps into my lap and bumps my hand with her head. I start to stroke her absently and she purrs in contentment.

Isabel

I listen in silence as my husband begins to explain to me why he is the way he is.At first I am not sure where he is going with his story when he starts on about how my family on Antar have always been very close but as he starts on about his childhood some of the coldness I have felt for him begins to quell.

Its shocks me to hear how callous his father had been towards his own children.But it shocks me even more to hear of the treatment meted out to him by his nurse.No child should ever have to go through that.I feel terrible for him.I can see that it was hard for him to admit all this to me because he is a proud man.It some how explains his coldness towards me and his inability to really express his emotions off late.The part about him being cruel is a little disturbing though.May be psychological scars?Who knows!

As I approach him I say softly,"I'm so sorry Kivar.You didn't deserve a childhood like that." Once I am in front of him,I pull him closer so that his head is against my belly as my arms wrap around his shoulders."I wish you had told me all this earlier." Gently I run my fingers through his hair,feeling very sad for him "Don't worry,your secret's safe with me."

OOC-I can temp for Kyle though I have never played any other characters other than A and I.
I can have a post up later tonight if whoever is playing Tess can start out first.

~KIVAR~

As she moves to stand in front of me and pulls me closer, I rest my head on her abdomen and feel her arms go around my shoulders. I feel as if a great weight has been lifted off of me. "I'm so sorry Kivar.You didn't deserve a childhood like that," she tells me softly. I close my eyes as she starts to run her fingers through my hair and I quell a sigh of contentment. "I wish you had told me all this earlier. Don't worry,your secret's safe with me."

I pull back just enough to rest my chin on her abdomen so that I can look up into her face. "Do not pity me, Lonnie, just love me...teach me to be better. Love me and I promise I'll try. I've never told anyone this. I'm not even sure that Ava remembers much of it."

I wrap my arms around her waist and I realize that I need her. She is the one thing that keeps me sane. Vilandra is the only one that can help me calm the turbulance in my soul. If ever she were to leave me, it would break me, I know it. I pull her down gently, and place my lips to hers, running my hand through her soft golden hair. I am gentle and tender and hope with all my heart that she will respond to me.

oops. posted twice.