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Epilogue
Author's Notes: The Epilogue contains references about Melinda Metz's
The Watcher, "Sexual Healing", "Leaving Normal" and "Blind Date".
The mystery was extinguished and the flame of understanding shone brightly between them; so brightly that for long moments they were unable to do anything other than admire each other, while that luxuriant energy steadied within them.
Everything seemed so magic: not in the illusory sense, but as if they had legitimately been born again. And just like newborns, words were inappropriate, irrelevant, and incapable of expressing what had happened between them or what they were feeling at that moment.
Having answers to questions they didn't even know they had made them feel relaxed, happy and blissful. The Universe was an intricate but orderly soul, like a benevolent parent, full of tenderness and acceptance, whose single aim was to unify all that was and would ever be at its core like an immense hug.
They felt indescribably grateful for that exuberant love and incessant bliss. The Cosmos' intrinsic cozy eternity took the fear of the passage of Time and Death away from them, making them realize that they would always be together. Love was the only constant that vibrated through Space, through the Ages… Could there ever be a greater fortune than to embody such a coveted secret?!
"I'd like nothing more than to spend the rest of the night here, making love with you," Liz cooed, caressing his face with her palms.
Max savored the galvanizing effect of those honeyed words and that charming touch. He swallowed hard and let out a contained sigh. "'The rest of the night' sounds wonderful… The rest of our lives sounds even better, doesn't it…?" He asked, in an eager tone, enfolding her in his arms.
"Much, much better!" Liz whispered, wrapping her arms around his neck, and playfully rubbing her nose against his.
"Then again, you'd never disappoint your parents by missing a graduation ceremony," he sighed, with a knowing smile. "I bet they've been dreaming about nothing else for the past year!"
Liz let out a gentle laugh. True to his spirit, Max wanted her all to himself, without depriving her from the company of her loved ones. He was protecting the wishes of a man who had done his best to chase him away… His words were of her deepest interests, and to know he held them so close to his heart rendered her speechless. Their nobility made her knees tremble and she melted into him with a profound admiration shining in her eyes.
"You're such a tease!" She said, with a playful grin. She lowered her lips to his and Max felt all her gratitude in that tender kiss. His thrilled hands roamed a lazy path from her shoulders, resting on the small of her back. "So let's go to the ceremony," Liz whispered against his lips.
What ceremony? Max mused, amazed at how such a virtuous kiss could steer him away from his noble intentions. He had to say something quickly before he lost his nerve. “Besides, do you really think I’d miss the opportunity to see the most beautiful, the most intelligent girl in this world, receiving the laurels she deserves,” he asked with a jaunty smile.
"You can't be serious," Liz said, laughing again.
"I'm as serious as your serious effort to make up for lost time! I want to be on the front row seat to cheer you in your glorious moment," he said, with an endless smile, feeling her blush burning on his cheeks.
Liz could feel his excitement rippling through her; his words didn't even begin to cover how proud he was of her. Liz took a deep breath. "We should get going, then…" she said, smiling at him.
Max joined Liz in a quick shower, even though he hadn't brought any change of clothes along. Happiness spilled from their palms as they massaged each other, spreading the aromatic lather evenly. The steam swirled around them, thicker and thicker, but the hot water couldn't compete with the warmth they felt beneath their skin. That dulcet and bewitching energy flowed vividly through them, warming them like no water could; something they had feared would be lost upon their return to the world. The awareness of this entrancing presence intensified it further, and they shared a knowing, victorious smile.
Liz could hardly believe her eyes when Max reached for the rack… Her jaw dropped slowly while he wrapped her in a fluffy towel, rekindling that lost fantasy.
"You really know how to get a girl's attention," she smiled, feeling the emotion well up in her eyes.
"There's more where that came from," he said, taking a terry towel for himself. "And the rest of the night is ours!"
Liz pulled him by the edges of the towel, threw her arms around his neck and peppered him with kisses along his jaw, moving to his cheeks, and reaching his lips. Then, in a swift movement, she playfully rubbed his head with the towel. She couldn't help but chuckle at the sight of his tousled hair. Infected by her good humor, Max started a contagious laughing fit that lasted several minutes.
"Has Michael spoken to you about having experienced anything even remotely like this?" Liz wondered.
Max could barely contain a giggle when he saw Liz putting her head outside of the bathroom, with her hair half combed, as if she couldn't wait another second, as if curiosity had overwhelmed her. "No," he said, shaking his head thoughtfully. "Maria…?" He asked, raising his eyebrows.
"Nothing at all…! And she would've said something if there was something to tell… I'm sure of it!" Max turned around, let out a relieved sigh, and resumed tying his shoes. His mind became abstracted from his chore and he focused on that comfortable energy he shared with Liz… His lips parted in an enraptured smile; it was more than obvious that what had happened between the two of them had no precedent for any of their friends, in any book they had read… This was, quite possibly, a unique event in the history of humanity!
Max observed as Liz walked past him with her regal step, heading for the wardrobe and getting her commencement gown out. He leaned back on the bed and watched as she put it on in front of the mirror.
Another feeling blazed under that fiery red gown… a modest amount of academic pride and recognition of the magnitude of hard work that had granted her the honor of wearing that outfit. As his pride expanded in her heart, Liz watched him from the corner of her eye.
Max got up from the bed in a fluid, noiseless movement, and went to Liz, never once blinking away from the apple of his eye. His hand slid down from her waist to her hips, cupping her. She leaned into him, melting into his embrace as he wrapped his arms around her. His hands slid around her waist, as if there were no barriers between them, and the exquisite warmth emanating from his palms filled them and lulled them to the core of their souls.
She felt the depth of that compelling foundation in every sub-atomic particle surrounding them. That loving energy vibrating through every elementary particle was the only permanent and indissoluble thing that existed. Liz grinned as every cell in her body waltzed to that new rhythm, that soothing thrill.
Their hearts had been attuned to each other with metronomic precision, and enveloped in the sublime flame of love. She threw her head back in a quiet and contented gesture, and Max couldn't resist covering her with soft kisses – her cheek, her neck and that sensitive spot behind her ear.
"If you keep kissing me like that, I'm not taking responsibility for what happens next, and then we'll be late to the ceremony," Liz chortled.
Max stopped mid-kiss, his eager lips on her flushed cheek while he remained perfectly still, glancing at her, weighing the pros and cons… He moved away with a lively step, almost leaping across the bedroom. His eyes were fixed on the mortarboard, forgotten on the edge of the bed, and he glanced at Liz again, with a proud smile. He picked it up slowly, crossed the room in a solemn step and placed it on Liz's head, as if it were a crown. He straightened the cap on her head and turned the tassle to the right, admiring her for a moment, as one admires a Michelangelo's fresco.
Liz felt a rush of emotion well up in her heart until the tears blurred her eyes.
"I'll spend the rest of my days making sure this magical light never leaves your eyes." Max whispered, caressing her cheek. Liz smiled, but Max saw a hidden feeling lurking behind her admiration.
His jaw tightened; he knew she could feel his ambivalence – how could he not want to stay there with her for the rest of the night, for the rest of his life?!… "Shall we go to the ceremony?"
Liz took a long breath and met his gaze. "Well, like you said, the rest of the night is ours…" They were going to enjoy their graduation ceremony and the rest of the night would belong to them; they would sleep intertwined, in an embrace that would make Francesca and Paolo blush with envy.
"Can we have a little treat before we go?" Liz asked, with an enticing smile.
Max cocked his head to the side and studied her face, trying to foresee her plan; then, he closed one eye, as if he was beating his brains out… His goofy expression made Liz laugh out loud.
"You're gonna love it! Come on," she said, holding out her hand to him.
While his mind considered what the surprise could consist of, his arm rose willingly, taking her smooth hand, which carried him with her promptly. They flew down the stairs and into the kitchen. With the lights out, and the stove turned off, the kitchen was a cold, gloomy and uninviting place – the opposite of what they were used to.
Liz, however, didn't need great mental focus to remember the steam billowing around them while they kissed, and she was certain that Max didn't, either. In those moments, they were the center of the universe; they lived their rightful passion while, on the other side of the kitchen, the rest of the world was completely out of whack. The memory coursed through her like a pleasant shiver, making her smile. "You know, I think you better go sit down in your booth, I'll be with you shortly," she said, leading him through the door.
Max smiled, kept his questions to himself and walked towards his usual booth. He had barely warmed the seat when a delicious aroma pulled him out of the seat. He stuck his head inside the door and said, "Either you put a clothes pin on my nose, or you let me in… I can't stay back there, because I can smell whatever it is you're cooking in here!"
"Dang…" Liz said, stamping her foot on the floor. She gestured for him to come in.
"Hey, don't look so defeated," Max said, entering the kitchen. "If it's really that important to you, you can add a blindfold to the clothes pin… or… you can let me stay here and make me swear a blood oath."
Liz sighed, defeated, and Max approached her with a lively bounce in his step. "Are you cooking what I think you're cooking? Because the aroma is awfully familiar…" He murmured.
"It's
exactly what you think it is," Liz said, with an impish smile.
"Great! It's been too long since I've had one of these," Max said, swallowing hard, barely able to contain his excitement.
"You've never had one quite like this before, Max, I can assure you… The Crashdown uses a watered down version of this recipe," she revealed, with an enthusiastic tone and a smile to match. "What I mean is, well, uhm... You see… I
created a stronger version of the original Crashdown recipe."
Max felt a deep thrill go through him; he swallowed hard, trying to appease the eagerness of his taste buds, realizing that, if Liz was going to turn that recipe up to eleven, then the best was yet to come – a kind of best he had never known! Max took a deep breath, trying to focus on the present moment – there was a vaguely familiar whiff in the air of boundless possibilities, just like on that day, when he tasted that treat for the first time.
Liz was busy whisking a big bowl full of cream. "Can I do anything, besides swearing on my soul not to breathe a word of this to anyone?" Max asked, smirking.
"You can whisk the milk," she said, pointing at the pot simmering in low heat. Max nodded and went to his post, delighted to help. He stirred the invigorating liquid, soon realizing that it wasn't just milk – the slightly thicker consistency announced the presence of condensed milk.
Liz finished preparing the whipped cream, put the bowl in the fridge and pulled out a chocolate bar. Max's eyes widened when he saw what she held in her hand, understanding the significance of that rectangular package.
"That's your secret ingredient, I take it…" He gulped, barely containing his enthusiasm.
"The original Swiss formula! This chocolate bar was imported. No one would think of using
this type of chocolate for this kind of recipe, but in this life you have to struggle to be original," she said, putting the chocolate cubes inside the pan. To use that kind of chocolate was more than reinventing the wheel, it was thinking of a whole new way to use it. This impressed Max more than the revelation of the brand of chocolate.
Liz mixed a touch of a brown powder in her potion under Max's increasingly inquisitive eyes. "Are you adding more cinnamon?" he asked, with a frown.
"No, this is just so you don't have to add Tabasco sauce," she said, admiring his top-notch whisking. The chocolate was near melting point, and Max's gentle motions added a full-bodied, velvety character to the drink.
Her nostrils flared involuntarily when the first whiff of chocolate invaded her lungs… "Keep whisking the beverage, Max, I'll go get the mugs," Liz said, moving away as fast as she could, before she began drooling all over their drink.
Max nodded, silently begging her to hurry, because the spell the chocolate cast proved too powerful, and he could swallow it all in one gulp, regardless of its boiling stage, if she didn't come back quickly!
Max heard the soft jingle of the mugs behind him and felt like a little kid on Christmas Eve, ready to open his presents. He poured the drink into the mugs and, from the corner of his eye, saw Liz going towards the fridge again. Before he could spell chocolate, she returned with the bowl of whipped cream and two other familiar packages…
"Shall we go?" Liz asked, with an encouraging grin.
Max trotted to his usual booth holding both steamy mugs. With a large spoon, Liz garnished both mugs with whipped cream. Then she picked up the conspicuous orange jar and, with another spoon, sprinkled more Swiss chocolate on top of the whipped cream. Max watched that sweet and sumptuous spectacle – he was mesmerized by the combination of Liz's fluid movements and the irresistible aroma of the delicacy they were about to relish… Finally, she opened another package and took two strawberries, placing one on top of the chocolate sprinkled whipped cream in each cup, as if it were a flag of their love.
"
Bon appétit!" Liz said with a dazzling grin.
Max glanced at the restaurant clock. "We don't have to hurry… The hands are moving, but time is on our side," he said, his voice deep with emotion.
Liz looked at her wristwatch and compared it with the restaurant clock. Those manmade gears would never admit to such a conspiracy; Time marched on… but it seemed to move in a relaxed and languid step, inviting them to contemplate that moment. "You're right," she said, wrapping her strawberry in the whipped cream. "Time seems to slow down for our benefit!"
"We should make the most of it, then!" Max replied, imitating her. A nibble on the chocolaty strawberry transported him to another world… The ripe, juicy strawberry mixed with the crunchy chocolate flakes in the whipped cream and clung to his teeth and to the roof of his mouth, slowly releasing its overpowering taste…
Oh, if only all tortures resembled this one! Max mused, closing his eyes from the intensity of that single bite.
Liz's eyes, also half closed, seemed to sparkle as much as his. He knew this was only a small sample, and the best was yet to come, which stirred his taste buds even more.
"Would you like another one?" She asked, pointing at the strawberries, when she noticed that there was little whipped cream left on top of his mug.
"I had my fill," he sighed, with gaiety shimmering in his eyes. Then, he lifted his mug in a solemn movement and Liz mirrored his gesture.
Max had a glimpse of their honeymoon… Maybe it was a premonition, maybe nothing more than wishful thinking… but, in a strange way, he felt as if he and Liz were married already! That moment was more than he imagined any honeymoon could be – that glint of novelty between them, that smile that was always the first they exchanged, that total presence in the mystery of a present moment, and that total awareness of what they shared with each other… Could they ever have a better time than that after a minister declared them husband and wife?!
"Wouldn't it be wonderful if we could toast with these Blasts at our reception, rather than with champagne?"
"Yeah, it would be exceptionally wonderful for you," Liz agreed, smiling, as the memory of a drunk Max came to her mind.
"Of course, you'd have to either share your secret recipe or prepare it yourself, and I just would not let you work on your wedding day!" Max said, shaking his head.
"I think we better make that toast now," Liz said, entwining her arm with his.
They sipped their potion in a companionable silence, as if they were sampling champagne from the best vintage. For Max, there was no drink more perfect than that one: it was cold and it was hot; it was sweet but not nauseating; peppery without burning your insides, and that velvety texture invited one to drink it slowly and then have another!
"I didn't know you had developed such refined tastes," he said with a playful smile.
“Thanks to you! I never wanted it like this before… This is a whole new universe for me!” she admitted, beaming, basking in his delight with that full-bodied Blast, and she was astonished to realize their breaths were still in sync.
“Now I understand the reason behind this name!” Max said, sampling another swig. “I feel as if I swallowed a box of Duracell batteries!… Sorry, it’s not the most pleasant image, but I can’t find a better one…” He took another swig of the potion, and cocked his head, trying to think of something more elegant to say. “It’s infinitely more pleasant than swallowing batteries, no doubt about that!”
Liz burst out laughing… maybe because of his puzzled frown, maybe because of his hyperbolic metaphor, maybe even both.
Max also began laughing at his inability to find a witty metaphor for his experience, but he felt that, after drinking one of those Blasts, he could go a year without food or rest…
Then, he became thoughtful again. "Are you sure you don't want to share your recipe with the world? Do you want to condemn your customers to a life of drinking a watered down version of this absolute wonder?!…" Max looked at the ever lighter mug and swallowed hard, realizing their private moment was coming to an end… The intrusion of that other less distant reality made him lose his train of thought.
He had a vision: an ocean of customers sprinting into the Crashdown, gobbling up their burgers and their colas, only to sprint out of the restaurant, eager to enjoy all the amusements and souvenirs the city had to offer…
Liz watched him, trying to read his silence, his lost gaze, and his arm holding the mug, suspended in the air as if he was missing something…
When he looked at her again, there was a new light in his gaze, and she became aware of his revelation. Max whispered: "You should really write this recipe down… in a sealed envelope… and tell your great-grandchildren not to open it until a hundred years after your death!"
Liz nodded and gave a soft chuckle – pleased that he came to that conclusion – and raised her dreamy mug for them to toast one more time.
"To us," Liz whispered, with a wide smile.
"Forever!" Max added, also whispering, with the intense certainty of someone who could foresee every day of his life. His warm whisper reverberated throughout her core, comforting her in the imperviousness of their love. They clinked their mugs together and sipped their unique concoction with the leisure of those who never wanted it to end.
After that nourishing delicacy, they silently shared the task of erasing their presence from that kitchen, safe in the knowledge of their secret's shelter, leaving only the walls as witnesses to what had happened there. They left the Crashdown and headed for his house to fetch his commencement gown.
While he changed, her inquisitive eyes roamed around the room and noticed a poster he had on the wall. The picture looked familiar; in fact, she had seen it before but had never attributed great importance to it. Kyle had lent her that album by Moby years earlier, shortly after she broke up with him. Maybe that's why she'd never listened to it all the way through.
It must be a great album, she thought,
otherwise, why would Max have a poster of it in his bedroom?! She walked to the shelf where the CDs were and traced the cases with her finger until she found the album she was looking for.
"I'm ready," Max said, adjusting his gown.
Liz turned, her eyes appraising him, traveling up and down his figure slowly, thoroughly… Her bated breath, her shimmering eyes lingering on him, and the sudden flurry of her emotions billowing in his heart made him blush. "Oh, I can hardly wait to see you graduating from college," she said, as a proud smile emerged on her lips.
"I thought you were gonna say I looked incredibly charming in this gown!" He said, with a beguiling smile.
"I thought you already knew that, but I can repeat it as many times as you want… You look absolutely stunning in that gown!" Liz said, gazing minutely at him with an overcome nod. "But you're gonna look even better in it when you reach your senior year in college… trust me!"
Her words fell on fertile soil; envisioning himself in such a ceremony stirred his heart up in hopeful anticipation. "What kind of college?" He asked in a voice that belied everything his face could not hide. His excited eyes glistened, illuminating his whole face, while his cheeks blushed in expectancy.
Liz really had to smile at his restrained thrill! "All in good time," she said, caressing his cheek, trying to keep her own enthusiasm in check. She knew that Max had gone through a very difficult phase of his life and that the aftershocks were nearly as violent as the tragedy that had given rise to them, but he had crossed that obstacle with stoutheartedness – something she admired. She rejoiced in his avidness. What a sad thing it would be if all that potential went to waste! "Shall we get going?" She asked, touching her forehead with his.
"If you insist…" he retorted in a playful whisper that made her giggle and hold him closer in her arms. "Do you want to listen to 'Play' in the car?" Max asked, pointing at the CD that Liz held.
"Now I'm curious; I mean… it must be a really good album, or you wouldn't have a poster of it, right?"
"It's one of his best!" Max guaranteed.
"Really?! What's your favorite track?" Liz asked, while her eyes searched the back cover.
"Oh, we could be here all night talking about Moby," he smiled, opening the door, and gesturing for her to pass. "That's why naming a favorite is so difficult, you know?" Max said, as they headed out to the Chevelle, after telling her the history of that album.
"In short, the entire album is great, is that it?"
"Well, I am a bit biased… but there are a few tracks I listen to more often than others."
"Such as…?"
"Well," he started, opening the car door for her, "lots of them, actually."
Liz laughed, realizing that the topic was too complex, but as soon as they got in, she took the CD and put it in the player, while Max put the key in the ignition.
"Gimme a number, quickly, just off the top of your head," she said, glancing at him.
"Fourteen," Max said, without thinking.
Liz changed the tracks one by one, until she reached track fourteen. Three unassuming taps announced the melody. The rough sound of the guitar contrasted with the primal nature of that entrancing, ethereal theme that was gently insinuating itself throughout the car. At first, the subtlety of the acoustic guitar and the piano made her hesitant about what the music was trying to convey, but as the song progressed in a fervid crescendo the compelling language of those sounds seemed to her more and more splendid; almost divine! In her chest, her heart was seething with the excitement of those notes; tears prickled in her eyes and her soul swelled with the emotion she felt from Max. When that bewitching tune couldn't reach any higher, she could feel the same sense of peace that was filling his heart. She leaned back in the seat as a smile lit her face, feeling that all was right in the Universe. Max glanced at her with a knowing smile, and she gave an exhilarated laugh, silently agreeing with him.
"Can I…?" Liz started, and Max just went ahead and hit the rewind button. She nodded in appreciation and relaxed into the seat. The school was just a tune away.
Maria was all alone, waiting for them near the school entrance. Her head moved from side to side, and she stretched her neck repeatedly, hoping to see a familiar face.
"There's Maria," Liz said, pointing in the direction of the school entrance. "I hope she just got here."
Maria was startled when she heard the Chevelle approaching and she smiled when Max flashed the headlights at her. She went to meet them promptly, not even waiting for Max to park the car.
Maria froze when she glimpsed a strange being with four legs and four arms looming in the evening shadows, walking in a tranquil step towards her and murmuring sweetly; she became truly transfixed when the energy that emanated from that extraordinary presence reached her heart. It wasn't long before she recognized the whispers as those of her best friends. Her heart started pounding as she felt wrapped in a wild, unknown wave of energy and, obeying an irresistible urge for something intangible, she quickened her pace to join them. She threw herself into her best friend's arms without even seeing her face, but her eyes were still able to capture that image of both of them with their arms wrapped around each other.
"It's so good to see you! Have you been here long?" Liz asked.
Maria let go of that hug, took a few steps away from her friend and stared carefully at them. There was something different about them, something she couldn't discern… It was like there was an energy field enveloping them – a staunch, warm, thick and comforting energy field, a consecrated space just for them… "I just got here five minutes ago," she mumbled, leaving her mouth opened in astonishment. Maria could not control the turmoil that had taken hold of her heart… "What happened to you guys?..." she asked, unable to untie that Gordian knot that had formed in her throat and had stolen all the right words from her tongue.
"Do you think there's something different about us?" Liz asked, hiding behind a smile that gave her away completely.
"Different is an understatement, babe! What happened?"
"Remember what I told you before you left the Crashdown," Liz asked, with a smile that only her best friend could decipher.
"Oh no, something definitely happened between you guys, but it has nothing to do with the ending of the sleeping cure! That much I know!"
"I'm sure you'll hear all about it when the ceremony is over, don't worry!" Max said, lacing his arm around Liz again.
Under the cover of darkness, Max's arm looping around her and Liz leaning against him were invisible gestures, but utterly unmistakable to Maria's understanding. She had never understood why they were attracted to each other; never understood why they had started dating; never understood how they managed to live when they were away from each other, nor had she understood why they had gotten back together after all the pain and suffering they had gone through… That demure gesture increased their energy field exponentially; the connection between them shone with greater fervor than the light of two giant stars!
The bumpy ride of those two (the one she had sponsored even before its inception) made her smile, while Michael's face flashed into her memory and she felt a pang kick her heart.
Why did I waste so much time without him? she thought to herself, feeling the pain burning in her throat.
While she was lost in her thoughts, Isabel arrived, hand in hand with her husband. Maria had never seen Isabel hug her brother so enthusiastically, or Liz for that matter. "Well, I think graduation ceremonies really agree with you both, you look amazing in those gowns; it's like you're glowing!" Isabel said, with a celebratory grin. "I really have to thank you, Liz; your influence over him is really good… I've never seen my brother so ecstatic!"
He's ecstatic, all right, and so is Liz, but it has nothing to do with the ceremony, Maria mused, studying them for any clues that would give them away…
Liz's parents arrived at school while they were engaged in a spirited conversation; it was natural for Mr. and Mrs. Parker to be delighted that their daughter was finishing high school, but Maria had never seen them fawning over Max before… The favorable pats on the shoulder and the ceaseless smiles were all the more impressive coming from Mr. Parker!
To see them all orbiting around Max and Liz made her smile and shake her head; they could obviously feel the energy emanating from them, just as much as she did, from whatever it was that had happened between them earlier that night, even if they were misidentifying it as 'graduation cheer'. They were small planets, just like herself, orbiting around those two giant stars, whose immense, magnetic light had guided their steps ever since the day of the shooting.
As more and more people arrived, the group thought it best to head into the school grounds to attend the ceremony that was about to begin. As they started walking, Mr. Parker put his arm around his wife and Jesse did the same with Isabel. While Maria cursed her luck for not having Michael there with her, she realized that Max and Liz were gone. She looked around and found them a few yards behind the group with their arms around each other at the very moment their lips met in a long, grateful, amorous kiss.
The End
I'm very grateful to the creators and the actors for making Max and Liz so special to us! I'm also grateful to the readers who took time out of their lives to read this fic. Writing this story was such an adventure to me, like climbing a great mountain, but the view was well worth all the effort! I hope you enjoyed it as well! If you have a favorite passage, I'd love to hear about it! 