Re: Falling (AU, M/L Teen) 12/30/2009
Posted: Wed Dec 30, 2009 11:06 am
The room in the Crashdown was called the 'birthday' room although it was used for all sorts of parties. It wasn't being used for a party tonight though. It was in fact a somber occasion that had brought Diane and Phillip Evans, Jeff and Nancy Parker, Maria DeLuca, Alex Whitman, Michael Guerin, and Isabel Evans together. They were planning a memorial service.
The call had come that morning from the NTSB. Except for Jim Valenti - still apparently searching the malpais - the search for the bodies of Max Evans and Liz Parker was being terminated. It had always been somewhat of a long shot but after innumerable helicopter flights it was decided that the bodies just weren't going to be found.
That simple telephone call - it appeared - was as much closure as any of them would get - at least in terms of actually knowing where the mortal remains were of their children, sibling, and friend. Of course it wasn't enough - it never is when the young are cut down before they even have a chance to really live. That's why they were planning for a memorial service. They wanted it to be a celebration of the lives of the two. That those two lives were all too short was obvious, if unspoken. The planning session wasn't going all that well.
If there was anything more painful than burying your only child, thought Jeff Parker, it was losing her without even knowing what had become of her save perhaps that it was a gruesome and perhaps terrifying end. Had Liz already been dead from the impact before her body was sucked from the plane? Was she - he hoped - unconscious when it had happened? Or had she been awake those long seconds - seen her death coming? The numbness - the disbelief - and the shock was now far enough past that he could contemplate thinking such questions although he was already sure those feelings would never really leave him. He could only hope that for Lizzy - for both of the children - it had been mercifully quick and that they hadn't suffered. Of course, that hope didn't really even mitigate his own suffering.
"Mr. Parker, you have a telephone call," said Hermosa Rodriguez, who was taking telephone calls for the take-out trade tonight."
"I'm sort of tied up...." protested Jeff. He really wasn't in a mood for business.
"I know that Jeff, but it's Deputy Valenti," said Hermosa. "He's pretty insistent he talk to you."
When last he'd heard from Jeff Valenti the man had been combing a trackless wasteland looking for the remains of his child. He certainly couldn't refuse to talk to him. He excused himself from the group and left the room to go to the office.
As Jeff Parker left, Diane Evans watched him go. Jeff himself seemed more dead than alive and she felt much the same way. Unlike him she had the solace of another child - she looked up to see Isabel talking softly to Alex Whitman. Isabel's eyes were red from a week of crying - but they still weren't really dry yet. The girl had been devastated by the loss of her brother - inconsolable, although young Mr. Whitman was doing his best.
Of course still having Isabel - fortunate as she and Philip were in that respect - did not offset losing Max. She had loved her children without ever favoring one over another but that didn't mean her love for them was exactly the same either. As long as she and Philip had had them, Isabel had always seemed the best adjusted of the two, while her brother had seemed the most vulnerable. Diane had, of course, loved them both but that vulnerability she had never been able to truly protect him from had always made Max - if not her favorite - at least the child for whom she showed the most concern.
Oh, she remembered that conversation - years ago - when Dr Marquardt had told her that the kids were like feral children - that they might never be able to embrace life either as members of their family or even as members of the human race. Thank God that had not been the case - or at least not totally. Until her brother's death Isabel had still been distant - a budding Ice Princess Philip had called her - although it seemed that the death of her brother had itself melted whatever was at the core of their daughter. Somehow in their shared grief for the two lost ones, the four teenagers all seemed closer - finding at least some small consolation in the shared company of the others.
But it had always been little Max that had been her greatest concern. Little Max who really couldn't seem to accept the notion that he was a human being like everyone else - one who ought to participate - and enjoy life - like anyone else. Little Max who - if it hadn't been for Liz Parker helping him along probably couldn't even have gone to public school. Little Max who - although she knew he did love her - had never been able to completely open his heart - even to a mother's love. She realized as the tears formed again in her eyes why it was so hard to think of her son being dead. Far more even than his sister - he had never really lived.
As Jeff Parker returned to the room he walked toward Diane and Philip and motioned for Nancy to join him. In a soft voice just to the three of them he whispered, "Jim Valenti is back. He says he needs to speak to us - that he found Max and Liz. I think we'd better hear what he has to say before we tell the others," Jeff said, nodding toward the teenagers.
It wasn't hard to guess what his thoughts were. The bodies had fallen a great distance and had lain out for the scavengers to pick over for nearly a week. All four of them had lived in the Southwest for a long time and realized how buzzards and other carrion eaters survived. Road kill animals were scarcely uncommon in the desert Southwest. In fact, by this time it might well be impossible to tell Liz from Max without forensic testing, and that certainly wasn't the image of their lost friends or sibling they wanted any of the teenagers to have.
"He wants to speak with us at the sheriff's department - he says he'll meet us at the back door."
Within minutes the four teenagers were told to keep up with the planning - that the two couples would be back as soon as possible. They piled in to the Evans car and in minutes were at the back door of the sheriff's department where the old jail had been.
The call had come that morning from the NTSB. Except for Jim Valenti - still apparently searching the malpais - the search for the bodies of Max Evans and Liz Parker was being terminated. It had always been somewhat of a long shot but after innumerable helicopter flights it was decided that the bodies just weren't going to be found.
That simple telephone call - it appeared - was as much closure as any of them would get - at least in terms of actually knowing where the mortal remains were of their children, sibling, and friend. Of course it wasn't enough - it never is when the young are cut down before they even have a chance to really live. That's why they were planning for a memorial service. They wanted it to be a celebration of the lives of the two. That those two lives were all too short was obvious, if unspoken. The planning session wasn't going all that well.
If there was anything more painful than burying your only child, thought Jeff Parker, it was losing her without even knowing what had become of her save perhaps that it was a gruesome and perhaps terrifying end. Had Liz already been dead from the impact before her body was sucked from the plane? Was she - he hoped - unconscious when it had happened? Or had she been awake those long seconds - seen her death coming? The numbness - the disbelief - and the shock was now far enough past that he could contemplate thinking such questions although he was already sure those feelings would never really leave him. He could only hope that for Lizzy - for both of the children - it had been mercifully quick and that they hadn't suffered. Of course, that hope didn't really even mitigate his own suffering.
"Mr. Parker, you have a telephone call," said Hermosa Rodriguez, who was taking telephone calls for the take-out trade tonight."
"I'm sort of tied up...." protested Jeff. He really wasn't in a mood for business.
"I know that Jeff, but it's Deputy Valenti," said Hermosa. "He's pretty insistent he talk to you."
When last he'd heard from Jeff Valenti the man had been combing a trackless wasteland looking for the remains of his child. He certainly couldn't refuse to talk to him. He excused himself from the group and left the room to go to the office.
As Jeff Parker left, Diane Evans watched him go. Jeff himself seemed more dead than alive and she felt much the same way. Unlike him she had the solace of another child - she looked up to see Isabel talking softly to Alex Whitman. Isabel's eyes were red from a week of crying - but they still weren't really dry yet. The girl had been devastated by the loss of her brother - inconsolable, although young Mr. Whitman was doing his best.
Of course still having Isabel - fortunate as she and Philip were in that respect - did not offset losing Max. She had loved her children without ever favoring one over another but that didn't mean her love for them was exactly the same either. As long as she and Philip had had them, Isabel had always seemed the best adjusted of the two, while her brother had seemed the most vulnerable. Diane had, of course, loved them both but that vulnerability she had never been able to truly protect him from had always made Max - if not her favorite - at least the child for whom she showed the most concern.
Oh, she remembered that conversation - years ago - when Dr Marquardt had told her that the kids were like feral children - that they might never be able to embrace life either as members of their family or even as members of the human race. Thank God that had not been the case - or at least not totally. Until her brother's death Isabel had still been distant - a budding Ice Princess Philip had called her - although it seemed that the death of her brother had itself melted whatever was at the core of their daughter. Somehow in their shared grief for the two lost ones, the four teenagers all seemed closer - finding at least some small consolation in the shared company of the others.
But it had always been little Max that had been her greatest concern. Little Max who really couldn't seem to accept the notion that he was a human being like everyone else - one who ought to participate - and enjoy life - like anyone else. Little Max who - if it hadn't been for Liz Parker helping him along probably couldn't even have gone to public school. Little Max who - although she knew he did love her - had never been able to completely open his heart - even to a mother's love. She realized as the tears formed again in her eyes why it was so hard to think of her son being dead. Far more even than his sister - he had never really lived.
As Jeff Parker returned to the room he walked toward Diane and Philip and motioned for Nancy to join him. In a soft voice just to the three of them he whispered, "Jim Valenti is back. He says he needs to speak to us - that he found Max and Liz. I think we'd better hear what he has to say before we tell the others," Jeff said, nodding toward the teenagers.
It wasn't hard to guess what his thoughts were. The bodies had fallen a great distance and had lain out for the scavengers to pick over for nearly a week. All four of them had lived in the Southwest for a long time and realized how buzzards and other carrion eaters survived. Road kill animals were scarcely uncommon in the desert Southwest. In fact, by this time it might well be impossible to tell Liz from Max without forensic testing, and that certainly wasn't the image of their lost friends or sibling they wanted any of the teenagers to have.
"He wants to speak with us at the sheriff's department - he says he'll meet us at the back door."
Within minutes the four teenagers were told to keep up with the planning - that the two couples would be back as soon as possible. They piled in to the Evans car and in minutes were at the back door of the sheriff's department where the old jail had been.