Roswell Fanatics

*Andrew*

"I am going to go to sleep now." she states settling in.

"Okay, Goodnight." I whisper as I make myself comfortable.

I don't see myself getting much sleep. The woman I love is lying next to me and she doesn't even realize it.

*Maria*

"Yours...Maria not an hour ago you were kissing Michael not having kissed me a day before. You have no right to say I am supposed to be yours. " he barks hostility laced in his voice.

"I know I have no right, but that's how I feel. The heart doesn't know right or wrong. It just loves."

I grow angry at the entire situation. It wasn't supposed to be like this. We were both supposed to get our happy ending with other people.

"Don't ask me questions you don't want the answers to!"

~~~~~LIZ~~~~~
After what seems like for ever of cleaning, the shop looks...a but tidier.
Not a lot...but a bit.
I sigh as I check if my laptop is ok...amazingly enough....it is.
...I wonder. I switch it on and quickly go on ebay.
I type on the Charmed Ones and wait.
A book comes on screen.
"The Prophesies of The Charmed ones"
I look at it in amazement.
I quickly bid on it...so far Im the only one.
"Amazing" I mutter to myself.
I sigh...I had better be getting back. I can feel Tess's worry radiating from her.
But that means having to look at Maria...and Im the one who made her like this.
I sigh...cant be helped.
I shimmer to infront of Maria.
"Sorry...shop has absolutely nada. Have you got your memory back?" I ask.
"Are you ok? Can I help at all...wait...I'll make things worse since I did this to you. Its all my fault isnt it?" I say, not being able to stop myself.

*Maria*

Liz is suddenly before me and I am relieved. Until she starts talking that is.

"Sorry...shop has absolutely nada. Have you got your memory back?" she glances from me to Alex worriedly.

"Are you ok? Can I help at all...wait...I'll make things worse since I did this to you. Its all my fault isnt it?"

Uh Oh. I try to stop myself but the words are out before I have time to censor my answer.

"Yes, I do have my memories back. No thanks to you. There I was running around with no recollection of the past events and you my big sister who I trust more than myself was fooling around with our Whitelighter. Who could have saved my life! If he wasn't so broken hearted over your lack of trust in him.

Instead I have a half demon save me from almost certain death and instead of telling me you love me and your glad I am okay. You sprent off to get away from a Man who is obviously head over heels for you. I know you only do this because you are afraid of the prophsey, but curses only have power if you believe in them and I don't. Neither does Max.

Which you would see if you stuck around, but you don't. You are just like our mother! That fact alone petrifies me ,because I hate her! I hate her for giving up and leaving us when we were so young. We needed her! Just like I need you. So stop assessing blame and be my sister."

Oh Goddess. She is never going to speak to me again. I just lost the most important person in my life. I'm sure of it.

~~~~~LIZ~~~~~
"Yes, I do have my memories back. No thanks to you. There I was running around with no recollection of the past events and you my big sister who I trust more than myself was fooling around with our Whitelighter. Who could have saved my life! If he wasn't so broken hearted over your lack of trust in him.

Instead I have a half demon save me from almost certain death and instead of telling me you love me and your glad I am okay. You sprent off to get away from a Man who is obviously head over heels for you. I know you only do this because you are afraid of the prophsey, but curses only have power if you believe in them and I don't. Neither does Max.

Which you would see if you stuck around, but you don't. You are just like our mother! That fact alone petrifies me ,because I hate her! I hate her for giving up and leaving us when we were so young. We needed her! Just like I need you. So stop assessing blame and be my sister."

I feel tears sting my eyes. "Right" I say quietly. I begin to turn away when I stop myself.

"Well if you hate me that much perhaps I should just leave. Then at least you'd all be safe. And I wouldn't be able to hrut you anymore. Im sorry I hurt you and made me hate me" I say quietly.

I shimmer to my room, grab my suitcase and start to pack my things. I need to be away from here...now.

*Maria*

Her eyes fill with tears that threaten to spill forth. "Right" she whispers as she turns to go.

"Well if you hate me that much perhaps I should just leave. Then at least you'd all be safe. And I wouldn't be able to hrut you anymore. Im sorry I hurt you and made me hate me" I finishes before she shimmers away.

Damn. That was soo not supposed to happen. I give Alex a 'we'll finish this later" glare before I rush back into the house nad into Liz's bedreoo. She is packing u her belongings jut as I suspected.

"So you are runing away again." I state examining my surroundings.

"Can't say I'm surprised. It's what we do best. Us Deluca's are famous for our running in the opposite direction of love. That's probably why there's a curse. To keep men from falling in love with us, because where we are pain and death tend to follow." I admit reluctantly.

"I don't hate you. I could never hate you. Your my Big sister and my friend. The only thing I have left from mom and dad is you. We are family." I assure her. he knows my words are true ,because unfortunately at this particular point in time I can't lie.

" Like it or not, You, Tess, and I are all that's left of the Deluca line, and if you haven't noticed we are in danger of getting killed nearly everyday. We are in no way, shape, form, or fashion what you would consider ordinary and that's just the way it is. No matter how much we want to be sometimes." Pain stings my eyes as I realize all that we had missed out on my simply being normal. Maybe we weould have all been married now and have kids. I guess we'll never know.

" We need to stay together. Our powers are meaningless if we can't use them for the greater good, and if you are not here I give up. I'd relinquish my gift. It means nothing if you are not here." I confess as I head for the door.

"If you want to leave I can't stop you. Let's face it your abilites are twice as strong as mine and I don't even have an active power. I don't want you to. That's gotta count for something right?"

~~~~~LIZ~~~~~
"So you are runing away again."
"Can't say I'm surprised. It's what we do best. Us Deluca's are famous for our running in the opposite direction of love. That's probably why there's a curse. To keep men from falling in love with us, because where we are pain and death tend to follow."
"I don't hate you. I could never hate you. Your my Big sister and my friend. The only thing I have left from mom and dad is you. We are family."
"Like it or not, You, Tess, and I are all that's left of the Deluca line, and if you haven't noticed we are in danger of getting killed nearly everyday. We are in no way, shape, form, or fashion what you would consider ordinary and that's just the way it is. No matter how much we want to be sometimes."
"We need to stay together. Our powers are meaningless if we can't use them for the greater good, and if you are not here I give up. I'd relinquish my gift. It means nothing if you are not here."
"If you want to leave I can't stop you. Let's face it your abilites are twice as strong as mine and I don't even have an active power. I don't want you to. That's gotta count for something right?"

I listen as she talks to me...although I face the other way. I cant bear to look at her.

I sigh as she finishes. "I will never, ever understand you Maria. But fine. I'll stay. But Im telling you now...no more spells. I want to be normal. I will do a spell if it is life or death....but otherwise...never again."

"You may say my abilities are stronger than yours...but Im also stupider. I do stupid things that end up hurting everyone I love."

"I wont let you or Tess get hurt. Or Alex, or Dustin or Kyle or anyone else. And I also won't let Max get hurt. Besides which, how can he get hurt since Im the girl who gets kissed once in a while and then get shouted at or told that "we cant do this". If I meant anything to me he would see how much he hurts me. How much Im hurting because Im useless. Utterly useless. I cant even do a simple forgetful spell right."

"And now he's going to die. And I could have killed you all. And we all know its my fault as you correctly stated in there. And your right...I do run away. But maybe its so I can hold on to the one thing I have left right now, which is my physical being. Not my heart though....too late for that."

A solitary tears runs down my face, but since my backs to her she cant tell.

"Ill stay ok. Just...leave me alone Maria" I say quietly as I begin to unpack.

*Maria*

She sighs defeatedly and refuses to meet my gaze. "I will never, ever understand you Maria. But fine. I'll stay. But Im telling you now...no more spells. I want to be normal. I will do a spell if it is life or death....but otherwise...never again." She shifts anxiouslyy from one foot to the other.

"I wont let you or Tess get hurt. Or Alex, or Dustin or Kyle or anyone else. And I also won't let Max get hurt. Besides which, how can he get hurt since Im the girl who gets kissed once in a while and then get shouted at or told that "we cant do this". She has always been thsi protective of us. She feels like she has to take care of all of us. I love her for it, but I fear that the stree will weaken her spirit.

"If I meant anything to me he would see how much he hurts me. How much Im hurting because Im useless. Utterly useless. I cant even do a simple forgetful spell right." How such a talented wiccan could have such a low self esteem is beyond me.

"And now he's going to die. And I could have killed you all. And we all know its my fault as you correctly stated in there. And your right...I do run away. But maybe its so I can hold on to the one thing I have left right now, which is my physical being. Not my heart though....too late for that." He is not going to die. He's a Whitelighter for Goddess sakes. The only way he can die is if The Powers That Be take away his powers. Which granted I'm sure they'd do if they found out about them. I have only know Max for a short time ,but after seing the way he looks at her I'd say it's a sfe bet he'd give up his wings for her.

"I'll stay ok. Just...leave me alone Maria" she says softly her tiny voice quivering. She beging to unpack and for once I am at a loss for words. How do you convince someone you care about that they are wrong?

"You can't not do magic, Liz" I state my voice filled with conviction.

"It's who we are." I reveal tears flowing down my cheeks.

"You are not stupid and you do not do stupid things!!! You just need to have a little more faith in the people around you. We love and care about you. Don't you see that?"

I glance at the door before I finish what I have to say. "I don't have time to convince you that your role here is inportant. Not just your positon as a Charmed one in the battle between Good and Evil, but your mark here. As Tess' cousin, Kyle and Alex's friend, and my sister. You belong here."

"I've got to go find a spell to fix this." Refering to my ever truthful nature that has been forced apon me.

"If Alex and Michael get a hold of me for a little round of Q & A. I'm running away." I joke offering her a warm smile.

(ooc: Im a little confused...does everyone know Max is a whitelighter? I thought it was just Alex and Liz who knew.)
~~~~~LIZ~~~~~
"You can't not do magic, Liz"
I turn towards her slightly.
"It's who we are."
God she's crying.
See...another thing thats my fault.
"You are not stupid and you do not do stupid things!!! You just need to have a little more faith in the people around you. We love and care about you. Don't you see that?"
I don't understand...how will faith in the people around me ever help me? Its not as if Max would ever pick me over being a whitelighter. Its not as if I have anysort of role that they can unburden me with.
Its not as if I help them anyway.
"I don't have time to convince you that your role here is inportant. Not just your positon as a Charmed one in the battle between Good and Evil, but your mark here. As Tess' cousin, Kyle and Alex's friend, and my sister. You belong here."
...belong here to mess things up.
"I've got to go find a spell to fix this."
Huh? Fix what? I give her a confused look. Then I realise...shes only been speaking the truth.
"If Alex and Michael get a hold of me for a little round of Q & A. I'm running away."
She gives me a warm smile and I smile back.
"Well...you never know...it could help" I say. "You'll find out who you really prefer I guess." I say reasonably, shrugging my shoulders.
I can see her itching to go...but I have to ask.
"Maria...do you...really think...that Max likes me?" I ask.

OOC I thought that Maria, Michael, Liz, and Tess found out in the shop in the first thread. I can change it if you want me to.

*Maria*



"Well...you never know...it could help" she offers giving me a different perspective.

"You'll find out who you really prefer I guess." she shrugs her shoulders not realizing that she has helped solve part of my problem. All I have to do is get someone to ask me which one I belong with and that's my answer. She really is a genius!

"Maria...do you...really think...that Max likes me?" she inquires her eyes looking alittle uneasy.

Uh no not a direct question. I have no choice but to answer.
What the crap? Does everyone think I'm Miss Cleo for their love lifes?

I take a deep breath before I put it all out there.

" He loves you more than anything else in this world. You both are just scared of what you feel and the consequences of your being together would bestow. The last time I saw two people look so much in love it was Mom and Dad. Of all things in this world to doubt the way he feels about you is not one of them." I state letting her know that Max wants to be with her.

Trying to lighten the serious mood I joke, "And you know I'm not lying! I can't." She still looks undecided so I present the truth.

"I know that when the time is right you'll both just come together... like magic"