Posted: Tue Jun 08, 2004 2:53 am
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Her breath came in short inaudible rasps.
I’m alone with Max. He’s gonna ask me and…oh God, she thought breathlessly.
It’ll be okay, she coached herself, you can get through this, just say something and go from there.
She slowly averted her gaze back to him and immediately wished she hadn’t. His expression was of clarity, as if he could finally see what she was hiding.
She knew that he had seen the flashes of Future Max, of her and Kyle together but she didn’t know how much he knew. She had deceived herself into thinking that she could explain them away without telling him the truth, but looking into his eyes, at his determined, scrutinising expression, she knew that her plan would fail.
“Can I have my feet back please?”. The stability of her tone surprised her.
Her stared at her in silence
Liz tried to pretend that he wasn’t breaking through her defences.
With a wave of his hand, she was free.
“Thank you,” she said moving her feet, thankful that she was back in control of herself.
She fixed him with a blank stare. “Now what do you want?” she demanded.
He began advancing towards her, her first instinct was to take a step back further away from him, his proximity would make her weak but if she moved, it would be admitting that to him and she couldn’t do that.
Lives are at risk. His too, you have to do this.
So she stood still, her heart pounding wildly against her as Max came closer towards her, his eyes slowly, torturously sweeping up the length of her body.
“You ran out on me today,” he drawled casually, “we didn’t get to finish clearing everything up.”
To stop herself from shaking and to steel herself from the power of his commanding confidence, she folded her arms across her chest.
“There’s nothing to clear up Max,” she told him. “Thanks for last night, I appreciate it and you’re a good friend and I’m-”
“Scared,” he finished for her.
She paused at his words.
That was enough verification for him, not that he needed anymore. He had understood what really mattered the second he had made his presence known and she had whispered his name. He had taken her by surprise, she didn’t have time to put on an act, her feelings for him had glowed only be to quicker hidden under behind a wall he was determined to destroy.
“I‘m not scared,” she said defensively.
A small smile escaped his lips. He could see how now so clearly, how could he have not done so before?
“You’re scared,“ he affirmed. “I can see it in your eyes and because…”, he stopped a few centimetres away from her. “…you won’t let me get too close to you.”
He captured her in his gaze and never let go.
“Why would I be scared?” she asked in a low voice.
Max took a step forward leaving them a few millimetres apart. He could hear her quick whispered breaths and if he lowered his head just a little and tilted her chin, their lips would meet.
The very thought sent blissful shivers down his spine. This was the girl he loved! He wasn’t going to let her go without a fight.
With unfathomable confidence, he lowered his head. He was tempted to direct his lips to hers but restrained himself and led them to her ear.
He could smell her, if he closed his eyes he could taste her, he wanted her.
“Because you know what I’ve come for,” he whispered.
Liz found that she couldn’t breathe, she couldn‘t move even if she wanted to. His warm breath tickled her ear, she couldn’t stop her eyes from closing to savour the effect it had on her.
“And what’s that?” she breathed.
Somewhere in the back of her mind, a panicked voice screamed that he was too close, that she was getting dangerously close to breaking.
That voice was momentarily smothered in silence the instant, she felt Max’s lips on her cheek. It was short and light but it’s effects were far-reaching.
“You. I’ve come for you Liz, like I promised you I would,” he told her earnestly.
When he lifted his head back up to look into her eyes, the intensity of the Max-induced spell was somewhat lessened.
The voice of rationale though fading was back.
Despite the painful cry of loss from her heart, Liz knew what she had to do.
“Well you can’t have me,” she told him simply.
A day ago, Max would have been discouraged by her words, but that night, discouragement was not in his vocabulary. He loved her and she loved him, he knew it. There was only one stumbling block to get rid of.
“Did you sleep with Kyle?”, he asked.
“I told you, yes.” Her reply was quick and harsh. It was a defensive reply and once again, Max wondered why he hadn’t seen the signs before.
“Do you love me?” he asked.
“What?” she asked confused by the change in topic.
She felt unstable and unsure of the direction the conversation was going. Max was different, he looked at her as if he knew everything, he was calmer, controlled and possessed with the same confidence she had felt when he had carried her over his shoulder into Maria’s car. That confidence unnerved her.
“Simple question, do you love me.”
Oh God. I love you more than anything in this world!
Her eyes blurred.
Just do it, she told herself, get it over and done with.
“No.”
Her heart contracted in pain, but she stood still with an unrelenting gaze.
To her surprise, Max didn’t even flinch. No pain was etched in his features.
Liz couldn’t suppress her expression of hurt and confusion.
Why does he look unaffected? She puzzled. He’s just calm. Do I really mean nothing to him?
“Now that’s a blatant lie,” he responded.
A look of surprise swept her features before she took a step back.
Max felt his heart soar. They would deal with this tonight. No more secrets.
“What do you want Max?” she asked cautiously.
“The truth,” he replied simply without closing the gap she had created between them.
“You already know it,” she argued. “I slept with Kyle. I don’t want to be with you.”
He knew the latter words were a lie but the ferocity with which she said them left a mark.
But he wasn’t giving up. He was going to push her till breaking point because there was no way he was going to live his life the way he had the past week and he didn’t want her to either.
“I took some time out in the desert today,” he told her, “to think things through. The flashes Liz, when I healed your hangover, I had them, you know that. That’s why you ran away.”
“They don’t matter,” she shook her head sadly.
“They do to me!” he shouted startling her. Heaving a heavy sigh, he gave her an apologetic look and continued in a softer tone.
“They matter when I see everything you saw when I serenaded you from your balcony…after I saw with Kyle. You loved me then and you love me now.,” he told her.
“And then there are theses images of me, older and in leather,” he emphasised in disbelief, “talking with you. The words were too fast,” he said replaying the images in his mind, “but I felt your heartbreak then.”
“What do you want me to say?” she shrugged tiredly.
She was tired of lying, of arguing, of telling the person she loved the most hurtful things she could think of.
“Nothing yet,“ he told her gently. “Your feelings don’t match up with your actions Liz. I know you and the only reason you would betray me, betray us is to help us. So, you went to Kyle to push me away to who? Tess?”
Liz threw her hands in the air in admittance.
“She’s who you’re supposed to be with Max,” she argued.
“According to Nasedo and the Destiny book?”.
“No, according to you!,” she retorted. The words flew out of her mouth before she could stop them. She prayed irrationally that he hadn’t heard her but the look on his face told her he had.
“What’s that supposed to mean?,” he asked.
Liz closed her eyes as she mentally berated herself.
Of all the things to tell him. Why?! Why?!
She shook her head in reply before opening her eyes. “Nothing,” she added weakly.
“No, it means something. This has to do with the other images of a different me doesn’t it?” he interrogated.
Liz felt herself take another step back from him.
Dammit! why can’t I just stand still. Now he knows I’m lying!
“No,” she replied.
Stick to one word answers, that’ll help be now, she thought sarcastically.
“I know you’re hiding something Liz…” he told her. His eyes darkened with an intensity that made her feel like she would readily sink to floor if he touched her.
So keep your distance, she told herself.
She took another step back as he advanced.
“…and you nearly killed yourself because of it. What you did with Kyle, how we’ve been this past week doesn’t make sense to me.”
Keep away, keep away, she pleaded silently as she took several more steps back.
“There’s a reason for all of this,” he continued making up for the space she was trying to leave between them, “and I need you to tell me why so that I can change your mind.”
She shook her head. “I can’t.”
He’s too close, he’s too close, she panicked.
Her self-control was waning, her whole life was once again being thrown into disarray by Max Evans and the only way to stop it was by keeping her distance from him.
“What if I touched you huh?” he asked reaching for her head.
She quickly took another step back and avoided his grasp.
She shook her head fearfully. “ Don’t ”, she replied.
But he wasn’t going to stop, she realised as he continued to advance. He was like a primitive, alien form of Max. It was Max unleashed and it left her trembling in a state of surprising deep arousal.
Oh gosh, what’s happening? she thought flustered.
“Do you think I’d get a flash and find out then?,” he continued his attack.
Liz took another step back and found herself against the wall. Her lowered eyelids flew up in panic. Her eyes met his. She found that she couldn’t move. She doubted that he was using his powers on her but she had no explanation as to why, she couldn’t order her body to move to sidestep him and escape. The only thing she could do was press herself against the wall as he closed the gap between them, essentially pinning her in.
“What if I kissed you?” he asked in a low voice that made her skin tingle.
She averted her eyes to his chest, she could smell his scent, she suddenly had a craving to run her hands over his toned chest.
“Ohhhh,” she exhaled, “I can‘t do this,” she whispered to herself.
“You and I both know that I’d see everything,” he continued as if oblivious to the effect he was having on her. “You’ve been hiding behind a wall and it’s cracking.”
She wasn’t looking at him , he knew that, but he also knew that she knew that he was staring at her wanting nothing than to caress her soft skin. The air heavily dense with desire enveloped them, intoxicated the, swaying their bodies closer and closer together until sparks flew from one to the other.
“You can’t hold out much longer,” he told her huskily, “and I will keep coming until you do,” he vowed.
Liz felt his eyes on her, coaxing her to look up at him.
And I want to so much!!, she screamed, but…but. She suddenly couldn’t find a reason not to.
But what? came the loud thought. I refuse to believe that our love ends the world but since it’s supposed to, then…
Their gazes met, tears flooded her eyes. “I’m tired of handling this on my own,” she told him, “at least you’ll understand why things have to be this way.“
She paused and took a deep shaky breath. “In the future, the world ends because we’re together.”
The shock and incredulity he expressed reminded her of when she had first heard the news.
The news must have him off balance because he took a baffled step back to give himself room to think.
“What?” he asked in disbelief.
Liz had reached her point of tolerance. She clenched her jaw and ran her fingers through her hair in frustration.
I have had a week of hell away from him, she argued with herself tersely. Just for this one time, screw the world because I want to kiss the man I love!.
“You know what?,” she took a step forward, wrapped her arm around Max’s neck, stood on tip-toes, “I’ll just show you,” and lowered his head towards her, capturing his lips in a hard kiss.
Shocked by the intimate contact that had haunted their dreams, they broke apart searching for each other before both their lips met again, at first softly reminding each other of their hopes, dreams and love and then deeper and more passionately letting each other in completely. It was only then that their connection, in it’s entirety, fiercely roared back from it’s dormant state.
Liz couldn’t help but moan in pleasure as their bodies merged, her other arm found its way to Max neck, while his found their way to her waist. They re-explored her back, her sides, everywhere they touched created an electrifying charge that hummed through their lips. Max couldn’t stop, didn’t want to stop. He had lost all control and was loving every second of it.
Liz didn’t even know that they had move until she felt herself once again pressed up against the wall. But this time, she was free to order her body parts to move wherever she desired and she took full advantage of the opportunity. Max tasted, nipped and sucked at her neck before starving for the taste of her sweet lips, he found his way back.
It was then that the flashes came, it was in a passionate uninhibited kiss that Max knew everything.
Her breath came in short inaudible rasps.
I’m alone with Max. He’s gonna ask me and…oh God, she thought breathlessly.
It’ll be okay, she coached herself, you can get through this, just say something and go from there.
She slowly averted her gaze back to him and immediately wished she hadn’t. His expression was of clarity, as if he could finally see what she was hiding.
She knew that he had seen the flashes of Future Max, of her and Kyle together but she didn’t know how much he knew. She had deceived herself into thinking that she could explain them away without telling him the truth, but looking into his eyes, at his determined, scrutinising expression, she knew that her plan would fail.
“Can I have my feet back please?”. The stability of her tone surprised her.
Her stared at her in silence
Liz tried to pretend that he wasn’t breaking through her defences.
With a wave of his hand, she was free.
“Thank you,” she said moving her feet, thankful that she was back in control of herself.
She fixed him with a blank stare. “Now what do you want?” she demanded.
He began advancing towards her, her first instinct was to take a step back further away from him, his proximity would make her weak but if she moved, it would be admitting that to him and she couldn’t do that.
Lives are at risk. His too, you have to do this.
So she stood still, her heart pounding wildly against her as Max came closer towards her, his eyes slowly, torturously sweeping up the length of her body.
“You ran out on me today,” he drawled casually, “we didn’t get to finish clearing everything up.”
To stop herself from shaking and to steel herself from the power of his commanding confidence, she folded her arms across her chest.
“There’s nothing to clear up Max,” she told him. “Thanks for last night, I appreciate it and you’re a good friend and I’m-”
“Scared,” he finished for her.
She paused at his words.
That was enough verification for him, not that he needed anymore. He had understood what really mattered the second he had made his presence known and she had whispered his name. He had taken her by surprise, she didn’t have time to put on an act, her feelings for him had glowed only be to quicker hidden under behind a wall he was determined to destroy.
“I‘m not scared,” she said defensively.
A small smile escaped his lips. He could see how now so clearly, how could he have not done so before?
“You’re scared,“ he affirmed. “I can see it in your eyes and because…”, he stopped a few centimetres away from her. “…you won’t let me get too close to you.”
He captured her in his gaze and never let go.
“Why would I be scared?” she asked in a low voice.
Max took a step forward leaving them a few millimetres apart. He could hear her quick whispered breaths and if he lowered his head just a little and tilted her chin, their lips would meet.
The very thought sent blissful shivers down his spine. This was the girl he loved! He wasn’t going to let her go without a fight.
With unfathomable confidence, he lowered his head. He was tempted to direct his lips to hers but restrained himself and led them to her ear.
He could smell her, if he closed his eyes he could taste her, he wanted her.
“Because you know what I’ve come for,” he whispered.
Liz found that she couldn’t breathe, she couldn‘t move even if she wanted to. His warm breath tickled her ear, she couldn’t stop her eyes from closing to savour the effect it had on her.
“And what’s that?” she breathed.
Somewhere in the back of her mind, a panicked voice screamed that he was too close, that she was getting dangerously close to breaking.
That voice was momentarily smothered in silence the instant, she felt Max’s lips on her cheek. It was short and light but it’s effects were far-reaching.
“You. I’ve come for you Liz, like I promised you I would,” he told her earnestly.
When he lifted his head back up to look into her eyes, the intensity of the Max-induced spell was somewhat lessened.
The voice of rationale though fading was back.
Despite the painful cry of loss from her heart, Liz knew what she had to do.
“Well you can’t have me,” she told him simply.
A day ago, Max would have been discouraged by her words, but that night, discouragement was not in his vocabulary. He loved her and she loved him, he knew it. There was only one stumbling block to get rid of.
“Did you sleep with Kyle?”, he asked.
“I told you, yes.” Her reply was quick and harsh. It was a defensive reply and once again, Max wondered why he hadn’t seen the signs before.
“Do you love me?” he asked.
“What?” she asked confused by the change in topic.
She felt unstable and unsure of the direction the conversation was going. Max was different, he looked at her as if he knew everything, he was calmer, controlled and possessed with the same confidence she had felt when he had carried her over his shoulder into Maria’s car. That confidence unnerved her.
“Simple question, do you love me.”
Oh God. I love you more than anything in this world!
Her eyes blurred.
Just do it, she told herself, get it over and done with.
“No.”
Her heart contracted in pain, but she stood still with an unrelenting gaze.
To her surprise, Max didn’t even flinch. No pain was etched in his features.
Liz couldn’t suppress her expression of hurt and confusion.
Why does he look unaffected? She puzzled. He’s just calm. Do I really mean nothing to him?
“Now that’s a blatant lie,” he responded.
A look of surprise swept her features before she took a step back.
Max felt his heart soar. They would deal with this tonight. No more secrets.
“What do you want Max?” she asked cautiously.
“The truth,” he replied simply without closing the gap she had created between them.
“You already know it,” she argued. “I slept with Kyle. I don’t want to be with you.”
He knew the latter words were a lie but the ferocity with which she said them left a mark.
But he wasn’t giving up. He was going to push her till breaking point because there was no way he was going to live his life the way he had the past week and he didn’t want her to either.
“I took some time out in the desert today,” he told her, “to think things through. The flashes Liz, when I healed your hangover, I had them, you know that. That’s why you ran away.”
“They don’t matter,” she shook her head sadly.
“They do to me!” he shouted startling her. Heaving a heavy sigh, he gave her an apologetic look and continued in a softer tone.
“They matter when I see everything you saw when I serenaded you from your balcony…after I saw with Kyle. You loved me then and you love me now.,” he told her.
“And then there are theses images of me, older and in leather,” he emphasised in disbelief, “talking with you. The words were too fast,” he said replaying the images in his mind, “but I felt your heartbreak then.”
“What do you want me to say?” she shrugged tiredly.
She was tired of lying, of arguing, of telling the person she loved the most hurtful things she could think of.
“Nothing yet,“ he told her gently. “Your feelings don’t match up with your actions Liz. I know you and the only reason you would betray me, betray us is to help us. So, you went to Kyle to push me away to who? Tess?”
Liz threw her hands in the air in admittance.
“She’s who you’re supposed to be with Max,” she argued.
“According to Nasedo and the Destiny book?”.
“No, according to you!,” she retorted. The words flew out of her mouth before she could stop them. She prayed irrationally that he hadn’t heard her but the look on his face told her he had.
“What’s that supposed to mean?,” he asked.
Liz closed her eyes as she mentally berated herself.
Of all the things to tell him. Why?! Why?!
She shook her head in reply before opening her eyes. “Nothing,” she added weakly.
“No, it means something. This has to do with the other images of a different me doesn’t it?” he interrogated.
Liz felt herself take another step back from him.
Dammit! why can’t I just stand still. Now he knows I’m lying!
“No,” she replied.
Stick to one word answers, that’ll help be now, she thought sarcastically.
“I know you’re hiding something Liz…” he told her. His eyes darkened with an intensity that made her feel like she would readily sink to floor if he touched her.
So keep your distance, she told herself.
She took another step back as he advanced.
“…and you nearly killed yourself because of it. What you did with Kyle, how we’ve been this past week doesn’t make sense to me.”
Keep away, keep away, she pleaded silently as she took several more steps back.
“There’s a reason for all of this,” he continued making up for the space she was trying to leave between them, “and I need you to tell me why so that I can change your mind.”
She shook her head. “I can’t.”
He’s too close, he’s too close, she panicked.
Her self-control was waning, her whole life was once again being thrown into disarray by Max Evans and the only way to stop it was by keeping her distance from him.
“What if I touched you huh?” he asked reaching for her head.
She quickly took another step back and avoided his grasp.
She shook her head fearfully. “ Don’t ”, she replied.
But he wasn’t going to stop, she realised as he continued to advance. He was like a primitive, alien form of Max. It was Max unleashed and it left her trembling in a state of surprising deep arousal.
Oh gosh, what’s happening? she thought flustered.
“Do you think I’d get a flash and find out then?,” he continued his attack.
Liz took another step back and found herself against the wall. Her lowered eyelids flew up in panic. Her eyes met his. She found that she couldn’t move. She doubted that he was using his powers on her but she had no explanation as to why, she couldn’t order her body to move to sidestep him and escape. The only thing she could do was press herself against the wall as he closed the gap between them, essentially pinning her in.
“What if I kissed you?” he asked in a low voice that made her skin tingle.
She averted her eyes to his chest, she could smell his scent, she suddenly had a craving to run her hands over his toned chest.
“Ohhhh,” she exhaled, “I can‘t do this,” she whispered to herself.
“You and I both know that I’d see everything,” he continued as if oblivious to the effect he was having on her. “You’ve been hiding behind a wall and it’s cracking.”
She wasn’t looking at him , he knew that, but he also knew that she knew that he was staring at her wanting nothing than to caress her soft skin. The air heavily dense with desire enveloped them, intoxicated the, swaying their bodies closer and closer together until sparks flew from one to the other.
“You can’t hold out much longer,” he told her huskily, “and I will keep coming until you do,” he vowed.
Liz felt his eyes on her, coaxing her to look up at him.
And I want to so much!!, she screamed, but…but. She suddenly couldn’t find a reason not to.
But what? came the loud thought. I refuse to believe that our love ends the world but since it’s supposed to, then…
Their gazes met, tears flooded her eyes. “I’m tired of handling this on my own,” she told him, “at least you’ll understand why things have to be this way.“
She paused and took a deep shaky breath. “In the future, the world ends because we’re together.”
The shock and incredulity he expressed reminded her of when she had first heard the news.
The news must have him off balance because he took a baffled step back to give himself room to think.
“What?” he asked in disbelief.
Liz had reached her point of tolerance. She clenched her jaw and ran her fingers through her hair in frustration.
I have had a week of hell away from him, she argued with herself tersely. Just for this one time, screw the world because I want to kiss the man I love!.
“You know what?,” she took a step forward, wrapped her arm around Max’s neck, stood on tip-toes, “I’ll just show you,” and lowered his head towards her, capturing his lips in a hard kiss.
Shocked by the intimate contact that had haunted their dreams, they broke apart searching for each other before both their lips met again, at first softly reminding each other of their hopes, dreams and love and then deeper and more passionately letting each other in completely. It was only then that their connection, in it’s entirety, fiercely roared back from it’s dormant state.
Liz couldn’t help but moan in pleasure as their bodies merged, her other arm found its way to Max neck, while his found their way to her waist. They re-explored her back, her sides, everywhere they touched created an electrifying charge that hummed through their lips. Max couldn’t stop, didn’t want to stop. He had lost all control and was loving every second of it.
Liz didn’t even know that they had move until she felt herself once again pressed up against the wall. But this time, she was free to order her body parts to move wherever she desired and she took full advantage of the opportunity. Max tasted, nipped and sucked at her neck before starving for the taste of her sweet lips, he found his way back.
It was then that the flashes came, it was in a passionate uninhibited kiss that Max knew everything.