Roswell Revisited (AU/CC Mature) Thread #3

madroswellfan · Post by **madroswellfan** » Sat Feb 11, 2006 3:08 pm

~~~~~MAX~~~~~
I kiss her and I'm just amazed that she's back in my arms...
I move away slightly and whisper. "I love you"
And then I look into her eyes. And shes not in that fuzzy happy place. You can see it in her eyes.
I back away.
"Liz?"

Dreamer_Dreaming · Post by **Dreamer_Dreaming** » Sat Feb 11, 2006 3:11 pm

*Liz*

"Liz?" he said backing away from me after kissing me. "I'm not so sure I'll make you happy. Max what happened to me is unforgetiable. I'm really screw up." I said.

I look down, "I'm just having douts that all"

madroswellfan · Post by **madroswellfan** » Sat Feb 11, 2006 3:15 pm

~~~~~MAX~~~~~
"I'm not so sure I'll make you happy. Max what happened to me is unforgetiable. I'm really screw up. I'm just having douts that all"

I look at her my heart breaking again. "Liz I know you will."

She doesn't look convinced.
I look away. "Fine Liz...Fine...you stopped me leaving. Fine. And I'll stay. Fine. I'll stay here and rot. And when or if you ever decide you want to give us that chance give me a call. Its not as if I have anything else better to do than wait for you"

I go and grab my bags and walk back down the street towards my apartment, more unhappy than I was before.

Because now Im going to be away from her AND have to know she's so close.

Dreamer_Dreaming · Post by **Dreamer_Dreaming** » Sat Feb 11, 2006 3:19 pm

*Liz*

I heard Max's voice ring in my head as he walks away. Why doesn't he ever let me finish. I follow him, "Max let me finish. Max I'm sick...." I said to him, I said it out enough.

"Think about it. I tried killing myself in front of you. I went wanko. And I losts my memory. I'm not saying I don't love you. I do. I love so much. I'm saying do honest want be with a person like that?" I said grabing his arm so he can stop walking.

madroswellfan · Post by **madroswellfan** » Sat Feb 11, 2006 3:21 pm

~~~~~MAX~~~~~
"Max let me finish. Max I'm sick....Think about it. I tried killing myself in front of you. I went wanko. And I don't remember. I'm not saying I don't love you. I do. I love so much. I'm saying do honest want be with a person like that?"

I look at her. "Do you really think that matters to me Liz? I went through your drugs thing...I even handled your non human status! Don't you understand that nothing can turn me away from you!" I look at her.

"Just give me a call sometime" I say as I start walking again.

Dreamer_Dreaming · Post by **Dreamer_Dreaming** » Sat Feb 11, 2006 3:24 pm

*Liz*

"STOP" I said.

"Max, give me a chance to explain." I said. I look at him. "It should matter to you. Max I screw up your life. I screw up mine and I even screw up Michael's." I said to him as I walk in front of him.

"Tell me something....would see me any differently if I wasn't such a freak?" I said. "I have to know because that want making have all these douts. That making go crazy...so tell me do see me any differ?"

madroswellfan · Post by **madroswellfan** » Sat Feb 11, 2006 3:27 pm

~~~~MAX~~~~
I look at her furiously. Now Im mad...now Im hopping mad!
"LIZ! Did you just listen to a word I said! I wouldn't give a damn if you were some huge axe murderer that was really a leapord in disguise and wants to take over the world! I didn't care about the drugs! I didn't care about...how your not from around here! Why don't you get it! Why don't you understand!!! I LOVE YOU! What else can I do to make you understand!!!"

Dreamer_Dreaming · Post by **Dreamer_Dreaming** » Sat Feb 11, 2006 3:33 pm

*Liz*

"LIZ! Did you just listen to a word I said! I wouldn't give a damn if you were some huge axe murderer that was really a leapord in disguise and wants to take over the world! I didn't care about the drugs! I didn't care about...how your not from around here! Why don't you get it! Why don't you understand!!! I LOVE YOU! What else can I do to make you understand!!!" he yells at me.

I look around and then back at him. I didn't know what to say. I just stare at him. "Max...." I said looking down. " Fine..." I said showing no emotions. I guess I was right. I truely hurted everyone I care about.

madroswellfan · Post by **madroswellfan** » Sat Feb 11, 2006 3:36 pm

~~~~~MAX~~~~~
"Max.... Fine..."
I look at her. I shake my head. "Whats the point" I mutter. I walk away.
Im stuck in Roswell with absolutely nothing. My "friends" are her friends. So now...Im alone.

I don't even have a good job.

Im stuck.

Why couldn't she just let me go? Don't I deserve a life?

Dreamer_Dreaming · Post by **Dreamer_Dreaming** » Sat Feb 11, 2006 9:43 pm

*Liz*

I watch Max walk away from me and into his apartment building. I look down sad. 'What is the point?' I said to myself. I walk down the streets where the Crashdown I left earlier. I saw Alex, Michael and Maria having a good time. Even the waitress Isabel was having a good time. I just can't be part of that. I put hands in my pockets and start to walk home.

What is the point? I am no longer happy. I am no longer this person everyone sees anymore. I'm a ghost that everyone walks through me. They can't feel me. They can't see me. I don't feel I even exist anymore.

I finally made it to my house. There places I really want to go and forget this pain I'm feeling but I know it won't help and beside I don't think I want to go back to that life.

I walked to my bedroom and go to my bed and lay down. I look at the ceiling. Every word Max said to me rings in my head. Every word Michael said to me rings in my head also. I'm torn into two pieces. I torn to pick between the two people I loved most in this world. It's like I have to choose, it is the man that I risk everything for, the man that loves me. Or to my brother that loves me since we walk on this surface of this planet, my best-friend.

I cried to myself in pain as the tears ran down my face. Why is this so difficult? Why do I have to choose anyways? I raise my hand in the air to shut my door. I got up from my bed and stare myself in the mirror of my dresser.

I was a waste of space and breath. I don't deserve anyone here that loves me. I look at my tears. I look down at myself, feeling every, hatred, rage, and my suicidal in me. I want me to suffer; I want every bad thing to happen to me. I don't deserve this life. I don't deserve it. I don't.

I raise my hand and slowly punch the mirror. I am so ugly that mirror doesn't deserve my reflects to see. I looked down at my right hand. It was bleeding. My blood was all over broken pieces of glass. It was dripping down to myself and onto the hard wooden floor.

I pick up,with my blood hand, which hurt like hell, a broken piece from the mirror. I stare at it. Should I just do everyone a favorite and just end my sorry ass life?

I made Max suffer.
I made Michael suffer.
I made everyone that ever care about me suffer,my adopted parents. I made them suffer.

I keep staring at it. 'Liz what are you waiting for, just do it?' I said to myself in a suicidal way.