L-J-L 76
All I will say about command, Sargent, Sean and other Aliens like them need to go to hell and rot on a high voltage electrical wire by their dicks.
You don't sugarcoat, do you?
Is Liz really with Max or is it a trick?
Hopefully the next part will answer this...
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Helen (roswelllostcause)
I am not sure that I truly believe that Max and Liz are together again.
Apparently, you're not alone in this doubt. With all right. She has been tricked before. Hopefully the next chapter will shed some light on that question.
What the hell was that drug that Command gave Liz? Are they still trying to play with her mind?
Thank you, Helen

P.S. Did you find any aliens on your hunt?
Eve (begonia9508) - Let's keep our fingers crossed that the worst part is over for our dreamer couple. Although, you know my writing by now, Eve, so maybe it's just not that "simple"
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Natalie36
not sure that is true, they just drugged her

Hopefully you'll be more certain after the next part. Thank you for the feedback!
From SIXTY-SIX:
Max must've felt me fading away, my body growing limp in his arms. He quietly lifted me, giving me a fright at first, having to deal with a small freak-out on my behalf about me not leaving him, before he had calmed me down enough to seat me back on his lap.
Only now my side was to his front, my legs draped off his thighs and his arms around my upper body as he pulled his legs up - capturing me in a protective fortress made of Max.
"Sleep," he whispered when he felt me resisting.
Even if I hadn't been injected with something, it would have been difficult for me to continue resisting the intruding sleep.
"No," I answered faintly, barely managing to voice that one word.
So tired. I was so tired.
But also very used to not letting my guard down. And deathly afraid that Max would disappear while I was asleep.
"I'm not letting you go," he said fiercely, his grip automatically tightening. "I'm not letting you go."
And even though I didn't want to waste any seconds on sleeping that could be spent on being awake with Max, my body couldn't resist that natural (and pharmaceutically induced) pull any longer and I submitted to unconsciousness.
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SIXTY-SEVEN
I didn't sleep for long, my rest fitful even in the soft and warm human-alien bed I was in.
The last two weeks had completely fried my nerves and even with the constant connection feeding love even into my dreams, I couldn't let myself relax.
So it was no wonder that I awoke with a startled scream, with the phantom feeling of Sean kicking me in the back - projected from my memory - turned into a nightmare.
"Liz." Max's voice was hushed, regretful, as he tenderly brushed the tears from my nightmare away with the pads of his fingers.
Slowly I became aware of my new reality. When I was no longer woken up by my tormentors, but instead being woken up cradled in Max's embrace. Our connection was soothing my mind, preparing me for his presence even before I fully awoke. Helping me to not react in panic at the fact that someone was holding me.
The room was still dark and with my increasing level of awareness, I started to take in my new surroundings.
Is this where Max had been this whole time? In this darkness?
Yes, he whispered in my mind.
I blinked up to his face, documenting the changes to his features. There were dark circles under his eyes, his face was thin, his cheekbones were protruding and he had a beard. Almost. The facial hair cast shadows on his face that made him look not only older, but also darker, more haunted, and accentuated his weight loss.
I brought my hand up and brushed it slowly through his hair. I swallowed back the urge to cry anew.
"What have they done to you?" I asked sadly.
I could only assume that they had treated him worse than me, since he was part of their society. They didn't have to consider cover stories when it concerned Max. At least not to the same degree as they would with me.
"It's nothing," he murmured, covering my searching hand with his and bringing it to his mouth to adore it with a soft kiss.
Even the anger that usually burnt so hotly through him that it should be exploding through our connection with intensity, was subdued. He was not himself. Not by a long-shot.
His anger about how I had been treated was tinged not only with fatigue, but also guilt and self-hate.
He was blaming himself.
I crushed my body closer against his, pressing my nose into the curve of his neck and screwed my eyes tightly closed. I could feel his life force pulsate against the tip of my cold nose and hear his breathing against my ear. His smell was all around me, giving me the illusion of safety and a sense of home. Even when our situation was far from it.
My arms were around his waist and I pushed my hands up underneath his shirt, up along the taut and tense muscles of his back, my heartbeat throbbing through my chest at the implied strength of his body as well as in response to the small tremors that betrayed his ever-present guilt.
My short escape to sleep hadn't been enough to alleviate my chronic fatigue, but had helped to clear my head of the blurriness that whatever I had been injected with had created. My thoughts were a lot clearer, even though they were slower than they would have been if I hadn't been running on so little sleep.
"I love you," I whispered against his neck, feeling the tightness in his throat and how his arms contracted around me.
His voice was strained, as if he had trouble getting the words out. "They haven't given you any food."
My shaky breath brushed against his skin. "Enough for me to stay alive."
Because starving me was not the worst of it. And he was reading it all in my mind.
Seeing it, like some horror motion picture in his head. But my thoughts jumped so quickly back and forth that it became an incomplete account of torment.
He stopped breathing and I tried to stop thinking. Tried to will the images of my mom's abuse and of my own abuse away. I even attempted the blocking thing that I had succeeded with on a blanket in a dark desert not too long ago.
But I was pathetically unsuccessful.
I felt his fingernails dig into my back as his fingers slowly curled into my sweater. I felt the tremors in his body intensify and grow more uncontrolled. The fire I had looked for earlier was quickly igniting in him now as he saw what Sean had done to me. Witnessed what Sean almost had been successful in doing.
He inhaled sharply before a loud dull sound made me jump in his tight hold.
Ghostly pain spread through my hand as he tensely said, "Sorry. Sorry." He had slammed his fist into the floor.
He was taking deep breaths, controlled breaths. But even when his anger was overriding the connection, making me feel like I was almost on fire, he didn't scare me. It would have scared me before, but I knew that he would never hurt me. Consciously or unconsciously. I knew that his love for me was the reason for his anger.
So I just held on, trying to push my love through the connection, make it blend with the anger and guilt in an attempt to cool the overwhelming fury.
"Kiss me," he choked, barely getting the words out in the midst of his harsh breathing. In the midst of his efforts to control himself.
I lifted my face from his neck and looked at him in confusion. Why, when I could tell that he mostly wanted to put his fist through a wall, did he want me to kiss him?
I barely had time to open my mouth to ascertain that he had just said what I had thought he said before he basically attacked me.
His lips were warm and hot against mine. Desperate and unrestrained. His breaths harsh in the short fractions of seconds when he would change angle in how he would taste me. His hands were underneath my shirt, running up my back, fingers pressing into my shoulder blades, making the front of my shirt strain against my breasts while he used his hands to press my upper body tighter against his.
My tears were melting into our kisses and I was using my own hands on his back to reciprocate his need for proximity.
Our need for proximity.
Until I realized that I wasn't the one crying. I was too caught up in his emotions, in him, to react to anything within myself.
It was Max's tears, Max's desperation that was seeping through our beautiful bond.
"Max," I got out while locked in his frustratedly passionate adoration of my mouth.
"Fuck," he mumbled as he let my lips go, only to kiss down my jawline, down my neck, his hands moving inside my sweater, up over my shoulders and tightening over my protruding collarbones.
"Max, stop," I whispered, my lips sore from his despair.
When he didn't, his first audible sob ripping painfully through my heart, I put my hands between our bodies and pushed at his chest.
Gently. Carefully. Trying to get through to him.
The distance separated his mouth from my neck and I gasped as his teary eyes met mine.
"Max..." I repeated, my love and concern for him breaking through that simple voicing of his name.
He let out a shaky breath, a tear rolling down his cheek, before he lifted me off his lap and pushed himself to his feet. I felt the coldness of the floor seep into my seated body as I worriedly watched him quickly approach the door and slam his fists into it.
"
You bastards!!"
His bellow ripped through me and I flinched in the bareness of the room. I watched the thin lines of his back, the tension of his neck and the anger in his assault upon the innocent door, and felt like I was watching a wounded animal. A betrayed, wounded animal.
"
You fucking sons of a-" His voice cut off abruptly as he swirled around and walked up to one corner of the room, looking straight into the top of the corner as he yelled, "She had
nothing to do with this!! She's
human, you fucking cowards!"
Adrenaline was shooting through my veins and I knew that I probably should be frightened by his violent behavior, but the camera situated in the top of that corner - a red blinking light indicating that it was recording his 'message' - was scaring me more than Max's loss of control ever could.
He took a deep breath, fisted his hands along his side, momentarily dropping his head in what seemed to be an attempt at trying to collect himself, before he slowly raised his face to the camera.
I immediately recognized the more familiar controlled version of Max. The public Max. The one that was barely fazed by anything.
His demand was leveled. Even. Almost cold. "You will bring us some food. Right now."
My eyes flickered to the door on reflex, almost anticipating the door would open immediately. His demand had been authoritative enough for me to believe it.
But of course, the door didn't open.
Instead, Max added for whoever was watching, "I don't know what you're planning to do now, with us together, but I can promise you this - we won't make it easy on you. We might have been willing to cooperate before, but not anymore. Not anymore."
I swallowed, hugging my knees to my chest.
He must have felt my chill through the connection, because he looked over his shoulder at me, our breath catching as our eyes met.
He held my eyes for a long moment, making my eyes teary with the look, even though the darkness made it difficult for me to see him. His feelings across the connection were filling in the blanks.
Turning his head back to the camera, his next announcement was not only a threat. It was a promise. "And Sean? You're dead. You hear me? You won't ever lay a hand on her again."
His threat made my tears run over, a sob ripping through my chest, and he was a blurry figure through the wetness in my eyes as he turned and quickly closed the distance between us.
I didn't really know how to handle the feelings. The feelings brought about by him defending me. By being prepared to break his personal ethics of never doing harm and absolutely never killing anyone, to keep me safe. To avenge me. Knowing that I must look horribly damaged for him to react this way, as though they had already killed me.
He sank down on his knees in front of me and his eyes burnt through me. The anger was being pushed back, he was reclaiming the control over his feelings, and all I could think about was:
What if they already did? What if they had already robbed me of my ability to ever feel alive again?
"They're idiots," he mumbled, his hands brushing through my hair before wiping at my tears. "They're stupider than I thought." He kissed me gently on my cheek, just below my right eye, before adding, "Why would they bring us together? When there's the possibility that we might present more of a danger to them together?"
"Why?" I whispered with a snivel, watching his face closely as his eyes skittered across mine, as if he was tracing the details of my face, the faint reminders of my physical injuries.
My thoughts echoed his musings,
Why would they bring us together?
His flickering gaze stilled, locking with mine, and after a prolonged pause he said slowly, "It's another experiment. Another test."
I was holding my breath. He looked down at his finger as it slowly brushed over my bottom lip.
There was a frown between his eyebrows as he tried to solve the puzzle. Tried to get into the minds of our captors. "They figured out that the bond can't be broken so they want to see what we can do together. If our bond can be an asset to them." He looked up at me, looking worried and angry all at once. "That must be it. That's the only thing I can think of."
It didn't frighten me. Not even the thought of more time in captivity. Of being part of a test.
It didn't frighten me because I wasn't alone anymore.
He shook his head slowly, trailing the pad of his thumb along my right cheekbone, warmth creeping into his haunted eyes as he mumbled, "You're so reckless. And brave. Stupid, really."
I frowned.
Stupid?
But before I could comment, he clarified, "Thank you for saving my life."
Me jumping in front of him. Taking the hit from Sean. Of course Max hadn't been happy about that. He must have been furious with me at some point, risking my life to save his.
What had he said? That night in the desert? That life wasn't some kind of romance novel. That there was no such thing as sacrificing yourself for someone else.
And to his 'dismay', I had gone straight ahead and proved him wrong.
"I still owe you," I said.
He had healed me twice. Saved my life twice. And that was ignoring the numerous acts of keeping me away from Sean.
Fear rippled across his features and shook our connection. "I hope you never will be faced with the opportunity to repay me in full."
I slowly nodded, biting my lower lip to control my tears, "Me neither."
He leaned in and used his lips to nibble my restrained lip free from my teeth, gently caressing my mouth with his before letting the words whisper across my lips in a caress, "But it could never be about some weird life-debt between us."
No. Of course not. All that mattered was that we were both alive. That, for whatever reason, they had put us back together.
"I know," I agreed solemnly. It didn't matter who saved who and how many times. What mattered was that, in the end, we both survived.
He lifted his hands, where they had been resting on the top of his thighs, to flutter them across my face. His eyes traced the movements while my own fluttered close at the caress. At the love in his touch, the tenderness that was second nature to him.
"I want to heal you," he whispered sadly when his hands reached my shoulders, moving down my shivering arms.
You have to save your energy, my mind told him. He was exhausted, just like me. He needed to save the energy he had. Who knew what might happen if he took the healing too far (which he had a tendency to do), and he would fall unconscious and I-
My eyes snapped open and I flinched back from his touch. I saw the fearful confusion in the line between his eyebrows and I gasped, "Don't heal me. No."
If he would empty all his energy into me, losing his own grip on consciousness, he was not only in danger of not waking up, but he would be completely at the mercy of our captors. And so would I. Without his powers (however subdued they might be), I would be completely at the mercy of those evil men. Just like before.
"I'm fine," I added hurriedly, capturing his hands in mine, interlacing our fingers, and pulling them away from my body. Signaling that he shouldn't even attempt to try.
But I knew that he wouldn't do anything like that against my will.
"I can't," he said slowly, his fingers tightening against mine. He pulled our entwined hands towards his chest, pressing them up against his heart, making my body pull forward so that he could kiss me.
What did he mean?
As his lips traveled over mine, his voice was clear in my mind,
They've done something to my powers. I have no powers.
My fearful gasp drowned in his mouth and the fear froze my body.
Don't be scared, he begged me soberly, his lips kissing down my jaw.
Don't be scared? Don't be scared?
Tremors started in my shoulders and moved out through my whole body.
We had no protection.
They could still do whatever they wanted to us. A horrible thought flickered through my mind, born from the sadistic nature I had seen in our captors.
What if they would torture Max in front of me?
He let go of my hands and brought his arms around me, pulling me up on his lap and hugging me close. I breathed in his smell and tried to will myself to let go of the fear. Otherwise it would immobilize me.
Our connection is our protection, he told me, nuzzling his nose against the thin sensitive skin behind my ear.
Our connection is still alive.
He was right. I hadn't thought of that.
I frowned, putting my arms around his waist and inching closer.
How?
I don't know, he replied.
But it's our leverage. They might not even be aware of it.
That's why he was speaking to me telepathically. In case they were listening. In case they thought they had managed to silence the connection as well, if it had been connected to Max's abilities.
Apparently it wasn't, since the connection between us was still very much alive and kicking.
Max pulled back and pressed his forehead against mine. Looking up through his eyelashes at me, his mental voice was concerned as he stated questioningly,
They did something to you.
His right arm left my back and ghosted over the tender injection site on my neck. How could he tell?
He used that same hand to brush my hair back and replied,
You were almost unconscious - should have been unconscious - when they brought you here.
Of course. Of course he hadn't just assumed it was because I was tired or frightened.
"You smell different," he whispered.
A small tentative smile moved over my lips - the first one in days - at his clarification. It almost felt odd to smile, to have it play in the corners of my mouth as I narrowed my eyes at him. "I haven't showered in a couple of days."
His matching smile was just as wobbly as mine. "I don't mind that." His eyes brightened with the glimpse of life that they had been lacking. "I love how you smell."
I brought my hands up to have them run over his face and slowly trace the contours of his features. His cheekbones, the straight line of his nose. Letting the ends of his eyelashes tickle my fingertips. I had lost hope that I would ever be able to touch him again.
The playfulness I had only just started to experience around him - before we were taken - was slowly awakening. It was odd in the midst of our current situation, but I welcomed it. It was a piece of normalcy. I slowly dragged my right thumb along the partition between his lips and he pursed his lips around my thumb, kissing it slowly as I asked, "Buuut...?", my eyes fixed on his mouth, my body growing warm while positioned on his lap.
The smile that had hesitantly lingered on his face disappeared and he turned serious. "You smell like chemicals."
I swallowed, my own smile dying as quickly as one would blow out a candle.
He shook his head slowly, his eyes sad and deep. "And your colors are all wrong."
With his thoughts brushing through my mind, I consider what he was thinking, and my own previous observations and reflections, before I slowly reached a (slightly mind-blowing) realization.
"They were afraid of me."
My declaration was subdued and surprised, but his expression told me that he had reached the same conclusion.
"They drugged me because they were afraid of me."
He nodded and I frowned at the inconsistencies with that action. "But why wouldn't they just knock me out like before?"
He frowned, deep in thought, and I concentrated while trying to catch onto his mind process. After a lengthy pause, he hypothesized, "Maybe they've reached the conclusion that whatever you can do - through the connection - cannot be controlled by whatever is controlling my powers right now. So they needed a more human way of subduing it."
Silently, he added,
They needed to suppress the connection from both sides. Mine, by turning off my powers. And yours, by pharmaceutically affecting the parts of your brain that might be involved in the connection.
It doesn't make sense...
What doesn't?
If they really reunited us to see what the bond could do, why would they attempt to repress it?
I think it's temporary. To be able to move you without the bond facilitating an escape on your part. He smiled weakly.
To make sure you didn't hurt them.
I swallowed, thinking of the injection. "And it's still in my system?" Even though I felt fine now?
He nodded. "Yeah. It's there."
"So I can't utilize the connection anymore?" I frowned. Before he had a chance to answer, I added secretly,
But why can we communicate like this then?
He gave me a knowing half-smile. Almost a triumphant one.
Maybe they are wrong. Completely wrong. Because they think that they have 'turned off' not only your side of the connection, but also mine. Just by turning off my abilities.
This gave me some hope. That we might know something that our captors didn't.
I traced the blue beneath his eyes and felt the sadness run through me. But also the tendrils of hot anger.
"Please tell me," I said quietly. "Tell me what they did to-"
I didn't get any further than that. There was a metallic sound from the door and Max was pulling me to my feet before I had a chance to react to the instinctive adrenaline saturating my system.
Stay behind me, he ordered sharply while he took my hand in a tight grip and directed me behind his body.
And don't even think about getting in front of me.
His command brought forward some of the Elizabeth Parker I had been just two weeks ago. The one that wanted to object and prove that I was standing on my own two feet. The one that couldn't accept that someone would order me around. Even if it was 'for my own good'.
I had a chance to reflect on his ability to speak to my inner nature, even when he didn't plan to, before I acquiesced to his directive. It was not a difficult thing to do, considering that the memory of me stepping in front of him and taking an alien 'bullet' for him, my dead weight falling back against his body, was being broadcasted in his mind (and mine) right that second.
A ray of yellow light created a line from the opening door to our feet. The light seeped more and more into the dark room as the door slowly opened.
I held onto Max's hand tightly and stepped closer to him, looking around his upper arm at the door. Without blinking.
It didn't come as a surprise that it was the Sergeant and his son who walked through the door. But it
did come as a surprise - or rather, a shock - that the Sergeant was holding a gun. A black gun made by the human population. Aimed at us.
The light coming into the room from the open door, creating shadows across our visitors' faces, did nothing to hide the slow malicious smile that spread across the Sergeant's face as he announced, "You rang?"
TBC...