~~~~~MAX~~~~~
I walk back into my apartment and tear up the note I left. I pocket my apartment key and sling my suitcases on the table.
I'm back. With no prospects...no decent job...
And No Liz.
I get up and head straight to the fridge. I left some beer here I think...
Beer will take away the pain. The pain of being stuck here for ever because she stopped me but doesn't want me. And she'll keep doing it to me again and again...
I take one and close the fridge dorr. I'm just about to open it...
When I stop.
Tess was right.
I open the bottle.
And tip it down the sink.
Drinking will never help anyone. And it certainly won't help me. It'll just create a hangover that I REALLY do not need in the morning! Im bitter enough as it is.
And you know what...if Im stuck here...who says Im going to sit here working at that damn UFO museum all my life! Why should I! I'm a graduate! Liz doesn't want me. Fine.
Doesn't mean I can't have a life.
It's time to...do something....
Ok I have no idea what....but I am........
I bite my nails as I think where I'm going to start.
I know....I'll make some new years resolutions! I mean...I know its not new year...but....still...it feels like it to me.
I grab some paper and start writing.
1) No drinking
2) Make apartment something I can be proud of
3) Join a gym
4) Quit UFO museum and get a proper job
I look at what I just wrote and smile. I can do that right now....
Jumping off my couch I jump down the stairs and walk towards the UFO museum.
I know he's not going to be there...but that doesn't mean I can't leave him a surprise when he gets back!
New life...here I come!!!
Roswell Revisited (AU/CC Mature) Thread #3
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~~~~~MAX~~~~~~
I come out of the apartments and head off down the road. Im practically skipping with pent up energy.
Im so excited I don't see where I'm going.
"Oh....umm sorry."
I look into the girls eyes. Immediately I look away quickly thinking that I can't look at another girl cos I'm with Liz.
I then remind myself I'm not and look back into her eyes.
"No Im sorry, totally my fault. I wasn't really paying attention as Im rather jittery. Very sorry!"
I come out of the apartments and head off down the road. Im practically skipping with pent up energy.
Im so excited I don't see where I'm going.
"Oh....umm sorry."
I look into the girls eyes. Immediately I look away quickly thinking that I can't look at another girl cos I'm with Liz.
I then remind myself I'm not and look back into her eyes.
"No Im sorry, totally my fault. I wasn't really paying attention as Im rather jittery. Very sorry!"
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Alex
On a scale of one to ten on the uncomfortable-lo metre,this situation has to be a nine.I so wish I could smooth talk like one of those studs at school...always chatting the girls up at every corner.
I look at Isabel but quickly look away when we make eye contact...don't want her to think I keep staring at her all the time.Michael is making things no better with his silence...when he isn't eating,his eyes follow Maria around.
"So Izzy...when do you think your Mum will order new menus for this place?" I ask without thinking and immediately I mentally kick myself for the stupid question
Where the hell did that come from?I swear my mouth has a mind of its own sometimes.
On a scale of one to ten on the uncomfortable-lo metre,this situation has to be a nine.I so wish I could smooth talk like one of those studs at school...always chatting the girls up at every corner.
I look at Isabel but quickly look away when we make eye contact...don't want her to think I keep staring at her all the time.Michael is making things no better with his silence...when he isn't eating,his eyes follow Maria around.
"So Izzy...when do you think your Mum will order new menus for this place?" I ask without thinking and immediately I mentally kick myself for the stupid question
Where the hell did that come from?I swear my mouth has a mind of its own sometimes.
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*Isabel*
I can feel Alex looking at me again and when I make eye contact with him he quickly looks away. I have to smile at that. He's so cute.
"So Izzy...when do you think your Mum will order new menus for this place?" Alex blurts out. I look at him and by the look on his face I can tell he's embarrassed at the strange question but I don't let it phase me.
"I've been trying to talk her into it for the past month or so but so far I think my begging has been falling on deaf ears." I say with a laugh trying to make him feel better
I can feel Alex looking at me again and when I make eye contact with him he quickly looks away. I have to smile at that. He's so cute.
"So Izzy...when do you think your Mum will order new menus for this place?" Alex blurts out. I look at him and by the look on his face I can tell he's embarrassed at the strange question but I don't let it phase me.
"I've been trying to talk her into it for the past month or so but so far I think my begging has been falling on deaf ears." I say with a laugh trying to make him feel better
Jessi Mae
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*Liz*
I stare at broken glass in front of me. Why am I hesating? I mean I have nothing to live for right? I look over to my left and saw a picture of Michael and I as kids playing, we were playing soccor. I remember being soo happy and that I wasn't so screw up because that time I count Michael to make my fears disappeared. I depended on him so much.
I put the broken piece down. But Michael can't save me. I have to save myself. I have get over this depression and start liking myself. Because it what I need. I need be happy. If not for the world or to myself than for Michael.
I turn back to mirror and wave my hand in front of it and broken pieces went back to place; before I punsh it.
I didn't want my parents or Michael walking in seeing what I cause. I need to do this. I need do all this on my own. I need to start taking care of myself.
I look at my bloody hand and I remember I can't heal. That's Michael's powers not mine. I go to the bathroom and run my hand under the water. I needed to clean my hand so people won't ask questions. But I know they will I just have to hide it. I wrapped with bandage. I really hope not that noticible.
I go back to my bedroom and wave, with my good hand, the blood away. I looked at myself and wave my blood, that sank on my shirt, away. I didn't want to look like a murder.
I sigh. Liz it's time to start doing some healing and less of some damage of yourself.
I walk out my bedroom and out into the roswell street. I think I should go back to the crashdown. I would be the first step of healing myself. I down the street where the crashdown. I looked throw the glass window and saw everyone was still there.
'This is it Liz', I said to myself before walking in. I walk in and put right hand in my pocket so Michael and Alex, or even other people won't question me. I walk to the table they were sitting at. "Hey...." I said calmly.
I stare at broken glass in front of me. Why am I hesating? I mean I have nothing to live for right? I look over to my left and saw a picture of Michael and I as kids playing, we were playing soccor. I remember being soo happy and that I wasn't so screw up because that time I count Michael to make my fears disappeared. I depended on him so much.
I put the broken piece down. But Michael can't save me. I have to save myself. I have get over this depression and start liking myself. Because it what I need. I need be happy. If not for the world or to myself than for Michael.
I turn back to mirror and wave my hand in front of it and broken pieces went back to place; before I punsh it.
I didn't want my parents or Michael walking in seeing what I cause. I need to do this. I need do all this on my own. I need to start taking care of myself.
I look at my bloody hand and I remember I can't heal. That's Michael's powers not mine. I go to the bathroom and run my hand under the water. I needed to clean my hand so people won't ask questions. But I know they will I just have to hide it. I wrapped with bandage. I really hope not that noticible.
I go back to my bedroom and wave, with my good hand, the blood away. I looked at myself and wave my blood, that sank on my shirt, away. I didn't want to look like a murder.
I sigh. Liz it's time to start doing some healing and less of some damage of yourself.
I walk out my bedroom and out into the roswell street. I think I should go back to the crashdown. I would be the first step of healing myself. I down the street where the crashdown. I looked throw the glass window and saw everyone was still there.
'This is it Liz', I said to myself before walking in. I walk in and put right hand in my pocket so Michael and Alex, or even other people won't question me. I walk to the table they were sitting at. "Hey...." I said calmly.
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*Liz*
"Hey Liz, you okay now?" Michael as before I sat down. I look at him and gave him my best smile I could give him in the mood I'm in. "Yes fine now." I said truthful. I was fine now. The batter with myself is over. For now. But I'll have to try harder.
"They brought our food over," Michael said. I reach my soda with my right hand that was in my pocket forgetting I was trying to hide it. I took a sip and forgot it need tabcaoo sauce. "What did you order?" I ask.
"Hey Liz, you okay now?" Michael as before I sat down. I look at him and gave him my best smile I could give him in the mood I'm in. "Yes fine now." I said truthful. I was fine now. The batter with myself is over. For now. But I'll have to try harder.
"They brought our food over," Michael said. I reach my soda with my right hand that was in my pocket forgetting I was trying to hide it. I took a sip and forgot it need tabcaoo sauce. "What did you order?" I ask.