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Janetfl wrote:Hi Paper, OMG I LOVED THIS UPDATE!!!! Ohhhhh so Khivar is now going to try and find Liz. Well that's if his wormhole machine starts to work. I feel sorry for poor Liz if Khivar has got his eyes on her!! This just gets more and more exciting by the minute. Can't wait for another update. JAN

This one is for you,
Jan! Your trailer for “I'm Lost Without You” was absolutely fabulous!
75 - Tess Tells All
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You’re probably on you flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection, baby
To be with myself and center
Clarity, peace, serenity
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It’s personal, myself and I
We’ve got some straightening’ out to do
My name is Tess Harding. I’ve been running all over the United States, trying to get a lead on where my duplicate has been hiding. You would think that with all the Bhrillig Troops I have at my disposal, I would have made some progress, but it’s like she’s disappeared into another dimension or something! I just can’t find her. Nah uh!
Nicholas isn’t happy with me. Not at all.
He was quite pleased when I first showed up at his rebuilt headquarters in Copper Summit and offered my services in exchange for room, board and expenses. We had quite a fling going for a while there. But I felt kind of like a pervert when I was with him. A child molester. He does look like a 14 year old kid after all. The whole thing lost its allure right away.
The guy I really wanted to be with was Max. Max Evans, my husband. Well, King Zan, actually. He was this great King on our home world. He chose me over all the other royal princesses fawning over him. But unfortunately, his protectors weren’t worth their titles. We all got killed by this jerk named Khivar. Kavar Khivar.
What a stupid name! How his mama came up with that one, no one knows.
Yes, I slept with him a few times, but that was before I was married. It was just a fling. Maybe if I’d tied my sail to his boat, I wouldn’t have gone through half the things I did. He’s an Emperor now. And a murderer. He killed me.
And I’m gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I’ve got to get a move on with my life
It’s time to be a big girl now
And big girls don’t cry
Don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry
I was reincarnated into this human body. My DNA was mixed with human DNA as orchestrated by the Queen Mother and the four of us, Zan, Vilandra, Rath and Avaria, that’s me, were all sent to Earth. So that we could one day return and save the planet from the evil Khivar.
OK. I made that last part up. She just wanted to give her children a new start in a new place. She thought they’d want to find a nice human and settle down. I changed the Queen’s message around a little to suit my purposes. Wouldn’t you?
My husband was making time with a human hussy and completely ignoring me. So I made them all think that we were supposed to go home and make things right. I think we should. Kavar killed us all. I want revenge!
And I want my palace back. And my planet.
Well, actually, I’m from Zinder, but I was feeling at home on Antar. It was a lot cooler and richer and there were cool things to do. Zinder was a hot dry dust planet. Kind of like Roswell. Ironic, isn’t it? We had to import our food in exchange for the abundant minerals that our planet had in excess.
I’m not cut out to be a miner. Or a mining princess.
I wanted refinement. I got it with Zan. He wasn’t the most attentive guy, but I had Nicholas, Khivar and a few others on the side, so I didn’t really care that much.
But I don’t like to be ignored. And that is what Max did to me. For HER. Liz.
I’d like to pull her hair out by the hand-full or set it on fire and burn it to a crisp. Max always loved her hair.
I’m a beautiful blonde. She’s a plain brunette. Why would he go for her?
I’m a voluptuous curvy sexpot. She’s a stick. Why would he choose her over me?
But he did.
I had a hard time mindwarping him at first. And I was vain enough to want him to choose me on his own when I arrived in Roswell. He didn’t. So a girl’s got to do what she’s got to do.
The path that I’m walking, I must go alone
I must take the baby steps till I’m full grown, full grown
Fairy tales don’t always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It’s personal, myself and I
We’ve got some straightening’ out to do
I was raised by my protector, Nasedo, who went by the name Ed Harding. He was a changzling. A shape-shifter. And the only human emotions he had were hate and greed. He always kept me under his thumb and ordered me around, but when we got to Roswell I saw my opportunity to get rid of him.
The changzlings were mentally coded in their DNA to follow Zan’s orders. Another reason I needed Max on my side. To gain power over Nasedo. Yeah, I pretended that he meant something to me, but he was really only a thing. A thing who thought he could tell me what to do. I needed Max to get him to take MY orders.
But Max wasn’t cooperative at all. All he could think about was Liz, Liz, and Liz.
So I made a deal with Nicholas. I would scratch his back. He’d scratch mine.
Nasedo and I have known about Nicholas and his crew of misfits for years. Nicholas told the changzling that he could return to Antar only if he found the clone and helped to bring him in chains to Khivar. We traveled all over the country looking for them for years! We finally got a lead when Michael and Isabel sent us a sign. Nasedo photographed their every move in an attempt to verify that it was really them. He couldn’t believe his luck at first and he thought maybe Nicholas was pulling a prank. Nasedo was one of their original protectors but he was separated from them.
He was on the ship that brought us here but he was captured by the government. By the time he escaped, I was the only one left in the pods. He thought the other protector came back for the others and took them home but he couldn’t confirm it. We knew there was a set in New York but they were supposed to be the bait set, not the ones with the seal. He couldn’t believe his luck when we finally found them.
But Max was a big disappointment to him. He couldn’t get Max to go along with anything he wanted. And I couldn’t get either of them to do what I wanted. So I made my own deal with Nicholas. I got Nicholas to kill Nasedo. In exchange for worming my way into the group and learning where they’d hidden the granolith. Too bad they didn’t know where it was in the first place. Neither did we. Isabel stumbled upon it when she was checking out her pod. I was let in on the secret because I was part of the group by then. Now it’s my ace in the hole.
I had to be careful when we were all in Copper Summit for Congresswoman Whitaker’s funeral. I had to interrupt a little “getting to know you” session Nicholas had going with Isabel in the bedroom. I didn’t want her to upset the apple cart. By that time, I had done too much to let it slip away from me. General Greer almost finished me off with the rest when we got to the funeral hall. I was there with Max and prissy Liz. It gave me a great chance to show Max that I would be a much more valuable ally than the prima donna.
I let Nicholas and his goons escape the school and made it look like they all died in my “wall of flames.” Then I finished off Rath and Lonnie after they tried to kill Zan. What good would it do me if I let them kill my gravy ticket? Now I just need to dispose of Ava, but it’s hard work trying to locate her!
After the failed summit, I helped to save the planet by getting rid of the ganderium. This planet owes me big!
I started getting into Max’s brain with my “memory retrieval” techniques. He fell for those, hook, line and sinker! But his brain was too strong for me. So Nicholas gave me some chemicals to slip into his soda. Those made him much more amenable to anything I suggested. I got him to think that Liz was betraying us Antarians and that she wanted to turn us all in to the FBI. It worked like a charm. He hated her!
He still went to prom with her. It made me so mad, I decided to get even. So I made him think that Liz blew him off and that he wanted to make out with me in the hall. Liz came by and saw us. She left in a huff. It was my finest hour!
After that, I felt almost as if Max was my boyfriend. But I could tell that he still thought about Liz all the time.
So I made him think he slept with me.
And I’m gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I’ve got to get a move on with my life
It’s time to be a big girl now
And big girls don’t cry
Not that he did. I managed to get him to the observatory after it closed and we got inside. I pretty much turned him into a zombie automaton that would do whatever I said. “Take off your clothes. Lay down on the floor. Hold me.”
The problem was that he was as limp as yesterday’s soggy leftover noodles. No matter what I did, nothing seemed to help. At one point, I got so desperate, I mindwarped him to think I was a naked Liz lying there with him. Still nothing!
Then I remembered Nicholas joking about enjoying him while I could before the drugs took full effect. He should have warned me that would be one of the side-effects! I bet he was laughing his ass off!
I’ll have the last laugh though. Nicholas thinks I don’t know where the granolith is. I pretended Max got me pregnant that night. I mindwarped him to remember a one-hour climax. As if! Men are such fools. They will believe anything you tell them if it inflates their ego!
Then I told him that the baby was dying and we all had to go back to Antar so it would live. He was ready to stay with me and our child. Until that witch showed up and ruined everything. She got Kyle to remember that I killed Alex. It was an accident! I didn’t know his puny brain couldn’t take the multiple mindwarps. I’m not a doctor!
He died and I had Kyle help carry him to the car. Then I staged an accident with my powers and a little help from Nicholas’s crew. I mindwarped Kyle to think he was carrying luggage. How she got him to remember, I’ll never know. I thought I reinforced them enough to last a few months at least.
The prissy nerd ran in just as the granolith timer was counting down and spoiled everything. Max was madder than hell. But I told him that if he killed me he would be killing our child. So he told me to go to Antar without him.
There was only one problem.
He had the seal. The damn thing doesn’t work unless you have it. And I don’t. Because we’d never actually slept together. Khivar had us killed before we could consummate.
So I shut the thing off by pulling out the crystal and I mindwarped the jerks outside to think the earth was rumbling and the mountain was melting and made them see a ship leave for the cosmos. Then I waited for them to leave and I made my way to Nicholas.
He gave me a job on his payroll. And a spot in his bed. I came up with the plan to find Ava. OK. So I’m not looking all that hard. It gets me away from Nicholas. Some of the other Bhrillig aren’t half bad. I’ve had quite a few.
I wasn’t happy when I found out that Khivar came all the way here to Earth & I never even got the chance to see him. Nicholas mentioned it after he’d already gone back! Apparently, he came to retrieve Isabel. He did have a thing for her back on Antar. I suppose she’s pretty enough. Khivar tried to stop her wedding to some Latino guy who works with her Father. They’re all a lot of losers! If only Max would have cooperated. We could have been together and living in the lap of luxury on Antar. I could be Queen of an entire galaxy. We could have gone back and killed Khivar and had everything we ever wanted. Max would have forgotten everything about this wretched planet with a little help from me.
I could have had what was supposed to be mine. Liz ruined it all.
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We’ll play jacks and Uno cards
I’ll be your best friend and you’ll be mine
Valentine
Khivar wants me to return to the gang with Max’s baby. I’m just supposed to choose a kid that looks like him and steal it. They’ve been training me to fly one of their fight-kroozers from the ancient ship that brought them here in 1950. I’m supposed to pretend I flew it back from Antar to escape Khivar, who rejected Max’s heir because he is completely human. No problem getting them to believe that part. But will they let me back in the fold after I killed Alex? Max is a sucker. I’ll tell him that the child can’t live without its mother. Michael may be a problem. He never liked me. I think I can win over Isabel.
Better pick out a cute baby. That’ll help.
Yes, you can hold my hand if you want to
‘Cause I want to hold yours too
We’ll be playmates and lovers
And share our secret worlds
But it’s time for m to go home
It’s getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself, and center
Clarity, peace, serenity
Nicholas and Khivar want me to learn the whereabouts of the granolith.
Yes. It’s still in the same place it always was. I jammed the door so the others can’t get in. But I doubt they would even try. The place holds too many bad memories for all of them and they think it’s empty now. The fools probably never even wondered why no FBI showed up when a spaceship supposedly took off from there. Ever hear of radar? Did no one “see” it leave besides them? How did the mountain suddenly reform itself? None of them are playing with a full deck. Maybe people only see what they WANT to see. I guess I did them all a favor. Now that the granolith is supposedly gone, they must think they can live their lives in peace. We can’t have that, now can we?
I took Nicholas to the cave Nasedo stayed in when he first came to Earth. It’s on the Mescalero Indian Reservation. I showed him the pretty map on the wall, but there wasn’t much else there.
I’m getting to be an expert at playing Nicholas. He’s never tried to mind-walk me. The fool. He thinks I may be in love with him. Why else would I play on his side? Why else, indeed.
If I can get Max to take me back and get rid of Liz, then we can use the granolith to go back and take over.
My time is near. If I can just find a stupid baby somewhere.
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It’s personal, myself and I
We’ve got some straightening’ out to do
And I’m gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I’ve got to get a move on with my life
It’s time to be a big girl now
And big girls don’t cry
Don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry
Big Girls Don’t Cry by Fergie