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Totally made my day - and the days after
I am kind of surprised Max didn't try to erase Maria's memory when he found out she was filling Liz in on some of what he made her forget.
Well, Max was kinda standing right in front of Liz when she realized for certain that the glimpses of the healing that her mind had gotten were pertaining to an actual memory. He could tell that she just figured it out, so he probably never suspected that she'd had the time to tell Maria. Of course, there were aspects of that night that Liz told Maria about and there were things that happened (with Max) after that night that didn't add up with Maria's memory once Max had erased parts of Liz's memory. But to Max, the most important thing was that Liz didn't remember
the healing. Not the things surrounding that night. Doing the same thing to Maria would risk exposing him further (if something went wrong).
I was surprised he could even do it when at first he wasn't sure he could.
This will be explained in the future...
What I love the most is how you are able to maintain that dreamer connection behind all secrets they still can manage to share a connection and seem to understand each other in ways no one else can.
Thank you so much. That means a lot to me <3
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From TEN:
“Still, your father shouldn’t have reacted like that. You needed someone to look after you, to be nice to you. You were…” I swallowed.
He tensed next to me and breathed quietly, “What?”, wanting me to finish the sentence.
“You were completely broken. It was horrible to see you like that. The last thing you needed was to be yelled at.”
There was a moment of silence, before Max said, “You don’t know him. He’s not a bad person.”
I huffed. “Could have fooled me.”
I expected him to get annoyed with my refusal of his attempt at excusing his father’s behavior, but instead he surprised me by saying, “Thank you for sticking up for me.”
I remembered stepping in front of him, shielding him from his own father, and I flushed. What had possessed me to do that? As if I had been willing to sacrifice my own safety to keep Max safe.
Preposterous.
“Sure,” I mumbled, uncomfortable.
Max cleared his throat and I stole a glance at him, pretty sure that he was also uncomfortable. The thought of suave and confident Max Evans being uncomfortable made my heart skip a beat. It was like I could glimpse behind the facade he put up.
“We’re here,” he announced, startling me out of my reverie.
I looked out the window and could see “The CrashDown” flash in neon lettering. Max rolled the car to a stop and I bit my lip as I reached to open the door.
“Uhm, thanks for the lift, I guess,” I said.
“Yeah,” he said lightly.
I looked at him briefly (he was looking straight ahead at the restaurant), before stepping out of the car.
____________________________________
ELEVEN
Mom was almost back to her normal self. Apparently sleeping for 13 hours straight fixed most ailments.
I couldn’t help but watch her like a hawk though. There were still some things that were off. How she could be acting perfectly normal one second but then get weak and almost faint in the middle of doing the dishes. How she could start slurring her words halfway through an eloquent conversation and still manage to finish the sentence with her speech unaffected.
There were a lot of shared concerned looks between my father and I during that week (even dad had foregone rationalizing the whole thing), but my mother dismissed our apprehension with laughter, claiming that she should really start getting some more sleep. And that she should finally start eating healthier. And exercise. Plus, take some extra vitamins.
Her excuses nauseated me, because I knew deep down in the core of my being that something was very wrong. Something that could not be fixed by adding some magnesium and vitamin D to her diet.
My mother’s mysterious condition scattered my thoughts, made me unfocused and on edge. Hence, the week passed in a blur, where I barely registered Sean’s attempts at making eye contact or Max’s gaze following me down the corridor. Even Maria faded into the background, but I wasn’t sure she even noticed. After all, Alex had returned from his family trip and they had a lot of catching up to do.
That’s how I found myself in my room on Friday evening, staring at my opened wardrobe, wondering what to pack for the camping trip which I really didn’t want to attend. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to spend time with dad. Because I did.
The truth was; I didn’t want to leave mom alone.
The camping adventure was an annual thing with the aim of getting fathers to spend more time with their daughters. I probably spent more time with my dad than most girls my age (considering that I didn’t only share his blood but also his workplace), but my dad nevertheless loved this camping expedition.
I think it was mostly because he could hang out with the other fathers, telling stories in front of a campfire while sizzling sausages over the embers.
But I could tell that my dad wasn’t feeling that much up to the camping trip this year either, even though he was putting on a happy face. Dad wouldn’t straight out tell me, but it was a no-brainer that he was really worried about his wife’s irregular and on-and-off deteriorating condition.
I pulled out a thick sweatshirt and sighed. Let’s get the packing over with.
*****
“So, you and Sean Carter, huh?” Emma asked me.
I bent down to pick up a stick for the fire and sighed mentally. We’d only been on the campsite for two hours and already I was hating all this socializing. But mostly, I hated to not be able to just hang with my friends. Maria’s father abandoned her and her mother when Maria was four, so being fatherless disqualified Maria from this trip. And Alex - well, Alex was a boy. This was merely for girls and their fathers.
Which meant that I was stuck gathering material for the campfire with Emma Kingston and Pamela Troy. Basically, I was stuck gathering material with the gossip mill of Roswell High.
“Not really,” I said evasively.
“Lisa saw you two kissing at Joe’s Diner,” Pam pointed out.
I forced myself not to glare at the blonde and instead bent to retrieve another stick off the ground. “She did, huh?”
“Come on, don’t be all mysterious,” Emma said. “Give us something.”
“I heard that she’s also dating Max Evans,” Pam said, suddenly referring to me as if I was no longer present.
“That, I don’t believe,” Emma stated, sounding somewhat offended.
From this I concluded that it was okay for someone like me to date someone like Sean Carter, but not Max Evans. Max Evans was very much out of my league. I was neither a cheerleader nor an airhead.
“Don’t you ever get tired of butting into everyone else’s business?” I asked, turning to go back to the campsite. I was done gathering sticks with these people.
The girls apparently ignored my question, instead starting to talk amongst themselves.
“There’s seriously no way that Liz Parker can have both Sean and Max interested in her. At the same time.”
“No one’s ever been attracted to her before.”
I rolled my eyes.
Hello? Standing right here. But I couldn’t even be bothered to tell them that obvious fact.
“Maybe there’s a bet going on.”
“Oh. Oh,” Pam jumped excitedly. “Like in that movie-“ she snapped her fingers in the search of the title “-uhm…”
“‘She’s All That’,” I supplied, bored now. How could it be so boring to listen to two bimbos discussing my life?
“Right!” Pam erupted.
“No no,” Emma objected. “I wasn’t talking about a make-over. That’s what they do in that movie, right? They make that nerdy girl look attractive and suddenly the guy sees her and falls for her. Ugh.” Emma made a gagging noise.
“Unrealistic,” Pam pointed out.
“Yeah, really,” Emma agreed and hitched her head in my direction. “Liz has not changed at all. No make-over.”
“Your point being?” I asked.
“Maybe the bet is to take her virginity,” Emma said and I exhaled loudly in annoyance.
Really?
I hated high school.
“You
are a virgin, right?” Pam asked and both girls turned globe-sized eyes on me while they waited for my answer.
“So let me get this straight,” I sighed. “You think that the most plausible reason for two guys to be interested in me is just to win a bet about being the first one to get into my pants?”
Emma looked at her doppelgänger and nodded slowly. “Yeah…yeah, it actually would make sense.”
“You’re right,” I said, putting on an honest and uncomfortable expression. “You are most likely 100% right.”
Pam’s eyes almost bulged out of their sockets. “They told you? About the bet?”
“No,” I replied, tightening my grip on the sticks gathered in my arms. “But you just made all the pieces of the puzzle fall into place.”
“I
knew it,” Emma declared gleefully and I almost expected her to high-five her friend.
Was it really that impossible to fathom that two guys could be interested in me?
Not that I believed it myself. Sure, Sean had shown obvious interest and even made a move or two. But Max… I didn’t know what Max wanted; couldn’t understand him at all.
It wouldn’t surprise me if the vampire had a bet going with his friends though. But I was pretty sure he was not in a bet with Sean - there was just too much bad blood between them.
“Who are you gonna pick?” Pam asked, bringing me back from my thoughts.
I stared at her in disbelief. They were seriously discussing that two guys had made a bet to take my virginity and that I would - now that I found out - happily chose who it would be. A normal person would never want to see either guy ever again after finding out, but apparently the girls standing in front of me, looking at me expectantly, were not normal.
“Why choose?” I asked with a shrug, turned on my heel and left them to figure that one out.
*****
I plopped down on top of my sleeping bag next to dad, groaning, “Save me.”
“Did you have fun with the girls?” my dad asked with a grin. Just like the camping trip was an annual tradition, so was me being forced to hang out with those same girls. The result was always the same; me irreparably damaged for several days afterward.
“We had a marvelous time,” I replied, my voice muffled against the sleeping bag.
“Learn anything new about hair dyes?” dad asked somberly.
I supported my head in my left hand as I rolled onto my side and looked at my dad. “No, but quite a lot about boys and sex.”
My father blanched and I laughed. “Relax, Daddy.”
He searched my face and gave the appearance of relaxing, but to my amusement I could tell that he was still trying to figure out if there had been any truth in my statement.
“Maybe these camping trips are not that healthy for you, after all,” dad grumbled and I smiled, reaching behind me to grab my backpack and pulled out a thick chemistry book.
I could feel my dad’s eyes on me and practically hear the raised eyebrow in his question as he asked, “You’re studying?”
“Sorry,” I smiled at him apologetically. “I haven’t got much done this week because of…” my voice faltered and dad filled in.
“Because of mom.”
I nodded and swallowed, my throat drying up. “Yeah.” I opened the book to my bookmark and added, “And I have this huge test coming up next week.”
“Okay,” dad said and rose from his sleeping bag. He bent down and kissed me on the forehead, saying, “I’ll just go and hang out with the dads then.”
I smiled at him, “You do that,” knowing that it wasn’t really a sacrifice on his behalf.
*****
“I’m sorry, Dad,” I said softly, looking out the window at the passenger side. “I know you really like these camping trips.”
I hadn’t meant to cut it short, but as I had started to skim through the chemistry notes, I had been struck with the growing anxiety and panic about how much there still was to study and how little time I had to do it. My dad, being the father he was, had taken one look at me and decided that we should leave early the next morning.
Now, on Sunday morning, the sun had barely made it up over the horizon yet, but both my dad and I were early risers. We liked it that way. The serene quiet and stillness of the early morning, the fresh morning smells and the illusion that you were all alone in the world.
“School comes first, honey,” my dad said, shooting me a soft smile. “I wouldn’t want you to miss out on Harvard just because I wanted to spend another day in the wilderness.”
I shook my head with a smile, “I think- well, I
hope that it will take more than a camping trip to harm my chances of going to university.”
“I know, baby,” he said and sighed. “I just don’t like seeing you so stressed out.” He turned on the indicator as we got closer to the main road leading into Roswell. “Besides, I wouldn’t mind getting home to your mom a bit earlier anyway.”
“Yeah,” I said softly, refocusing my unseeing gaze on the passing landscape. “You and me both.”
I fought the motion sickness that was rising in my throat as I turned another page in the heavy book pressing heavily against my thighs. Reading while riding a car was never a very good idea.
“How’s everything with Maria and Alex?” my dad asked, pulling me from the text.
“They’re okay,” I answered vaguely, my attention still on the diagram on the right page.
“Alex was just on a trip somewhere?”
I nodded. Alex’s family was one of the (many) well-off families in Roswell. He didn’t like to make a show out of it and through all the years I’ve known him, he had never acted stuck up or condescending about his background and life. He was one of the most down-to-earth people I knew.
“They went to Europe…” I lifted my head from the book in contemplation, “…Portugal, I think.” I shrugged. “Just for a couple of days.”
“Ah-ha,” my dad said and thrummed his fingers against the steering wheel.
I could tell that there was something on his mind; and it most likely did not concern the Whitman’s spare time activities.
“And you? How are you?” he asked, getting it out there.
My dad and I rarely talked about feelings. We had a really great relationship and I loved him to death, but I didn’t share everything with my dad. Mostly because it seemed to make him a bit uncomfortable and nervous.
Just like he was now.
I looked at him and gave him a soft smile, thanking him for asking. “I’m fine, Dad.”
“Any…” my dad cleared his throat, “Any boys in your life?”
A breath of amusement escaped me, the smile lingering, while I looked out the window - turning my face away from my dad. “Not really.”
“Ah, okay,” my dad said, sounding even more uncomfortable.
“Don’t worry, Daddy,” I said, looking at him. “I haven’t joined the big leagues yet.”
A faint blush reached his cheeks as my comment hit bullseye. He was, like most fathers with daughters my age, a bit nervous about me dating. I don’t know why I didn’t tell him about my date with Sean right then.
Maybe I was hesitant to make him uncomfortable or maybe I didn’t want to deal with the follow-up questions. Maybe I just didn’t want to share that with my dad. Especially not since I didn’t know if the “thing” with Sean was going anywhere or not.
The whole Sean-thing still confused me. It was like my feelings couldn’t hatch onto anything. I couldn’t remember ever being interested in Sean before he approached me last week. I had barely noticed him. It was odd to me that my feelings for him were so strong and immediate. But even more odd that, when I thought about it, I couldn’t quite recollect those feelings. They were much stronger when I was with him. Right now, the whole thing with Sean seemed vague and distant.
“It wouldn’t be a worry,” my dad said, interrupting my pondering.
I raised an incredulous eyebrow at him, silently asking ‘Really?’.
He chuckled at my wordless gesture and added, “Seriously, Lizzie. I just want you to be happy. And being a part of everything that comes with being a teenager is very important. I want you to fully enjoy life. You know, this is the beginning of the best years of your life.”
I pursed my lips. Huh? Who would’ve thought? My dad was practically telling me to go out there and be a teenager - with everything it might entail.
“You mean to tell me that I should throw a party at home when you guys are away, invite 50 or so other teenagers, get ridiculously drunk, throw up in the bush somewhere and hook up with some random guy?”
His eyes widened in shock and his head snapped to me so quickly that I burst out in laughter.
“Kidding!” I promised loudly and after another moment of shellshock, my dad joined my laughter.
“Hmph, I hope I didn’t just tell you that,” he said when his laughter ebbed.
I felt happy for the first time in two weeks. I loved this. Loved hanging out with my dad. Loved the unconditional love and not having to analyze and second-guess everything I was saying.
Parents were so much easier to handle than boys.
“Not in so many words,” I smiled. “But…” my smile turned softer as I looked at him with adoration. “…thank you for saying that. I’ll try and live a bit more.”
He opened his mouth to protest, to let me know that he didn’t mean it like that, but I cut him off with, “
After this chemistry test.”
He chuckled and returned his attention to the road. “Yeah.”
Anyone who is used to getting up early, before everyone else, instantly recognizes that morning smell in the air. A freshness which is yet untainted by the day to come.
Anyone who is used to getting up early can testament that the smell of fire is not part of that untainted morning smell.
I frowned as the smell made its way into the car, through the ventilation. I surveyed the outside of the car, searching for the cause of the smell and my heart jumped as I saw the thick tower of smoke rising from the center of the city.
“Look,” I whispered and cleared my throat to strengthen it against the building panic, “Dad.”
“I see it,” he answered quietly.
“Where is it coming from?” I asked, a really bad feeling settling in the pit of my stomach. I reached forward and turned off the ventilation, preventing any more strong smoke from reaching us.
“I don’t know,” my dad replied. “Somewhere in the center, I would presume.”
“That’s a lot of smoke,” I said, staring at the cone of smoke.
Both dad and I were hushed in shock as we continued down the main street. I could feel the car accelerating, and I knew without a doubt that my dad was trying to reach the place of the smoke as fast as possible.
After all, we might be the first ones on the site. We might need to help someone.
I shivered and hugged my arms around my upper body. I hated fire. Wild, untamed, dangerous and lethal. It scared me.
But what scared me more than fire ever could was the fact that we were not just directing the car towards the fire, but also towards our home. I was desperately waiting for us to turn, to get off the street that was right then directing us towards The CrashDown, but the fire wanted otherwise.
“No…” I whispered, tears automatically building in my eyes as we rounded the last block before our house.
Our home was on fire.
The thick black smoke was billowing out of cracked windows of the second floor and the bright orange of heated flames lit up the inside of my parents’ bedroom.
I don’t know what was running through my father’s head - if he were as terrified as I - but he brought the car to a panicked stop and I was tumbling out of the car just the fraction of a second thereafter.
My legs felt like jelly as I moved towards the crumbling building. I could feel the heat from where I was, burning the air around me.
“No…” I croaked.
Mom…
“
Moom!”
TBC...