Left Behind In the Shadows Adult CC Complete 7/17/06
Posted: Tue Aug 30, 2005 9:15 pm
Title: Left behind in the Shadows
Author: Harroc83
Rating: Adult
Couple: Zan and Serena, CC
Summery: Challenge by c_which #221. Check it out here if you want to be spoiled. #221
Disclaimer: I do not own anything in association with Roswell the book series or Roswell the TV show.
Category: Alternative Universe with Aliens
Banners: c_which

Prologue
I saw it coming. I knew I was going to die but instead of feeling afraid or even hysterical like one might feel when seeing their mortality being ripped from them I felt calm, numb really. I waited for it, I craved it. It wasn’t so much that they betrayed me or even the fact that I was going to die, it was this question that I asked myself before my breath left my body. Why? Why was it alright for them to take away my life but if I were to do the same I would feel guilty, even remorseful. I guess that’s what makes me human. Human what a hard concept to grasp. Being human means many things to many people. I for one never liked the term. It seemed to be a weakness really. Being human made your heart hurt when your girls rejected you, being human made you have to try twice at hard just to survive in this cruel “human” world, being human made being hurt possible, it made being angry possible. But human is what I am at least that’s what I think I am. I wasn’t ever sure about that. I know this body that is dying is human, it is in a great deal of pain. If I ever survived this I wouldn’t walk, no amount of healing power could actually fix that problem. It was meant to be this way I suppose. Hum why am I getting so deep in conversation with you but I never introduced myself. My name is Zan, former alien king. Funny isn’t it. My tattooed body living in the sewers of the biggest city was a king of an alien planet. I wish I could say I was thrilled but I’m not. See I’m dying right now. My best-friend and my sister decided that they were tired of playing second string and took me out. I’m not surprised really, maybe angry beyond words, but not surprised. Did you ever have a truck hit you. it’s a bitch trust me. I can actually feel my lungs filling up with blood. Its coming I know, death I mean if you didn’t understand what I was blabbering about before. Its coming quickly and to tell you the truth I aint scared that’s right I’m the man. Shit pain again. Where is it coming fun, why is my heart beating why is this happening.
Because my love, I can’t let you die
I have to die, I can’t live. I’m not even the really king, I’m just the duplicate. I’m not the fucking king. But I died like Zan did.
Look into my eyes, see me, see what you will become, see it Zan my king
King funny, I must be losing my mind, I’m hearing voices that are not mine. I’m hearing a voice. Fuck I’m the man. Zan the man. I can’t be crazy. No I’m the man, the man. I need to be the man. The man is dying why is the man dying. Why, that question again.
Because his best friend and sister took his life. For that they will pay. So for the life they took I’ll share mine with you love. I’ll give you a part of me, I’ll give you my soul, and someday when you are ready, I’ll give you a place by my side.
Zan the man. I’m the man. The man that’s dying. Shit I need a drink. I’m okay I feel calm. The voice doesn’t bother me. I swear I’m seeing shit too. See right now I’m seeing a goddess. Her bright, big, violet eyes and beautiful mouth. I must be in heaven. Zan the man is in heaven. I need to know what I ever did to go there. She is looking at me, shit shit no god no, its not a girl, no she’s not human. Human not human like me. I’m human right? Then why do I not feel it. Why do I crave it like something that’s out of reach like a piece of meat to a starving man. I’m human god damn it. Why? That question again. Why? She is not human but pure. I am losing my mind. She is changing, she is becoming the creature that she was always. She is joining with a part of herself that is always hidden, because like me she hates it. She hates the savage beast that she could become. She hates the creature, the animal that is a part of her like the diseases that spread among human kind. She hates a part of herself, just like I do. I hate the part that makes me alien, foreign to others, a freak. She hates the part of herself that makes her different, foreign to others, a wolf. But its this part this scared part that will help take away the pain isn’t it.
Yes my love, its this part of me, this hatful beast that will save your soul, look into my eyes love and see me, see the animal I am, and the one that you will become. Stand with me love and I’ll share my soul with you. A connection Zan, it’s what I crave, its what you crave, its what makes us human.
Zan nod your head you idiot. She is saving your life, but why? Again with that question.
You, Zan are my king, my soul, I need you more than ever now. Love me like the humans we are meant to be.
Alright, but your name!!!!, what is your name??
Serena
It came fast, she looked at me and I drowned. I felt the razor sharp teeth clamped down on my neck, breaking and tearing the delicate flesh. I felt the blood leave my body, enter hers. I knew what dying felt like but I never knew what living felt like. She is claiming me as her own. I know that. I never belonged to anyone, sure I was supposed to belong to Ava, but even she knew it wasn’t meant to be. But with this I know. I know what she needs from me. She needs my blood like I need hers. Blood the one thing that every creature on earth including humans have. It runs through our body, it pumps slowly into our veins, its red and clear leaving the body, its what will join me with this woman, this animal. Like me I’m an animal. I hate I hate I hate. But I can love too. I’m human no more, I know that. I turn my head and clamp down on her neck, tearing her neck and sinking my teeth so deep that i know I can feel her pulse pumping against my front tooth. I hear her screams I know that it hurts because I felt it also. She is flesh of my flesh blood of my blood. She is a part of me. I know this is the beginning of my life. Zan will always be the man.
Author: Harroc83
Rating: Adult
Couple: Zan and Serena, CC
Summery: Challenge by c_which #221. Check it out here if you want to be spoiled. #221
Disclaimer: I do not own anything in association with Roswell the book series or Roswell the TV show.
Category: Alternative Universe with Aliens
Banners: c_which

Prologue
I saw it coming. I knew I was going to die but instead of feeling afraid or even hysterical like one might feel when seeing their mortality being ripped from them I felt calm, numb really. I waited for it, I craved it. It wasn’t so much that they betrayed me or even the fact that I was going to die, it was this question that I asked myself before my breath left my body. Why? Why was it alright for them to take away my life but if I were to do the same I would feel guilty, even remorseful. I guess that’s what makes me human. Human what a hard concept to grasp. Being human means many things to many people. I for one never liked the term. It seemed to be a weakness really. Being human made your heart hurt when your girls rejected you, being human made you have to try twice at hard just to survive in this cruel “human” world, being human made being hurt possible, it made being angry possible. But human is what I am at least that’s what I think I am. I wasn’t ever sure about that. I know this body that is dying is human, it is in a great deal of pain. If I ever survived this I wouldn’t walk, no amount of healing power could actually fix that problem. It was meant to be this way I suppose. Hum why am I getting so deep in conversation with you but I never introduced myself. My name is Zan, former alien king. Funny isn’t it. My tattooed body living in the sewers of the biggest city was a king of an alien planet. I wish I could say I was thrilled but I’m not. See I’m dying right now. My best-friend and my sister decided that they were tired of playing second string and took me out. I’m not surprised really, maybe angry beyond words, but not surprised. Did you ever have a truck hit you. it’s a bitch trust me. I can actually feel my lungs filling up with blood. Its coming I know, death I mean if you didn’t understand what I was blabbering about before. Its coming quickly and to tell you the truth I aint scared that’s right I’m the man. Shit pain again. Where is it coming fun, why is my heart beating why is this happening.
Because my love, I can’t let you die
I have to die, I can’t live. I’m not even the really king, I’m just the duplicate. I’m not the fucking king. But I died like Zan did.
Look into my eyes, see me, see what you will become, see it Zan my king
King funny, I must be losing my mind, I’m hearing voices that are not mine. I’m hearing a voice. Fuck I’m the man. Zan the man. I can’t be crazy. No I’m the man, the man. I need to be the man. The man is dying why is the man dying. Why, that question again.
Because his best friend and sister took his life. For that they will pay. So for the life they took I’ll share mine with you love. I’ll give you a part of me, I’ll give you my soul, and someday when you are ready, I’ll give you a place by my side.
Zan the man. I’m the man. The man that’s dying. Shit I need a drink. I’m okay I feel calm. The voice doesn’t bother me. I swear I’m seeing shit too. See right now I’m seeing a goddess. Her bright, big, violet eyes and beautiful mouth. I must be in heaven. Zan the man is in heaven. I need to know what I ever did to go there. She is looking at me, shit shit no god no, its not a girl, no she’s not human. Human not human like me. I’m human right? Then why do I not feel it. Why do I crave it like something that’s out of reach like a piece of meat to a starving man. I’m human god damn it. Why? That question again. Why? She is not human but pure. I am losing my mind. She is changing, she is becoming the creature that she was always. She is joining with a part of herself that is always hidden, because like me she hates it. She hates the savage beast that she could become. She hates the creature, the animal that is a part of her like the diseases that spread among human kind. She hates a part of herself, just like I do. I hate the part that makes me alien, foreign to others, a freak. She hates the part of herself that makes her different, foreign to others, a wolf. But its this part this scared part that will help take away the pain isn’t it.
Yes my love, its this part of me, this hatful beast that will save your soul, look into my eyes love and see me, see the animal I am, and the one that you will become. Stand with me love and I’ll share my soul with you. A connection Zan, it’s what I crave, its what you crave, its what makes us human.
Zan nod your head you idiot. She is saving your life, but why? Again with that question.
You, Zan are my king, my soul, I need you more than ever now. Love me like the humans we are meant to be.
Alright, but your name!!!!, what is your name??
Serena
It came fast, she looked at me and I drowned. I felt the razor sharp teeth clamped down on my neck, breaking and tearing the delicate flesh. I felt the blood leave my body, enter hers. I knew what dying felt like but I never knew what living felt like. She is claiming me as her own. I know that. I never belonged to anyone, sure I was supposed to belong to Ava, but even she knew it wasn’t meant to be. But with this I know. I know what she needs from me. She needs my blood like I need hers. Blood the one thing that every creature on earth including humans have. It runs through our body, it pumps slowly into our veins, its red and clear leaving the body, its what will join me with this woman, this animal. Like me I’m an animal. I hate I hate I hate. But I can love too. I’m human no more, I know that. I turn my head and clamp down on her neck, tearing her neck and sinking my teeth so deep that i know I can feel her pulse pumping against my front tooth. I hear her screams I know that it hurts because I felt it also. She is flesh of my flesh blood of my blood. She is a part of me. I know this is the beginning of my life. Zan will always be the man.