Good Intentions (SN XO, D/L, Mature) Ch29- END!!
Posted: Mon Jun 01, 2009 1:13 am
Disclaimer: The characters of "Roswell" belong to Jason Katims, Melinda Metz, WB, and UPN. Supernatural belongs to the CW and Eric Kripke
Category: XO with Supernatural
Pairings: Liz/Dean
Rating: Mature. Do you like swearing? I know I do.
Summary: Liz made a choice after Alex’s death. Set after Cry Your Name in Roswell and after Family Remains in Supernatural
Good Intentions
Chapter One
She screamed as she was dragged in, twisting and turning, desperately trying to shake the demons that held her. The room was dark and sickeningly hot, she felt her hair stick to her face from sweat and blood. The two demons strapped her onto the table, tightening so hard she heard a sharp crack from her ankle breaking. She screamed out in agony.
She should have been used to it. She had been here for lord knows how long but every time she would scream and cry from the fear and pain, and they knew that.
Something was different this time around. Standing at the other side of the ‘room’ was a man. He was sharpening something, a knife of some sort. It was the first time she’d seen another like her, mostly it was disfigured demons, and she almost felt relief.
That feeling soon left her when the man turned around. He was young, older than her, but still obviously in his twenties. He was shirtless, dirty blonde hair and green eyes, and had he not been covered in blood with a machete in his hand she would have found him quite attractive.
His face turned from an evil grin to shock when her brown doe eyes met his. He opened his mouth and quickly shut it again.
She stared at him, confused. All the other times she had been tortured it had been by a demon, and they had no reason to look like a man down here.
“Is this some kind of joke?” She croaked out, barely recognizing the sound of her own voice.
He lowered his weapon and stalled for a moment. One of the demon’s went over and pressed him into the wall. “We can always strap you back in, Dean-o.”
The man’s eyes watered before picking his machete back up and starting toward the young woman. He tried not to think about her face which even covered by the dirt and blood was still beautiful. He tried not to think about her small form that was battered and beaten, tried to ignore her cries to please stop. He tried to forget the sound of her screams and the feeling of her warm blood splattering against his face.
All he could do was close his eyes, move his arm and whisper “I’m sorry…I’m sorry”
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Dean shot out of bed, ignoring the look his brother gave him.
He had had that dream again. No matter how many people he had tortured it always went back to that girl. The first girl he had seen in hell. She had haunted him like a ghost you couldn’t salt and burn.
Shaking his head he rose and headed straight for the shower. The fact that he had had to torture her wasn’t what bothered him most. She was in hell, after all and he had done it to thousands and thousands after. It was the fact that after that first time, every time she came back she would look at him, concerned and say, “Its okay.”
He had tried to let go of his time there. He wanted to focus on the job, and Sammy, and being lucky enough to be alive again. Her voice…her face plagued everything he ever did.
“You made your bed, Dean.” He told himself, shutting off the water.
Now all he had to do was lie in it.
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She woke with a gasp, expecting herself to be met with a burning fire and a cold slab of stone and excruciating pain.
Instead she woke to a silk covered board above her head. Slowly, she examined her small quarters. One board beneath her, one on top, one on each side, and one above and below, all covered in soft silk.
She was in a coffin.
If that fact didn’t scare her enough, the fact that when she hit the boards to open them, a hard thud sounded. This led her to believe she was probably buried in the coffin, probably six feet deep, which could only mean one thing.
She was alive.
Her first breath of air caused tears to form in her eyes. By the world’s standards, by any standards, she shouldn’t have made it out. She had clawed and wriggled her way out of her coffin, and the dirt that buried it.
Dusting her body off, she glanced at her surroundings. A cemetery, no doubt. If this was a weird level of hell that she had just reached she didn’t want to know. The tombstone above her grave read Elizabeth Parker; beloved daughter and friend. The area around the plot was torn up from her rebirth. Trying as best she could to make it look quasi normal again she went through the most logical options as to where she was in her head.
‘One, Zombie. No thirst for brains, so that’s not it.’ She thought in her head.
‘Two. New game. Lilith’s gone to elaborate lengths to fuck with me. Three. This is really happening. Someone got me out of hell.’
She glanced down at her dirt covered dress, black dress, and began to walk. She was in Roswell, that was for sure. There was a convenience store just down the road. The clerk stared at her as she walked in, the little bell jingling. She looked like she had just been rolled in the mud after a funeral.
“Is that your car out there?” She croaked out.
The clerk nodded. His was the only car in the lot.
“Oh. I think someone broke into it.” His eyes went wide and he ran from behind the counter.
Someone had broken into it. She had smashed the window but there wasn’t much to take. As he left the store, she snuck behind the counter and opened the till, pulling out all the money inside. On her way out she grabbed five things, a snickers bar, a newspaper, water, a lighter, and finally a pack of Marlboro lights. She wasn’t a smoker before hand, but she’d figured she’d already died, what more could cigarettes do?
The chocolate bar was salty and sweet and delicious, the way she’d imagined it would be. She walked straight passed the clerk, who was too busy yelling in a foreign language at the police, she presumed, to notice her. Finally coming to a rest stop she sat a picnic table and began to read. January 5th, 2009.
Three years, just about. Her body should be decayed and rotted. She should at least have sustained injuries from her death, but there was nothing wrong with her, that she could see.
Finishing the last of her Snickers bar, she started on a cigarette, watching a young couple drive into the parking lot. Both exiting the car at the same time, they met sweetly for a kiss before heading off separately for the restrooms.
They hadn’t noticed her. She took note of this opportunity and walked straight over to the car. Opening the door, she was disappointed as she noticed he hadn’t left his keys in the car. Holding her hand out, she felt energy begin to flow from her palm. The engine roared to life shortly after. At least that still worked.
The wind whipped about her face as she drove down the streets of Roswell, she contemplated going to see her family.
But to her family, she had been dead for three years, and maybe it was better that way.
She had been a good person all her life. Believed in God, prayed, went to church when she could, so why would a person like her end up in hell?
It was simple, really. She would do anything for her friends.
The mood had been good in the Crashdown until Jim had come. Maria’s blood curdling shriek forced everyone on edge, and Liz had been the first to catch her.
Alex was dead. Max couldn’t fix it. But as everyone else stood outside the morgue accepting his death and sobbing into each other, she was formulating a plan in her head. She would not let Alex die…not like this.
Her grandmother had left her many things, memories, stories, books. Tales of the occult which spoke of demons and spells and ways to do the impossible. So she did the impossible. She summoned something that looked so human, most likely to comfort her, but still only made her feel sick and dirty. The creature gave her 5 years, and in exchange, Alex Whitman would have his life back.
The newspapers had a field day. ‘Boy magically wakes from the dead.’ There was a new brand of freak in the Roswell tourist trap, but after a changed medical report and a couple of months, the people realized Alex was not the messiah.
Max received much praise, which he took with red tipped ears and a slight smile. He said he forever owed Tess for helping him with his powers…if it weren’t for Tess none of it would have happened. Isabel would not let Alex out of her sight for more than 5 minutes, even Michael seemed to smile more.
Her friends were happy. That’s all that she wanted, and as they graduated and paired off, Michael with Maria, Tess and Max, Isabel and Alex, she left for Cambridge and spent her four years studying…trying to find a way out of the deal she had made. They sent e-mails, asking her about her life, wondering why she would not respond, why she hadn’t come to Christmas or weddings and the like, telling her what was new. They didn’t understand, and how could they? She was preparing them. She had made peace with the fact that she was no longer apart of this world, even if she was still alive, and as the clock ticked 11:45pm on the last day, she made one call.
Lucky for her they all gathered on the day of Alex’s ‘rebirth’ and celebrated, so she had only needed to make one call.
“Hang on Lizzie let me put you on speaker. GUYS ITS LIZ!!!!” Alex had screamed, so excited.
She felt a tear escape her from her spot on the bed in her apartment.
“Liz?” Many voices sounded.
“Yeah.” She tried to hide the fact that she was now openly crying.
“Are you okay?” Maria asked.
“Where are you?” Max this time.
“I…I just…”
“We really miss you!” Isabel said concerned into the phone. “Can you come visit soon?”
There was a pause on the other end.
“What is it, Lizzie? Is something wrong?” Alex asked concerned.
“Are…are you all happy?” She pleaded for their answer as a deep howl sounded in the distance.
“Yeah.” Alex said as if it was a joke. “Of course we are…what—.”
“I love you. Goodbye.” The click signified the end of the conversation as the clock struck midnight.
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The Crashdown wasn’t busy, it never was on a Monday night, but she thought she glimpsed her Dad and Mother both working downstairs, which most likely meant someone had called in. She wouldn’t go see them. Liz Parker was dead and had been for some time now. But she would go to her room, and try to find the 10,000 dollars in cash she had hidden amongst her belongings.
Her room looked exactly the same as it did when she was 17, except littering the floor were boxes full of stuff from her Boston apartment. Apparently her parents had not yet dealt with any of her things. Tugging her dress off she quickly found jeans and a long sleeve tee. Grabbing a few more things she shoved them into her duffel. On the bed were the stuffed animals she had had in Boston. Tearing her way into them she started to pull out wads of rolled up hundreds and shoved them into the duffel as well.
After leaving her old room she went straight for the dealership, bought a beat up dark blue ’72 Mustang convertible, and abandoned the other car where she’d found it. At the drug store she purchased more food, toiletries, a pair of hair cutting scissors and a box of black hair dye. She wouldn’t spend any more time in Roswell than that. Too much chance of being recognized.
Finally at a motel 100 miles outside of Roswell, she got a room for the night. The dirty mirror made her pale and sunken face look green. But even with her gaunt face, she still looked like her. The same Liz Parker that had grown up at the Crashdown and fell in love with a boy, the same girl who went to Harvard and nearly gotten a degree in History. That same girl who died tragically in her apartment.
She couldn’t look like that girl anymore. She wasn’t that girl, and why make people think she was still that girl. So she took the scissors to her hair and chopped till it was a little longer than her chin. Holding the scissors vertically, she did has her first year college roommate used to do and chopped chunks out of her hair, making it edgier. Then, finally, she pulled some hair down in front of her face and cut diagonally, making side-swept bangs. Her hair looked just like Anna’s used to, she had seen the girl cut it enough times to know the cut by heart. After she had box-dyed her hair, it came out a black-almost-blue color. Now, with her pale skin and black punkish hair, she looked nothing like Liz Parker. She felt nothing like her either, but that was due to an entire different reason.
After a quick shower she examined her body in the mirror. She was 25 now. She looked older…more mature, more filled out. Nothing marred her skin, no wrinkles yet, and everything was…where it was supposed to be. The only thing marking her flawless body was a burned in handprint wrapped around her left bicep.
She would leave in the morning. She had things to figure out.
Category: XO with Supernatural
Pairings: Liz/Dean
Rating: Mature. Do you like swearing? I know I do.
Summary: Liz made a choice after Alex’s death. Set after Cry Your Name in Roswell and after Family Remains in Supernatural
Good Intentions
Chapter One
She screamed as she was dragged in, twisting and turning, desperately trying to shake the demons that held her. The room was dark and sickeningly hot, she felt her hair stick to her face from sweat and blood. The two demons strapped her onto the table, tightening so hard she heard a sharp crack from her ankle breaking. She screamed out in agony.
She should have been used to it. She had been here for lord knows how long but every time she would scream and cry from the fear and pain, and they knew that.
Something was different this time around. Standing at the other side of the ‘room’ was a man. He was sharpening something, a knife of some sort. It was the first time she’d seen another like her, mostly it was disfigured demons, and she almost felt relief.
That feeling soon left her when the man turned around. He was young, older than her, but still obviously in his twenties. He was shirtless, dirty blonde hair and green eyes, and had he not been covered in blood with a machete in his hand she would have found him quite attractive.
His face turned from an evil grin to shock when her brown doe eyes met his. He opened his mouth and quickly shut it again.
She stared at him, confused. All the other times she had been tortured it had been by a demon, and they had no reason to look like a man down here.
“Is this some kind of joke?” She croaked out, barely recognizing the sound of her own voice.
He lowered his weapon and stalled for a moment. One of the demon’s went over and pressed him into the wall. “We can always strap you back in, Dean-o.”
The man’s eyes watered before picking his machete back up and starting toward the young woman. He tried not to think about her face which even covered by the dirt and blood was still beautiful. He tried not to think about her small form that was battered and beaten, tried to ignore her cries to please stop. He tried to forget the sound of her screams and the feeling of her warm blood splattering against his face.
All he could do was close his eyes, move his arm and whisper “I’m sorry…I’m sorry”
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Dean shot out of bed, ignoring the look his brother gave him.
He had had that dream again. No matter how many people he had tortured it always went back to that girl. The first girl he had seen in hell. She had haunted him like a ghost you couldn’t salt and burn.
Shaking his head he rose and headed straight for the shower. The fact that he had had to torture her wasn’t what bothered him most. She was in hell, after all and he had done it to thousands and thousands after. It was the fact that after that first time, every time she came back she would look at him, concerned and say, “Its okay.”
He had tried to let go of his time there. He wanted to focus on the job, and Sammy, and being lucky enough to be alive again. Her voice…her face plagued everything he ever did.
“You made your bed, Dean.” He told himself, shutting off the water.
Now all he had to do was lie in it.
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She woke with a gasp, expecting herself to be met with a burning fire and a cold slab of stone and excruciating pain.
Instead she woke to a silk covered board above her head. Slowly, she examined her small quarters. One board beneath her, one on top, one on each side, and one above and below, all covered in soft silk.
She was in a coffin.
If that fact didn’t scare her enough, the fact that when she hit the boards to open them, a hard thud sounded. This led her to believe she was probably buried in the coffin, probably six feet deep, which could only mean one thing.
She was alive.
Her first breath of air caused tears to form in her eyes. By the world’s standards, by any standards, she shouldn’t have made it out. She had clawed and wriggled her way out of her coffin, and the dirt that buried it.
Dusting her body off, she glanced at her surroundings. A cemetery, no doubt. If this was a weird level of hell that she had just reached she didn’t want to know. The tombstone above her grave read Elizabeth Parker; beloved daughter and friend. The area around the plot was torn up from her rebirth. Trying as best she could to make it look quasi normal again she went through the most logical options as to where she was in her head.
‘One, Zombie. No thirst for brains, so that’s not it.’ She thought in her head.
‘Two. New game. Lilith’s gone to elaborate lengths to fuck with me. Three. This is really happening. Someone got me out of hell.’
She glanced down at her dirt covered dress, black dress, and began to walk. She was in Roswell, that was for sure. There was a convenience store just down the road. The clerk stared at her as she walked in, the little bell jingling. She looked like she had just been rolled in the mud after a funeral.
“Is that your car out there?” She croaked out.
The clerk nodded. His was the only car in the lot.
“Oh. I think someone broke into it.” His eyes went wide and he ran from behind the counter.
Someone had broken into it. She had smashed the window but there wasn’t much to take. As he left the store, she snuck behind the counter and opened the till, pulling out all the money inside. On her way out she grabbed five things, a snickers bar, a newspaper, water, a lighter, and finally a pack of Marlboro lights. She wasn’t a smoker before hand, but she’d figured she’d already died, what more could cigarettes do?
The chocolate bar was salty and sweet and delicious, the way she’d imagined it would be. She walked straight passed the clerk, who was too busy yelling in a foreign language at the police, she presumed, to notice her. Finally coming to a rest stop she sat a picnic table and began to read. January 5th, 2009.
Three years, just about. Her body should be decayed and rotted. She should at least have sustained injuries from her death, but there was nothing wrong with her, that she could see.
Finishing the last of her Snickers bar, she started on a cigarette, watching a young couple drive into the parking lot. Both exiting the car at the same time, they met sweetly for a kiss before heading off separately for the restrooms.
They hadn’t noticed her. She took note of this opportunity and walked straight over to the car. Opening the door, she was disappointed as she noticed he hadn’t left his keys in the car. Holding her hand out, she felt energy begin to flow from her palm. The engine roared to life shortly after. At least that still worked.
The wind whipped about her face as she drove down the streets of Roswell, she contemplated going to see her family.
But to her family, she had been dead for three years, and maybe it was better that way.
She had been a good person all her life. Believed in God, prayed, went to church when she could, so why would a person like her end up in hell?
It was simple, really. She would do anything for her friends.
The mood had been good in the Crashdown until Jim had come. Maria’s blood curdling shriek forced everyone on edge, and Liz had been the first to catch her.
Alex was dead. Max couldn’t fix it. But as everyone else stood outside the morgue accepting his death and sobbing into each other, she was formulating a plan in her head. She would not let Alex die…not like this.
Her grandmother had left her many things, memories, stories, books. Tales of the occult which spoke of demons and spells and ways to do the impossible. So she did the impossible. She summoned something that looked so human, most likely to comfort her, but still only made her feel sick and dirty. The creature gave her 5 years, and in exchange, Alex Whitman would have his life back.
The newspapers had a field day. ‘Boy magically wakes from the dead.’ There was a new brand of freak in the Roswell tourist trap, but after a changed medical report and a couple of months, the people realized Alex was not the messiah.
Max received much praise, which he took with red tipped ears and a slight smile. He said he forever owed Tess for helping him with his powers…if it weren’t for Tess none of it would have happened. Isabel would not let Alex out of her sight for more than 5 minutes, even Michael seemed to smile more.
Her friends were happy. That’s all that she wanted, and as they graduated and paired off, Michael with Maria, Tess and Max, Isabel and Alex, she left for Cambridge and spent her four years studying…trying to find a way out of the deal she had made. They sent e-mails, asking her about her life, wondering why she would not respond, why she hadn’t come to Christmas or weddings and the like, telling her what was new. They didn’t understand, and how could they? She was preparing them. She had made peace with the fact that she was no longer apart of this world, even if she was still alive, and as the clock ticked 11:45pm on the last day, she made one call.
Lucky for her they all gathered on the day of Alex’s ‘rebirth’ and celebrated, so she had only needed to make one call.
“Hang on Lizzie let me put you on speaker. GUYS ITS LIZ!!!!” Alex had screamed, so excited.
She felt a tear escape her from her spot on the bed in her apartment.
“Liz?” Many voices sounded.
“Yeah.” She tried to hide the fact that she was now openly crying.
“Are you okay?” Maria asked.
“Where are you?” Max this time.
“I…I just…”
“We really miss you!” Isabel said concerned into the phone. “Can you come visit soon?”
There was a pause on the other end.
“What is it, Lizzie? Is something wrong?” Alex asked concerned.
“Are…are you all happy?” She pleaded for their answer as a deep howl sounded in the distance.
“Yeah.” Alex said as if it was a joke. “Of course we are…what—.”
“I love you. Goodbye.” The click signified the end of the conversation as the clock struck midnight.
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The Crashdown wasn’t busy, it never was on a Monday night, but she thought she glimpsed her Dad and Mother both working downstairs, which most likely meant someone had called in. She wouldn’t go see them. Liz Parker was dead and had been for some time now. But she would go to her room, and try to find the 10,000 dollars in cash she had hidden amongst her belongings.
Her room looked exactly the same as it did when she was 17, except littering the floor were boxes full of stuff from her Boston apartment. Apparently her parents had not yet dealt with any of her things. Tugging her dress off she quickly found jeans and a long sleeve tee. Grabbing a few more things she shoved them into her duffel. On the bed were the stuffed animals she had had in Boston. Tearing her way into them she started to pull out wads of rolled up hundreds and shoved them into the duffel as well.
After leaving her old room she went straight for the dealership, bought a beat up dark blue ’72 Mustang convertible, and abandoned the other car where she’d found it. At the drug store she purchased more food, toiletries, a pair of hair cutting scissors and a box of black hair dye. She wouldn’t spend any more time in Roswell than that. Too much chance of being recognized.
Finally at a motel 100 miles outside of Roswell, she got a room for the night. The dirty mirror made her pale and sunken face look green. But even with her gaunt face, she still looked like her. The same Liz Parker that had grown up at the Crashdown and fell in love with a boy, the same girl who went to Harvard and nearly gotten a degree in History. That same girl who died tragically in her apartment.
She couldn’t look like that girl anymore. She wasn’t that girl, and why make people think she was still that girl. So she took the scissors to her hair and chopped till it was a little longer than her chin. Holding the scissors vertically, she did has her first year college roommate used to do and chopped chunks out of her hair, making it edgier. Then, finally, she pulled some hair down in front of her face and cut diagonally, making side-swept bangs. Her hair looked just like Anna’s used to, she had seen the girl cut it enough times to know the cut by heart. After she had box-dyed her hair, it came out a black-almost-blue color. Now, with her pale skin and black punkish hair, she looked nothing like Liz Parker. She felt nothing like her either, but that was due to an entire different reason.
After a quick shower she examined her body in the mirror. She was 25 now. She looked older…more mature, more filled out. Nothing marred her skin, no wrinkles yet, and everything was…where it was supposed to be. The only thing marking her flawless body was a burned in handprint wrapped around her left bicep.
She would leave in the morning. She had things to figure out.