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Part 7</center>
There was an uneasy silence between Michael and Liz as they headed back to the hotel. Liz kept glancing over at Michael every occasionally, noting with despair that he didn’t look any less furious than before. Not only was he angry about how she had blurted out everything to Kyle, she knew, but also that she had kept her argument with Tess from him.
She should try to tell him why she had kept it from him. Maybe he would see things her way. But Liz knew that Michael wouldn’t. He’d just think she was keeping things from him. She should talk to him, ease out his anger instead of letting it explode, as she feared it would the second they got back to the hotel. Biting her lip nervously, Liz searched for an opening but one look at Michael’s stormy features made her loose all her courage.
It wasn’t until they were in their hotel room that Liz finally turned to Michael.
“Michael…,” she began but to her surprise, Michael just dropped his bag on the bed and headed into the bathroom, slamming the door behind him without a word or even a glance at her.
Liz winced slightly, confused and worried that he hadn’t said anything as she had expected. Pacing nervously, waiting for Michael to come out, she wondered how she would explain this to him. She figured it was time to tell him about Max.
She was not looking forward to his reaction.
When Michael finally came out of the bathroom, Liz braced herself for the anger or tirade. When there was none, a faint gnawing feeling spread from the pit of her stomach upwards.
“Um…Michael?” she ventured hesitantly. When Michael snapped around to gaze at her piercingly, she backed away slightly. “I-Is everything okay?”
“Sure!” Michael bit out, his voice and eyes icy. “Everything’s fine. Isn’t that what you kept telling me?”
Liz flinched at the sharp and cold tone, biting her lip. “It was. It is,” she began.
Michael rounded on her now, anger pouring from his stance. Liz involuntarily took a step back, rarely having seen Michael like this. “For God’s sakes, Liz! Why won’t you let me help you? Why do you have to do everything by yourself, damn it?” Michael asked in angry frustration. “If you’ve got a problem, you promised you’d come to me!”
“Yes, I did promise,” Liz shot back. “But since I don’t see there to be any problem that I can’t handle, I didn’t think to bother you! I’m not a child, Michael. I’ve had my share of problems. This one is nothing I can’t handle when compared to what I have gone through. To me, there is no problem!”
“What the hell is wrong with you?” Michael demanded. “A guy we don’t know just walked up to us and basically apologized for what some girl said or did to you today! Some guy – a stranger – knew about it before I did! And what girl, Liz? We’ve been in Roswell two days and already you’re getting into fights? If this isn’t a problem then what the hell is?”
At this, Liz’s anger sparked up, firing her eyes. “
Already getting into fights?” she repeated in angry disbelief. “Are you implying that
I’m the one who is always getting in trouble?” She eyed him angrily, coming up to him and giving him an angry shove. “Or have you forgotten all those little
skirmishes of yours back home that
I had to bail you out of time and again?!”
“That is not what I meant and you know it!” Michael yelled, though some of his anger having dissipated as he ran an agitated hand through his hair.
“Do I?” Liz countered. “It sure as hell sounded as if you meant it!”
Michael felt frustration boiling in him and he closed his eyes tightly, fisting his hand by his side to control the anger whipping through him. When he opened his eyes, he was a lot calmer than before and when he spoke, his voice was ragged and weary.
“I’m sorry, Liz,” he said. “That came out wrong. I was just thrown by what happened with Kyle Valenti.”
“That’s doesn’t give you an excuse to say such things to me,” Liz replied, still angry. “I wasn’t lying when I said that everything was fine. It was until a while back. I meant to tell you about what happened today, but I didn’t think now was the time.”
“I said I’m sorry, okay?” Michael said, a bit irritably. Then he sighed. “What
did happen today?” he asked. “What was that guy – Kyle – talking about?”
Waiting for a moment to let her anger cool off, Liz sank down on the bed. Maybe it was time to tell Michael about her encounter with Max after all. Feeling more scared and hesitant than she wanted to, Liz wearily rubbed a hand over her face.
“It started that night I went out for a walk,” Liz began. She glanced up at him. “You know, that night I had the nightmare.”
“Should have figured as much,” Michael muttered but nodded for her to go on.
“That night while I was out I met someone…” Shooting Michael a quick look before looking down at her hands in order to avoid Michael’s gaze, she added, “A guy…Max Evans.” A smile formed on her lips almost unconsciously as she thought about that night. “I’d seen him before; on that first day we went to the Crashdown. He was coming in as we were leaving but our eyes met and something just…connected.” Liz looked up and flushed slightly when she caught the skeptical look Michael had on his face. “I know this sounds ridiculous but it felt like I knew him, had known him for years, a life time. When I went out to the park, the last person I expected to see there was him, but there he was.” She bit her lip, her eyes dreamy from the memory of it. “Michael, it felt perfect, him being there with me. I didn’t stay long, just a few minutes, because the connection I felt unnerved me. It felt too safe, too secure.” Liz’s voice softened to a whisper as she finished, “It made me want things I don’t want to ever need again. It made me feel as if I’d just found someone I’d been looking for, for a really long time…”
Michael listened to Liz closely and felt a stirring of worry when he saw and heard the dreaminess. Liz wasn’t one to act like this, so taken by someone so quickly but there was no doubting the look in her eyes. He wondered why he hadn’t seen it sooner. Feeling more than a little uncomfortable by it, he cleared his throat. “What does this Max have to do with what happened today?” he asked, unable to see the connection.
“I saw him again the next day at the Crashdown,” Liz replied feeling a bit deflated when she recalled their meeting. “I was just saying thank you when this blonde, Tess, came up to him. I think she’s his girlfriend; it sure looked like it anyway. Well, let’s just say that she came and I made a quick exit.”
“When did all of this happen?” Michael asked. “Where was I?”
“Outside, trying to read the map,” Liz replied with a tiny smile. Then waving her hand, she went on. “Anyway, I tried to put Max out of my mind; I really did. I promised myself that I wouldn’t spend anymore time thinking about him. I mean, why should I? I didn’t even know him!”
Even though she tried to sound flippant and unaffected, Michael saw immediately that this was what had been keeping her distracted. He hated to admit it but he was worried about the effect Max Evans seemed to have on Liz. Liz was wary of strangers, especially men, since Sean. She did her best to keep her distance, but the way she talked about Max had Michael wondering just how much of a distance Liz kept with him.
“Sounds to me like this guy got to you,” Michael commented casually, testing.
“He didn’t!” The denial was vehement and quick.
Much too quick. Michael thought with a feeling of dismay. Leaving it aside for now though, he asked, “Where does what happened today fit into all of this?”
“I’m getting to it,” Liz said, a bit irritably. “I was on my way from the Crashdown this afternoon when I saw that girl, Tess, again. She stopped me outside and told me, very fiercely, to keep away from Max. She warned me that if I didn’t stay away from him, I’d be very sorry.”
Michael looked surprised. “But didn’t you tell her you barely know him?”
At this, Liz shot Michael a sheepish look. “Well…her demand got me a bit irked and…well, let’s say I let her think that I had no intention whatsoever of letting Max get away.” When Michael let out a strangled laugh, she smiled. “It was petty of me but it was so satisfying to see her fume. I told her that who I did or didn’t date was none of her concern and that I’d have Max if I wanted him.”
Michael knew he should be annoyed at Liz’s behavior but he couldn’t help feeling amused…and relived. This was the Liz he knew, the one that had been missing for so long. There was the familiar mischievous sparkle in her eyes as she related what happened.
Thoroughly amused at Liz’s behavior, Michael asked with a grin, “What happened next?”
“Well, she fumed and cursed some more. I would have loved to rile her up some more but…” Here Liz paused and shrugged, some of the humor gone from her eyes. “What would be the point? I had already planned to forget all about Max anyway. So, I told her quite clearly that I didn’t want to have anything to do with him, that I barely knew him.”
“What did she say?”
“She didn’t believe me.” Liz shrugged again and got up from the bed. “That’s her problem. I told her the truth and if she doesn’t want to believe it… well, it’s no skin off my nose. I don’t plan to spend any more time even
thinking about Max Evans. Why should I anyway? It’s not as if we are even acquaintances. If she doesn’t want to believe that then fine!”
Michael didn’t comment, rather he watched silently as she ran an irritated hand through her hair. She may have said that she wasn’t going to think about Max but Michael could tell she already was thinking about him. He read it in the irritated and frustrated look she got in her eyes as she tried to focus on the now. It worried him that a guy could get to her, that she wasn’t able to put him aside.
Why can’t I get him out of my head? Liz thought in angry annoyance as she walked restlessly to the window, unaware that Michael was watching her speculatively.
Damn you, Max Evans! What is it about you that makes it impossible for me to forget you?
Hadn’t she told Michael just a moment ago that she wasn’t going to think about him? Hadn’t she told Tess that there was nothing between Max and her? Then why couldn’t she get him out of her head? Why did she keep seeing his deep brown eyes, keep hearing his husky voice?
“You can’t stop thinking about him, can you?” Michael asked, breaking into her thoughts. “The more you try the more you can’t seem to push him away.”
Surprised and startled, Liz’s gaze snapped to meet Michael’s knowing one. She bit her lip, considered lying to him, but then she sighed and nodded. “I don’t know what there is about him, Michael,” Liz admitted as she leaned her head against the side of the window. “I feel a pull… I can’t explain it but it’s there. The harder I try to fight it the more it seems to pull me in.”
“He’s just a random guy, Liz,” Michael told her. “You’re just attracted to him.”
“I know that.” Liz paused and shook her head. “At least I try to tell myself that but somehow it feels like so much more…. he feels like so much more!”
Michael got up to go to her. Laying a calming hand on her shoulder, he said gently but firmly, “Liz, you have to forget this guy. It’s nothing more than attraction. You can’t take a chance with people you don’t know. Remember Sean—”
“I know!” Liz snapped, her eyes sparking with anger at the name. She jerked out of Michael’s grasp and stepped a few paces back. Wrapping her arms around herself when she felt a chill run down her spine, Liz bit out, “You don’t need to remind me of anything. Do you think I could forget? How could I?” Shaking her head, Liz glared at a spot on the wall. “It’s more than caution that has me desperate to forget all about Max Evans. It’s fear. Blinding, choking fear.”
Her voice trembled as tears misted her eyes. She fought them back, adamant that they don’t fall but one tear slid past nonetheless and she hated herself for that weakness. “I’m terrified that the next person I grow close to might turn out to be an enemy as well. I didn’t even suspect anything about Sean until it was too late. I’m afraid that I might…,” she trailed off on a choked sob, brushing away the tear.
“Liz…,” Michael whispered, his heart aching for her. He moved to take her in his arms but she shook her head, moving away.
“No, don’t….” She looked at Michael now and he saw the fear in her eyes. A part of him regretted that it was there, that he had inadvertently put it there. He had begun to hope that maybe he wouldn’t have to see it in her eyes every time he looked into them.
It’s still there, Michael realized with pain.
She keeps it hidden but it’s not gone. Not yet.
“I don’t know who I can trust anymore,” Liz said softly. “I’m scared that I might let the wrong people get too close again, only this time we might not find out until it’s too late.”
“Khivar won’t find us here, Liz,” Michael told her, knowing that was her greatest fear. “I promise.”
“We can’t be sure of that,” Liz replied.
“No, we can’t,” Michael admitted. “But you can be sure of the fact that I’m going to keep you safe.” When Liz nodded, though a bit hesitantly, Michael took her by her shoulders and made her look at him. “I mean that, Liz. I won’t let anything happen to you, not again.”
This time Liz smiled slightly at him. “I know,” she answered. “But I can’t let anyone get too close. No matter how much I might want to,” she added softly. Then she gave a small shrug. “All the more reason for us to find the others right? If we can’t trust them, who can we trust, right?”
“Right,” Michael agreed. “Which brings us to the records that we couldn’t find tonight.”
“It was a useless effort anyway,” Liz answered.
“We don’t have other options at this point,” Michael reminded her, running a weary hand through his hair. “I don’t know about you but I don’t think going back to adoption center is going to be a good idea.”
Liz dug into her pocket and brought out the piece of paper with Kyle’s number on it. “What about this?” she asked, holding it up.
“No way!” Michael said vehemently. “We aren’t asking him.”
“Why not?” Liz demanded. “At this point, he’s our best shot!”
“Liz, what ever happened to not letting anyone close?” Michael asked pointedly.
“Who says we’re going to let him close?” Liz asked. “Look, all I’m saying is it can’t hurt to see if Kyle could get us in to see those files.”
“His dad’s the sheriff,” Michael reminded.
“All the more reason we should take his help. I mean, the sheriff’s son is helping us out. Who could be a better person to ask for help? We can’t really get in trouble for snooping if the sheriff’s son is willing to help.” When Michael looked unconvinced, Liz sighed. “Come on, Michael. You know this is our only hope.”
“I don’t like that this is our only hope,” Michael sighed.
“Neither do I but what have we got to lose, right?” Liz asked.
“How about everything?” Michael shot back. But when Liz just looked at him patiently, he rolled his eyes. “Fine,” he grumbled. “But we give this another day’s thought.”
“We’ll sleep on it,” Liz decided. “Who knows…this might just lead us to the others.”
“Yeah, who knows…?” Michael muttered when Liz headed off to take a shower. He hoped they weren’t making the wrong move.
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Kyle wasn’t sure if what he had done had been wise. Why he would want to help a couple of strangers was puzzling, even to him. It wasn’t just because of Tess as he’d told Liz and Michael but something else. Something in both their eyes had made him
want to help.
There was hope and helplessness there. There was a need in their eyes to know the truth about themselves, their family. A hunger that neither probably knew was there. Whatever the reason, he couldn’t go back on his instinctive action. He’d just have to wait for them to contact him. And he had a feeling they might.
Kyle looked up and glanced at his house at the end of the street. The porch light was on, which probably meant his father was home. He was surprised as his father usually came home very late and left very early. Initially Kyle had felt bitter and resentful that he was never around but he had gotten used to it, gotten used to coming home and not having him home. This wasn’t to say that his relationship with his father was nonexistent; it was just strained.
It wasn’t until he was walking up his driveway that he spotted Tess sitting on the porch steps, obviously waiting for him. He halted to a stop and glanced at Tess warily as she slowly got to her feet when she saw him.
“Tess…”
“I was getting worried,” Tess began, biting her lip nervously as she scrutinized him, trying to figure if he was still angry with her. “I’ve been waiting here for over an hour.”
Kyle stuck his hands into his pockets to keep himself from reaching for her when he saw her blue eyes filled with worry. He hated knowing that he had given her a reason to worry about him, hated the fact that it touched him so deeply that she did.
Scowling more at himself that at her, he bit out, “What do you want, Tess?”
“To talk,” she replied, looking contrite.
Kyle considered brushing past her, telling her that there was nothing to talk about. After all, her actions had said everything, hadn’t they? It had been like a punch in the gut for him when he had realized that Tess had been so protective over Max! He had thought Tess was over him. Hadn’t Tess herself told him so when they had begun dating? But there she had been claws out, threatening Liz to keep away from Max.
Just the thought had his jaws clenching so tightly that his teeth hurt. “I think you made yourself pretty clear enough today,” he retorted.
Tess stepped forward towards him, the distress clear on her face. “Kyle…” She lifted her hand to touch his arm lightly but Kyle jerked away from her touch, half-regretting it the moment he saw the hurt filter into her eyes.
But damn if I’m going to let her fool me! He thought, stalking up the porch.
I know for certain now just how much Max means to her.
Tess watched him yank open the door while guilt and panic flooded through her. She had hurt him, she hadn’t meant to but she had. Kyle thought that she cared for Max, that she was still in love with him, but she wasn’t. If only he’d listen then she could explain herself to him. She had to make him listen. She didn’t want to lose him.
“Kyle, listen to me, please,” she pleaded.
Kyle stopped, turning to pin her with a cold stare. “Why, Tess?” he asked. “So you can tell me again how Max means nothing to you?” He let the door close behind him as he ran a hand through his hair, letting out a short, dry laugh. “God, you had me fooled. How could I never have wondered how you got over Max so easily? You were half in love with him as it was.” He looked at her then, the anger gone from his eyes but replaced by hurt and confusion. “Was I that easy to dupe, Tess?”
“No, it isn’t like that…,” Tess whispered desperately.
“Isn’t it?” Kyle asked walking to her his gaze locked with hers. He grabbed her arm roughly as he dragged her against him, his eyes flashing with anger once more, hiding the depth of his hurt and his longing for her, even now. “You couldn’t get Max so you thought you’d jump over to me? You knew that I loved you, so you thought I’d be an easy lay.”
“That’s not true,” Tess protested weakly, her eyes brimming with tears as she realized how this all seemed to Kyle. She feared that she might have ruined what she had with him. She wanted to explain things to him but for once she couldn’t think, couldn’t open her mouth to argue her case. All she could think was how badly she had hurt Kyle. How could what she had done led to this? She had never imagined the consequence.
Kyle ignored the tears, the pain he saw in her eyes. If he didn’t, he knew he’d just sweep her into his arms and forgive everything. And if he did, then he’d never forgive himself for being so weak. He loved her but he was not second fiddle to anyone, especially not to Max Evans.
“Get this straight, Tess,” he said in a low, dangerous voice. “I don’t settle for being anyone’s second choice!” Saying that, he dropped her arm and stepped back. Tess stumbled for a second at the abrupt release, watching Kyle take another step back from her.
“Kyle!” she cried out. “I don’t love him! I love you!”
Kyle tensed, a part of him soaring at her words for she had never said that to him before. He had said them to her but never had she said them back. But now her admission only pained him. He didn’t know if he could believe her.
“Did you hear me, Kyle?” Tess asked her voice breaking. “I love you.”
“I might have believed that if you told me that a day earlier but,” he paused, a part of him aching as he realized that he couldn’t trust her words. “But right now I don’t know what to believe.”
Tess felt her heart shattering at his words, realizing just how big of a fool she had been. Only when Kyle had been unable to trust her did she realize that one small act had effectively ruined her relationship with Kyle. She watched him head back into the house without a backward glance at her as the tears spilled down her cheeks.
Her legs felt as if they would give out as the heartache engulfed her. She sank down on to her knees, her hands shaking, her heart lurching painfully in her chest.
“What have I done?” she whispered to herself through her sobs. “Oh God, what have I done?”
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It was late when Max came back home that night. As he silently entered the kitchen, switching on a single light, he hoped his parents weren’t awake. He didn’t want to answer any questions about why he was so late or where he had been. He had told them that he and Isabel were heading over to Alex’s house but he was sure that Isabel had come home hours ago. His parents would wonder where he had been.
Rubbing his face, Max sighed. Opening the refrigerator, he pulled out a bottle of cherry coke and twisted it open. He was annoyed with himself. Irritated, angry even. He knew he should have headed home with Isabel from Alex’s but he hadn’t. He had told her to head on home while he walked around for a bit.
He had ended up going to the park in hopes of catching a glimpse of Liz Parker.
He took an angry swig from the bottle, scowling as he set the bottle down. He wasn’t sure what had possessed him to go there. He didn’t want to know why the need to see her again had so overwhelmed his senses. All the way to the park, he’d berated himself for being so weak. He’d kept telling himself that he should turn around and head on home. After all, just because she had been there a night ago didn’t mean she’d be there tonight as well. Rationally he knew that, accepted that, but the sharp punch of disappointment had washed over him anyway when he hadn’t seen her there waiting for him.
He felt foolish for hoping that she had been waiting for him. He felt an even bigger fool when he thought about how long he had sat on the benches near the carousel waiting, desperately hoping for her to show up. What was wrong with him? Why was he acting like this was his first crush or something?
I mean, waiting just to catch a glimpse of her? Max thought with a shake of his head. That wasn’t like him. But then he hadn’t been able to stop thinking about her. Not since that day he first saw her at the Crashdown.
Has it only been two days? Max wondered in amazement. Two days and already she was the only one he could think about. Even today at Alex’s he’d barely paid any attention to what was going on around him. He was only wondering what Liz was doing and when he’d see her next. That flash of chocolate colored eyes, the long silky dark hair…it was all he could picture. Even now.
Muffling a groan, he dropped his head on the table. What was it about Liz Parker that had him constantly thinking about her? He barely knew her…and yet he felt as if he did. When he had looked at her, into her deep fathomless eyes, all he saw was her, the person inside, and he knew he’d never met anyone so beautiful in his life. It was like looking down into her soul, just as he had felt that she could see in his.
The thought had him jerking upright.
See into her soul? He wondered with amused annoyance. What had gotten into him? Since when did he start thinking stuff like that? He took another quick gulp from the bottle as he tried to shake the thought loose.
“Max?”
At the sound of his sister’s voice, Max swiveled around and saw her standing hesitant just inside the kitchen.
“What are you doing still up?” he asked, sounding sharper than he meant.
He saw Isabel flinch at his tone and he regretted it but he really didn’t want any company at the moment. Apparently, Isabel didn’t get that as, despite his tone, she came and sat down on the other side of the counter, facing him, after having gotten herself an orange drink.
Isabel knew her brother was in no mood for company. She just chose to ignore the looks he was sending her way. Something was bothering him – had been for a couple of days - and she figured that she’d let him stew on it long enough. She watched him for a moment, noticing how he avoided meeting her gaze.
“Is something wrong, Max?” she asked.
Max’s gaze snapped up to meet hers in surprise. “No,” he answered quickly, maybe too quickly.
Isabel narrowed her eyes thoughtfully, watching him as she took a sip from the bottle. There was something bothering him all right. She could tell. It radiated off him like waves.
“You seem to have a lot on your mind these past couple of days. I know you do,” she added when he moved to argue. “Do you want to talk about it?”
The last thing Max wanted was telling Isabel about Liz and getting his sister on his case and telling him to keep away from Liz. He knew he should. It wasn’t safe. He knew that too but it still didn’t stop him from thinking about her. Nothing did. He opened his mouth to deny that anything was bothering him, to play it off but then he hesitated. What was the use in lying? Isabel and Tess both would be able to read his emotions easily.
One of the perks of being an alien hybrid. He thought with a sigh. He shook his head then. “No. I don’t,” he told her. He gave her a small smile. “Thanks though.”
Isabel reached across the counter to grasp his hand in hers. “Are you sure, Max?” she asked worriedly.
Max nodded. “I’m sure.”
“Okay,” Isabel said. “If you say so. But you can come to me with anything. You know that, right?”
Max smiled. “I know.”
Silence settled between them as they both finished their drinks. When Isabel asked if he was coming upstairs, he told her to head on, that he needed a few moments to himself. She nodded in understanding and headed out.
Then, just as she was leaving, she turned around suddenly, as if a thought just occurred to her.
“Max, did you happen to notice anything odd between Tess and Kyle tonight?” Isabel asked.
Max frowned as he thought about the evening and then nodded slowly. “Yeah. I did. Kyle and Tess were awfully cold to one another.”
“What do you think happened?” Isabel asked with concern. “Those two never fight.”
“There’s a first time for everything, Iz,” Max reminded her with a smile.
Isabel rolled her eyes at him. “I know that but things seemed…tensed. Kyle also left quite early,” she replied. “Maybe you should talk to Kyle, ask what’s wrong.”
“Isabel, I’m not going to get in between their arguments,” Max frowned.
“Kyle’s your friend, Max,” Isabel pointed out.
“And so is Tess,” Max reminded. “Yours too, in fact. Besides, for some odd reason I get the feeling Kyle wouldn’t want me asking him about this.”
“I’m just worried. Tess avoided me and Maria today,” Isabel shrugged. “Guess I’ll have to ask Kyle.”
“Isabel, don’t butt in,” Max warned her.
“I won’t,” Isabel told him as she left. “I’m just concerned.”
Max watched her leave, hoping that Isabel didn’t step where she wasn’t wanted.
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** Flash **
“Why?”
The word came out on a choked sob as she stared up at Sean. Even though she saw the cold glee in his eyes, her heart refused to believe he could do this. Even though her wrists burned from where the rope bit into them, she refused to accept that he would do this to her.
“Why do you think?” Sean sneered.
“I trusted you!” Liz cried out, her heart shattering, the tears slipping down, unstoppable.
“I know.” The word was said so carelessly, so smugly that to Liz it was like a slap in the face. “Don’t struggle,” Sean said with some amusement as he watched her tug at the ropes binding her hands. “It’ll be no use.”
The scene changed before her, until she found herself struggling in almost blind panic to tug the rope off her feet instead. She could hear her own desperate sobs as her fingers slipped over the knots. Her body ached from the bruises, the blood oozing from the cuts and nicks on her arms only made it harder for her to untie the rope.
Hurry, hurry, hurry!
A frantic chant in her head cried out even as the rope finally slid free. Sean was nowhere to be seen but she didn’t know how long he would be away. She had to work fast. I have to get to Michael!
She sprang to her feet, ignoring the pain that shot through her, running as fast as she could to the door that would lead her outside to safety, to Michael. She fumbled with the doorknob, pushing against it, the sobs shaking loose from within her.
Why wasn’t it opening? Why wasn’t the door opening? He’d locked it when he’d left. He’d locked her in. There was no way out. He’d come back and she’d still be locked in, at his mercy.
Get yourself together, Parker!
She berated herself, forcing herself to calm down. She was an alien; she had powers. She had avoided using them until now, always had been too scared to, but she would use them now.
Placing her hand over the lock and forcing herself not to tremble, Liz concentrated at pushing the molecules apart, making the lock spring open. It took her precious seconds and the relief swept through her when the door slid open.
“Please, don’t let him be here. Please keep him away for a while longer,” Liz chanted to herself as she dashed up the stairs and outside. All she could think was that she had to get to Michael. He would save her.
But she skidded to a startled halt when she got outside. A desperate cry slid past her lips as she stared at a grinning Sean who stood before her.
“Now, honey,” he said silkily, his eyes gleaming dangerously. “Where do you think you’re going?”
Liz took a step back, ready to turn around and take off running but his hand clamped down on her arm stopping her. She cried out, trying to shake him loose but he held on. Sean whirled her around so that she was only inches from him, the hold on her arm tightening, bruising.
“Don’t be so sure you can get away from me, Liz,” Sean whispered smugly. “You’ll never get away.”
He let go of her arm abruptly and for just a moment Liz stared at him in shock. She didn’t wait though before she took off running. She expected him to follow but she didn’t dare look back to see. As she ran, the scene changed around her once more, this time until she found herself running down the familiar main street of Roswell. The change surprised her and she stumbled, falling.
The rough road scratched her hands and her knees, burning. She wanted to cry but she knew she couldn’t, she had to get up and keep going. She had to put distance between herself and Sean. Some part of her objected, reminding that this wasn’t how it should be, how it had been but she was too terrified to take notice.
She ran blindly, not knowing where she was going, only that she had to be far away from Sean, had to get to Michael. “Please…,” she sobbed as she ran, not knowing what she was asking for. But no matter how fast she ran, no matter which way she ran, Sean’s voice followed her, repeating, reminding, and terrorizing her.
“You’ll never get away, Liz. Not from me. Not from Khivar. Not then and not now….”
** End Flash **
With a gasp that came from fear as much as from shock, Liz bolted up in bed. Her pulse beat frantically as the adrenaline pumped through her blood. Her face and shirt were damp from the cold sweat, her breathing hitched as she fought back the tears.
It had been so real. The dream was almost as if she had been there, reliving that nightmarish night all over again. She could taste the fear in her mouth; feel the blood on her hands. She could feel the rough texture of the rope in her hands as she struggled with it. It had never seemed so real to her before and it frightened her, terrified her.
It was just a dream, she told herself as she ran a shaky hand through her damp hair.
It was just a dream. He’s not here. He can’t find me anymore. I’m safe. Michael’s here.
Still she found herself looking left towards Michael’s sleeping form, almost as if she needed confirmation that he really was here. Fumbling, she reached for the clock to check the time and noticed it was 3 A.M. Her heart still raced and she took a moment to steady her jangled nerves.
It took her another moment to notice the wetness on her cheeks and much to her surprise and disgust she found she had been crying. She hated the fact that a mere dream could have shaken her so much, more than it normally did. She hated that fact that she still had tears to cry, tears for herself, tears for what she had left behind, tears for what had happened but most of all she hated it that she still cried for Sean.
He didn’t deserve them, he didn’t deserve a moment of her thought, her tears, and yet she couldn’t stop aching and feeling hurt, betrayed. She might be able to push thoughts of him away throughout the day but during the night, when the dark invaded and seeped into her thoughts, she found herself thinking of him, wondering about him, hurting for him. And she hated that she did so.
Not daring to turn on the lamp for fear of waking Michael, Liz got up from the bed quietly, making her way to the bathroom. Shutting the door, she switched on the light, wincing slightly at the glare. She glanced at her disheveled form in the mirror, and washed up slowly and carefully, being sure not to think about anything but what she was doing.
Once she was done, she sank down to sit on the edge of the tub. Only now did she allow herself to think about the dream, to relive it, playing it image for image, word for word. The clarity with which she remembered startled her, unnerving her. She’d always been able to recall her dream but never like this, never as if she was living it all over again.
It felt almost like a….
But no, it couldn’t be. Could it? She wondered dazedly.
A premonition?
She pressed her fingers over her eyes as she felt a dull ache in her head as she tried to figure it out in her mind. What she had felt, what she still felt just thinking about the dream was exactly what a premonition had felt like to her. The clarity, the life-like feeling. It was one of her powers, after all. It wasn’t impossible for her to have a premonition in her dream. She’d had them before.
But it was different this time, she thought. Premonitions usually showed her something about the future or a certain event yet to take place. The dream she had was not about the future. It wasn’t even her past, at least not exactly. It wasn’t even an event. It had been all a dream except for that part of Sean holding her captive. The rest had never happened. She hadn’t managed to escape and she had definitely not run through the streets of Roswell bleeding.
It didn’t show her anything, didn’t point to anything that would be happening soon.
Or did it? Liz shivered as Sean’s last words floated through her mind.
“You’ll never get away, Liz. Not from me. Not from Khivar. Not then and not now….”
Was that some sort of sign? Some kind of warning? Then she shook her head, dispelling such thought. She was being ridiculous. Ridiculous and paranoid. This wasn’t a premonition. It may have felt like one but it wasn’t. It couldn’t have been.
We had been talking about Sean tonight. Liz tried to tell herself.
It just brought back bad memories and surfaced old fears, is all.
She kept repeating that to herself as she settled back into bed. She had nothing to fear after all, not anymore. Hadn’t Michael promised her that? And as she fell into a restless sleep, she almost believed it.
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