From Behind The Tree (CC,M/L,ADULT) Ch 20 - 08/29/04 [WIP]
Posted: Sun Aug 08, 2004 3:04 pm
Hello All Long time no see.....
Lets see where to begin ....
Here's what the last year or so has brought.
My father did not make through his illness, he died on June 18th of last year. Three weeks after that my mother suffered a severe brain injury and spent almost two months in the hospital. She is now staying with me on a permanent basis. I got divorced from Candice about that same time. It was just not meant to be. You can't pull the past to the future. I started a new job, managing a hobbyshop. A lot less pressure, a little more fun. I have also gotten married to wonderful woman, her name is Andrea. We have been together for a year and a half and were married on June 12th of this year. A few days after our marriage she she went in for open heart surgery in Clevland. She did extremely well, we'll know if the operatiion was a complete succcess in a few more months. When we arrived at our home upon her release, I went into the hospital for surgery with Diverticulitus and have to have 4 inches of my colon removed. We are both due to be going back to work around the middle of this month.
Whew.... With that said, I do want to apologize for just simply dropping of the face of the earth. A lot of you have been very kind to me and supportive. I want to thank you all for that. I will not be posting as frequently as I used to. I want to concentrate on one story at a time and do a better job that before.
This one will finish out in a few more chapters. Some of my other stories I am going to re-edit and clean upp some of my first time mistakes. I also have two to three more stories and I am slowly working out.
Well enough about me and on with the show.
Here is a linnk to the first seventeen chapters
From Behind The Tree Parts 1 - 17
Author: MoonieADT
Category: Max/ Liz
Rating: TEEN - ADULT
Disclaimer: Roswell, Max, Liz etc. don't belong to me. Just borrowing them with thanks.
Summary: Revisiting the life of Max and Liz as seen through Max’s eyes. Close the series but not quite. Aliens are still aliens and humans are humans. Enjoy
Authors Note: I have been viewing this board for almost a year now and have read many wonderful fics. They have inspired as well as saddened me at times, but that’s what they are suppose to do. Like just about everyone else I was saddened with what they did to the show and wanted to see it in a new way. This is my first FanFic. I would really appreciate feedback.
From Behind The Tree:
Chapter 18
Higher Learning:
We had been in our new apartment now for a couple months. It was great to finally be on our own, no more running off to the granolith chamber to make love, no more sneaking through windows to see each other. Every night we curled up together and drifted off into the most fulfilling sleep either of us had ever known. It took us both almost a full month before we really started to believe that we had finally done it, we were finally married.
Some people say that the only difference between being married and dating is that you have a piece of paper and rings to show that you belong together. I feel sorry for those people; they are truly missing the point. Liz and I are so much closer now; I never thought that it would be possible. Our connection brings us as close as two people can get but, being married, pledging ourselves to each other in that age-old ceremony, deepened a bond that was already fathomless.
I know that I sound like some kind of wimpy, sentimental sap, but I am so in love with my wife, sometimes it literally hurts with the intensity of how deep the feelings are. Sometimes I find myself taking an extra deep breath, trying to deal the how intense my love for her is. It’s so easy to act all aloof and above it all, it takes a real man to open himself up and turn yourself over to the feelings that are swirling around your heart. When you do that, that’s when you really know how much you love someone, you now how much they touch your heart and soul.
How can I even begin to describe to you what she means to me? The fact that I’m writing this chronicle of our life should give some testimony to it. It’s hard to describe love; it’s so elusive, kind of like a song. You can only experience the joy of the music while it’s playing and then your left with the memory of it. You have to experience it to really know it.
When I look at her I feel so powerful and yet to weak. She fills me with the strength to take on anyone and anything yet all she has to do is look at me and I’m putty in her hands. When I’m not with her my chest feels so tight and empty, the memories of her fill me but they are never enough. When I finally find myself back in her arms after being away from her its like having my entire being renewed. I almost feel like an automaton when I’m away from her, only truly coming alive when I am in her presence.
I think of her and I want to cry from the shear beauty she possesses. Not just on the outside, but all that she is.
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“Max, c’mon. Everyone’s going to be there tonight. It’ll be a blast.” Bill prodded him.
We were standing in the living room of my apartment. This had become something of a monthly ritual for Bill. I had met him in one of my classes at college in Roswell. Occasionally we would get together and shoot baskets down at the park near the apartment. Not living at home anymore, I didn’t have the luxury of my own private court any longer but this was just as good.
“Bill, we do this every month. You ask and I say no.” I said with a laugh.
Bill shook his head as I took a drink from my glass of iced tea. The cool liquid felt great going down, it had been a very hot afternoon, but that hadn’t stopped us from spending a good hour and a half on the ball court.
“Max, no offense, but won’t the little woman let you go?” He asked with a smirk.
“<I>The little woman</I> has nothing to do with it.” I said a little clipped.
“Whoa, I was only kidding Max. Is there a reason you won’t go out?” Bill asked trying to smooth things over.
I drew my fingers through my hair and looked briefly up at the ceiling. How was I going to explain this to someone who didn’t have a serious relationship?
“So what would we be doing?” I asked thoughtfully.
The smile on Bill’s face told me that he thought he had his partner in crime.
“Well, we’ll get the guys together and head to the club, have some drinks, check out the women, you know, just generally have fun.” He said, taking another swig of his drink.
“So, I’m supposed to have a good time watching you guys hook up. Right?” I asked with a bit of amusement.
“Well, I’m sure there would be someone there for you.” Bill replied without much thought.
“WHAT?” I asked with a little more venom that I had meant to.
“Shit…Max, I’m sorry man. Um…I.” He tried to apologize.
“Bill just don’t.” I said raising my hand to stop him from continuing. “You now that <I>little woman</I> I live with? She’s my wife. WIFE. I would never do anything like that to her. I’m going to be a father for Christ’s sake and you’re asking me to act like a teenager. What’s wrong with you?” I ventured a little calmer that before.
“Max, I’m sorry. That was way out of line. I didn’t mean to offend you or Liz. I just…how can you do it? Max you <I>are</I> a teenager.” He said with emphasis.
“Bill, it’s about maturity, not how old I am. Just because I’m nineteen, doesn’t mean I have to act it. I have no business going out with out my wife. We are a team. Where one of us goes, the other goes. What am I going to find in a bar? Trouble, that’s what. I may have the greatest respect for my wife, but those other people there don’t. It’s not going to stop some girl from coming up to me. I don’t want that. You guys are going to be there wanting that attention, I don’t, sorry man. It was just never for me.” I finished.
We sat there in silence for a few minutes, each of us lost in thought. We had never really gone down this road before. Our conversations had always been pretty light, sports and such, never anything that could be considered deep.
“Hey Max, man, sorry bout, you know. Listen, I’m gonna get going. Got to meet up with the guys.” He said as he got up and grabbed his bag from the floor.
We walked over to the door and stepped outside, a little breeze had picked up since we had been on the court. The afternoon was giving way to early evening; it was going to be a beautiful night.
“All right Bill, I’ll see ya at school, have a good time.” I said sincerely.
“Max, you’re real lucky you know that?” He said, his eyes looking slightly to my side.
I looked down and there she was. My Liz. Her stomach rounded with our children, her hair pulled back in a loose ponytail. She is my everything. I wrapped my arm around her waist and pulled her closer to my side, her body molded itself completely to mine. At my first touch, the whole world expanded and I became warm from the inside of my soul. I always carry that part of her in me, but when we touch it doubles in the intensity. I smiled down at her, my wife and felt the world unfold before me all over again.
“I know, believe me, I know.” I replied without looking up, my eyes and mind captivated by the tiny beauty that holds every part of me in the palm of her hands.
I heard Bill chuckle slightly and utter his good-byes.
“See ya Bill.” I called out as he entered his car.
Arm in arm we turned and went back inside our home. We walked over to the couch and set down, I pulled her onto my lap and absentmindedly rubbed my hand along her swollen stomach. It was October now and Liz had started to really show over the last few months. We only had less that two months before the arrival of our twins, our gifts that we were both so afraid we might never be able to have.
“So, what ya doin to night?” She asked me from where she had her face buried in my neck, her voice was smooth and silky, just like the breath that played along my skin with each one she took.
She had heard the whole conversation.
“Anything as long as it’s with my family.” I answer her softly.
“Max, do I hold you back? Are there things that you would like to do?” Liz asked me as she sat up to look me in the eyes.
“Liz, they don’t understand. I have a family. You and the twins are what are important to me. I’m not missing out on anything. I am right where I’ve always wanted to be. What about you?” I ask a bit hesitantly.
“Max, I don’t want to be anywhere without you. I believe in all the things you said to Bill. Sure we do stuff with our friends but there are certain things that I just don’t want, if I ever did, anymore.” She placed a little kiss on my nose before pulling back a little to look deep into my eyes. “Besides, you’re the only one I want to hook up with.” She smiled seductively at me and fluttered her eyelashes.
“Mrs. Evans, are you hitting on me?” I asked her with mock seriousness.
“Well, that depends…” She trailed off as she looked slightly away from me; she had mastered the coy look so long ago.
“On…” I prompted as I snuggled in closer to her neck and placed little kisses along the sensitive skin begging to be tasted there.
“Am I going to get lucky with you if I am?” She asked me while her hand made its way down between our bodies to rub over my hardening excitement.
“Well, you’re going to have to work for it. I can’t have you thinking that I’m easy or something like that. I do want you to respect me in the morning.” I replied as my fingers began to dance down the front of her blouse, loosening the buttons that held the silky fabric in place that was blocking my hungry eyes from her ripening body.
Liz pulled back a little and pulled her blouse completely off. She unsnapped the clip at the front of her bra and pulled the lace cups away, letting her plump breasts fall free from the cups. Her nipples were already hardening as the cool air of the room caressed her skin, making me jealous that it was first to touch her.
“Well, I happen to know for a fact you are easy when it come to me Mister Evans, but that’s why I respect you.” She laughed sweetly as she descended towards my lips with hers.
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“All right everyone, pick a spot on the floor and get settled with your partner.” The instructor called out from the front of the room.
Liz and I looked around the room at all of the pregnant couples, husbands and wives, boyfriends and girlfriends, moms and daughters, all combinations you might be able to think of. We found a spot off to the side and settled down with our mat and pillow. I laid the mat on the floor and took Liz’s hands in mine and settled her gently to the floor. I sat behind her and let her rest her back against my chest.
Liz leaned back further into me and turned her head to look up into my eyes. Our eyes held and we just lost ourselves as we always do. I slipped my hands around her and drew lazy circles over the stretched fabric of her maternity top. She was so tiny; I still had such a hard time believing that she was going to be able to carry the twins. Liz said that she felt great, as a matter of fact; she had said that even though the twins were feeding from her, they gave her back energy. It was the most incredible thing, she looked so bright and vibrant, and she really, truly glowed.
I leaned down and captured her lips for what was supposed to be a simple kiss for support and love. But as soon as our lips touched, they clung together, having a mind of their own. Her lips parted slightly and her tongue swept against my lips, pushing between them and seeking its connection to my own. Languidly we kissed, our lips brushing gently yet passionately together.
The clearing of a throat brought us from our haze that we had settled into. We became aware of the entire room looking at us with a mixture of awe, jealously and happiness. Liz started to laugh as I ducked my head behind the curtain of her hair, my cheeks burning in embarrassment.
“Your names?” The instructor asked Liz.
“Um, Liz and Max Evans.” She said in a clear voice, her tucking a hair behind her ear was the only thing giving away that she was a little nervous.
“Nice to meet you.” She said with a kind smile. “Well class, as you can see, being pregnant does not mean that your partner wants you any less.” She said giving us a mischievous smirk. “In fact, some find it to be completely erotic to be intimate while they are pregnant. And no, unless your doctor tells you otherwise, you cannot hurt the baby. In fact, it is very healthy for the baby. Remember, a happy mom, means a happy baby.” She finished with a wink towards us.
I just shook my head and sighed, I just didn’t know how to control myself when it came to Liz. And no matter what happened, I still never seemed to learn my lesson.
“Well Max, that explains why the twins are doing summersaults all of the time.” She playfully quipped at me, smacking me lightly on the chest, the only problem was that she said it loud enough for the entire room to hear. Everyone erupted into laughter at her antics. Some of the woman gave their husbands a bit of a look that said, <I>you should be more like him</I>.
“All right class, I think we’ve embarrassed the Evans’ enough for today. Lets get to the task at hand. Welcome to Lamaze or Natural childbirth. Here you will learn the techniques to help you through the incredible experience of giving birth to your child. The goal is to have a completely safe and natural experience. Notice I said safe first. That’s the most important part. Some of you may not be able to go the natural method and that is perfectly okay, that’s just how it was meant to be. Remember safe is the most important, natural is only secondary to that.”
The instructor carried on for the next hour giving us some handouts and instructions on what to expect. She described the different stages of labor and what would be happening in each of them. It was truly amazing what my wife was going to be going through to give birth to our children. It gave me a whole new respect for her and for women. It really was a miracle, giving birth.
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While Liz had been finishing up with the instructor, I had stepped outside and made reservations for us. As we were driving home, at least that’s what Liz thought, she told me about what she and the instructor had been discussing. Liz had wanted to know if there was anything special she needed to know since she was having twins. Much to her dismay she had only replied ‘a lot of energy.’
She had told Liz, not that she had not already read this with Isabelle in any one of the many books the two of them had poured through preparing for the births, that twins usually have a lower birth weight than single children. She had assured her that it was perfectly normal for this and that the births would be a little easier because of the smaller size. We both knew that no matter how you cut it, giving birth was not going to be easy at all, smaller baby or not, but the lady was only trying to help.
As we pulled up in front of the restaurant Liz looked over at me with a slight line of confusion across her forehead.
“Max?” She asked me as we pulled into the parking lot.
“Hmmm.” I replied a bit non-committal.
The line on Liz’s forehead deepened, she hated when I answered but didn’t answer. It usually got me in pretty deep trouble, but I had a plan and there was no way she was going to be upset about this, at least I hoped not.
“Max Evans, do you want to sleep on the couch tonight?” She asked, a slight tone of warning entering her voice.
“Liz Evans, is that where you want your loving husband to sleep tonight?” I threw right back at her.
I have to say; the look of utter shock that crossed her face at my unexpected retort was priceless. She had never expected me to take her on like that, most of the time I was too scared to. Tonight I wasn’t going to let her bully me into giving away anything. Hell, who am I kidding, I was scared shitless that she was going to have a fit that I was not telling her, but a guy has to try.
Before she could recover from her shock, I got out of the car and came around to her side and opened the door for her. I bent down and placed a kiss on her still, (thank god) shocked face and took her hand into mine. Giving her a gentle tug, I helped her out of the car and we walked silently through the door up to the maitre de.
“Yes sir, may I help you?” He asked sincerely.
“Evans? We have a reservation.” I said, sneaking a look over at my wife, a slow smile was starting to form on her lips.
“Yes sir, your table is ready, all has been arranged just as you asked.” He snapped his fingers and our server escorted us in.
We were seated in a nice secluded area, the lighting was low and the table was lit only by candlelight. I had asked for the most romantic spot in the place and they had not disappointed. Soft music wafted through the room, slow and sensual. I pulled out her chair and paused for her to be seated and helped her slide in. I looked down at her and paused. My senses filled with everything that was her, I became aware of everything.
I kneeled down on one knee next to her chair and took her hands in mine. I gazed deeply into her eyes, eyes that had shared so much with me, eyes that would see our children’s, children grow old, eyes that I would look into at the end of everyday and the beginning of every morning for eternity.
“I love you!” I whispered passionately to her, my lips closing on hers just as I finished my heartfelt declaration.
I made love to her mouth, slowly and thoroughly. We reacquainted our lips and tongues with each other’s over and over again. I was completely thirsty, never being sated, as I drank from her mouth. Her taste drove me beyond the limits of all that I have ever known. My fingers sifted restlessly through her hair, drawing her closer to me, molding her chest to mine. My other hand stroked her stomach, the temple that held our treasures, our futures.
Someone saying, “Why can’t you be more like that.” broke me out of my haze and brought me back. Liz looked over my shoulder at the woman who had made the remark to her husband, a slight blush covering her already rosy cheeks.
“Don’t be embarrassed sweetheart,” the lady assured her, “be proud of your husband, he is definitely a keeper. You are very lucky.” She finished wistfully and her and her slightly disgruntled husband left their table.
Liz caressed my face lovingly with her fingers; everywhere she touched little tingles of fire and passion stirred in their wake. Her eyes wandered my face, it seemed as if in some ways she was seeing me for the first time.
“Are you going to tell what all of this is for?” She asked me breathlessly.
“How long do you have?” I asked her, a slight glint marking my eye.
“Max….” She warned.
I moved over to my seat and took her hands in mine, running my fingers lightly over the back of hers.
“Liz, You mean the world to me. I don’t want there to be a day that goes by that I don’t tell you that.” I paused to look up at the ceiling, trying top find the words to say what was bursting inside of me. “You’re having our children, its such a miracle Liz. What you have to go through is just; I don’t know how to describe it. The most incredible thing is, is that you do all of these things for love.”
As I looked up from making my tiny speech I’m met with eyes bright with tears and a smile that could stop time.
“Max, I love you, our children, our life.” She said simply.
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“Maria, will you stop.” Liz said in exasperation
“Liz, now listen to me. I’ve been reading about this and its very interesting. They say that having your baby underwater…” Maria tried again.
“Enough!” Liz said tossing her hands in the air.
Maria looked over at me for help and I just shook my head. I was not getting in the middle of this one. Maria was on her own, and if she knew better she should quit now. Liz was only a few weeks from delivering the twins and she was in no mood for anything other than normalcy.
“Now Liz…” Maria started.
“Maria, I am not a fucking science experiment.” She cursed.
As mush as I tried I couldn’t help the chuckle that escaped when she swore. You have to understand, Liz <I> Never</I> swears. Every time she does it just seems like the funniest thing. Most of the time I can tell when it’s coming so I don’t laugh but this time came right out of the blue.
Liz turned her sights on me and fixed me with a semi cold glare. The last thing I needed was an irate wife.
“Do you have something you wish to add?” She asked me severely.
“No, I just can’t believe Maria is suggesting this.” I said meaningfully.
Mission accomplished.
The focus is now back on Maria and, no, she is not pleased with me. But you know what, I don’t have to live with her.
What, I’m a king, not stupid! There is a time and place to point out the irrationalities of a situation to someone. At no time is almost twelve months pregnant a good time to do such a thing.
Michael looked over at me and smirked, he knew what the score was, he was going to get an earful about me from Maria later on but he just usually laughed it off and by the end Maria usually was laughing to. So what if they made fun of me as being a wimp, or scared of a little five foot two woman. All I have to say is that when Maria gets pregnant, and we all know she will, Michael is going to be laughing out of the other side of his ass.
“All right, everything has already been planned. We are not changing now. “ Isabelle affirmed, sliding a reassuring hand down Liz’s arm.
“I was just trying …”
“MARIA!” The whole group called at once.
Liz, me, Isabelle, Alex, Michael and Maria all just looked at each other. I decided I might as well try and smooth things over. I stood up and moved over to the kitchen table where the girls were sitting together.
“Cupcake?” I asked Liz as I picked up her favorite kind from the tray Maria had brought over for our little gathering.
I don’t know why, but the whole room thought that was the most hilarious thing they had ever heard. Then just to make it all the more funny, well at least for some. Liz smiled widely at me and took the cupcake from me. She took a bite and them proceeded to shove, yes you heard me right, shove. the remains of it into my face. All the while she had the biggest smile on her face.
“Max, I love you.” She said as she stood up and pulled my face to hers and kissed the concoction from my lips and cheeks.
“Okay, that’s our queue to leave. Have fun Betty Crocker.” Alex called over his shoulder as Isabelle shoved him towards to the door.
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“Max, I’m as big as a house.” Liz whined from the bed.
“Honey, your beautiful.” I called to her from the bathroom as I finished brushing my teeth.
“Max, so I’m a beautiful big house?” She asked me, the voice that I had expected to be playful was on the verge of tears.
“Honey, no.” I tried to assure her.
“So I’m an ugly big house?” She called tearfully to me.
Oh god, what had I done. I wait till now, only a few weeks before the twins are to arrive to totally screw up my perfect record of dealing with her pregnancy hormones.
SHIT!
I moved quickly from the bathroom to her side of the bed and kneel down next to her. I pulled her into my arms and tried to sooth her worries.
“How can you stand to touch a big ugly house?” She moaned as she tried to push me away and turn into the covers of the bed to hide.
“Liz, you are not ugly. You are not a house. You are not big.” I say rapidly before she thinks I will leave something out. “You are the most beautiful woman I have ever or will ever see in my entire life. I have loved you from the time I was little and I will love you until beyond this life. I think you are incredibly sexy pregnant if you really most know.” I said trying to give her a little smirk.
“So you didn’t think I was sexy before I was pregnant?” She sniffled.
I looked up at her face, incredulous, until I noticed a little smirk of her own. She’s back; my playful Liz is back and by the look in her eye, yep (Her hand just wandered down the front of my pajama bottoms and grabbed my, well, you know.) she’s definitely back.
“Liz there is never a time when you’re not sexy.” I say, very proud of myself, I might add.
Liz chuckled and gave my hardening flesh in her hands a rather firm and serious squeeze.
“You’re only saying that because I hold your life in my hands.” She giggled to me.
“Well, what ever are you going to do with my <I>life</I>?”
“Hmm.” She eyes me thoughtfully as she pulled me towards her by the very thing we are talking about. “I have a very creative imagination.” She said dreamily as she pulled my head down to hers with her free hand for the first of many kisses that night.
Lets see where to begin ....
Here's what the last year or so has brought.
My father did not make through his illness, he died on June 18th of last year. Three weeks after that my mother suffered a severe brain injury and spent almost two months in the hospital. She is now staying with me on a permanent basis. I got divorced from Candice about that same time. It was just not meant to be. You can't pull the past to the future. I started a new job, managing a hobbyshop. A lot less pressure, a little more fun. I have also gotten married to wonderful woman, her name is Andrea. We have been together for a year and a half and were married on June 12th of this year. A few days after our marriage she she went in for open heart surgery in Clevland. She did extremely well, we'll know if the operatiion was a complete succcess in a few more months. When we arrived at our home upon her release, I went into the hospital for surgery with Diverticulitus and have to have 4 inches of my colon removed. We are both due to be going back to work around the middle of this month.
Whew.... With that said, I do want to apologize for just simply dropping of the face of the earth. A lot of you have been very kind to me and supportive. I want to thank you all for that. I will not be posting as frequently as I used to. I want to concentrate on one story at a time and do a better job that before.
This one will finish out in a few more chapters. Some of my other stories I am going to re-edit and clean upp some of my first time mistakes. I also have two to three more stories and I am slowly working out.
Well enough about me and on with the show.
Here is a linnk to the first seventeen chapters
From Behind The Tree Parts 1 - 17
Author: MoonieADT
Category: Max/ Liz
Rating: TEEN - ADULT
Disclaimer: Roswell, Max, Liz etc. don't belong to me. Just borrowing them with thanks.
Summary: Revisiting the life of Max and Liz as seen through Max’s eyes. Close the series but not quite. Aliens are still aliens and humans are humans. Enjoy
Authors Note: I have been viewing this board for almost a year now and have read many wonderful fics. They have inspired as well as saddened me at times, but that’s what they are suppose to do. Like just about everyone else I was saddened with what they did to the show and wanted to see it in a new way. This is my first FanFic. I would really appreciate feedback.
From Behind The Tree:
Chapter 18
Higher Learning:
We had been in our new apartment now for a couple months. It was great to finally be on our own, no more running off to the granolith chamber to make love, no more sneaking through windows to see each other. Every night we curled up together and drifted off into the most fulfilling sleep either of us had ever known. It took us both almost a full month before we really started to believe that we had finally done it, we were finally married.
Some people say that the only difference between being married and dating is that you have a piece of paper and rings to show that you belong together. I feel sorry for those people; they are truly missing the point. Liz and I are so much closer now; I never thought that it would be possible. Our connection brings us as close as two people can get but, being married, pledging ourselves to each other in that age-old ceremony, deepened a bond that was already fathomless.
I know that I sound like some kind of wimpy, sentimental sap, but I am so in love with my wife, sometimes it literally hurts with the intensity of how deep the feelings are. Sometimes I find myself taking an extra deep breath, trying to deal the how intense my love for her is. It’s so easy to act all aloof and above it all, it takes a real man to open himself up and turn yourself over to the feelings that are swirling around your heart. When you do that, that’s when you really know how much you love someone, you now how much they touch your heart and soul.
How can I even begin to describe to you what she means to me? The fact that I’m writing this chronicle of our life should give some testimony to it. It’s hard to describe love; it’s so elusive, kind of like a song. You can only experience the joy of the music while it’s playing and then your left with the memory of it. You have to experience it to really know it.
When I look at her I feel so powerful and yet to weak. She fills me with the strength to take on anyone and anything yet all she has to do is look at me and I’m putty in her hands. When I’m not with her my chest feels so tight and empty, the memories of her fill me but they are never enough. When I finally find myself back in her arms after being away from her its like having my entire being renewed. I almost feel like an automaton when I’m away from her, only truly coming alive when I am in her presence.
I think of her and I want to cry from the shear beauty she possesses. Not just on the outside, but all that she is.
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“Max, c’mon. Everyone’s going to be there tonight. It’ll be a blast.” Bill prodded him.
We were standing in the living room of my apartment. This had become something of a monthly ritual for Bill. I had met him in one of my classes at college in Roswell. Occasionally we would get together and shoot baskets down at the park near the apartment. Not living at home anymore, I didn’t have the luxury of my own private court any longer but this was just as good.
“Bill, we do this every month. You ask and I say no.” I said with a laugh.
Bill shook his head as I took a drink from my glass of iced tea. The cool liquid felt great going down, it had been a very hot afternoon, but that hadn’t stopped us from spending a good hour and a half on the ball court.
“Max, no offense, but won’t the little woman let you go?” He asked with a smirk.
“<I>The little woman</I> has nothing to do with it.” I said a little clipped.
“Whoa, I was only kidding Max. Is there a reason you won’t go out?” Bill asked trying to smooth things over.
I drew my fingers through my hair and looked briefly up at the ceiling. How was I going to explain this to someone who didn’t have a serious relationship?
“So what would we be doing?” I asked thoughtfully.
The smile on Bill’s face told me that he thought he had his partner in crime.
“Well, we’ll get the guys together and head to the club, have some drinks, check out the women, you know, just generally have fun.” He said, taking another swig of his drink.
“So, I’m supposed to have a good time watching you guys hook up. Right?” I asked with a bit of amusement.
“Well, I’m sure there would be someone there for you.” Bill replied without much thought.
“WHAT?” I asked with a little more venom that I had meant to.
“Shit…Max, I’m sorry man. Um…I.” He tried to apologize.
“Bill just don’t.” I said raising my hand to stop him from continuing. “You now that <I>little woman</I> I live with? She’s my wife. WIFE. I would never do anything like that to her. I’m going to be a father for Christ’s sake and you’re asking me to act like a teenager. What’s wrong with you?” I ventured a little calmer that before.
“Max, I’m sorry. That was way out of line. I didn’t mean to offend you or Liz. I just…how can you do it? Max you <I>are</I> a teenager.” He said with emphasis.
“Bill, it’s about maturity, not how old I am. Just because I’m nineteen, doesn’t mean I have to act it. I have no business going out with out my wife. We are a team. Where one of us goes, the other goes. What am I going to find in a bar? Trouble, that’s what. I may have the greatest respect for my wife, but those other people there don’t. It’s not going to stop some girl from coming up to me. I don’t want that. You guys are going to be there wanting that attention, I don’t, sorry man. It was just never for me.” I finished.
We sat there in silence for a few minutes, each of us lost in thought. We had never really gone down this road before. Our conversations had always been pretty light, sports and such, never anything that could be considered deep.
“Hey Max, man, sorry bout, you know. Listen, I’m gonna get going. Got to meet up with the guys.” He said as he got up and grabbed his bag from the floor.
We walked over to the door and stepped outside, a little breeze had picked up since we had been on the court. The afternoon was giving way to early evening; it was going to be a beautiful night.
“All right Bill, I’ll see ya at school, have a good time.” I said sincerely.
“Max, you’re real lucky you know that?” He said, his eyes looking slightly to my side.
I looked down and there she was. My Liz. Her stomach rounded with our children, her hair pulled back in a loose ponytail. She is my everything. I wrapped my arm around her waist and pulled her closer to my side, her body molded itself completely to mine. At my first touch, the whole world expanded and I became warm from the inside of my soul. I always carry that part of her in me, but when we touch it doubles in the intensity. I smiled down at her, my wife and felt the world unfold before me all over again.
“I know, believe me, I know.” I replied without looking up, my eyes and mind captivated by the tiny beauty that holds every part of me in the palm of her hands.
I heard Bill chuckle slightly and utter his good-byes.
“See ya Bill.” I called out as he entered his car.
Arm in arm we turned and went back inside our home. We walked over to the couch and set down, I pulled her onto my lap and absentmindedly rubbed my hand along her swollen stomach. It was October now and Liz had started to really show over the last few months. We only had less that two months before the arrival of our twins, our gifts that we were both so afraid we might never be able to have.
“So, what ya doin to night?” She asked me from where she had her face buried in my neck, her voice was smooth and silky, just like the breath that played along my skin with each one she took.
She had heard the whole conversation.
“Anything as long as it’s with my family.” I answer her softly.
“Max, do I hold you back? Are there things that you would like to do?” Liz asked me as she sat up to look me in the eyes.
“Liz, they don’t understand. I have a family. You and the twins are what are important to me. I’m not missing out on anything. I am right where I’ve always wanted to be. What about you?” I ask a bit hesitantly.
“Max, I don’t want to be anywhere without you. I believe in all the things you said to Bill. Sure we do stuff with our friends but there are certain things that I just don’t want, if I ever did, anymore.” She placed a little kiss on my nose before pulling back a little to look deep into my eyes. “Besides, you’re the only one I want to hook up with.” She smiled seductively at me and fluttered her eyelashes.
“Mrs. Evans, are you hitting on me?” I asked her with mock seriousness.
“Well, that depends…” She trailed off as she looked slightly away from me; she had mastered the coy look so long ago.
“On…” I prompted as I snuggled in closer to her neck and placed little kisses along the sensitive skin begging to be tasted there.
“Am I going to get lucky with you if I am?” She asked me while her hand made its way down between our bodies to rub over my hardening excitement.
“Well, you’re going to have to work for it. I can’t have you thinking that I’m easy or something like that. I do want you to respect me in the morning.” I replied as my fingers began to dance down the front of her blouse, loosening the buttons that held the silky fabric in place that was blocking my hungry eyes from her ripening body.
Liz pulled back a little and pulled her blouse completely off. She unsnapped the clip at the front of her bra and pulled the lace cups away, letting her plump breasts fall free from the cups. Her nipples were already hardening as the cool air of the room caressed her skin, making me jealous that it was first to touch her.
“Well, I happen to know for a fact you are easy when it come to me Mister Evans, but that’s why I respect you.” She laughed sweetly as she descended towards my lips with hers.
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“All right everyone, pick a spot on the floor and get settled with your partner.” The instructor called out from the front of the room.
Liz and I looked around the room at all of the pregnant couples, husbands and wives, boyfriends and girlfriends, moms and daughters, all combinations you might be able to think of. We found a spot off to the side and settled down with our mat and pillow. I laid the mat on the floor and took Liz’s hands in mine and settled her gently to the floor. I sat behind her and let her rest her back against my chest.
Liz leaned back further into me and turned her head to look up into my eyes. Our eyes held and we just lost ourselves as we always do. I slipped my hands around her and drew lazy circles over the stretched fabric of her maternity top. She was so tiny; I still had such a hard time believing that she was going to be able to carry the twins. Liz said that she felt great, as a matter of fact; she had said that even though the twins were feeding from her, they gave her back energy. It was the most incredible thing, she looked so bright and vibrant, and she really, truly glowed.
I leaned down and captured her lips for what was supposed to be a simple kiss for support and love. But as soon as our lips touched, they clung together, having a mind of their own. Her lips parted slightly and her tongue swept against my lips, pushing between them and seeking its connection to my own. Languidly we kissed, our lips brushing gently yet passionately together.
The clearing of a throat brought us from our haze that we had settled into. We became aware of the entire room looking at us with a mixture of awe, jealously and happiness. Liz started to laugh as I ducked my head behind the curtain of her hair, my cheeks burning in embarrassment.
“Your names?” The instructor asked Liz.
“Um, Liz and Max Evans.” She said in a clear voice, her tucking a hair behind her ear was the only thing giving away that she was a little nervous.
“Nice to meet you.” She said with a kind smile. “Well class, as you can see, being pregnant does not mean that your partner wants you any less.” She said giving us a mischievous smirk. “In fact, some find it to be completely erotic to be intimate while they are pregnant. And no, unless your doctor tells you otherwise, you cannot hurt the baby. In fact, it is very healthy for the baby. Remember, a happy mom, means a happy baby.” She finished with a wink towards us.
I just shook my head and sighed, I just didn’t know how to control myself when it came to Liz. And no matter what happened, I still never seemed to learn my lesson.
“Well Max, that explains why the twins are doing summersaults all of the time.” She playfully quipped at me, smacking me lightly on the chest, the only problem was that she said it loud enough for the entire room to hear. Everyone erupted into laughter at her antics. Some of the woman gave their husbands a bit of a look that said, <I>you should be more like him</I>.
“All right class, I think we’ve embarrassed the Evans’ enough for today. Lets get to the task at hand. Welcome to Lamaze or Natural childbirth. Here you will learn the techniques to help you through the incredible experience of giving birth to your child. The goal is to have a completely safe and natural experience. Notice I said safe first. That’s the most important part. Some of you may not be able to go the natural method and that is perfectly okay, that’s just how it was meant to be. Remember safe is the most important, natural is only secondary to that.”
The instructor carried on for the next hour giving us some handouts and instructions on what to expect. She described the different stages of labor and what would be happening in each of them. It was truly amazing what my wife was going to be going through to give birth to our children. It gave me a whole new respect for her and for women. It really was a miracle, giving birth.
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While Liz had been finishing up with the instructor, I had stepped outside and made reservations for us. As we were driving home, at least that’s what Liz thought, she told me about what she and the instructor had been discussing. Liz had wanted to know if there was anything special she needed to know since she was having twins. Much to her dismay she had only replied ‘a lot of energy.’
She had told Liz, not that she had not already read this with Isabelle in any one of the many books the two of them had poured through preparing for the births, that twins usually have a lower birth weight than single children. She had assured her that it was perfectly normal for this and that the births would be a little easier because of the smaller size. We both knew that no matter how you cut it, giving birth was not going to be easy at all, smaller baby or not, but the lady was only trying to help.
As we pulled up in front of the restaurant Liz looked over at me with a slight line of confusion across her forehead.
“Max?” She asked me as we pulled into the parking lot.
“Hmmm.” I replied a bit non-committal.
The line on Liz’s forehead deepened, she hated when I answered but didn’t answer. It usually got me in pretty deep trouble, but I had a plan and there was no way she was going to be upset about this, at least I hoped not.
“Max Evans, do you want to sleep on the couch tonight?” She asked, a slight tone of warning entering her voice.
“Liz Evans, is that where you want your loving husband to sleep tonight?” I threw right back at her.
I have to say; the look of utter shock that crossed her face at my unexpected retort was priceless. She had never expected me to take her on like that, most of the time I was too scared to. Tonight I wasn’t going to let her bully me into giving away anything. Hell, who am I kidding, I was scared shitless that she was going to have a fit that I was not telling her, but a guy has to try.
Before she could recover from her shock, I got out of the car and came around to her side and opened the door for her. I bent down and placed a kiss on her still, (thank god) shocked face and took her hand into mine. Giving her a gentle tug, I helped her out of the car and we walked silently through the door up to the maitre de.
“Yes sir, may I help you?” He asked sincerely.
“Evans? We have a reservation.” I said, sneaking a look over at my wife, a slow smile was starting to form on her lips.
“Yes sir, your table is ready, all has been arranged just as you asked.” He snapped his fingers and our server escorted us in.
We were seated in a nice secluded area, the lighting was low and the table was lit only by candlelight. I had asked for the most romantic spot in the place and they had not disappointed. Soft music wafted through the room, slow and sensual. I pulled out her chair and paused for her to be seated and helped her slide in. I looked down at her and paused. My senses filled with everything that was her, I became aware of everything.
I kneeled down on one knee next to her chair and took her hands in mine. I gazed deeply into her eyes, eyes that had shared so much with me, eyes that would see our children’s, children grow old, eyes that I would look into at the end of everyday and the beginning of every morning for eternity.
“I love you!” I whispered passionately to her, my lips closing on hers just as I finished my heartfelt declaration.
I made love to her mouth, slowly and thoroughly. We reacquainted our lips and tongues with each other’s over and over again. I was completely thirsty, never being sated, as I drank from her mouth. Her taste drove me beyond the limits of all that I have ever known. My fingers sifted restlessly through her hair, drawing her closer to me, molding her chest to mine. My other hand stroked her stomach, the temple that held our treasures, our futures.
Someone saying, “Why can’t you be more like that.” broke me out of my haze and brought me back. Liz looked over my shoulder at the woman who had made the remark to her husband, a slight blush covering her already rosy cheeks.
“Don’t be embarrassed sweetheart,” the lady assured her, “be proud of your husband, he is definitely a keeper. You are very lucky.” She finished wistfully and her and her slightly disgruntled husband left their table.
Liz caressed my face lovingly with her fingers; everywhere she touched little tingles of fire and passion stirred in their wake. Her eyes wandered my face, it seemed as if in some ways she was seeing me for the first time.
“Are you going to tell what all of this is for?” She asked me breathlessly.
“How long do you have?” I asked her, a slight glint marking my eye.
“Max….” She warned.
I moved over to my seat and took her hands in mine, running my fingers lightly over the back of hers.
“Liz, You mean the world to me. I don’t want there to be a day that goes by that I don’t tell you that.” I paused to look up at the ceiling, trying top find the words to say what was bursting inside of me. “You’re having our children, its such a miracle Liz. What you have to go through is just; I don’t know how to describe it. The most incredible thing is, is that you do all of these things for love.”
As I looked up from making my tiny speech I’m met with eyes bright with tears and a smile that could stop time.
“Max, I love you, our children, our life.” She said simply.
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“Maria, will you stop.” Liz said in exasperation
“Liz, now listen to me. I’ve been reading about this and its very interesting. They say that having your baby underwater…” Maria tried again.
“Enough!” Liz said tossing her hands in the air.
Maria looked over at me for help and I just shook my head. I was not getting in the middle of this one. Maria was on her own, and if she knew better she should quit now. Liz was only a few weeks from delivering the twins and she was in no mood for anything other than normalcy.
“Now Liz…” Maria started.
“Maria, I am not a fucking science experiment.” She cursed.
As mush as I tried I couldn’t help the chuckle that escaped when she swore. You have to understand, Liz <I> Never</I> swears. Every time she does it just seems like the funniest thing. Most of the time I can tell when it’s coming so I don’t laugh but this time came right out of the blue.
Liz turned her sights on me and fixed me with a semi cold glare. The last thing I needed was an irate wife.
“Do you have something you wish to add?” She asked me severely.
“No, I just can’t believe Maria is suggesting this.” I said meaningfully.
Mission accomplished.
The focus is now back on Maria and, no, she is not pleased with me. But you know what, I don’t have to live with her.
What, I’m a king, not stupid! There is a time and place to point out the irrationalities of a situation to someone. At no time is almost twelve months pregnant a good time to do such a thing.
Michael looked over at me and smirked, he knew what the score was, he was going to get an earful about me from Maria later on but he just usually laughed it off and by the end Maria usually was laughing to. So what if they made fun of me as being a wimp, or scared of a little five foot two woman. All I have to say is that when Maria gets pregnant, and we all know she will, Michael is going to be laughing out of the other side of his ass.
“All right, everything has already been planned. We are not changing now. “ Isabelle affirmed, sliding a reassuring hand down Liz’s arm.
“I was just trying …”
“MARIA!” The whole group called at once.
Liz, me, Isabelle, Alex, Michael and Maria all just looked at each other. I decided I might as well try and smooth things over. I stood up and moved over to the kitchen table where the girls were sitting together.
“Cupcake?” I asked Liz as I picked up her favorite kind from the tray Maria had brought over for our little gathering.
I don’t know why, but the whole room thought that was the most hilarious thing they had ever heard. Then just to make it all the more funny, well at least for some. Liz smiled widely at me and took the cupcake from me. She took a bite and them proceeded to shove, yes you heard me right, shove. the remains of it into my face. All the while she had the biggest smile on her face.
“Max, I love you.” She said as she stood up and pulled my face to hers and kissed the concoction from my lips and cheeks.
“Okay, that’s our queue to leave. Have fun Betty Crocker.” Alex called over his shoulder as Isabelle shoved him towards to the door.
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“Max, I’m as big as a house.” Liz whined from the bed.
“Honey, your beautiful.” I called to her from the bathroom as I finished brushing my teeth.
“Max, so I’m a beautiful big house?” She asked me, the voice that I had expected to be playful was on the verge of tears.
“Honey, no.” I tried to assure her.
“So I’m an ugly big house?” She called tearfully to me.
Oh god, what had I done. I wait till now, only a few weeks before the twins are to arrive to totally screw up my perfect record of dealing with her pregnancy hormones.
SHIT!
I moved quickly from the bathroom to her side of the bed and kneel down next to her. I pulled her into my arms and tried to sooth her worries.
“How can you stand to touch a big ugly house?” She moaned as she tried to push me away and turn into the covers of the bed to hide.
“Liz, you are not ugly. You are not a house. You are not big.” I say rapidly before she thinks I will leave something out. “You are the most beautiful woman I have ever or will ever see in my entire life. I have loved you from the time I was little and I will love you until beyond this life. I think you are incredibly sexy pregnant if you really most know.” I said trying to give her a little smirk.
“So you didn’t think I was sexy before I was pregnant?” She sniffled.
I looked up at her face, incredulous, until I noticed a little smirk of her own. She’s back; my playful Liz is back and by the look in her eye, yep (Her hand just wandered down the front of my pajama bottoms and grabbed my, well, you know.) she’s definitely back.
“Liz there is never a time when you’re not sexy.” I say, very proud of myself, I might add.
Liz chuckled and gave my hardening flesh in her hands a rather firm and serious squeeze.
“You’re only saying that because I hold your life in my hands.” She giggled to me.
“Well, what ever are you going to do with my <I>life</I>?”
“Hmm.” She eyes me thoughtfully as she pulled me towards her by the very thing we are talking about. “I have a very creative imagination.” She said dreamily as she pulled my head down to hers with her free hand for the first of many kisses that night.