It’s Hard To Say I’m Sorry - CHILD {COMPLETE}

[burningchaos]

Disclaimer: Song is ‘These Things’ by Fuel. I own nothing
Author’s Note: Max POV. Set after my story ‘Taking Over Me’
CHILD

I have this smile to hide me
And this cross to bear
I have your picture that still haunts me like your memory
These things have I
I have these words to lie to me
These stupid songs to share
I have these countless hours to fill the void you left me
These things have I
For all the things I‘ve done
Let you down I just apologize
But sorry’s hard some how
Seems so strange it be easy now
But I’ve got this faith to blind me
And I’ve got these dreams we shared
And I fear these dreams are all I’ll have that’s left to me
These things have I


It had been over three years since she left me for Michael; at first, I hated them both. They betrayed me. But then I slowly started to miss Liz…God how I still love her. That love has changed though, because she was right. I loved the idea of her, that perfect girl was never really her. It has taken me three years of being alone to see that. It is more than a little sad and pathetic that it took me that long, but it did.

I found out where they all live months ago, but have been too afraid to go. It is hard to admit you are wrong, it is hard to say you’re sorry. I have been watching their houses for a week now.

I see them and how happy they are and wonder if I should intrude, if it is easier for them if I just stay away. I want to be apart of their lives though. I want to know my nephew and nieces. I want to be there if they need me… no wait that is wrong. I want them to be there for me, because I need them.

I am tired of being alone. Wandering while I contemplate what I’ve done wrong. It is time to come clean.

I went shopping and bought stuff for the babies. Isabelle’s and Liz’s daughters, for Liz and Michael’s son. I try not to think of all the time I’ve wasted, am wasting with my fear and indecision, but I’m afraid.

I met with Maria last month. She has forgiven me; it was a wonderful thing to see her again. I missed her and all her weirdness. I was so harsh to her, but she let it all go and just hugged me when I cried while apologizing. She is more then I expected her to be after all this time. When I get done here she is going to call Liz. She missed her, but thought we were still together so she never tried and ignored Liz when she called. She took the news of Liz and Michael well, and is surprisingly happy for them. We are getting together again soon.

I am sitting in my car while they are all in Liz and Michael’s house. I need to make my move, to finally walk up to their home and knock. To stop being afraid..To end this all.


I knock on the door while holding the gifts in a bag trying not to run, trying hard not to be so afraid. I mean I was a King, right?

The door opens and there stands Michael. I haven’t seen him in exactly four years. God, I missed him. His hair is longer and still messy but he looks so happy. I have never seen him smile that way before.

I stand there immobilized, but Michael reaches out and hugs me. Turning his head while he is doing, so he yells, “Everyone, Max is here.”

“So you decided to come in after all?”

He leads me into the house, to his family, my family and I am home.