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Catching the Butterfly (AU M/L Adult) END 10/25/05

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Title: Catching the Butterfly

Author: Icequeen

Category M/L (Some A/I)

Rating: Adult

Disclaimer: I don't own anything roswell except for season 1 and 2 on DVD. The characters of Roswell belong to Melinda Metz, the WB, and UPN

Summary: One fateful night changed everything for two friends since college Max Evans and Liz Parker. Will trying to raise their daughter together come between there friendship or will something either of them expected bring them closer together? ( i know i know another M/L best friends fic but i'll try my best to make this one different :wink: )
Anything is Italics is a flashback

A/N: Thanks Kris for the kick ass banner!!!! Thanks Fran and Lissa for telling me that it's good and making me post :D There will be ANGST. This is not a fluff piece by any means.

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~~Chapter1~~
“Dad I can’t find my pink sneakers.”

“Look under the bed honey we’re running late.”

“I’m not going until I find my pink shoes.” I walk in the bedroom and see my daughter sitting on her bed with her arms crossed. She’s dressed in her uniform and I see that Liz did her hair the way she likes but where the hell are her pink sneakers?

“Sweetie why don’t you wear these instead?” I hold up a pair of white Reeboks with pink laces. I see the tears forming in her eyes and I know that I need to find those damn sneakers.

“Why don’t you go down and have some breakfast ok and I’ll find your shoes.” I brush the tears from her face and place a kiss on her head before she walks down the stairs.

~~

“You ready for your first day?” I ask as I see her plop down on the stool.

“No. Dad has to find my pink shoes first or else I’m not going.”

“Oh really, well eat your breakfast and I’ll see if I can’t find those shoes.” I hand her a bowl of oatmeal and head upstairs to help Max find the shoes.

“You know she’s stalling right?” I ask when I see Max looking under the bed for her shoes.

“What? Why?” He stands up and smoothes out his clothes.

“I saw her hiding them last night. She’s scared to be in a new school Max.” I go over to her toy chest and find the shoes underneath all her dolls.

“She didn’t say anything to me last night. I thought she’d be excited. This is a good opportunity for her.” I see him fixing his hair in the mirror and hold back a laugh. Such a prima Donna.

“She doesn’t want to tell you that’s all. Besides, she‘s 6 she doesn‘t understand that this is a better school for her. She was getting used to her old school.” Alana was getting to good at hiding her feelings from us.

“It’s only the first grade. She’ll be fine. She can still see her old friends.” He smiles at me and he doesn’t get it.

“Max she’s getting older now. Things are changing.” He looks at me and I can tell he doesn’t know what I mean.

“Look let’s talk about his tonight I’ve go to head to work. I’ll make dinner come over around 7.” I give him a quick peck on the cheek and go check on Alana.

“Ok sweetheart, I have to go but I found your shoes.” I hand them to her and hold back my laughter when I see her face. She’s wondering how we found them.

“Dad’s going to drop you’re off but I’ll be there to pick you up ok?” When I see her nod I give her a kiss and grab my bag for work.

~Max~

“Alright sweetie you ready?”

“Yeah, I’m ready.” She doesn’t try to hide the lack of enthusiasm.

“It’s going to be great you’ll see.” I try to smile and make her feel better but I know my daughter and she’s not buying it.

We pull up to her new school and I get an uneasy feeling. It’s a great school and I’m happy Alana is going here but, I don’t want her to become into one of these step ford kids I see walking around. I cut the engine off and walk around to help her out.

“I’m only going to walk you to your class today so don’t worry.” I know she hates when I do this but it is a new school and I’d feel better walking her myself.

“I don’t mind dad.” That breaks my heart. I now know that she’s scared shitless. She squeezes my hand as much as she can as we walk up the steps and into the school.

“Dad those ladies are looking at you.” She points to a group of what I assume are mothers dropping their kids off.

“No there not.” I turn to see what she’s talking about and sure enough she’s right. I give them a small smile and continue to walk into the school.

I drop her off at her class making sure she‘s settled then head to work. I work in the family business. We build high rises and lately my father has moved us into doing takeovers. I’m the face of the company. Lucky me.

“Morning Max.” My personal assistant and my best friend Michael‘s wife greets me.

“Here’s your paper, your messages are on your desk, your father wants to see you and I picked up your shirts from the cleaners.” She says it in one breath and hands me my coffee. She’s a Godsend.

“Thank you Maria.” I give her a kiss on the cheek. I’ve known her for years and I would be lost without her.

I’m checking my e-mails when my father barges in my office.

“Morning dad.” I say sarcastically. I hate when he does that.

“Max.” He sits on the leather couch and signals me to join him.

“What is it dad I’m busy.” I really am busy and he should know that.

“I need you to come over to the house tonight. I have some things to talk to you about.”

“Can’t. I’m having dinner with Liz. We have some things to discuss.” I know that’s not good enough for him but I’m not postponing this dinner.

“Well you can discuss them later or tomorrow this is important.”

“Not more important then my daughter. Whatever it is you have to say tell me now or wait till tomorrow.” He knows better then to ask me to cancel anything regarding Alana.

“Is something wrong with my granddaughter?” At least the old man has a soft spot for her. He fell in love the second he saw her contrary to all the crap he talked while Liz was pregnant.

“No nothings wrong she’s just getting old her and well you know.” I look up at him.

“Ahhhh I see. So what are you going to do about it? I knew this arrangement was going to cause a problem. I warned you about this.” I try to stop myself from rolling my eyes at him

“Dad please. We’ve been over this already. Everything is fine ok. I have some work to do I’ll see you later.” I get up and walk to my desk. Conversation over.

~~Liz~~

“How was your first day babe?”

“It was good. I made a new friend can she come over one day?” I’m so glad that she’s made a friend.

“Sure sweetie. Let’s get home and get you out of the uniform.” She smiles at me and we head home.

“You hungry?” I ask and she nods yes. I make her a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and cut it into a star shape while she goes up and changes.

I’m glad that she’s made a friend but sooner or later they will start to ask questions about her mom and dad primarily why we don’t live together and if we are married. It’s never come up before but she’s starting to ask more and more questions and I want to be prepared for when she does.

The rest of the afternoon goes by quickly and I’m getting Alana ready for her bath when Max comes in.

“Daddy!” She screeches when she heard him drop his keys on the table. It’s funny how she knows it’s him.

He comes in the bathroom and kneels down next to me while I wash her hair.

“How was my baby’s first day?”

“It was good dad. I made a new friend and mom said she can come over.” She was so excited.

“That’s great baby. Do you like your teacher?” He asked.

“She’s ok.” I sense something there but I leave it alone.

“Just ok? Well as long as she’s nice right?” I see her give him a wide smile and sit back and watch the two of them together. Even though she wasn’t planned and Max and I were never a couple she is the best thing in my life and I know I can say the same for Max. I remember the day I told him that I was pregnant as if it were yesterday.

“Max I need to talk to you.” I sat on the chair across from his desk. I didn’t want to tell him here but I couldn’t wait any longer.

“What’s wrong?” He could always tell when something was wrong with me.

“Well, you remember the new year’s party?” What am I talking about of course he remembers. It was only a few weeks ago and one of the biggest parties we’ve ever been to.

“Liz of course I do. What is this about?” Shit he’s worried now.

“Well ,you know how that night we um we uh well you know what we did.” I feel like a child I can’t even say the words.

“Yeah Liz, I know what we did. What’s up?” he really has no clue.

“Well, I’m pregnant.” I blurt it out and I see his mouth literally hanging open.

“I’ve known for a few days now. I wanted to make sure I knew what I wanted before I told you. I’m going to keep the baby, and I’m not forcing you to do anything. You can be involved as much or as little as you want or not at all. I just wanted to let you know.” I’m glad I got that out.

“Wow, this is um sudden. Are you sure? I mean you went to the doctor already?” I don’t get mad because I know he’s in shock

“Yeah, I did a home test as well as a blood test to make sure. I’m going to go now but call me whenever you’ve made your decision ok. And I’m not going to get mad whatever you decide. I know you didn’t mean for this to happen but, in a way I’m glad that it did.” I walked out of his office and waited for him to call. Two days later he showed up at my house.

“Hey, can I come in?” I let him in and we both sat on the sofa. We talked pretty much all night and decided to raise this baby together. Well ,not entirely together but we would share responsibility for him or her.

To make things easier we each bought townhouses next door to each other. Max would come with me to all my Lamaze classes and helped decorate the nursery. For the first six months of Alana’s life he moved in with me to make things easier. I think he didn’t want to miss anything either.

When he moved back out we set up a nursery at his house so he can take her overnight also. We talked everything out and worked well together. We had been friends for years so it came naturally to us. We never talked about the things we said to each other on that fateful night. In a way I was glad that he never brought it up.


I’m now sitting downstairs while Max reads her a bedtime story. She loves when he does it because he makes different voices for all the characters. I suck at that. Half hour later he comes down looking like he’s about to fall asleep himself.

“She made you lay with her didn’t she?” I ask him as he settles next to me on the couch.

“Yeah. Something’s up with her.” I agree.

“I know. You want something to eat?” I ask already half way to the kitchen.

“Thanks.” I had him a plate of food and wait for him to start eating before I begin to talk.

“So, I’ve been thinking and we never discussed how to handle certain questions that are going to be coming up soon.” He puts his fork down and wipes his mouth.

“I know. What do you think?” He always asks what I think first. I hate that.

“Well, we need to explain things to Alana first and make her understand. Once she feels comfortable her friends will be fine with it. We just need to agree on what to tell her.”

“We can just tell her that mom and dad love each other but we are not in love with each other.” He says it like it’s so simple.

“Max she’s 6 she’s not going to understand that.” He knows I’m right and takes in a deep breath.

“Ok so what do you think we should say?” How I wish I could really tell him what I think but that was complicate things so much more.

“Now that I think about it your right she’s smart I’m sure she will understand.” I can’t look at him now and pretend to wash the dishes.

“ Are you alright?” He stands next to me with his arms crossed over his chest.

“Yeah I’m fine. We’ll talk to her this weekend ok? We can take her to the park or something.” I just want him to leave now before I loose my cool.

“Ok I’ll see you tomorrow then.” He comes over every morning to help get Alana ready for school. He’s been doing it since kindergarten and hasn’t missed a day.

I finish rinsing the dishes and get myself ready for bed.

~~

“Liz, there someone in your office waiting for you. He said he’s an old acquaintance quite handsome may I add.” My assistant tells me as soon as I get into the office. Wondering who the hell it could be I walk into my office.

“Elizabeth is it possible that you have gotten even more beautiful since I last saw you?” I see Jake Connors standing there in all his glory. To say he is handsome is a major understatement. He‘s tall tan and blonde and has a brain. He‘s just too damn cocky for my taste. I hadn’t seen him in years.

“Jake what are you doing here?” I give him a hug and practically squeezes the life out of me with his strong arms.

“I can’t come by and see you? You know you broke my heart the last time we saw each other.” Like anyone could break his heart.

“Oh Please stop it. You know that you and I would never work.” He knows this so we kid around a bit. We dated briefly a while back before I had Alana.

“Ok the real reason I came is that I’m throwing a party in town and I came to the best.” He winks at me and he still has his charm.

“What brings you back to Boston I thought you were harassing women in Europe?” He both laugh.

“My sister is getting married so you know what that means.” Since his father passed away Jake has been the man of the family taking care of his sister and mother.

“Oh wow tell her congratulations for me.” I hadn’t seen her in years. I bumped into her two years ago but she and I don’t have a lot in common. Maybe because she’s a socialite and I‘m a work-a-holic.

“Why don’t you tell her yourself? Come to the house this weekend, we are having a get together before the wedding. I’m sure my mom will be glad to see you.” I want to say yes but I can’t. So much has changed.

“Thank you but no. I can’t I’m sorry.” I put on my chef’s jacket hoping that he gets the point and leaves soon.

“It’s just a party not a date.” He winks at me. Maybe I should drop by just to say hello to his mother.

“Ok maybe I’ll stop by for a few. Give me the details and I’ll be there.” I hand him a notebook so he can write down the time and address.

“Nonsense I’ll pick you up. Give me you address.” Shit how am I going to get around this one?

“No no it’s fine I’ll meet you there.” I push the notepad back towards him wishing he would just write the address down.

“Ok.” He shakes his head and writes down the information. Now I have to tell Max without him asking 20 questions. I decide that the best way to deal with Max is to feed him. He has a major sweet tooth and lucky for me I’m an excellent baker.
~~~~

I make it to my parents’ house and as soon as I walk into the house I feel apprehensive. I didn’t have a bad childhood per say but it wasn’t the best. I know I shouldn’t complain we had money and I had all the toys I wanted I just didn’t have the kind of parents I really wanted. I was raised by a nanny. That’s why when I decided to be apart of my child’s life I was in all the way. I was going to be there for her all the time even if it bugged her.

The maid takes my jacket and leads me to my fathers study.

“Max I’m glad you made it.” He almost sounds happy to see me. He wants something.

“Dad.” He pours me some brandy and I take a seat.

“I’m going to get right to the point here.” Shit this is going to go well. Not!

“Yeah dad please I would like to get home soon.”

“You know about the takeover that the company is planning.” He knows that I know. What is his problem?

“Yeah and?” What the hell does he want?

“Well I need you to be move involved in this deal. I’m going to a benefit and I’d like you to attend with me.” I know he has a hidden agenda. He never asks me to attend functions like this.

“Dad you know I don’t like attending those kinds of things. It’s not me.”

“I’m not asking you Max. I’ll have someone deliver the invitation to you office tomorrow morning.”

“Fine. Is there anything else?”


“Yes. I need you to speak at the ground breaking for the new high rises downtown.”

“I am the face of the company aren’t I?” I hate these things but I have to do them. No one wants to see my dad at these things yeah I’m being used but so what. It’s for a good cause.

“Good night Max.” He pats me on the back and I crack a smile.

When I get home I see that Liz is still up. I’m pissed because I missed putting Alana to bed. I quickly change out of my work clothes and head over there. When I walk in the smell of whatever she’s baking smacks me in the face. She knows how much I love sweets.

“Max, I’m in the kitchen.” She calls to me and I bee line over there.

“Damn that smells good what is it?” I see her take something out of the oven.

“I have some made up over there taste it.” I pick up the pastry and take a bite. It’s pure heaven.

“You make the best desserts.” I say before I devour whatever it is that I’m eating. When I look around the kitchen I see that there are a few things that she’s made and they are all desserts.

“What’s going on?” I ask her knowing that something is up. She never cooks like this unless she’s nervous or upset about something.

“Well I did want to talk to you about something.” She’s biting her lip. This can’t be good.

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~~Chapter 2~~
He can read me like a book. As soon as he asks me what’s up I can’t lie. It’s like pulling off a band aid right? Just spit it out Liz.

“Well, I kind of need a favor from you. I was wondering if you can watch Alana Friday night for me.” I feel like I’m asking permission to go out on my first date. I’m such an idiot I could have had Isabel do this.

“Umm, ok. You know you don’t have to ask me though. Where you going?” I knew he would ask.

“I do have to ask because I never know when you are going to have guests or not. And it’s just a party uptown.”

“I don’t always have guests as you call them. And are you really going to a party uptown?” He laughs and I want to smack him.

“Yes really and no I’m not cooking for it I’m a guest.” HA! Beat you to it smart ass.

“Oh la la you are moving up in the world huh?” Ok ,that’s it he’s pissing me off. I throw some flour at his precious hair.

“Liz come on you know that shit is hard to get out.” He runs to the bathroom to tend to his hair. Score one for Liz I got his mind off the subject at hand. Now, I have to get out of the house without him or Alana asking more questions.

~~
“Why you gettin all dressed up?” Alana asks me for the hundredth time tonight.

“Because sweetie I’m going out.” I’m a wreck and Max hasn’t come to get her yet.

“Daddy likes it when you get dressed up. He thinks you’re pretty.” So naïve, it’s cute really.

“I’m sure he likes it when all women dress up baby.” I didn’t mean to say that out loud.

“No. Just you mommy. He’s gonna marry you.” Oh God I knew this would come.

“Alana baby mom and dad are not going to get married. “ I’m trying to have one of the most important conversations with my daughter while I do my makeup.

“But you said when two people love each other they get married and have a baby. So you had the baby now get married.” She hops off my bed and walks out of my room. I wish it was that easy.

I finish my makeup and i am putting my shoes on when I hear the door open.

“Dad!” Why isn’t she that excited when I get home? Daddy’s girl you think?

“Dad you have to see mom she looks like a princess.” I hear her tell Max as they walk upstairs.

“She can’t be the princess, what would you be then?” I hear him ask her and smile.

“Well she can be the queen then.” That’s my baby.

~~

I’m walking towards her room and know I’m going to hate what I see. I know she’s going to look fucking gorgeous and I hate that. I have a suspicion that she’s going out on a date and I am a little upset that she won’t tell me. I tell her when I have a date. Well that might be different; I have a date almost every night and with a different person. Liz, she never dates. Ever! That is why I hate this night but, I put on a smile for her and my daughters sake.

“Wow.” I couldn’t help myself when I saw her. She’s wearing a simple black dress with her hair wavy and down the way I love it. Liz’s simplicity is what I love most about her.

“Do I look ok? It’s not too causal is it?” Definitely a date. Fuck!

“You look perfect.” I sit on her bed with Alana next to me.

“Told you.” She whispers in my ear. I’m sitting there watching her put her earrings on and she looks like an angel. Whoever this guy was is a lucky bastard and he better know it.

“Dad?” I hear Alana ask me.

“Yeah baby?’

“When two people love each other they get married and have a baby? Right?” I’m barely listening to her because I’m too busy stalking Liz’s every move. Oh God, she’s putting lotion on her legs.

“Yeah baby, that’s right.” I must have said something wrong because the next thing I know Liz is ushering Alana to her room and giving me the evil eye.

“Max, are you crazy? You have to watch what you say in front of her. She thinks we’re going to get married. It’s not right Max.” Shit she’s pissed.

“I’m sorry I wasn’t paying attention.” What a lame ass excuse.

“Well, please be more considerate of what you say. Now you get the lovely task of explaining to her why we are not getting married.

“Um I think you have some explaining to do right now.” I point to the door and try to hide back my laughter as I walk downstairs.

~~

There in my doorway is Alana in her Easter dress complete with the white gloves, shoes and purse. Great.

“Babe why are you dressed up?” She looks so cute right now.

“I’m going wit you. I always go wit you.” She sits in my vanity waiting for me to do her hair like I always do.

“You can’t come with me this time babe. It’s for grownups only.”

“But, I always go wit you. Why can’t I? You don’t want me to?” Oh God, this is hard. I really need to go out more alone. This is pathetic.

“It’s not that honey it’s just that there won’t be any other kids there and you will be bored. It’s for work too.” I know she’s going to report that straight to Max. This one loves telling him everything even if she sells me out in the process, like I said daddy’s girl.

“Fine, I don’t want to go anyway I’ll have more fun with dad.” She pouts and goes back to her room.

“Ok, I’m ready.” I walk down the stairs to see Max and Alana playing a video game.

“Ok well, I’m going to take her back to my place in a bit. Isabel might come over.” Alana screeches when he mentions Isabel. That girl spoils her so much. Every time she comes around she brings her bags of clothes and toys.

“Alright I’ll get her tomorrow then.” I kiss Alana goodnight and can tell that she’s still upset with me.

“See ya.” Max doesn’t look up at me and I wonder what’s with him.

~~
I pull up to the address that Jake gave me and I’m taken back a little. I knew they were rich but, this house is not a house it’s a mansion. I valet my car and walk inside.

“Miss Elizabeth Parker.” I get announced and it shocks the hell out of me. I spot Jake immediately and make my way towards him.

“I’m glad you could make it.” He kisses me on the cheek and takes my hand. We walked around saying hello to various people before he brings me outside.

“I wanted to talk to you.” Oh no, I didn’t want this to happen.

“Ok what about?” I sit on a bench near a small pond.

“I just wanted to see how things are going with you. I haven‘t seen you in so long.”

“Things are good.” I‘m not entirely comfortable with this line of questioning. I wonder what he’s up to.

“That’s good to hear. You know even though things didn’t work out for us I still care about you.” Crap why does he have to be so nice? Now, I can’t hate him.

“Thank you.” I don’t have anything else to say.

“Have dinner with me. No strings attached.” He laughs and flashes that million dollar smile.

“I don’t know Jake I’m really busy and I don’t know if I can.”

“Too busy to eat? Come Liz one dinner.” In my head I’m saying no.

“Alright one dinner.” Like I said in my head.

The rest of the night goes by smoothly. Jake was by my side the entire night. We had to explain to several people that we were not dating however. By the end of dinner I wanted to get out of these shoes already. He walked me out and waited while the valet got my car.

“So, we will be seeing each other quite a bit with the wedding and all.” He says.

“Yeah I guess so. Have your sister come by any day this week I’m clear all week.”

“Ok I’ll do that. Goodnight Liz.” He places a kiss on my cheek but lingers a bit longer this time.

I get into my car and head home after a long night. I wonder how Max’s went.

~~

“Aunty Bell Aunty Bell!! Dad Aunty Bell is here!” She’s been looking out the window for the past hour waiting for my sister. When she sees her car she starts bouncing up and down on the sofa.

“I know!” I say to her mimicking her enthusiasm.

“Daaaad.” She whines. She knows that I’m making fun of her.

“Ok, ok sorry. Let’s go meet her outside ok I’m sure she has lots of bags.” I help her with her jacket and sure enough Isabel is lugging bag after bag out of her car.

“Max come help me.” She’s already started ordering me around.

“Aunty Isabel!” Alana runs over to her and throws herself into her arms.

“How is my princess?” I love how she can practically bite my head off on minute and be so loving two seconds later, that’s my sister.

“Isabel you just saw her two weeks ago why all the stuff.” She literally had the entire back seat as well as the trunk full of bags.

“Just bring them in Max. They aren’t all for Alana.” She walks into the house and I’m trying to make the least amount of trips back to the car so, I grab as many bags as I can.

“Tell me all about your new school.” I don’t know why Isabel doesn’t have any kids yet. She loves Alana to death and is so good with her. She’s been married for a while now so I don’t see any reason for her not to.

“It’s ok.” I hear my daughter answer and notice that something isn’t right. She loves school, well she used to anyway.

“Just ok? Come sit over here and tell me all about it while I do your hair even the bad stuff.” Isabel pulls her to sit between her legs and whips out all kind of hair stuff from her purse. I don’t want to interrupt so I put the bags in Alana’s room while trying to listen.

“My teacher is nice and I made some friends but.” I hear her stop in mid sentence and I stop what I’m doing waiting for her response.

“But?” I hear Isabel ask.

“Well some of the kids were asking why I wasn’t there before like last year and stuff. Then they said that I must be one of those sch-scholar types so, they didn’t want to play wit me.” God kids can be so cruel.

“I think they mean scholarship kids. Do you know what that means?” When Alana says no I hear Isabel explain to her.

“But, I’m not.” I know my daughter is strong and will get through this I just hope it happens soon.

“Sweetheart, don’t worry about it. I’m sure once they get to you know they will want to be your friend.” I hear Alana say she guess’s so and take in a deep breath.

“Ok all the bags are in Alana’s room. What the heck did you buy? Or should I say what was left?” I get a swat in the arm from her.

“I told you some of it was for Liz. She’s so busy and never goes shopping for herself so I got her a few things.” Isabel feels like she has to take care of everyone.

“I have to make a quick call. Cook me some dinner would ya?” Nice try. I’m so not in the mood to cook so I order out instead.

We eat and I put Alana to bed. I can sense that something is on Isabel’s mind and sit next to her on the sofa.

“What is it?” I ask.

“How did you know?” She acts like I can’t read her. I’ve always been able to. I give her a look telling her as much.

“And, where’s Alex by the way? You’re never here this late?” She always comes over but never stays this long.

“He’s in California on business and I’m lonely ok? Can’t I spend time with my brother and niece?” Now I feel bad I know how much she hates to be alone. Even when we were kids she hated it.

“Sorry. So what else is it? What’s on your mind? I got all night for you.” I pull her close to my chest and place a kiss on top of her head.

“I wanted to get your opinion on something.” She turns to look at me and I know it’s serious.

“Ok.”

“Well, Alex and I were thinking of having kids.” I don’t know why she’s asking for my opinion.

“Isabel that’s great news. I’m so happy for you.” I give her a hug

“Really? You think I’d be a good mother?” Is she nuts?

“Are you crazy of course I do. Look at how you are with Alana, she adores you.” Why is she so insecure?

“I know but it might be different with my own kid. I’m just scared that’s all.” She may come off as icy but she’s a teddy bear inside.

“Stop worrying you’ll be great. Besides you have me and Liz to help if you need it.”

“Thanks.” She gives me a kiss in the cheek.

“Speaking of you and Liz.” Oh God here it comes.

“Don’t go there Isabel.”

“What? You two are the most infuriating people I know. I don’t see why you are not together already. You’re perfect for each other you created a beautiful child for Christ sakes.” I knew this was coming. Every time I see her she has to find a way to ask me why I’m not with Liz.

“Isabel she’s not interested ok. She’s on a date as we speak anyways. Trust me Liz isn’t interested in that type of relationship with me.” It’s true she thinks I’m not commitment material.

“Yeah, well maybe if you didn’t have a new bimbo on your arm every other week she might think differently.” I don’t even answer that. She’s not going to give it up.

“Whatever Max I know you’re in love with her don’t deny it, not to me anyway. Just remember that when you decide to come around she might not be available.” Her words hit me like a ton of bricks. I never thought about Liz being with someone else or even marrying someone else.

“Ok well my time is up here. I’m going to head home. I’ll see you next week.” She gets her things ready and I walk her to her car.

“Thanks for the stuff you got Alana and Liz. I’ll make sure she gets everything tomorrow.”

“It was nothing. Have Liz call me ok?” She gets into her car and waves as she pulls out.

I sit in front of my fireplace thinking about what my sister said. She’s right Liz and I do have a lot in common and we were and still are very good friends. She seems to know me so well. But for some reason we never dated. We had that one night together and created the new love of my life but other then that nothing. We never so much as kissed before that night. I remember that night like it was yesterday.

“Don’t drink too much sweetheart or else I won’t be accountable for my actions.” I say loudly trying to talk over the music. We were at a New Years Eve party of mutual friends of ours.

“Don’t worry about me. You need to worry about those two over there.” She points to two women who have been eyeing me all night, but I only have eyes for one woman tonight.

“I’m not concerned with them. I’m looking at the most beautiful woman here tonight.” I lick my lips as she throws her head back in laughter.

“Max you know your lines don’t work on me. I’ve known you way too long for that.” She has the most beautiful laugh. Even with this loud music blaring it’s enchanting.

“Why is it that we never got together?” I ask her and I really want to know.

“Maybe because you’re a womanizer. Ever think of that?” She looks at me seriously and it hurts that she thinks of me like that.

“I’m not. You shouldn’t believe everything you hear. I date plenty, but I don’t share my bed with all of them.” I’m not a monk but I’m hardly a whore.

“It doesn’t matter to me Max. But you and I are better as friends I think.” She walks away and leaves me with my mouth hanging open.

A few moments later I see her talking with a few people and I want to turn her attention back to me. I see that we’re getting close to ringing in the New Year and I want to get her alone.

“Liz I need to talk to you.” I pull her away from the crowd and we wander upstairs until we find an empty room.”

“What is it Max?” I can tell she’s a little tipsy and it’s a good boost of confidence for me. I want to tell her things that I know if she was sober she wouldn’t let me finish.

“Liz you are so beautiful.” I stroke her cheek and she places a soft kiss on my palm. Her lips are so soft.

“I just want to tell you that I’ve always had feelings for you Liz.” I can’t believe I’m confessing this to her.

“Max.” She tries to get me to stop but I can’t. I pour my heart out to her. I reveal how madly in love with her I am and how much I want her in every way possible. I don’t know if she’s registering everything I’m telling her but the next thing I know she’s asking me to make love to her. I look at her for a minute wondering if she’s serious as she begins to undress. I know I shouldn’t have but I can’t help myself. I quickly rid myself of my clothes and crawl under the covers with her.

We are flesh to flesh peppering each other with kisses. I kiss her like it’s the end of the world and to me it is. I know that this will never happen again and I want to make it last.

“God Liz, you are so beautiful.” I can’t even find another word to describe her right now.

“MM… Max I need you.” I reach down and feel her center and it’s dripping wet for me. I slide a finger into her moistened folds and slowly plunge in and out. She feels so tight it’s driving me crazy. I want nothing more then to plunge deep into her right now but I need it to last I need to study her body and imbed it into my mind.

“Oh God Liz, I’ve wanted you for so long.” I run circles around her clit and I see her writhe on the bed. I know she likes it. I feel my member getting harder and harder and I know she feels it pressing against her side. I can’t hold out any longer if I don’t feel myself inside her right now I’m going to explode.

“You ready?” I don’t know why I ask her but I need for her to say its ok I would stop if she wanted to. I would have to run to the bathroom to take care of myself if she said so, but I would.

“I want you Max I’ve always wanted you.” Did she just say that? I look down at the angel beneath me and slide into her. He walls clamp down onto me and I feel complete. I’ve never felt so strongly about something. It feels like this is where I’m supposed to be right now.

“Oh God Max…..Yes…..More.” He nails dig into my back but I don’t care. I place kisses in the crook of her neck and hear her moan in delight. My pace is slow and deep. I want to fill her up as much as she is filling me up right now, mind body and soul.

“Fuck Liz….So ……Fucking tight.” She kisses me chest and is sucking hard. I love the combination of pleasure and pain. It’s going to leave a mark but I don’t care. I let her know I like it and he continues to gently suck and bite my chest.

“Oh God Max, I’m so close come with me.” She doesn’t need to ask I’m so damn close but I want it to go on forever.

“Let go baby….Just….Let…Ahhhhhh.” I feel myself release inside her slick walls and it feels like heaven.

“Fuck Max…Ahhhhh Shit!” I feel her walls tighten around me as she milks me of every last drop. I collapse next to her and she’s stroking my hair.

We made love several times that night forgetting about ringing in the New Year and when I woke up she was gone. A few weeks later she told me that we created a child and gave me the choice to be involved as much or as little as I wanted. I was in awe of her strength then and now. We never brought up the things we said that night. Maybe she was too intoxicated to remember ,but I will always remember.


I snap out of my thoughts and head up to bed. Tomorrow I have to deal with Alana wanting to try on everything Isabel bought her.


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WOW you guys really I appreciate all the FB!!! Thank you for reading my little fic. LOL

Just want to address Max and Liz not talking about the night they shared. They will talk about it, there (or is it Their or they’re? LOL) will be some flashbacks so that will be dealt with.

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~~Chapter 3~~
I feel my body bouncing up and down and I crack open my eyes to see my daughter jumping on my bed.

“Dad come on you’re sleeping too much.” Oh the joys of parenting being woken up at 8AM on a Saturday.

“Ok I’m up I’ll meet you downstairs and make you breakfast.” She hops off the bed as I drag myself to the bathroom to freshen up.

“Ok what will it be? Pancakes, Eggs, oatmeal?” I ask while looking through my fridge to see what we have.

“Yes please.” She always does this.

“Babe you can only have one. You are not going to eat all that.” I see her thinking and she decides on eggs with bacon.

“Did you see what aunty Isabel got me?” She comes to the kitchen to ask

“I saw some of it but not all. You know some of that stuff is for your mom too.” I didn’t want her to think that all the million bags were for her.

“ I know. After breakfast I’m going to show you each one.” She smiles so brightly and I chuckle at how happy she is. She loves clothes thanks to Isabel. I’m just dreading her teen years and make up. She hasn’t really asked yet but I’m sure she will soon too.

We eat breakfast while watching cartoons. She begs me to leave the dishes for later so she can show me the clothes. I take my coffee with me and we go up to her room. Sure enough their are clothes scattered everywhere. I sigh and sit on her bed. Her room is pink and white and looks like a total princess room. She has a canopy bed and her dressers are white with a little crown painted on the middle of the drawers. She decides to show me each outfit and give an explanation on what type of days are good to wear the said outfit. I swear she needs to stop spending so much time with Isabel. She’s like her clone.

Half way through the show I hear the door open and I know it’s Liz.

~~

I follow the voices up to Alana’s room when I walk in a see piles and piles of clothes everywhere as well as the shopping bags they came in. I instantly think Isabel cause there is no way Max did this much shopping.

“I see Isabel stopped by.” I say to Max while hugging my daughter. She’s thrown herself in my arms.

“Mom you got to see all the clothes I got, and Aunty Isabel got some for you too. Come look mom.” She pulls me towards one of the piles and informs me that it’s mine.

“She really went crazy didn’t she?” I’m looking at all this stuff she got me. It’s all beautiful the girl has got some good taste.

“Yeah, well Alex isn’t in town so you know how she gets.” Boy, do I. Last time he was away for a week and she practically redecorated Max’s house. We had to tell her to take some of the stuff back.

“She’s dangerous with a credit card.” I shake my head as I look at the price tags.

“Well, I’m sure her being a buyer for several department stores helps too.” I laugh. That is the perfect job for her. She gets to buy what she likes and gets paid for it. Not that she needs to work but if she didn’t she would really be a mess. At least it takes up some of her time.

“Too bad she’s in private school this year. She won’t need this many clothes.” I start to fold some of them and put them back in their bags.

“Listen, I heard her talking to Isabel about that.” I see that Alana is busy with some of her toys and Max and I head downstairs.

“What happened?” I’m instantly alarmed.

“Nothing just some of the kids think that she’s on scholarship since she’s new. I guess they were giving her a hard time about it.” Kids can be so cruel.

“I knew something like this would happen. I don’t want her to be uncomfortable Max then she’ll hate school.”

“It’s not that bad yet. Let’s just wait and see, if it gets worse then we’ll think about what to do next. She’s a smart kid she’ll be alright.” He places a kiss on my temple and I feel a little better. He’s right Alana is smart and she’s strong.

“So, how was your date?” He asks me and I hear some sarcasm in his voice.

“It wasn’t a date. It was for work.” I know he’s not buying it.

“Uh huh.” He cocks his eyebrow at me.

“Shut up.”

I don’t bring up what I wanted to talk to him about that weekend. I decide to wait and see if it becomes a problem. We take Alana to the park and Max went home after to get ready for a date. For the first time it didn’t bother me that he was going out with someone. We have had a few conversations about dating and set up some rules once Alana turned one year old.

“Max we need to set some ground rules now that Alana will be staying over at your house more.” He’s eating some cookies that I made.

“Ok, like what?” I’m so lucky that we have been able to raise her together 50/50. We’ve never had an argument when it comes to the things we want for her.

“Well, when she stays over no houseguest. I don’t want my daughter around your many bimbos.” I laugh but it’s true.

“Hey they’re not all bimbos.” He teases.

“Ok, whatever you say. So, do you agree to that?” I wait for his answer thinking that he might not.

“That’s acceptable. I would say same for you but their is no need.” He’s right I don’t date. I don’t have the time so I give him a glare and move on.

“Ok, your nights are your night. I don’t want to change the days unless it’s absolutely necessary. I want Alana to get used to a routine.”

“Ok ,I agree with that. No changing days.” This is going very smoothly.

“Ok well ,I think that’s all for now.”


And that’s how things always are with Max and I. We’ve always agreed on everything when it came to Alana. I love him for that and I’m thankful for it also.

~~
“Morning Max. Your dad wants to see you for lunch, here are you messages and a Miss Harding couldn’t stress enough how much she needs to talk to you.” I grab my coffee from Maria and head to my office wondering what Tess wants. It’s been so long since I’ve seen her. I scroll through my e-mails and decide to call her.

“Max, wow it’s been so long.” She still sounds like the perked cheerleader she was in college.

“Yeah it has. What’s going on?” I don’t have time to chit chat.

“Aww, no time for phone sex.”

“Ha ha ha. Funny.” I’m not in the mood and seeing the envelope that was delivered from my father’s office annoys me more.

“Max I gave up on you a long time ago, you are a lost cause. Lighten up.” I feel bad for being short with her.

“Sorry.” I really want her to get to the point though so I can move on with my day.

“I was just wondering if you were going to the charity ball this coming weekend.”

“Yeah, I think so. My father mentioned it to me. He wants me to go why?”

“Well, I was wondering if you’d be my date. Strictly professional though, I just don’t want to go with anyone that my father will try to set me up with.” It’s not a bad idea and will save me the trouble of looking for a date.

“Ok, I’ll send a car over to get you then. Give your information to Maria.” We say our goodbyes and I transfer her to Maria.

I’m glad that that is settled now I have the lunch from hell coming up with my father.

~~
So, I’m a coward and con Isabel into taking Alana for the night. I beg her to tell Max that it’s her idea. The best part is that he’s going out too so he won’t know that I’m not home. I know he gets home late so everything should go smooth.

I don’t know why I feel that I need to hide Jake from Max or the fact that I’m going out on a date, but it doesn’t feel right telling him yet. Isabel informed me that I was being a baby about it but I don’t care.

I remember how Max would find faults in everyone I dated when we were in college.

“He’s a dork Liz.” I just got home from a date and I’m sitting in my dorm talking to Max on the phone.

“Why cause he’s a computers major?” I’m trying to get undressed and balance the phone on my shoulder.

“Yeah that, and well he’s just a nerd. You know it, everyone knows it shit America knows it Liz. Come on babe you can do so much better then him.”

“Like who? You?” I laugh.

“Nah you can’t have these goods.” He’s such a jerk.

“Yeah well, I wouldn’t want them anyway. They’ve been around the block and then some.”

“Ouch, that hurt. Hold up while I twist this knife out.” Such a drama queen.

“Max it’s late, and I’m tried. Can we talk tomorrow please I have a class in the morning, but I’ll meet you for lunch in the quarry ok?”

“Alright, goodnight babe.”

“Night Max.” I hate when he calls me babe.


That’s how it always was with us. Every time I would go on a date he would give his opinion of the guy which was always negative. If he played any sports he was a meathead even though Max was a baseball player all through high school and college. If he was into computers or anything technical he was a nerd. If he was pre med or pre law he was cocky or self centered.

I would just let him say what he wanted to say. But far be it from me to say anything about his dates, and trust me their were plenty of dates and plenty of things I could say but in my case they were true; well mostly.

“Max she’s a bimbo. She’s like a freaking robot.” It never fails whenever each of us would get back from a date one of us calls the other.

“She’s not. She’s just nice.”

“Nice? She’s half a freaking step ford wife. Are you sure she goes to school here? I mean have you seen her school I.D?” I can hear him laughing and It’s annoying me.

“Yes, she goes to school here. Come on babe don’t be like that. She really is a nice girl. Ok I admit she is a little perky but once you get to know her she’s nice.”

“Whatever Max. And why is it that everyone you date is blonde?” It’s a stupid questions but it’s true.

“I don’t know. Who cares anyway?”

“Your right. Night Max I‘ll see you tomorrow.” I’m tired and this conversation is going nowhere.

“Night babe.” Ugh he is annoying.


Anytime I would mention that his dates were bimbos he would say that they are just nice. It was a never ending battle and spread over after college too.

I’m getting ready for my date and I just hope that Max doesn’t come over and see me dressed like this. He knows that Alana is not here. As I’m applying my makeup I hear the door open.

“Shit!” I try to hide the fact that I’ve tried on several outfits before he makes it upstairs.

“Hey wha...” He stops in med sentence.

“Are you going somewhere?” He asks me. Shit this sucks. I hate that he has a key sometimes.

“Um yeah, I told you about it. It’s just dinner no big deal.” Ok,so I lied but he might buy it.

“You didn’t tell me. Who are you going with?” He walks further into the room and I notice that he looks fucking hot. He has on a royal blue dress shirt and a pair of black pants that fit him perfectly. He has on just the right amount of cologne which is something I’ve always loved about him. It’s never too empowering, but you can smell it lingering in the air.

“It’s no one special just an old friend.” I’m trying to brush it off so he believes me.

“Anyone I know?” I forget that we’ve known each other since college, so he knows most of my friends.

“Um no I don’t think so.” I don’t want to say it’s a man.

“Oh alright then. Have a good time.”

~~
I tell her to have a good time and inside I’m dying. Why does she have to look like that tonight? She doesn’t realize how beautiful she is. I know she doesn’t because every time that I’ve told her she hasn’t believed me.

Tonight she looks like a fucking knock out. I know she’s going out with a guy and I instantly hate him. Whoever he is she’s too good for him. No one will ever be good enough for Liz in my book.

She asks me to help her with a necklace and the urge to kiss her perfect neck nearly kills me. I remember the first time I saw her I thought she would be an easy lay. Boy was ever I wrong.

“Michael, check her out.” I say to my best friend as we sit on the library on campus.

“Max you don’t like brunettes let’s get back to work.”

“I have to talk to her man. Look at her. She’s beautiful.” I ignore Michael and walk over to her table.

“Umm excuse me.”

“Yeah?” She doesn’t even look up at me.

“I was wondering if after your done here you’d like to get some coffee or something.”

“No thanks.” She still doesn’t look up at me and it’s killing me. I lean in further and she smells so sweet.

“Ok well, how about I give you my number and you call me.” I hand her a piece of paper with my number and I see she doesn’t even look at it.

“Ok then. I guess I’ll see you then.” She waves me off and I walk back to my table defeated.

“Did it feel as bad as it looked?” Michael asks me and I want to punch him.

“There is something about her. She didn’t even look at me once, but it’s like I couldn’t stop talking to her. I have to talk to her again.” Michael leaves soon after and when I look up we are the only two in the library. I see her start to pack her things up and do the same.

“Long night huh?” I ask as we are walking out.

“Yeah, I still have more studying to do though.” Yes! A sentence from her.

“Yeah, me too. What’s your major?” It’s lame but I needed to keep conversation going.

“Business. You?”

“Same.” We both laugh and continue to walk. Before I knew it we were at her dorm.

“Well, it was nice talking to you. Sorry I was so rude back there, but I really had a lot of studying to do.” She smiles and I feel like I’m in heaven.

“It’s ok. Well ,I’d still like to take you out for the cup of coffee if you’d like.” I was praying that she’d say yes.

“Sure that would be nice, after midterms?”

“Sure no problem, i guess I’ll see you around then.” She called me a few days later and we finally met up for that cup of coffee. We talked for hours and hours and met up once a week after that to just talk. Somehow I forgot about trying to sleep with her. I thoroughly enjoyed her company. One night I realized that she was perfect in every way and that was the night that she shattered my dreams of being with her in that way. But, that’s for a later date.


“So, I guess I’ll be going then.” I smile and make my way out of the house and into my car.

I sit there for a few minutes wondering what the hell has gotten into me? It’s been year since she’s had this affect on me. Sure, I’ve always found her attractive but I’ve never wanted to cancel a date and run into the house and attack her with kisses before. I’m starting to scare myself so I turn the engine on and pick up my date.
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I just wanted to let you guys know that I really do appreciate your Feedbacks but I want to say something that I should have posted in the beginning of the fic..

I do understand where you guys are getting a little frustrated by Max and Liz‘s relationship, BUT……I need to first establish the characters before I get into all the drama. I wanted to show people a little about their friendship so you can see where they are coming from. There are a few flashbacks that will give you more insight on Max and Liz and how they got to where they are.

I guess you could say that this fic is angsty and it will be a little but I’m not going to drag things out. I’m a reader too and I wouldn’t write something that I wouldn’t like to read. This story is about relationships and Max and Liz dealing with their feelings for each other while raising their daughter. If it’s not for you then it’s ok, I totally understand, but trust me I’m not going to drag things out to the point where you want to bang your head against something. Max and Liz have a lot to go thru before they can “find themselves” so to speak. With that said I hope you stick with me on this. I sent this to my Beta but ended up changing it completly so sorry for an errors.

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~~Chapter 4~~
I’m sitting through this dinner and all I can think about is what is Liz doing and who is this old friend. I feel bad because the girl I’m out with is actually nice. If I could remember her name it would be nice too. I can’t think right now. She must think I’m a caveman because all my answers are one word or a smile. I have no clue what she’s been talking about for the past 2 hours and I just pray that she doesn’t order dessert so I can go home already.

I can tell that something has changed in Liz and I won’t lie it’s bothering me. I always pushed her to date before but now that she is on a date I don’t like it. I could tell that this person was someone of importance not so much because she was dressed up but because of they way her hair was and the jewelry she put on. She was checking herself in the mirror maybe even more then I do.

Thankfully my date doesn’t order anything else and I take her home. She invites me up and usually I would but tonight it doesn’t feel right. I just want to get home. I miss my daughter too.

As I’m driving home I decide to take a turn and head over to Isabel’s place.

“Max what are you doing here?” I’m led into the games room by the maid.

“Can’t I stop my and see my sister?” She cocks her eyebrow at me. She knows its bullshit.

“Dad!” My angel leaps into my arms. I see they were in the middle of some board game.

“Hey Alex.” I didn’t notice him at first.

“Hey Max long time.” He stands up to greet me. When I first met Alex I would have never thought that he and my sister would even go out on a date much less be married but I’m glad Isabel let him in. She was always so closed off but Alex brought out another side of her. She’s a total goof ball when she’s with him and I love that he does that for my sister. He heads up the international aspect of our company and has been with us for 8 years.

“Dad you wanna play wit us? We’re paying monopoly but Aunty Bell is winning.” I see her frown a little.

“No thanks baby. How about you and Alex play I want to talk to Isabel for a minute ok?” I look over towards Alex to make sure he’s ok with staying with Alana while Isabel and I talk.

“Ok but we’re splitting her money.” She says. Anything to get ahead. Isabel and I laugh and we head to the kitchen.

“So what’s up?” She asks as me makes some tea. Isabel thinks that tea cures everything. She swears by it.

“Nothing. Everything. I don’t know. I feel like I’m going crazy.” I don’t know what is going on with me.

“Ok so this is about Liz.” She laughs as she leans on the counter facing me.

“How’d you know?” I ask sarcastically.

“Well are you going to tell me or do I have to guess?” She’s making her tea and I start to think that this might be a mistake.

“It’s nothing. Forget about it. I don’t know what got into me. Mind if I crash here tonight?” I don’t feel like driving home.

“Sure it’s not a problem. You can take the room next to Alana’s. I’ll have Emily fix the bed for you.

I go back to the game room and play a few rounds of pool with Alex while Isabel and Alana play Uno. Once I put Alana to bed I lie awake telling myself that I have to get my shit together. Liz dating is not the end of the world and I need to get over it. Besides I date all the time. I decide to suck it up and finally drift off to bed.

~~
I pull up to the restaurant and give the hostess my name. I’m led to a table in the back where Jake is already sitting waiting for me.

“Liz you look beautiful.” He stands up and holds my chair out for me.

“Thanks. Have you been here long?” I ask.

“No I got here a bit early.” He orders some wine and we sit and talk.

“So what’s been going on in your life? We haven’t talked in ages.” Why did he have to ask me that?

“Oh not much you know, working. I’d like to run my own restaurant one day.” I don’t know why I told him that I haven’t even told Max yet.

“Really? Well that’s great I’m sure it will be a great success.” I want to tell him about Alana but decide not to right now.

“So what about you?” I have to seem interested.

“Well been busy with work. You know boring stuff and now I have this wedding to deal with.” He laughs but I know it’s hard on him. His father passed when we were briefly dating and I saw first hand how hard it was on him, but he never let on that it was. In a matter of weeks he took over his fathers company full time as well as watching out for his mother and sister.

During dessert the conversation went where I didn’t want it to go.

“So Liz tell me why is it that we broke up?” God I knew he was going to go there.

“I don’t know. We both had a lot going on at the time I guess.” To be honest I don’t really remember.

“Well I was crushed at the time.” I try not to roll my eyes.

“I’m sure.”

“I was, I mean we were dating and then the next minute you call me to tell me that you can’t see me anymore.” Now that he says it it sounds bad.

“It didn’t happen like that and you know it. We weren’t even really dating I mean we went out a few times but that’s it.”

“Well that’s in the past let’s talk about the present.” I’m waiting to hear what he has in mind.

“Like?” I ask when he doesn’t say anything.

“Well how about we try again?” I should have known this was coming.

“I don’t know Jake I’m really busy lately and I don’t know if I’d have the time. Besides don’t you work in New York? I mean your only in Boston for the wedding right?”

“Yes that is true but you know we have offices here. Besides I have work here as well. A little project I’m working on.” I can’t help but notice the twinkle in his eye when he says that.

“I don’t know. How about I think about it. Let’s see what happens after the wedding ok?” I’m glad that I was able to buy myself some time. We finish our dessert and I say goodbye as my car is brought to me. On the way home I think about the three dates that we went on. Max never knew what his name was but he knew I was seeing someone.

“Why won’t you tell me who it is you are going out with? You’ve been on like four dates with this guy and I can’t know his name?” He’s pouting and it’s so cute but I’m not giving in.

“Max stop it this will be our third date. There’s nothing to say, it’s not serious anyway. I’ve just been on a few dinner dates that’s all. It’s not like I bring them home.” I throw that at him and he keeps his mouth shut for a few moments.

“It’s different for men Liz.” He did not go there.

“Don’t go there Max. That’s such bullshit and you know it.” He’s following me around my apartment and I regret letting him in.

“Just tell me his name Liz come on.” God was he always this annoying?

“Ugh fine. Jake ok. You happy?” I hope he goes away now so I can finish putting my make up on.

“Nice name.” He snorts

“Isn’t it Maxwell?” I glare at him and he shuts up.

“Fine I’m going then. I have better things to do on a Saturday night then watch you get dressed. Have fun babe.” He kisses me on the cheek and shows himself out.


When I pull up to the house I see that Max isn’t home yet. It’s still early for him I guess. I walk in the house and I regret having Alana stay over at Isabel’s. I miss her. I want to go get her but it’s too late so I remove my makeup and head to bed.

~~

I wake up and am a little disoriented for a moment. It takes me a few moments to remember that I’m at Isabel’s house. I throw on a t-shirt, thanks to Isabel and head downstairs.

“Dad look at all this food.” Alana, Isabel and Alex are sitting at the kitchen table with a large spread in front of them.

“I asked her what she wanted and well this was it.” Isabel says when I walk closer to the table. Their is just about everything you can have for breakfast on that table.

“Yeah she always does that. The thing is that you have to make her choose one.” I kiss Alana’s head and take a seat.

“Dad Alex said I can go riding with him if you say yes. Can I please?” She loves horseback riding. I try to bring her up here as often as I can.

“Sure it’s ok with me.” I know that Alex will take care of her and she knows the horse that she will be riding. We eat and I look around at my sister and Alex interacting with my daughter. I can’t wait for her to have a baby. These two will be the best parents.

After breakfast Alex and Alana head to the stables while Isabel informs me that she has some shopping to do. I decide to head home and tell her to have Alex drop of Alana when they are done.

“Thanks for letting me stay.” I give her a kiss on the cheek as I’m heading out.

“Anytime. You know that.” She pulls me in for a hug and I’m taken back for a moment.

“You ok?” I ask her sensing something is wrong.

“Yeah I’m fine. I just miss you that’s all. It was nice having and Alana here this morning. We have to do it again soon but with Liz.” I hope she’s not going to start on that again.

“Yeah it was nice. Thank you for being so good to her.”

“Max she’s our niece. Alex and I love her. It’s nothing. She’s a wonderful child Max and lord knows I’m not going riding with Alex.” We both laugh. Isabel is not one for horseback riding. She hardly goes near the stables at all and if she does it only to watch Alana for a bit.

“I know you do but I still appreciate everything.” I give her a small hug again and I get in the car. I pull up and I see Liz in the front yard watering her plants.

“Hey your home late or should I say early.” She looks so incredible right now even though she would never believe me. She’s wearing a pair of shorts that come to think of it are way to short and a white tank top. I can tell she has no bra on and I have to stop myself from staring.

“Yeah um I guess.” I can’t even remember what she said.

“I guess it went well then?” She asks and good lord now she’s bent over doing something. I don’t know what it is because I’m starting at her ass right now.

“Yeah.” I decide to go inside before I do or say something stupid.
~~

Something is up with him. He didn’t seem normal. I shrug it off and head inside. I need a shower badly. When I get out of the shower I call Isabel to see when she is going to bring Alana by. She tells me that she’s riding with Alex so I let her stay I know how much she loves it. The house is clean already and I find myself with nothing to do. I sit in the living room with a magazine and start to flip through it. I hear Max’s key chains and wonder what he’s doing here.

“Hey.” I say when I see that he has showered and changed too. He’s wearing a pair of dark blue jeans with a vintage black Nirvana t-shirt on.

“Wow you must be bored.” He laughs and sits next to me.

“Yeah I guess I am. Alana is riding with Alex so she won’t be home for a while.” I toss the magazine on the table.

“Let’s go get some lunch. It will be a treat just you and me going somewhere. It’s been a while.” It has been a while since we ate a meal alone together.

“Alright. You got anyplace in mind?” I ask.

“Yeah as a matter of fact I do.” He smiles and I wonder what he’s up to.

“Ok can I go like this?” I ask since I’m wearing a pair of blue jeans and a tank top with lace on the edges.

“Yup. Come on let’s go.” We get into the car and head to the mystery destination.

~~
She’s going to freak when we get there. I bet she doesn’t even remember the place but I’ll never forget it.

“Ok we’re here.” I help her out of the car and wait for her reaction.

“No way.” She says and I guess she remembers. We walk inside and are shown to our table.

“Oh man remember the last time we were here?” She asks laughing.

“How could I forget? The food fight and the fact that out dates were married to each other.” I almost choke on my water thinking about it.

“Yeah that was crazy. What were the odds of us meeting up at the same place like that?”

“Well it was bound to happen I guess. I never saw him again after that day.”

“Me either. I wonder if they are still together.” We both laugh.

“Do you realize that we’ve known each other for 11 years?” I ask her.

“Yeah. It doesn’t seem that long though.” I agree it really doesn’t.

“Can you believe Alana is going to be 7 already?” Seems like she was born the other day.

“I know she’s getting so big.” I can see that she is thinking back.

“I’m really glad that we became friends Liz. Your friendship means a lot to me.” I don’t know where that came from but it felt right.

“Me too Max. You know you’re my best friend.” Liz had a few friends from work and some from school but she wasn‘t close with any of them. We order our food and begin to eat.

“So I was thinking of taking you and Alana to New York to see the Lion King. We can make it a little getaway for the weekend. Think you can do it?” I ask.

“Yeah I think so. Let me double check my schedule when I get back to the house I’ll let you know.”

“Great. I think she’s going to love it but I want it to be a surprise.”
~~
Today we are going on our trip. Alana doesn’t know where we are going. I haven’t been to Manhattan in a while and I’m excited to go.

“You almost ready baby?” I see her packing up her Hello Kitty suitcase but she’s taking the wrong things. I hide back my laughter and help her pack what she really needs. I packed her nice dress earlier in my bag so she wouldn’t see it and ask.

“Ok let’s go daddy must be waiting for us.” I grab out bags and bring them downstairs.
We meet Max outside and begin the drive.

“Where we goin dad?” Alana has asked for the 10th time.

“You’ll see when we get there.” He’s not helping the situation but it keeps her quiet for now. I see her put on her headphones and turn the CD player on.

“Thank you for doing this.” I don’t know why I said that. It sounds like I’m making him go.

“It was my idea Liz. Why are you thanking me?” He smiles and turns on the radio.

“I know it was but it’s still nice of you take time like this and spend the whole weekend with us.” The soft sounds of Howie Day come on the radio.

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah


“Liz you guys are my family I‘m always here for you, you know that.” I know he means that.

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again


“I know Max. I just don’t want to lose your friendship. It’s been the one constant in my life for so long. I can’t lose you as a friend.” I feel like crying and don’t know why. Max must sense that something is wrong because he takes me had and placing a soft kiss on the back of it. I won’t lie and say I didn’t feel anything because I did. I felt butterflies in my stomach.

Even the best fall down sometimes
even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
you and I collide


I sit back and take in the music. I love this song. Max is holding my hand as it rests on his leg. My first reaction is to move it but I like the feeling that I’m getting.

“What’s wrong with you Liz?” I have to ask myself. I’m having an internal battle with myself.

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide


I didn’t realize that I fell asleep but next thing I know Max is waking me up. I open my eyes and see that we are in front of the hotel. It’s just getting dark out and the city looks beautiful.

“Wake up babe, we’re here.” He whispers in my ear as he leans over to unbuckle my seatbelt. I can’t help but breathe deep to take in his scent. I swear he gets that special made because I haven’t been able to find cologne anywhere that smells like that. Yeah so I’ve tried to find one so what?

“Mmmm Where’s Alana?” I’m still trying to wake up completely.

“Shhh she’s asleep too.” He helps me out of the car and places a kiss in my temple before getting Alana out. What was that about?

Max is carrying Alana and we get the key to our room. We have a suite with a bedroom with two double beds so I will sleep with Alana. Ok so for a split second I thought about sharing with Max. Is that wrong? I go into the bathroom to change and I realize that the only thing I brought to sleep in is a cami top and a pair of terry cloth shorts. Shit!

When I packed I didn’t think about the fact the we would be sharing a room. I always sleep in this. I shrug and change I’m too tired to think of an alternative. I come out slowly and see that Max is already under the covers. I quickly walk to the bed and get under the covers. He already changed Alana and I’m thankful that I don’t have to do it in my half naked state.

“So tomorrow I think we should keep it light since the show is at 6 I don’t want her to be too tired.” He says. He’s turned over on his side and props his head up in his hands. I can’t help but stare at his well defined arm muscles.

“Umm yeah your right. What do you think we should do?” He’s been here more then I have so I ask him.

“Maybe statue of Liberty or a museum. I guess it would depend on the weather.” I nod and yawn. I guess I’m more tired then I thought.

“Ok well goodnight Max.” I pull the covers up to my chest.

“Night babe.” He winks and me and turns the lights off.

Hours later I hear the most annoying sound and sit up to see what the hell it is. I turn on the lamp next to my bed and find the source of said noise….Max! I turn and see that Alana is still asleep thank God.

I need to shut him up before Alana wakes up. I glace at the alarm clock and see that it’s 2AM. Damn him! I get up and walk over to him only to see him with his mouth open hence the source of the noise. I try and shut his mouth hoping that it will stop the noise but it doesn’t as soon as I remove my hand he starts up again.

I don’t remember him snoring when we last slept together. That doesn’t matter now anyway. I need to do something so I decide to turn him over maybe if he’s on his stomach he’ll stop. I sounded like a great plan but when I try to actually move him I realize that he outweighs me by A LOT. I’m on the other side of the bed trying to pull him by the shoulder but, it’s not working.

I decide to try one more time with all my might and he’s moving. What happens next shocks the shit out of me. He rolls over like I wanted only somehow I end up pinned underneath him. I’m not really complaining but its DEAD weight so I can’t breathe. I push him over a little and manage to breathe again. I hear him mumble something but can’t make out what it is.

“Mmmm Liz.” I hear him say and he wraps his arm around my waist. What am I thinking? I’m laying here letting him do this. Ok I know he’s asleep and might not know what he’s doing but he DID say my name. He scoots forward and nuzzles his face on my neck. I can feel his breathe on my skin and I’m on fire. I want to move I really do but I can’t. My head is telling me to get the hell out of there but something else is keeping me there.

I lay with him for a while but then come to my senses. I can’t fall asleep here Alana is in the next bed. If she saw that it would confuse her. Reluctantly I slip out of the bed and go back to mine. This is going to be a long weekend.


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FamersAmers- Thank you for the FB and for all the help.

Taressa05-Your right I do have a method to my madness. Don’t hurt yourself banging your head. LOL

Lady_vixen-Yes I’m sure a few of us can relate to hiding feelings.

Lizza-Thanks for the FB

Hazz-The feelings are there but how long till they come out??? Thanks for reading

RASaero611-Yes agree being pinned under Max is a dream :Sighs:

Cherie-Thank you

lizard_queen-Glad you like Alana, she is based on a little girl I know how is obsessed with Roswell. P.S. She’s 6. Lol

Begonia9508-Glad you liked it. Thank you

Kismet-You will see if Max remembers in this part.

Emz80m-About Jake. She dated him way before she became pregnant. It will be explained later. So glad you are enjoying it.

Ellie-Yes If I was Liz wild horses couldn’t drag me out of that bed but there is a little problem by the name of Alana she had to think about.

To_Kiss_A_Frog-Liz isn’t indifferent at all. Come on it’s Max. LOL

Itzstacie-Thanks for the FB

LovinGuerin2Much-Isn’t Alana cute. Remind you of anyone? LOL

Sweet Liz-Thanks for reading.

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Shae-Thank you. Glad you like it

OmegaRam1-YAY a new reader! Lol thank you.

BehrObsession-Yes Max is going to have a few issues with Liz dating. Thanks for reading.

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~~Chapter 5~~

We are eating breakfast downstairs in one of the restaurants and I keep glancing at Max thinking about last night. I wonder if he remembers anything. I want to ask him but if he doesn’t remember I’d feel stupid. I decide to let it go.

“So what do you say we go to the statue of liberty today?” Max asks Alana.

“YAY!” She smiles and takes a huge bite of her waffle.

“Ok then lets finish up here and then we can go.” We all finish eating and hail a cab.

A few hours later we get back to the hotel and Alana is tired. I’m glad she taking a nap so she can be well rested for tonight. I close the door to the room and sit next to Max on the sofa.

“She’s asleep?” He asks.

“Yeah. It’s good though she’ll be well rested for tonight.” He’s flipping through the channels.

“If you want to go shopping or something you can. I’ll stay here.” He says while scrolling through the pay per view movies.

“No it’s ok. I’m beat after today.” We both laugh.

“I’m going to order a movie. Anything you want to see?” I shrug and look through the list with him.

We settle on a movie and I adjust the pillows to get comfortable. Max has taken off his shoes and has his feet propped up on the coffee table.

~~
When I woke up this morning I knew something was up. I kept catching Liz staring at me every now and then. The movie has started and I see Liz leaned over on the other side of the sofa.

“You can’t be comfortable like that.” I laugh when I see the position she’s in.

“Well what you would suggest then?” Is she flirting with me? I shake my head and decide that I’m imagining things.

“Come over here. I won’t attack you.” I open up my arms and she scoots over to lean against my chest. Feeling her lean against me like this makes me feel complete. I suddenly feel warm inside.

I place a kiss on top of her head and pull her closer to me. I wake up hours later and see that the movie finished. Liz is still asleep and I don’t want to wake her but we need to get Alana up. If she sleeps too much then she’ll be up all night.

“Liz.” I softly say in attempt to get her up.

“Noooo.” She says in a whiney voice.

“Babe come on we need to get Alana up and get dinner before the show.” I see her slowly open her eyes and give her a smile. Her hair is partially covering her face but she still looks beautiful.

We walk into the room and see Alana watching TV.

“Hey sweetheart why didn’t you wake us up?” I sit next to her and place a kiss on her head.

“You and mom was sleepin.” She shrugs and turns her attention back to the cartoons.

“Well your mom and I have a surprise for you but we need to have dinner first ok?”

“Tell me tell me!” She’s jumping up and down on the bed.

“Alana don’t do that honey.” Liz tells her and she stops.

“Where we goin? Daddy tell me please.” She puts her hands on either side of my face and stares at me with her big doe eyes.

“Sorry it’s a surprise.” I grab her and begin to tickle her.

“Stop stop!” She’s giggling and I love the sound of that.

“Ok. Come on let’s go.” We get out things and hail a cab for dinner. After a quick bite to eat we are back at the hotel getting ready.

“Mommy you look beautiful.” I hear Alana say from the bedroom. I don’t know what’s taking them so long so I’m flipping channels waiting for them. After what seems like an hour they come out.

“Wow you two look pretty.” Liz is wearing a royal blue satin dress and Alana’s is the same color. The look like angels.

“Now can I know where we are goin?” Alana jumps on my lap and pulls at my tie.

“You will see in about 10 minutes. Come one princess your chariot awaits.” I sound like an idiot. Alex does it much better.

~~~~

The show was great. Alana was wide eyed the whole time. I’m really glad we came. We get back to the hotel and I’m a little sad. Tomorrow is our last full day here then its back to reality. Back to Max having a date every night. The past few days have been great. I don’t know what’s gotten into Max but he’s been very affectionate towards me. Not that I’m complaining but it’s a bit confusing.

I change into my night clothes and remember the night before. I don’t want to hurt his feelings but I don’t want to be woken up at 2AM again. When I walk out of the bathroom I see that he’s not in the bed. I check on Alana and walk out of the room to see where he is.

“Hey what are you doing out here?” I see that he has a blanket and pillows all set up on the sofa.

“I’m going to crash out here. I don’t want to wake you up again.” He winks at me. That asshole he knew about last night.

“What are you talking about?” I pretend not to know what he’s talking about to get more information out of him.

“Like you don’t know.” He laughs.

“You asshole why didn’t you say anything!” I smack him with a pillow.

“What like I was going to bring up the fact that I was snoring loud enough to wake you up? No way.” He does have a point there.

“Well, you can’t sleep out here Max. It can’t be comfortable.” From the little while I laid there I could tell it wasn’t.

“I’ll be fine. Don’t worry about it.” I take a seat next to him not wanting to go to bed just yet.

“Why don’t you go to bed? Alana is going to be up at the crack of dawn.” I don’t want to leave the sofa for some reason but I realize that he’s right.

“Yeah your right. Good night Max.” I go to get up but he grabs my wrist and pulls be back down. He’s looking at me like I’m the last glass of water in the desert and I don’t know what’s going on but I find myself staring at him too. He leans in further and I close my eyes in anticipation of what’s to come next.

“DADDY DADDY!!!!!!” Alana screams at the top of her lungs.

Max rushes to the room to see what‘s going on. Talk about fate. I walk in after him to see what’s wrong.

“Baby I’m here. What is it?” I see her crying hysterically.

“Alana baby mommy and daddy are here.” Max has pulled her into his arms and is rocking her back and forth.

“M-monster.” Is all she can manage to get out before she starts crying again.

“Its ok angel I’m here now nothing is going to get you ok? Daddy’s here.” I smile at the sight of those two. Max can always jump into protective father mode with her.

“Daddy don’t go.” He’s rocking her gently while whispering soothing words to her. One might think that I’d feel left out but it warms my heart to see Max like this. It doesn’t bother me that she calls him when she has a bad dream. I’m happy that she has her father around for her like this.

“I’m not going anywhere ok? Nothing is going to take me out of this bed tonight.” He kissed her forehead and she nods. At least she’s not crying anymore.

Once Max lays down with her I move to get into the other bed but Alana has other plans.

“Mommy you too. Please.” How can I say no? Max nods and we lay down in the bed with her in the middle. This is going to be a long night.

~~
I can’t sleep. I have Liz less then a foot away from me. This is pure torture. Alana is laying on my chest and Liz is sleeping peacefully facing me. I’m staring at her studying her features but I already know them by heart. I know every freckle on her skin. They’ve always been imbedded in my mind. I want to reach over and run my hands through her silky hair but I stop myself.

Finally sleep takes over me and I drift off to a place where Liz is mine and everything is perfect.

~~~

I wake up and feel someone doing something to my hair. I also feel some weight on my chest.

“Hi dad!” Alana is sitting on my chest playing with my hair.

“Hey babe.” She smiles and continues to do whatever she was doing to my hair.

“What are you doing?” I ask as I try to feel my hair.

“Braiding you hair. It looks nice.” She hops off my chest and I run to the bathroom to asses the damages. Sure enough she’s made a few small braids on the front of my hairline. I untangle my hair and walk out to see where Liz is.

“Morning.” She greets me. She and Alana are eating breakfast.

“Morning.” I sit at the table next to them.

“I ordered your food. Eat before it gets cold.” I nod and dig into my food.

We get dressed and spend the day shopping and go to Central Park for a while. The rest of the day is spent at the indoor pool the hotel has. Tomorrow morning we go back home and I don’t know how to act around Liz now. We haven’t brought up what almost happened the other night again but I can’t get it out of my mind. This weekend has been perfect.

~~
Max is checking out while Alana and I wait for him out front. She’s going on and on about all the things she saw and I’m glad she had such a good time.

“Ok we’re all set.” We walk to the car and Max puts his arm around me. This whole weekend I’ve felt as if Max and I were a couple, a real couple. I don’t know what’s gotten into him but I’m not complaining. It feels nice to have someone be there for you.

“Did you have a good time honey?” I ask when we pull onto the parkway.

“Yes I had a great time!” She’s smiling brightly ear to ear.

“Good I’m glad.” I see her put her headphones on and turn her attention to the movie that’s on her portable DVD player.

“Max this weekend has been great. Thank you again.”

“Liz please stop. You make it sound like I don’t ever do things with you guys. I had a great time too. We should do this more often.” He places his hand on my thigh and I feel those tingles again. I turn the radio on and find an older song that I haven’t heard in a while.

“Ohh I love this song.”

I know I stand in line
Until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance
I know that there’s a chance
You won’t be leaving with me


“What the hell is this?” Max laughs.

Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
and have a drink or two
and then I go and spoil it all
by saying something stupid
like I love you


“It’s an old song that Robbie Williams did with Nicole Kidman. Just listen to it.” I turn it up a little more.

I can see it in your eyes
That you despise the same old lines
You heard the night before
And though it’s just a line to you
For me it’s true
And never seemed so right before



“Your musical tastes are crazy. You know that you have Alana singing along to Gomez.”

“Yeah i know. I think It’s cute.” I shrug and continue listening to the song.

I practice every day to find some clever
Lines to say to make the meaning come true
But then I think I’ll wait until the evening
Gets late and I’m alone with you


“Humm interesting.” He says with a smirk on his face.

“What? It’s cute.” I say defending the song.

The time is right
Your perfume fills my head
The stars get red
And oh the night’s so blue
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you
I love you...


“Yeah I guess it ok. I find the words interesting. How he thinks he will ruin things by saying I love you.”

“Yeah I guess that could be true but you never know, by saying I love you it could make the night better.” I’m trying to find the hidden meaning in what he’s saying.

“Yeah maybe.” I see that he’s deep in thought so I let it go for now. We are almost home and I find the road to be hypnotizing me. I fell my eyelids getting heavy and drift off.

“Liz babe we’re here.” I hear Max’s voice calling my name.

“Oh I’m sorry I fell asleep you must have been bored.” I yawn and take off my seatbelt.

“It’s ok. Come on let’s get your stuff.” He helps me out of the car.

“Mommy look!” Alana is standing in front of my door but I can’t see what she’s talking about.

“Mommy look how pretty.” There are a few vases filled with different colored roses in front of my door.

“Yes honey they are pretty.” I look for a card and spot one. I slowly pick it up.

“Hey what’s going on over here?” Max walks up with my bags in hand.

“Mommy got flowers daddy.”

“Who are they from?” He asks me.

“Don’t know yet.” I open the card and read it to myself.

“Well?” He asks.

“Um they are from um Jake.” I insert the key and open the door to my house. Talk about awkward.

“Is that the guy you went out with the other night?” He asks and I don’t want to say yes but I can’t lie.

“Yeah.”

“Alright well I‘m going to go. I need a shower. See you.” Max places our bags near the door and hugs Alana before he leaves.

I sometimes think that someone is telling me that I shouldn’t be with Max. It seems like every time we make some progress something gets in the way. Maybe it’s not meant to be.

~~
I’m at this function that my father roped me into and all I want to do is go home. Tess has her own agenda and is making the rounds leaving me to stand in the corner trying my best not to drink too much since my dad is here.

“Max here you are, I want to introduce you to someone.” This time I can’t hide the eye roll I just hope he didn’t see it. He introduces me to some people we are doing business with and right now I could care less. This is not my thing and he knows it.

“What in the hell? What is he doing here?” I hear my father ask and turn to look at what he’s talking about.

“What is it dad?” I ask because I have no idea who this person is.

“That is Jake Connors. He’s trying to outbid us for the naval contracts.” Since I’m not really involved in the takeover aspect I have no idea what he’s talking about. I watch this Jake make the rounds. He stops and talks to Tess and I can tell she’s flirting with him. Looks like he’s her next target. About an hour later I find myself face to face with him.

“Hello I’m Jake Connors.” He extends his hand to me.

“Max Evans.” I wish I had a camera to take a picture of his face right now.

“Evans?” He asks again.

“That would be me.” I try not to laugh but this guy is staring at me like I have two heads.

“Well this is awkward.” He says and I have to agree. We make small talk but it gets too strange and I find Tess to tell her that I’m leaving. My father gives me a disappointed look but I leave anyway. I’m suffocating in there.

~~
I over heard Max confirming his plans for tonight and when I heard the name Tess my heart dropped. She was after him for years but nothing ever happened. Max told me that she gave up trying to pursue him but I’m not too sure about that. I don’t know why it’s bothering me, it shouldn’t. The thought of them getting together is making me upset right now. Trying to snap out of my thoughts I remember that I never called Isabel to thank her for the things.

“Hey Iz it’s me.” She answers on the third ring, I was about to hang up.

“Hey Liz. What’s up?” She sounds out of breath.

“Nothing. Was I interrupting something?”

“No I was working out but I’m done now anyway.” I hear her take a sip of a drink.

“I wanted to thank you for the things you got us. They are all beautiful.” They really are. I loved everything she got me. She knows my taste.

“You know you don’t have to thank me but your welcome. So what’s been going on? Seems like forever since we sat down and talked.” I feel bad but it has been too long.

“I know I’ve been busy with work and with Alana starting a new school and all.”

“Why don’t we get together sometime this week then? We can have lunch or something.”

“Ok sounds great. Let me check my schedule and I’ll give you a call.” We say our goodbyes and I turn the computer on to see how crazy the next few weeks are going to be. Since becoming the executive chef for the inn I work for it’s been non stop. I hope to have my own restaurant one day but for now this is great.

I see that Tomorrow I will be meeting with Jake’s sister and I know that it’s going to take up most of my day. I decide to check on Alana, it’s almost bedtime for her. When I walk upstairs I hear her talking to what I assume is her stuffed animals.

“You have to wear this dress dad likes it when you get dressed up.” I watch her dressing up her doll in a ball gown and listen more.

“And when you get married I get to be the flower girl cause I’m dad’s princess and princess’s get to wear nice dresses too. Don’t worry you are still the queen.” As I listen to her talk I realize that Max and I need to talk to her. She has this obsession about marriage especially pertaining to Max and me.

Once upon a time I hoped that Max and I would marry but that was right after I had Alana and I’m thinking that it was the hormones. The whole time we were living together I had to remind myself that it wasn’t permanent. I knew about his issues with commitment and was worried at first that he wouldn’t be there for Alana like he said he would but he proved me wrong. We did have one conversation about marriage about two months after Alana was born but that didn’t go the way that I wanted it to.

We had just put Alana down to bed and we sitting in front of the fireplace drinking hot chocolate.

“Do you think you will ever get married?” I ask him and I still don’t know where it came from.

“I don’t know. I don’t think I’d want to. I guess it depends on if I found the right person. Why?” He asked and I wish I could have told him then but I chickened out.

“Just asking. I don’t see you as the marrying type. I can’t see you being with one person for the rest of your life.” I should have said that I could see us together but I didn’t.

“Yeah I can’t either. Everyone I date has some qualities that I like but no one has all of them. I’d have to combine them and make a whole other person.” We laugh but I was dying inside. I wondered if he ever thought about he and I together. I know that I would always tell him that he and I would never work but I was beginning to regret that. Seeing him in this situation has given me insight into how he really is.

“What about you? I can totally see you with the picket fence and that whole deal.” He takes a sip and I can’t help but stare as he licks his lips.

“Me? I don’t know. I’m going to be busy with work once I go back an I have Alana now so I don’t think it’s going to happen.” I see him smirk at me and I know he thinks its total bull.

“Liz please you know that’s crap. You’re never that busy and you know that I’m here to help with Alana. Don’t use her as an excuse to find happiness I‘m not.” Those words crush me and I try not to cry. I feel the tears stinging and I have to get up.

“I’ll be back.” I quickly head to the bathroom and lock the door behind me. There goes my dream of becoming Mrs. Evans.


Why is it so easy for him? I can never find anyone that I like enough to date. I end up comparing everyone to Max and although he’s not perfect he’s perfect for me. Once he moved out I decided to completely move on and never thought about being in a relationship with Max; until now. I think about what would have happened if Alana hadn’t woke up over and over. Everything was great when we were there and on the ride back but ever since I told him that the flowers were from Jake he’s been distant from me. I don’t know how he can be hot then cold like that. I guess I never will.

“Ok sweetie time for bed.” I do her hair up in a braid and help her under the covers.

“Where’s dad? I need him to read to me.” She knows I’m the worst bedtime story reader.

“He’s out baby. I’m going to have to do it tonight. Sorry.” I apologize because I know it’s going to suck.

“It’s alright. But you have to try the voices like dad ok?” She pulls her teddy bear close to her and I settle in next to her and begin reading.

A few minutes later I look down and she’s asleep. Thank God because this was killing me. I suck at this I really do. All my voices sound the same no matter how hard I try.

As I’m walking downstairs I hear the door opening and wonder why he’s home so early.

“She’s already asleep.” I tell him and make sure he doesn’t make too much noise to wake her up.

“Damn it. I’m going to give her a kiss I’ll be right back.” I nod my head and wait for him to come back down.

“So date didn’t go so well?” I ask when he finally comes back down.

“It wasn’t a date. It was some company thing my father made me go to.” He’s taking off his tie and shoes.

“And your dad made you take Tess?” I regret asking as soon as I do.

“Jealous?” He cocks his eyebrow at me.

“Of her? Please.” I grab a pillow and lean back on the sofa.

“Actually Tess asked me. But as soon as we got there she found a new target.” If he wants me to feel bad for him it’s not going to happen.

“Well that sounds like her.” I don’t know what’s come over me tonight.

“What’s with you? You mad about something?” He asks and I don’t even know what to say. I am mad but I can’t tell him what about.

“No. Sorry just work has me frustrated.” I hope he bought it.

“Well why don’t you go for a massage tomorrow. Go to the place I go to, it’s not far from my office.

“No thanks. I’m sure the place you go to is a borderline whore house.” Oh God. Open mouth insert foot much?

“Ok I’m going to go because you are in a fouls ass mood right now.” He’s grabbing his keys and jacket and I feel like shit for being mean. I guess it’s a defense mechanism. I don’t say anything as he walks out. Nice going Liz.

~~
I don’t know what’s gotten into her but I couldn’t stay in that house any longer. I had a feeling that we would end up fighting and wake up Alana and I don’t want that. She’s never heard us fight and I’d like to keep it that way. Now that I think about it Liz and I have never fought. As funny as it sounds we haven’t. We’ve had a few disagreements but never had a full out fight. I know that I’ve been distant since finding out about the flowers but I was angry and this is the way I’m dealing with it. Flowers don’t mean that she’s serious with this guy but I don’t want to stand in the way of her being in a relationship so I’ve taken myself out.

I’m dead tired and take a quick shower before heading off to bed. Hopefully tomorrow morning she’ll be in a better mood.
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~~Chapter 6~~
The next morning I head over to Liz’s to pick up Alana. She’s sitting at the kitchen table while Liz is drinking coffee. I see that there are al kinds of pastries and cookies on the counter.

“Morning.” I say trying to get a feel for her.

“Good morning. I baked last night. There are some sugar cookies on the platter over there.” She knows I love sugar cookies so I take it as a good sign.

“Ok princess you almost ready?” I take a bite of the cookie and it’s damn good.

“Dad cookies are not breakfast.” She scolds me and I put the cookies down. Can’t argue with that.

“So I’ll see you later then?” I ask on the way out.

“Umm sure I might be home late I have a meeting with a client and I have to leave everything ready for tonight’s dinner service.” She’s not being mean but still cold. She’s barely looked at me.

“That’s ok. I can pick up Alana I don’t have anything all afternoon.” She nods and I walk out.

“Mom’s sad.” My daughter is too smart for her own good.

“Why do you say that?” I check the rearview mirror to make sure she’s buckled up and pull out onto the road.

“Cause she was bakin all night. She does that when she is sad.” She’s right but I don’t want her to worry.

“It’s alright. She’s just worried about stuff at work. She’s really busy.” I try to make her feel better while still wondering myself what’s wrong with Liz.

~~
The meeting with Jake’s sister went smoothly. She pretty much knows what she wants so she gave me a list. The only problem is that there are about 700 guests so I’m going to need everyone on the staff to help out and a lot of it has to be pre-made. The wedding is in a month so I should have plenty of time. Now all I have to worry about is Jake.

I told him that we would talk after the wedding but I have a feeling that he’s not going to want to wait that long. It’s not that I don’t want to date him it’s just that I don’t think I’m ready. I know that he might have changed since the last time I saw him but I’ve never introduced anyone to Alana before and I’m not sure how she would handle another man being around her. I’m not sure how Max would handle it either and that’s what scares me. I have to talk to someone about it and decide to go to Isabel. I know that she would tell me that truth even if it’s not what I want to hear.

“Iz hey its Liz are you free for dinner tonight? I know its short notice but I need to talk to you about something.” I hate to do this to her, I know how she likes to have everything planned out but I need to vent.

“Umm sure it’s no problem. Is everything alright?” She asks me concerned.

“Yeah I just need a girlfriend right now.” She agrees and we meet at her house since Alex is going to be out tonight with some clients.

The rest of the day fly’s by. I guess that happens when you are busy. By the time I look up it’s time for me to leave. I check with everyone to make sure things are fine and I head out to meet Isabel.

“Hey it’s me. I’m meeting Isabel for dinner. How’s Alana?” I call Max on the way there just to check in.

“She’s fine we finished homework and were just about done with dinner.” I say hello to Alana and hang up. I know that I don’t need to check in on them anymore but it’s an old habit I guess.

I remember the first night that Alana stayed over at Max’s without Isabel being there to help. I was a wreck but I knew that he needed to learn. What if I got sick or something? I called him about 100 times that night and he finally threatened to turn the phone off if I didn’t stop calling.

I was at his door first thing the next morning. I felt like I was abandoning her for some reason. It’s crazy because she was with her father and she was next door but it took some time for me to not call more then three times.

I pull up to Isabel and Alex’s house and ring the doorbell. I’m so happy for them. When I first heard that they were dating I knew he was the one for her. She brought him out of his shell and he brought a more fun side out of her. They truly are perfect for each other, totally balancing each other out.

“Hey Emily.” I greet the housekeeper who opens the door. She takes my coat and tells me that Isabel is in the study.

“Hey you made it. I’m starving.” She quickly gets up and we head to the dining room for dinner.

“I didn’t know what you were in the mood for so there’s baked chicken and a pot roast.” I shake my head and smile. She knows that I would have eaten whatever she had made.

“So what is it that you wanted to talk about?” Once the food is served she wastes no time in getting to the point.

“I’m just really confused Isabel.” I tell her everything about Jake. She doesn’t say anything just a nod here and there. When I’m done talking I wait for her thoughts. Well more like I brace myself for her thoughts.

“So I’m assuming you told me this because you want the truth right?” Oh God here it comes.

“Yes.” I say and when she sets her fork and knife down I get nervous.

“Ok I don’t know much about this Jake guy but honestly I don’t trust him. I mean the way he came back into your life and now all of the sudden wants to date. I don’t know its suspect to me. He could have looked you up ages ago if he really wanted to. If you want to date him then go ahead just be careful that’s all.”

“Thanks. I knew you would be honest with me. Now on to the next problem. Max.” She laughs and I can’t wait to hear her thoughts on this.

“I swear you two are the most stubborn people I know. I will never understand why you are not married living the suburban life already.” I laugh at that. Fat chance.

“But how do you think he will react if I do decide to date Jake on a more serious level?”

“Honestly. Not good.” Shit that is not what I wanted to hear.

“I know it’s not what you want to hear but I’m not going to bullshit you. You’ve never dated before and trust me I know my brother he’s not going to like it.” This sucks.

“Yeah I kind of figured that but I mean he dates so what’s the difference. He’s dated for years and I’ve never said anything about it. Why should he get mad if I start to see someone?”

“Liz you are so blind. Yes Max dates but have you seen him go out with the same girl more then twice? There just dates to him. And I know you if you start to see Jake it’s going to be more then just a casual thing unlike Max. He knows this too that’s why he will get upset about it.”

“Well I still haven’t decided but you are right if I do decide to see Jake it will be more then just a casual thing. I guess that’s why Max and I have never gotten together. I don’t think he’s capable of a serious relationship.

“Liz Liz Liz. Like I said blind.” She picks up her utensils and begins to eat again while I try to figure out what the hell that last statement meant. I know that she will never betray Max and tell me things that he has told her but that last statement has got me thinking.

We are sitting in the living room having coffee when Isabel asks me a shocking question.

“Can I ask you something?” She sets her coffee cup down and turns to face me.

“Sure.”

“Why is it that you and Max never got together after the New Years party?” I forgot that Isabel knows about how Alana came to be.

“I don’t know. After that night I was so confused. I didn’t know if things would have changed between us so I kind of avoided Max for a while until I found out I was pregnant.”

“But did you want to be with him? I mean relationship wise?” God I so don’t want to talk about this. I can either lie and get busted or tell the truth.

“I did, at least I thought it did but Max is…Max. I didn’t want to make him feel like he was obligated to be in a relationship with me even after I found out I was pregnant. It was just a one night thing.” Ok so the last part is bullshit, sue me.

“Liz I know you and don’t give me that crap about it being a one night thing. What did you guys talk about that night? I’m sure you said something to each other before you jumped into bed.” Damn when did she get so insightful?

Ok this is the moment of truth I want to tell her I really do but I can’t.

“We did but I’d rather not say. I think it had a lot to do with alcohol anyway. We were both drinking that night.” She cocks an eyebrow at me and shakes her head.

“Alright but whenever you are ready to talk I’m here. I want you to be happy, both of you.” I know that she means both of us together but that’s only a dream.

Max and I talked about what happened that night but we both decided that it was a mixture of the alcohol and the excitement of celebrating the New Year. We both admitted that we weren’t sorry that it happened but agreed that it was a one time thing. Neither of us wanted to ruin our friendship at that point so we decided not to talk about it again. In retrospect I think I was in denial of my feelings towards Max. I was always stuck on the fact that he dated a lot and never thought that maybe it could be different with us.

~~
It’s the night before the wedding and I’m making sure everything is in order. After double checking everything I decide to head home, I have to be back here early in the morning.

When I pull up I see the lights are still on downstairs. I thought that Max was going to take Alana to his house. I guess there was a change in plans.

When I walk in I see the most beautiful sight. Max is asleep on the sofa with Alana partially on top of him. She has on her ballerina outfit complete with shoes and a tiara that Isabel insisted she should have. I have to take a picture so I quietly make my way to the bedroom to get it.

I snap a few shots and Max starts to wake up.

“Hey.” He says in that groggy sexy voice of his.

“Hey. I thought you were going to take her to your place?” I ask as she lifts Alana to take her up to her bed.

“I was but you have more sweets and we got wrapped up in a movie.” I wait for him downstairs as he takes her up to bed to tuck her in.

“So tomorrow I have to go in early and I’ll be there until all the food is served so I’ll be home late again sorry.” I know that he must have plans.

“It’s ok I know this is a big deal for you. I don’t mind.” He helps me clear up some of the toys scattered around.

“If you have a date I can call Isabel she won’t mind taking her. I mean if you have plans.” I’m hoping that he doesn’t say he has a date.

“No, no plans.” That’s a relief.

He says goodnight and goes home. I sit in the living room and think about our trip to New York. Everything was perfect and I started to get feelings for him again, feelings that I have tried to push away but never seem to be able to. I hate this dance that Max and I seem to be doing. When it seems like we have made some progress something happens and we are pushed back a few steps. I wonder if he thinks about this at all? I wonder if it keeps him up at night like it does me?

~~
The wedding goes off without a hitch. After the main course is served I leave my assistant chef in charge and go home. I’m exhausted. As I’m walking to my car I hear someone behind me.

“Liz. Wait a second.” I see Jake walking towards me.

“Oh hey.” I say and turn to face him.

“Everything was great. Thank you.”

“It’s my job. No need to thank me. I’m glad you liked everything.” We get to my car and I hit the alarm to open the door.

“So it’s after the wedding. Have you thought about what we talked about the other night?” Damn he’s not wasting any time is he?

“Yeah I have. And I think it would be great if we could see each other but I want to take things slow you know see where things go.” God that must have sounded so lame.

“I agree. So dinner Friday night? I’ll pick you up around 6.” Here he goes again with wanting to pick me up.

“How about I meet you. You pick the place.”

“Liz if we’re going to date I’m going to have to eventually pick you up at your place.” He right he’s totally right but I have to tell him about Alana before he sees her.

“I know just this one last time ok?” I hope he agrees.

“Ok agreed.” He jots down the name of a restaurant and we agree to meet there. Now I wonder if I should tell Max tonight or after my date? I’ll wait to get home and see what kind of mood he’s in.

~~
“Dad?” Yeah baby.

“How come you and mom won’t get married?” Shit where is Liz? How do I answer this?

“Well baby your mom and I are better as friends.”

“But you love mom right?” She stops playing with her doll and waits for my answer.

“Of course I do but there are different kinds of love. Just like I love aunty Bell.” God this is hard I just hope she understands.

“Yeah but you and mom made me and mom says that babies come when two people love each other so much that it makes a whole other person. You can’t have a baby with aunty Bell right?”

“No honey I can’t.” I laugh at that. When she gets older she’ll realize how funny that comment was.

“Then get married. You love mom and she loves you.” It’s so simple for her.

“Honey we can’t ok? Mom and I aren’t going to get married baby.” I pull her towards me and sit with her on the sofa. I know that it’s hard for her to understand and it kills me that she wants this so much. I don’t know what’s gotten into her but she’s really into marriage lately. I hope she grows out of it and soon too.

~~
I get home and see that Max decided to stay at his place tonight. I head over there hoping that Alana is up still.

“Hey is she in bed already?” I ask when I see him alone watching a movie.

“Yeah. You just missed it.” I sigh and sit next to him.

“I’m exhausted.” I lean back against the sofa and wish I could fall asleep right here.

“Did it go well?”

“Yeah everything was perfect.” I have my eyes closed and I swear I’m about to fall asleep.

“You look tired. Why don’t you crash here?”

“No it’s ok. I’m going to go. I need to change anyway I smell like food.” There is no way I could stay here. I don’t want to confuse Alana.

“Ok then see you tomorrow.” When he says tomorrow I snap my eyes open. I want to tell him about tomorrow but I decide not to.

“Ok tomorrow then.” I get up and walk to the door.

“I have a date Friday night but I’ll be around all afternoon if you want to do something.” So much for waiting to tell him.

“I have a date too. I’ll ask Isabel to watch Alana.”

“You have a date?” He says it and it’s barely a whisper.

“Yes.” I swallow hard bracing myself for whatever he’s about to say.

“Well if you’re going to be dating often we need to work something out. I don’t want Alana at Isabel’s all the time. It’s not her responsibility.” he’s right but I don’t like the tone that he’s taken.

“Yeah I guess we do. And for the record I’m not dating all the time. This is my second date.”

“I knew that first one was a date. We’ve never lied to each other Liz. What’s going on?” I know he’s hurt. He’s right we have always been honest with each other.

“Max I didn’t say anything because I didn’t think it was a big deal. If I waited for a day when you didn’t have a date I’d never go out. It’s a miracle you’ve been home the past few days. Did you run out of women Max? Is that it?” I don’t know what came over me but I didn’t mean to lash out like that.

“Ok this isn’t going anywhere. I think you should go before we both say things that we will regret later.” I want to go, I my head I see myself leaving but I don’t. Something about him always taking control of everything has really pissed me off right now.

“No Max this is not over. We need to discuss this right now.” I stand with my hands on my hips.

“Not here. Alana’s upstairs and I don’t want her to hear us.” He’s right.

“Fine let’s go outside then.” He throws on his shoes and follows me out.

“What the hell has gotten into you?” He asks me like I’m the problem.

“Me? What is your problem? I know that we can’t use Isabel as a fill in babysitter but I have plans, plans that I’m not going to break and I’m sure breaking yours would be out of the question.”

“This is bullshit. You never asked me if I could break my plans. How do you know that I won‘t? Nothing is more important then my daughter.” He spits that at me and it makes my blood boil.

“Are you trying to say that this date is more important to me then Alana? Don’t go there. I haven’t been out in years Max and when I finally do you try and make me feel bad about it? Nice Max.” I want to burst out in tears I’m so mad right now.

“Look I’m not trying to make you feel bad ok. This is new territory we just need to work out the kinks. How about we sit and talk about it tomorrow?” I hate that he can turn things around like that. I hate him one minute and the next he was me grinning like an idiot.

“Ok night Max.”

“Night babe.” I still hate that!

~~
Bright and early the next morning I hear Alana and Max come in. Alana is chatting up a storm about something. I get my robe and quickly brush my teeth before I head downstairs.

“Mom can I go riding today? Uncle Alex called and said I could can I? Dad already said yes.” I give Max a glare and have to agree. I can’t be the bad guy.

“Thanks mom.” She gives ma a kiss and goes up to her room to get changed.

“So it’s just you and me today.” He says while devouring a cookie.

“Yeah I guess so.” I start some coffee and take a bite of a chocolate chip cookie.

“That’s not breakfast.” He scolds me.

“What about you?”

“We ate already.” I put the cookie down and pour myself come coffee.

“Are you dropping her off?”

“No Alex is coming to get her. He needed some papers that I had at home.”

“Oh ok. Well I’m going to get dressed real quick. I’ll be right back.” He nods and I head upstairs to throw on a pair of jeans. On my way out I see that Alana is still in her room.

“Honey you almost ready?” I see her playing with her hair.

“Yeah almost.” I walk into her room and I see that she has on her ballerina outfit again.

“Alana baby you can’t wear that to go riding you know that. Why did you change?” I try to hold back my laughter.

“I wanted to wear this,” She really thinks that it’s appropriate to wear that out.

“Let’s get you one of the outfits Isabel got you ok?” She instantly brightens up and we look through one of the thousand outfits she has.

We settle on something and make our way downstairs where I hear Alex and Max talking about work.

“Well there’s my princess and the queen.” It’s Alex. He bows and Alana giggles.

“Uncle Alex!” She runs to him and gives him a hug.

“Hey Liz.” He says while swinging Alana around.

“Hey. Thank you for taking her. She loves riding.”

“I know. It’s no problem at all really. She’s great at it too.” Alana is shaking her head yes while he’s saying that. He puts her down and I make sure that she minds her manners and listens to Alex and Isabel.

“Mom I’m always a good girl right Uncle Alex?”

“That’s right princess.” This girl has his wrapped around her finger just like she has her dad.

“Ok princess Alana your carriage awaits. Shall we?” Alex is such a dork but I love him.

“Bye mom bye dad.” We kiss her good bye and she leaves with Alex.

~~
“So about last night.” I stayed up half the night thinking about it and I feel strange now.

“Our first fight.” She laughs.

“Yeah. It was strange. I mean all the years we’ve known each other this was a big one. I just want everything to be ok.”

“I know. So do I that’s why I think we should talk about things. A schedule usually works for us.” I don’t want a schedule it seems so mechanical but I know Liz loves schedules it makes her feel better about things.

“Do you think that’s going to fix it? A schedule I mean?” I just hope this doesn’t start another fight.

“I don’t know Max. I mean it’s worked for us in the past we need to do something so we can avoid any further fights.”

“Your right. I guess we can alternate weekends or something.” That sounds like we are a divorced couple or something.

“Yeah I guess. That should work.” I’m glad that is worked out.

“So let’s go do something today just me and you.” I pull her into a hug and we get in my car. We haven’t spent the day together without Alana in a while.

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~~Chapter 7~~
“Max don’t forget you have a lunch meeting with your lawyer al Il cucina at 12 ok. Your father needs to see you in his office and you need to sign these checks before you go.” Maria is in full swing the minute I walk in the door. I don’t want to see my father right now and head straight for my office instead.

I’m in the middle of signing checks when my father barges into my office.

“Max I told Maria I needed to see you in my office. Did you not get the message?” He looks pissed and I can’t help but smirk a little.

“Yeah I got it but I had some things to do first. What is it dad?” I go back to signing checks waiting to hear what he wants.

“I wanted to go over a few things before your lunch meeting today. You’re going to be going over contracts and…”

“Dad this isn’t my first deal. Relax I’ve got it covered.” What is up with him?

“I know Max but we are in a bidding war with Jake Connors and I want to win. I refuse to let him have this one; we’ve worked too hard for it.” He runs his hand through his hair.

“Dad its fine just trust me ok.” He smiles and leaves.

It’s 11:30 and Maria informs me that I need to move my ass or else I’m going to be late. She’s lucky she’s my best friend’s wife.

I’ve never been here before but the place is great. It’s not too big and not too intimate either. I love Italian food and this is one of the best places around so I’ve heard. I should come back here for dinner. I spot Andrew our attorney and head to the table.

“Max long time no see.” He’s in his late 40’s but looks like he’s much older. I guess being a lawyer for our company does that to you.

“Hey how are the kids?” I ask him.

“Great and how is Alana?” I tell him she’s fine and we order our appetizers.

“So listen between you and I your father needs to relax on this deal. He’s looking to eager and it’s not good.” I laugh, he’s right.

“Yeah I know but are you going to tell him that?”

“No.” He shakes his head and laughs.

“So here is the bid. You can take it with you if you’d like just have it signed and notarized and get it back to me tomorrow by 3:00. Hopefully if all goes well we will have this thing wrapped up soon.” I take the paperwork and quickly glance over it. I hate doing business when I’m eating.

“Yeah the sooner the better. What’s with Jake Connors? Why is he so interested in this all of the sudden?”

“I don’t know but he’s trying everything he can to get this bid. Honestly he doesn’t have the funds so I don’t know how he will pull it off. He’s done a great job since his father passed away but it’s nothing like Evans Enterprises.” I’m glad to hear that.

Our food is brought over to us and we dig in. The food is incredible.

“Wow this is really good.” Andrew says.

“Yeah it is. Very authentic.” I need to talk to the chef to tell him or her how great this food is. Tastes just like the food I had when I went to Italy after graduation.

We finish our food and Andrew leaves for another appointment. I pick up the tab and stay behind.

“Excuse me miss I just wanted to say that the food was incredible.” I tell the waitress as I hand her my credit card.

“I’m glad you enjoyed it sir. The owner is here today if you’d like to speak to her.” She smiles and point to the bar area.

“Her name is Victoria.” She’s grinning and I can’t help but wonder why. I tell her thank you and walk over to the bar area.

“Hello my name is Max Evans and I just wanted to say that I really enjoyed the food here today. It’s very authentic.” She turns to face me and I am taken back a little.

“Gratzi.” Now I know why the food was so great.

“My name is Victoria Allegra and I’m glad you enjoyed the food Mr. Evans.” Her smile is so bright.

“Please call me Max. So how long has this place been here?” I’m propelled to strike up a conversation with her for some reason.

“About 2 years.” She’s cleaning cups and I notice how long her hair is when she bends over.

“Really? I’m sad to say this is my first time coming here.”

“Well I’m glad that you did.”

“I’m sorry I have to head back to the office. Maybe I’ll see you next time I come eat here.” I don’t know why I said that it sounded like a pick up line or something.

“I’m here every night.” I guess it worked.

“Nice meeting you.” The waitress hand me my credit card and I go back to the office. I find myself in an incredibly good mood for the rest of the day even when my father harasses me about my meting. Something about her makes me want to see Victoria again; I can’t get her out of my mind.

“Iz hey it’s me. Do you and Alex have plans for tomorrow night?” I had a date but I suddenly want to cancel and see Victoria again.

“No why what’s up?” I tell her about the restaurant and she agrees to come with me. We decide to meet there and once again I’m smiling.

~~

I pull up to the restaurant and see that Isabel and Alex are already there waiting for me.

“Hey guys sorry I’m late.” I won’t tell them that I changed a few times not knowing what I was going to wear.

“It’s ok. Lets go in this place is packed.” Isabel is right there are barely any parking spaces left.

“So your dad is all freaked out about this deal. It’s all he talks about.” Alex says after we place our orders.

“Tell me about it. He’s driving me crazy.” Alex laughs.

“I’m glad I don’t have anything to do with that. But trust me he does the same thing to me all the time.” I can tell Isabel looks bored so I try to shift the conversation to something she would like to talk about.

“Iz how are things with you?”

“Ok I guess. You know same old same old. Mom called me the other day. She’s on some Island I forgot where. You know how she is.” She rolls her eyes.

“Yeah I know. I’m surprised she called at all. I wonder if she called dad.”

“Yeah right.” Isabel snorts. “Like she would ever act like a wife and call him once in a while.” Ok next topic, this one isn’t going so well.

“Max we are thinking about getting a vacation house. Any suggestions?” Alex beats me to it.

“That’s great you guys. I don’t know someplace tropical would be nice.”

“We were thinking Malibu or something. I want it on the beach for sure though.” Isabel cuts in.

“That sounds great.” Our food finally arrives and it’s the same waitress from this afternoon. She gives me an amused look and winks at me.

“What the hell was that? You said you’ve only been here once Max.” Isabel picks up on everything.

“I have. I was here the other day with Andrew for a meeting.” I shrug it off hoping that she does too.

“Well this looks great.” Alex says and I’m thankful. Isabel however is giving me her classic I know you are up to something glare.

A few minutes into our meal I see Victoria heading our way. I want to talk to her but I’m regretting bringing Isabel with me.

“Max hello. I’m glad you came back.” She smiles at me.

“Hello. Um this is my sister Isabel and her husband Alex. Guys this is Victoria Allegra, she owns this place.

“Nice to meet you this place is great.” Alex says, Isabel doesn’t look as impressed.

“Nice to meet you.” Is all Isabel says.

“Well I didn’t mean to intrude, enjoy your meal.” She gives me a small smile and walks away.

“You’re an asshole.” Isabel says when Victoria leaves.

“What? Why?” What is she talking about?

“I know what you did. You asked us to come with you because you wanted to see her.” She‘s pissed now.

“I did not. I wanted to have dinner with you guys.”

“And you just so happened to want to eat here….again!” Shit I can’t ever outsmart her.

“Isabel please. I wanted to bring you guys here because the food is good, you said so yourself.” Why can’t Alex jump in?

“Come on you two lets just eat ok?” Isabel shakes her head and goes back to eating.

I mouth a thank you to Alex and continue with my dinner as well. We finish our dessert and I walk out with them but with intentions to come back in and talk to Victoria. Throughout dinner I was stealing glances at her while she worked. I’m sure Isabel noticed and will grill me about it another day but I don’t care.

“Thanks for coming guys. I had a good time.” I’m trying to make Isabel happy but she’s not buying it.

“We did to.” Alex answers Isabel just smiles. I give her a kiss on the cheek anyway and wait for them to leave before I go back inside.

I’m scanning the room for her and don’t see her anywhere. I hope she didn’t leave somehow before I can talk to her.

“She’s in the back.” The mystery waitress tells me pointing to where Victoria is. I wonder why she’s so willing to help me out but I let it go. I walk towards the back and see her in a small office on the computer.

“Victoria?” I call when I see her staring at the computer screen.

“Max hi. What are you doing back here?” She stands up and walks towards me.

“I just wanted to talk to you before I left.” Nice going Max!

“Oh well was everything ok?” She looks worried for some reason.

“Oh yeah everything was great. I um wanted to ask you if you weren’t busy we might go out sometime?” I feel myself blushing.

“Um yeah that would be nice.

“Let me give you my number.” I hand her a business card that has my cell number on it.” She looks at it and smiles.

“Ok so just give me a call and we can work out the details.”

“Ok I’ll call you.” I say good bye and head home. It’s been a long day.


~~
I’m meeting Jake in half an hour and I’m running late. He had to change our date until Saturday since he was held up at work. Isabel is here and I wish she would take Alana so I don’t have to answer 20 questions again. She’s really shedding light on the fact that I never date let me tell you.

“Mom you are goin out again?” She’s standing in the next to me with her hands on her hips. She looks annoyed and I try to hide back a giggle when I see her face.

“Yes baby.” I’m keeping it short and sweet so she’ll get bored and go to her room.

“You need any help?” Isabel comes into the room and asks me.

“Yeah but it involves you leaving.” She laughs and takes a seat on the bed. Bitch!

“I’m not leaving I want to witness you first hand getting dressed for a date. This is an event Liz.” Did I ever tell you how much I hate her?

“God you would think I was a nun or something. I’ve had dates before you know.” This is getting old already.

“Yeah ok Liz. Well I can see you’re a nervous wreck so Alana and I will go bother Max.” I smile and mouth a thank you since Alana has come back in the room.

“Bye baby.” I give her a kiss and hug

“By mom. Aunty Bell and I are going to play dress up tonight. She says Uncle Alex has to play too.” Isabel can be cruel. I’m sure she will get Alex to participate in that somehow and I hope she takes pictures.

When they leave I realize how quiet the house is. I turn on the radio because the silence is deafening.

~~
“DAD?” I hear my daughter and wonder what she’s doing here.

“I’m upstairs baby.” I hear Isabel and brace myself for whatever she‘s going to say.

“Hi daddy.” I’m fixing my hair and she stand on the toilet seat to get a better view.

“Hey Iz what are you doing here?”

“Liz kicked me out so I came to see what you were up to.” She’s rolling her eyes at me while I continue to fix my hair.

“Well I’m just about ready to go.” I put some cologne on and head to my room to put my watch on.

“Dad you have a date too?” Alana asks me as I grab my jacket.

“Yup.” I cringe when she says that. A reminder that Liz is going out too.

“Why don’t you and mom go out together?” This one is not giving up on this.

“We do go out together all the time.” I try to avoid the conversation and head downstairs with them both behind me.

“I love you baby. I’ll see you tomorrow.” I give her a kiss and walk out behind them locking the door.

When I get to my car I wish that I would have taken longer to come out. I turn to the side and I see Liz walking out to her car. She looks like an angel with a flowing dress and her hair pulled back with two small pins. I swear I can see her glowing even in the dark. I can’t help but watch her like some stalker. I thank God that my windows are tinted dark…very dark. She stops in front of her car door and I see her take a deep breathe before opening the door. I sit in my car once she’s gone. I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I can’t move. It seems that every time I look at her she gets more and more beautiful. I get myself together and head off to pick up Victoria.

~~
I feel like I’m in high school and this is my first date. I know I’ve been out with Jake before and even recently but that was about business. This is a full out date and I’m scared shitless. I know I’m thinking ahead but what if I start to see him and it doesn’t work out? What will I tell Alana? When do I tell Alana? I’m driving with all these thoughts in my head and all of the sudden I’m there. I valet my car and head inside. I quickly spot Jake and am seated.

“Am I late?” I look down at my watch.

“I’m a bit early.” He laughs and places his hand on mine briefly. I can’t help but feel a bit uneasy.

We order our food and I sit there like an idiot. I don’t know what to talk about, I feel like I don’t know him at all.

“Is everything ok?” He asks.

“Yeah.” I smile softly.

“So tell me about work?” I know that he’s just throwing anything out there to get conversation going. I wonder if it’s like this for Max. He’s probably a pro at this as many times as he’s been out. I look up at Jake and feel bad for thinking about Max so I answer his questions.

~~
I pick Victoria up and take her to a Michael’s restaurant. It’s southwestern food so I hope she’ll like it.

“You look great.” I find myself telling her and she really does. She’s wearing a knee length black skirt and a red top. Not too much makeup either which is a good thing.

“Thank you.” She smiles and once again I notice how brilliant her smile is.

“I hope you like southwestern food.” I want to make sure before we get there.

“Sounds great I heard of a place called Jalapenos it’s supposed to be the best.”

“Well you’re in luck because that’s where we are going.”

“Really? Great.” I turn the radio up a little as we drive.

When we get there the place is totally packed.

“I hope you have a reservation.” We both laugh.

“Nope.” I shrug and see her puzzled face.

“I got something better.” I wink at her and give the hostess my name. Seconds later Michael comes out of the back.

“Max! What the heck are you doing here? Long time no see.” I give him a hug.

“I know it’s been too long. I see things are going well for you.” He looks around and manages a smile.

“Yeah things have been great. Who’s this?”

“Oh I’m sorry Michael Guerin this is Victoria Allegra.” Michael shakes her hand.

“Come on I’ll show you to your table.” He leads us towards the back and I have to say the table he gives us is great.” I hold out the chair for Victoria.

“We keep these open for V.I.P” Michael winks at me and says he will have the waiter come over soon. I say goodbye and promise to give him a call.

“Very sneaky.” She shakes her head.

“Yeah I have my secrets.” I wink at her and place our wine selection.

“So what is it that you do? I saw the business card but it only says VP, What kind of company is it?” I can tell she’s genuinely interested unlike other dates I’ve had.

“Well it’s my fathers company actually. We specials in building high rises around the world and recently in takeovers. I don’t want to bore you though.” She shakes her head.

“No not at all. My father had a construction company in Italy for many years. I find it interesting.” I take a sip of my wine and try to hide an amused smile. There is something about her.

“So what brings you to Boston?” I see her swirl her wine before drinking it.

“I came here for school and decided to stay. I love it here.” She blushes a little.

“What school did you go to?”

“I went to Boston University, I was going to go to medical school but I decided that it wasn’t for me so I opened a restaurant instead.” I wonder what made her drop out.

“Wow med school. That sounds great.”

“Yeah it was but I‘ve always wanted to run my own restaurant. I was only going for my father but when I told him of my true passion he agreed that I should go for it.”

We order our food and not once does the conversation go stale. Before I know it the restaurant is almost empty and we had long since finished dessert. I drive her home and we are now sitting in my car outside her house.

“I had a really good time tonight.” She says.

“So did I.” I’m stuck. Usually I would be going up to my date’s apartment or making out in the car but I don’t want to do that with her. She’s different.

“Ok well I have an early day tomorrow. Thank you for everything.” She smiles and I get out opening the door for her.

“Goodnight Max.”

“Goodnight.” I kiss her on the cheek and make sure she’s in the house before I pull away.
~
After the awkwardness of the beginning of our date things went much smoother. We filled each other in on what’s really been going on since we last talked but I still don’t tell him about Alana or Max for that matter. I still have to wait and see how things go before I cross that bridge.

“Liz I’m going to be honest with you. I’m not looking for a casual thing. I really want to give this a try.”

“I appreciate your honesty Jake.” I don’t know what to say. Do I tell him that’s what I want too?

“What is it that you want Liz?” Well there’s not backing out now.

“I would like the same thing.” I smile and he takes my hand placing a gentle kiss on it.

“So next date do I get to pick you up?” He laughs as I wait for my car to be brought to me.

“Ok sure.” I assume that the next date won’t be anytime soon.

“Ok so how about the day after tomorrow?” Oh crap. I just said I want to give this a go. I can’t say no.

“Ok that sounds great.” I smile as I get into my car.

“Ok dress casual I have a surprise for you.” He places a soft kiss on my cheek and waits for me to drive off.

I feel really good about this. He seems to be a different man now and I’m glad. I feel like I’m turning over a new leaf and I couldn’t be happier. Things were looking up for me now. I drive home with the biggest smile on my face. People are going to think I’m crazy but I don’t care.

I get home and set my keys and purse down and throw myself on the couch. I call Isabel to tell her about my date I need to talk to someone about it.

“Hey it’s me I just got home. How‘s Alana?” I prop my feet up on the coffee table.

“She’s fine Alex is reading her a story.” She laughs.

“Thanks again for taking her.”

“Stop it. We’re happy to have her you know that. So I’m guessing things went well?” I’m telling her about my date when I hear the door open. It’s Max and I suddenly feel strange about talking about it but Isabel is pressing me for details. If I go in the other room it’s going to be obvious. I try to keep my answers short.

~~
To say this this is awkward would be like calling the Grand Canyon a little hole. It’s beyond awkward.

She gets off the phone and has this biggest smile on her face. I hear her mention the name Jake a few times and I wonder if it’s the same Jake I met the other night. That would be something.

“Sorry that was Isabel you know how she gets.”

“Yeah. So I guess your date went well?” I feel strange talking to her about a date. It’s usually us talking about mine.

“Yes it was great.” I’m glad she feels like she can talk to me about this I know it must be strange for her too.

“Well I just came by to see how everything was I’m tried so I guess I’ll see you tomorrow.” I fake a yawn. I suddenly feel like I need to get out of there.

“Ok night Max.”

“Night.” I wave and quickly walk home. I had the best date I’ve had in years but the minute I see Liz it‘s her that I want. I need to get her out of my mind; this has gone on for too long.

~~
He says goodnight and for the first time in years he doesn’t follow it with babe. I always complained about it but now I miss it. I know something is wrong but I didn’t want to ask him. He’ll tell me eventually at least I hope he will that’s how it’s always been with us; hopefully not that much has changed.
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Thank you guys again for the FB. I'll be posting another part on Thursday.

~~Chapter 8~~
The next day Max, Alana and I have breakfast together but we spend the day apart. I take Alana to the science museum and Max says he has plans for the day. I’m a little disappointed but don’t make a big deal about it for my daughters sake.

“Mom are you goin to go out all the time like dad now?” We’re looking at the large aquarium that they have.

“No baby not like dad but I am going to go out. Is that ok with you?” I never talked to her about this and I’m sure she’s confused.

“I guess.” She shrugs and walks ahead a little. I’m such an idiot, I never thought about her feelings and since she’s been bringing up marriage lately I’m sure she’s really confused. I can’t put off the conversation Max and I need to have with her any longer. We need to do this soon.

She seems fine for the rest of the day and we head home around 4 o’clock. She’s requested that I make my special pizza’s so I stop by the grocery store for a few things.

“Mom can dad come too. He likes your pizza.” I look at her through the rear view mirror and see how excited she is about Max coming over for dinner.

“Sure babe, if he’s home he can come.” I pull up to the house and grab the bags.

“I’m going to get dad!” She’s running over there before I can say anything. I look over there again and I see another car in the driveway.

“Oh shit!” I mutter before I drop my bags and race over there. Max has company and I don’t want Alana to see something she shouldn’t.

“Dad Mom is making pizzas!” I hear her say when she wings the door open.

~~
My daughter barges in on me heavily making out with Victoria on the sofa. I feel like I’ve just been caught by my parents. I quickly sit up and straighten my shirt.

“Alana hey baby.” She’s standing there looking back and for the between me and Victoria

I get up and walk towards her when I hear Liz calling for Alana.

“Max I’m sorry she just ran over here like that. I didn’t see the car.” She takes Alana’s hand and looks back and forth between Victoria and I.

“Umm Victoria this is Liz.” Liz manages a smile. “And this is Alana my daughter.”

“Hello.” Victoria says as Alana hides behind Liz.
“We’ll go. It was nice meeting you.” Liz says and bolts out the door.

“You have a daughter?” She asks and I guess she’s a little hurt that I didn’t tell her before.

“Yes. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you before. I should have.” I feel bad now.

“It’s ok. She’s lovely. Is Liz her mother?”

“Yes she is. She lives next door.” I might as well come completely clean while I’m at it.

“I think that’s great.” I’m glad she seems to be taking it well.

“Well I guess I better go. I’m sure you have some explaining to do.” I laugh a little and walk her out.

“Liz I’m sorry about that. I didn’t know she was going to come over otherwise I wouldn’t have well, you know.” Alana is upstairs and I see her in the kitchen trying to look busy.

“It’s fine Max. I should have checked to make sure you were alone before I let her run over there.” I sense some anger in her tone.

“Well I guess we were both at fault. I should have locked the door.” Truth was I was too wrapped up in kissing Victoria that I didn’t even think about the door.

“Yeah well I wanted to talk to you anyway. We need to have that talk with Alana soon so let me know when you are free.” She starts to put the toppings on the pizza and I can tell she’s totally trying to keep busy since she’s spacing out each slice of pepperoni precisely.

We eat mostly in silence and I now know that what Alana saw deeply affected her. She’s never one to sit and eat in silence and I remember that she went to the science museum today she would be chatting up a storm by now. Liz won’t even look up at me and it’s killing me. I feel like they both hate me right now. I can’t have them both be mad at me. Alana has never been upset with me, she’s a daddy’s girl. I can’t even eat. I feel like shit and need to talk to them about this.

After dinner we sit in the living room and I feel their eyes on me. Alana goes to sit next to Liz and it breaks my heart. She’s playing with Liz’s hair and I know she’s nervous about something.

“Alana baby dad and I need to talk to you about some things ok?” She stops playing with Liz’s hair and sits up straight.

“Why don’t you tell us how you feel about what you saw today?” I’m not sure how much she saw so I wait for her answer.

“ I saw dad kissin someone but…” She stop and looks like she’s thinking about what to say next.

“But what baby?” I ask her.

“Buy how come you was kissin that lady and you don’t kiss mom like that?” Liz and I look at each other and I don’t even know how to answer that. If I was serious with Victoria then I could tell her that but I don’t even know what Victoria and I are at this point.

“Honey dad doesn’t kiss mommy like that because we are not in love.” Liz looks at me and I can tell she’s not happy with that explanation.

“You love that lady?” Jeez can it be possible that I’m scared of a 6 year old? Well I am.

“No honey I don’t. Sometimes grown up’s kiss other grown up’s but they don’t have to be in love with each other.” I wish Liz would jump in here cause I don’t know what the hell to say right now.

“But you love mommy right? You made me wit mommy.” I look to Liz for this one because I’m doing a shitty job right now.

“Yes honey we did and we do care about each other but we’re not getting married honey. One day your daddy will marry someone and maybe one day I’ll get married to but not to each other.” God did her words have to be so final? Hearing her say that forms a knot in my stomach.

“You guys are a liars!” Ok I totally didn’t expect that one. She gets off the sofa and is standing between Liz and I.

“We didn’t lie baby.” Liz is trying to talk to her in a soothing voice but it’s not working.

“Yeah you did. You said only people that love each other and are married make babies. Why can’t daddy kiss you? Why can’t you love daddy? Why can’t daddy love you!” She storms off up to her room and I can hear her crying on the way up.

“You go.” Liz tells me. I nod my head and head up to her room.

~~
I send Max up there because he’s the one that has things to explain plus he’s better at calming her down then me. He’s always had that effect on her.

I wait a few minutes then head up to her room to see how things are going.

~~
“Baby it’s daddy can I come in?” I wait for her to say I can come in but don’t hear anything.

“Alana I’m coming in.” I know the door wasn’t locked and was trying to get her to let me in but I see that she’s not talking to me right now.

I walk into her room and she’s on the bed crying. It breaks my heart but walking away like that wasn’t right and I need to tell her.

“Sweetheart come here.” I sit on a rocking chair that’s been in her room since she was a baby and pull her onto my lap. I grab a tissue and help wipe away the tears.

“Honey you can’t walk away from your mom and me like that ok? Even if your upset about something you have to stay and talk to us about it.” I don’t want her to ever feel like she can’t talk to us about anything.

“Sorry daddy.” She’s sniffling a little and I hate to see her cry.

“Baby I know it’s hard for you to understand but your mom and me are not going to get married ok?”

“But how come? You think mom is pretty right?” I wish things could be so simple like they are for her.

“Yes I do think that your mom is very pretty but I think Isabel is pretty too and Maria, you remember Maria right?” She shakes her head yes “Well I’m not going to marry her am I?” She shakes her head no and I pray that she’s beginning to understand.

“I love your mom but we are not going to get married ok?” Hopefully this is the last time we discuss this. She sits there for a while and I can still see the tears in her eyes. Luckily Liz comes in at that point.

“Is everything ok?” She asks I nod my head no and look down at Alana. She comes closer and puts her hand on my shoulder. This is so hard. Being a parent is really hard.

“It’s not fair.” She says quietly but we both hear it. I look at Liz and she shrugs her shoulders not knowing what to say.

“I know it’s not honey but it’s the way it is. I’m sorry.” I place a kiss in her head. I have nothing else to say to comfort her. I hope she will work through it herself. I lay her down on her bed and she takes a nap. Something that she hasn’t done in a while. Liz and I go downstairs and she makes some coffee.

“This is hard. I never thought it would be this hard.” I dump some sugar into mine and stir it.

“ I know. Once she gets over the whole marriage thing she will be ok.” She takes a seat next to me and we sit in silence for a while.

~~
Jake is coming to pick me up and once again I’m a wreck. This is my weekend per our agreement so Max has taken Alana already. Now that I think about it he picked her up mighty early. Jake told me to dress casual so I’m wearing a pair of dark blue jeans and I black ¾ sleeved v-neck sweater. I quickly apply some lip gloss when I hear the door bell ring. It shocks me because no one ever rings it.

“Hey come in.” I suddenly feel underdressed. He’s wearing a pair of khakis with a red button down shirt.

“You look great.” He gives me a kiss on the cheek and I blush.

“I’m almost ready just let me get my purse.” I run upstairs to grab my purse. When I come down I see him looking at some pictures I have on the mantle.

“This little girl is adorable.” He’s holding a picture of Alana and I that was taken last year when we went to the beach.

“Yes she is.” I want to tell him about Alana but decide to wait and see if he asks any more questions. At least he didn’t get to see the pictures with Max in them luckily I caught him in time.

“Where are we going?” I ask when I see we are driving to what looks like an airport.

“Well I wanted to take you to this place on Martha’s vineyard but I didn’t want to waste the day driving so we are going in the company helicopter.

Did he just say helicopter? Ok this feels like a scene from a movie. I smile and just go with it.

We get into his helicopter and I’m scared shitless. We lift off and I don’t even want to look out the window. I don’t feel safe at all. This thing is way too small for my comfort level.

What seems like 10 hours later but is less then 20 minutes we finally land. A car is waiting for us and we drive to our destination. We get to a cozy place and are seated near a huge window overlooking the ocean.

“So who was the girl in all the pictures you had.” I knew he was going to ask eventually.

“She’s um my daughter.” I look up to see try and read his face.

“Really? Wow I didn’t know you had a daughter. How old is she?” He seems genuinely interested so I go on about Alana. He asks me about Alana’s father and all I say is that he’s in the picture. I don’t tell him how much though.

“I’d really love to meet her.” We are eating dessert and he says that out of nowhere.

“Oh well I don’t know. I mean I’d have to tell her about you first, you know get her used to the idea. The only men in her life are her father, grandfather and uncle. I don’t want to just spring you on her.”

“I understand. I want to be a part of your life Liz. I’ll be her waiting whenever you are ready.” His statement scares me a little. A few weeks ago I was single with no prospects of a man in my life and now I have a man who wants to become a permanent fixture it seems and who wants to meet my daughter. I’ve never thought about introducing someone to Alana and frankly I’m scared of how she will react, that and the fact that she tells Max everything. I have a feeling that it’s not going to go smooth.

We enjoy our dessert and head back to get on the deathtrap also known as a helicopter. The ride back isn’t so bad but I will never ride that thing again.

“So I had a nice time. Thank you.” We are outside my door and I feel like an idiot. I don’t know if I should invite him in or say goodbye. I don’t know what I want really.

“No need to thank me. I had a great time.” He’s staring into my eyes and I’m stuck. The next thing I know he’s leaning in for a kiss. I stand there while his lips collide with mine. The kiss is soft and sweet but it’s not what I expected it would be.

“Well good night.” I say before I insert my key in the lock.

“Good night. I’ll call you ok.” He gives me a quick peck on the cheek and walks to his car.

How does Max do it? Again I’m wondering how he can go on an endless amount of dates like it’s nothing? I don’t know if I can do this. Something feels off. Jake is a nice guy and seems to have everything I’m looking for or everything that I’ve always wanted but something isn’t clicking. I can’t put my finger on it but I haven’t felt it yet with anyone. Well that’s not entirely true, I haven’t felt it since that night almost 7 years ago.

~~
So I’m hiding out because I don’t want to accidentally see something that I don’t want to. I took Alana to the movies then to the toy store which was a mistake let me tell you. Never again. We made it out of the store with 4 bags and that was after zooming by the Barbie isle as fast as I could.

It’s getting pretty late now and we head back home after getting some ice cream. I hope that Liz is already home or not close to being home so I don’t have to see anything. We pull up to the house and Alana is asleep. I look around and see that the lights are off in the house. Either she’s home or still out. Good. I grab Alana and leave the bags in the car. I’ll get them later.

“Dad.” Alana is waking up as I carry her up to bed.

“Shhh baby go back to sleep.” I slowly walk up the stairs and lay her in the bed. I was going to change her into her pajamas but I don’t want to fully wake her up so I just take her shoes and socks off and pull the covers over her. I place a kiss on her cheek and go downstairs.

~~
It’s been a week since our last date and Jake has asked me out numerous times but I’ve been putting it off. I haven’t talked to Alana about it yet and I decide that I need to do that soon. First I have to talk to Max thought to make sure he’s on board with this. I’m going to need him on my side if I’m going to get Alana on it too.

So right now I’m cooking my ass off. I’ve made all of Max’s favorites and am now plating them up. I called his office and he said he would be home at 6. It’s 5:45 and I’m making sure everything is perfect. I’m trying to butter him up, so what.

A few minutes after 6 I hear the door open and take my apron off.

“Hey dinner is ready. I’ll be out in a second.” I had the table set up already and Alana is visiting with Isabel.

“Wow this looks nice.” He takes a seat at the table where I’ve lit some candles. I’m not trying to make it romantic but it went with the theme.

“Thanks.” I begin to bring the platters of food out and I can see his eyes widen.

“Is someone else coming over?” He asks once I’ve brought everything out.

“No just us. I wanted you to have a choice though.”

~~
I can tell that this is big. She’s cooked for an army and Alana isn’t home. I have a bad feeling about this and suddenly don’t feel like eating. I serve myself some food do she doesn’t catch on and wait for her to tell me whatever she’s going to tell me.

“So where is Alana tonight?” I hope that she’s not staying over at Isabel’s.

“She’s with Isabel but she’ll be back tonight.” She answers with a bit of anger like she was reading my mind.

I try and eat as much as I can because the food does smell good but my stomach is in knots. Our conversation is light, mostly about Alana and Isabel. She’s making coffee and I know she’s stalling. Finally she sits next to me on the couch.

“So I wanted to talk to you about something.” She’s playing with the spoon in her coffee mug.

“Yeah I figured that.” I put my mug down and turn to face her.

“I’m going to bring someone by and have them meet Alana and I wanted to let you know about it first.”

“Wow so things are serious then? It‘s that Jake guy that sent you flowers isn‘t it?”

“Yes it is. And I don’t know I mean it could be something serious and I just don’t want to hide Alana from him.” He’s staring at me and it feels like he’s looking right though me.

“Well I want to meet him first.” I should have seen that one coming.

“Like I met your girlfriend first?” I raise and eyebrow at him.

“That couldn’t be helped and you know that.” He didn’t correct me when I called her his girlfriend and that stings.

“Yeah I know. So let me know when you want to do this.”

“How about tomorrow night. We can double date.” Oh this is going to be interesting to say the least.

“Ok let me check with Jake and I’ll let you know.”

~~
“Liz are you sure this is a good idea?” I called Isabel to check on Alana and she started grilling me on tonight.

“No I’m not. I know it’s a bad idea but what was I supposed to say? Max has a right to want to meet Jake.”

“I can’t wait to hear about this one. I have a feeling that it’s going to be interesting.”

“Thanks.” I answer sarcastically. My stomach is in knots over this dinner.
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Ok guys this chapter has alot going on. I'm trying to get things moving along and get to the good stuff as fast as possible.

FamersAmers- I’m glad you disagree with me about my chapters!

cocopucks- Liz doesn’t feel right about Jake but she wants to give it shot. Max and Liz do tiptoe but with a friendship like they have they don’t want to ruin it. I’m glad you are reading even if it’s frustrating. LOL

RASaero611-Liz isn’t really settling with Jake she’s just waiting to see if things click with him.

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Lady_vixen- Alana is going to be confused for a while and yes it’s going to hurt her but she has a dream that she will still hold on to. LOL

Begonia9508-Max does love Liz and Alana knows that she’s just having trouble separating love from being IN love right now.

Alien614- YAY a new reader! Welcome.

Ellie-Liz wasn’t really rushing she just brought up the idea to Max, letting him know first. Liz does know him from years ago so he’s not a total stranger to her but you right about creeps.

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Omwf- Glad you like the food. I guess you can tell when I’m hungry by what I write. LOL

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Emz80m- Liz and Max both have issues especially when it comes to talking about feelings but again I’ll say that it’s hard when you are really good friends with someone. The fear of loosing that is high.

Martine-They are trying to explain the difference between loving someone and being IN love with them. She’s only 6 so it’s hard. I just hope you stick with me on this.

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Mmcherron- Glad to have you back and I’m glad you like the changes.

LovinGuerin2Much- Glad you liked the date even tho ppl hate Jake.

Thank you all for leaving FB even if you were frustrated or annoyed. I appreciate you sticking with me on this.


~~Chapter 9~~
I’m such an idiot. Why the hell did I suggest for us to go on a double date? Cause I’m an idiot of epic proportions that’s why. This is going to be horrible. I just hope this doesn’t go as bad as I think it will.

We have about 2 hours before it’s time to go and I jump in the shower. Hopefully the hot water will help calm me down. In the shower I’m thinking of things that I shouldn’t be. Liz. The worst part is that I’m thinking back to the one night we had at the New Years party. It’s funny how that pops into my head at random times. It gets me thinking why didn’t we ever share another night like that one? I will always wonder if she registered what I said that night and if what she said was real or a side effect of the alcohol. What I wouldn’t give to find out the truth.

I step out of the shower and I’m more wound up then I was before I got in. I go to my closet and I see that the shirt I wanted to wear is at the cleaners.

“Fuck!” I hate that. I grab another one and place my clothes on the bed and head to the bathroom to shave and fix my hair.

~~
I don’t want to over dress and have Max read into it but I need to look nice. I opt for a black knee length skirt and a red top. Max likes red. Shit, where did that come from? I need to not think about Max right now. This is not about Max and I this is about Alana. I need a shower, a long shower.

I’m fixing my hair when once again Max pops into my head. Subconsciously I leave my hair down with a few waves in it and when I’m done I think Max likes my hair this way. What the hell is wrong with me?

We decide to meet up at the restaurant, Max’s request. Lord knows why.

I finish getting ready and grab my keys. The whole ride there I’m a wreck. This night is going to be long.

~~
In yet another dumb ass move I suggest meeting up at the restaurant. When I leave to pick Victoria up I see Liz’s car is still in the driveway. I wonder if Romeo is going to pick her up? I quickly head to my car and pull out onto the road; if he is picking her up I don’t want to see it.

I made reservations at Michael’s restaurant because it’s familiar and it’s quiet.

“Hey.” Victoria greets me and she looks great. She has a black dress that hangs just below her knees and her hair is down showing it’s full length.

“Hey. You ready?” I give her a kiss on the cheek and wait for her to grab her purse.

“So, are you sure that this is ok? I mean does Liz know that I’m coming?” I open the door for her and wait for her to get in before answering.

“No. She knows that I’m bringing someone but we never discussed who. If you don’t want to come it’s ok. I’ll understand.” I know she must feel strange about this, we’ve only been out a few times.

“It’s fine. This isn’t about you and I this is about your daughter.” She’s wonderful and I just realized it right now. She’s right too. This isn’t about who is dating who this is about Alana and making her feel comfortable. Well it is about me feeling comfortable about this Jake character too.

We walk into the restaurant and Liz and Romeo aren’t here yet. I order a scotch on the rocks and gulp it down. I’m going to need a few more of these.

“Don’t get drunk on me.” Victoria teases. I’m not trying to get drunk but I need to take some of this tension off of me.

I’m thankful that I’m seated where I can see the door because I’m stalking it right now. I want to study this guy’s every move. A few minutes later but what seems like hours I see her. Once again she manages to look like a fucking angel. I hate this! A few steps behind her is Romeo in the flesh. I can’t make out his face as they walk to the table, there are people around. She gets closer to the table and the smile that graced her angelic face is gone. I can’t help but smile a littl because I know she did that when she saw Victoria.

The shock of the night comes when I see who Jake really is. It’s that bastard from the party. It’s THAT Jake! Damn it this is so not good.

“Max this is Jake Connors. Jake this is Max Evans, Alana’s father.” I look him dead in the eye and stand up to shake his hand. I’m still a gentleman after all.

“Jake.” I nod as I shake his hand.

“Max Evans, this is a coincidence.” Smug bastard. I instantly have a profound hate for him.

“Yes it is.” I realize that I haven‘t introduced Victoria yet.

“This is Victoria Allegra.” She smiles at Liz and looks over at Jake quickly.

“Nice to see you again Liz.” She shakes hands with Jake and Liz gracefully.

After a few moments of awkward silence we place our drink and appetizer orders. I don’t feel like eating as I notice the way this ass is stroking Liz’s arm every so often. If I reached over the table and chocked him to death would Liz be mad?

I’m watching this ass talk to Victoria and Liz and I’m fuming. How could Liz date him? He’s in competition with us. Liz wouldn’t know that since I don’t talk about business though. Which leads me to believe that he doesn’t either so I wonder what do they talk about?

“So Max how are things?” I don’t want to answer him but I have to. Victoria and Liz are staring at me waiting for an answer.

“Great. Everything is wonderful.” I crack a smile but it hurts. Literally.

“You have a beautiful daughter.” I want to tell him to fuck off really bad but I can’t.

“Thank you.” I’m trying my best to not rip his head off. He’s sitting there all smug and I loathe him.

“So if you don’t mind me asking how did you and Liz meet?” I’m getting right to the point here. No bullshit small talk.

“Well we dated briefly years ago and our paths just crossed again.” He smiles at Liz and I want to die. I look over at Liz hurt that she never told me that she knew him from before. I think this was the guy that she dated all those years ago. I thought our relationship was better then that.

“How convenient.” I mutter but I know Liz heard me because she gives me a look.

“Liz I love your outfit.” I guess Victoria must have sensed the tension and cut in.
~~

I see Victoria and I’m shocked a little. I didn’t think he was serious about her but I guess he is otherwise he wouldn’t have brought her knowing that we are going to talk about Alana. I won’t lie and say that it doesn’t hurt a little because it does.

“So how is it that you guys know each other?” Our food arrived and it’s been quiet for a while now. I can’t take it.

“Well I guess you could say that we are rivals in a way.” Jake laughs but I can tell that Max isn’t amused.

“Oh.” Is all I can say. This is not good.

“So what are you intentions with Liz exactly?” Max did not go there. Is he my father now?

“Well I like Liz very much. I guess we just have to see where it goes.” Good answer.

“Really? Well that’s nice.” Please Max don’t do this. My eyes are pleading with him to not make this horrible.

“So Liz Max tells me that you are a chef.” That asshole has been talking about me with her?

“Yes I am. I run a small Inn. What do you do?” I ask mostly to let her know that Max hasn’t said a word to me about her. So I’m trying to make her jealous. At least I’m being polite unlike others that are burning holes into some ones head.

“I own a restaurant in town called Il Cucina.” Ouch that hurt. She has my dream job and she gorgeous too. No wonder Max is smitten with her.

Victoria excuses herself to the ladies room and Jake has an overseas call he has to take leaving Max and I alone. Great!

“I don’t like him.” Max leans over and I can smell the scotch on his breath.

“You don’t know him. Give him a chance.” I know he’s not drunk but I don’t like how he’s behaving.

“Well that might be all well and good for you but I don’t want him around Alana. He bugs me.” I’m trying really hard to not blow up. This is not the place.

“Max he’s going to meet her sooner or later. I wanted to be nice about it and comply with your wish for you to meet him first. I’m sorry but he’s going to meet her eventually.” Where is Jake? And lord help me I want Victoria to hurry up and come back to the table we need the distraction.

“Liz he’s an asshole. Why can’t you see that? He’s only using you.” I snort at his last statement. So typical of him.

“Using me for what? To get to you? Please, get over yourself. He didn’t even know Alana was your daughter he didn’t know anything about you and I. God, this is so typical of you. And don’t even think for one second that he’s using me for sex. You know me better then that.” I lost my temper a little bit but I couldn’t help it.

“I’m…” He’s about to say something when Jake comes back to the table followed by Victoria.

“So anyone up for dessert?” Jake asks.

“No actually we have to go.” Max places his napkin on the table and Victoria gets up as well.

“Oh that’s too bad. It was nice meeting you again.” Jake laughs and gets up to shake Max’s hand.

“Yeah.” Max nods and helps Victoria with her jacket not bothering to shake Jake’s hand.

“The check is taken care of.” Max lets us know before leaving quickly.

~~
“Well that went well.” Victoria laughs and I have to laugh with her.

“I’m sorry about that. I’m sure it was awkward for you.”

“It’s ok. It gave me some insight on you.” I wonder what she means by that.

“So I was thinking of going away for a few days. Do you think you can get away?”

“I don’t know I like to be at the restaurant most of the time. I don’t think I’d be able to stay away for more than a day.”

“Come on it will be fun. We can go to Martha’s Vineyard or something.” I really need to get away.

“I’ll think about it ok?” I hope she says yes. I need a get away and I want to spend the time with her too.

“Ok.” I pull up to her house and open the door for her. This time I give her a peck on the lips. I want to take things slow with her.

~~
“I’m sorry about Max. I hope he wasn’t too rude.” I need to say something about his behavior.

“It’s fine. He’s just being protective.” I wonder if he means protective about me or Alana.

“Yeah I guess. It’s just that I’ve never really dated and we’ve never introduced anyone to Alana before.” I feel like a loser admitting that I haven’t dated much.

“I can understand that. Like I said he’s being protective, it’s fine.” I guess I know who he was referring to before.

We finish out dessert and I say goodbye to Michael before heading home. I still don’t feel that spark with Jake and that is what’s bothering me. He been nothing but nice to me and a perfect gentleman but we aren’t clicking for some reason. I need to get Max out of my head, I think that is why things aren’t clicking for Jake and I.

~~
“So Alana’s birthday talk to me.” Isabel is once again in planning mode. She has her planner out and I’m scared.

“We don’t need to go all out Iz it’s not a big deal it’s only her 7th birthday.” I know she’s not going to go for that but I try anyway.

“Only her 7th? Liz we only have a few more years until she’s going to want us out of the picture and wanting to just go out with friends. Come on let’s plan this thing ok?”

I can’t fight her so I give in.

“Ok what did you have in mind? And no bounce houses this year ok?” I won’t even get into what she planned last year. It was over the top to say the least.

“Ok no bounce houses.” She laughs and we go through some ideas. 2 hours later we have some ideas. She’s going to be so excited.

“So Alex and I want to her get her something special. Any ideas?”

“Umm I’d have to think about it. I’m not sure what she wants. I’ll try to get it out of her.” Now that I think about it I don’t even know what she wants.

“Ok let me know. We should get together again soon to plan this whole thing out.” I agree and head home. I’ve been sort of avoiding Max lately. The dinner the other night was awkward and I don’t feel like fighting with him about it. The only time we really talk is when he comes over in the morning but other then that nothing. This game is really starting to bother me sooner or later something has got to give.

~~
For some reason I end up at my fathers house for dinner. I don’t even remember agreeing to it but Maria reminded me about it as I left the office. I didn’t want to call him to cancel so I decided to go and get it over with.

“Hello Max glad you could make it.” He’s in the study having a drink as always.

“Dad.” I shake my head no when he offers me a drink. “So is mom still in Europe?” I don’t know why they don’t divorce and get it over with. They never see each other, shit I never see her.

“Yeah I don’t even know when she is coming back.” For a second I feel bad for my father but I know that her being away is his fault too.

“So to what do I owe the pleasure of dining with you?” I’m being a smart ass but I don’t want to be here. I feel like a guest, an outsider.

“Well Maxwell it seems like we have some things to discuss.” Shit he called me Maxwell, not good.

“Such as?” We are walking to the dinner table and I suddenly don’t feel like eating.

“Such as what are your plans for the future?” What the hell is he talking about?

“Plans for my future? Well I have a good sized savings account as well as stock in several companies so I’d say I’m ok for the future.” I know that’s not what he was talking about but I like to mess with him.

“You know that’s not what I mean. I mean a family, settling down.”

“Dad I have a family and I’m settled down. I have a home and I work, everything is fine. I don’t need to be married to be a better person.” Looks who’s talking about marriage and settling down.

“Look I know that you aren’t seeing anyone serious right now but did you ever think about marrying someone anyway? It would be great for the company.” Is this man insane?

“Your kidding right? You want me to marry someone so the company can get news coverage or something? What are you my pimp? I’m not doing it no matter what you say so forget it. IF I get married it will be because I’m head over heels in LOVE not for some bullshit publicity! What is wrong with you? I’m your son for Christ’s sake why would you ask me to do something like that?” I’ve resorted to yelling but I could care less.

“Max calm down ok. I didn’t think you would react like this. It was just a suggestion. I’m worried about you that’s all. I want you to take over the company one day and I want you to be settled when you do.” He’s insane. I need to have him checked out ASAP.

“Why are you worried about me? Why would you think something is wrong, cause I’m not married. And since when does someone need to be married to be able to run a company successfully? Does my IQ suddenly go up because I’m married? Dad you’re married and you’re more lonely then I am……then I’ve ever been. Marriage isn’t working so well for you now is it?” Take that crazy old man.

“This has nothing to do with me.”

“The hell it doesn’t. You can’t sit here and give me this bullshit speech when your life is all messed up. Look at you dad, your whole life is the company. Even when Isabel and I were kids we never saw you. You weren’t around for any of us including mom. Don’t tell me how to run my life when yours is all fucked up.”

“You are really ungrateful you know that. I did all of that for you and your sister. You had everything you could ever want growing up. Look at the house you lived in Max, look at the job and lifestyle you have now.” I feel my ears getting red. I want to explode.

“Your wrong I didn’t have everything. I didn’t have parents. You guys were never around. The rest are just things dad, they didn’t matter to Isabel and I. We wanted you guys to love us, to be there for us. And yes you did build the company to what it is today but I did go to college dad. I’m not just working there because It’s my daddy’s company.” I have to get out of here….fast.

“Max just think about it. I have a few business partners that have daughters your age.” I don’t even let him finish. I’m out the door in minutes. My father infuriates me like no one else can. I slam the car door closed and crack up the radio.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes


This is a perfect song for my mood. I take the long way home needing to clear my head.

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you


I love my father but I’m not him nor do I want to be him. I get to the house and go inside needing to relax. I’m looking forward to getting away for a few days and was happy when Victoria agreed to come with me. I’ve mentioned it to Liz but she doesn’t know where I’m going or who I’m going with. I seen like a hypocrite but something about Jake really bothers me and it’s not just him dating Liz. The whole thing seems a little convenient. Liz hasn’t spoken to him in years I’m assuming and all of the sudden he’s back and they are dating. I can’t talk to Liz about it, that would just end in another fight and I’m tired of going in circles with her.

~~~
I’ve been seeing Jake for a little over a month now and still haven’t introduced him to Alana per Max’s wishes. We talk about her but he has yet to meet her. I’m not entirely happy about it but I let it go for now. Max still continues to go out an I assume it’s with Victoria but I’m not sure.

Alana’s birthday is in a week and I wanted to invite Jake but decided against it since Max’s father was coming. I invited him even though Max is still mad at him over what happened the other night. He came over after going there are told me all about it. I know his father means well but he’s going about it wrong.

His mother is in Europe once again doing God knows what. That woman is never around. She’s barely seen Alana since she was born. I think that his parents came to an agreement to stay married but not live together. It’s sad, I barely know the woman. I’ve known Max all this time and have only seen her a handful of times.

~~
I have Alana for the day since I‘ll finally be going away this weekend. I don’t even want to know what Liz is doing or who she’s doing it with. I’m glad she’s respected my wish on not introducing Romeo to Alana. Our friendship has changed we don’t talk anymore unless it’s about Alana. For the first time I don’t feel like she’s my best friend anymore and that hurts more then anything.

“Dad I want an ipod.” I took her to the mall to get an idea of what she wants for her birthday.

“An ipod huh? Don’t you think you are a little young for that?” She’s not getting an ipod but I don’t want to come right out and say no.

“No I’m not. I’m a big girl, you said!” She has her hands on her hips and I want to laugh so I turn away.

“We’ll see ok honey.” I get a smile from her and we continue walking the mall.

“If I can’t have an iopd then I want a laptop.” I need to get away from the electronics store.

“What about toys?” She’s not getting a laptop either. What’s gotten into her?

We look at a few other things that she likes and I have an idea of what to get her now.

~~
Max is away for the weekend. I know he went with Victoria even though he didn’t say and it does bother me a little but I’m trying not to think about it too much. I know I’m wrong for doing this but I’ve invited Jake to come with Alana and I to the Zoo tomorrow. I figured it would be a warm up for her. I was going to invite him for dinner but that would be too much.

“I wanna talk to daddy.” She’s been wanting to call him all day but I was trying to give him some space. He’s been working a lot lately and needs the time away.

“Baby he might be busy right now.” I see that she’s about to cry.

“Ok how about this. When we get back from the Zoo we can call him.” She smiles and I’m glad she’s happy. I didn’t want to call him so soon but she’s getting upset about not talking to him.

“Ok mommy!” She turns on the television set and I finish getting dressed.

On the way there I’m nervous. I don’t know how she’s going to react and I just hope she doesn’t take after her father in this case.

“Alana baby we are going to meet one of mom’s friends at the zoo.” Might as well give her some warning.

“Who is it? Maria?”

“No baby. His name is Jake.” I look in the rear view mirror and she looks confused about something.

“Jake is a boy?” Crap nothing gets by her.

“Yes honey he is.” Where is she going with this?

“I don’t like boys.” I hide back my laughter.

“I know you don’t honey but he’s nice.” This is pathetic. I’m trying to sell my boyfriend to my daughter. Sad.

We get to the zoo and walk to get our tickets. I asked Jake to meet us by the monkeys, that’s Alana’s favorite so she will be in a good mood.

I look at my watch and see that it’s almost time to meet him. We walk over there and I don’t see him anywhere. I guess I’m early this time. Alana is steady watching the monkeys when I feel someone wrap their arms around my waist.

“Hey. Sorry I’m late.” He gives me a kiss on the cheek and at that precise moment my daughter turns around catching him in the act.

“Why are you huggin my mommy?” She walks over to me obviously confused.

“Alana it’s ok, this is Jake.” Jake smiles and goes to shake her hand but she pulls away. Oh this is going to go just great.

“Hello Alana it’s nice to meet you.” She won’t even look up at him.

“She’s shy. I’m sorry.” I say to Jake.

“I’m not shy mom. I just don’t want to talk to him, I wanna go home and call dad now.” My mouth dropped open and I feel my face turning red.

“Give me a second.” I pull Alana aside.

“Alana you know what you did was not nice. Why were you rude to Jake?” I’m crouched down in front of her.

“Just don’t like him. Dad said if I don‘t like somebody I don‘t gotta talk to them.” She says and walks further down. What has gotten into her?

“Alana Jade Evans don’t walk away from me.” I try not to say it to loud I don’t want to embarrass her but she’s trying my patience right now.

“Mommy he was huggin and kissin you, I don’t like him.” I see the tears swimming in her eyes and I decide that this was a bad idea. I don’t want to traumatize her.

“Jake I’m sorry this wasn‘t a good idea. We‘re going to go.” I feel bad for leaving him like this but I need to get home and deal with Alana.

“It‘s ok. I‘ll give you a call later.” He says and I give him a sympathetic smile. I bid him goodbye and drive home with Alana not talking to me. When we get to the house she bolts out of the car and waits for me to open the front door.

“Alana don’t run from me.” I call to her while she speeds up to her room.

How could I have not seen this coming? I need to talk to someone. I miss Max even thought I know he would have been furious at what happened today.

“ I want to talk to daddy.” She comes back down and is standing in front of me hands on her hips.

“Now?” Shit she’s going to tell him.

“Yes.” I can see the tear marks down her face and don’t want to upset her more. I know she’s going to tell him about what happened but I can’t not let her talk to him. I’ve made my bed and well…you know the rest.

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Thanks guys for the FB sorry i don't have time to thak each one of you but i appreciate it. I'm not too happy with this part and don't think i'll ever be but here it is.

~~Chapter 10~~
Victoria agreed to come away with me for the weekend and I’ve booked us at an old Mansion turned Inn. When I leave the house I see that Liz isn’t home which is great for me. I know that Alana would have questions as to where I was going and I don’t want to lie to her.

I told Liz that I was going away for a few days but didn’t give her any details. We aren’t fighting but we aren’t like we were before. I hate it but I’m not going to back down.

Pushing thoughts of Liz aside I get into my sports car and pick Victoria up. I love driving with the top down. I don’t get to ride in this as much as I would like to since I have Alana most of the time. Liz would kill me if I rode with her in this car. Top down and music blaring I pull onto the highway.

“Hey you ready to go?” I walk into Victoria’s house and wait for her to get the rest of her bags.

“Ok I’m ready.” I see that she has 3 bags and laugh a little.

“You do know that we are only going for three days right?” She rolls her eyes at me and picks up one of her bags.

“Yes. I wanted to have a choice on what I wear so I brought a few outfits.”

“Do you know my sister Isabel?” She laughs and we load the car up.

“Does it all fit?” She asks.

“Yeah.” I pull her flush against me and place a gently kiss on her lips. She‘s wearing cherry flavored lip gloss and I love the taste of it.

“Come on. We’re going to be late.” I open the door for her and we begin our trip.

“So where are we going again?” She pulls her long hair up into a ponytail.

“You want me to put the top up?” I ask I don’t want her to be uncomfortable.

“No, I like it.” She flashes me a smile.

“We’re going to Martha’s vineyard. There’s an inn called Mansion House. I booked us two rooms there.” She looks over at me when I say that and I wonder if she expected that.

“Two huh?”

“Yeah two.” There is silence in the car and it’s killing me. I didn’t want to offend her that’s why I got the two rooms but it seems as if I did that anyway. She places her hand above my knee and gives me a peck on the cheek. I guess it’s ok with her.

“So tell me about you and Liz. I mean how did you meet and all. You guys seem really close.” I didn’t want to think about Liz much less talk about her this weekend but I guess I have to.

“We met in college and yes we are close. We’ve been friends for about 11 years now.” I hope that’s enough to satisfy her.

“So what’s the deal with you her and Alana?” Great. I did not want to talk about this.

“Well we were are a party and one thing led to another and well you know.” She smiles and nods in understanding.

“So you are raising her together then?” I nod.

“That’s great. You guys seem like you are doing a great job.”

“Yeah we are.” Is all I say. I don’t want to get into Liz right now.

“So you never dated? I mean why aren’t you together now?” Shit! I knew she was going to ask that. I have to lie and I hate that.

“I don’t know I guess we both decided we were better off as friends. We never thought about us as a couple. I don’t think it would work, and the friendship is too important to mess with.” I even surprise myself with that load of crap, well some of it was true. I hope she bought it.

She doesn’t say anything but looks at me for a few moments. I shrug it off not wanting her to ask anymore questions.

We finally pull up to the place and I grab as many bags as I can in one trip.

“Max this place is great.” She’s looking up at the house since it’s on a cliff. It really is beautiful here. When I check us in the lady looks at me strangely as she hands me two keys. She can tell that Victoria and I are together but I guess she’s wondering why the two rooms.

“Ok you are in room 18 and I’m in 19.” I bring the bags into her room and head to mine. We have dinner reservations in town so I give her a chance to get changed. I want to call Alana but I don’t want her asking where I am. I know it’s wrong of me but I don’t want Liz to know where I am this weekend.

Dinner was great but now it’s time to go back to the hotel and I’m torn. A part of me wants to go to her room or invite her into mine but a part of me is telling me that it’s not right.

“So I had a good time.” We are standing in front of her door and I’m nervous.

“Yeah me too. I have some things planned for tomorrow too.” I brush a stand of hair away from her face.

“What about tonight?” My head snaps up when she says that.

“Tonight? Well um I didn’t……know that you umm……wanted to do anything..” She leans forward and seals her lips to mine. We are quickly caught up in a heated kiss and I feel her fumbling for her key in her purse. The next thing I know out clothes are scattered all over the floor and we are in the bed. I’m still wearing my boxers while Victoria has her bra and panties on.

“Are you sure about this?” I break away to ask her. She nods and I roll her onto her back. I’m kissing her and I admit it feels good but it‘s not what I want. It just doesn’t seem right. I break away from her and sit up.

“What’s wrong?” She asks me. I look down and see that her lips are swollen from our activities. She looks gorgeous but I can’t do this. It isn’t right.

“I’m sorry I can’t…….I.” I’m about to tell her that I could never be with her this way when my cell phone rings. I know it’s Liz from the ring tone and scramble to find my pants where the phone is.

~~~

“Hello.” He sounds out of breath.

“Max.”

“Liz. What’s wrong?” I want to tell him myself but wait and see what Alana says to him first.

“Umm Alana wanted to talk to you. She misses you.” I hand the phone to an impatient Alana. What she does next almost brings me to tears. She takes the phone and walks into the other room. I’m officially the worst mother in the world.

~~
“Daddy?” I can tell she’s upset, she’s whispering.

“Baby what’s wrong?” I get off the bed and start putting my clothes back on.

“When are you coming home?” I knew she would miss me but I didn’t think it would be after one day.

“I should be home the day after tomorrow honey. Why?” Something is up.

“Dad I don’t like Jake. Do I have to talk to him?” What the fuck? I hope it’s not the Jake I’m thinking of because if it is head are going to roll.

“No baby you don’t, but who is Jake?” I need confirmation.

“Mom’s friend. I don’t like him, he was kissin her.” I’m seeing red now. How could Liz do this behind my back? I bet she couldn’t wait for me to have a trip so she could sneak a visit with Jake and Alana. I need to get home now.

“I’ll be home soon honey ok? Then we can talk about this more. Put mommy back on ok. Everything will be ok I promise.” I tell her I love her and wait for Liz to get the phone.

“Max I can…..” I don’t even want to hear it so I cut her off.

“Liz save it. I can’t believe you would do something like this. What the fuck has gotten into you? It’s like all sense of logic has left your mind. I never would have thought you would do something like this. And now Alana is upset. I’m going to try come home right now but I‘ll be there tomorrow for sure. I’ll see you later.” I hang up without waiting for her to say goodbye. I have to go home. I hate to cancel my plans for the weekend but it can‘t wait. I‘ll just sit here and go crazy thinking about it if I stay.

~~
This is not good. He’s never hung up on me before. I look at Alana and I can see that she’s happy at least. I am a little hurt that she didn’t talk to me about this but I knew she would have gone to Max. I can’t blame her, Max didn’t throw someone at her like I just did. I can’t believe that I did that. I know Max is going to go off when he gets home. I’ve made a huge mess. How do I fix it? I need to talk to Isabel. She will have some advise for me.

“Hey Alex is Isabel home?” I pray that she is.

“No she will be home in a few hours. What’s up?”

“Nothing I just need to talk to her about something. Can you tell her that I called?” Shit where is she?

“Are you ok?” Damn I must sound desperate.

“Not really but thanks for asking.” I love Alex. So sweet.

“Why don’t you guys come over then? I know Max is away and we have this big house all empty. Come over and wait for Isabel here.” It sounds like a good idea but I don’t know.

“I don’t know Alex. Maybe I’ll just stay here.”

“Come on Liz. Just come over. Your just going to sit in the house worrying about whatever is wrong till Isabel calls you. Come over It will help keep your mid off it for a while.” When he puts it that way it sounds like an awesome plan.

“Alright I’ll see you in a few.” I hang up and go tell Alana the news. Hopefully it will cheer her up a bit.

“Alana baby we are going to Alex and Isabel’s. Get you stuff ready ok?” She’s sitting on her bed coloring when I get to her room.

“Are we sleepin’ there?”

“Yes so don’t forget your PJ’s ok?” She nods and I go to my room to pack a few things.

~~
I can’t believe this shit! I can’t believe she would do this to me, to Alana. This is not the Liz that I know. The Liz that I know wouldn’t go behind my back, wouldn’t do something with our daughter that I asked her not to. She knew that I wasn’t comfortable with that man being around Alana but she didn’t give a shit.

I think back to what Alana said about Jake kissing Liz and I hope that it wasn’t the kind of kiss that I think it is. She couldn’t have gone that crazy. I assume that she’s kissing Jake but I don’t want my daughter to see that. I was pissed enough at myself when she walked in on Victoria and I and have since made sure the door is locked when she comes over.

I know that eventually she was going to start seeing this Jake guy more seriously but I wanted her to wait and see if it was a permanent thing before introducing him to Alana. They haven’t even been seeing each other for that long and she’s introducing him to our kid, that’s what gets me. I don’t want Alana meeting all these people and then having them leave just as fast as they came into her life.

Another part of me is annoyed that Liz is still intent on seeing this guy. I secretly prayed that she would come to her senses and dump his ass, then I’d be there for her while she was upset about it and then I’d make my move.

I suddenly feel guilty about these feelings I’m still having towards Liz while I have Victoria. She is a great person. I grab my clothes and turn to face her.

“I’m sorry I need to get home tonight. There’s been a situation with Alana.”

“Oh my God is she ok?” She says growing worried. Now I really feel bad.

“Yeah she’s fine physically.” She nods and stands up to pack her things.

“I’m really sorry about this.” I don’t know what else to say. I feel bad watching her pack up.

“It’s ok really. I understand.” I go back to my room to pack my things.

~~
“Thanks for inviting us over.” I get to Alex and Isabel’s and I see that she’s still not home.

“Oh stop it. Isabel just called she will be home in a few.” Alex takes my bag and we walk upstairs to the room I’ll be staying in.

“Great.” We walk back downstairs and Alana tells me she’s hungry.

“What would you like princess?” Alex scoops her up and places her on his shoulders as they walk to the kitchen.

“Mac and cheese!!” She screeches as he tickles her.

“Ok I’ll have Emily make some. You want anything else?” She says she wants a hot dog and Alex calls for Emily.

“I can do it. You don’t have to bother her.” I feel bad I’m sure she cooked already tonight.

“It’s ok she doesn’t mind.” Emily comes to the kitchen and Alana gives her a big hug.

Alex and I sit in the living room and Alana goes to play a video game in the games room.

“So where did Max go?” Alex asks me

“He just said away.”

“Oh.” Is all he says.

“Yes he went with her. At least I think he did.” I knew what he was thinking.

“I didn’t say anything.”

“But you were thinking it. Anyway he’s cutting his trip short.”

“Why?”

“There’s a bit of a situation with Alana. One word…Jake.” He shakes his head in understanding.

“Well good luck with that.” He laughs but I need all the luck I can get.

We are all in the kitchen when Isabel comes home.

“Hey honey.” Alex kisses her and leads her to the kitchen table to join us.

“Hey Liz.” She smiles at me and I know she’s wondering what’s up.

“Aunty Bell!” Alana jumps up to give her a hug.

“Hey princess.” She sets her back down and Alana eats her food.

Once she is done eating I put her to bed. We had a long day and it’s late. She asks Alex to read to her and Isabel and I go to her bedroom, she has some bags to unpack.

“So what brings you by? Alex said he thought something was wrong.” Damn I’m that transparent?

“Isabel I totally screwed up. I mean big time!” I sit on her bed and help her take out clothes from the shopping bags.

“Ok well tell me about it. I can’t be that bad.” She stops what she’s doing and sits next to me. I tell her everything and wait for her response.

“Wow.” She’s speechless, this is not good.

“Wow?”

“Man I do not want to be around when Max gets home. Sorry.” Damn she’s right though.

“Yeah well tell me something I don’t already know. He didn’t even let me explain. He went on a tirade and hung up on me. Alana won’t talk to me, he won’t talk to me and you are speechless. I want to crawl in a hole and never come out.

“Liz come on, it’s not that bad. Just let him say what he’s going to say. He was just mad when she told him, it’s a natural reaction.”

“I don’t know what I was thinking Iz, it’s like something came over me and I didn’t think.” If Max had done this I’d be pissed. I can understand where he’s coming from.

“Honestly I am surprised you did that. How would you have felt if Max did that?” Shit is she reading my mind?

“I know. I have to fix this. I can’t have him or Alana mad at me and Jake, oh God I just left him there.”

“Forget about Jake. This is about Max and Alana. You can deal with Jake later. If he’s half a man he will understand.”

“I know but I still feel bad. He didn’t deserve that. He was in the line of fire and it’s my fault.” I’m on the verge of tears.

“Liz it’s not the end of the world. So you messed up, you and Max will fix it you always do.” She makes it sound so easy.

“I’m afraid it’s not that easy but, we’ll see I guess.” She goes back to hanging up her clothes.

“When is he coming back?”

“He said he would be here tomorrow morning but he‘s going to try and come home tonight.”

“Can I ask you something?”

“Yeah sure.” Oh no what does she want?

“How do you feel about Jake? I mean really feel about him. I know you haven’t been dating for long but do you feel a spark or anything?” Jeez what a loaded question.

“I don’t know. I like him but no I don’t feel that spark with him. I mean he kisses me and it’s sweet but I doesn’t feel how I thought it would.” I see her smile and I wonder what the hell she’s so happy about?

“Well all I can tell you is that I felt a spark when I met Alex. The first time I saw him I felt it and the first time he kissed me it was magical. I know it sounds corny but I’ve dated before him and I never felt it before with anyone. Don’t deny yourself that Liz, be with the one that gives you the tingles.” Ok when did she become all philosophical on me? Is she on something?

“It’s not that easy.” I mutter but I know she heard me.

“Yeah it is. Your are the one making it hard. Let go of any preconceived notions that you have and open up to him.”

Him? Who the hell is she talking about? I go to ask her but she tells me that she’s going to take a bath. Bitch! She totally set me up for that. Now I’m going to be thinking about this all night.

“Well it seems that Max has found someone of interest.” I throw that out there to see if Isabel knows about her.

“Really? Who?” Either she really doesn’t know of she’s a dam good actress.

“Victoria something. He’s been out with her a few times.” Ok so I don’t know that for sure but I’m assuming it’s true.

“Oh yeah she owns some restaurant. Alex, Max and I had dinner there a while back. Have you been there? The place is to die for.” She did not have to add that in.

“No actually I haven’t been.” The fact that she owns her own restaurant still bugs me.

“Liz I’m sure it’s not serious, you know how Max is.”

“I wouldn’t care if it was serious. It’s about time he went out with someone for more then a day anyway.” I shrug it off.

“Ok.” Damn her! I suck at hiding my feelings from her. I think she’s a witch and has some special powers or something. Maybe it’s that damn tea she’s always making everyone drink. I’ll have to check into that.

“Liz I know you don’t like to talk about this but why haven’t you and Max ever talked I mean really talked about what happened all those years ago?” What the hell happened to her bath she was going to take?

“I don’t know I know that we should but I’m too scared to bring it up I guess. I can’t speak for him though.”

“Well you guys should talk about it. I know that you are in love with Max, don’t try to deny it. I’m sure that if you opened up to him and told him that you would see that he feels the same. I know my brother and I know how he feels about you and it’s not just cause you are the mother of his child. I hate to see you both so miserable.” I don’t even know what to say I sit their speechless.

“Isabel it’s not that easy. Max is my best friend what if I tell him how I feel and he doesn’t feel the same way? What if things didn’t work out? I couldn’t stand to lose him as a friend.” I sigh and lean back against the pillows.

“Liz you know Max and I’m sure you know that if you got together he would put all of his effort into it. No one can predict the future but you have to try. You might end up being happier then you even thought you could be.” She gets up and this time I think she’s really going to take a bath.

“Think about it ok? I mean really think about it this time. If he doesn’t feel the same way, which isn’t even remotely possible he’s not going to walk out of your life or anything.” She shuts the door to the bathroom and leaves me sitting there thinking about what she said. She’s right. It’s time to get this over with.


~~

I’m driving home and haven’t said two words to Victoria. My mind is on Liz and Alana right now.

“So do you want to tell me what happened?” She asks.

“Alana met an acquaintance of Liz’s today and it didn’t go well.” I’ve told her about the agreement that Liz and I have about people meeting Alana.

“So why are you going back home? You said she wasn’t hurt?” Is she kidding! Doesn’t she see that I need to get there….. fast!

“I need to talk to Alana about this. She’s upset that’s why I’m heading back.”

“Was it Jake?” She asks and I can’t believe she remembered that assholes name.

“Yeah it was.” I’m exceeding the speed limit by a lot but I don’t care.

“Well you already met him so what’s the problem? Alana’s going to be upset at first but she will be fine.” Ok I’m seriously trying not to get pissed off. Is she insane?

“Still, I want to be there for her. She called me and I can’t just not go.”

“Is this about Jake personally or just the fact that Liz is dating?” What the fuck?

“What do you mean by that? It’s about my daughter being upset period.” I’m trying really hard not to get angry.

“OK.” She says then turns to look out the window. What the fuck was she talking about? I can’t think about that now anyway I need to get home. By the time I drop off Victoria and get home it’s late and I see that Liz isn’t home. I wonder where she is but I assume she’s at Isabel’s. After a quick call Alex tells me that they are there and I head to bed.

Next part is teh Max and Liz talk. See ya Thurs.
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