Hey guys! Sorry for the wait...
Okay, just a warning. Nobody freak out on me, okay?? I said there wouldn't be a LOT of angst...but there WILL be a little, lol. No, this isn't going to turn into an angst fest. No, I won't torture you all for long. Just take a deep breath and calm down before you guys even start.
Good luck to all the teams playing today (but most importantly, New England! lol) Also, the infamous Battle of the Bays is today, so GO TAMPA BAY! (sorry, cheese heads...but in keeping with the spirit of the fic and all...
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Enjoy!
Part Six – Obviously Oblivious
Guilt was eating her alive.
It had been a week since she’d last spoken to Max. One week, filled with watching news reports dedicated to Max’s absence during the game against Green Bay, and the effect it had obviously had on Tampa Bay’s offense. She’d cringed upon seeing reporter after reporter demanding his opinion on everything from Kyle’s performance to the coaching decisions, wondering if she came across as hard-edged and nosy as the rest of them. Considering the years of salacious articles she’d printed on him, he probably thought her ten times worse.
Max’s standard answer had been a “No comment”, but that didn’t stop the more ambitious journalists from attempting to glean any bit of info from the Golden Boy that they could. It made Liz both frustrated and sympathetic to see the mounting dissatisfaction in his eyes each time someone mentioned his injury. Knowing she’d have to do the same thing. Again.
She’d received a fax from Michael three days prior, outlining several specific questions she was to ask of Max whenever he deemed necessary to hold their interview, which was now scheduled to be a live television feed. Among them, was the possible retirement of the Golden Boy from the National Football League. The idea of asking Max something so personal – despite the fact that she’d originally planned to, anyway - now had her biting her nails in trepidation.
It didn’t take a rocket scientist to know he wasn’t going to be pleased. She envisioned an ugly scene in her mind, of Max calling her every name under the sun – possibly even throwing things – and ordering her away and out of his life forever. Her anchor position at SC would be kaput, but she found that she surprisingly didn’t really care about that.
She couldn’t quite put her finger on the moment when she’d forgiven Max for his actions ten years ago. Perhaps she’d finally just understood. He’d done the right thing, if a bit cruelly, and she’d allowed something that truly had been in her best interest to poison her mind through years of pointed attacks on a person she cared about deeply. The idea of being the one to hurt him again when the interview went live…it had kept her up every night since Michael’s fax had come in.
It was bothering her now as she stared at the television in her hotel room, rain pattering the windows outside.
She couldn’t help but wonder where Max was, and what he was doing. She knew he was in town – it was a bye week for Tampa Bay, after a dominating win over San Francisco the week before. Liz had watched the game from her room, and had nearly cried in relief when the final score had been announced. From the expression on Max’s face, he’d been torn between being happy for his team’s victory, and worried over the obvious improvement of Kyle’s performance.
She knew it couldn’t be easy for him, to sit out and watch someone younger – although Max was hardly a veteran – do the job that was rightfully his. Starting positions were so fickle in the NFL; all it took was one person to outshine another, and you’d find yourself reduced to second string or lower quicker than you could launch a Hail Mary pass into the end zone.
She didn’t want to see that happen to Max Evans. She hoped whatever rehabilitation the coaching staff was putting him through was going well, because the idea of a football world without the Golden Boy in it…was unfathomable. She’d nearly called several times to ask him how it was all going, but hadn’t quite mustered up the courage thus far.
Besides, the ball was in his court now. Her final words to him in the Tampa Bay locker room rang in her ears.
Call me whenever you finally have time for me.
Apparently, he still didn’t.
The sudden ring of her cell had her jumping in alarm, than a sickly anticipation. Could it finally be him? She leaped for the bedside table, checking the caller ID with a sinking heart as she realized the caller’s identity. With a heavy sigh, she flipped the face open and spoke.
“Hello, mom.”
“Sweetheart! Just wanted to call and say hi…your father and I saw you on that sporty news show you did for ESPN,” her mother’s bright voice filled the line.
Liz bit back a small smile. “ESPNews?” she wondered wryly, trying not to laugh at the idea of her mother – whose idea of sports was cleaning the house – sitting through an hour long sports extravaganza.
It used to be a bone of contention between them; her mother unable to understand where she’d gone wrong to have a daughter who enjoyed the outdoors and the activities that came along with it more than she liked shopping or crocheting baby blankets. Or having babies, for that matter.
But Nancy Parker had finally grown accustomed to her only child’s fascination and adoration for the sports world. While she never pretended to understand, she at least faked an enthusiasm for it on occasion. Liz didn’t expect more.
“That’s the one!” her mother chirped. “Although, I don’t know who you do it, Liz. All of those men are just so…
large. And virile. They look like they could carry a woman back to their cave and have their way with her, and the woman wouldn’t protest in the least! I certainly wouldn’t.”
Liz nearly spit out the mouthful of soda she’d just sipped. “Mom!” she sputtered. “Good God.”
“Well, it’s true! And speaking of which, how’s that young man you’re seeing? You haven’t spoken of him in a long while.”
Liz sighed. “Kyle’s fine. And we’re not that serious, Mom. It’s just a casual—”
“Casual! Darling, it’s long past time you stopped being
casual and found someone to be
serious with. Or have you forgotten that time’s ticking away? You can’t go running around naked men’s locker rooms forever.”
“Geez.” Liz’s eyes crossed at her mother’s bluntness. “Mom, I’m only twenty-four, all right? There’s still plenty of time for me to get married and fill the house with the pitter patter of little feet.”
Her mother sniffed. “You say that like it’s a bad thing, sweetheart. Don’t you
want to get married and have children?”
Liz sat back and rubbed her temples, knowing there was no way she could stop the familiar conversation from happening. “Of course, I do,” she lied.
Not that it was necessarily a
lie. She was perfectly willing to get married – whenever she finally met a man she could live with. It wasn’t that she was afraid of commitment, but most men she’d dated weren’t pleased with the idea of a woman who had a more stable career than they did. And could probably recall sports stats with more accuracy than themselves.
A vague image attempted to take shape in her mind, and her breath caught. Oh, no. She definitely wasn’t going
there. The last person who’d ever want to spend time with her on a regular basis was Max Evans.
“Mom, I’m really busy at the moment,” she tried to interrupt before her mother could really get going on the topic. She felt a slight pang of guilt at lying, but if it was the only way…
“Oh, of course you are,” Nancy sighed. “You’re always busy. You really work much too hard, Liz. Well, I’ll only take up your time for another minute. Thanksgiving is next weekend, darling.”
“Hmm?” Liz wondered half-heartedly, attention captured by the amazing pass play she’d just witnessed on the television screen. “Son of a bitch! No
way he caught that!”
“Liz, are you listening to me? And sweetheart, don’t curse.”
“Oh, sorry,” she apologized automatically, struggling to tear her eyes away from the TV and concentrate. “And yes, something about Thanksgiving?”
“Your father and I thought it might be nice if you came home for it this year,” her mother continued. “I know we usually spend Christmas together instead, but it’s just been so long since we’ve seen you…your father misses you so much. You’re so far away now.”
“I live in Albuquerque,” Liz blinked.
“Well, he’s not up to driving as much as he used to be,” Nancy replied firmly. “I’m making a fat turkey and cranberry jelly. Pumpkin pie…”
Liz groaned. “Stop. I can already feel myself gaining weight.”
“Then you’ll come?” her mother asked excitedly. “You really should, dear. It’d be the first time we’ve all been together for Thanksgiving for years.”
Guilt began to trickle through her again. “Mom…you know…my job, sometimes I just can’t drop what I’m doing. No matter how much I’d like to do otherwise. This month’s a pretty big one in my career. I thought you and Dad understood…?”
“We do, of course we do. But couldn’t you maybe…just this once?”
She chewed her lip. The idea of going back home and seeing everyone
was extremely appealing. Despite her protestations about Albuquerque not being that far away, it had been an entire year since she’d managed a trip back to Roswell.
With a sigh, she resigned herself to pokes and prods from well-meaning family about why she’d yet to settle down. “Sure, Mom. I’ll be there.”
“Wonderful! And Liz…if there’s someone you’d like to bring…”
“Thanks, Mom,” she said quickly. “But please, don’t get your hopes up, okay?”
“Hmph. You could have anyone you wanted—”
“Mom!”
“All right!” her mother sighed. Then with a subject change that had her mind spinning circles, her mother continued with, “By the way. You’ll
never guess who I ran into at the grocery yesterday.”
Small-town gossip. Was there ever anything like it, she wondered with a smile. “Hmm…Tom Brokaw?” she teased, knowing her mother held a soft spot for the TV news veteran.
“Liz! Tom Brokaw…what an imagination you have,” Nancy tittered. “It was Diane Evans. Apparently, her daughter Isabel’s getting married and we were discussing the wedding. It was the strangest thing, I mentioned Max – you remember him, don’t you dear? Oh, of course you do. He’s a big football star, isn’t he?”
The fact that her mother didn’t know that was proof enough of the little importance sports held in her life. Liz sat, listening in horror as she continued.
“Well, anyway, I asked if Max was coming home, because when I got to thinking about it…I don’t remember seeing him home for years! I remember, because the darling boy used to stop by the café all the time when he was younger. Then he went away to college, I guess, and we’ve seen neither hide nor tail of him since! Well, Diane was very strange about the entire thing.”
“You don’t say,” Liz managed in a strangled tone. “Mother…maybe we shouldn’t be talking about this…it’s not really our business, is it?”
“Oh, nonsense! We’re family, aren’t we? Who can you discuss things with, if not family? I think there might be some kind of riff between poor Max and his parents. I have simply no idea on whose side the blame falls, although as a mother, I could
never allow anything to come between me and my child. I was going to tell Diane so—”
“Mother, tell me you
didn’t,” Liz groaned.
“—but she changed the subject and left, rather rudely, in my opinion,” Nancy finished. Liz breathed a sigh of relief, but before she could relax, her mother added, “Well? What do you think?”
“About what?” Liz hesitated.
“Oh, honestly Elizabeth! Can’t you pay attention for one minute!”
“What’s that? Oh no…my PDA’s going off. It must be something important, from work,” Liz fibbed. “I’ll have to talk to you later, Mom. Give dad my love, and I’ll see you both next weekend. Bye!”
She hung up quickly before her mother could begin protesting, resting the phone against her forehead and shaking her head at the narrow escape. “Good. God.”
She fell backwards on the bed, yanking a pillow over her head and wondering if she wanted to laugh or cry. Then a single thought pierced her mind.
Isabel was getting married. And Max likely had no idea.
She remembered the two siblings from high school, and there had never been two who were closer. People had often thought them twins; they’d been so close in age and confidence. The idea that somehow Max’s father had destroyed that between the two siblings was nearly unbelievable to Liz. But judging from the little Max had divulged about his recent relationship with his family, it had happened.
She felt sick to her stomach. Should she tell him? If she didn’t, and he discovered – somehow – that she knew, would he hate her for not saying anything? Or would he be angered if she did? Was it even any of her business?
A knock on the door had her gasping, and she sat straight up in bed. Due to the heavy downpour taking place outside, she simply couldn’t imagine who could be coming to visit her. She’d taken a day off from her job, and Kyle was running drills with the rest of the team at RJ Stadium.
Another knock sounded, and she temporarily debated on letting whomever it was think she wasn’t there. But curiosity got the better of her, and she stood and began making her way across the room. “I’m coming!” She opened the door, careful to keep any rain from making its way inside, and stared in shock at the figure hunched on the small doorstep.
Max offered her an exasperated expression. “Can you quit goggling at me and let me in before I’m completely drenched?” He was wearing a pair of threadbare track pants and a t-shirt, holding a windbreaker over his head like an umbrella. She’d have laughed at the sight if she hadn’t been suddenly reminded of her
own appearance.
As she hadn’t been expecting company, she’d dressed in her most favorite – and oldest – pair of pajamas, featuring Bubbles from the Power Puff Girls. Her hair hadn’t been washed since the day before, and she’d pulled it up into a high ponytail that made her look five years younger than she really was. As if she could really afford to look
younger. A quick glance at the mirror on the wall confirmed all of her worst fears, and she blanched. Dear God, did she really look like
that without makeup?
“Liz?”
She snapped her attention back to Max. “What are you doing here?” she blurted without thinking.
“Can we discuss this
inside?” he wondered, sounding a bit annoyed. “In case you haven’t noticed, it’s fucking pouring out here.”
“Oh! Right…uh…come in.” She threw the door wide, letting him walk inside and staring at the empty spot he’d been standing on for a moment before shutting the door and turning around. Her fingers closed around the handle in a white-knuckled grip.
He’d taken off his shirt and was wringing it out over the sink. She stared at the muscle play in his back, wondering if maybe she was dreaming. God only knew she’d had the fantasy of a half-naked Max Evans in her hotel room more than once over the past few weeks.
He looked up and met her glazed expression in the mirror. A strange look crossed over his features before he threw a glance over his shoulder. “I hope I’m not interrupting,” he said, nodding wryly toward the blaring game on television. “Who’s winning?”
“What?” She blinked, shaking her head and looking sharply away upon realizing she’d just been
ogling him. And he’d so totally noticed. Feeling her face heat, she stared so hard at the television screen that her eyes began to burn. “Oh, uh…you know, I’m not really…Seattle, I think.”
“You think?” he repeated, turning and crossing his arms over his – still naked – chest. A smirk played at the edges of his lips. “Were you watching it or not, Parker?”
The challenge in his tone had her regaining her senses, and she sent him a sneer before flopping on the bed as if she hadn’t a care in the world. As if there
wasn’t a gorgeous quarterback standing at her sink. Without his shirt on. “I was, before I was so rudely interrupted.”
“Ah, there she is,” he sang jokingly. “I wondered where my old Liz was.”
“She never left. She was just trying to figure out why the hell you were standing on her doorstep in the rain. And I’m not your Liz,” she mumbled, hoping he couldn’t read the flush on her cheeks.
If he heard her, he didn’t let on. “Oh, I was just in the neighborhood…” His voice trailed off as he joined her on the bed. She stiffened, but his attention immediately went to the televised game. He let out a low whistle. “Hasselbeck’s looking good this year. Damn, I wish I had a running back like Shaun Alexander to pitch to.”
Liz slanted him a glance. “You do. You’ve got Cadillac Williams, remember?”
Max blinked, then smiled slowly. “You’re right. Now that’s one helluva rookie.”
He was sitting so closely she could smell the rain on his body and feel the heat from where his thigh pressed against her knee. Struggling to appear aloof and slightly annoyed, she said, “As fascinating as this conversation is, care to tell me what you’re doing here? Being in the neighborhood, and all.”
“Look at that screen play,” Max answered with admiration, eyes on the TV. Then, “What?”
Liz rolled her eyes, trying not to smile as she recalled that she’d done the same thing while on the phone with her Mom. It was
not cute, damn it! “Max, why are you here?”
“Oh. Well…did I mention I was in the neighborhood?” he asked with a smile. When she narrowed her gaze, he sighed. “Damn, Parker. I haven’t seen you in a week and you’re acting like I’m a stranger.”
The reminder of their separation brought back memories of the last time they’d spoken, again, and she became uncomfortable. “Well…that’s been
your decision,” she answered quietly, refusing to look at him.
He didn’t reply for a long moment, and she finally snuck a glance his way to find him frowning at the TV. “I needed some time…that Green Bay game was…” He trailed off; obviously frustrated at not being able to get out what he wanted to say.
She understood him, all the same. “I know, Max. It was hard.”
He let out a rough laugh. “Try fucking horrifying. God. And then I took it out on you, and I-I’m sorry. I just wanted you to know that.”
She refused to cry at the sincere expression on his face as he turned and met her gaze. “Max, I know you didn’t mean to…and even if you did, I wouldn’t blame you for it. It was a bad day.”
He stared at her, unreadable emotions in his eyes. He nodded slowly. “Yeah…it was a bad day,” he admitted, his voice sounding lower than before. Then, “You look like a high school cheerleader.” He gave her ponytail a quick flip.
She scowled, batting his hand away. “Shut up—”
He didn’t let her hand go, but dragged her closer. Her breath seemed stuck in her chest as she stared at him in open-mouthed shock. He stared at her lips. “Max, what are you—”
“I’ve been thinking a lot over the past week, during rehab,” he interrupted her. “Wondering why I let you get to me the way you do. Piss me off so much. I think I finally figured it out.”
She swallowed. “Figured out…” She trailed off helplessly as his other hand came up to wrap around the back of her neck. Her heart was beating so quickly it sounded like a drum line had taken up place inside of her breast.
“It’s all this tension,” he continued, sounding hoarse. And frustrated.
“Tension?” All she seemed able to do was echo him. Her eyes were the size of saucers.
“Don’t tell me you don’t feel it.” His fingers tightened on the base of her neck, his eyes narrowing threateningly. “I know you do.”
“Feel what?” She tried to brazen it out, unable to keep from licking her lips. His gaze followed and his nostrils flared.
“All this…tension,” he repeated. “I know you want me, Parker.”
She gasped, trying to shove him away as humiliation took hold of her. God, had she been that transparent? “Max!”
“I want you too,” he added, stilling her with four simple words. “I want you so bad, I can’t sleep at night for thinking about what it would be like between us. I can’t concentrate on getting better…all I see is you, spread out under me and—”
“Oh, my God,” she whispered, feeling her face burn as he let loose with a colorful description of
exactly what he’d been thinking about.
His eyes were on fire and his jaw was locked. He looked more angry than happy about the conclusion he’d come to. “So? What are we going to do about this, Liz? I want you so fucking bad I can taste it.”
“We’re…we’re not going to do
anything,” she shrieked, scooting away from him as she continued to stare at him. “Do you hear yourself, Max? This is
me, Liz Parker. The woman you’d like to – and I quote – ‘see strung up by her imaginary balls’.”
He paused in his pursuit of her, pursing his lips together as if in fond memory. “Hmm. That
was a good one. Where’s it from, again?”
“GQ,” she snapped, bumping into the dresser as she continued backing away. “So there’s no possible way you could w-
want me…”
He was smiling now, a predatory grin that made her equal parts terrified and aroused. “Oh, but I do.”
She suddenly realized she was fleeing from him like a scared bunny rabbit from the big bad wolf. The image didn’t sit very well with her, and she stiffened her back. “I am
not sleeping with you,” she bit off with a hiss. “Get that through your dumb jock skull!”
“Ouch. You wound me, babe.” He patted his chest dramatically. “I’ll have you know I got a 3.4 GPA in college.”
The rapid-fire change in topic had her blinking. “What does that have to do with
anything?” she growled.
He shrugged powerful shoulders. “Got me. I thought this was your idea of foreplay.”
She was torn between wanting to jump him and wanting to hit him in his grinning face. “You…you…”
“Stud? Sexy, gorgeous hunk of a man?” he wondered. “Why thanks, Parker. C’mere.”
“Get lost,
Evans,” she sneered. “Before I string you up by
your balls.”
“Anytime you want to play with my balls, all you have to do is ask.”
“You’re unbelievable!”
“Just one kiss,” he pleaded huskily, trapping her by the bathroom door. With his good shoulder, he raised his arm and blocked her from getting away while crowding her with the rest of his body. “Let me kiss you, and see if you can still try and deny what you feel.”
“Like you did, ten years ago?” The words were out of her mouth before she could call them back, and he froze. She bit her lip, wondering if he’d now wake up and realize what exactly was happening. And fearing he would.
To her utter shock, his eyes grew heavy and he moved closer. “Yes, like I did ten years ago,” he whispered. “One more kiss, Liz. One more…”
“Max…” It was all she got out before he closed his mouth over hers, thrusting his tongue between her lips with a natural skill that had her melting against him without protest. She wrapped both arms around him, digging her nails into his naked back as he released a sharp groan.
They exploded. Every moment they’d spent challenging each other over the past few years had been leading up to this moment, she was now certain. Nothing had ever felt as right. They wanted as fiercely as they argued, and the passion was almost more than she could handle.
The memory of the impending interview and the news her mother had let slip suddenly came to her, and she knew then and there she couldn’t let herself be intimate with him when there were still so many secrets between them.
She pulled away, but he didn’t let her escape his arms. She stared up into his heavy-lidded eyes. “Max…we have to…stop.”
“Why? You want this as bad as I do.” He accented this comment by sliding his hands down her back, to the curves of her backside.
She turned her head before he could kiss her again, feeling a fleeting disappointment when his lips connected with her cheek. “Things are too…complicated right now,” she managed over a moan as his hands squeezed her bottom.
That seemed to pierce through the fog of passion, and he stilled. A dark expression colored his features and he released her and stepped back. “Ah, yes. Complicated. I’ve heard this before,” he answered.
“What?”
“I guess you don’t want to jeopardize things with your
boyfriend,” he sneered, anger evident in his eyes. “After all, where else would you get your information on me?”
Her mind was so foggy from his embrace that his meaning didn’t penetrate immediately. “Boyfriend? What are you…?”
“Valenti,” he spat out. “God, I
am an idiot.”
Everything clicked into place. “You think…Kyle…information…” His words sounded again in her mind, and she grew angry and distressed. “I’ve apologized for that before, Max! I thought you believed me.”
He lifted his chin. “You did it before, why wouldn’t you do it again? After all, it’d be in your best interest, wouldn’t it? Your boyfriend as the quarterback of the team most likely to win the Super Bowl? Although, judging from your reaction a minute ago, I guess you wouldn’t mind screwing around with a has-been, too.”
She saw red, and tears filled her eyes. “How dare you,” she whispered. “Kyle is not my boyfriend, not that it’s any of your business! We went out on
two dates! Two! We’re just good friends! How dare you make me sound like a…like a whore…”
He was evidently shocked at what he’d said, too. Regret shined in his gaze. “Liz. I…”
“Shut up!” she cried out, her voice breaking as she was filled with the desperate desire to hurt him as much as he’d hurt her. Over and over again. “Your team? Win the
Super Bowl? You’re joking, right? You guys can barely win a
game!”
“Liz—”
“Get out!” she shrieked. “Screw the damn interview! I never want to s-see you again…” She covered her face with shaking hands. “All you ever do is make me feel like…”
“Like what?” he wondered softly.
“I want you to leave,” she said coldly. “I’ll tell Michael he’s not getting his interview. They can give the anchor position to someone else. I just want to go home…”
She heard him take a step toward her, then pause. The sound of the door closing softly behind him was the last thing she heard before she broke down into sobs.