Rating-Teen
Disclaimer-I don't own Roswell or any of the characters so please don't sue me
Summary-Some weeks after Cry Your Name,that's all I'm saying
A/N-I usually never read or write fics in which Alex isn't physically around in some way but I got inspired last night while watching a movie.This is just a short fic,I wrote it in haste while the emotions from watching the movie were still fresh in my mind.Feedback is appreciated,but go easy on me
I also want to thank Trude for her words of encouragement *hugs*
Say Everything You Have To-
Trembling hands held the hand made, lilac scented paper away from the person’s body, afraid of blurring the ink with the tears that were being shed.
“I know something is wrong with me, I can feel it in my bones. The most frustrating part is that I can’t quite put a finger on it myself. Moody and absent minded, aren’t the adjectives I thought I would use to describe myself, not when I am, without a doubt in my mind, the happiest guy on Earth.
Why am I the happiest fellow that is walking the Earth right now as I write this letter? … That is all thanks to you my love.
I hope and prayer that you may never have to read this letter if I can figure out in time what’s the matter with me, but if you are reading this then it’s too late. I’m sorry for leaving without having the chance to say goodbye properly. Believe me, I never wanted it to end this way.
You were always the center of my world, Isabel. I want you to know that. From the very first moment I saw you and right up till our last meeting, you were all that mattered. Never, would I have ever changed anything I have been through especially over the last two years was I given the chance to do so, because that would have meant not being with you. So don’t you go blaming yourself for what happened to me…I forbid it! You’re not going to disobey your guardian angel now are you? If you do that I just might have to come back to haunt you.”
She let out half a chuckle and half a cry at this point. Even from beyond the grave he was making her laugh.
“Knowing your secret made me feel special, just the way you made me feel special by finally letting me in, letting me love you like you deserve to be loved. Thank you for the incredible night we spent together when we gave ourselves to each other. Three simple words from your lips, for which I had been waiting, for what seemed like a lifetime to hear were finally said and you brought me to my knees. Everything I have ever done has been in some way or another connected to you.
I woke up each morning with a smile on my face knowing I would see your radiant beauty, you made me live out my lifelong dream, without even knowing it, over the last few days. At least now I have an inkling of what it would have been like to be your husband someday.
I love you, and if it possible, I will keep loving you, and I will meet you again Princess. If there is such a thing as good karma, we surely deserve it in our next lives, to be able to live the life together that we couldn’t in this one.”
“He knew, he knew he was going to die and I was so wrapped up in my own happiness that I was too blind to see what was staring me in my face.” Isabel sobbed in to her pillow, clutching the letter to her chest
Maria and Liz looked at each other over her and realized for the first time how much Isabel had indeed loved their best friend.
“Isabel…Isabel look at me.” Liz said in a gentle yet firm voice as she put my hands on Isabel’s shoulders drawing her back up “Did anything that Alex had to say in that letter register with you? He said you made him the happiest guy on Earth, he loved you and he will not want you to blame yourself for this. Don’t spoil his memory by doing that to yourself.”
“ I agree.” Maria piped up trying to sound cheerful “Alex would have wanted us to celebrate his life so let’s do just that.”
An idea had been forming in Isabel’s head while she listened to Liz and Maria.
‘They are right…Alex was so full of life. He’d have wanted us to get on with our lives taking only the good memories with us.’
“I think I am going to talk to Alex’s mother.” She said getting up off the bed with an air of determination
“What? What for?” Maria exclaimed jumping up as if Isabel had lost her marbles
“This is something I have to do girls, for Alex.” Isabel said before strutting out of her room. Fifteen minutes later she was talking to Gloria Whitman in the Whitman’s living room.
Two Months later~
Isabel along with help from the Whitman’s had managed to convince the school to host the very first ‘Alexander Whitman Annual Music Show’, on the sports field.
The Whitman’s had put up a scholarship for the student who was adjudged the best by the panel of judges.
At the end of the evening Isabel gave the vote of thanks,
“First of all I would like to thank Gloria and Charles without whose help I would never have been able to make this event a reality.
Second of all I want to thank everyone present for being here and encouraging these very talented young musicians we had the chance to see perform tonight.
Lastly, I want to thank Alex, for just being Alex, for always seeing the best in everyone around him and for helping me to overcome my inhibitions and making me the person that I am today. Wherever you are right now, know that I will always carry you in my heart and look forward to the day when we will meet again. I can hardly wait.”
If Isabel had looked up at the sky at that moment she would have noticed one star twinkling brightly as she had said those words.
The End