COUPLE: M/L
RATING:Mature
AUTHOR: willowbv
Chapter 1: The Old and New Converge
DESCRIPTION: this is in response to a post EOTW challenge by LoveIsForever, I read it and thought it was fab, so here it is. Check out the challenge at: http://www.roswellfanatics.net/viewtopic.php?t=997 if you want to whole story, but for those of you who don't here's a summary: Liz couldn't keep Future Max a secret from Max and one night a week after Future Max's visit, Liz tells her Max the truth...
AN/Disclaimer: This is my first fic challenge, I hope I do it justice. The fic is started at the moment Max sees Liz and Kyle in bed together, so the dialogue for the first section is straight from the eppy, it just felt right starting from there and I didn't want to change any of the dialogue...so do sue or throw me out

Dedicated to LoveIsForever for her great idea...enjoy...oh wait (this is really the last time, I promise...)
Liz met his eyes, his shock reflected in his brown pools of pain, and her breathing ceased. Her heart like fragile glass under heated pressure softly and gently cracked, the pain seeping through the cracks, as she drowned in his anguish. His feet slowly backing away from her window drew painful sharp breaths from her lungs until she had to inhale again. Welcomed tears flooded her eyes, blurring her vision, releasing her pain. Suddenly feeling cold, naked and vulnerable, abandoned and utterly alone, she tightly clutched her bed sheets to her chest.
Kyle's quiet voice pierced the air. "I guess it worked".
Liz nodded soundlessly as her heart continued to crumble at the realization that it had actually happened, that in that second of eternity when their eyes had met, she had lost her soulmate.
****
His mind sentenced to stunned silence, Max's feet functioned on autopilot, his emotions numb. The images flashed through his mind with such violent intensity that his feet couldn't hold him up any longer. Max sank onto the park bench. He faintly registered where he was before the ice protecting his heart melted and he began to feel. The pain overwhelmed him with tidal wave force leaving him drawing sharp pained breaths.
Liz with Kyle. Laughing. Both of them. Together. In her bed. Flesh. Naked. Her naked thigh. No clothing. Their guilt. Her guilt. Surprise at seeing him.
The words reverberated through his whole being.
Liz had sex with Kyle.
My Liz made love to someone else...my love.
After all they had been through, after weeks of trying he had hoped that maybe-
but obviously not, he thought bitterly. She found a normal boy in Kyle. That's why she wanted to set me up with Tess, so she wouldn't feel bad when she was with Kyle.
"Are you okay?". The soft voice drew him to a pair of concerned blue eyes.
The spirit to fight his destiny, to fight contact with her at all, had slowly drained from his soul as the images of Liz and her betrayal bombarded his mind. Instead of asking her why she here or to tell her a lie and make her go away, Max lowered his eyes back to the ground and gave her an honest answer. "No".
He heard soft foot steps stop next to him.
"Can I sit down?" she asked softly.
With no coherent thought streaming through his mind, Max answered her question with a simple unemotional. "Sure"
****
"I've fought a thousand battles..." began future Max, "but watching you do that was the hardest thing I've ever had to do."
Sat cross legged on her lounge chair, Liz wiped the relentless streams of tears away from her eyes momentarily able to see. "The look on his face... on your face," she added. Every time his face appeared in her mind, she felt her heart break again, her insides curl up in anguish...but it was nothing compared to the pain she had inflicted on Max.
Her future husband's next words instantly dried up her fountain of tears and left her reeling with a shock to being slapped sharply across the cheek.
"Maybe it's for the best. For you, too."
Swinging herself around to face him she asked astonished, "What are you talking about?".
How could he think that having her soul mate, the only person on this planet who made her feel utterly and completely at peace and whole-
"I saw you with Kyle," he continued, " He's turning out to be a...a great guy. Maybe it would be better for you to be with a human"
The drought of tears over, her vision blurred again. A human?! Species didn't matter to her, it had never mattered. What did matter was the way her body glowed and came alive at his touch, the way his eyes consumed her every being, the way she knew that he was her one and only. He was her other half and she couldn't imagine life without his loving touch, his sweet explosive kisses. How could he not know that?
Her eyes burning with passionate conviction she said. "Don't you realize what you are to me...and you're always gonna be? You're the love of my life. Everyone else is gonna be second best. There'll never be another you."
****
"Do you wanna talk about it?" she asked.
Max felt like crying, like blowing up something really big, like screaming that: heck no he didn't want to talk about the fact that the love of his life, the girl he had risked his life for, had just a few minutes or hours ago been having sex in her bed with her ex-boyfriend. "No" he replied simply.
He felt her nod yet his eyes never left the soil he had been blankly staring at.
"Do you want me to leave?" came her other question.
Max sighed. He didn't want to think, he didn't want to move and she was here, Tess, his wife, she was always here for him. "No".
****
The night was still, the silence she had once enjoyed was now a painful reminder of the laughter she would never get to experience with him. Instead his laughter and his smiles would be directed at another. "So Max and...Tess are going to be together now".
Liz unconsciously clenched her jaw after the mention of her name. She would enjoy her Max, his love, his gentle kindess-
"I don't know" he replied in a faraway voice. The brown eyes that had once held a wealth of knowledge were empty, the mind filled with memories of a future that would never be. "I don't know anything now. This is a different world".
No, it was the same world but without Max it was different, it was empty. Her eyes dropped to the ground. " I'm gonna be alone", she despaired.
" Maybe". He gently lifted her chin with his fingers to meet his eyes." Maybe not", a small secret smile oblivious to Liz faintly swept his lips, "From now on, the future is to be determined. It's what I've always said to you, Liz. We create our own destiny."
Liz nodded blindly...but her destiny wasn't with Max. His destiny was with Tess, she was helping him fulfill his destiny instead of the one with her, where she woke up to see him beside her in the morning, of making love to him. And before all of that, of eloping at 19, getting married in a Vegas Chapel and dancing the night away.
Maybe I could have that, she thought sadly. " Could you dance with me?" she asked hopefully.
His eyes widened in surprise. "What?"
"I wanna have my wedding dance" she replied softly.
He stared at her for a moment and she knew he understood...that giving her this one thing was something that would help her breathe when nothing else would, it was something she could treasure of the life she would never have.
Standing in front of her, he held his hand out to her. Liz accepted it and sighed happily, losing herself in his arms, forgetting that this would never happen, swaying and twirling to the music played on their wedding day.
I Shall Believe.
At the moment the chorus played in her mind for one last time, at the moment Liz was preparing to offer her hand back to Max, reality came crashing down on her as vacant air and her empty balcony greeted her instead.
He's gone. Our future is gone. Max is gone. I'll never have the day.
Stinging tears filled her eyes, her loss suddenly and painfully evident, Liz slumped against her wall and sank to the ground.
****
Tess sat beside him, her mind feverishly at work. Slowly and tentatively her hand travelled down to cover his hand...and he didn’t move it away. Taking it as encouragement she gently squeezed it and he held on. Tess stared at their hands intertwined in stunned amazement. Whatever had happened to Max, it was very serious, she concluded.
Serious enough for him to actually let me touch him, she thought.
Her eyes travelled back to his tortured face. Tess was awestruck to find that she could not only see his pain but she could feel too. It emanated from him in waves, potent, constricting her throat until she too found it hard to breathe properly...because her husband, for the second time she could remember looked like a child separated from all he knew, stranded in an unfamiliar world, utterly and heartbreakingly lost. She guessed that only one person in his life had that power over him at present...Liz.
“I went to her bedroom... to convince her to go to a Gomez concert with me,” he began.
Tess frowned, dreading to hear about how poor torn Lizzie told him no. Max skipped ahead to the conclusion which made her eyes threaten to escape their sockets. A simple four worded statement. “She slept with Kyle”.
Concluding that he didn't mean slept in the context of mere friendship, she responded with a quiet.“Oh”. Internally, adrenaline coursed fiercely propelling her mind into hyper drive.
I guess since the whole turn-Tess-into-Liz plan didn't work, Bambi eyes found another way to help him move on. Sleeping with Kyle. Way to go Parker.
Her mind worked furiously. For this to work, she couldn’t say “Yes! Leave her and come back to me”. She knew Max, he wouldn’t come to her that easily; instead, from this moment on, every move she made had to be calculated, carefully planned and precise.
So instead of jumping for joy at the expense of his current temporary heartbreak, she softly squeezed his hand. “You know I’m not one for the Max and Liz fan club, but I really am sorry”.
His small smile signified his acceptance of her condolences, her heart soared as he gently yet firmly squeezed her hand.
****
Enveloped by the silence of the night, neither person said a thing.
Images flashed through Max’s mind of Liz: saving her, running his fingers through her silky hair at the crash festival, kissing her, loving her.
He couldn’t understand why she would betray him like that…she couldn’t.
There has to be an explanation, he thought resolutely.
****
When Tess found his hand slipping away from her, she knew. “You’re gong back to her..aren’t you?”
Without glancing at her he nodded and rose from the bench.
Tess followed.
“But she betrayed you Max, slept with Kyle of all people! You can’t just go back to her!”.
She nearly walked into him as he abruptly turned to face her, his intense brown eyes clashing with her electrifying blue windows.
“Tess, I know Liz…she wouldn’t to this” he said passionately.
“But she did Max” she insisted.
He shook his head. “There has to be an explanation...I have to know why”.
Tess relented, he was as stubborn as Zan in his past life; he was going to go back. She didn’t know how long Parker would hold out but she knew that Max wasn’t going to give up on them easily, not in something he believed in with all his heart.
Well, I’m just going to have to help him along, she decided.
She stood watching him as he turned to leave. Her heart stopped when he stopped and turned back to her. He placed his hands in his front pockets and smiled shyly, “Um, thanks for tonight”
Charmed by his endearing shy awkwardness, Tess shrugged and smiled.“No problem."
He nodded faintly acknowledging her reply. “Um, I'd walk you but..."
"Yeah" she nodded with understanding. He had to go and try to save his doomed relationship.
" Do you want me to call you a cab home?” he offered.
Tess broke into an amused grin. “Max, I’m an alien... I think I can handle myself…besides, I think I’ll stay here for a while”.
He nodded, “ ’night Tess”.
“’Night Max” she whispered as she sat back on the bench and watched him go. Her fingers trailed the place where their hands a few minutes ago had been comfortably to entwined. She closed her eyes, breathed deeply the cool night's air and relieved the memory.