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Title : Missing and Lost
Pairing: Alec/ Liz
Rating: MATURE for language
Autor's note : In saison 3 of Rowell, Liz was hurt by Max's touch and she left Roswell but not for the Vermont's school. End of saison 1 of Dark angel, Zack is in Buddy's farm.
A little CC in the beginning and a lot UC later. Disclaimer: The author of this fan fiction does not own any aspect of Roswell. Those rights belong to Melinda Metz, Jason Katims, WB, UPN, 20th Century Fox, etc. Disclaimer added by moderator.
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Part 1
It's hard when you can't touch the person that you love. Max hurts me, worse than my seizures, it was like electrochoc but ever more worse. Worse than Manticore's punishments. I left Roswell but i think i'll maybe come back, i love Max and he loves me. Why can't it be simple? I have read in a book that love is a hard way, i think it is true. We see each other but it was so painful, just look, don't touch.
All people, parents, friends think i am in Vermond's school but they're wrong. It is just a lie, i go to Seattle. It was the last town where Zack was, he gave me his adresse. For 11 months and 2 weeks i haven't news of him, he doesn't answer on his voice mail. I am so worried and i can't say him what happened to Alex... Alex's death, no the murder of my twin by this damn blonde beach. I should contact him, i don't know what to do.
Alex was just a thousand better than me, most smarter, most stronger. All people love him, in Manticore he protected me all times with Zack and me, i couldn't save him. In Roswell, we have hiden our past easily, we were friends nothing less, nothing more. I don't say that we haven't nothing in commun, same dark hair but it was all. Manticore thinks it will be great if twin's have just a few similarities, in this way it will be easier for the hiding mission and covers, no people think that we are brother and sister.
" I missed you, bro." I whispered.
I should find Zack, i should speak with someone, someone like me. I remember a sentence of Maria a few weeks after Alex's murder.
" Liz, talk to me. You shouldn't hide your feelings, Liz you haven't cry but i know you want do this."
As it was easy to say that i failed, that my twin was dead because of me. A car accident. A CAR accident???? And i suppose buy this? Never, i have never believe in that. A super transgenic soldier dead in a simple and little car accident? How will it be hilarous if it wasn't so painful? Next fights with Max and Isabel, i have find the truth in Las Cruces. Leana and the super computer, there is a moment where i was afraid of Michael, that he finds the truth about me and Alex. Ok, every people knew that Alex was smart with computer but Michael knows because he worked to Crash Down that Alex and me go often in the computer and when we went in this ugly appartement where there was Tess' bomb. I began to use my speed reflexes but Michael has destroyed the bomb, i remember when he looked at me, there were questions in his amber eyes. He has a lot of questions but for the moment it was only suppositions but i know that he saw something. He is the only who had found a weird thing about me, he has never believe in the shy girl's story. Maybe it is because he is a warrior too, a soldier. He should be suspicious to protect his family, like me. I can't say them the truth, their lives are already complicated and dangerous. I think a part of me is happy to not tell them the truth because i won't be rejected.
In my nightmares, i tell them and i see Maria scream, same when she learned the news about Max and the others but worse, i see Max look at me, tell me that i'm a monster, a freak and run away, Isabel and Michael protect Maria of me. Normally Alex was rejected too but now, he goes with them and tell me that it was all my fault, that i'm weak, that i have failed and he has never wish have a sister like me so i wake up.
But now, i should see Zack, he is ever my CO and i'll listen his orders this time.
With Alex, we didn't talk very often of Manticore, in reality never, we want forget this damn hell when we have grown. Specially a man who has haunted my nightmares, Lydecker. But we haven't stop the training. I remember when Zack found us in Roswell, it is like yesterday, before the alien's thing.
FLASH We were 15, Alex and me were in the Crash Down, i finished with my shift and Alex took me with his parents' car to go in the desert for the training. I said yes when i have a feeling that somebody spying us. Alex seems notice this too. We went in the desert, driving fast, we stopped the car and hid ourselves in the land. Few seconds later, i hear a crack and i jumped on the guy and begen to fight with him, he has a blonde hair and blue eyes and i was sure he was a X5. Alex screamed and ran to help me but as i stopped the punch of my adversair i looked in this eyes, recognition cames already. I gave him a hug to Alex's surprise.
" Big Brother !!!!!! You are here! I missed you so much!"
Few seconds later he returns the hug.
" Yeah Lizzie, it's me."
He looks at Alex and they have a brotherly hug.
" So how you find us?" asks Alex.
"It was easy, too easy, why you two haven't listening my orders ! I told you to separate. If i can find you, Lydecker too!"
" Stop it, Zack, i say angrily, we can't do that, we are twins and stay together was a good idea. Nobody knows we are brother and sister."
" You dissobeid me."
" We aren't anymore in Manticore, Zack." says Alex firmely. "You don't have orders to give us."
" OK, but stop to be so brilliant, you know articles in newspaper? Lydecker can read this."
" Oh! This echec tournament that i won with you, Alex."
" You should leave, it makes a too long time since you are here, it is not safe."
" No Zack, we have lifes here! Friends! Adoptif parents who care about us!"
"You know that..."
" Please Zack, let us finish High school and next we leave, ok?"
" OK, but be careful. Not mistakes like this anymore and after the end of your High School, you'll leave with me."
" Yes. Where are the others?"
" It is more safe if you don't know."
" But Zack, it is our family!"
" I don't tell you where they are, but they are safe. I search the others."
" Ok, maybe we can sit, it was a long time that we haven't see each other."
And we have talked later in the night. We were together. END OF FLASH
If only we have listen him... But we were too stubborn. Nothing like this will be happened. Now, i will find you Zack, i promise that to Alex.
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A/N: I decided to repost this fic 'cause i've a lot of idea for it and i corrected few mistakes in it.
I'm not against a little bump !
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A/N: Thanks guys for the FB. And yes pandas 2001 i'm actually reposting this fic.
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Part 2
Liz POV
I am in Seattle for 2 hours now, i went to Zack's appartement, it seems that he didn't used it since a long time, i found an old Jam Pony Messenger's card with his photo. It's probably his cover, Sam Lee. I'll search this local and find it. A delivery's house, i walk in, severals persons are here with their bikes, i ask for the boss. A black guy says it is the man who repeats BIP! BIP! BIP!, i thank him and walk near of the guy called Normal who wear a phone in his ear and glasses. This guy is dressed like a geek !
" Excuse me," i say, waiting for his answer.
He looks at me with scorn.
" It is for what?"
" Is Sam work here, please?"It will be easier if i stay polite and calm.
" Sam?" he repeats.
" Blonde guy, tall, blue eyes."
" Ah him! No! He never worked here! He has never delivered his packets and say that i had trust him."
" You know where he is?"
" No and this is a delivery's house not a information central, Miss. Nothing to deliver, nothing to do here."he tells me with an annoying answer.
" Fuck off, i leave." I say, no longer polite with this guy.
I leave this dirty enterprise. This man is a jackass, who does he think he is? I understand perfectly Zack's behavior.
Zack where are you? I have only this adresse, maybe i should return to your appartement and search more.
Back to Jam Pony.
Alec POV
I made my last drive and enter in Jam Pony. Normal is really an interessant guy, i think he is gay and that he flashs on me, but this situation has advantages. I'm the only person on who he doesn't scream and he treats me like his best friend. Well maybe i'm that for him.
" Hey Normal, what's up?" I say, smiling.
" Alec! My little boy, you have finished. Ever the best and the first of my employers. If i can calling that employers."
" So, no news?" I ask.
" No, the usual. Well, now we are a information center too."
" What mean you by this?" I answer, curious.
" Oh, a girl came here earlier to ask where is Sam. You know my last fainted golden boy."
Sam! Sam is Zack! Shit, this is bad, very bad.
" Which girl?" i say seriously.
" She just leaves, you must croised her. A girl with dark hair."
I leave fast, looking around but nobody. Shit! Normal is definitely an ass. I come back.
" How does she look?" I ask.
" I don't know, she was short with a long black hair and my god which language! Exactly like miss I Come Later Than Others."
Like Max? An X5? Probably. Looking for Zack, so in problem. I should say that to Max.
" Normal, i should leave. Bye."
" Bye Mantie Cora. You should come back on the ring, you know."
" I'll think about that."
I call Max and go to Logan's appartment.
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Later in the night.
11 ap, in a bar called the Crash, funny name i think, we can say that i'm home again. The Crash... The Crash Down, same thing. I drink my tequila, i want to be drunk but with this dearest Lydecker it is impossible. he has specified this strictly in my genetic programm. Shit, Zack where are you? I should find you and soon, i don't have more time now. I look at the customers, boys, girls, two take my attention. It is a tall guy with dark blonde hair and blue green eyes with a girl with a long dark hair and brown eyes. They seem pretty familiar to me.
" Hey babe." says a male voice in my back.
Slowly i turn myself to look at a drunk man behind me, pathetic, he catchs my wrist.
" What do you think you are doing?" i ask. 'Cause you know i really had a fucking day and i don't think that you'll want see an X5 pissed off.
" Want a dance." Men are so sure of themself!
" With you?" I ask, rising an eyebrow looking at him. "No, never in fact, now get off."
He hangs ever my hand so i take his wrist and twist it. He screams.
" Clair?" i ask with a mocking tone.
" Cristal."
" Good."
I turn myself to my glass when i feel a move in my back. Stupid man, i warned you. But of course, if you don't want have children, it's your problem man. I catch his bottle of alcohol and send him against a wall and leave the bar. I heard people walking behind me.
" Hey!"
I return me, it is the guy and the girl, i know them, X5. I feel this, maybe this statement is caused by my new alien powers. I look at the girl and smile, how i haven't recognyze her more soon. Zack's love, the beautiful Max and with her, Ben. I remember, next Alex, it was him with who i was more near.
" Yeah?"
" Who are you?" asks Max.
" It is important?"I know perfectly that she doesn't like questions for answers.
" Yeah", says Ben. "I like know where you learned to fight. You looked pretty good."
I'm surprise, too far i remember he wasn't so flirtatious, he was really shy and calm.
" I'm Max and this is Alec."
I freeze. Alec. He has changed of name, it is hurt. After all, it is me that gave him his name.
FLASH BACK Manticore during the night, the X5 are in their room, sitting on the floor in circle. I was near of Alex and Zack, Ben was in front of me.
" I find you name", i say, "you are Ben."
" I love it... Liz", he answers.
" Yeah, me too." I answer with a bright smile.
" It sweats you very well", tells Alex.
" Thanks, i'll keep this name forever."
" Me too", says Ben.
END OF FLASH
He has broken our promise. And it is hurt me.
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End of the part 2
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" Yeah, says Ben. I like know where you have learn to fight. You have look pretty good."
I'm surprise, too far i remember Ben wasn't so flirtatous, if i should pick words to describe him in Manticore i will say calm and shy, very shy.
" I'm Max and this is Alec."
I froze, Alec. He has changed of name. And this makes hurt, after all it's me who give him his name. (...) He has broke our promise and it's hard for me.
Part 3
I look at him. How could he do that? I glare at him, he changed a lot and i don't recognize him anymore, the same blue eyes but not the same gaze. Same exterior but not the same mind. It wasn't the Ben i have known, in a certainly way he is different.
" And?" i ask finally.
" Have you heard about transgenics?" says Max. ' Go to the point Max.' i think in my head.
" All people heard about that. Seattle mades the transgenics hunt with T-shirts and TV. Yes, i know about that."
" You seem strong, very strong", continues Ben in a kriptick way.
I explose, i can't take that more longer.
" Go to the point, soldier, i cut sharply. You would know if i'm a transgenic Max? I answer to your question, yes i am. A warrior like you too Ben or should i say ALEC?" I ask with a mocking tone.
I begin to leave in hurry. I lost my control, not very good. Normally I'm calm and can handle all, I'm not the yelling type, i prefer say things simply and i'm not used to rise my voice. God, i have handle Michael since three years! Never once losing my temper and all people know that it's very hard principaly with Michael. I guess that i can't be like that when it concerns my family.
" Wait!" screams Max. "... Liz!"
I return myself to face them.
" What do you want?" I ask sharply. Yeah, not at all the sweet and calm Lizzie of Roswell.
" You can't leave now, we just found us. Take drink with Alec and me." she proposes. She's ever so emotional.
" Stop that Max !" i scream, angry. " His name is BEN not Alec! He is BEN !"
Max look at me saddly and puts her hand on my shoulder.
" No Liz, this is Alec, Ben's twin. Ben is dead, Liz."
My heart breaks. No... Ben is dead. Ben is dead, i repeat in my head. Max puts me in a hug but i don't respond, i'm in catatonia, trying to deal with this new facts. By the Blue Lady, I lose again a brother.
" I'm sorry", i heard her in a whisper.
" Why?" i ask, trying to not question her with the how. I felt her and she tensed when she spoke of Ben so I don't think it's the very good moment to ask her more details.
" Because i have kill him."
Ok, i think i'll forget to be caring here. Now it's the perfect time for questions.
" What did you say?" i ask, pushing her away, not wanting believe this new information.
" I killed Ben." she repeats.
My face stays neutral, without emotions, i feel the hatred burning in me. How dares she? She killed our Brother !
" Why?" i answer coldly.
" Not the right place", interrupts Alec.
I glare at him. I know it wasn't his fault but he has the face that my brother should have. He is a false copy of Ben. He is Alec. Alec. A stranger with a strange name but i decide to listen him.
" Ok, where?" i ask.
" To a friend", said finally Max, i look at her and follow them never opening my mouth. I can't do this because i know that i'll let my anger go out to Max.
We arrived in a rich appartement and i meet a guy Logan Cale. I glare at him, i'm just not in the mood. Alec introduce us, Max just look at me worried. After all, how did she think that i'll act learning about Ben's death ?
" Meet Logan Cale or Eyes Only", says Alec with a grin.
I should say that he is cute, blue eyes and brown hair but it doesn't matter. I look at his hand but don't took it.
" Liz", i tell sharply. "So Max, explain yourself now."
Logan and Alec listen, i think that they don't know too.
" Tell me how and why have you killed our brother."
I heard Logan gasps.
" A year ago, with Logan's help, i have listen that a body with a barcode on the neck has been discovered in the forest. The dead man was in his twenty years, with a broken arm and he hasn't teeth. The barcode on this neck was Ben's barcode."
I paled at her informations, memories coming in my head. FLASH The X5 unit watching the prisonner running and few moment later going to his track, with Lydecker's orders. We were become animals, beasts without conscience. We have hunted him and find him. It was a carnage, we have beat him, i heard again his screams in my nightmares, we broken his right arm and teared his teeth. Blood covered us, we aren't human anymore, we were predators. END OF FLASH
" No... It's impossible. Ben can't have do this... It's just..."
" a mistake. No, Liz, i have would believe this too but the facts were truth. Ben has killed this man and plenty men before him. All this murders for..."
" The Blue Lady."
Max nodded her head, saddly.
" Yeah, i found him, we spoke a long time and i have thought that i have save him but after he kidnapped a priest. I ran to his search and found him in the forest, saved the priest and Ben and me began to fight. I have made to Ben strong bruises, i have broke his arm and his right leg, he couldn't run and... Lydecker will arrived here... He was lying on the ground and looked at me. He said... He said..."
(Ben's voice) " Don't let them get me. I don't want return in this hell. You know what they'll do to me. They'll put me with the heartless, with the nomlies."
"He would heard about the High Place, the story who he told us so often in Manticore so... i began the story, he was smiling and... i have broke his neck. And after i should leave his body to Lydecker."
I look at Max with my eyes plenty of tears and hug her strongly.
" I'm sorry", i whispered.
I feel her, crying hardly.
" Don't blamed yourself, Maxie. Now, he's free."
We stayed like this during a long time. Finally i let her go. Poor Max, she have should killed our brother for his proper safety and i have blamed her. If she knew about Alex...
Alex, all is my fault, if i haven't told you about aliens, you will ever here. You were the most smarter of us both, i remember when Valenti is come to annonce us the news. Maria is arrived near us, screaming and crying in the same time, my heart goes faster. Valenti looks at us and says with a roughly voice that you have a car accident had and that you hadn't survived, that you were dead. I won't believe this, it's impossible, you a car accident? We are supers soldiers with biggest reflexes and you haven't react face to face to a drunk conductor? No way, it's not the truth, it's just a stupid joke that you make to me.
I remember, next, when Max tried to heal you. He comes out of the van with a white face, like a ghost. There was nothing to do, too late, Maria cried on my shoulder but me, i can only fix the car where your body lie. I can't believe this, i don't accept that however the others begin to leave, i say that i want walk by myself. I fainted that i leave whereas the group leave with cars. A couple of minutes later, i run in the opposite direction, i look around to assure that there is nobody here and come in the van. I open the door and i see the dark sack, i open the zip and gasp. You are so pale, Alex and you are recovered of blood, so blood, i'm feel nauseous. I have seen blood before, i was recovered of blood during missions but on you, it's differant. I watch you, your hair is stick with blood who pass in a dark color. I breath, noting that i have stopped my breath during few minutes. I feel tears in my eyes but don't cry, i can't do it, not now.
" I want stay with you bro, but i can't."
I took my knife on my jacket, my hands shake as i turn your head to see your neck.
" I'm sorry Alex but i won't that Lydecker took your body, i won't put a empty coffin in the earth. Forgive me."
I cut the first ground of skin where is your barcode, i took the skin bleeding in my hand. I bite my lower lip to don't cry and i feel my own blood in my mouth. Suddenly i heard foothsteps coming near here. I leave in hurry, running faster and faster, feeling my lungs burning, trying to forget my pain but i can't.
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Author's note: sorry to not post more fast but i left for the holiday.
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Previous
" I'm sorry Alex but I won't that Lydecker took your body, I won't put a empty coffin in the earth. Forgive me."
I cut the first ground of skin where is your barcode, i took the skin bleeding in my hand. I bite my lower lip to don't cry and I feel my own blood in my mouth. Suddenly I heard footsteps coming near here. I leave in hurry, running faster and faster, feeling my lungs burning, trying to forget my pain but i can't.
Part 5
" You're ok?"
I turn my head to Alec and nod.
" Yeah. Why wouldn't I be?" I ask." Maxie, do you know where is Zack? I should contact him."
I see her exchange a look with Alec and Logan and i begin to be worried, they hide something, something big.
" What's happened Maxie? Where's Zack?"
" You should know Liz that nearly a year ago, Syl, Krit, Zack and me decide to destroy Manticore. With Logan help, we arrived to destroy the labs but when Zack and me escaped, i meet my clone of eleven years old, I was so surprise, I haven't react when she shots me. The guards took me in the hospital, i was died but Zack was captured too. He saw me and... he shots himself to give me his heart. He has saved my life a last time."
LIZ'S POV
When i heard her story I was... i don't know how i was.
My last hope was Zack and now he was died like Eva, Ben, Tinga and Alex. All my family died, but why all these things? I heard her continue.
" Few months after my escape and the destruction of Manticore, I saw Zack on the video that Logan had found on a vigil. Manticore kept he alive with machine's help and synthetics organs. He was robotic, his face was robotic. I have found him but he didn't recognize me in beginning but after a little chat he's remembering of me. And his face healed with all the skin. But Manticore has brainwashing him to kill Eyes Only, the man who knew too much about Manticore, X5 specially, this man was Logan and Zack knew it. He has tried to kill Logan but i stopped him but in our fight i should electrocute him."
I gasp, knowing what is mean.
" You... You are surcharged his numeric memories!"
" Yeah. I should do this... Liz, you should understand i can't let Logan die?"
" Why?" I ask angrily. She drags away again a brother to me. Once Ben and now Zack! How dares she?
" I love him..." she whispered, her eyes in mine.
I smile sarcastically.
" So you are chosen the man that you loved instead of our brother, the man who had saved your life a number of time since your birth, since your first breath. Look how you are selfish Maxie. How dare you do that to him? I ask me how you can sleep the night. You aren't my sister, I don't know you."
I see her eyes plenty of water.
" How are you crying, poor baby? Don't count on me to comfort you."
I laugh, as I am hypocritical, it is exactly my behaviour toward Alex. I chose Max instead of him and now he is dead by my fault but I know it's my fault but Maxie doesn't seem her fault. Love is never recompensed. A day, this man leaves her or betrayed her. Me, it was a stupid alien blonde beach who had broke the idyllic picture. I have learned that we don't reject our family. I have loose Alex for this mistake and I won't that nobody makes that again.
I walk in front of Maxie and look at her.
" Tell me the end."
" Zack lose his memories twice and i don't told him who i am when he saw me. Now he lives in a farm with friends. His name is Adam Thomson."
I smile slowly, I remember a night to Manticore, Zack and me were on the top of the basement, speaking of the "High Place". He told me that he will like live in the nature with animals. He said that he thinks they were most clever than humans. Since that, i have kept the same idea, Zack was right. It's only the true, I wish that he is happy in this farm, I’m happy for him.
" Sorry Maxie to told this. But learn all this things so suddenly... I have overreact, sister. Forgive me."
I hug her and her too.
" Forgive me too Liz."
I let her go. I turn to Logan, no he seems good for Maxie, perhaps the end won't be a bullshit after all. I shake his hand.
" Sorry for earlier."
He smiles to me.
" No worry, it's forgotten."
" Another try? Hey, I’m Liz, glad to meet you."
" Logan Cale, same feeling about you."
" Um."
I look to Alec who grinned.
" Maybe you can introduce you to me more friendly."
I raised an eyebrow.
" Really. Let me think... perhaps." i teased.
Alec amused me, he seems be the type of guy who go out with all girls and probably with 3 in a night but i see between this cover. After all, with Michael i have experience. The look isn't what there is inside. Alec is mysterious, he tried every time to hide his feelings or emotions by wearing the mask of the superficial guy.
" Ok, i wait for your answer", he replies. "But maybe we can know where a pretty girl like you live."
I should say that he is clever in subtraction of information.
" Oh, i haven't a place fix, i moved since the escape."
They buy my lie, it's so simple when you have the face of an perfect little girl. Alec raised an eyebrow, i think he's doubtful.
" Why you want contact Zack, Liz?" asks finally Max.
" I'll leave my last place and would give my new address to Zack and like he doesn't answer i became worried and have decided to search him. But now, I think I’ll go to my motel."
" Ok, you stay few days here, i hope. Please?"
I laugh.
" Why not? After all, we have a lot of things to say. Bye people."
She hugs me.
" Bye, Liz. Meet me here ok?"
" Ok."
I leave the apartment. Finally, I’m happy that Maxie and me aren't mad to each other. I need her, she is one of my family and I want see her again once before... I know what will happened. I want just forget that for the moment.
" Hey!" yells a person behind me.
" Alec? What are you doing here?" i ask surprise. "Shouldn't you be with Max and Logan?"
" And see them looking at each other with loving and puppy eyes. No bloody way!"
I laugh again. I'm feel less tired with him. He makes me feel... safe... less sad.
" Looking for a new conquest in the next bar?"
" Me? I'm not the type of guy!"
" I'm not blind Alec. Whatever you say, i know what i see and you are a playboy."
" Have you took option psychoanalyst to Manticore?
" Maybe..."
" You are a mysterious woman."
" It's a part of my charm", I answer with a grin.
" You know maybe i have took the same option that you. I don't buy your little story."
" About what?"
" All, principal point that after all this hiding years you came and broke your cover when Zack doesn't answer, you know that this circumstances can arrive and you don't seem act before think. It's probably one of your reasons but not the most important. I am wrong?" he asks me, looking in my eyes and it's hard to lie under his gaze.
I can't help but notice how his blue-green eyes are attractive and like his body too. Yeah, he is definitely hot. Stop! I can't think about that, i know that my end is near, that my death will coming soon. It stays to me perhaps, two or three days but nothing more.
" You are clever", i say finally. "But like i told you earlier, "je suis une femme pleine de mystères" ('I'm a woman full of mystery'). I should leave it's my motel, so good night Alec."
" Yeah, but this talk isn't over."
" Like you want. Oh and Alec..." i begin, opening my room.
" Yeah?"
" It was great to meet you", i finished with a smile, closing my door.
And now, i should sleep a few hours, I’m tired. I lie on the bed, thinking about all i have learned today. I watch my hand, she glows in a green light.
" I'll join you soon Alex", i whispered closing my eyes.
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end of the part 5
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And now, I should sleep a few hours, I’m tired. I lie on the bed, thinking about all I have learned today. I watch my hand, she glows in a green light.
" I'll join you soon Alex", I whispered closing my eyes.
Part 6
I wake up earlier in the morning. I decide to go to Logan's building.
" Hey! Nobody is here?" I ask when I walk to the apartment. It's very spacious here, I watch a painting when I heard a noise behind me.
" Hey Logan! I say with a smile. It's a Monet, doesn't it?"
He laughs.
" Yeah, it is, you have a good choose, all your family are thieves?"
" Max did?" I ask with a grin.
" Yeah, it was our first meet, she came to steal a golden statuette, Bastet."
" Oh, I see. No, I don't stole... ok, few times but I prefer rob shops in Utah."
I remember this day, it was to find an alien ship. I look at Logan, he is surprise.
" Close your mouth", I tease," it's a joke."
" All is possible with you."
" I took this for a congratulation."
I sit on a chair.
" How long Maxie and you are together?"
" What? No, it's not..."
" You both are in love with each other so what? Don't say that you won't ruin your friendship."
" We can't be together."
" Why?"
" Manticore gives to Max's body a virus to kill me."
" Oh, it's hard. I see why now after all it's because you are Eyes Only."
He nods. We speak together during a long time.
" Where is Max?"
" She works to Jam Pony Service. Alec too."
" Really? I think that I’ll go see them. Bye."
" Bye."
Jam Pony Service. Oh now! Please, not the jackass again. I don't know if he comes near me, if I can be able to control myself and don't punch him right in the face. I walk inside, a tall guy a bit asleep comes near me, a big smile on his face.
" Hey Beauty! I'm Sketchy! But call me Sketch, what are you doing here?"
" Hey I'm Liz and I’m looking for a friend."
I smile back.
" Perhaps I know her or him."
" Her." Even if I didn’t think it was possible his smile became bigger than before.
" Good, what's her name?"
" it's M..."
" Liz!"
I recognize the voice. A grin appears on my face.
" Oh, if it's not "Big Bad Boy". Hey Alec."
He comes near me, with his eternal grin.
" You are here to see Max."
" Yup."
" She isn't here for the moment. Want a little walk?"
He looks at Sketchy and gives him his bag.
" Sketch, a little bird told me that you should go to deliver a packet."
Sketch doesn't seem find this too enjoying but finally leaves after whispered to Alec.
" You owe me a service."
" Yeah."
After that, Alec looks at me grinning, we leaves the place.
" So what's the nickname?"
" You heard me perfectly, Big Manti Cora. Not very subtle."
" How do you know?"
" I have a little chat with Logan earlier."
" I see. How do you find Seattle?"
" I don't know. Not very fun."
" It's because you don't know the Crash. it's the bar where we go after works. Come with us tonight."
" Why not. It's just I don't know where it is."
" Don't worry. Took my phone number and after the works end I call you."
" Number phone, um, you go fast." I tease.
" Not with everyone", he answers grinning.
" Ok, give me your number."
He gives me his portable number and we come back to Jam Pony to meet Maxie who was arrived.
" Hey Liz! I should introduce you to Original Cindy."
I watch the black woman who smiles.
" Hey Boo! OC very proud to meet you. Maxie talked me of you."
" Me too. So you work all here?"
" Yeah? it's not too fun, our boss..."
" WHAT ARE YOU DOING ?! You should work !!! PACKET TO DELIVER!" yells Normal coming near us.
He looks at me.
" It's again you?"
All stare at me.
" Yeah, Mr BIP BIP BIP and me meet each other before."
" GO TO WORK!" he shouted to his employers.
" I think I’ll leave, I’m sad for you."
" Ok, to tonight, to the Crash."
" Yeah."
******
Part 7
I went to the Crash, it's a cool place. I put my black leather jacket, it was a gift of Alex. I should tell them what's happened to Alex but not tonight. Tonight, it's fun, no worries. I saw them, sitting to a table.
" Hey Boo!" calls Original Cindy.
I like her a lot, she reminds me Maria but not in the hyperactive mode. I walk fast to them and sit near OC.
" So what's up, guys?" i ask. "Great day?"
" If you want, but for OC it was a disaster, my mate doesn't show and i broke a nail."
" I understand."
" So what have you done today?" asks Logan.
" Oh, nothing really. I killed the time."
We drink our biers.
" You want made a pool?" says Alec.
" With you? Why not, but you'll lose."
" Really, i ask to see that."
I jump on my feet and we go to the pool. We begin to play, were watching by the others.
" Afraid to loose?" i questioned him with an evil grin.
" No, a little bet?"
" Ok with me. 100$ you loose."
" I win and you give ME 100 $."
" Ok, i accept."
" Twenty bucks on Liz", makes Logan and OC.
" Alec will win. twenty bucks on Alec's back", says Max. "Liz will loose. You heard me Alec, win this party !"
" No prob."
" You are braggart, you know. Now, play."
After Alec's turn who was good, only two punch failed it's the turn of Liz. She doesn't failed a punch and smiling, she took Alec's money.
" Boo, i love you more seconds in seconds."
" Thanks OC. So what do you say Alec?"
" Ok, you win."
" Glad to heard that."
We talk during a long time and we leave finally the bar.
" Do you want have a drive?"
I turn to Alec, he was on a motorcycle. I walk to him.
" Nice babe, i say. Personally i prefer Max's Ninja but it's ok. I hope you drive fast."
I jump on the motorcycle and put my arms around Alec's waist and wait with anticipation. We leaved the Crash, i put my head against his back, i smell the leather of his jacket. I like be like that, I’m in peace. I smile and whispered in his ear.
" Drive more fast, Grandma!"
Alec laugh and turn his head to look at me.
" Like you want", he answers with a grin.
I heard her laugh and feel her grip on my waist becomes stronger. Her long dark hair fly in the night, caressing my check.
" Afraid?" i ask.
" Never Manti Cora."
" Stop the nickname."
" Why? You have chosen it yourself."
" A long time ago."
" Only a year."
" You seem know lot of things about me."
" I have my own information."
" And what about you?"
" About me?"
" Yeah, you. You are here for a day and much, you know already everything about me, Max and the others of course. But you haven't speak of you. A thing more precisely like where were you. I know just of you, your forename Liz who is a pretty name."
" Nothing to say about me."
" Really?"
" I'm a shy girl, i don't tell my life to bad boys."
" You, shy?"
" Yeah... a little bit."
" Whatever you say. So Liz, go. What have you been doing in this free world?"
" I was a waitress."
" Really?"
" Yeah, in a little restaurant with an ugly uniform."
" I'll have want see that."
" Never in your life", i say with a grin. "You will tease me ever same after my death."
" It was so bad?"
I nod my head and he laugh. I like when he make this, suddenly i see my hands begin to glow.
" It's late, i should leave. I prefer walk."
He looks at me, a little surprised and curious i think.
" Are you sure?"
" Yeah. Thanks for the drive. Bye. Tomorrow."
I watch her disappear in the darkness. I'm feel a little lost by her behaviour, after all she had seem enjoy the drive. Why this suddenly coldness? I can't help but want to rejoin her but i know that she wasn't here and that i don't find her.
I come back quickly to my dorm when my seizures begin, a minute later and Alec will see me like that. But after all, i had a very fun night with Alec's help. Things aren't so bad actually. But i have only a day now.
***
End of the part 7
I’m really happy for all the FB and thanks to ask, I had nice vacations.
Previous
I come back quickly to my dorm when my seizures begin, a minute later and Alec will see me like that. But after all, I had a very fun night with Alec's help. Things aren't so bad actually. But I have only a day now.
Part 8
Today is my last day, I know that I’m dying, when Max healed me he has changed my metabolism. My genetic program didn't accepted this change, he rejects the alien's power that Max gave me during our connection and I’m dying because of this. Max hasn't save me, he has just pushed my death to later and I can do nothing about that.
I refuse to tell to Maxie what happens to me, she has been hurt enough already. She can't touch the man she loves, she doesn't need to know that one of her sisters is dying.
I walk to Logan's apartment, I'm surprised when I find all people here, Max explains me that she has taken her day and Alec too. We passed the day together and I enjoy it a lot. We went to the beach, walking on the sand talking animatly and after I finally meet Joshua, he's very gentle. Very fast, I became friend with him, he told me that he'll like a lot painting me and I said that I’ll be very happy if he'll do this. Max and Alec were gone to find food during I stay with Joshua.
" You know you are pretty like Max."
" Thanks Joshua."
" You have both dark hair and brown eyes."
" Yeah, I think that we have the same mother but I’m not sure of that."
" But you are different too, not like Maxie."
" What do you mean by this?" I ask, surprise. Can he smell the alien's
thing?
" I don't know, I just feel it."
" Oh, so please don't speak about this. OK?"
He nods his head happily.
" Joshua can keep a secret."
" What secret?" asks Alec to coming with Max who grins to Joshua.
" Pizza!!!!!"
" So Josh, tell me what secret?"
" None of your business, Big bad boy."
Luckily, Joshua didn't say a thing. Hours fly and the night comes.
" So Liz, you come with us to the Crash?" asks Alec.
" With you, because um... Logan and me have plans", explains Max.
" Not this night, I’m really tired but tomorrow night with pleasure," I say smiling.
Alec looks at me and nods.
" Ok, but if you change of mind, call me."
" No problem. Bye people."
I hug Joshua and tell Goodbye to Alec and Max, walking to my dorm after be stayed watching the stars in the night during several hours.
I just finished to close my door when my legs refuse to hold me anymore, I collapse brutally on the floor, shaking hardly against the wall. I feel the pain everywhere in my body, I breath heavily.
It becomes more hurtful of seconds in seconds. I'll join you soon Alex, Tinga, Eva, Jack and Ben. I know that I haven't time but I can't help, thinking to Alec. After Alex's death it's the first man who made me laugh, I liked him a lot. For his humour, his behaviour and his acts toward me. Finally maybe I won't dying, in reality I’ll like a lot see him again. Him and his flirtatious grin, no, definitely I won't died.
I creep slowly, trying to take my phone on the couch. .Just take it... I can do it. It's easy, i have just to take the phone but it seems so far of me and it's so hard to breath. I touch it nearly with my fingertips and finally after several try I arrived to grab my phone.
Hardly, I began to compose a number, my seyzures being worst. I feel the power in all my body hurting like hell, like I was burning inside. Please, just answer.
Alec was in the Crash, playing pool, not really enjoying this night, a person in his mind. Liz. It was the first girl since Rachel who have took his interest, his curiosity. She was mysterious, not like Max, with Max he can see her future actions but not with Liz. Of course, she was hot, long dark hair and browns eyes thoughtful, with a nice body too and he had ever this feeling she was hiding something. Her feelings, all like him about Rachel. She hadn't talk of this, not even with Max and he was very curious.
" Hey Alec!" yells Sketch.
" What's up Sketch?" he asks.
" Oh, nothing, just your phone man."
Alec took his phone.
" Alec. Who is here?"
A long silence to the end of the line. Alec raises his eyebrows. He heard a heavy breathing.
" Yeah, who is it?" he repeats, not knowing why his heart begins to go faster. " ... Alec..."
He recognizes immediately the weak voice.
" Liz? It's you? What's happened?" he asks, suddenly worried.
He heard her erratic breath. "... help..."
" Liz, where are you?"
He heard a noise and after, nothing a dead silence. He takes rapidly his dark jacket and runs to his motorcycle. Liz is in trouble and he didn't know where she was. He hopes that she was ever to her hotel. He drives faster and arrived finally to her room. He opens the door with a strong kick.
" Liz?" he calls in the dorm.
Suddenly he sees a prone form lying on the ground, Liz, her face against the floor, her body shaking violently, never he hadn't seen seizures worst like that. He returns her and see her skin, she was paled like the death and didn't breath.
" Liz, wake up! Do you heard me?"
But she doesn't answer, he watches a strange green glow comes of her hands and she becomes to shiver uncontrollably. He takes her in his arms, leaving the room, carrying her on his motorcycle and putting her against him, feeling her skin very cold. Don't die, please.
ALEC POV
I drive to Logan's apartment and push the door rapidly, making Max and Logan jumped on their chairs. Max seems angry.
" Alec! What are you doing..."
She cuts, seeing Liz in my arms.
" What's happened?" she asks me worried.
" I don't have a clue. I found her like this, shaking on the floor. She doesn't breath."
" How long?"
" I don't know, since I arrived 15 minutes but her heart beats."
" Put her in my room."
We enter in Logan's room and I put gently Liz on the bed.
" I call Marshall", says Logan.
He leaves the room, Max sits near Liz, she seems livid.
" She can't die, Alec. We have just see us again. I can't loose her."
She leaves before crying.
I sit on the bed, near of Liz, caressing her check.
" What have you Liz?" I whisper, holding her when she begins to shake again.
Suddenly I heard her breath again and sight with joy.
" Good. If you die who'll tease me?" I whisper in her ear.
***
End of the part.
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I sit on the bed, near of the unconscious form that is Liz, caressing gently her check. Even if she is sick I can’t help but find myself to watch her attentively. She seems peaceful, her long black hair lying against her white face making her appears like a fragile and beautiful doll.
" What have you Liz?" I whisper, holding her when she begins to shake again.
Suddenly I heard her breath again and sight with joy.
" Good. If you died who'll tease me?" I whisper in her ear.
Part 9
I wake up with a big big big headache, feeling the sun on my face. Slowly I open my eyes, totally clueless about where I am. I study the bedroom, decorated in modern art, the walls are in a color blue pastel. Made by a good and expensive taste, I noticed.
" Where I am?" I whisper.
At this moment I see Alec, asleep near me in a chair, wearing ever his leather jacket. Since how long is he here? He probably heard me because he woke up..
" Hey!” he says happily. “How is the Sleeping Beauty today ?"
" Like if I’ve fallen of a mountain but instead of that, I’m good I think." Weird.
" Why?" he asks.
" Why what?" I respond, raising an eyebrow.
" Weird."
" Oh, I said that loud." I state calmly. Bad move, look what the distraction makes you do, Parker. Zack will be not pleased at all. Right, I thought bitterly, he doesn’t remember you, certainly feeding the cows in his farm at this hour. Sarcastic remarks are all I have now.
The voice of Alec makes me return to the reality.
" Yeah, you did. So explain yourself."
" Um... I’m not feeling very good suddenly."
" Without me Parker, spill out."
He takes my wrist but I push him away, suspicious covering my features.
" What did you say?" I ask in an icy tone.
" Parker." He replies, studying me and I know he saw through my mask earlier.
" How do you know my name?! I never said it." I watch him carefully, on my guards.
" I don't know... I just said it. I really don't know why. But after all it was a strange night."
" Not really", I answer. The truth is better than the lie.
" What do you mean? Have you had already these seizures before this night?" he asks me, suddenly serious.
" In sort of way."
" What didn't you talk about this with us?!" he asks, angry?
" And why I’ll make this. You can do nothing about it."
" And we were supposed to let this happen ? Are you ill Liz?"
" Nothing like that, I just already knew that you can't do anything when it's the end", I respond thinking about Alex.
“ In fact I appreciate your concern and I don’t mean to be rude but why do you care? You barely know me.”
He looks at me, stunned at my remark maybe because he knows that there is nothing sarcastic in it. Finally he prefers avoid my question and changes of subject.
" You'll die?"
" ... I should have died yesterday. I don't know why but it's not happened."
" Thanks to the Lady."
I turn my head and look at him silently.
" Thanks for saving my life."
" I'll make this again if I should."
" What's happened last night after I fainted?" I question.
" I found you and took you to Logan’s, Max was very worried and left the room before beginning to cry. She was really frightened at the idea to lose you."
" Maxie was always the sentimental one.” I remember. A thought came to me. “You stayed with me?"
" It was nothing, I have just here holding your hand, it's not a big deal."
I put my head against the wall. I certainly will regret that.
" Alec... When you touched me, had you see flashes?"
He looks at me, surprise.
" Yeah, you’re right. But how do you know?"
" It's the explanation about your sudden knowledge about my name."
" Explain me."
" It's a very long story."
" We have all the time." He tells me with a smirk, leaning in his chair, crossing his long legs.
***
Part 10
Time for the truth Liz, now.
" Ok, I say, can you call Max and Logan, please?"
" Sure."
Few minutes later, Max and Logan enter in the room, Max hugs me tightly. Joy sparkling in her brown eyes. I wish I was still like her, having ever this feeling of hope but it became ash at Alex’s death.
" I was so worried about you Liz, do never this again." she warns me, I nod.
" I need to tell you something, it's a long story so don't interrupt me."
They sit on the chairs and listen me. All the room is silent, I take a deep breath and begin my story.
" Zack told us to separate when we left Manticore, but you know me Max... I’m stubborn, I didn't listen him. During the escape, Alex was with me and we left together, ignoring Zack's orders. We were twins, we couldn't separate, we ran during a long time and finally a night, we arrived in New Mexico. We were on the road when suddenly a car came, in the beginning we were afraid that it was Manticore so Alex hid himself behind the trees but it wasn't. I didn't left, I was too exhausted.
In the car were Jeffrey and Nancy Parker, they seemed worried about me but not frightened. Nancy talked to me softly, asking for my name, I said it was Liz. They were wondering where were my parents, I didn’t understand the word so I told them I didn’t have one. During few minutes, we talked and I decided to follow them, it will make a safe cover. I climbed in the car and look at Alex, pleading him to show up but he didn’t. The Parker adopted me and like they moved of Los Angeles to Roswell, nobody knows that I wasn't really their child. I remember the day and the night after that, I wanted leave because Alex wasn't here, I was worried about him. Not knowing if Manticore could have find him since our separation. Suddenly I heard a noise to my window, it was him. He comforted me, telling me he was adopted by the Whitman, I was so happy, we were safe and together. It was the best moment of my life after we escaped of Manticore. I only hoped that my other brothers and sisters were safe too.
Years left fast and when we were 15, Zack found us, telling us we should move but we didn't, we had to Roswell a family, we were too stubborn to listen him. I was too stubborn, I convinced Alex to make a deal with Zack and he listens me. We stayed in Roswell, giving Zack the promise to leave after having passed High School.
A year later I was working to the Crash Down, my parent's restaurant. Two men began to fight, one had a gun and I was shot. I didn't move aware that if I did, it was the exposure, I couldn’t risk our cover. I fell on the floor, feeling my blood on my stomach, dying, suddenly a boy walks to me, he puts his hand my wound and saved me. This guy was Max Evans, my first love, but Max was different."
" It can't be possible." cuts Logan, not believing these non scientific facts.
" Max was an alien, of the crash of 47. Him, his sister Isabel, and his friend Michael were in pods, only woke up several years later and were of our age. Max healed me and I can have flashes now, it's a connection with people, I can see their memories, I have now alien's powers and the green glow it's an alien thing. This energy is very strong and I thought that I’ll die yesterday. I don't know how explain it but it's not happened... Maybe because I have had a connection with Alec and used a few part of this energy, I really don't know."
" Why did you say nothing about it ?!" yells Max, now angry, in fact the adjective furious sweats her better.
" And what will you have done?" I shot back. " Nothing, Max. But let me continue my story." Alec nods and the words begin to leave my mouth urgently.
" So after have learned the existence of aliens, I kept their secret, but I told it to Maria, a friend of mine, she's overreacted like ever. I should tell someone and I wouldn't say that to Alex because I wouldn't he worries about me or worst listens Zack and decides to leave. I was happy in Roswell, I was Liz Parker, the little daughter loved by all parents, in top of her classes, shy. Never considered like a soldier, worst a killer. I was so selfish..."
I feel water in my eyes but don't let it fall, focusing myself on the wall, aware of the worried glance of Maxie.
" I helped Max and the others, not telling Alex, it was the first time I was hiding something from my bro, he was really hurt by this... Finally after being arrested by the Sheriff Valenti, Alex and me, I told him the secret. In the beginning he didn't believed me, not wanting think that his sister was dying and too that he hadn't protect me. When he believed me, he was very angry but he forgave me. Both, we helped Max and the others, the FBI was hunting them."
I laugh sadly and bitterly, the memories flashing in my mind with sound and colors.
" Max, Maria, Michael and Isabel, never suspected that we were different, like a normal teenager could crack FBI system computer or even, jump of a bridge of 10 meters." I breath hardly, remembering this hurt much more I expected. And confide to them what I have done, make me sick.
" But during this time, others aliens came in the town, Tess Harding and Nacedo. Nacedo was the protector of the Four Royals, Max, Isabel, Michael and Tess. She was the ex wife of Max in another life. But it's not really important, I didn't like her, she stole me Max, the only guy who was interested by me, who didn't seen me like a monster... Alex was in Sweden, to make a travel, he always liked travel, his dream was to make the round of the world of course, not going in the Wyoming. I was very happy for him and in another side, I was happy because he stayed far of Isabel, he had a big crush on her and she had reject him plenty of times that I had really wanted punch her right in the face to one, hurt my brother but two, take him away from me. "
" After two months, Alex came back to Roswell. He had changed, he had a strange behavior but he was ignoring Isabel too so I thought it was a part of his plan to conquer the Isabel Evans's heart. After the prom, I was going with Max and him with Isabel who was really in love with him, I think she was during a long time but didn't want admit it. Max and me weren't really together but I had always feelings for him and him for me too, I danced a little with Maria who was single but Michael showed up so I decided to search Max to dance with him and found him kissing Tess. I ran away and finally passed the night talking with Sean, Maria's cousin."
I smile sadly, remembering Alex in his last days. My assistance fading, I didn’t realized they were here anymore, too focused on telling the events.
" After that, Alex was so happy, he was with Isabel and I had agreed with that. Several nights later, he talked seriously with me, he wanted say to Isabel our secret. The fact to be a transgenic soldier and everything, explaining me that if I won't tell them about myself it was ok but he want tell the truth about him to Isabel. At this moment I clearly understand that he loves her. I agreed with him and he was smiling to him, so happy and in peace with himself... The night after our talk, the Sheriff Valenti went to the Crash Down and announces us that... Alex was dead."
I wrap my arms around me, closing my eyes, seeing again this moment. I thought my world had collapsed and I wasn’t able to breath or think clearly when Valenti told us.
" A car accident”, I whisper slowly, a sad smile appearing on my lips, “an X5 dying in a car accident... We go to the morgue, Alex's body was lying in the van, Max tried to heal him but it was too late, he couldn't bring him back to life. Finally they left, I said that I prefer walk but I fooled them, I ran to the van and entered, I opened the bag where was Alex, never I was sick seeing blood but this time, I was feeling myself so nauseous, I looked at him, searching any signs that it was Manticore or aliens who killed him... I stayed in the car and after I put my knife and I cut his neck to take away his barcode. I wouldn't put an empty coffin in the earth."
I open my eyes and jump on my feet, leaving the bed, having the strong need to move. Not being able to bear the stares anymore; I look at the window. My tone is totally emotionless, like if I’m just talking about the weather but soon my voice betrayed my emotions .
" After the police concluded at a suicide, in first a car accident and now a suicide. And for what motivations? Alex was happy and he wanted to tell the truth to Isabel, his identity, confide her, trust her his secret, our secret. I didn’t bought this, I made research and all the people I thought who were my friends turned their backs to me, rejected me. Alone, I found out that Alex was killed by an alien, all this bullshit made by a fucking alien! It was my fault, if I hadn't told Alex the truth, he will be alive now. The fucking killer was Tess, this blonde bitch, when I learned I wanted ripped her throat, kill her, torture her but she won and left this earth with an alien ship and Max's baby too. Yeah, he fucked her in my back, but it's not really important, the only thing I knew was I was dying and Alex was killed... I should contact Zack to explain the situation but he wasn't replying to my call and I hadn't a lot of time so I went to Seattle to find him. End of story."
" Liz..."
I stop her, raising my hand to stop her to touch me.
" No Max, it's ok, I’m fine. I could handle that. I always can."
I look at them, they don't speak. Maybe they blame me, like I do with myself.
" I’m going for a walk." I inform them.
" Are you sure?" asks Max concerned.
" Yeah. Don't worry."
She hugs me tightly.
" Ever I will Liz. You’re coming back, right?" she questions.
" Of course, I just need to be alone for a while." I explain, leaving the apartment without looking back.
ALEC POV
I look at her during she spoke, I see the pain in her eyes she wants so terribly hide. I understand her completely, she blames herself, I know that, like me with Rachel. But she can't hold that alone, I wish she let me help her. But for the moment, she needs to be alone and I respect her decision.
***********
End of the part. I rewrite it, hope you like it.
Remember FB= New Part.
I'm sitting on the Tower, Maxie chose it because it looks like our "High Place" in Manticore. I watch the city under me, the wind running in my hair but I don’t care it’s not like I could catch a cold. I resumed the facts of the day, I told them the truth, about my past, Alex's death but I didn't told them all this bullshit was only my fault. Alex died by my selfish behavior, it would have been better if Max didn't saved me, if I was dead Alex will be ever alive.
Sad, hurt but alive.
Twin shouldn’t be able to survive if one died. The other should follow.
Creepy thoughts and morbid too.
I nearly died but at the end, I chickened out, I called Alec and he saved me. But have I done the good choice? I decided to live thinking at a man I barely know, and Alex in all that? It’s like I… I don’t know in fact, all is messed up in my head. I’m feeling so guilty, nobody can understand.
A light noise attracts my attention but I don't turn when Alec sits near me, I thank him silently to stay quiet because I can't deal with him now. I must be strong, not show my weakness. I passed too much time to built this wall between people and me to let it fall now.
" I know you will be here." he says finally.
" I came here to be alone. Leave." I answer sharply.
" No. I know how you feel."
I don't reply, he takes gently my wrist and surprisingly I let him.
" Look at me Liz."
After few minutes my eyes meet his.
" I'm nearly sure during our connection you’ve seen my memories, right?"
I nod.
" You saw her?" he asks me.
"... Yes." I whisper.
" It was Rachel, she was the daughter of the man I must kill. I fell in love and told her the truth, she was angry with me and saved her father but doing that, she died."
" I saw you near of her bed." I remember.
" Do you felt my emotions too?"
" ... yes."
" Don't try to act like everything is fine, I know it's not the truth. "
" I missed your change in a psychoanalyst." I try to joke, wanting end this conversation. I don’t have the need to spill my guts to a stranger. I don’t know Alec, I saw flashes of his pas but it’s all.
" Don't try to hide. Acting like if everything was ok and easy to handle instead of the fact that you are lost, not knowing what to do. I know that you hasn’t said how you really feel. Talk to me Liz, stop reject people who want help you."
I look at him and a sarcastic smile appears on my lips. I let out a bitter laughter, shaking my head in disbelief.
" Like it was so easy, you want that I tell you how I am? Like a lost little girl ? Want play the gentle shoulder on which I could cry? Sorry to disappoint you but I’m not a little girl, I was never like this. I’m only a soldier, soldier hasn’t feelings or emotions. I'm perfectly fine." I answer coldly.
He takes suddenly my arm forcing me to look at him, his face is drawn by strong emotions, anger and desesperation. An emotion I hate is in his eyes. Pity. Pity for me and I hate this so much. I don’t need his fucking pity. I don’t need him. I don’t need everyone.
" Stop this!" he yells at me. " Stop blaming yourself, don't act like you didn't care, I’m sure you’re lying. You’re feeling guilty, you’re blaming yourself for Alex's death. You have feelings, Liz, because instead you are a soldier you are human too."
" You don't understand!!!" I scream angrily, pushing his hand away of my arm.
" So explain me."
" It's only my fault if he died, I was too selfish to leave Roswell, it's me who put him with the aliens. Yes, I blame myself, I wish that I have died the day when I was shot. Alec, it's like I killed him of my own hands." I feel water in my eyes and bit my lips, feeling the blood in my mouth. My teeth cutting my flesh and I feel nothing, no pain, a fainted burn.
" I killed him..." I whisper again, suddenly he hugs me tightly and I let fall my wall for the first time since Alex's death and begin to cry against his chest. " It's... only my... fault." I confide between my sobs.
" Shh, no you are wrong, you could do nothing." He whisper in my ear.
" I killed my twin... I killed my twin." I repeat out the mantra I listened during all these months. Not avoiding the truth this time.
" No. Liz. Liz. Look at me." he pleads.
I look at him, my tears rolling on my cheeks, he whipped them away with his hand.
" It wasn't your fault, ok? You couldn't know that girl... Tess mindwarped him. You couldn do nothing, stop blaming yourself. You heard me, you hadn't killed him, it was Tess."
" I let her did this. I hate me so much for that..." I finish slowly.
" It's for this reason you didn’t told us your problems with alien's thing." It was more a conclusion than a question.
" If I have died, I’ll have join him."
" I'm sure that Alex wouldn’t you ending your life for a fault that you hadn't commit."
" Nobody can know the answer." I reply sadly, tearing my gaze away from him, wanting to recover my calm.
" You wanted die so why did you call me?" he asks.
I watch him, he was serious, not joking.
" I don't know..." I answer. " Maybe... it was because you made me laugh, letting myself feeling... good… again." I try to smile but failed miserably. " I know it's sound stupid."
" No. I'm really glad to make you feel this." he smiles softly, not a grin a real smile and I smile back.
" I think that the others are beginning to worry about us, we should come back."
Alec nods, I begin to jump on my feet.
" Liz."
" What?"
" You know if you want talk, you can, ok?"
" I'll think about this." I reply after a little silence.
" Good. Ok, go to Logan's apartment or Love's Maxie and Logan house."
I smile and we leave "our High Place".
Part 12
Two month left since I talked with Alec. I begin to control my alien's power, I found out that I have just to use my aliens abilities when the power begins to be too strong. Oh and by the way, I healed Maxie of her virus with my little mojo alien, since the beginning I wanted do this because she really loves Logan.
FLASH BACK
Logan's house.
Max was sleeping on the couch after a rough day to Jam Pony, Alec and Logan were in the kitchen, discussing, yeah, who had thought that they'll become best friends? I walk near Maxie and look at her, she sleeps peacefully, poor dear, I know exactly how she feels.
Can't touch the man who you love there isn't a worst torture, like MY Max and me, but I should confide that the pain that I had is less big than her. In fact, I begin to think that I wasn't in love with him after his betrayal with Tess. I just felt safe, but not in real love, not after that.
I put my hand slowly on her stomach, I can touch her on the forehead too but what if I let an silver handprint on her head? Hard to hide this. I take few breath, my hand begins to glow, I feel the virus leaves her body but in the same time I begin to feel pain because I was healing her. My knees are weak and I fall on the floor but don't push my hand of her stomach. I'm sweating but I don't care, I should continue.
" Liz" begins Alec walking to the living room. " What was the noise... Liz!"
I heard Logan follow him. I feel Alec grabbing my arm.
" No Alec! It's ok, I can help her. Let me do this."
He looks at me, worried, I smile and hold his hand in my left hand. Max woke up but I tell her to don't move.
" Just a minute... I have nearly finished..." I say, feeling myself dizzy.
After ten minutes, I stop and put the back of my head against Alec's chest. He smells really good.
" Thanks." he answers with a grin.
Ooops, I said that loud! I smile back like he puts a lock of my hair behind my ear.
" What have you done, Liz?" questions Maxie.
" I healed you... like this you can touch Logan. The virus is gone. Touch him."
She seems afraid to do this but like she trusts me. She puts her hand on his check and waits during several minutes, holding her breath. Nothing happened so she hugs him happily and cry. They kissed and turn their heads to me, I’m ever sitting on my butt on the floor.
" Liz! Thanks, I can't told you how we are grateful..."
" It's nothing Logan, I’m glad to see you happy."
I turn to Alec and try to stead up but lamentably failed.
" But I’m little tired, I’m dizzy. Alec... Can you help me?"
" No problem. And you two, go find a room." he jokes.
" Are you sure, you are ok, Liz?" asks Max, worried.
I nod my head.
" Yeah, sure, go to an expensive restaurant and enjoy your night for me, ok?"
" Um... but you..." begins Max.
" I stay with Liz." tells Alec. " So you two can leave."
They finally leave and I’m ever on the floor.
" You know, earlier you sounded like a baby sitter." I told him. " I'm not a child. It's you who act like them."
" You know if you are evil like that, I let you on the floor." he warns.
" Hey! It's not fair!"
He laugh and I give him my hand but instead to take it, he hold me by the waist and hold me in his arms walking to the bedroom. I scream, telling him to put me down but enjoying this moment in same time.
" So why did you acted like a knight in shining armor?" I ask him during he puts me on the bed. He sits near me and grin.
" I don't know earlier I was only your baby sitter."
" Stop joking, Alec."
" I care about you, it's all." he confides simply. " You are tired, I let you sleep."
He begins to move but I grab his wrist.
" Can you stay with me?" I ask with a little hope.
" Sure." He lies near me and I put my head against his chest, feeling myself in peace, his hand caressing softly my hair.
I yawned, I’m really tired.
" You know Alec, I like when you become my knight in shining armor. Thanks for all you have done."
It’s the first time I thanked him I realize. I turn toward him finding his blue green eyes watching me, a slow grin appears on his lips.
" Don't thank me, it's normal. Well, I should confide that I love a lot be your... baby sitter."
I laugh, hitting playfully on the arm and kiss him briefly on the check.
" Good night Alec."
" Good night, Liz."
END OF FLASH
I smile, remembering this moment. I'm not in love with Max Evans anymore but with someone else.
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I'm Michael Guerin, teenager of 18 years old and I’m an alien. I assure you, you’re not dreaming. I’m here in Roswell with two of my friends who are like me Max and Isabel Evans, I have a girlfriend, Maria, I don't know if she is my girlfriend after all, we never have a real "date". But for the moment, it's cool between us, she stopped to tell me I’m not like Max, the romantic guy. Perhaps he's romantic but he can't touch Liz so incapable to have a relationship and he had "slept" with Tess alias "Blonde Gerbil" for Liz, oh, I’m not fair here. But why will I be worried to be fair?
I should admit I missed Liz but I’m not repeating that to everyone like Maria does. At this moment she's calling Liz to her school to have a "girl talk". I can't help to smile thinking to the note of portable that Amy will have, I’ll like a lot see Deluca's confrontation.
Ha, yes, I was saying I miss Liz. Recently we became really closed friends, I wish we could make this without Alex's death. Since the beginning I had doubt, Alex killing himself? No, he was too strong to do that, Alex was really a good person. I often wished to have been able to save him, after all, I’m their protector, I failed.
Alex was understanding, intelligent and calm but sometimes he could be very angry, nearly frightening. I remember when he came to talk about Maria, it was for the Courtney's thing, when she thought I was watching Courtney in a too "really closed way". He punched me right in the face and I fell on the floor, I was totally stunned and the pain was enormous in my check, Hank had beat me before but when Alex did this, it was a thousand much worse. After he left, telling that his fist hurt like hell. Seriously, I thought he was playing when he did his little speech on his fist. Alex was ever shy, not this word, discreet, he was a genius too, crack the FBI files not everyone could have done that.
His death broke the group, aliens versus humans, Maria decided to stay with me, she was weak and couldn't handle that. Since that Liz was very cold, distant, she began to search reasons about Alex's death, not believing it was an accident. I think it's Liz who was hurt much deeper than anyone, even more than Maria. She never admitted she wasn't too strong to handle that, many times I wanted comfort her, she had a sort of connection with Alex, they were always seeing each other, but in the friendly way. And after that she told us that it wasn't an accident, that she was sure it was a murder, Max turned mad. I never saw him like this, I had always envied him but after what he did to Liz, not anymore. He bring her back into life but didn't give her the right to choose, he bring her in a life which wasn't safe, I never wanted this for her, it was the reason why I tried to stop Max but he didn't listen me.
And he rejected her, he turned his back to her, he was mad to her and it's for that he had to fuck this blonde gerbil! Just to hurt her again, I was neutral, in fact not really just not wanting have the Maxwell's anger on me. I believed Liz, when she tried to find proofs to Las Cruces. I didn’t stop her but when she found a really big thing I told her to stop, but she didn't listened me, she went to this supposed "Leana's" house. I followed her with Maria, hearing Maria's scream, i ran to see Liz behind a bomb, alien's bomb. I have raised my hand and sent it out of the house before it exploded. But during this I am sure Liz began to move strangely, like her movements were so fast that I couldn't see them. I look in her eyes and saw a thing which surprise and frighten me in the same time. There were fear and anger in her brown eyes, during a second i bet Liz didn't want me saving her life.
After we learned it was Tess who created this bullshit, I was so angry against myself, I failed, I trusted her, she left the earth with Max's son. I was feeling guilty towards Liz and turn to her, she was watching the ship fly away, her face was..., i have never seen her like that before, she looks at the ship with cold hatred and I noticed her fists turning white. I bet if she had Tess under her thumb, she could kill her with her own hands. She remembered me this day, when Alex confronted me about Maria. It was not Liz Parker, it was an other person. Like Alex during our little "talk".
During this I felt there was a strange thing between them, maybe the reason why Liz was so affected by Alex's death. And I’ll become suspicious and Liz began to be hurt by Max’s touch so she left us to go in the Vermont. Maybe it was the good decision, i only hope she is happy.
" Michael!" yells Maria, running at me.
" What again?" I ask, not really in good mood.
" I... Liz..." she begins.
" Explain yourself. Something wrong?" I question her, suddenly worried. She only nods.
" Yeah. I called Liz's school and she wasn't here."
" It's just that? Maybe she makes a travel." I try to reason calmly.
" No Michael. It's not so simple."
" So what Maria, spill out!" I answer angry.
" Liz never went in this school."
END OF THE PART
Hope you like it. Though I'm a little sad to see that nearly nobody reviewed the latest part of Twin's sisters.
