breaking the habit (AU, M/L, Liz POV) ~{COMPLETE}~

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breaking the habit (AU, M/L, Liz POV) ~{COMPLETE}~

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Title: breaking the habit
Disclaimer: I own nothing at all
Summary:
Total AU, Liz POV,no aliens max/liz. Please just read and judge me on my terrible first attempt on writing fanfic. I only write poems so be gentle be brutal just be honest thanks ChanniBella


PROLOGUE

I have this weird fantasy of moving to a big city and just getting lost in the crowd. There are hundreds of people around me some who bump into me some who say there sorry; others to busy to notice and some that just don’t care.
I want to get lost in a crowd hearing beeping of car horns people yelling the streets alive with noise as no one notices the small girl enjoying the chaos and embracing it.
Living in Roswell the nights are quiet and everyone knows who you are and where you live. I want the unknown I want the seduction of being a stranger having mystery. But I’m Liz Parker small town girl who hates being alone. So this is why my fantasy is weird I fear being left behind being alone! So why do I dream of being alone of being invisible?


"Liz your shift started 10 minutes ago”
“Alright dad be right there”

Picking up my journal and placing it in the back of my closet where my inner most thoughts and desires are kept. A journal and a photo of a tall beautiful woman with long light brown hair and dark eyes just like mine, I have her eyes
LIZ NOW”
“Ok I’m coming”

Slipping on my antenna headband whilst shoving on my white sneakers I groan thinking a full 12 hour day with nagging customers and my dad already angry at me just great. I hate my life

Its not all bad Maria Deluca is here she just moved here from LA. She is dating my best friend Michael Gurrien and we all work together a lot so we kind of just hang out. She’s a riot and her and Michael together is like watching a soap opera. They constantly fight and are total opposites; I think that’s why they work.

Michael and I meet when we were 10 he is like a brother to me. I guess you can say we bonded over bruises. Michael’s step dad hit him on a regular basis and my dad well he just had a hard time when mum left. It was never major just a few shoves a lil slap… but that’s over now. He has a girlfriend and business is good he never drinks and never touches me. He doesn’t get close enough.
Michael wasn’t so lucky he’s an emancipated teen now and works here at the crash. We never talk about it but we have this bond this friendship created from something so ugly it’s really amazing. I love Michael he is my life my family.
~


ok how much did it suck? i already have a new chapter but it can stay in my pc if im just embarising myself and boring others.... the choice is yours ChanniBella xoxox
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thankyou guys for being so sweet!!! so um hi to everyone for the feeback and yes i borrowed the title from the linkin park track-love them. Max should show up soon, but when he does it will be all M/L intensity!!! thankyou thankyou please keep reading and please keep being honest
i love you guys ChanniBella


Title: breaking the habit
Disclaimer: I own nothing at all
Summary:
Total AU, Liz POV,no aliens max/liz. Please just read and judge me on my terrible first attempt on writing fanfic. I only write poems so be gentle be brutal just be honest thanks ChanniBella



PART 1
“Girl why do I put up with him”
“What did he do know Maria”

The breakfast crowd has just left all there disgusting half eaten mush on the floor table! Oh god some sort of weird pink substance on the wall yuck- what is that? I don’t want to know!
Plus Michael and Maria are fighting it must be a weekday.

My best friend is coming down I cant wait to see my girlfriend oh and all my other friends too- its been so long, and hairball over there cant come over for ‘the welcome to roswell’ dinner I have prepared”

See days of our lives or in there case the bad and the beautiful! He he

Its cant come hockey game! I mean what is that hello there is such thing as sacrifice in a relationship! God knows I have sacrificed a lot of my life for greasy over there

“HEY”
“Well Michael you are greasy”

They fight like an old married couple
“You would be to if you work the grill all day”
It’s always been me and Michael but Maria fits I like her and she makes Michael happy
“Yeah what’s your excuse for the other times, I swear your grooming scares me do you even know what that word is augh I give up!!!
Welcome to the crashdown can I help you”


I have never seen customers scared of our greeting but the way Maria delivered that line I’m surprised they didn’t leave.
This bickering Maria’s constant nagging and Michael’s thoughtlessness to it all works it sounds ridiculous but I can see that little shine in Michael’s eyes now.

You have to understand Michael’s an intimidating guy but not to Maria. Everyone says it’s the LA In her I disagree there is no one like her and no one better for Michael. His happiness means everything to me he deserves so much.
Maria doesn’t know about us who we were! I meet her on her first day at WRH she sat next to me. This beautiful girl in a yellow dress with a matching headband weaved in her long golden curls. I told her by talking to me she would be committing social suicide. She just kept talking about her self and how her mother moved down here for some guy and all the exciting things about LA. Then she meets Michael that was well eventful…


Let’s just say words where exchanged by lunch they were making out in an empty classroom. It’s been like that ever since fighting and then the making up!!!

She misses all her friends from LA that’s why she is so excited and anxious, Maria has a big group of friends and some are making it down for the summer.
She has so many friends I wonder what that’s like? It’s always been Michael and me against the world! The freaks the loners the no body’s and I’m happy with that because it’s me and my best friend.

Walking into the backroom to get more Tabasco sauce I see them making up. I can’t help but stare I’m always entranced to see them when they think no one is watching. I should feel weird watching them practically devour each other, but I can’t help the wistful sigh that escapes my mouth or the agonizing thought that Michael will leave me for her.

No time to relish in those unhealthy thoughts cause the annoying little bell rings informing us all that there are customers. It brakes up the tongue-tangled duo but it takes me a shove from Michael to get back into gear. Going into the back I notice another make out session but this one is disgusting and I don’t stare- cause who wants to see there dad kissing =yuck.
Elizabeth”
I hate it when he calls me that
“You know that Jenny and I have plans to leave for the cruise this weekend”
Please don’t be canceling
We have decided to go a little early

As in tonight”
“But it’s only Tuesday?”
“Elizabeth don’t talk back to me! I am quiet aware of the date all I need from you is an ok for looking out for the place! Until Mr. Ferguson comes down for the summer and runs the place that is if you can handle the responsibility?”
“Sure dad have fun guys the lunch rush is about to start so…”


Ok a little unexpected but not a surprise I mean they always are away. Mr. Ferguson owns a quarter of the company; he is an older man and likes to spend the summer here working with his wife.They own a camper van and travel the US but always come back for here to run the crash so we can go on vacation ourselves, we never have.

Walking to the front I start too wipe down the tables ready for lunch Maria and Michael are arguing again about what? I have no idea I have no time thinking of all the plans I have to make around school and shifts then that annoying little bell chimes ahh its lunch time whopdy fricken doo.
~




ok just a lil nervous still- i have insomnia so its all working for me so what do you think??????
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chapter 3

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Title: breaking the habit
Disclaimer: I own nothing at all
Summary:
Total AU, Liz POV,no aliens max/liz. Please just read and judge me on my terrible first attempt on writing fanfic. I only write poems so be gentle be brutal just be honest thanks ChanniBella




CHAPTER 3
Is love supposed to hurt? I’m not sure what love is? I’m not sure I will ever find out! Love is pain, I love my mum and she left me, I love my dad and he hurt me. I love Michael I know he would never hurt me intentionally but he is leaving me everyday. I know I’m being selfish and I’m happy he has someone. I just can’t help but resent Maria because slowly piece by piece she is taking him away. I hate being a selfish bitch!

Throwing my journal on the ground in pitiful anger and confusion, I hate feeling like this. Maria’s a good person and Michael is not my blood but I would give him every drop of mine. So why do I feel like this?
Standing up and walking to the mirror I look at myself really look at who is staring back at me.
All I see is a plain dark hair and boring brown-eyed girl in a dirty waitress uniform. I’m praying that in 10 years I don’t look in the mirror and still see what I’m seeing now.
Popping the buttons on my dress I head for the shower. Hoping that it will cleanse my body and soul just let the water wash away the confusion.

BBBBBBBBEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
What the fricken hell Jesus owww what the… grrrr ouch who put that there? Oh god stop fricking beeping where the hell is the button who made this piece of junk anyway grrr son of a…..

Ahhh the battle of the stupid fricken loud piece of crap alarm clock and me!!! I’m sorry to say that no one won except I’m in love with the wall for allowing me to smash the alarm clock against it.
I’m not a morning person at all. No one is home so obviously dad and Jenny left without saying goodbye. Ohh well 12 weeks and no dad ok my morning just got a hell of a lot better. Time for eating on the couch and control over the remote!!!

Damn that seductive sponge bob, my love for Mr Square pants has made me late for school again! Just in time for 2nd period- English!
Classes pass pretty quickly if you daydream about your favorite TV shows. I spent most of the morning in Buffy land where spike and Xander confessed there true feelings for each other it gets kinda x rated from there.

So its lunch with MM we always sit under this huge tree away from everyone else. I bring out my galaxy sub Maria has a chicken salad and Michael has some yummy pasta dish he cooked himself! It’s all placed in the middle and we just veg out on whatever we want.

So I heard she had him in the eraser room not 5 minutes after she broke up with Tommy!! I mean what a tramp”
Michael and I just roll our eyes and keep eating. Maria likes to know all and tell all.
Ohhh Liz buffy marathon 3 days to slay this weekend you in?”
“Sure we can do it at my place if you like dad has gone away”
“Girl I’m sooo there kickass show no parental units and girl bonding whoo hoo”
“Girl bonding”
“Eat ya sandwich dirty boy Liz and I are just having a girls weekend”
Maria tells Michael while not taking her eyes of me. She looks so excited and I can’t help but get excited too.


The rest of the day was a blur. Coming home and going to work was automatic. I was on auto pilot all the way to bed and when I got up in the morning. I have these days where I just fly through everything where I don’t care that I haven’t done my homework or that there is a pile of dirty laundry-I just have to get through the day.
It’s not common it’s just like a bad mood or something it passes.

Maria rings and it gets me out of my funk, there just like that suddenly I’m talking snacks for a girl night in and picking up my dirty clothes!!! It’s Thursday night and Maria is panicking about seeing her friends next week…

“Will they think I have changed? I mean I haven’t really I just adjusted to living in a small town and well I have a boyfriend now not the Michael will impress them”
“Maria ok stop breath from what you told me about your friends they love you no matter what”
“But……..”
“But nothing you are still the same girl Maria and if they cant except who you are they aren’t true friends”
“Ok thank you girl you are such a honey”
“Thanks I think”
“Liz I hope you don’t mind me calling just wanted to organize this weekend and well I like talking to you cause your smart I mean your in practically every A.P class and well I really like you and I want us to be friends I know we talk and bitch about Michael but I want us to be buds”

“Maria Maria ok”
“Ok? Good ok look no”
“No?”
“I want us to be friends Liz not just because we work together and not because your Michaels best friend I want to be your friend cause your sweet and you listen to me whine and tell me how it is- the truth and I respect that, I respect you Liz and I……”

“I Liz parker want to be your friend Maria Deluca”
“Really”
“Really, because you make me smile you have guts determination and I respect your don’t take crap from anybody attitude”
“Oh chica”
“It’s hard for me to be this open I’m not good at expressing how I feel but you make it easier”
That’s it first thing tomorrow morning I’m giving you the biggest hug good night girlfriend I got to go before I cry”
“Sweet dreams Maria”
I

’m not sure what to make of this? I know my resentment for her has vanished and she is my friend . I wonder how Michael will take it. All I can say is I’m out of my funk and looking forward to that hug tomorrow.


well??? ok did it suck i love honesty and crave genuine honest feedback. and to all that are reading i love you i love you i love you
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Title: breaking the habit
Disclaimer: I own nothing at all
Summary:
Total AU, Liz POV,no aliens max/liz. Please just read and judge me on my terrible first attempt on writing fanfic. I only write poems so be gentle be brutal just be honest thanks ChanniBella

Chapter 4

My morning was as grumpy as usual but changed when my know my official new friend squeezed the hell out of me in the quad and freaked the hell out of Michael!!!
But it’s now dinner and I have a strawberry milkshake all the way down the back of my dress staining my shoes. A little girl had fun throwing the contents of her mothers salad on me so I have onion in my hair- I have syrup on the front of my dress and its so hot and busy and understaffed I hate all people who eat!!!! Where the hell is Maria?

The crowd has left a hell of a lot of a mess oh those fu….
Dingle dingle im going to smash that bell. Getting some sort of composure I look to the door only to see him. The most beautiful man I have ever seen. Closing my mouth and trying not to stare I straighten my uniform tuck my hair back and walk over if I wasn’t complete mess and had food in my hair! He is staring at the menu I cant really see his eyes. His hair is swept across his for rid I just want to push it out so I can see all his perfect features. Ohh look at that his lips are moving while he reads ok parker here goes nothing

“Hi welcome to the craswohhhhhh”
Yep I fell over in front of the hottie and trust me it gets worse he tries to catch me but we both end up on the dirty floor with my head in his lap!!! Ahh yes a day in the life of me

Are you ok”
How sweet sure im fine just let me remove my face from your croutch
“I’m fine I’m so sorry”
“It’s ok really”
“Hard day?”
“You have no idea do you need a few minutes”

Ohh his eyes are breathtaking
Yes thanks”
oh my that smile, no words
Good I’m just gonna go die”
“Ahh it ok ………

Is he staring at my chest OMG he is eying my rack!!! Yes stick the boobs out
“Liz no harm done”
Oh right name tag, but still
Ok walking out the back collecting a few plates I drop them in the sink. I have to stop and rest just breath. Leaning against the wall closing my eyes I try to get some balance. Just breathe....


Swinging back through the doors I clean up the rest of the tables; clearing the chaos. Once that is all done I feel a little bit better clearer and time to step up and talk to him.
“Hi again
He looks at me and I notice we are both sharing the same embarrassed looks and matching blushes
Hey I will just have a cherry coke thanks”
“1 cherry coke anything else”
“Yes does a Maria work her………..”
“MAX AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH”

What the hell OMG no fricken way please tell me they don’t know each other!!! Please say that Mr. sexy grin is not hugging a screaming Maria. Kill me now!!!!

OMG max what are you doing here when did you get here your not supposed to be here till next week???”
Oh god a babbling jumping up and down Maria is hugging him OMG this is so embarrassing….wow he’s tall ok bad Liz stop!
Liz liz liz this is max my bestest best max this is my girl Liz”
Oh god he is beautiful oh god this is soo humiliating
“Liz sweetie is that onion in your hair?”


thanks you guys so much for reading. as alwasy tell me what you think be mean be funny just be honest love you guys so much virtual hugs all round Channibella
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Title: breaking the habit
Disclaimer: I own nothing at all
Summary:
Total AU, Liz POV,no aliens max/liz. Please just read and judge me on my terrible first attempt on writing fanfic. I only write poems so be gentle be brutal just be honest thanks ChanniBella.


chapter 5

When did my world start spinning and stop directly in front of you
Max Evans. I have to admit I am the typical angsty teenager with baggage. My mum left and my dad blamed me for that. But that’s not the sad part I don’t remember her. I came home one day when I was 7 I asked where mummy was he said she was gone and I asked when she was she getting back???
That’s the first time he hit me.
I don’t think I like this, I have never felt this way about anyone! Who I’m I kidding why do I bother I mean I fell on the guy! he is to good for me. I’m not good for anyone.


Ok enough with the self pity time to get dressed who would have thought Maria’s best friend is the beautiful max Evans. Ok what do you wear to see the guy you fell face fist into his lap? There isn’t an outfit, jeans and red singlet. Comfy sneakers with a rubber sole no slipping tonight
“MOVE IT PARKER”
“KEEP YOUR PANTS ON MICHAEL IM COMING”

Someone’s not to happy about the “girlfriend” sleeping at Maria’s turning into a very handsome guy! Poor jealous Mickey?????
Walking down the stairs of the apartment I see him with the sourest look- like sucking those sour lollies? He looked like he had the whole packet. I know exactly what’s on his mind.

You have nothing to worry about”
“Liz I…….”
“Michael they are just like you and me friends nothing else!”
“How do you know?”
“It’s Maria she wouldn’t she is not the type and you know it bugga lugs”
“Thanks short cake”


That’s me and Michael short and sweet. I don’t crap around he doesn’t like to talk. My grandma called Michael bugga lugs once and it stuck he doesn’t let anyone else use it but me. The short cake name if it was anyone else would get a death glare but when Michael says it its different. I love this silence sitting at the bottom of my stairs with Michael’s arm around me, my head resting on his arm, its safe it’s comfy. With a kiss on the head were off.

I forgot all about Mr. Evans still reeling in the warm and fuzzies until I got to Maria’s and my heart dropped to my stomach. Ooh he looks good in green. Where is Michael? oh dragging Maria into the kitchen? Don’t leave me alone with him…. Oh thank god
“Hi Ms Deluca”
“Oh Liz sweetheart call me Amy, isn’t she just a peach Max have you two met??”
“Yeah Amy I bumped into Liz at the café place…..”

He says with that sexy grin
The Crashdown my dad owns it and I work there obviously”
Duh Liz very smooth
Where are those two they better not be doing anything in my kitchen excuse me kids….”
“Hi”
“Hi”
“Wow this is awkward let’s start over I m Max Evans”
“Liz Parker nice to meet you and not fall on top of you”

Did I just say that????
No Miss Parker you can fall on top of me any day…”
No words
That wasn’t meant to sound….. What I meant was…I wasn’t trying to be rude I just…”
Ohh he is stammering and his cheeks are pink
“Its ok max”

Silence I think you could hear the killer butterflies attacking my insides. He smells like the earth not dirt just earthy. I don’t know when I’m around him it’s just, I can’t find the words.
That’s the last time we spoke to each other all night. With Maria there no one noticed. I did though….



~ok guys im goona send you another chapter just cause!!! enjoy and tell me what you think.... ChanniBella~



chapter 6

The weekend was well I never had so much fun. Maria told me all about her friends. There is Alex a loveable geek with witty one liner’s and plays a mean guitar. There is Isabelle a beautiful not at all humble future supermodel who is dating the band geek- go figure and also happens to be Max Evans twin sister. Then there is Tess max s quasi girlfriend they date on and off- but Maria hates her! I saw a picture of them all together they look so happy. I think I want that and Maria’s helping me get there! Besides Tess is a blonde curly haired freak with barely there clothes and Maria says max prefers brunettes who are smart- just like me! Her words :)
This is the first entry in a long time that’s not introspective. It’s just real and I’m liking this…..



I have scribbled his name in love hearts all over my journal. And I’m going to bed an actual happy teenager without the help of any medication or alcohol… weird.
Its summer break and Mr. Ferguson has taken over and told me not to work so much!! Its Tuesday morning and Maria, Max and I are waiting for Michael to get of his shift so we can all just hang out!!! I have never just hung out before? I’m not sure what to do??? I mean Michael and I just do stuff together naturally but with two more people it gets a little confusing!!! Do we all have to decide? Who decides?
“Liz Liz are you ok with that?”
“Sure Maria sounds great”

I have no idea what I just agreed to???? I have to spend less time over analyzing things!!!



So its true I have to stop this inner dialogue and concentrate on the world around me. My dads away, Michael is happy, I made a new friend and I’m walking around Roswell alone with max. Letting the other two enjoy some time together before the others arrive I inadvertently got my wish. Our bare arms touching slightly as we walk and its sending shivers down my spine even though the day is hot and dry. He provokes such a reaction in me that is physical as well as being emotional.
It scare’s me but excites me more…. I need to know more about him, I need to know if I’m the only one feeling this way. I know that he is to good for me but his eyes hold such intensity even passion? I need to know if his eyes are true or I’m seeing something I just want to believe.

“So who is max Evans?”
“That would be me!!!”
“Cute, I mean tell me about yourself?”
“Not much to tell I’m just taking life as it comes! You think I’m cute?”
Sexy grin that turns my shade of dusky pink to red hot red blush all over my face.
“You’re cute when you blush! Look Liz I really like you and I’m never this forward with a girl but I feel something between us?”
“Really?”
“I can see it in your eyes”



I just look down blush even more if it’s possible when I feel it a large warm hand on mine. Our fingers meld together like we have done this everyday of our lives. He smiles a little and I can see his cheeks are a little pink but we just hold hands all over Roswell and it’s the most beautiful experience of my life. I don’t need to know who this guy is because when I look into his eyes and I see his heart and soul. This overwhelming fear I have over all these new feelings I can’t explain it. Even though I have a strong need to hide, I want this. I want max. I think he wants me too.



so what do you think??? im i heading to crazy confusing crap land? thanks for reading love Channi Bella
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CHAPTER 7


We stayed out late that night. We talked about everything, almost everything. Tales of meeting a 10 year old Maria, the relationship with his sister and his life in LA. I talked about Micheal and me.
Nothing superficial but nothing to personal. It seemed so innocent us sitting in the swings I used to play on. But the conversation the atmosphere was intimate.

After I finish school I would love to travel, take crappy jobs and just see the world. Hit the road and never look back. I have lived in LA my whole life and seeing Roswell and how different it is, it makes me want it more!!!”
“Such a romantic dream taking off just living and not being controlled by school or work or parents…. I like it just being yourself”
“Creating your own destiny”
“You’re very poetic Max”
“I love it when you say my name”
“I’m sorry if I embarrass you its unintentional I just… when I’m with you I’m honest. I’m usually so nervous around girls but you make me forget everything Liz. I don’t know if you have a boyfriend? Or if I’m your type…”
“I have never had a boyfriend…”

Did I just but in and say that pathetic
You never I wow how can someone as beautiful not been in a relationship??”
“Do you… never mind”
“What Liz think you’re beautiful?”
“I just, look don’t worry about it, slip of the tongue its just no ones ever said… can we drop it.”

I have to get away, Walking away ashamed. I feel him smell him before I see him in front of me. He is so handsome I can’t look, I close my eyes. I feel his hands on my face and open my eyes to his.
“Look at me please I think you are so beautiful your sun kissed skin your unashamed honesty, your long lashes, your clumsiness that dark silky mane. You Liz are so beautiful.”
“Don’t cry I didn’t want to make you cry beautiful”
“No it’s just… I thank you”

We held each other in the middle of the street. There was the moment, in that one act time stopped. My thoughts all gone and I just felt, his warm arms his smell his hands brushing through my hair. I realised that I was holding the man I love.


In one night it all changed in that one night I realised that maybe I’m good enough. That someone might actually love me. And that someone is Max Evans. He held me and didn’t let go until I was home, we never spoke didn’t need too. Then he watched me till I got to the door, I could feel his eyes on me.
I over analyse, go over situations in detail to understand things. But this I can’t explain I just know. I just hope it’s real for him.

I ran upstairs and had to get it down share it with my journal. I write down everything I think all my thoughts so there out of my head and so I can read over them to understand it more. Rushing to write down everything that transpired between us and re read it like a cheesy romance novel. Walking over to wash my face I’m startled by my reflection, I look different. I don’t know what it is but its there something in my face no something inside me has changed.





Chapter 8

Mornings I hate mornings! This morning the doubt set in. a bad case of the what ifs??? What if max is just being nice friendly? What if Maria put him up to this?? Poor little Lizzie cant get a guy. That’s it isn’t it!!! Maria hates all the time I’m spending with her boyfriend so bring in Max to distract me. OMG what an idiot how and why would Max want me it’s a setup and there all laughing at me……

BRINNNNNNNG BRINGGGGGGGGG
“What”
“Liz not a morning person I see”
“Max I…..how did you get my number”
“Maria gave it to me I hope you don’t mind?”

I hear his nervousness through the phone and all the doubt vanished when my name left his lips….
“No its fine I just was surprised to hear your voice”
“Sorry I….”
“No it was a nice surprise”
“I just wanted to call and invite you to video night here at Maria’s and then in the morning we pick up the LA crew from the airport you know make a night of it….”
“Video night I loved to”
“You don’t sound too sure?”
“No I’m I just… I want to! Its just your friends, I’m not a very social person and I don’t want to impose on you’re…. I just don’t think I fit in
“Your Maria’s friend….. My friend right”
“I’m I your friend?”
“Ok this is a serious talk to be having first thing in the morning!!!”
“either I’m your friend or I’m not its that simple Max!! I hate being a bitch but I just I hate this nervous not knowing what to say crap………. I like you Max and we mumble and fumble around we just met and there is this intensity, it feel like the air is sucked out the room when I’m with you. I hate this all don’t say this don’t think that don’t feel. I can’t; NO I won’t be embarrassed any more! I’m not sure what I’m saying but we I need to confront this whatever it is and just take it on and can’t tip toe on maybes and my head can’t take not knowing what we are doing!!
Liz I…..”
“No Max let me finish I don’t know where this courage is coming from but I hate acting like this! I’m scared and I promised myself a long time ago not to let fear take me over. I need to know Max how you feel because it’s eating me up. Last night I walked away from you so happy feeling like you could love me and me knowing I’m already falling. But this morning I didn’t know what was what. Who are we? What are we I need to know I hate not knowing?”


Silence……. I don’t know what it was but once I started talking I couldn’t stop. I couldn’t stand this avoidance to the situation. I couldn’t wait for the other shoe to drop so I just threw it down.

Liz I don’t know what to say can we meet?….at the park on the swings”
“Half an hour”

And I hung up scared but ready. There will be no darkness to hide in no phone to hide behind. Face to face and I’m fricken terrified.



ok how im i going?? be honest tell me if its all exploding into nonsense. Thanks so much to everyone who is reading and enjoying. luv you all ChanniBella
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CHAPTER 10

It only took me 6 minutes to get up shower and dress I have 24 minutes to go. It takes about 10 to dry my hair and like 2 minutes to get there so I have 12 minutes to spare. No I have to do something call Michael no it’s to early for him. A huh breakfast nope I will barf!!!!!
That’s it I’m leaving I don’t care how early it is even if its 20 minutes early, maybe I will take a long way fresh air.
Avoiding the crashdown I head out on my balcony swing my feet around without looking and kick someone climbing up the ladder as I’m climbing down , that someone being Max Evans…..

“Oww”
“Max I’m so sorry I just I didn’t see you are you ok and what are you doing on my ladder?”
“Ok one question at a time I’m nursing a head injury here”
“OMG do you need ice? Can I get you something a glass of water I will get you that…”


Walking over to my window about to climb through it I stop suddenly feeling his arm on my back.
Liz I’m fine I don’t need anything except for you to calm down and sit with me”
How could I refuse? Leading me over to the chairs I have outside we sit next to each other and I realise how tall he is compared to me, my shoulder is resting on is upper arm.

“I’m scared too and confused too Liz! First time I saw you, really saw you was when you fell right on top of me, I saw you eyes and your embarrassment I saw you were real. How long have we known each other Liz?”
He said this to me looking right at me and I couldn’t answer I knew exactly 1 week but I couldn’t speak with him looking at me like that….

My sister Isabel is beautiful, men are constantly looking at her and she knows it, she uses it. She acts like a queen to everyone tells them what to do, but inside she is different. She says she wants to be a supermodel travel the world, date movie stars. But I know different Isabel I know she has a heart bigger then her so called ego and she gets insecure like everyone. She wants to get married have a family…”

He stops talking I don’t know where he is going with this but he needs to say it and I’m not going to interrupt.
He stands up rubbing his face. Pacing my small balcony
“She hides behind a persona. I think I think that’s what it was with Tess, She’s this beautiful girl who acted just like Isabel they were friends and I thought I could bring her out the true her you know I just. Dating Tess I wanted her to be with me because it was right because she wanted to! But it was all a facade she didn’t want me cause I was Max a good guy but wanted me for appearances.”

He sits next to me and held my hands in his, his hands are so much bigger then mine.
“In LA I was popular by default. My sister was the soon to be prom queen dating a guy in the band so I was naturally put in the group, that’s why she wanted me-not because who I was as a person but who people saw me as..”
“Then why were you with her?”
“Because I didn’t understand who I was and I thought that maybe I was a fake person too. I talk and believe that there is something better for me someone out there for me. But maybe I was kidding myself with my dreams and in reality I’m destined to be a lawyer like my dad and married to a superficial person like Tess!!”


He looks so defeated with his head in his hands I knelt down on the ground and run my fingers through his hair in a form of comfort
A week ago”
He looks up at me as I spoke and I keep running my hands over the hair on the back of his neck.
“We meet a week ago and I can tell you know that you have to follow your heart! I don’t know much about you Max but I see you the real you and there is nothing fake about you”
He puts his forehead against mine and we close our eyes and just breathe. Taking in the moment closing our eyes and relishing in the closeness were sharing.

Liz I think I have fallen for you hard, I don’t want to be confused any more and I don’t want to confuse you….”
“Max I’m sorry about my rant this morning I just cant stand things being in the air I……


BRING BRING BRING BRING

Shocking us both we spring apart, feeling the warmth leaving my body.
STUPID PHONE I want you, Max do you want me?”
“I have never wanted anything more”

BRING BRING BRING BRING

We both laugh over the situation pouring our hearts out and the phone ringing its good it’s freeing.
Just when I think you can’t get any more beautiful your laugh captivates me”

Reassuming our previous position the warmth is back. His hands are on my face and they are damp in contrast to the cool breeze of the morning.
Looking deep into each others eyes seeing hope fear love. We didn’t even notice the phone had stopped ringing. I felt drawn closer to his face, his eyes where on my lips and I can’t help but lick them in anticipation of what I think will be my first kiss. His eyes look into mine when I licked my lips asking in with his eyes if its ok and all I do is close my eyes and feel his hot breath I can almost feel his lips on mine when…..

CRASH

The chair collapses under him; they are old and couldn’t hold his weight. Crawling over to him I see he is all right and I can’t help but bust out laughing. He is laughing too. Max Evans sprawled over the dirty floor of my balcony me half on top of him laughing our asses off. I can’t help but look at him laughing he is just extraordinary. I can’t think of anywhere I would rather be then on my dirty floor here with Max. And at the moment he looks at me touches my face we lean in and
“LIZ”
“MICHEAL?????”

I see him at my window angry as hell with Maria just behind him smirking.
“ELIZABETH CLAUDIA PARKER WHY THE HELL DIDN’T YOU ANSWER YOUR PHONE???? AND WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU’RE DOING!!!!!”
Scrambling of the floor and brushing my self off angry at Michael yelling at me and that the moment was interrupted
“Hey guys Liz and I were just…..”
He stood up for me I can’t help but smile but that soon disappears
Yeah Max I know what you were just trying to do! get into Liz’s Pants that aint gonna happen buddy so forget it”
That earned a “MICHEAL” from me with a death glare and one from Maria accompanied by a slap!
MICHEAL KITCHEN NOW”
He knows my temper so he glares at max and does as he is told. I turn to Max and apologies.
“Michael is like a brother and he is hot tempered he’s just”
“Worried about you I’m glad he is here to watch out for you I would be the same”
“Max I’m sorry I”
“Liz I want you, I want to be your boyfriend and if that includes a crazy over protective brother I still want you to be my girlfriend”
“So I’m your girlfriend?”
“You Liz Parker from now on will always be my girl”



WHAT YA THINK???? NEXT IT’S THE MICHEAL AND LIZ SHOWDOWN. AS ALWAYS BE HONEST TELLING ME HOW IT’S GOING… THANKS FOR READING CHANNIBELLA

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Hi guys im fighting with my ex boyfriend at the moment and to keep my mind away fom the cold herted cheating son of a bitch i have been writing so enjoy!!! and feedback got to say im addicted keep it coming ChanniBella

btw- dream in blue

CHAPTER 10


Michael Francis Gueirn how dare you but into my life like that you have no right! I don’t have to explain myself to you and if you gave me half the chance instead of jumping in and thinking the worst….. aughhhhhh how does Maria put up with your hot temper???????”
My arms are flying around like a crazy person because I’m pissed off!!!! Least he has the decency to not but in this time!!!! Oh great he’s got the kicked puppy look sitting there at the table. I know he cares so I sit across from him take his hand.

I love you Michael, you are my best friend my brother my everything and if you gave me the chance you would have been the first person I would have talked to about all this. It’s all new and Max and I have feelings for each other and I know we have only known each other for a couple of days but I can’t explain it. I shouldn’t have too.
“I’m sorry Lizzy I just don’t want to you to be hurt ever again.”

And we hug because that is the single sweetest thing ever and I cherish these moments between us.
“But Liz I swear if you ever repeat my middle name again I wont be held responsible for my actions!!!”
“Promise”
“Ok its time for breakfast my treat for being an ass!”

LATER ON


Cue the romantic music he is leaning in I can hear piano playing softly accompanied by the violins. Its so beautiful eyes closing in unison lips ready to meet, the breeze soft around them waiting anxiously for there lovers sweet first taste….
Are they going to kiss or stand like idiots Maria why do you hire these sappy movies”
“Michael stop ruining the movie for me, I need this romance its not like my boyfriend gives it to me I have to find it somewhere else”


I have to smile at there bickering and Max and I smile at each other I can’t help but feel giddy at the fact he is my boyfriend. He He my boyfriend, I like the sound of that and sitting next to him, leaning on me could anything be better.
Its all good Michael understands and I love that he wants to protect me and I love that Max (my boyfriend) understands that. And Maria well she get this grin on her face that I hope will die soon, but I’m happy, it’s out there we all know. With a sigh I rest my head on Max’s shoulder, happy.



Broken glass, pieces broken all over the floor. Hope he didn’t hear it, bending down picking up the all the pieces, hope he didn’t hear…
“You stupid little bitch”
“I’m sorry daddy it was an accident I didn’t mean to….”
“What you didn’t mean to what Elizabeth??? “
Cant look head down don’t look in his eyes stay on the ground.
“Come on answer me girl…”
Speak say something breathe just breathe he hasn’t finished
“What you can’t speak now? No wonder your mother left you!!!”
Pulling me by the hair yelling swearing and can’t understand what he is saying. I smell the alcohol he reeks of it. My hair hurts my head hurts, don’t scream makes it worse don’t scream. The bathroom he is taking me to the bathroom. He is still talking I cant hear it my head hurts.
Mumbling though the door and hearing the lock. Crawling into the shower running the cold water, washing away the pain drowning out the screams.
I should have been more careful….



Sharp intake of breath and I realise I’m not alone but my head is resting on Max’s shoulder on the floor with Maria and Michael staring down at me from the couch, I cant breathe.
I need to breathe I need to calm down, there all staring at me worried I can here my name, it was just a dream, I was only 10 when that happened. Its over he is not here!
Need to calm Michaels yelling handing me a paper bag and rubbing my back. Breathe

I can breathe now I can feel it calming
“Short cake???”
“I’m ok”

It took a lot out of me just to get that out.
“What happened is she ok?
Maria caring Maria she looks so worried I have never seen her this quiet before. Michael looks at me and I just nod in silent agreement.
“Liz has panic attacks, not very often but it’s just when she is scared or something. If it happens you just need to calm her talk to her touch her so she knows she’s not alone and a paper bag helps her breathing, she always has one with her.”
He said this to them both but mostly looking at Max and I know this was his little way of accepting Max in my life. I really love my bugga lugs
Im ok now sorry I just I had a nightmare and when I woke up I forgot were I was and whoosh, couldn’t breathe”
“Well don’t ever do that again I was so scared chica I was about to have a panic attack”


Maria’s lightness to the situation eased the room a bit Michael was less worried and smiled grateful and his girlfriend for the mood change. Looking at them I looked to my boyfriend and he looked somber, he wouldn’t look me in the eyes and that terrified me I nearly had another panic attack.
Did I scare him? Why won’t he look at me???
I might (breath) just go outside (breath) get some fresh air, will you come with me Max?”
He just nods his head and walks out with me. I sit down on the steps of the porch still a little winded. He stays up and leans against the railings.

Are you ok Max??”
I startle him with my question and he looks right at me. He has tears in his eyes, I stand and he hugs me holds me tight. He doesn’t say anything and I just let him hold me because I need his arms around me always. After a while he talks but he doesn’t let go.

“You scared me Liz I never.. nothing like that has ever happened, the situation I…. I’m so scared you were there on the ground and you couldn’t breathe and I didn’t know what to do… I wouldn’t know what to do if anything ever happened to you!”
“Max its ok”

"I have never been like this I have never felt this way before, how could it be possible for me to find you, I never thought…”
He getting all chocked up and I can’t help the tears that fall down my face knowing what he is feeling because it’s the exact way I feel. He breaks the embrace our bodies still in contact his hand is on my face wiping the tears with his thumb and his other hand lost in my hair.
I know Max it’s the same way I feel, how someone I just met can be you, the person I dream about and when he touches me looks right into my eyes like this, I feel like nothing I can explain. I know this is going to sound corny but I feel whole it’s just right Max we fit.”

Forehead to forehead I love when we are like this close. My arms around him feeling the muscles in his back. We just like to be in the comfort of each other.

sooo what are these dreams about???”
“Shut up max”

Slapping him lightly on the chest we are still holding each other but looking into each others eyes and I blush.
ohh I’m guessing by that blush and the embarrassed look they were GOOD dreams huh??
That sexy smirk and naughty boy glint in his eye.
Max my dreams are none of your concern Mr. Evans”
“My mischievous temptress”

Leaning in to each other the light moment about to be broken with the meeting of our lips the sealing of the deal…
“Max Liz”
Or maybe not,
A sheepish Max answers letting me go slightly but still touching
“Amy hi”
“Ms Deluc.. I mean Amy, hi sheriff

Embarrassment and frustration leaves me speechless.
“We just came back to check on you kids see how it’s all going and I see it is going!!!”
Boy I know where Maria gets that knowing grin from straight from her mother.



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Hey guys it been like forever but i have been having some personal problems (guys sux) but new part and thanks Strawbehrry Shortcake for the advice and there was no kiss in the last part they were interupted again but enjoy this part luv ChanniBella

Chapter 11


Who knew that life could be like this? Everyone is asleep but me and I don’t want to break this me and Max snuggled on the couch Maria and Michael lying indecently close together. The movies are over and the TVs snowing but I don’t dare to move. I’m scared I may wake up and realize this is all a dream.

“Girl I love ya but if you hurt him I will not be held responsible! Max has such a pure heart and soul; he has dreams and despite the muscles he is a big softy with a fragile heart so don’t hurt him”
Maria’s voice startled me even though it was just a whisper.
“I have no intention of that”
“And Max I know you’re awake if you break her heart there will be left with no physical evidence of your maleness”

Looking down I realize that even thought his beautiful eyes are closed there is that naughty boy grin spread over his face.
“Sleep people we have a big day tomorrow, come on Liz you and me get the bed”
“ohhhhh if I’m not invited can you at least video tape the whole experience for me????”
“MAX “
“Well at least be loud enough so we boys can enjoy???
“Michael!!!

I can’t believe the boys are wide awake and teasing us like this. They are both grinning like idiots and slapping each other, yes of course it takes to girls going to bed together for men to bond. Vulgar. But I cant help the giggle at the playful banner we have all set.


As soon as we hit her room she hits me with it.

So you and max give me the low down. What happened? When did it happen? what was that thing on your balcony about cause you to looked kinda cozy!!!! Oh how did it start? Is he a good kisser? Have you kissed him yet he looks like a good kisser!!! Where were his hands when he did it, because I like back of the neck and waist. What do you like????”

I just stare and try to work out how she just said that without breathing and working out how the hell I actually understood that!!!!

“It just happened! We don’t know how it was just there! We haven’t kissed yet but we have had some almost kisses and hugs lots of holding. I really like him Maria”
OMG I just pulled a Maria! but I must have said something right cause she is hugging me. The next thing I know I have some pjs in my hand and a grinning Maria changing in front of me. Embarrassed I turn away and put on the cherry pants and red singlet.
Turn to see Maria in the same pj but watermelons. We look like some sort of fruit salad sisters.
“Night Liz “
“Sweet dreams”


I couldn’t sleep I don’t know if it’s the strange bed or meeting the friends tomorrow or the fact that I have yet to kiss Max!
I need some air sneaking out to the porch the breeze hits my bare arms and it’s nice, refreshing. I have changed so much well not changed grown more open. I’m a little funny with my feelings and expressing them.
I just sit on the stairs and close my eyes and let the breeze take me over. I can feel it in my hair cooling my skin, breathing it in. then I feel a arm on my shoulder and it scares the hell out of me, I jump slipping but he catches me, max is there for me.
“Liz i didn’t mean to scare you are you ok????”
He looks so scared and worried I can feel his arms tight around me, his eyes wildly looking me over!
“I’m fine Max you just startled me that’s all”
Pink glazing my skin as I realize he is in his boxers and t-shirt (damn) and I’m in crazy cherry pjs.
“Cute boxers”
Well they are cut little black ones with big red hearts! He has this bewildered look then he realizes I’m ok and the embarrassing thing I just said.
“Nice cherries “
“You can put me down know Max”
“ohhh do I have too?”

And I can’t help but giggle at that pout and I can’t help but do the bravest thing in the world. When he releases me from his hold with that little pout I couldn’t resist those lips…

I take a step toward him my smile gone, he looks at me curiously. When I put my hands on his face lean in and touch his lips with mine. Soft, just a tiny taste. His mouth is closed his eyes are closed but his body is rigid and his arms are to hi sides. I linger with my lips and let go and see he still is not moving. His eyes still closed, what did I do something wrong?

So I go in again kiss his top lip then his bottom lip rubbing my thumbs across his cheeks. I think I’m about to cry because I took the step I kissed him but there is no response? What’s wrong? What did I do? I’m about to pull away and run home in tears when I feel it……
A change like in the wind and suddenly his body is relaxed and pulled into mine and his hand is in my hair his other hand on my back, I think I don’t know because he is kissing me back and I feel him all around me.

I don’t want it to end our mouths are open slightly and gently I feel his tongue it should feel weird someone else’s tongue in my mouth but it’s….. I can’t find the word to describe this moment and I don’t want too, I just want to live it.




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Chapter 12

We kissed, we actually kissed I feel so wow. I just look at him and he staring at me were still holding on tight to each other.
I feel like I’m weightless and if he wasn’t holding me tight to him I would be floating. I don’t want to sound all day dreamy but it’s so surreal. I know I need to spend the rest of my life with this man if he will have me.
We should go to bed. I mean go back to sleep separately different beds I didn’t mean..”
I cant believe I just said that but it doesn’t matter cause he is smiling and kissing the end of my nose.
“Max??”
“I’m not ready to let you go Liz”


so we stay there in each others arms, I want to kiss him again but I like just having him to hold. After a while we go back inside, he grabs my hand at Maria’s door and kisses me again, I will never get sick of his lips. And we part but he doesn’t let go of my hand till I walk to far away. He smiles and closes the door. I’m cold now without him but remembering his kisses it feels me with warmth. Climbing into bed trying not to wake Maria I hear her voice and it startles me out of my fantasies
“So is he a good kisser???”




I awake to the sound of Michael and Maria yelling and the voice of my man Max. I realize that last night wasn’t a dream that I actually made a move and kissed him.
I get up and I can hear them arguing over breakfast.
Maria I made pancakes”
“Well all I want is my smoothie”

Those two fight over the weirdest things but all that changed when I saw him. Standing awkwardly away from the fighting.
But I made pancakes for you Ria, besides Max doesn’t want some fruity girls drink”
ohh look at him squirming away from the screaming match. he is so cute I cant help but giggle. But he catches me out
Well maybe he does god I hope you aren’t gonna be like this when the others get here!!!!!”

He walks towards me and I just naturally walk to him. Hes got the cutest bed hair., we have this thing were we just stare into each others eyes I know its clichéd but I cant see anyone else anything else when those eyes look into mine. We must have been staring for awhile because soon enough Maria can be heard

Ah hum, sorry to interrupt the stare fest but someone needs to deal with cranky in the kitchen?”
“Michael kitchen right!”
“Before you leave Liz you and Maxy are just too cute and we are girl talking after your battle in the kitchen with Hairy!”
“ok Maria “
“Smoothies who in the hell drinks smoothies”

Can be heard from the kitchen
Ok good luck with Mr. cranky pants and Maxy boy you me on the porch for smoothies and confessions”

We just smile and we each go to our best friends. but that’s ok because I kissed him it was real oh yeah I rock wo hoooooooooo mental happy dance.


Hey just a new part please tell me what you think???? next the freinds arrive!!!!! and i apologise but yes there will be Tess.... thanks for the love and read on please ChanniBella

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