Hey guys. Yes, I'm still alive. But who would have thought that a little cold could knock me on my butt. Not complaining through. Anything is better then cemo. Trust me on that.
Special thanks to: rosssli, pandas2001, AznGurl87, roswelllover, frenchkiss 70, beeeyaaatch, Liz Parker Evans Thank you all for replying.
Clear something up. Sorry about the confusion but Nesado didn't rape Liz. Kaviar did, but Nesado did make her forget. It will be remember clearer later.
Second, the next part. Had a lot of trouble with it. I couldn't give you Liz or Max's POV with out the others. I wanted you to know what they were both thinking at that moment. So they are interwined. I hope it's clear on who's feeling and thinking what. Tell me if there is any ?. I'll clear it up for you. Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
size=24][/size]CHAPTER 22
A little after six. Alex showed up as the first rays of the sun started to light up the room. Carrying a bag of cloths for Liz from Maria. Saying something about Liz might want to wear normal clothes until they got back. Meaning that Isabel and Maria were planning on making it an all day affair.
Michael decide to go out to get Liz some decent food to eat as he put it. Muttering something about how Liz hasn't eaten as it was. There was no way that she was going to start eating the garbage that the hospital provided for her.
Which, Alex was eating at the moment. In between bites telling him about Maria's and Isabel's plans for skipping school for the day. All the different stores they were planning on hitting for clothes and decorations for Liz and her new room. Making him almost regret his decision on letting them get cloths for Liz. *Maybe I should have waited for Liz.*
He had gotten some actually sleep the night before. Feeling like there was a weight off his shoulders for the first time in his life. With the knowledge that his parents knew about them and excepted all of them. He had spent his whole life scared of rejection for nothing. His parents knew and still loved him. Even allowed and planned on Liz and Michael to move in with them. All of them deciding including Michael. That his place was too small for him and Liz. Agreeing that the Evans house was big enough for all of them.
Everything seemed to be falling into place.
Granted he would be sharing a room with Michael. Not like he hadn't done it most of his life. They were all going to be together. Including Liz, finally. Who would be getting the guest room next to his. *Yes, everything was falling into place.*
He wasn't stupid. He knew it wasn't going to be all that simple. That Liz had a lot she still had to face and deal with. But with his family and friends help they would get her through everything. He was feeling confident of that. She would never be alone again. He felt free for the first time in his life. Now all they need was Liz release papers. Then they could take her home.
*For once everything seemed to be going alright.* Smiling at Alex as he rambled on.
"Man, they are so out of control. I told them they should wait for Liz. That she might have an actual opinion." Alex talking the last bite of the eggs. "But they just weren't listening."
Scream erupting from Liz throat. As the lights and tv exploded.
"Liz." At her side immediately. Her eyes wide open in fear. Look of terror on her face sent his heart racing. Cupping her face to calm her down. As images and feelings started to slam into him. Liz with Kaviar. With Nesado. Being hurt. Controlling her. Forcing her. Starting to overwhelm him. Feeling his powers start to fuel her out of control ones.
Hearing the light and tv glass breaking. Panic rising. Powers on defense. Growing. Mixing with Max's.
"MAX!" - Alex
Liz looking around the room quickly. First rays of the morning sun lighting the room. *Hospital. I'm still in the hospital.* Realization doing little to calm her. Just fueling her terror more. Seeing Max move in front of her as the objects around the room began to fly.
"It's alright. Your alright. It was just a dream. Your safe." His strained controlled voice washing over her. He could feel her body shake under his hands.
Trying to push the images and feelings away. Words and images slipping through to her. "Kill him!" "You will be screaming my name before it's over." Wanting to push her over the edge once more.
Max touching her. Holding her head between his hands. Trying to reassure her. His pain. Confusion. Feeling her powers surge as their powers merged more. Hearing the lights start to explode in the halls and other rooms.
Feeling like he was reliving the events that Liz lived. "MAX!" Alex voice once more pulling him back to his body. Hearing the shouts of scared patients in other rooms. Making him get a grip on the situation. Began pushing the emotions and images back as he took control of their powers. Sending her his love and reassurances. Feelings that she was indeed safe with him. "Liz. It's alright. Just look at me." Trying to get her to focus on him. Pushing the hair out of her face. "Concentrate on me. Just me. Listen to me. Your alright. No one is going to hurt you."
"Max." Alex's voice once more breaking through. Grounding him. As Liz's emotions once more tried to over come him.
Calmness, love and Max washing over her. Max taking control of her powers. Pulling them back. Letting her gain control of her emotions. Hearing the explosions stopping as Max made the flying objects settle into their right places.
Feeling her start to gain control once more. Pushing the images and feeling back. Watching her eyes search his. Seeing her raw pain. "It's OK... It's alright. Your safe now. Your safe." Trying to reassure her as much as himself. Trying not to let the knew information take over his own senses. Pushing his own feelings of anger and guilt down. Knowing he had to be strong for both of them at the moment. "Just let it go. That's it. Let it go. Just focus on me. It over now. Your safe. I've got you."
Searching Max's face. His eyes. Seeing the love and hurt they held. Trying to reassure her. *Did he see?*
The hurt in his eyes giving away the truth. "It's alright now. Your alright. Your safe now." Words trying to comfort her.
"Oh god." Feeling the bile start to rise in her throat. Pushing pass Max. Feeling the iv rip out of her arm. Making it too the bathroom just in time. Empting out the bile and stomach acid that was in her.
"Max. Is she alright? What just happened?" - Alex
*Oh god.* Liz's feeling once more slamming into him with the lost of her in his arms. Trying to get a grip on the new information. The hurt and pain that he felt from Liz. The images that he saw. What they did to her. What they made her do.
"Max?" Looking up to see Alex staring at him.
"She remembered....." Hearing Liz getting sick in the bathroom. *God, what did they do to her?* Knowing exactly what they have done. Pushing aside his own feeling of needing to be sick and hitting some one. *Liz needs me now more then ever.*
Feeling the cold wash cloth on the back of her neck as she dried heaved a few minutes more. Taking deep breathes as she desperately tried to get a hold of herself. Mentally forcing the images and feelings away.
"You all right?" Max's soft concerned voice flooding her senses. Helping her get a grip on reality once more.
Flushing the toilet. Slowly nodding her head as she resided her self against the wall. Pulling her legs against her chest. Still not trusting herself to stand. Her broken wrist throbbing. Her other arm sticky with blood from the IV that was ripped out. Both coming a second to the pounding in her head.
Closing her eyes. *God help me.* Wondering for a moment if the pills would take it away. Knowing at once that it wouldn't. *I know now. Can't block out the truth anymore.*
Watching her fragile form huddle itself against the wall. Looking so lost and small. *How could he? How could anyone?" Taking a deep breath. Making sure that his own emotions were in check before sitting down next to her. Not quite sure she wanted him there or not. Not wanting to lose her now. To push him away. Watching her try desperately to get a hold of herself. As her body shock.
"Where's Liz and Max? Are they all right?" Hearing Sara's voice in the other room. "Where they hurt?"
"It's fine. They're in the bathroom. It's alright." - Alex
"But.." - Sara
"It's fine." - Alex voice harding.
"OK then. I have other patents to check." Hearing the doubtfulness in the Sara's voice. "Us the call button if you need anything. Anything." Stressing her last word.
*God, I shouldn't be here. Why did I allow them to keep me here?* Not even wanting to think of the damage that she just caused. What she exposed of them.
"Max?" Hearing the concern in Alex's voice in the doorway.
"It's alright. Just give us a minute." Answering him.
"Ok...." Hearing the uncertainty in Alex's voice now. "I'll just go see how bad it is."
"Thanks......" Not even wanting to think about it right now. Just wanting to focus solely on Liz. "Liz?"
Still not looking up at him. Starting to shift through the questions. *Could they have just been dreams? They were memories. Too real to be dreams.* Answering her question right away. *Memories of real events. Missing time. Is this what HE did? Locked away all these horrible things away. Oh god. How could he let Kaviar do this too me? How could I let him? Do I remember now because HE's gone now?* Closing her eyes tighter. Sinking feeling getting worst. *What all did Max see?* Feeling herself start to slip once more. As her panic starting to rise again. *God, I can't do this right now. I can't.* Hardly being able to deal with her own emotions and feelings right now. She couldn't deal with Max's too. *How can I even explain?*
Wishing it would all just go away. To lock itself away once more. Realizing at the same moment that it wasn't possible anymore. Having destroyed the safety net that once protected her. Gone now. Never to return. *What had she done?*
Feeling Max shift a little next to her. "Liz?" Hearing the pain and doubt in his voice.
*Oh god. What did I do? Max...* Knowing full and well what she allowed Kaviar and HIM to do to her. What she had done.
*Not really. You tried to fight them.*
*Look where that got me.* Recalling how she shut herself down. Escaped into her mind. Allowing everything to take place. Allowed HIM to lock the things Kaviar and HIM did away. *God. What did I do? What kind of monster am I?* Knowing that was the reason why she destroyed her safety net.
Feeling the need to get sick again. Knowing there was nothing left in her stomach. "Baby?" Feel Max pull the hair away from her face. Tucking it behind her ear. Feeling the love, warmth and power once more rush through her as he healed her hand. Opening her eyes to see him wave his hand over her hand and gown. Erasing any signs of blood. "It's all right." His voice once more becoming strong. "It's going to be OK."
Shaking her head no. Pulling the temporary cased wrist to her chest. *God if he could only do that to me. Wave his hand and erase everything that was wrong. Feeling the tears sting her eyes as they started to make there way down her cheeks. *Just erase the past.*
"It's going to be alright." Hearing the strain in his voice once more. As if he was trying to convince himself as much as her.
*Alright? How?* Feeling more lost then ever. Knowing no one was there to block it out for her this time. That Max knew. "You saw didn't you." Her voice coming out a soft whisper. "You know what I've done."
"What you were forced to do." Making it clear that he knew she did nothing on her own. That she was forced. Not really sure how she was going to take him knowing. "Yes.... It's alright Liz. It's going to be alright."
"No..." Shaking her head. She knew that he knew but hearing him confirm it hurt her more. Feeling her control start to slip once more. Pounding in her head becoming more intense.
As if reading her thought Max easily pulling her into his lap before she had a chance to pull away. Burying her head into his chest as the sobs took over her body. Letting Max once more take control of her slipping controlled powers. "I'm sorry..... I..... I...."
"Sh... It's alright. Don't. Please don't. It wasn't your fault. I know it wasn't. Tears starting to slip down his own cheeks. "I'm sorry that I wasn't there. I'm sorry that I didn't know." Letting his love and warmth wash over her. Trying to comfort her. Careful to keep his feeling of anger and guilt in check.
Surrendering to him. Letting him take over. Control her powers at the moment. Just letting herself cry.
"It's alright. I'm here. I'm never going to leave you. You have me."
She cried. For Max. For her brother. For the men that she killed. For HIM. For what Kaviar took. For what they made her do. For what she did. She cried for herself. For the life that was stolen from her. For the life that she knew she would never have now.
Pulling her closer to him. "It's all right. I'm here now. I'm here." Wanting nothing more then to heal her. Everything that was ever done wrong to her. To simply fix it. Fix her. Protect her from the world. Whispering words of comfort and promises. "I love you. This doesn't change anything. We are together now."
Feeling Max all around her. In her. His warmth. His love. The very presence of Max. His power. Healing her cheek. Her arm. Her bruised scared broken skin. Making her body whole again. Untouched. She could feel Max inside her. Warming her heart and soul. Helping her get a grip on everything. The new situations she had to face. The new questions. The days ahead of her.
"It's alright. I promise you. It's going to be alright. I love you Liz. I love you." Max's sweet words whispering in her ear.
Calmness starting to take over her as the pounding started to stop. The tears started to dry.
His own tears drying as he just focused on Liz. "We are going to get through this. You can survive this. Your strong. I promise you Liz. We will get through this. I love you. It's going to be alright. Some how I will make this right for you. Your going to be OK." Just trying to comfort her the best he could. "I love you." Telling her everything that he thought she needed to hear.
*What was done is done. I can't change that. God help me but I can't.* Things were changing once more. She was changing. She had too. It was the only way she knew how to survive. Slowly she started to shut down her emotions. Mentally forcing them back. Not locked away. Not erased. Just back far enough so she could function. So she could deal. *I have to be strong. HE was gone now. There was no one left to pick up the piece. To teach her not to make the same mistakes. To make right her wrongs. No, it's all on me now.* Pushing her feelings and emotions of pain away.
*And Max? Michael?*
Knowing she should get as far away from them as possible. *They would be better off with out me. Safer.*
*They won't just let me go. Am I strong enough to fight them too?*
*No... But I'm going to have to be.*
Feeling her body start to still as her sobs slowly gave away. Calmness slowly taking over the hurt and pain that she was feeling. A detach feeling taking it's place. Scaring him more then the pain did. "Liz. Look at me." Slowly turning her face up to look at him. Seeing her eyes closed. Wishing he knew what was going on in her head. *What are you thinking?*
*This wasn't fair to Max. I can't do this to him. The only thing I can do now is make sure that I keep them safe. I owe them that much. Max deserved a real queen. I've done him enough damage. In both lives. It's time to get up and be strong. Like HE taught her to be. Something good can come out of this. Max probably won't want me now anyways.*
"Liz. Look at me please."
Slowly opening her eyes. Keeping them down cast. She couldn't baring to meet his eyes. Not wanting to see the discuss or hurt in them. Slowly sliding off his lap. *One thing she learned about fear. It heighten your senses. If you used it right. It can make you strong.* Feeling Max's arms go around her to steady her. Helping her up.
Uneasiness once more filling him. "Liz. Talk to me." Pulling himself up.
"I'm sorry." Taking a step away from him.
"It wasn't your fault." Trying to get her to look at him. Just to have her take a step back. "I don't blame you Liz. I don't. Not even a little."
"I shouldn't have came back here. I'm sorry."
"Don't do this." Understanding what she was doing. Cutting off all her feelings. He didn't want her to hurt but he also knew enough to know that her feeling nothing wasn't good either. He could literally feel her pulling away from him.
"He blocked it away, but I still knew. A part of me still knew... I'm sorry." Still not looking at him.
"Liz. It's alright. We can deal with all this together. It wasn't your fault. It's alright. We can still be together." Starting to plead with her.
"No... Not anymore." Shaking her head no. "You need to stay away from me Max."
"Liz...." Starting to reach out for her.
Slipping away from Max even as he reached for her. Going back into the room. Noticing that she was still wearing just a hospital gown. "My bag? Clothes?" Looking around the room. Feeling the need to get dress now.
"Maria sent over some clothes. I put them on the bed." Alex coming into the room. Answering her question.
Watching Liz go over to the bed. Pull off the false case. Test her once hurt wrist a moment. Not looking up at him. "Thank you." Started pulling on the jeans.
"James saying the main generator is fried. Taking out all the lights in a two block radius. A back up generators are taking over the hospital equipment. He's covering. Telling everyone that it was lightening."
Looking out the window to see the rain coming down hard. *When did it start again.* Noticing that they were getting a lot of rain lately. *At least since Liz got here.* Wondering for the first time if there was a connection.
As if reading his thoughts. "It started again when Liz woke up." Nodding to the window. "James said no one got hurt."
"Thanks Alex." Watching Liz finish pulling on her jeans. *She's leaving.* "Liz wait. Don't do this please."
"I'm not doing anything." Knowing Max wasn't going to leave her out of his sight at the moment. *I can't believe he still wants anything to do with me.* Leaving her back to them. Slipping her arms inside the gown. Pulling the pink t-shirt that Maria sent over under the gown. Succeeding in getting it on and the hospital gown off with out exposing herself.
"Liz....." Feeling the warmth go through her as Max touched her arm. "Liz... Look at me please." Wanting nothing more then to surrender into his arms.
*Max deserves better.*
Pulling out of his arms. "Please don't." Watching her put up her own arms in defense.
"Liz..." Watching her take a step back. *I am not going to lose her now.*
"It's alright Max. It's going to be alright." Still not meeting his eyes.
*Alright? Her leaving is not alright.* "Don't shut me out."
"I'm not." Still not quite meeting his eyes.
"Your not?" Taking a step towards her just to see her retreat a step back. Feeling like he were back at square one again with her. Taking a deep breathe. Hardening his voice a little. "Don't do this Liz." Watching her start to shake her head. "Don't." Taking a step towards her again. "We have came too far to start all over again. Don't push me away now."
"Please Max."
"Please what Liz? Let you go? Not an option. I'm not going to let you just shut down and walk away from us. From me."
"Max..." *Why can't he just see this is for the best?* "You saw what I did. How can you still want me?"
"None of it was your fault Liz."
"I..."
"It wasn't. I felt everything you felt. You did nothing wrong. Kaviar and Nesado forced you."
"No." Shaking her head no. *It was all her fault.* "I still did it. It doesn't change the facts. You've seen what I can do. What I did. I'm putting you all in danger being here. HE told you. Told me. That Kaviar" Stumbling over the word. Practically choking on his name. "He could already know where we are."
"You don't know that. Nesado could have been lying."
"Why?"
"To keep us apart. Did he ever give you a reason for anything he did?" *I can't believe she still trust anything he had told her.*
*Was HE lying?*
*Does it matter?*
*No.* "It doesn't matter. You've seen what I have done. What I am capable of doing." Still not looking at him. "I can't take that chance with you. I can't. I can't put all of you in that kind of danger. I'm sorry.."
"Liz..." Pleading for her to understand. To stay with him.
"How can you still want me?" Seeing the disbelief on her face.
"How can I not? My feelings haven't change for you Liz. If anything I'm in awe of you. What you lived through.... What you survived.... I'm.... You are so strong. You amaze me. I love you Liz." Trying to convince her of what he was saying. "Look at me. Please."
Slowing raising her eyes to meet his. "I love you....."
"But you saw ... You know what I did with...." Looking away from him. Not able to finish the sentence.
"What you were forced to do." Correcting her.
Wrapping her arms around herself. "I still did it." Whispering. *I'm disgusting.* "If I'm as strong as you believe I am. Then I should have stopped him." Shaking her head no. "You deserve more. You deserve better."
"I would be lucky to have you. I could never ask for more. No one could." *Why can't she see that?* Knowing that years of abuse has distorted her self images. That it wasn't going to be easy to fix. *I've just never realized how bad until now.*
*How could he? Does he mean it?*
*Max deserves a queen. Not someone like me. Anyone but me. Am I seriously going to put him in that kind of danger? I was train to kill him. Haven't I've done enough damage.* "Yes." Answering herself.
"What?"
"What?" Looking up at him in confusion.
Giving her a smile. "You said yes. Does that mean we can be together?"
"Yes? No." Shaking her head no. "I can't stay with you. It's not safe." Watching the smile fade from his face. "I'm sorry. Sorry. I have to go."
"If your leaving then so am I." Turning to see a wet Michael walk into the room.
"No." Shaking her head. *Not both of them.*
"I've lost you once. I won't lose you again." Michael putting the bag of food on the bed.
"Michael please." *Fighting with Max was bad enough. Michael too. God, no.* Feeling her panic start break through before pushing it down again.
"We have been through all of this before. How many times am I going to have to tell you? What do I have to do to convince you? If you have to go, then fine. But I'm coming with you.... Nothing change."
Watching her take a guilty look at me before shifting her eyes away once more. Whispering. "Everything's change now." Watching Liz wrap her arms around herself once more.
"I'm still your brother. That hasn't change." Michael reaching out for her.
Taking a step back before he could touch her. "Don't touch me Michael." Almost regretting her words when she saw the hurt in his eyes. Knowing she barely had control of her own powers and emotions. Pushing them down. *I can't chance mine mixing with Michael's like they did with Max. I've done enough damage.* Knowing it wouldn't take much to push her back over the edge again.
Watching the pain in Michael's eyes from Liz's response to him. "What happened?" Looking at Liz for a moment. Who was intent on studying her socks covered feet. Before shifting his eyes to Alex. To finally him. "What happened? The generator wasn't hit by lightening was it?"
Shaking his head no.
"You have that kind of power?" Michael looking once more at Liz in disbelief. "The powers out in 3 blocks."
Getting no response from Liz.
Knowing it was their combined powers that did it. "It was both of ours together." Answering the question for her.
"What happened?" Watching Michael take a step towards her. "Max you healed her. I thought you said we had to wait?"
"Michael." Liz taking one step back.
"Liz has remember."
"Remember what exactly?" Watching Michael shift his eyes between him and Liz. "How bad is it? Nesado? Kaviar? What did they do to you?"
"I'm sorry." Coming out a small whimper. Feeling the guilt and pain rising before pushing it back down. Wanting nothing more then to wrap the numbness around her. *I need to get out of here.*
"Did he hurt you?"
Watching Liz start to fidget more. *She can't deal with this right now.* "Michael." Nodding his head towards Liz. Hoping he got the hidden message.
"I'm fine." Still not meeting anyone's eyes.
"You will be." Confirming Liz's response. *I swear to god you will be.*
"Your stronger if your all together." - Alex finally taking a step forward. "You proved that with the power."
"No. I'm going to have to leave." Looking around the room. "I'm sorry. It's better this way."
"Liz." Michael taking a step forward again.
"Michael, please don't touch me." Liz holding up her hands. "Please."
"I'm not going to hurt you. You know that." The hurt once more evident in Michael's eyes. Hearing the frustration in his voice.
Understanding why Liz didn't want them to touch her. "Michael. Liz is having a hard time controlling her powers. That's how ours got mixed together. The power." Hoping to make it easier on both of them.
"I just can't... I'm sorry." Liz looking more guilty then before. "My bag?"
"Right here." Alex picking it up and taking it to her. "But I really think you need to stay with them Liz. You would be safer."
"Thanks." Looking up guilty at Michael. "I can't. I'm sorry Michael."
"Your not leaving Liz." Stepping forward again. *I was hoping that Michael could convince her to stay.
"I was taught to kill you."
"That doesn't mean you will." - Michael
"If you were meant to kill me. Then you have let Nesado do it." Watching her filch at his words. Almost making him regret saying them. *But it's the truth.*
"Kaviar wasn't here...." Whispering the words.
"He isn't here now." - Michael
Changing tactics. "If you leave Liz. Then I'm dead anyways. I can't live with out you. Do you understand me? I can't live with out you. I won't."
"You might not be able to live long with me either."
"That's my decision isn't it. I need you Liz. I'm alive for the first time in my life because of you. My life is you. It always was. We are meant to be. I know everything got screwed up. It's not what we planned or meant to be. But we are together now. Right now. I spent all my time here without you, already. I can't let you go. I lost you once. I won't do it again."
"If your leaving so am I." Michael crossing his arms.
"I will find you where ever you go. Your a part of me, Liz. I mean it. Don't push me away. Don't. Let us help you."
"And me." Alex stepping forward.
Everyone looking at him.
"Well, If you go Liz. Then Max and Michael will go. Then Isabel and Maria will have to follow. You can't leave me out." Watching Alex shrug his shoulders. "Besides, I thought we were bonding? I make a great friend. Girlfriend status even. Just give me a chance. Give us all a chance."
*He would leave? No.... I'm suppose to go alone.* Starting to feel confused. *I knew they weren't going to just let me go. When have they ever done that?*
*It's not fair that they have to leave their families for me. They have a life here. Don't take that away from them too.*
*What about Kaviar?*
Seeing the war taking place in her. "Liz." Pulling her face up to meet his. "Stay. Just stay. We need you. I need you." Searching her eyes for any signs of her thoughts. Searching her for any feelings. "If you leave. We will just follow. Alex is right. We are stronger together. Kaviar is not here. If he dares to show up. Then we will deal with him then. Together. Stay here together or we leave together. The choice is yours." Sending her all the love and confidence he had. "But I'm telling you this. I can't live without you. If you leave me now. You will be killing me. So if you do decide to leave. I will follow. I have no choice."
"But either way. We are staying together. Even if I have to hunt you down." Michael coming up to him. "If I have to search the world with you. I will find you."
"That kind of beats the purpose Michael." Liz giving him a weak smile.
"But it doesn't change the fact. Your stuck with us." Giving her a smile. "With me."
"Guys...." Pleading one last time. Feeling exhausted.
"I would die with out you Liz. I would die.... We are stronger together remember?"
To tired to fight anymore. Nodding her head in surrender. *Fine, I'll just stay for a while. Until I get my strength back.* She has never felt so tired in her entire life. "So what now?" Dreading the answerer before even hearing it.
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Hey guys. I'm back. Did you miss me?
Special thanks to Roswelllover, pandas2001, tabby, frenchkiss70, milly (Yes Alex reminds me of Seth from OC.- love that show!) Thank you all for taking time to leave feedback. Keeps me going!
Before you throw stones- Remember I love you all. (Of couse it's all going to work out. You really didn't think I would make it that easy did you?)
CHAPTER 23
He could feel her giving in. Surrendering to them. How tired and beaten she felt before she pulled out of his arms.
"So what now?" Not looking at him. Once more intent on studying her feet.
"You come home with me." Hoping she would find comfort in the fact.
"No." Looking up at him sharply.
The one word sending pain in his heart.
"But you just said you would stay." Michael taking a step towards her once more.
"I know." Coming out a small whisper.
*She doesn't know Michael is moving in too.* "Michael is going to move in with us too. We can all be together."
"I'm sorry. I can't stay with you. I can't. I'm sorry." Shaking her head.
"Then you can live with me. I'll sleep on the couch or we can get a bigger place together." Michael taking another step towards her.
"No." Shaking her head again as she took a step back from them. "I can't live with you either Michael. I'm sorry." Not looking at either one of them.
"But you just said that you would stay here." Hearing the irritation once more enter Michael's raised voice.
"Yes. I'll stay in Roswell, but I can't live with you. Either of you. I'm sorry."
"You can't stay by yourself." Not liking that idea at all but relieved never the less that she was willing to stay in Roswell.
"I have been most of my life." Watching her fidget with the strap of her bag now.
"But your not alone anymore." Michael pointing out.
"You stay alone Michael. I have the money. I can get my own place."
"Because he wouldn't stay with us." Feeling himself start to get frustrated too. "We need to stick together." Not entirely trusting the fact that she would stay in Roswell. *Who's to say that she won't sneak off in the middle of the night with out them?* Not liking that thought at all. *Not to mention if something happens to her.*
Looking at him. "I told you that I would stay." As if reading his thoughts. "I've never lied to you. If I really wanted to go. I would be gone by now. I've could have just mind warp you." Stating the facts simply.
Not really believe that she was strong enough at the moment to do just that or that she would. "I just don't think it would be a good idea for you to stay alone." Softening his tone once more. "You would have your own room." Trying once more. "I've talked to my parents. They know the truth about all of us. Everything. They want you to stay with us too."
"Please Max." Pleading with her eyes for him to understand.
"I don't understand." Michael starting to pace the room.
"Michael...." Liz's voice trailing off.
"Your my sister. You belong with me."
"No I don't."
Michael stopping in front of her. "What?" Michael looking at Liz like she went crazy. "How can you say that?"
"I'm not Aveana. Your not Rath, Michael. No more then Max is Zan. We are different. I'm different. I'm... I'm not Aveana." Shaking her head. "I'm not even close. Too much has happened Michael. I've done too much...." Brushing away the lone tear that started to make it's way down her check. "We just now remember who we once were. You remember a girl. A sister that once lived, Michael. I'm not her. I'm not even close to being her. I've lived a whole different life. So have you."
"Liz..." Michael reaching out to Liz.
Taking a step away from Michael. "No." Shaking her head. "I don't know you Michael. I don't know Max. I really don't know anything about you. What you have done. What you have experience. It has all made you who you are now. Your not Rath. Max isn't Zan. It's all a life I don't know about."
"Liz."
"You don't know me..." Taking a quick glance at him before once more looking down. "You can't expect me to just move in and start playing house."
"Give us a chance to know you." Michael throwing up his hands in frustration.
"Michael. Your not listening to me."
"I know you Liz. I know you. I know your heart."
"Do you Max?" Looking up at him. "Do you know me?"
"I think so. Yes."
"Then tell me, Max." Anger and hurt in her voice. "Please tell me about my self because right now. I don't know. I don't. I don't know anything any more. Everything is just a big mess. I know the person that HE wanted me to be. I know what Kaviar wants from me." Her voice losing the hardness it held just seconds ago. "I even know what you and Michael want me to be. But I don't think I am. That I can be.. I don't know... I'm not even sure yet that there is even a place here for me."
"Liz."
"I can't...." Shaking her head. "I'm sorry. I just need some time. Time to figure out for my self..... Alone... I'll stay in Roswell. I won't sneak off and leave. But I can't live with you either. Any of you." Looking from him to Michael. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Please understand. I just can't. Not right now." Wrapping her arms defensively around herself once more.
Everyone quiet for a moment.
"Liz. What about your powers?" Noticing Alex sitting in the chair. Speaking up for the first time. Having forgotten all about him sitting there. "Sorry." Apologizing for interrupting. Watching Alex look at everyone. "Not to butt in, but from what I've seen and what I've been told about your powers. They are based on your emotions. It doesn't seem that you are that in control of them right now. From what I saw, it took everything that Max had to control them."
"Liz, he has a point." Recalling what it felt like. The feelings that went through him. The power. It did take everything he had to control them.
"I can handle mine now." - Liz
"But you knocked out the power in two blocks." - Michael
"With Max's help. I don't have that kind of power alone. It happened because I couldn't deal with what I remembered."
"And now?" - Alex
"I'm in control." Liz stating firmly.
"How? By blocking everything out?" Standing in front of her. Softening his voice as much as possible. Knowing his nexts words were going to hurt her. "I saw and felt everything you did Liz. Everything that was done to you." Watching her bite her bottom lip as it started to tremble. Feeling his own pain and guilt go through him. "I know what happen. Just like I was there. I know and felt everything you went through. Down to the smallest detail." Watching the tears slip over her cheek as she turned away from him. "Wait." Pulling her to him. Not letting her go. Whispering in her ear. "Hear me out."
Not pulling out of his arms. "Max...." Coming out a small plea.
"It amazes me that you were able to survive. I realize now the only way you did was by allowing yourself and Nesado to lock it away. Even from yourself."
Feeling a very small amount of her pain and guilt seep through.
"I'm sorry..." Feeling her feet give out from under her. Easily lowering them both to the floor. Still holding on to her from behind.
"Max." - Michael
Ignoring Michael. Whispering softly in her ear. "Sh.. Don't. It's ok. It's ok. You wouldn't have survived any other way. I thank god that you did. That you were able to make it back to me. None of it was your fault baby. None of it. I'm not blaming you at all. I never could. I'm going to be here for you forever. I'm not leaving you. That is never going to change. Nothing you did or could do will change that." Kissing her head. "Everything you lived through. That you had to endure. Baby, you haven't really dealt with anything yet." *I haven't dealt with it.* "Your just pushing it back again. Blocking it on your own this time." Hoping he was saying it right. "You not feeling anything isn't going to make it better. Do you understand what I'm saying?"
Feeling her start to struggle in his arms.
"Don't Liz. Let us help you. Let me help you. We can deal with this together. Your not alone any more."
"I'm fine." Pulling out of his arms. "It's alright. I'm alright."
"Liz."
"No, I just need some time alone. Please. Everything has happened so fast."
"Liz...."
"I can't Max. Not now. Please not now." Tears sliding down her cheeks. "I can't do this now."
"It's alright."
"We don't have to do anything now. Right Max." Seeing the fear and hardness in Michael's eyes.
"No, we don't."
Watching Liz try to get a hold of her self. "I just can't. Not right now. Look, my whole world has been turned upside down in a matter of days. Everything I've believed was wrong. I killed the only person that was there for me." Backing up against the wall. Away from them.
"Liz."
Watching her bring her shaky hands to her head. "I'm confused. Everything is so mixed up. So intense." Shaking her head. "I don't know if I'm coming or going. I feel like I'm drowning."
"Liz..." Feeling like his heart was being ripped out.
"Please. Please." Sliding down the wall. "I just need some time alone. Time away from all of you. I need to think... I need to. I feel like I'm suffocating. I need to be away from you. To figure out my own feelings with out worrying about yours. Just some time. I can't do this right now. Not with you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry."
"Max?" Hearing the helplessness in Michael's voice. "What do we do?"
"I don't know." Kneeling down beside her. "Liz..." Reaching out to her just to stop a few inches from her. *To figure out what I'm feeling with worrying about yours.* Liz's words echoing in his head. *Liz's feels everything that we do. She so afraid that she will hurt us.*
"Please... I'm sorry. I just need a little time. To breathe. Please."
"What do you want us to do?"
"Stay away from me."
"Liz."
"Please.... Just for a while. I told you that I wouldn't leave Roswell. I'm sorry that's all I can give you right now. I'll stay in town but that's it. I just need some time." Pleading with her eyes for them to understand.
"Where are you wanting to stay then?" Feeling helpless. Not knowing what else to do. *I can't force her stay with us.* Afraid that she would leave Roswell if they tried to force her too.
"Liz shouldn't stay alone." Michael
"Liz can stay with me and Kyle." Sheriff walking into the room. "Liz wouldn't be alone and it would follow the cover story we told the hospital about me being responsible for her."
"Max, I don't know about this." Michael looking uncertain.
"Better then her living alone. That is if Liz agrees to it." - Alex
Not seeing another option. *At least she would be with someone. Sheriff would also be able to tell if some one new show up in town. It's only 15 minutes at the most from my house. 5 if I break every speed law known to man.* "Liz?" Turning back to her. "Is that all right with you?" Feeling like he was back into a corner with no way out. *Is that the way Liz feels?*
"I..... " Looking at the sheriff back to him.
"It's alright. You would be safe there. Sheriff and Kyle will take care of you." Reasuring her as much as possiable. *Alex is right. Better then her being alone.*
Studying him a moment before finally nodding her head. "Are you sure?" Liz looking at the Sheriff.
"It would be an honor." - Jim
Turning back to him. "I'm sorry."
"It's going to be alright." Giving her a small smile. *One step forward. Two steps back. Who ever thought of that saying was a guineas.* Feeling like that was the way it was with Liz. *For every step that I gained with her. It feel like I lost that much more with her.
Special thanks to Roswelllover, pandas2001, tabby, frenchkiss70, milly (Yes Alex reminds me of Seth from OC.- love that show!) Thank you all for taking time to leave feedback. Keeps me going!
Before you throw stones- Remember I love you all. (Of couse it's all going to work out. You really didn't think I would make it that easy did you?)
CHAPTER 23
He could feel her giving in. Surrendering to them. How tired and beaten she felt before she pulled out of his arms.
"So what now?" Not looking at him. Once more intent on studying her feet.
"You come home with me." Hoping she would find comfort in the fact.
"No." Looking up at him sharply.
The one word sending pain in his heart.
"But you just said you would stay." Michael taking a step towards her once more.
"I know." Coming out a small whisper.
*She doesn't know Michael is moving in too.* "Michael is going to move in with us too. We can all be together."
"I'm sorry. I can't stay with you. I can't. I'm sorry." Shaking her head.
"Then you can live with me. I'll sleep on the couch or we can get a bigger place together." Michael taking another step towards her.
"No." Shaking her head again as she took a step back from them. "I can't live with you either Michael. I'm sorry." Not looking at either one of them.
"But you just said that you would stay here." Hearing the irritation once more enter Michael's raised voice.
"Yes. I'll stay in Roswell, but I can't live with you. Either of you. I'm sorry."
"You can't stay by yourself." Not liking that idea at all but relieved never the less that she was willing to stay in Roswell.
"I have been most of my life." Watching her fidget with the strap of her bag now.
"But your not alone anymore." Michael pointing out.
"You stay alone Michael. I have the money. I can get my own place."
"Because he wouldn't stay with us." Feeling himself start to get frustrated too. "We need to stick together." Not entirely trusting the fact that she would stay in Roswell. *Who's to say that she won't sneak off in the middle of the night with out them?* Not liking that thought at all. *Not to mention if something happens to her.*
Looking at him. "I told you that I would stay." As if reading his thoughts. "I've never lied to you. If I really wanted to go. I would be gone by now. I've could have just mind warp you." Stating the facts simply.
Not really believe that she was strong enough at the moment to do just that or that she would. "I just don't think it would be a good idea for you to stay alone." Softening his tone once more. "You would have your own room." Trying once more. "I've talked to my parents. They know the truth about all of us. Everything. They want you to stay with us too."
"Please Max." Pleading with her eyes for him to understand.
"I don't understand." Michael starting to pace the room.
"Michael...." Liz's voice trailing off.
"Your my sister. You belong with me."
"No I don't."
Michael stopping in front of her. "What?" Michael looking at Liz like she went crazy. "How can you say that?"
"I'm not Aveana. Your not Rath, Michael. No more then Max is Zan. We are different. I'm different. I'm... I'm not Aveana." Shaking her head. "I'm not even close. Too much has happened Michael. I've done too much...." Brushing away the lone tear that started to make it's way down her check. "We just now remember who we once were. You remember a girl. A sister that once lived, Michael. I'm not her. I'm not even close to being her. I've lived a whole different life. So have you."
"Liz..." Michael reaching out to Liz.
Taking a step away from Michael. "No." Shaking her head. "I don't know you Michael. I don't know Max. I really don't know anything about you. What you have done. What you have experience. It has all made you who you are now. Your not Rath. Max isn't Zan. It's all a life I don't know about."
"Liz."
"You don't know me..." Taking a quick glance at him before once more looking down. "You can't expect me to just move in and start playing house."
"Give us a chance to know you." Michael throwing up his hands in frustration.
"Michael. Your not listening to me."
"I know you Liz. I know you. I know your heart."
"Do you Max?" Looking up at him. "Do you know me?"
"I think so. Yes."
"Then tell me, Max." Anger and hurt in her voice. "Please tell me about my self because right now. I don't know. I don't. I don't know anything any more. Everything is just a big mess. I know the person that HE wanted me to be. I know what Kaviar wants from me." Her voice losing the hardness it held just seconds ago. "I even know what you and Michael want me to be. But I don't think I am. That I can be.. I don't know... I'm not even sure yet that there is even a place here for me."
"Liz."
"I can't...." Shaking her head. "I'm sorry. I just need some time. Time to figure out for my self..... Alone... I'll stay in Roswell. I won't sneak off and leave. But I can't live with you either. Any of you." Looking from him to Michael. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Please understand. I just can't. Not right now." Wrapping her arms defensively around herself once more.
Everyone quiet for a moment.
"Liz. What about your powers?" Noticing Alex sitting in the chair. Speaking up for the first time. Having forgotten all about him sitting there. "Sorry." Apologizing for interrupting. Watching Alex look at everyone. "Not to butt in, but from what I've seen and what I've been told about your powers. They are based on your emotions. It doesn't seem that you are that in control of them right now. From what I saw, it took everything that Max had to control them."
"Liz, he has a point." Recalling what it felt like. The feelings that went through him. The power. It did take everything he had to control them.
"I can handle mine now." - Liz
"But you knocked out the power in two blocks." - Michael
"With Max's help. I don't have that kind of power alone. It happened because I couldn't deal with what I remembered."
"And now?" - Alex
"I'm in control." Liz stating firmly.
"How? By blocking everything out?" Standing in front of her. Softening his voice as much as possible. Knowing his nexts words were going to hurt her. "I saw and felt everything you did Liz. Everything that was done to you." Watching her bite her bottom lip as it started to tremble. Feeling his own pain and guilt go through him. "I know what happen. Just like I was there. I know and felt everything you went through. Down to the smallest detail." Watching the tears slip over her cheek as she turned away from him. "Wait." Pulling her to him. Not letting her go. Whispering in her ear. "Hear me out."
Not pulling out of his arms. "Max...." Coming out a small plea.
"It amazes me that you were able to survive. I realize now the only way you did was by allowing yourself and Nesado to lock it away. Even from yourself."
Feeling a very small amount of her pain and guilt seep through.
"I'm sorry..." Feeling her feet give out from under her. Easily lowering them both to the floor. Still holding on to her from behind.
"Max." - Michael
Ignoring Michael. Whispering softly in her ear. "Sh.. Don't. It's ok. It's ok. You wouldn't have survived any other way. I thank god that you did. That you were able to make it back to me. None of it was your fault baby. None of it. I'm not blaming you at all. I never could. I'm going to be here for you forever. I'm not leaving you. That is never going to change. Nothing you did or could do will change that." Kissing her head. "Everything you lived through. That you had to endure. Baby, you haven't really dealt with anything yet." *I haven't dealt with it.* "Your just pushing it back again. Blocking it on your own this time." Hoping he was saying it right. "You not feeling anything isn't going to make it better. Do you understand what I'm saying?"
Feeling her start to struggle in his arms.
"Don't Liz. Let us help you. Let me help you. We can deal with this together. Your not alone any more."
"I'm fine." Pulling out of his arms. "It's alright. I'm alright."
"Liz."
"No, I just need some time alone. Please. Everything has happened so fast."
"Liz...."
"I can't Max. Not now. Please not now." Tears sliding down her cheeks. "I can't do this now."
"It's alright."
"We don't have to do anything now. Right Max." Seeing the fear and hardness in Michael's eyes.
"No, we don't."
Watching Liz try to get a hold of her self. "I just can't. Not right now. Look, my whole world has been turned upside down in a matter of days. Everything I've believed was wrong. I killed the only person that was there for me." Backing up against the wall. Away from them.
"Liz."
Watching her bring her shaky hands to her head. "I'm confused. Everything is so mixed up. So intense." Shaking her head. "I don't know if I'm coming or going. I feel like I'm drowning."
"Liz..." Feeling like his heart was being ripped out.
"Please. Please." Sliding down the wall. "I just need some time alone. Time away from all of you. I need to think... I need to. I feel like I'm suffocating. I need to be away from you. To figure out my own feelings with out worrying about yours. Just some time. I can't do this right now. Not with you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry."
"Max?" Hearing the helplessness in Michael's voice. "What do we do?"
"I don't know." Kneeling down beside her. "Liz..." Reaching out to her just to stop a few inches from her. *To figure out what I'm feeling with worrying about yours.* Liz's words echoing in his head. *Liz's feels everything that we do. She so afraid that she will hurt us.*
"Please... I'm sorry. I just need a little time. To breathe. Please."
"What do you want us to do?"
"Stay away from me."
"Liz."
"Please.... Just for a while. I told you that I wouldn't leave Roswell. I'm sorry that's all I can give you right now. I'll stay in town but that's it. I just need some time." Pleading with her eyes for them to understand.
"Where are you wanting to stay then?" Feeling helpless. Not knowing what else to do. *I can't force her stay with us.* Afraid that she would leave Roswell if they tried to force her too.
"Liz shouldn't stay alone." Michael
"Liz can stay with me and Kyle." Sheriff walking into the room. "Liz wouldn't be alone and it would follow the cover story we told the hospital about me being responsible for her."
"Max, I don't know about this." Michael looking uncertain.
"Better then her living alone. That is if Liz agrees to it." - Alex
Not seeing another option. *At least she would be with someone. Sheriff would also be able to tell if some one new show up in town. It's only 15 minutes at the most from my house. 5 if I break every speed law known to man.* "Liz?" Turning back to her. "Is that all right with you?" Feeling like he was back into a corner with no way out. *Is that the way Liz feels?*
"I..... " Looking at the sheriff back to him.
"It's alright. You would be safe there. Sheriff and Kyle will take care of you." Reasuring her as much as possiable. *Alex is right. Better then her being alone.*
Studying him a moment before finally nodding her head. "Are you sure?" Liz looking at the Sheriff.
"It would be an honor." - Jim
Turning back to him. "I'm sorry."
"It's going to be alright." Giving her a small smile. *One step forward. Two steps back. Who ever thought of that saying was a guineas.* Feeling like that was the way it was with Liz. *For every step that I gained with her. It feel like I lost that much more with her.
Dig my grave,
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
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CHAPTER 23B
LIZ'S POV
"All Set?" Sheriff putting on his seat belt.
Taking one last look out the rain covered car window at Michael and Max. Pushing down the pain and guilt once more. Pushing it deeper. Willing it away. Not to over come her. Leaning back in her seat. Closing her eyes briefly a moment before nodding her head. *Even from here. I can see their pain.* Hating herself for putting it there but not able to make herself stay with them either. *The more I stay away from them. The less I can hurt them.*
*Less it can hurt me.*
Starting the car. "You know Liz. It's not too late to change your mind."
Shaking her head no. *I can't stay with them right now. No, not now.* Not feeling very strong at the moment. *I just can't deal with them right now. Not now.* Not voicing her thoughts out loud.
*Am I ever going to be able to?*
*I don't know.* Answer her own question honesty.
*That was the problem wasn't it. I don't know. I don't know anything anymore.* Feeling the exhausting once more take a hold of her. *I've never been so tired in my entire life.*
"It's going to get better Liz. I promise you."
Looking over at the Sheriff.
"Time. Time always has that effect. I'm not going to say it will be easy or tell you and say that I understand. The truth is no one ever really could. I want you to know that I'm here for you if you ever want to talk. I'm not saying that I'll have all the answerer. But I'll try to help you as much as I can." Taking a quick look at her. Seeing the sincerity in his eyes before turning them back to the road. "There is not anything I wouldn't do for you and the others."
"Thank you."
Nodding his head this time.
"Thank you for letting me stay with you."
"It's the least I can do. I know Kyle's happy to have you. He's getting the guest room ready right now. It's not much. But I think it will do."
"Thanks." Looking once more out the window. The houses and trees going by. The rain pouring down. Giving no signs of stopping soon.
"They care a lot about you."
"I know." Not looking at him.
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MAX'S POV
Watching Vilenti and Liz pull out of the parking lot. Following the car with his eyes until it rounded the corner. Ignoring the rain that was soaking through his clothes.
Praying that she would some how change her mind and come back. Knowing at the same time that she wouldn't.
Feeling Michael's powers grow more. Having felt them increase steadily since it was decided that Liz was staying with Kyle and his dad. *Need to get you out of here.* Giving him the motivation to move finally.
Climbing in the jeep. Michael following. Starting it up and automatically heading to the ravine despite the rain. Knowing Michael was ready to blow something up. *He's not the only one.* Feeling the need to release some energy too.
*Just get to the desert Max. Get to the desert.* Trying hard to just concentrate on his driving. Not Liz and the fact that she wasn't staying with him. Not what they did to her. Not the closed off feeling he was now getting from her. That Liz was once more pulling away from him. Not the fact that he had no idea on how to fix everything.
Michael finally breaking the silence when they got close to the ravine.. "I can't believe this. I can't believe this. I just don't understand. I don't. What is going through that head of hers? You think that Liz would be happy to find us. That we where finally together. It's the whole reason we are on this planet! I thought she was looking for us all this time? Isn't that what Liz said? She came to us. Remember? How can she just walk away from us now? How can she say we don't belong together? How can she go live with them? Why not with me? Us? I'm her brother. No matter what she said. We are family. Family belongs together. Too much time has been wasted already. We should be making up for it. Not staying away from each other. The sheriff. I know Max that he is on our side and all but it's still a little freaky. And Kyle. I don't like the way that he looks at her, man."
"Kyle?" Finally speaking up as he pulled to a stop at the ravine. "What about the way that he looks at Liz?" Turning to Michael.
"Like he likes her."
"So.." Realize what Michael was saying. Just not wanting to get it.
"Likes her. Likes her, Max. Come on your not that dense." Looking at him like he was stupid.
Getting out of the jeep. Still ignoring the rain that quickly resoaked his clothes. What little they had actually dried. *No, No, NO. Kyle knows that me and Liz belong together. No I'm not even going there. We have other things to worry about.* Watching Michael get out too. "Michael, I don't think Kyle or Liz would...." Not being able to bring himself to finish it without getting sick. *No.*
"I still don't think Liz staying with Sheriff is a good idea. She belongs with us. That's the whole reason that we were brought back was to be together. That's it. Not any of this was suppose to happens. We weren't suppose to have to deal with this.. Liz wasn't suppose to deal with any of this." Guilt once more entering Michael's voice.
Not bothering to disagree with him.
"It's not right. It's not fair." Michael raising his hand to blow some rocks up. "We were all suppose to be happy."
Letting Michael rant and rave. Not even bothering to calm him down yet. *Because face it. It wasn't fair. Us getting separate wasn't fair. Liz being raised and tortured by Nesado wasn't fair. Everything that was done to Liz wasn't fair. But it happened. Now they just had to learn to deal with it.* Picking up a couple rocks. Throwing them as hard as he could. *Get her though all of it. Figure out away to make it better. To get her to let us in. Make it up to her.*
"Max tell me what happened. What did you see?" Michael turning once more to him. "I know you saw what happened to her."
Surprised by his question. Still expecting him to to ranting and raving about Liz not staying with them. "Michael." Not wanting to get into it right now. *I haven't process anything yet. What am I suppose to tell him.* Hearing Liz's screams once more in his head.
"Kaviar raped her again." Stating the words.
Throwing a rock as hard as he could. "Yes." Looking Michael in the eyes. Seeing no point in sugar coating it.
"Bastard."
Not even flinching as rocks exploding all around him. Knowing he should stop him but didn't.
"Nesado?"
"No. Not that I saw." Throwing another rock. "He covered for Kaviar though. Made Liz forget everything about him. What he did to Liz. Everything he forced her to do." Taking a breathe. "I'm not sure it was to protect Kaviar and their secret. Or if it was to keep Liz from losing it totally. I haven't process that much yet."
"Losing it?"
"From what I seen and felt. After Kaviar would visit. Nesado would block it from Liz or Liz herself would block it out to deal. But she still had the information on what to do and what she learned. Lessons." Spiting out the word. "Liz just didn't remember what happen to get the information. Remember the missing time that she spoke of?"
Watching Michael nod his head yes.
"That was it." Taking a deep breathe before continuing. "When Kaviar forced her. Nesado wasn't there to stop it. I'm not even sure that he would have if he was there. Liz couldn't deal. She...." Tears stinging his eyes. Blinking them back. "She didn't know how to escape. When Nesado came back and found her. Liz was barely holding on. He had to block everything out. She lost almost everything. He basically had to rebuild her."
"Rebuilt her?"
"I don't know how else to explain it. But that sounds about right. He had to block a large portion of her memory to keep her from going over the edge. Liz nearly killed both of them."
"Damn it!" Blowing up some more rocks. "What else?"
"They made her kill." Seeing no point in stopping now.
"What?" Stopping to look at him.
"They had her kill."
"Who? What and how exactly?"
"Kaviar tried to take control of her. He hurt her until she did it. Nearly killed her in the process. I assume he was teaching her to kill us."
"Nesado?"
"Watch Kaviar. Had her do it, but it was like he put her into a trance first. Brain washed her into doing it. It felt like Liz didn't know what she was doing when she did it. Like she was waking up from a dream when it was over. They are sick Michael. Sick. I don't know how she survived. I don't know." Throwing more rocks. Feeling the anger rise inside of him. *I'm glad Liz got to kill him.* Only regretting that he didn't get to do it himself. *Nesado deserved to die.*
"They made her forget everything?"
"Yes. But even blocking it away. The fact of living through it and not pushing her totally over the edge." Shaking his head. "I can't imagine." *No I can. I felt what she felt. Like dying. At different times. Liz wished for death.* "The headaches that she used to have. The pills Nesado gave her. Force her to forget. To help her deal. When some thing did slip through. I think he just erased it."
"And she remembers everything now. That's what happened at the hospital."
"Yes. I think so." Not wanting to believe that there could be anything worst then what Liz already remembered. *God, I hope so.* Not wanting to think about it.
"So how is Liz dealing now?"
"She's not. Liz is just pushing it back on her own."
"Can she do that?"
"She did. I'm just not sure about how long it will last."
"Liz needs us."
"Liz doesn't see it that way yet. But yes, I can't see her getting through it alone." *How can anyone?*
"So if Liz can't block it away on her own? Can we erase it for her?"
Looking out at the water. "I don't think it's perment. Or even if we can do it for her. It's likes, she's awake for the first time in her life. She has all the answerers that she ever sought." Thinking out loud.
"I don't think we want anymore questions answerer. Doesn't seem like Liz does either."
Looking once more at Michael. "No. But I don't know how to stop them either. She's going to have to face it. I don't think she has a choice now. I think we took that away from when we asked her to remember. Liz had to break down the perment walls that protected herself." Feeling guilty of the fact. "Besides, it's going to be the only way she can truly heal. Blocking it isn't going to help."
"So we need to go get her. Convince her that she belongs with us. That we can help her."
"Its not going to be that easy."
"We just make her understand."
"How?" Wishing that Michael had the hidden answerer.
"I don't know. We can just make her."
"I think Liz has been forced to do enough for this life." Not wanting to be the one to hurt her anymore. "I think we should just give her time." Not knowing what else to do.
"Max...."
"Michael, remember when Isabel tried to force you into moving in with us?"
"Yeah." Looking at him with uncertainty.
"You said you would run away before you stayed with us. Claiming that you needed to live on your own. That it was something you just had to do."
"This is different."
"Would you have ran away?"
"Yes. No. I don't know. Isabel and you backed off. I never really had to decide."
"We weren't will to take that chance with you. Are you willing to take that risk with Liz?"
"No. But do you really trust her to stay in Roswell?"
Thinking about it a moment. "I have to. I don't have a choose." Not willing to force his hand at the moment and take a chance of her leaving. Wanting to give Liz all the room she needed. *Anything to make her feel better. To give her comfort. Even if it is away from me.*
"I just don't want to lose her." Stating the same words that he spoke here just days before.
"I know."
"Why does it feel like we already did?"
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LIZ'S POV
"Here you go. I just changed the sheets." Stepping into the room. "So the bed is fresh."
Scanning the room with her eyes. It was small and cozy. The walls where painted light green with a warm beige carpet. Over head light with ceiling fan. The bed had it's side pushed up against the wall. Covered with a white feather quilt with two huge light green pillows on it. Giving the room an airy opened feeling. It contained a soft light wood dresser on the opposite wall of the bed between a medium size closet and closed door. The adjacent wall held a big bay window it a seat under it. Covered with small light green pillows and cushion also.
"Thank you."
Putting her back pack on the dresser. "It's not much but it will do. You have your own bathroom. Going over to the door. Opening it up tuning it on the light so she could see in. Seeing that it matched the bedroom with the light green and white scem.
Nodding.
"You can change anything you like. Or if it's not big enough. You can have my room. It's across the hall. I mean, I'll switch with you. It's not much bigger but...."
"It's fine. Thanks." Giving him a small smile.
"Alex called to say he would be over later to drop you off the clothes and what ever else that Maria and Isabel bought you."
*What?*
Seeing the question in her eyes. "Apparently they took it upon their self to skip school and shop for you today. Alex said they were getting carried away. Said he would also drop you of a new phone. Dad said he would have both your SUV brought over. I guess he will talk to later about the details."
"Details?" Coming into the room more.
"About the funeral and what we will tell everybody. Dad has been working out all the details with Mr. Evans."
"Oh.." Looking at her hands. *Funeral?*
*I did kill HIM.* Swallowing the lump in her throat.
"You alright?"
Shifting her attention once more to Kyle. "Yeah fine." Giving him a weak smile.
"Well, I guess I'll leave you to get settled."
Looking out the rain covered window. Seeing the trees of the back yard away in the wind.
"I'm just go make lunch. Alex said you haven't ate. To make sure that I feed you. Peanut butter and jelly alright?"
"I'm not very hungry."
"I could order a pizza or something. We haven't gone shopping in a while. We usually eat out a lot or a lot of frozen food."
Turning to face Kyle. Seeing how hard he was trying to make her feel welcome. "The sandwich is fine Kyle. Thank you." Giving him another small smile.
Big grin on his face. "Ok. I'll just go fix it."
Nodding her head.
Kyle ducking out the door. Turning back to the window.
"Liz?"
Turning to see Kyle once more standing in the door way.
"It's good to have you here."
LIZ'S POV
"All Set?" Sheriff putting on his seat belt.
Taking one last look out the rain covered car window at Michael and Max. Pushing down the pain and guilt once more. Pushing it deeper. Willing it away. Not to over come her. Leaning back in her seat. Closing her eyes briefly a moment before nodding her head. *Even from here. I can see their pain.* Hating herself for putting it there but not able to make herself stay with them either. *The more I stay away from them. The less I can hurt them.*
*Less it can hurt me.*
Starting the car. "You know Liz. It's not too late to change your mind."
Shaking her head no. *I can't stay with them right now. No, not now.* Not feeling very strong at the moment. *I just can't deal with them right now. Not now.* Not voicing her thoughts out loud.
*Am I ever going to be able to?*
*I don't know.* Answer her own question honesty.
*That was the problem wasn't it. I don't know. I don't know anything anymore.* Feeling the exhausting once more take a hold of her. *I've never been so tired in my entire life.*
"It's going to get better Liz. I promise you."
Looking over at the Sheriff.
"Time. Time always has that effect. I'm not going to say it will be easy or tell you and say that I understand. The truth is no one ever really could. I want you to know that I'm here for you if you ever want to talk. I'm not saying that I'll have all the answerer. But I'll try to help you as much as I can." Taking a quick look at her. Seeing the sincerity in his eyes before turning them back to the road. "There is not anything I wouldn't do for you and the others."
"Thank you."
Nodding his head this time.
"Thank you for letting me stay with you."
"It's the least I can do. I know Kyle's happy to have you. He's getting the guest room ready right now. It's not much. But I think it will do."
"Thanks." Looking once more out the window. The houses and trees going by. The rain pouring down. Giving no signs of stopping soon.
"They care a lot about you."
"I know." Not looking at him.
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MAX'S POV
Watching Vilenti and Liz pull out of the parking lot. Following the car with his eyes until it rounded the corner. Ignoring the rain that was soaking through his clothes.
Praying that she would some how change her mind and come back. Knowing at the same time that she wouldn't.
Feeling Michael's powers grow more. Having felt them increase steadily since it was decided that Liz was staying with Kyle and his dad. *Need to get you out of here.* Giving him the motivation to move finally.
Climbing in the jeep. Michael following. Starting it up and automatically heading to the ravine despite the rain. Knowing Michael was ready to blow something up. *He's not the only one.* Feeling the need to release some energy too.
*Just get to the desert Max. Get to the desert.* Trying hard to just concentrate on his driving. Not Liz and the fact that she wasn't staying with him. Not what they did to her. Not the closed off feeling he was now getting from her. That Liz was once more pulling away from him. Not the fact that he had no idea on how to fix everything.
Michael finally breaking the silence when they got close to the ravine.. "I can't believe this. I can't believe this. I just don't understand. I don't. What is going through that head of hers? You think that Liz would be happy to find us. That we where finally together. It's the whole reason we are on this planet! I thought she was looking for us all this time? Isn't that what Liz said? She came to us. Remember? How can she just walk away from us now? How can she say we don't belong together? How can she go live with them? Why not with me? Us? I'm her brother. No matter what she said. We are family. Family belongs together. Too much time has been wasted already. We should be making up for it. Not staying away from each other. The sheriff. I know Max that he is on our side and all but it's still a little freaky. And Kyle. I don't like the way that he looks at her, man."
"Kyle?" Finally speaking up as he pulled to a stop at the ravine. "What about the way that he looks at Liz?" Turning to Michael.
"Like he likes her."
"So.." Realize what Michael was saying. Just not wanting to get it.
"Likes her. Likes her, Max. Come on your not that dense." Looking at him like he was stupid.
Getting out of the jeep. Still ignoring the rain that quickly resoaked his clothes. What little they had actually dried. *No, No, NO. Kyle knows that me and Liz belong together. No I'm not even going there. We have other things to worry about.* Watching Michael get out too. "Michael, I don't think Kyle or Liz would...." Not being able to bring himself to finish it without getting sick. *No.*
"I still don't think Liz staying with Sheriff is a good idea. She belongs with us. That's the whole reason that we were brought back was to be together. That's it. Not any of this was suppose to happens. We weren't suppose to have to deal with this.. Liz wasn't suppose to deal with any of this." Guilt once more entering Michael's voice.
Not bothering to disagree with him.
"It's not right. It's not fair." Michael raising his hand to blow some rocks up. "We were all suppose to be happy."
Letting Michael rant and rave. Not even bothering to calm him down yet. *Because face it. It wasn't fair. Us getting separate wasn't fair. Liz being raised and tortured by Nesado wasn't fair. Everything that was done to Liz wasn't fair. But it happened. Now they just had to learn to deal with it.* Picking up a couple rocks. Throwing them as hard as he could. *Get her though all of it. Figure out away to make it better. To get her to let us in. Make it up to her.*
"Max tell me what happened. What did you see?" Michael turning once more to him. "I know you saw what happened to her."
Surprised by his question. Still expecting him to to ranting and raving about Liz not staying with them. "Michael." Not wanting to get into it right now. *I haven't process anything yet. What am I suppose to tell him.* Hearing Liz's screams once more in his head.
"Kaviar raped her again." Stating the words.
Throwing a rock as hard as he could. "Yes." Looking Michael in the eyes. Seeing no point in sugar coating it.
"Bastard."
Not even flinching as rocks exploding all around him. Knowing he should stop him but didn't.
"Nesado?"
"No. Not that I saw." Throwing another rock. "He covered for Kaviar though. Made Liz forget everything about him. What he did to Liz. Everything he forced her to do." Taking a breathe. "I'm not sure it was to protect Kaviar and their secret. Or if it was to keep Liz from losing it totally. I haven't process that much yet."
"Losing it?"
"From what I seen and felt. After Kaviar would visit. Nesado would block it from Liz or Liz herself would block it out to deal. But she still had the information on what to do and what she learned. Lessons." Spiting out the word. "Liz just didn't remember what happen to get the information. Remember the missing time that she spoke of?"
Watching Michael nod his head yes.
"That was it." Taking a deep breathe before continuing. "When Kaviar forced her. Nesado wasn't there to stop it. I'm not even sure that he would have if he was there. Liz couldn't deal. She...." Tears stinging his eyes. Blinking them back. "She didn't know how to escape. When Nesado came back and found her. Liz was barely holding on. He had to block everything out. She lost almost everything. He basically had to rebuild her."
"Rebuilt her?"
"I don't know how else to explain it. But that sounds about right. He had to block a large portion of her memory to keep her from going over the edge. Liz nearly killed both of them."
"Damn it!" Blowing up some more rocks. "What else?"
"They made her kill." Seeing no point in stopping now.
"What?" Stopping to look at him.
"They had her kill."
"Who? What and how exactly?"
"Kaviar tried to take control of her. He hurt her until she did it. Nearly killed her in the process. I assume he was teaching her to kill us."
"Nesado?"
"Watch Kaviar. Had her do it, but it was like he put her into a trance first. Brain washed her into doing it. It felt like Liz didn't know what she was doing when she did it. Like she was waking up from a dream when it was over. They are sick Michael. Sick. I don't know how she survived. I don't know." Throwing more rocks. Feeling the anger rise inside of him. *I'm glad Liz got to kill him.* Only regretting that he didn't get to do it himself. *Nesado deserved to die.*
"They made her forget everything?"
"Yes. But even blocking it away. The fact of living through it and not pushing her totally over the edge." Shaking his head. "I can't imagine." *No I can. I felt what she felt. Like dying. At different times. Liz wished for death.* "The headaches that she used to have. The pills Nesado gave her. Force her to forget. To help her deal. When some thing did slip through. I think he just erased it."
"And she remembers everything now. That's what happened at the hospital."
"Yes. I think so." Not wanting to believe that there could be anything worst then what Liz already remembered. *God, I hope so.* Not wanting to think about it.
"So how is Liz dealing now?"
"She's not. Liz is just pushing it back on her own."
"Can she do that?"
"She did. I'm just not sure about how long it will last."
"Liz needs us."
"Liz doesn't see it that way yet. But yes, I can't see her getting through it alone." *How can anyone?*
"So if Liz can't block it away on her own? Can we erase it for her?"
Looking out at the water. "I don't think it's perment. Or even if we can do it for her. It's likes, she's awake for the first time in her life. She has all the answerers that she ever sought." Thinking out loud.
"I don't think we want anymore questions answerer. Doesn't seem like Liz does either."
Looking once more at Michael. "No. But I don't know how to stop them either. She's going to have to face it. I don't think she has a choice now. I think we took that away from when we asked her to remember. Liz had to break down the perment walls that protected herself." Feeling guilty of the fact. "Besides, it's going to be the only way she can truly heal. Blocking it isn't going to help."
"So we need to go get her. Convince her that she belongs with us. That we can help her."
"Its not going to be that easy."
"We just make her understand."
"How?" Wishing that Michael had the hidden answerer.
"I don't know. We can just make her."
"I think Liz has been forced to do enough for this life." Not wanting to be the one to hurt her anymore. "I think we should just give her time." Not knowing what else to do.
"Max...."
"Michael, remember when Isabel tried to force you into moving in with us?"
"Yeah." Looking at him with uncertainty.
"You said you would run away before you stayed with us. Claiming that you needed to live on your own. That it was something you just had to do."
"This is different."
"Would you have ran away?"
"Yes. No. I don't know. Isabel and you backed off. I never really had to decide."
"We weren't will to take that chance with you. Are you willing to take that risk with Liz?"
"No. But do you really trust her to stay in Roswell?"
Thinking about it a moment. "I have to. I don't have a choose." Not willing to force his hand at the moment and take a chance of her leaving. Wanting to give Liz all the room she needed. *Anything to make her feel better. To give her comfort. Even if it is away from me.*
"I just don't want to lose her." Stating the same words that he spoke here just days before.
"I know."
"Why does it feel like we already did?"
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LIZ'S POV
"Here you go. I just changed the sheets." Stepping into the room. "So the bed is fresh."
Scanning the room with her eyes. It was small and cozy. The walls where painted light green with a warm beige carpet. Over head light with ceiling fan. The bed had it's side pushed up against the wall. Covered with a white feather quilt with two huge light green pillows on it. Giving the room an airy opened feeling. It contained a soft light wood dresser on the opposite wall of the bed between a medium size closet and closed door. The adjacent wall held a big bay window it a seat under it. Covered with small light green pillows and cushion also.
"Thank you."
Putting her back pack on the dresser. "It's not much but it will do. You have your own bathroom. Going over to the door. Opening it up tuning it on the light so she could see in. Seeing that it matched the bedroom with the light green and white scem.
Nodding.
"You can change anything you like. Or if it's not big enough. You can have my room. It's across the hall. I mean, I'll switch with you. It's not much bigger but...."
"It's fine. Thanks." Giving him a small smile.
"Alex called to say he would be over later to drop you off the clothes and what ever else that Maria and Isabel bought you."
*What?*
Seeing the question in her eyes. "Apparently they took it upon their self to skip school and shop for you today. Alex said they were getting carried away. Said he would also drop you of a new phone. Dad said he would have both your SUV brought over. I guess he will talk to later about the details."
"Details?" Coming into the room more.
"About the funeral and what we will tell everybody. Dad has been working out all the details with Mr. Evans."
"Oh.." Looking at her hands. *Funeral?*
*I did kill HIM.* Swallowing the lump in her throat.
"You alright?"
Shifting her attention once more to Kyle. "Yeah fine." Giving him a weak smile.
"Well, I guess I'll leave you to get settled."
Looking out the rain covered window. Seeing the trees of the back yard away in the wind.
"I'm just go make lunch. Alex said you haven't ate. To make sure that I feed you. Peanut butter and jelly alright?"
"I'm not very hungry."
"I could order a pizza or something. We haven't gone shopping in a while. We usually eat out a lot or a lot of frozen food."
Turning to face Kyle. Seeing how hard he was trying to make her feel welcome. "The sandwich is fine Kyle. Thank you." Giving him another small smile.
Big grin on his face. "Ok. I'll just go fix it."
Nodding her head.
Kyle ducking out the door. Turning back to the window.
"Liz?"
Turning to see Kyle once more standing in the door way.
"It's good to have you here."
Dig my grave,
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
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This next part does suck. Sort of transition. I wanted to show Liz closed off. Some of the thing that were going through her head and not going through. I've played with it and played with it. I'm giving up or you will never get it. Have any ? just let me no. Sorry. I'm hoping the next part will be better. I hope.
Song by:My immortal- from the album Fallen By Evanescence (Don't own it.)
CHAPTER 24
MAX'S POV
It's been a week and a half now since Liz came home from the hospital. Everyone but Liz was back in school. Trying to concentrate on finials. *Trying would be the key word. Thank god there was only a little over a week left of school before graduation.*
Some things have been settled in that time. Sheriff had legal custody of Liz. With his father's help they were able to push the proper paper work through the system in record time. Making it all nice and legal. *It helped that Dad came up with a fake notarized Will stating that Vilenti was to have sole custody over Liz if anything happened to Ed Parker. *It pays to have your Dad a lawyer sometimes.*
The official report stated that Nesado died in the fire. The fire chief saying that it would be impossible to attain a body. *Not that there was one to attain.* The fire was so hot and intense that it melted everything together. Impossible to tell what anything was. Least of all a body. He could not tell what caused the fire and probably never would. Finding no signs of what caused the fire.. Only that it started in the living room. Being the point of most damage. He said it was a mystery to him because he had never experienced a fire so hot and intense before.
Sheriff had them bulldozer what was left of the house yesterday. Telling everyone that it would be to hard for Liz to look at it.
For appearance reason they had a funeral for Nesado. Liz didn't attend. Placed a tome stone that said ED PARKER. Nothing more.
Liz gave Michael Nesado's SUV. Telling the Sheriff that she thought Michael might like it. That was the closes they came to Liz talking to them.
Me and Michael met with James and Sara one more time. Making it clear that they were not to let anyone else know where they were. Everyone was to go about their lives. To only inform them if there was any word on Kaviar or if there were in any kind of danger.
Liz stayed true to her word. She stayed in Roswell. In fact she never left her room.
He has yet to see Liz. *No that's not true.* Him and Michael have been taking turns at night and some times during the day. Mostly together. Camping out in the Vilenti's back yard. Lucky for them the Vilenti had a nice patch of trees bunch together. With thick leaves that helped keep them dry. Not that they weren't both miserable. Nothing compared to what Liz was going though.
They watch her through the window of her room. Watching Liz pace. Cry. Move things with her powers. Not sleep. Sometimes she would disappear for awhile. Finding out from Kyle she was just taking a shower. Mostly Liz just sat at the window with her head phones on. Staring at the sky. Rarely she would close her eyes. When she did he always got the impression that she wasn't sleeping though.
The Sheriff tried at first to get them to stay in the house but both of them declined. Both knew they were pushing it as it was by just staying in the yard. Liz had asked them to stay away. Neither one could bring themselves not too. Both needed to be close just in case Liz needed them.
Liz wasn't doing well. Kyle said she barely spoke to him or his dad the last couple of days. She was barely eating and only doing so when Kyle made her feel guilty. Kyle said when she did happen to fall asleep she would usually wake up scream but it didn't take her long to get her powers back in control again. Fixing any damage that she had done after she calmed down. Apologizing profusely after. So far him and Michael have not been around when it happen. Adding to his guilt.
Liz was also taking long showers a couple times a day and through the night. He knew most rape victims showered a lot. A sign that they felt dirty. The need to wash away the feeling of their attacker.
He always felt guilty and helpless for not being there when it happened. For not being able to help Liz now.
Looking at Liz's thin pale huddled form looking up at the sky. *Liz is slowly killing herself. This has to stop.* Knowing she couldn't go on much more like this. *She wasn't getting any sleep and neither was them really. Just a few hours here and there. This was starting to take it's toll on all of them.* Recalling the dark circles under all their eyes now. Once more working the kinks out of his body. *I have to come up with a plan soon. Something that won't force Liz away.*
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LIZ'S POV
Staring out the window at the darkness of night. Seeing the stars shine brightly above her as the rain still fell. She didn't think it would stop. It had rain like this before in the different places that she stayed in the past three years. Mostly when she felt the worst. It was like the heavens were trying to match her mood. Trying to make her feel less alone. The only nice part was when it was over. Everything seemed so clean and new.
She knew Max was out there watching her. She never saw him. It was something she just knew. Like the sky being blue. The grass green. Some times she heard Max and Michael talking to Kyle and the Sheriff some where in the house. Mostly about her. They kept their word and stayed away from her. Never coming to her room. Which she was thankful for.
She didn't care anymore. At least that is what she told herself. The only thing important was not feeling. Not thinking. Just concentrating on the music in her head phones. Evanescence mostly. Sometimes Linkin Park. Just letting the music wash over her. Through her. Concentrating on it. The music. The words. Just so that she wouldn't have to think. To feel.
The days and nights were blending together. Becoming the same in her eyes. There was no different. She couldn't tell you how long she has been here. Nor did she care.
She had fell asleep a few times. A few times too many. It was the only time the past over whelmed her. Each time waking up with her screaming. Powers going array before she forced them back down again. Pushing the memories once more away.
Recalling the fear in Kyle's eyes the first time it happened. *I scared him.*
*Yes.* Pushing the thought away once more. Not wanting to think of the pain and fear that she could inflict. That she seem to be able to do to the ones around her.
*He's been a good friend.*
*Yes.*
*So would the others if you let them in.* The part of her that longed to be with Max and Michael speaking up.
*I know.* Not being able to disagree.
Automatically starting the song over again with her mind.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childhood fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Feeling the exhaustion go through her. She has been listening to the words of the song for the last week. It reminded of her of how she felt. When the few emotions slipped through. The first few words matched herself. She was scared. Terrified. HE was gone but she still felt HIM. She thought she could almost hear him whispering in her ear if she listen hard enough. The questions that she still had. What she was scared to face. What HE did to her and allowed to be done to her. She didn't understand. She was afraid that she never would or that she would. That it would hurt her all the more. She was afraid. Afraid that she wouldn't be able to deal with more. Even the slightest bit. She feared that it was just more bad news. That's all everything seemed to be. She knew enough to realize that she was on the edge. A edge that she couldn't get off of. Slowly coming to realize that she really had no choice. One way or another she was going to have to face everything. No matter what it meant for her.
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
Looking once more at the unopened envelope that laid next to her. She had gotten it out of her bag the first day she came here. Right after she repacked her back pack of the clothes that Alex dropped off for her. *Old habits die hard.* She was amazed that it has been there for months and she allowed herself not to see it. How easy she let them twist her mind. How ready she was to believe what ever HE told her.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
She was scared of it. Of what it might contain. What it might say and tell her. HE was gone but HE was still there. Still controlling her even from the grave. She was bounded by this life HE left her in. She didn't understand why HE brought her here finally. Just to want to rip her away again. Why did HE lie about them? About everything? She didn't understand. She never did. It's just now she really needed to know the answerers to go on. To know if she should stay or not. If it was safe for them if she did stay.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
Even now HE had all the control and she didn't know how to take it from HIM. HE had tortured and abused her. Brain washed her. Made her scared most of her life. In the same sense HE trained her. Taught her how to survive. Made her strong. Told her what to do and when to do it. HE was the one that took care of her. In the end saved her from Kaviar. Good or bad. HE was all she had. She didn't know what to do. Afraid she would once more hurt the people that cared about her the most. Afraid that she would make a mistake. A mistake that HE wouldn't be there to correct. Afraid that she was putting them in danger by just being here. Afraid in the same sense to leave. She felt lost with out HIM. Alone. HE made her this way and she still longed to have HIM walk through that door. To just take everything away again. So she wouldn't have to fight anymore. That she could relax with out being buried in a memory.
*How long can I live like this?* Knowing she couldn't do this forever.
*How long did I survive the other way?* Looking once more out the window. The rain coming down.
*I can't keep doing this. I'm not getting any where.*
*What else should I do?*
*Deal. I'm better then this.*
"Am I?*
*Yes. I owe them that much.*
*I don't think I can stand to remember.*
*What's done is done. I can't change that.*
*I don't think I can live with it either.*
*So what are you going to do? Die?*
*I should have died years ago.* Wishing once more that she had. *Maybe that would solve everyone's problem.*
*But I didn't die. It would hurt Max and Michael. Kaviar would win. They have tried to hard to keep me alive.*
*Didn't I die? Isn't this what Kaviar is going to do anyways or worst. Use me to kill Max.* Shuttering at the thought.
*No. I won't hurt Max. I fought before. I tried. If I don't get up and leave this room then I should have just died. Look I fought so hard to get here. To get to them. To what? Just give up now? I can't do that. I owe them more then this. I need to be strong.*
*What am I suppose to do? Just act like it doesn't matter. Everything that I have done. What I did. Just pretend that it doesn't matter at all.*
*I've been pretending my whole life. I can't change the past. The most I can do is learn from it. Deal with it. Don't let it all be in vain. HE taught me never to give up. To fight. Take the past and the lesson and learn from it. HE would not allow me to do this.*
*HE's not here anymore. I killed HIM.* Feeling the tears start to sting her eyes.
Pushing back the tears. *No. I'm not crying for HIM. HE put me in this situation.* Feeling some of her strength returning. *I need to be strong and quit hiding. Quit playing the victim. I'm better then this. I am. I'm stronger then I was before.*
*Now what?*
*Get up and get out of this room. Go take your final exams. Graduate.*
*Then what?*
Faltering a moment. *I deal... One step at a time.* Not really knowing what else to do. Just knowing that she had to do something.
Noticing for the first time that it finally stopped rain.
*And Max and Michael?*
Looking out to see them standing in the yard.
"I still stay away from them for now." Still not sure that she wouldn't be putting them in danger by being with them.
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MAX'S POV
"Any change?" Michael coming up next to him.
Looking over at him to see his soaked hair and cloths. "Bike?"
"Yeah."
Shaking his head. It had yet to stop raining and Michael has yet to driven the SUV that Liz gave him. "How did it go?" Knowing Michael was working hard in catching up. Studying for finials with Alex's help.
"Same. I don't know why they think we need to know half the stuff. Like we are ever going to use it."
Shrugging his shoulder. Not bothering to disagree.
"Has she still been sitting there all this time?"
"Yeah." Looking once more at her. Liz being in the same cloths and position when they left her there that morning.
"How long do you think this will last?" Michael asking the same question that he did every night that they have been there.
"I don't know." Stating the same answerer that he gave ever night.
*What is going through that head of yours Liz? Just let us in.*
"Max. Did you decide what we are going to do about Tess?"
Looking once more at Michael. Tess had been avoiding them. Turning and going the other way each time she saw one of them. With the look of terror in her eyes. Tess even went as far as arranging to take the finials of the classes she has with him. Either after school or this summer. Just so that she wasn't in the same room as him. She looks like she is going to crack any minute. "I don't know." Answering honestly. "She's not exactly a priority right now." Looking once more at Liz.
"I know. But don't you think we should do something? Talk to her."
"I don't know." Not entirely sure talking to her was the best thing to do right now. *I
don't know what to really say to her. Not wanting her to feel like he was pressuring her.* In the same sense he was glad Tess was avoiding him. He had other things to think about and deal with. *Liz.*
"Finally."
"What." Looking up at Michael.
"It's stop raining." Michael stepping out from under the tree.
Following. Looking up to see the rain finally stopped. Looking up at the window to see Liz looking at them.
#Go home. Get some sleep. I'm fine.# Liz's soft voice in their heads.
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This next part does suck. Sort of transition. I wanted to show Liz closed off. Some of the thing that were going through her head and not going through. I've played with it and played with it. I'm giving up or you will never get it. Have any ? just let me no. Sorry. I'm hoping the next part will be better. I hope.
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CHAPTER 24
MAX'S POV
It's been a week and a half now since Liz came home from the hospital. Everyone but Liz was back in school. Trying to concentrate on finials. *Trying would be the key word. Thank god there was only a little over a week left of school before graduation.*
Some things have been settled in that time. Sheriff had legal custody of Liz. With his father's help they were able to push the proper paper work through the system in record time. Making it all nice and legal. *It helped that Dad came up with a fake notarized Will stating that Vilenti was to have sole custody over Liz if anything happened to Ed Parker. *It pays to have your Dad a lawyer sometimes.*
The official report stated that Nesado died in the fire. The fire chief saying that it would be impossible to attain a body. *Not that there was one to attain.* The fire was so hot and intense that it melted everything together. Impossible to tell what anything was. Least of all a body. He could not tell what caused the fire and probably never would. Finding no signs of what caused the fire.. Only that it started in the living room. Being the point of most damage. He said it was a mystery to him because he had never experienced a fire so hot and intense before.
Sheriff had them bulldozer what was left of the house yesterday. Telling everyone that it would be to hard for Liz to look at it.
For appearance reason they had a funeral for Nesado. Liz didn't attend. Placed a tome stone that said ED PARKER. Nothing more.
Liz gave Michael Nesado's SUV. Telling the Sheriff that she thought Michael might like it. That was the closes they came to Liz talking to them.
Me and Michael met with James and Sara one more time. Making it clear that they were not to let anyone else know where they were. Everyone was to go about their lives. To only inform them if there was any word on Kaviar or if there were in any kind of danger.
Liz stayed true to her word. She stayed in Roswell. In fact she never left her room.
He has yet to see Liz. *No that's not true.* Him and Michael have been taking turns at night and some times during the day. Mostly together. Camping out in the Vilenti's back yard. Lucky for them the Vilenti had a nice patch of trees bunch together. With thick leaves that helped keep them dry. Not that they weren't both miserable. Nothing compared to what Liz was going though.
They watch her through the window of her room. Watching Liz pace. Cry. Move things with her powers. Not sleep. Sometimes she would disappear for awhile. Finding out from Kyle she was just taking a shower. Mostly Liz just sat at the window with her head phones on. Staring at the sky. Rarely she would close her eyes. When she did he always got the impression that she wasn't sleeping though.
The Sheriff tried at first to get them to stay in the house but both of them declined. Both knew they were pushing it as it was by just staying in the yard. Liz had asked them to stay away. Neither one could bring themselves not too. Both needed to be close just in case Liz needed them.
Liz wasn't doing well. Kyle said she barely spoke to him or his dad the last couple of days. She was barely eating and only doing so when Kyle made her feel guilty. Kyle said when she did happen to fall asleep she would usually wake up scream but it didn't take her long to get her powers back in control again. Fixing any damage that she had done after she calmed down. Apologizing profusely after. So far him and Michael have not been around when it happen. Adding to his guilt.
Liz was also taking long showers a couple times a day and through the night. He knew most rape victims showered a lot. A sign that they felt dirty. The need to wash away the feeling of their attacker.
He always felt guilty and helpless for not being there when it happened. For not being able to help Liz now.
Looking at Liz's thin pale huddled form looking up at the sky. *Liz is slowly killing herself. This has to stop.* Knowing she couldn't go on much more like this. *She wasn't getting any sleep and neither was them really. Just a few hours here and there. This was starting to take it's toll on all of them.* Recalling the dark circles under all their eyes now. Once more working the kinks out of his body. *I have to come up with a plan soon. Something that won't force Liz away.*
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LIZ'S POV
Staring out the window at the darkness of night. Seeing the stars shine brightly above her as the rain still fell. She didn't think it would stop. It had rain like this before in the different places that she stayed in the past three years. Mostly when she felt the worst. It was like the heavens were trying to match her mood. Trying to make her feel less alone. The only nice part was when it was over. Everything seemed so clean and new.
She knew Max was out there watching her. She never saw him. It was something she just knew. Like the sky being blue. The grass green. Some times she heard Max and Michael talking to Kyle and the Sheriff some where in the house. Mostly about her. They kept their word and stayed away from her. Never coming to her room. Which she was thankful for.
She didn't care anymore. At least that is what she told herself. The only thing important was not feeling. Not thinking. Just concentrating on the music in her head phones. Evanescence mostly. Sometimes Linkin Park. Just letting the music wash over her. Through her. Concentrating on it. The music. The words. Just so that she wouldn't have to think. To feel.
The days and nights were blending together. Becoming the same in her eyes. There was no different. She couldn't tell you how long she has been here. Nor did she care.
She had fell asleep a few times. A few times too many. It was the only time the past over whelmed her. Each time waking up with her screaming. Powers going array before she forced them back down again. Pushing the memories once more away.
Recalling the fear in Kyle's eyes the first time it happened. *I scared him.*
*Yes.* Pushing the thought away once more. Not wanting to think of the pain and fear that she could inflict. That she seem to be able to do to the ones around her.
*He's been a good friend.*
*Yes.*
*So would the others if you let them in.* The part of her that longed to be with Max and Michael speaking up.
*I know.* Not being able to disagree.
Automatically starting the song over again with her mind.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childhood fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Feeling the exhaustion go through her. She has been listening to the words of the song for the last week. It reminded of her of how she felt. When the few emotions slipped through. The first few words matched herself. She was scared. Terrified. HE was gone but she still felt HIM. She thought she could almost hear him whispering in her ear if she listen hard enough. The questions that she still had. What she was scared to face. What HE did to her and allowed to be done to her. She didn't understand. She was afraid that she never would or that she would. That it would hurt her all the more. She was afraid. Afraid that she wouldn't be able to deal with more. Even the slightest bit. She feared that it was just more bad news. That's all everything seemed to be. She knew enough to realize that she was on the edge. A edge that she couldn't get off of. Slowly coming to realize that she really had no choice. One way or another she was going to have to face everything. No matter what it meant for her.
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
Looking once more at the unopened envelope that laid next to her. She had gotten it out of her bag the first day she came here. Right after she repacked her back pack of the clothes that Alex dropped off for her. *Old habits die hard.* She was amazed that it has been there for months and she allowed herself not to see it. How easy she let them twist her mind. How ready she was to believe what ever HE told her.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
She was scared of it. Of what it might contain. What it might say and tell her. HE was gone but HE was still there. Still controlling her even from the grave. She was bounded by this life HE left her in. She didn't understand why HE brought her here finally. Just to want to rip her away again. Why did HE lie about them? About everything? She didn't understand. She never did. It's just now she really needed to know the answerers to go on. To know if she should stay or not. If it was safe for them if she did stay.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
Even now HE had all the control and she didn't know how to take it from HIM. HE had tortured and abused her. Brain washed her. Made her scared most of her life. In the same sense HE trained her. Taught her how to survive. Made her strong. Told her what to do and when to do it. HE was the one that took care of her. In the end saved her from Kaviar. Good or bad. HE was all she had. She didn't know what to do. Afraid she would once more hurt the people that cared about her the most. Afraid that she would make a mistake. A mistake that HE wouldn't be there to correct. Afraid that she was putting them in danger by just being here. Afraid in the same sense to leave. She felt lost with out HIM. Alone. HE made her this way and she still longed to have HIM walk through that door. To just take everything away again. So she wouldn't have to fight anymore. That she could relax with out being buried in a memory.
*How long can I live like this?* Knowing she couldn't do this forever.
*How long did I survive the other way?* Looking once more out the window. The rain coming down.
*I can't keep doing this. I'm not getting any where.*
*What else should I do?*
*Deal. I'm better then this.*
"Am I?*
*Yes. I owe them that much.*
*I don't think I can stand to remember.*
*What's done is done. I can't change that.*
*I don't think I can live with it either.*
*So what are you going to do? Die?*
*I should have died years ago.* Wishing once more that she had. *Maybe that would solve everyone's problem.*
*But I didn't die. It would hurt Max and Michael. Kaviar would win. They have tried to hard to keep me alive.*
*Didn't I die? Isn't this what Kaviar is going to do anyways or worst. Use me to kill Max.* Shuttering at the thought.
*No. I won't hurt Max. I fought before. I tried. If I don't get up and leave this room then I should have just died. Look I fought so hard to get here. To get to them. To what? Just give up now? I can't do that. I owe them more then this. I need to be strong.*
*What am I suppose to do? Just act like it doesn't matter. Everything that I have done. What I did. Just pretend that it doesn't matter at all.*
*I've been pretending my whole life. I can't change the past. The most I can do is learn from it. Deal with it. Don't let it all be in vain. HE taught me never to give up. To fight. Take the past and the lesson and learn from it. HE would not allow me to do this.*
*HE's not here anymore. I killed HIM.* Feeling the tears start to sting her eyes.
Pushing back the tears. *No. I'm not crying for HIM. HE put me in this situation.* Feeling some of her strength returning. *I need to be strong and quit hiding. Quit playing the victim. I'm better then this. I am. I'm stronger then I was before.*
*Now what?*
*Get up and get out of this room. Go take your final exams. Graduate.*
*Then what?*
Faltering a moment. *I deal... One step at a time.* Not really knowing what else to do. Just knowing that she had to do something.
Noticing for the first time that it finally stopped rain.
*And Max and Michael?*
Looking out to see them standing in the yard.
"I still stay away from them for now." Still not sure that she wouldn't be putting them in danger by being with them.
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MAX'S POV
"Any change?" Michael coming up next to him.
Looking over at him to see his soaked hair and cloths. "Bike?"
"Yeah."
Shaking his head. It had yet to stop raining and Michael has yet to driven the SUV that Liz gave him. "How did it go?" Knowing Michael was working hard in catching up. Studying for finials with Alex's help.
"Same. I don't know why they think we need to know half the stuff. Like we are ever going to use it."
Shrugging his shoulder. Not bothering to disagree.
"Has she still been sitting there all this time?"
"Yeah." Looking once more at her. Liz being in the same cloths and position when they left her there that morning.
"How long do you think this will last?" Michael asking the same question that he did every night that they have been there.
"I don't know." Stating the same answerer that he gave ever night.
*What is going through that head of yours Liz? Just let us in.*
"Max. Did you decide what we are going to do about Tess?"
Looking once more at Michael. Tess had been avoiding them. Turning and going the other way each time she saw one of them. With the look of terror in her eyes. Tess even went as far as arranging to take the finials of the classes she has with him. Either after school or this summer. Just so that she wasn't in the same room as him. She looks like she is going to crack any minute. "I don't know." Answering honestly. "She's not exactly a priority right now." Looking once more at Liz.
"I know. But don't you think we should do something? Talk to her."
"I don't know." Not entirely sure talking to her was the best thing to do right now. *I
don't know what to really say to her. Not wanting her to feel like he was pressuring her.* In the same sense he was glad Tess was avoiding him. He had other things to think about and deal with. *Liz.*
"Finally."
"What." Looking up at Michael.
"It's stop raining." Michael stepping out from under the tree.
Following. Looking up to see the rain finally stopped. Looking up at the window to see Liz looking at them.
#Go home. Get some sleep. I'm fine.# Liz's soft voice in their heads.
Dig my grave,
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
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CHAPTER 25
LIZ'S POV
Liz let the hot water wash over her. As she took the soapy wash rag and scrubbed her delicate skin.
Ever so often a memory would slip through. The feelings. She swore that she could still feel Kaviar upon her. In her. Brief moments that dared to destroy her. Making her want to rub her skin raw. To erase any signs that he had ever been there. Every touch. Every feel that was inflicted upon her.
That and the need to throw up. Lucky she hardly ate anything to get sick. For the most part she just dry heaved. Always having to mentally push the memories back. Each time it happened. It always left her feeling drained.
She had read the psych books. She knew enough to know that she was suffering from post traumatic stress disorder. Something that most rape victims, war veterans, victims of violent or traumatic events would experience. Sometime in their lives. She had all the signs. Feeling that she had to shower often. Not sleeping because of nightmares. Feeling that she was to blame or the cause. That she deserved everything that she got. Not eating as a way to feel some sense of control. The wide degree of emotions that she would surely feel in the days and weeks. Maybe even months and years to come.
She knew the truth now. It was no longer hidden. Her subconscious begging her to finally deal with it. To come to some sense of resolution.
*No. I'm not stupid. I've read the books. Knew the proper names for everything that she was experiencing. What the symptoms were. What to expect. What she was suppose to do.*
*Take medication*
*Like I haven't drugged myself enough?*
*Therapy. Share my experience with others like me.*
*Yeah right. People like me.* Almost laughing at the thought.
*Knowing what to do or what was happening to me didn't make any of it easier.*
*That's because most people didn't lose control of their powers when they lost it. Exposing themselves and hurting others.*
Making herself hate who and what she was even more.
Finally turning off the water as it once more turned cold. Stepping out of the tub and started drying off.
For the first time in weeks she felt calm. In control. Not a victim. Starting to actually think about her situation and what she should do. Having decided that she would go to school today and take her finial exams. She would get her diploma. *I have always wanted to go to school. Graduate. Be a normal kid. Maybe I can do that here. Max. Michael and Isabel have always done that. At least until I showed up. Just be normal. At least act it.*
*What about Kaviar?*
*He doesn't know where I am.* Wanting so much to just leave it at that.
*What if he finds me? What about Max and Michael? Isabel? Not to mention Alex, Maria, and the Vilenti's. Kaviar has no problem killing anyone in his way. Innocent or not. He will destroy anything to get what he wants.* Above all else she didn't want to hurt anyone else.
*What he wants is to make Max pay.*
*By having me kill him.*
*I won't.*
*Will I have a choice? I haven't been able to stop him yet.*
*Would Max, Michael and Isabel be able to stop him?*
*They don't know their own powers as well as I do. Or even know everything that they can do yet. Right now I would have to say no. They wouldn't stand a chance. It wouldn't be much of a fight.* Knowing full and well what Kaviar was capable of doing.
*So what do I do? Run away? Help them practice? What?*
*I don't know. If I run away. Max and Michael will search for me. They will give up their lives until they find me.* Knowing with out a shadow of doubt that they would. *Life on the road is no life at all. Is it fair that I take that away from them too? Their friends? Their family? They have a life here. Haven't I done enough damage? Plus what if Kaviar finds them when they are searching? Totally blind siding them by running into them. They still don't know how to use their powers. They couldn't protect themselves against him. At least here they are on their own turf. It could be used to their advantage.* Recalling her training. *Plus there is still a chance that Kaviar still doesn't know where they are. Maybe never will.*
*Is that a chance I'm willing to take?*
*If I stay and help them train? Strengthen their power. What happens if Kaviar finds me before they are ready? I could lead Kaviar right too them. They would die.*
*They could die if Kaviar happens to find them anyways.*
*I don't know.* Feeling herself start to get frustrated. *But if they know their powers they might stand a chance.*
*Or learning their power's could just lead Kaviar too them. There might be a reason why they forgot everything.*
*The four of us together are suppose to be the strongest power ever.*
*It didn't save us the last time.*
*We weren't together.*
*So what am I saying? That we should be together? I should be living with them? Stay with them at all times? Never leave their sides for any reason.*
*No. I can't. I don't think I can deal with them minute to minute. Day to day.*
*What am I doing now?* Recalling how Max and Michael are always there. *Not necessarily in the same room but here never the less.*
*I'm not dealing.* Answering the question truthfully. *Let's face it. Up until a couple hours ago. I haven't done anything but sit in this room.*
*Yeah, but I'm trying now....*
*What about seeing them at school? I have classes with them.*
*No.* Not liking the idea of facing them at all.
*I don't have a choice. If not at school then some where else. They are constantly out side the window or in the house. They are not going to just go back to their lives and leave me sit. I'm going to have to deal with them if I stay.*
*That and the fact that I could lead Kaviar right to them.*
* I'm going to have to decide what to do. Stay or go.*
*What is best for them?*
*Either way. I should make a decision soon.* Knowing she wasn't going to get anywhere at the moment. She wasn't capable of making a decision right now about them. That she wasn't sure of all the facts. Shaking her head. Her thoughts slowly giving her a headache. *Baby steps.* Willing herself to calm down. To relax once more.
Throwing the towel at the mirror. Watching it slid down the mirror. Catching her own reflection in the mirror at the same time.
Seeing herself for the first time since Michael's. For the first time she saw no scars.
Taking at step closer to the mirror. No bruised or broken skin. No scared burn marks on her arms where HE had grabbed her.
Turning slightly to see her back. Lifting up her damp hair. Finding the deep ugly red whipped marks that used to make up her back gone.
"Max healed me." Not really believing what she was seeing. Touching her perfect smooth skin on her arms and stomach. "He really healed me."
Touching her face. Looking closely in the mirror. The faint scars that used to line her jaw and around her ears and forehead now gone. Showing no signs of ever being there before. The only flaw she had now were the dark circles under her eyes from the lack of sleep.
"He really did it." Really seeing herself for the first time in years. Gone was the little girl that once stood there. No more a child.
Smile on her face. *Max healed me. I can wear shorts and short sleeves shirts. Tank tops and skirts.* Thinking of the cloths that Maria and Isabel had bought her. Thinking before that she couldn't wear half the stuff they bought her. *I never owned a dress or skirt before.* Getting a little excited. *Maybe I should change the clothes I packed.* Thinking of the two long sleeve shirts and jeans that she had packed days before.
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"What smells so good?" Kyle coming into the kitchen. Rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.
"Break feast." Answering timidly. After trying on several different outfits. Finally deciding on a red spaghetti strap shirt that showed a small potion of her smooth flat stomach. With a short black skirt and white tennis shoes. *Never knew when you would have to run.* Combing her waist long hair down her back. She even put on a touch of strawberry lip gloss Maria and Isabel had bought her. Even after all that she still had over a hour to kill before school. Deciding to make break feast for Kyle and his Dad. *It was the least I could do. For everything that they where doing for me.* Placing the last of the bacon and toast on the table. Next to the eggs, pancakes and sausage that were already there.
"Liz." Kyle looking up at her in shock. "Wow." Looking at the table and her in amazement.
Not entirely sure if he was referring to the food or the fact that she was dressed and out of her room.
"Kyle."
"Good morning." The sheriff walking into the room. Faltering just a second before putting on a big smile. "Liz. Hi. How are you feeling?'
"Good thank you." Tucking a piece of hair behind her ear. Feeling suddenly nerves.
"Wow." Sheriff looking at the table of food.
"Yeah wow." Kyle starting to make his plate.
"You didn't have to do all of this." - Sheriff.
"I wanted too. It's the least I could do. I wasn't sure what you liked." Pointing towards the table.
"Everything." Kyle shoving a piece of bacon in his mouth.
"It smells wonderful." Sheriff pouring himself a cup of coffee. "Did you eat?"
"Um no. I wanted to get a early start at school."
Watch Kyle and the sheriff exchange a look.
"If that's all right." Faltering a moment. Almost regretting her decision.
"No. No. That's great. It's just that I talked to your principle. If you wanted to take a few more days that would be fine. There's no rush."
"I would if I could." Kyle taking a bite of pancake.
"I think I just want to get it out of the way. One less thing to worry about. If that's all right."
"Fine. fine. Kyle?" Sheriff nodding to Kyle.
Kyle taking a huge bite of bacon, toast and egg all at once. "What?" Looking at his father questionably.
Sheriff tilting his head toward her.
*Great. Just what I need a baby sitter.* Half wondering if she ever would be able to go out alone again.
"Right....." Getting his father hidden message. "I'll go with you. Just give me a second to get ready."
"No that's all right. I can go alone. There is no sense in you having to leave early too."
"Really, I'll just be a minute." Kyle getting up.
*Maybe a it would be better to go with Kyle.* Losing some of her nerve. *It would be nice to have some to watch over me. Plus with Kyle there it might take some of the pressure off of me talking to Michael and Max.* Warming to the idea.
*What about being strong? Standing on your own too feet.*
*Being with Kyle doesn't mean that I'm weak.* "It alright. Take your time." Sitting down at the table. Taking a piece of toast for herself. "Maybe I will eat something."
Seaming relieved. "Good. I'm staving." Kyle coming back to the table. Sitting down and once more digging in. "This is really good." Telling her with a mouth full of food.
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"OK?" Kyle asking again for the 20th time as they pulled into the parking lot. "I mean it's like my Dad said. You don't have to do this now."
"Yes I do." Knowing if she didn't leave the house today. She might never be able to get up the guts to do it. *Baby steps.*
*Besides, taking the finials gave her a reason. A purpose. A feeling that she was actually accomplishing something. Even if it was insignificant in the whole scheme of things.*
"I'll be fine. Really. Quit asking me every minute. Your making me feel like I'm making a mistake." Getting out of the car.
"Sorry. I'm just worried about you. You have been through a lot." Kyle getting out and coming over to her looking uneasy. "You know. You deserve a break."
"Thanks, but I'll be fine. I need to do this." Feeling confident once more.
"You have your phone that Alex left you? With the numbers to call if you need me or my Dad, right? You have my schedule?"
Smiling. "Yes, I have everything." Recalling how the Sheriff and Kyle insisted before they left the house that she had the items in question. "We're going to be in the same building you know." Starting to make their way towards the school.
"I know..." Kyle once more looking uneasy.
"I'll let you know if I need you." Trying to reassure him.
Kyle finally returning her smile. Watching it slowly turn into a frown as he looked over her shoulder. Turning her head to see a frantic looking rattled Tess coming running towards them.
"Kyle. KYLE!" Coming up beside them. Pulling Kyle a few steps back away from her before he manage to stop her.
"What's wrong Tess?" Hearing the concern in Kyle's voice.
Wild look in her eyes. "I'm so sorry Kyle. I never should have broke up with you. I should have told you the truth. I'm sorry I lied to you." Tess's voice rising. "YOU HAVE TO STAY AWAY FROM HER. SHE'S DANGEROUS. SHE'S NOT HUMAN KYLE" Tess pointing towards her.
Feeling her stomach dropped as Tess voiced her worst fears.
"Tess." Kyle grabbing on to her arms. "Calm down. It's alright."
Watching a crowd start to form around them as everyone stop their conversations and stared.
*Oh god.* Not needing this attention at all right now. *I don't need any of this right now.*
"NO IT'S NOT ALL RIGHT. LIZ IS AN ALIEN, KYLE! MAX, MICHAEL AND ISABEL. THEY ARE ALL ALIENS. YOU HAVE TO STAY AWAY FROM THEM! YOU HAVE TOO!"
"Sh.... Tess. Lower your voice. It's alright." Kyle looking around at the crowd.
"Liz." Michael and Maria coming up behind her.
"YOUR NOT LISTENING TO ME. IT'S NOT ALL RIGHT. THEIR ALIENS! I'M NOT MAKING THIS UP. THEY ALL HAVE POWERS. MAX HEALED MARIA! MICHAEL CAN BLOW THINGS UP! ISABEL CAN GO INTO PEOPLE DREAMS! THEY'RE NOT SAFE!"
*What have I done. I never should have said anything to Tess.* Knowing she went to far with her. The wildness in Tess's eyes telling her so. *She's losing it.*
*Wouldn't I if I was human?* Not answering her question.
Looking around to see the crowd growing bigger. The whisperer that started going through the crowd. Random voices. "Is Tess crazy?" "Rumor was that Maria was shot." "There was a shooting at the crashdown." "Michael is weird." "Maybe she's just jealous of Liz Parker." "Max is so quiet." "They would be and no one would know it." "I heard Liz was with Max now. Maybe she's with Kyle and Tess can't stand it." The scared looks they started to give her and Michael. "Wouldn't you be jealous of her if she took both of your boyfriends in a matter of weeks?" "I swore I saw Isabel in a few of my dreams."
"Tess." Kyle hissing her name.
"Michael?" Maria
"Liz, we should get out of here." Michael touching her arm.
Hush once more going through the crowd as they slowly parted across from her as Max, Isabel and Alex come up.
"What's going on?" Alex asking some one in the crowd.
"I LOVE YOU KYLE. I WOULD NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF IF SOMETHING HAPPENED TO YOU. YOU HAVE TO STAY AWAY FROM LIZ, KYLE. IT'S DANGEROUS. SHE'S DANGEROUS!" Tess pointing once more to her.
Taking a step forward out of Michael's reach. Looking past Tess. Locking eyes with Max.
CHAPTER 25
LIZ'S POV
Liz let the hot water wash over her. As she took the soapy wash rag and scrubbed her delicate skin.
Ever so often a memory would slip through. The feelings. She swore that she could still feel Kaviar upon her. In her. Brief moments that dared to destroy her. Making her want to rub her skin raw. To erase any signs that he had ever been there. Every touch. Every feel that was inflicted upon her.
That and the need to throw up. Lucky she hardly ate anything to get sick. For the most part she just dry heaved. Always having to mentally push the memories back. Each time it happened. It always left her feeling drained.
She had read the psych books. She knew enough to know that she was suffering from post traumatic stress disorder. Something that most rape victims, war veterans, victims of violent or traumatic events would experience. Sometime in their lives. She had all the signs. Feeling that she had to shower often. Not sleeping because of nightmares. Feeling that she was to blame or the cause. That she deserved everything that she got. Not eating as a way to feel some sense of control. The wide degree of emotions that she would surely feel in the days and weeks. Maybe even months and years to come.
She knew the truth now. It was no longer hidden. Her subconscious begging her to finally deal with it. To come to some sense of resolution.
*No. I'm not stupid. I've read the books. Knew the proper names for everything that she was experiencing. What the symptoms were. What to expect. What she was suppose to do.*
*Take medication*
*Like I haven't drugged myself enough?*
*Therapy. Share my experience with others like me.*
*Yeah right. People like me.* Almost laughing at the thought.
*Knowing what to do or what was happening to me didn't make any of it easier.*
*That's because most people didn't lose control of their powers when they lost it. Exposing themselves and hurting others.*
Making herself hate who and what she was even more.
Finally turning off the water as it once more turned cold. Stepping out of the tub and started drying off.
For the first time in weeks she felt calm. In control. Not a victim. Starting to actually think about her situation and what she should do. Having decided that she would go to school today and take her finial exams. She would get her diploma. *I have always wanted to go to school. Graduate. Be a normal kid. Maybe I can do that here. Max. Michael and Isabel have always done that. At least until I showed up. Just be normal. At least act it.*
*What about Kaviar?*
*He doesn't know where I am.* Wanting so much to just leave it at that.
*What if he finds me? What about Max and Michael? Isabel? Not to mention Alex, Maria, and the Vilenti's. Kaviar has no problem killing anyone in his way. Innocent or not. He will destroy anything to get what he wants.* Above all else she didn't want to hurt anyone else.
*What he wants is to make Max pay.*
*By having me kill him.*
*I won't.*
*Will I have a choice? I haven't been able to stop him yet.*
*Would Max, Michael and Isabel be able to stop him?*
*They don't know their own powers as well as I do. Or even know everything that they can do yet. Right now I would have to say no. They wouldn't stand a chance. It wouldn't be much of a fight.* Knowing full and well what Kaviar was capable of doing.
*So what do I do? Run away? Help them practice? What?*
*I don't know. If I run away. Max and Michael will search for me. They will give up their lives until they find me.* Knowing with out a shadow of doubt that they would. *Life on the road is no life at all. Is it fair that I take that away from them too? Their friends? Their family? They have a life here. Haven't I done enough damage? Plus what if Kaviar finds them when they are searching? Totally blind siding them by running into them. They still don't know how to use their powers. They couldn't protect themselves against him. At least here they are on their own turf. It could be used to their advantage.* Recalling her training. *Plus there is still a chance that Kaviar still doesn't know where they are. Maybe never will.*
*Is that a chance I'm willing to take?*
*If I stay and help them train? Strengthen their power. What happens if Kaviar finds me before they are ready? I could lead Kaviar right too them. They would die.*
*They could die if Kaviar happens to find them anyways.*
*I don't know.* Feeling herself start to get frustrated. *But if they know their powers they might stand a chance.*
*Or learning their power's could just lead Kaviar too them. There might be a reason why they forgot everything.*
*The four of us together are suppose to be the strongest power ever.*
*It didn't save us the last time.*
*We weren't together.*
*So what am I saying? That we should be together? I should be living with them? Stay with them at all times? Never leave their sides for any reason.*
*No. I can't. I don't think I can deal with them minute to minute. Day to day.*
*What am I doing now?* Recalling how Max and Michael are always there. *Not necessarily in the same room but here never the less.*
*I'm not dealing.* Answering the question truthfully. *Let's face it. Up until a couple hours ago. I haven't done anything but sit in this room.*
*Yeah, but I'm trying now....*
*What about seeing them at school? I have classes with them.*
*No.* Not liking the idea of facing them at all.
*I don't have a choice. If not at school then some where else. They are constantly out side the window or in the house. They are not going to just go back to their lives and leave me sit. I'm going to have to deal with them if I stay.*
*That and the fact that I could lead Kaviar right to them.*
* I'm going to have to decide what to do. Stay or go.*
*What is best for them?*
*Either way. I should make a decision soon.* Knowing she wasn't going to get anywhere at the moment. She wasn't capable of making a decision right now about them. That she wasn't sure of all the facts. Shaking her head. Her thoughts slowly giving her a headache. *Baby steps.* Willing herself to calm down. To relax once more.
Throwing the towel at the mirror. Watching it slid down the mirror. Catching her own reflection in the mirror at the same time.
Seeing herself for the first time since Michael's. For the first time she saw no scars.
Taking at step closer to the mirror. No bruised or broken skin. No scared burn marks on her arms where HE had grabbed her.
Turning slightly to see her back. Lifting up her damp hair. Finding the deep ugly red whipped marks that used to make up her back gone.
"Max healed me." Not really believing what she was seeing. Touching her perfect smooth skin on her arms and stomach. "He really healed me."
Touching her face. Looking closely in the mirror. The faint scars that used to line her jaw and around her ears and forehead now gone. Showing no signs of ever being there before. The only flaw she had now were the dark circles under her eyes from the lack of sleep.
"He really did it." Really seeing herself for the first time in years. Gone was the little girl that once stood there. No more a child.
Smile on her face. *Max healed me. I can wear shorts and short sleeves shirts. Tank tops and skirts.* Thinking of the cloths that Maria and Isabel had bought her. Thinking before that she couldn't wear half the stuff they bought her. *I never owned a dress or skirt before.* Getting a little excited. *Maybe I should change the clothes I packed.* Thinking of the two long sleeve shirts and jeans that she had packed days before.
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"What smells so good?" Kyle coming into the kitchen. Rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.
"Break feast." Answering timidly. After trying on several different outfits. Finally deciding on a red spaghetti strap shirt that showed a small potion of her smooth flat stomach. With a short black skirt and white tennis shoes. *Never knew when you would have to run.* Combing her waist long hair down her back. She even put on a touch of strawberry lip gloss Maria and Isabel had bought her. Even after all that she still had over a hour to kill before school. Deciding to make break feast for Kyle and his Dad. *It was the least I could do. For everything that they where doing for me.* Placing the last of the bacon and toast on the table. Next to the eggs, pancakes and sausage that were already there.
"Liz." Kyle looking up at her in shock. "Wow." Looking at the table and her in amazement.
Not entirely sure if he was referring to the food or the fact that she was dressed and out of her room.
"Kyle."
"Good morning." The sheriff walking into the room. Faltering just a second before putting on a big smile. "Liz. Hi. How are you feeling?'
"Good thank you." Tucking a piece of hair behind her ear. Feeling suddenly nerves.
"Wow." Sheriff looking at the table of food.
"Yeah wow." Kyle starting to make his plate.
"You didn't have to do all of this." - Sheriff.
"I wanted too. It's the least I could do. I wasn't sure what you liked." Pointing towards the table.
"Everything." Kyle shoving a piece of bacon in his mouth.
"It smells wonderful." Sheriff pouring himself a cup of coffee. "Did you eat?"
"Um no. I wanted to get a early start at school."
Watch Kyle and the sheriff exchange a look.
"If that's all right." Faltering a moment. Almost regretting her decision.
"No. No. That's great. It's just that I talked to your principle. If you wanted to take a few more days that would be fine. There's no rush."
"I would if I could." Kyle taking a bite of pancake.
"I think I just want to get it out of the way. One less thing to worry about. If that's all right."
"Fine. fine. Kyle?" Sheriff nodding to Kyle.
Kyle taking a huge bite of bacon, toast and egg all at once. "What?" Looking at his father questionably.
Sheriff tilting his head toward her.
*Great. Just what I need a baby sitter.* Half wondering if she ever would be able to go out alone again.
"Right....." Getting his father hidden message. "I'll go with you. Just give me a second to get ready."
"No that's all right. I can go alone. There is no sense in you having to leave early too."
"Really, I'll just be a minute." Kyle getting up.
*Maybe a it would be better to go with Kyle.* Losing some of her nerve. *It would be nice to have some to watch over me. Plus with Kyle there it might take some of the pressure off of me talking to Michael and Max.* Warming to the idea.
*What about being strong? Standing on your own too feet.*
*Being with Kyle doesn't mean that I'm weak.* "It alright. Take your time." Sitting down at the table. Taking a piece of toast for herself. "Maybe I will eat something."
Seaming relieved. "Good. I'm staving." Kyle coming back to the table. Sitting down and once more digging in. "This is really good." Telling her with a mouth full of food.
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"OK?" Kyle asking again for the 20th time as they pulled into the parking lot. "I mean it's like my Dad said. You don't have to do this now."
"Yes I do." Knowing if she didn't leave the house today. She might never be able to get up the guts to do it. *Baby steps.*
*Besides, taking the finials gave her a reason. A purpose. A feeling that she was actually accomplishing something. Even if it was insignificant in the whole scheme of things.*
"I'll be fine. Really. Quit asking me every minute. Your making me feel like I'm making a mistake." Getting out of the car.
"Sorry. I'm just worried about you. You have been through a lot." Kyle getting out and coming over to her looking uneasy. "You know. You deserve a break."
"Thanks, but I'll be fine. I need to do this." Feeling confident once more.
"You have your phone that Alex left you? With the numbers to call if you need me or my Dad, right? You have my schedule?"
Smiling. "Yes, I have everything." Recalling how the Sheriff and Kyle insisted before they left the house that she had the items in question. "We're going to be in the same building you know." Starting to make their way towards the school.
"I know..." Kyle once more looking uneasy.
"I'll let you know if I need you." Trying to reassure him.
Kyle finally returning her smile. Watching it slowly turn into a frown as he looked over her shoulder. Turning her head to see a frantic looking rattled Tess coming running towards them.
"Kyle. KYLE!" Coming up beside them. Pulling Kyle a few steps back away from her before he manage to stop her.
"What's wrong Tess?" Hearing the concern in Kyle's voice.
Wild look in her eyes. "I'm so sorry Kyle. I never should have broke up with you. I should have told you the truth. I'm sorry I lied to you." Tess's voice rising. "YOU HAVE TO STAY AWAY FROM HER. SHE'S DANGEROUS. SHE'S NOT HUMAN KYLE" Tess pointing towards her.
Feeling her stomach dropped as Tess voiced her worst fears.
"Tess." Kyle grabbing on to her arms. "Calm down. It's alright."
Watching a crowd start to form around them as everyone stop their conversations and stared.
*Oh god.* Not needing this attention at all right now. *I don't need any of this right now.*
"NO IT'S NOT ALL RIGHT. LIZ IS AN ALIEN, KYLE! MAX, MICHAEL AND ISABEL. THEY ARE ALL ALIENS. YOU HAVE TO STAY AWAY FROM THEM! YOU HAVE TOO!"
"Sh.... Tess. Lower your voice. It's alright." Kyle looking around at the crowd.
"Liz." Michael and Maria coming up behind her.
"YOUR NOT LISTENING TO ME. IT'S NOT ALL RIGHT. THEIR ALIENS! I'M NOT MAKING THIS UP. THEY ALL HAVE POWERS. MAX HEALED MARIA! MICHAEL CAN BLOW THINGS UP! ISABEL CAN GO INTO PEOPLE DREAMS! THEY'RE NOT SAFE!"
*What have I done. I never should have said anything to Tess.* Knowing she went to far with her. The wildness in Tess's eyes telling her so. *She's losing it.*
*Wouldn't I if I was human?* Not answering her question.
Looking around to see the crowd growing bigger. The whisperer that started going through the crowd. Random voices. "Is Tess crazy?" "Rumor was that Maria was shot." "There was a shooting at the crashdown." "Michael is weird." "Maybe she's just jealous of Liz Parker." "Max is so quiet." "They would be and no one would know it." "I heard Liz was with Max now. Maybe she's with Kyle and Tess can't stand it." The scared looks they started to give her and Michael. "Wouldn't you be jealous of her if she took both of your boyfriends in a matter of weeks?" "I swore I saw Isabel in a few of my dreams."
"Tess." Kyle hissing her name.
"Michael?" Maria
"Liz, we should get out of here." Michael touching her arm.
Hush once more going through the crowd as they slowly parted across from her as Max, Isabel and Alex come up.
"What's going on?" Alex asking some one in the crowd.
"I LOVE YOU KYLE. I WOULD NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF IF SOMETHING HAPPENED TO YOU. YOU HAVE TO STAY AWAY FROM LIZ, KYLE. IT'S DANGEROUS. SHE'S DANGEROUS!" Tess pointing once more to her.
Taking a step forward out of Michael's reach. Looking past Tess. Locking eyes with Max.
Dig my grave,
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
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Hey everyone! I know. You're all shocked to hear from me so soon. Amazing isn't it. I go in for my six month check up. Week stay in hospital. Routin for the rest of my life. Better then ever week or living in the hospital. I'm health and thankful to be alive. Thank you again for all your prays and well wishes. It all meant so much to me. More then I can ever exspress. You are all amazing!
Anyways I wanted to leave you with this part. I've been playing with it for a week. I actually liked how it turned out. I know the last couple of parts have sucked big time. Let me know.
Special thanks too:
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CHAPTER 25B
MAX'S POV
Jumping out of the jeep. Seeing the crowd of students gathering around the front of the entrance.
*What's going on?* Getting a sinking feeling in his chest immediately. *Where's Liz?* Automatically searching the crowd for Liz as he hopped out of the jeep.
"Was there a party that I didn't know about?" Alex pulling up beside him and getting out.
"Liz came to school today." Isabel stating the sentence like it explained everything. Coming around and kissing Alex on the cheek.
"So where having a party for her? I know's she's cute but I wasn't aware of the fact that she was that popular yet. OWW!" Alex earning himself a hit from Isabel. "What I say?"
*Should have left early.* Silently cursing Isabel again for taking so long. Having wanted to greet Liz when she got here. Knowing there would be a more then a few stares her way. With the fact that her house burned down and her so called father dying tragically days after they arrived. Liz has became the poor orphaned and gossip of Roswell. He wanted to shield her from as much gossip, stares and questions as possible. Knowing how insensitive people can be.
He hadn't been surprised at all when the sheriff called to say Liz was attending school today. After finally speaking to him and Michael last night. Telling them to go home. He knew that something had changed in her. Just not knowing exactly what yet. Eager to find out. *From what the sheriff said it was a move in the right direction.*
Hearing random conversation in the crowd. "There was a shooting at the crashdown." "Michael is weird."
*This can't be good.* Started to make his way up to the crowd. Mentally preparing for the worst.
"Maybe Tess is just jealous of Liz." "Max is so quiet." "They could be aliens and no one would know it."
"My god Max?" Isabel whispering at him. Close to his side.
"I heard Liz was with Max. Maybe she's with Kyle now and Tess can't stand it."
*Tess.* Groaning inwardly. *No, not good at all.* Mentally kicking himself for not doing something with her before now.
Conversation stopping as they made their way through the crowd. Everyone moving aside when they saw them.
*Have to love Roswell.* Knowing if the rumors were in any other school of them being aliens no one would even bother to listen. *That or think it was a joke.*
"What's going on?" Alex asking some one in the crowd.
Seeing a frantic looking Tess and pale Kyle in the center of the crowd. *No, this is not good at all.* Looking past them to see Michael, Maria and Liz. Seeing the panic on Maria's face. The look to kill on Michael's. Liz looking more pale then Kyle if that was possible.
"I LOVE YOU KYLE. I WOULD NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF IF SOMETHING HAPPENED TO YOU. YOU HAVE TO STAY AWAY FROM LIZ, KYLE. IT'S DANGEROUS. SHE'S DANGEROUS!" Seeing Tess point to Liz. His heart instantly going out to Liz and instantly angry at Tess at the same time. *This is all my fault. If I just would have stayed away from Tess to began with.* Silently cursing himself.
Watching Liz step away from Michael. Seeing the fear and guilt evident in Liz's eyes as their eyes lock. Stepping forward towards her. Liz's name on his lips when he felt her powers crackly through the air as her eyes slid closed.
Time seemed to slow down as the muttering around him stopped. One by one everyone's eyes closed. Everyone but their group. Seeing the deep concentration on Liz's face.
*Mind warp.*
Liz's words coming to mind. "I hate doing it. It's not right. You shouldn't go into peoples mind and invade their privacy. Change what they believe or saw. It's not right. I hate doing it. I'm sorry." Not so much the words but the hate and despair that they held. The pain that it caused her.
"Max?" Isabel once more demanding an answerer. Fear evident in her voice.
"She's mind warping them."
"Can she do that to this many people? The entire school is out here. There's close to a 100 hundred people. - Alex
"Is she alright?" Maria gripping tightly to Michael's arm.
"Liz?" Michael taking a step forward.
Looking around him once more at the crowd of kids. All seemed to be frozen in place with their eyes closed.
"Tess?" Kyle running his hand in front of Tess's face. "What the hell?"
Making his way across to Liz. Watching her face scrunch up in pain and concentration. Her body starting to sway as him and Michael reached out to steady her at the same time.
"Someone want to tell me what's happening?" - Kyle
"Just stand still Kyle. It's alright." - Isabel
Her emotions slamming into him. Her pain. Guilt. Her weakness and exhaustion all at once. All three powers automatically merged together. Giving her the strength to reach out to the last of the kids and teachers who witness the scene. Erasing what they just saw. Replacing it with the image of Tess trying to get back together with Kyle. Nothing more.
Last, Liz reached out to Tess. Going through and erasing any signs of alien knowledge. Leaving the fact that she did break up with Kyle to be with Max. In return breaking up with Max because she realized that she really did love Kyle. Mentally going through the last couple of months of Tess's life. Rearranging it to fit the lie.
Finally releasing her hold on everyone at once. Time once more seemed to go back to normal. As if nothing happened at all.
"Please Kyle. Tell me you will give me another chance? Please."
"Tess?" Kyle looking at her with confusion.
Feeling the pressure start to pound in her head. Her guilt and pain still evident. Watching her finally open her eyes. Blinking a few times before she focused her attention on Kyle and Tess.
"Liz?"
"Are you all right?" - Michael
"Don't give me an answerer right now. Just tell me you will meet me after school."
"I....." Kyle looking from Tess to Liz. Liz nodding her head yes to a confused looking Kyle as tears started to fill her eyes.
Sky once more getting dark. Few drops of rain falling.
"Sure." Kyle stumbling over the word. Obliviously not entirely sure to what he just agreeing too.
"Thank you." -Tess
Taking a quick look to see Tess hugging Kyle. Seeing the crowd around them as a few students started clapping as everyone started to make their way to class. Turning his attention once more to Liz. "Liz?" Keeping his voice soft.
"I'm fine..." Wiping the tears under her eyes as she went to step out of his and Michael's arms.
Feeling that she was everything but fine at the moment.
Steadying her as she swayed once more. "Whoa. Easy." Helping her sit down on the steps. Feeling the emptiness of the lost of her touch immediately. Staying kneeled in front of her. Not wanting to be away from her.
"Are you alright?" Michael sitting down besides her.
"Liz?" Kyle coming to them.
"I'm fine Kyle." Her eyes closed. Her small frame shaking as she wrapped her arms around herself.
"What just happened?" - Kyle
"She mind warped everyone into believing that Tess was just trying to get back together with you." - Michael answering for Liz.
*Cold?* Knowing it was more then her being cold. Liz felt guilty. She felt lost. Pulling off his jacket and putting it on Liz nevertheless. Not knowing what else to do for her at the moment. Feeling her body shaking as she allowed him to easily put her arms through the sleeves. Feeling her try to get control of herself. Her scattered emotions.
"You what?" - Kyle
Eyes still closed. "Tess really does love you Kyle." Liz's voice low and a little shaky.
"How do you know? Can you read peoples mind? Did you read mine? I thought you couldn't read my mind." Kyle sounding a little panicky.
Liz finally opening her eyes to look up at Kyle. Liz's fear and regret evident in her eyes. "It's not what you think. I change what she knew but had to replace it with some truth and what her mind would allow. The fact was that she loved you and wanted you back. I just took out any alien knowledge that she had." Taking a deep shaky breathe. "Tess never wanted to know. She just wanted her life back. To have everything go back to the way it was before she knew. I just help it happened."
"So Tess doesn't remember that your aliens." - Maria
Still studying Liz. Even with the dark circles under her eyes. Being swallowed up by his jacket. She was the most beautiful thing in the world to him. "No." Speaking up for the first time. Answering the question for Liz.
"Ok then.." Kyle rubbing his hands together. "So everything is ok then?"
*No. Liz was everything but ok at the moment.* Not voicing his thoughts out loud.
Feeling a few stray drops of rain as their eyes locking once more. Seeing the pain and regret that they still held so deeply. Wanting nothing more then to erase all of it. "It's all right. You did what you had too. Tess was exposing all of us." Keeping his voice low. "Their was nothing else we could have done. You did good."
"I know." Liz weak voice not sounding convinced at all.
"We could have just killed her." - Maria
"Maria!" - Alex
"Joking. Gosh. Just trying to lighten the mood. It's a shame you weren't here months ago Liz. We could have saved us a lot of aggravation. At least now we don't have to be nice to Tess." - Maria
"When were you ever nice to her?" - Alex.
"Hey, there was a lot I wanted to tell her but didn't." - Maria
"We should get you home." - Michael
"I'm fine." - Liz
"Your shaking." Michael stating the obvious.
"It's alright." Liz tighten her arms around herself.
"Your exhausted." - Michael
"I just need a minute." - Liz
"Max?" - Michael
"I'm fine." Liz answering again before he could reply.
"Why don't we skip 1st period and go get some break feast?" - Alex
"All ready ate." - Liz
"Right." Not believing her. Both of them still not breaking eye contact.
"Liz, nibbling on a half piece of toast isn't considering eating." - Kyle
"You can't possible be hungry, Kyle." Liz
"I'm always hungry. I'm a growing boy." - Kyle
"Amen to that." Seeing Alex patting Kyle on the back in the corner of his eye..
"Unbelievable." Liz shaking her head. Still not looking away from him.
"You don't know the half of it." Maria giggling.
"Liz, you need to try to eat more." Still keeping his voice low.
"I'm trying." - Liz
"I know."
"So are we going to eat?" Hearing the hope in Alex's voice
"I have finals." - Liz
"We all do but we can put them off a few hours." - Maria
"No, I need to do this now." - Liz
"Liz I don't think..." - Michael
"Then it's good that I didn't ask you." - Liz
"You need to take care of yourself." - Michael
That's what I'm doing." - Liz
"Liz." - Michael
"Michael." Liz finally breaking eye contact with him to look at Michael.
"At least they have the sibling fighting down." - Kyle
"Would you just listen to me." - Michael
"Are you listening to me?" - Liz
"DAMN IT LIZ!" - Michael
Watching Liz physically flinch.
"MICHAEL!" Me, Maria, Kyle and Isabel at the same time.
Maria hit Michael up beside the head.
"I'm sorry." Michael apologizing immediately. "Liz..."
Michael reaching out to her. Liz sliding up a couple of steps away from them. "I...." Before slowly standing herself up. Softly. "I'm sorry." Blinking back new tears.
Getting up to follow her.
"No." Stepping back a step.
Stopping his move moment immediately. Pushing aside the hurt he felt.
"Liz. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to snap." Michael's voice full of regret.
Liz bringing her hand up to touch her head and closing her eyes briefly.
"Liz." Taking a couple step up toward her. Stopping at arms length between them.
"I'm fine." Opening her eyes once more. "Really I am." Not sounding convincing at all.
"Come on. I'll take you home." Kyle coming up to her. Touching her elbow.
Pushing aside the jealousy he felt of Kyle. The fact that Liz is willing to let Kyle touch her and not him.
"No." Liz shaking her head no. "I'm alright."
"Liz." - Michael voice still full of regret.
Feeling more drops. *It's has been raining ever time Liz was upset. Is it possible that Liz is unconsciously doing it?* "Your upset."
"I'm fine."
"Then explain the rain." More drops.
"I just need some room to breathe." Backing up a few more feet.
"What about the rain?" Maria questioning. "You can make it rain?"
"I ... I don't know?" Liz looking at him in confusion. "Can I?"
*She's never made the connection before.* Seeing her starting to get more upset. "It's alright Liz." Trying to reassure her.
"Is it?" Fear in her voice. Rain coming harder. Still not enough to soak them.
"We should go home. We can try again tomorrow." Kyle pulling once more on her arm.
"Or break feast. Eating sounds good." - Alex
"Alex." - Isabel
Liz holding her ground. Taking a deep breathe. "No. I need to do this today." New determination in her voice. Pulling out of Kyle's reach. "Please."
Keeping his voice low. "What about your headache?"
"Your head hurts?" - Michael coming up beside her.
"It's fine." Emphasizing the words. Locking eyes once more with him. "I'm alright."
"You don't have to do this alone."
"Right now I do." Her eyes pleading for him to understand. "I just need to figure out..... I mean I don't want to make...." Shifting from one foot to another. "I just... I already promised to stay..." Words faltering once more. "I don't want to hurt anyone.... Please.."
"Your not going to hurt us." Michael once more sounding frustrated.
Rain becoming a little more heavy. *Back off. We keep pressuring her. Liz is going to end up back in her room. With the desert a lake. Never talking to us again or worst Liz could run away.* Taking a step towards her. "Ok." Holding his arms out in surrender.
"Max." - Michael
"No, Michael." Not taking his eyes off Liz. "It's alright. Liz should do this."
Seeing the relief in her eyes. "Really?" Not sure weather to believe him or not.
Crossing the last of the space between them. Pulling her into his arms. Kissing her forehead softly. Healing her headache at the same time as the kiss. Sending her all his love and strength. Relishing the fact that she was in his arms. That she wasn't pulling away. Feeling her relief and sense of control again. Feeling her relax into him. Surrendering. Putting his forehead on her's. Whispering. "I'm here for you Liz. When ever your ready. As long as it takes. What ever you need." Gently kissing her forehead once more before slowly letting her go. "I'm here."
"Thank you." Liz slowly backing away. Touching her forehead a moment. His jacket being 3 times too big. Swallowing up her hands. Giving him a small smile. "Thank you." Pulling the jacket tighter around herself before making her way into the school.
"I'll keep on eye on her." - Kyle
Nodding his head.
Kyle turning to follow Liz in. Both disappearing inside the door.
"Wow. The rain stopped. Can Liz really control the rain? Does that mean she alright again?"
"Max?" Michael demanding an answerer ignoring Maria's.
"Isn't it better that Liz is here in school with us or at home alone?" Turning to look at Michael.
Watching Michael shove his hands in her pockets. Not answering him.
"Liz needs to do this Michael. She needs to feel in control of her life. With out it. We are never going to get her back. She will just keep pushing us away. Liz will never let us in until she feels in control of everything. That's she's not going to hurt us. At the moment she just trying to hang on."
"So if you love something let it go theory?" - Isabel
"Something like that." Hoping that he was doing the right thing.
"And Liz demanding to go to school?" - Michael
"Her way of trying. It's a step in the right direction." Praying to god that he was right. "Better then her not coming out of her room at all. She's lost. Liz is just trying to find her way."
Everyone agreeing.
"Are you going to be joining us today?" Looking up to see a teacher in the doorway.
"Like we have a choice." Michael muttering under his breathe.
"I told you we should have went to eat." - Alex
Anyways I wanted to leave you with this part. I've been playing with it for a week. I actually liked how it turned out. I know the last couple of parts have sucked big time. Let me know.
Special thanks too:
Roswelllover
XoXoDreamerXoXo
frenchkiss70
beeeyaaatch (Why are we boycotting capitals?)
tabby
CHAPTER 25B
MAX'S POV
Jumping out of the jeep. Seeing the crowd of students gathering around the front of the entrance.
*What's going on?* Getting a sinking feeling in his chest immediately. *Where's Liz?* Automatically searching the crowd for Liz as he hopped out of the jeep.
"Was there a party that I didn't know about?" Alex pulling up beside him and getting out.
"Liz came to school today." Isabel stating the sentence like it explained everything. Coming around and kissing Alex on the cheek.
"So where having a party for her? I know's she's cute but I wasn't aware of the fact that she was that popular yet. OWW!" Alex earning himself a hit from Isabel. "What I say?"
*Should have left early.* Silently cursing Isabel again for taking so long. Having wanted to greet Liz when she got here. Knowing there would be a more then a few stares her way. With the fact that her house burned down and her so called father dying tragically days after they arrived. Liz has became the poor orphaned and gossip of Roswell. He wanted to shield her from as much gossip, stares and questions as possible. Knowing how insensitive people can be.
He hadn't been surprised at all when the sheriff called to say Liz was attending school today. After finally speaking to him and Michael last night. Telling them to go home. He knew that something had changed in her. Just not knowing exactly what yet. Eager to find out. *From what the sheriff said it was a move in the right direction.*
Hearing random conversation in the crowd. "There was a shooting at the crashdown." "Michael is weird."
*This can't be good.* Started to make his way up to the crowd. Mentally preparing for the worst.
"Maybe Tess is just jealous of Liz." "Max is so quiet." "They could be aliens and no one would know it."
"My god Max?" Isabel whispering at him. Close to his side.
"I heard Liz was with Max. Maybe she's with Kyle now and Tess can't stand it."
*Tess.* Groaning inwardly. *No, not good at all.* Mentally kicking himself for not doing something with her before now.
Conversation stopping as they made their way through the crowd. Everyone moving aside when they saw them.
*Have to love Roswell.* Knowing if the rumors were in any other school of them being aliens no one would even bother to listen. *That or think it was a joke.*
"What's going on?" Alex asking some one in the crowd.
Seeing a frantic looking Tess and pale Kyle in the center of the crowd. *No, this is not good at all.* Looking past them to see Michael, Maria and Liz. Seeing the panic on Maria's face. The look to kill on Michael's. Liz looking more pale then Kyle if that was possible.
"I LOVE YOU KYLE. I WOULD NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF IF SOMETHING HAPPENED TO YOU. YOU HAVE TO STAY AWAY FROM LIZ, KYLE. IT'S DANGEROUS. SHE'S DANGEROUS!" Seeing Tess point to Liz. His heart instantly going out to Liz and instantly angry at Tess at the same time. *This is all my fault. If I just would have stayed away from Tess to began with.* Silently cursing himself.
Watching Liz step away from Michael. Seeing the fear and guilt evident in Liz's eyes as their eyes lock. Stepping forward towards her. Liz's name on his lips when he felt her powers crackly through the air as her eyes slid closed.
Time seemed to slow down as the muttering around him stopped. One by one everyone's eyes closed. Everyone but their group. Seeing the deep concentration on Liz's face.
*Mind warp.*
Liz's words coming to mind. "I hate doing it. It's not right. You shouldn't go into peoples mind and invade their privacy. Change what they believe or saw. It's not right. I hate doing it. I'm sorry." Not so much the words but the hate and despair that they held. The pain that it caused her.
"Max?" Isabel once more demanding an answerer. Fear evident in her voice.
"She's mind warping them."
"Can she do that to this many people? The entire school is out here. There's close to a 100 hundred people. - Alex
"Is she alright?" Maria gripping tightly to Michael's arm.
"Liz?" Michael taking a step forward.
Looking around him once more at the crowd of kids. All seemed to be frozen in place with their eyes closed.
"Tess?" Kyle running his hand in front of Tess's face. "What the hell?"
Making his way across to Liz. Watching her face scrunch up in pain and concentration. Her body starting to sway as him and Michael reached out to steady her at the same time.
"Someone want to tell me what's happening?" - Kyle
"Just stand still Kyle. It's alright." - Isabel
Her emotions slamming into him. Her pain. Guilt. Her weakness and exhaustion all at once. All three powers automatically merged together. Giving her the strength to reach out to the last of the kids and teachers who witness the scene. Erasing what they just saw. Replacing it with the image of Tess trying to get back together with Kyle. Nothing more.
Last, Liz reached out to Tess. Going through and erasing any signs of alien knowledge. Leaving the fact that she did break up with Kyle to be with Max. In return breaking up with Max because she realized that she really did love Kyle. Mentally going through the last couple of months of Tess's life. Rearranging it to fit the lie.
Finally releasing her hold on everyone at once. Time once more seemed to go back to normal. As if nothing happened at all.
"Please Kyle. Tell me you will give me another chance? Please."
"Tess?" Kyle looking at her with confusion.
Feeling the pressure start to pound in her head. Her guilt and pain still evident. Watching her finally open her eyes. Blinking a few times before she focused her attention on Kyle and Tess.
"Liz?"
"Are you all right?" - Michael
"Don't give me an answerer right now. Just tell me you will meet me after school."
"I....." Kyle looking from Tess to Liz. Liz nodding her head yes to a confused looking Kyle as tears started to fill her eyes.
Sky once more getting dark. Few drops of rain falling.
"Sure." Kyle stumbling over the word. Obliviously not entirely sure to what he just agreeing too.
"Thank you." -Tess
Taking a quick look to see Tess hugging Kyle. Seeing the crowd around them as a few students started clapping as everyone started to make their way to class. Turning his attention once more to Liz. "Liz?" Keeping his voice soft.
"I'm fine..." Wiping the tears under her eyes as she went to step out of his and Michael's arms.
Feeling that she was everything but fine at the moment.
Steadying her as she swayed once more. "Whoa. Easy." Helping her sit down on the steps. Feeling the emptiness of the lost of her touch immediately. Staying kneeled in front of her. Not wanting to be away from her.
"Are you alright?" Michael sitting down besides her.
"Liz?" Kyle coming to them.
"I'm fine Kyle." Her eyes closed. Her small frame shaking as she wrapped her arms around herself.
"What just happened?" - Kyle
"She mind warped everyone into believing that Tess was just trying to get back together with you." - Michael answering for Liz.
*Cold?* Knowing it was more then her being cold. Liz felt guilty. She felt lost. Pulling off his jacket and putting it on Liz nevertheless. Not knowing what else to do for her at the moment. Feeling her body shaking as she allowed him to easily put her arms through the sleeves. Feeling her try to get control of herself. Her scattered emotions.
"You what?" - Kyle
Eyes still closed. "Tess really does love you Kyle." Liz's voice low and a little shaky.
"How do you know? Can you read peoples mind? Did you read mine? I thought you couldn't read my mind." Kyle sounding a little panicky.
Liz finally opening her eyes to look up at Kyle. Liz's fear and regret evident in her eyes. "It's not what you think. I change what she knew but had to replace it with some truth and what her mind would allow. The fact was that she loved you and wanted you back. I just took out any alien knowledge that she had." Taking a deep shaky breathe. "Tess never wanted to know. She just wanted her life back. To have everything go back to the way it was before she knew. I just help it happened."
"So Tess doesn't remember that your aliens." - Maria
Still studying Liz. Even with the dark circles under her eyes. Being swallowed up by his jacket. She was the most beautiful thing in the world to him. "No." Speaking up for the first time. Answering the question for Liz.
"Ok then.." Kyle rubbing his hands together. "So everything is ok then?"
*No. Liz was everything but ok at the moment.* Not voicing his thoughts out loud.
Feeling a few stray drops of rain as their eyes locking once more. Seeing the pain and regret that they still held so deeply. Wanting nothing more then to erase all of it. "It's all right. You did what you had too. Tess was exposing all of us." Keeping his voice low. "Their was nothing else we could have done. You did good."
"I know." Liz weak voice not sounding convinced at all.
"We could have just killed her." - Maria
"Maria!" - Alex
"Joking. Gosh. Just trying to lighten the mood. It's a shame you weren't here months ago Liz. We could have saved us a lot of aggravation. At least now we don't have to be nice to Tess." - Maria
"When were you ever nice to her?" - Alex.
"Hey, there was a lot I wanted to tell her but didn't." - Maria
"We should get you home." - Michael
"I'm fine." - Liz
"Your shaking." Michael stating the obvious.
"It's alright." Liz tighten her arms around herself.
"Your exhausted." - Michael
"I just need a minute." - Liz
"Max?" - Michael
"I'm fine." Liz answering again before he could reply.
"Why don't we skip 1st period and go get some break feast?" - Alex
"All ready ate." - Liz
"Right." Not believing her. Both of them still not breaking eye contact.
"Liz, nibbling on a half piece of toast isn't considering eating." - Kyle
"You can't possible be hungry, Kyle." Liz
"I'm always hungry. I'm a growing boy." - Kyle
"Amen to that." Seeing Alex patting Kyle on the back in the corner of his eye..
"Unbelievable." Liz shaking her head. Still not looking away from him.
"You don't know the half of it." Maria giggling.
"Liz, you need to try to eat more." Still keeping his voice low.
"I'm trying." - Liz
"I know."
"So are we going to eat?" Hearing the hope in Alex's voice
"I have finals." - Liz
"We all do but we can put them off a few hours." - Maria
"No, I need to do this now." - Liz
"Liz I don't think..." - Michael
"Then it's good that I didn't ask you." - Liz
"You need to take care of yourself." - Michael
That's what I'm doing." - Liz
"Liz." - Michael
"Michael." Liz finally breaking eye contact with him to look at Michael.
"At least they have the sibling fighting down." - Kyle
"Would you just listen to me." - Michael
"Are you listening to me?" - Liz
"DAMN IT LIZ!" - Michael
Watching Liz physically flinch.
"MICHAEL!" Me, Maria, Kyle and Isabel at the same time.
Maria hit Michael up beside the head.
"I'm sorry." Michael apologizing immediately. "Liz..."
Michael reaching out to her. Liz sliding up a couple of steps away from them. "I...." Before slowly standing herself up. Softly. "I'm sorry." Blinking back new tears.
Getting up to follow her.
"No." Stepping back a step.
Stopping his move moment immediately. Pushing aside the hurt he felt.
"Liz. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to snap." Michael's voice full of regret.
Liz bringing her hand up to touch her head and closing her eyes briefly.
"Liz." Taking a couple step up toward her. Stopping at arms length between them.
"I'm fine." Opening her eyes once more. "Really I am." Not sounding convincing at all.
"Come on. I'll take you home." Kyle coming up to her. Touching her elbow.
Pushing aside the jealousy he felt of Kyle. The fact that Liz is willing to let Kyle touch her and not him.
"No." Liz shaking her head no. "I'm alright."
"Liz." - Michael voice still full of regret.
Feeling more drops. *It's has been raining ever time Liz was upset. Is it possible that Liz is unconsciously doing it?* "Your upset."
"I'm fine."
"Then explain the rain." More drops.
"I just need some room to breathe." Backing up a few more feet.
"What about the rain?" Maria questioning. "You can make it rain?"
"I ... I don't know?" Liz looking at him in confusion. "Can I?"
*She's never made the connection before.* Seeing her starting to get more upset. "It's alright Liz." Trying to reassure her.
"Is it?" Fear in her voice. Rain coming harder. Still not enough to soak them.
"We should go home. We can try again tomorrow." Kyle pulling once more on her arm.
"Or break feast. Eating sounds good." - Alex
"Alex." - Isabel
Liz holding her ground. Taking a deep breathe. "No. I need to do this today." New determination in her voice. Pulling out of Kyle's reach. "Please."
Keeping his voice low. "What about your headache?"
"Your head hurts?" - Michael coming up beside her.
"It's fine." Emphasizing the words. Locking eyes once more with him. "I'm alright."
"You don't have to do this alone."
"Right now I do." Her eyes pleading for him to understand. "I just need to figure out..... I mean I don't want to make...." Shifting from one foot to another. "I just... I already promised to stay..." Words faltering once more. "I don't want to hurt anyone.... Please.."
"Your not going to hurt us." Michael once more sounding frustrated.
Rain becoming a little more heavy. *Back off. We keep pressuring her. Liz is going to end up back in her room. With the desert a lake. Never talking to us again or worst Liz could run away.* Taking a step towards her. "Ok." Holding his arms out in surrender.
"Max." - Michael
"No, Michael." Not taking his eyes off Liz. "It's alright. Liz should do this."
Seeing the relief in her eyes. "Really?" Not sure weather to believe him or not.
Crossing the last of the space between them. Pulling her into his arms. Kissing her forehead softly. Healing her headache at the same time as the kiss. Sending her all his love and strength. Relishing the fact that she was in his arms. That she wasn't pulling away. Feeling her relief and sense of control again. Feeling her relax into him. Surrendering. Putting his forehead on her's. Whispering. "I'm here for you Liz. When ever your ready. As long as it takes. What ever you need." Gently kissing her forehead once more before slowly letting her go. "I'm here."
"Thank you." Liz slowly backing away. Touching her forehead a moment. His jacket being 3 times too big. Swallowing up her hands. Giving him a small smile. "Thank you." Pulling the jacket tighter around herself before making her way into the school.
"I'll keep on eye on her." - Kyle
Nodding his head.
Kyle turning to follow Liz in. Both disappearing inside the door.
"Wow. The rain stopped. Can Liz really control the rain? Does that mean she alright again?"
"Max?" Michael demanding an answerer ignoring Maria's.
"Isn't it better that Liz is here in school with us or at home alone?" Turning to look at Michael.
Watching Michael shove his hands in her pockets. Not answering him.
"Liz needs to do this Michael. She needs to feel in control of her life. With out it. We are never going to get her back. She will just keep pushing us away. Liz will never let us in until she feels in control of everything. That's she's not going to hurt us. At the moment she just trying to hang on."
"So if you love something let it go theory?" - Isabel
"Something like that." Hoping that he was doing the right thing.
"And Liz demanding to go to school?" - Michael
"Her way of trying. It's a step in the right direction." Praying to god that he was right. "Better then her not coming out of her room at all. She's lost. Liz is just trying to find her way."
Everyone agreeing.
"Are you going to be joining us today?" Looking up to see a teacher in the doorway.
"Like we have a choice." Michael muttering under his breathe.
"I told you we should have went to eat." - Alex
Dig my grave,
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
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Hey. Sorry. But the week at the hospital made me all kinds of behind! Not to meantion tired and nerve racking. But all in and all in the end everything is great! Thank you so much for your prays and kind wishes!
Special thanks!
Frenchkiss70: What can I say? Liz has to hit bottom before going up. I'm just dragging her along it for a while.
XOXODreamerXOXO: Thanks!
beeeyaaatch: I'm leaning towards storm. Just a underline power. One that the others just can't pick up on. Something like her signature?
OmegaRam1: Thanks! I loved the feedback. Makes me feel great. Your right on the money with Liz. The next couple of chapters she will see it. Don't worry. Thank you!
roswelllover: I think Tess is pretty much gone. Do you think you can tell I don't like the home recker?
I don't own Linkin Park song crawl. They get all the credit.
I hope you like it. I know it jumps around a lot. But lets face it. Liz is not that stabble. Plus I wanted to fill in the blanks a little. Let me know if you have any questions.
CHAPTER 26A
LIZ'S POV
Running. Head phones on. Linkin Park's Crawl. Set on loop flooding through her ears. *Isn't it amazing how you can always find a song to fit your mood. To explain. To put into words just how you feel. When you thought there were no words or explanation to to your thoughts and emotion.*
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
Turning up the volume.
Conversations of the past going through her head.
"I don't know what to say Liz. We all need to live our lives. We all make choices." Watching Kyle shrug his shoulders. "I guess there is no real right or wrong answerers in life. Just consequences for our actions. Of our choices."
"What does that mean?"
"Have no idea. But it sounded really smart though." Huge grin on Kyle's face.
Both start laughing.
"Thanks Kyle."
"No problem. Pulling her into a hug.
Time went on as time always does. Seemly unaware of the joys and tragedies around it. It had been more then a month now. With no real change had come. Everyone did back off a little like Max said. They still hovered but from more of a distance now. Actually giving her real time alone. *Sometimes.* She went on as best she could. With everyone falling into a routine around her.
Her mind wondering as she looked out at the stretch of desert ahead of her..
Searching for something. Looking out at the field. Something tugging lightly in her mind. Something that she forgot. That she needed. Wanted. Loved. Walking a few more steps out. *Bunny?* The picture of the bunny flashing though her mind gone a second later. *What happened? Where had it gone? Was it ever really there? Was that what I'm looking for now?*
*No.* Feeling the soft tug once more. *The bunny was gone but I need something else. Something more.*
*Did I ever have it? This more?* Not knowing a name for it. Not knowing what it was exactly that she was looking for.
*Zan? Rath?* Feeling getting stronger.
Tugging in her heart. *Zan...*
Tugging slowly turning to pain. *No. That can't be. There no love there. They left me.* Pushing away the feeling.
Feeling HIM behind her. Losing the feeling all together.
HIM speaking softly. "Don't get attached to anyone or anything. In the end you will have to leave it. Be prepared to get up and leave any place at any time. No matter how much you love it or them." One of the few times he looked at her sadly. Guilty even. Regretful. "Your not meant to here." Sorrow in his voice. Actually showing her a little compassion. Putting his hand on her small shoulder.
"My bunny?" Looking up at HIM. Knowing it was some how gone forever. Just making sure that it existed in the first place. That the flash of memory was real. *I lost so much time this time.*
"Wasn't meant to be." Started walking away from her.
*Then why? Why give it to me in the first place?* Not daring to voice the question out loud. Settling for the fact that it had indeed existed.
"It's dangerous for anyone to be around you. More dangerous for you. He wants too much from you. Far more then I thought he did." HIS words floating through the air. Almost missing them all together.
Shaking her head. Chasing the sad memory away. *Why did HE do half the things that HE did?* Still not any closer to finding the answerers then before. *Everything that HE did didn't make sense. Why?*
There's something inside of me
That pulls beneath the surface
Consuming
Confusing
I can't seem to find myself again
My walls are closing in
Feeling her hair and shirt sticking to her shirt. Making her want to run a little longer.
I felt this way before
So insecure
In the morning she would jog out to the old gas station some time even farther then that. Sometimes again at night. Like tonight. She felt too restless to stay at home. To close to giving into the sleep that would soon come.
Kyle always running with her. Liz figured it was because he was the only one that could keep up with her. The days that she went farther Kyle usually stayed at the gas station. Finding some excuse as to why he stuck around. In her mind she really thought it was because everyone thought she would lose it or never come back. That she would just keep running. Sometimes she felt she so close to doing both.
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
It got to the point that she didn't say anything about why they were hanging around and they quite making up lame excuses. She had became accustom to them as she has done with everything in her life. Liz adapted. She endured. Nothing more.
*Like tonight.* It was Friday night. She knew everyone would come over and watch movies all night. *Like every Friday and Saturday night now. Routine.*
Conversation once more slipping through.
Earlier that afternoon. "You need to live Liz."
Looking up from the window at the Sheriff.
"I am."
"Are you?" His voice taking on a concerned soft tone.
Nodding her head. Not really knowing what else to say.
"No. I don't think that you are." Shaking his head sadly. "Your standing still. Your surviving. Nothing more. Your not really living."
Feeling the tears start to sting her eyes. Before blinking them away. "I don't know what to do." Not knowing what else to say.
Sheriff signing. "I know it's not easy. Life never is. You safe here. Safe now. I think it time you start planning a future."
"I don't know what that is yet."
"I was never the one that believed in destiny or what a person was suppose to do in their life. Never believed that one's life is all mapped out. Like I said before, life is not easy. It's always throwing you something. Something that a person didn't expect or plan for. I also believe. That what doesn't kill you. Makes you stronger. From what I've seen and was told. I would have to say your about the strongest person that I know."
"I don't feel very strong." Looking back out at the window.
"That may be but it doesn't mean that it's not true. I think what you need to do is trust your self."
*I'm the one person in this world that I shouldn't trust.* Not voicing the though out loud.
"You've got your self this far."
*No. HE did.*
"HIS voice flooding her head. "Your alive because of me. You would be dead right now. Or all alone in a cage being experimented on. Your here because of me. You do exactly what I say and maybe you will survive. Maybe you won't hurt anyone else."
Pulling herself out of the thought.
....Pulled itself upon me
Distracting
"Do exactly what I say" HIS voice breaking through once more.
*What am I doing?*
Against my will
I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting
How I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
After the run she would make breakfast. Some times for just the Vilenti's other times for who else was there. Depending on who decided to drop by that morning. Usually Michael. She insisted that she cook all the meals. Cleaning up afterwards. Cleaned the house. Trying to help out and keep busy. She still took long showers. Sometimes she read books that she got from the library. Some times she went to the park just to simply watch the children play. Listened to her music. She still hardly slept but it hadn't rain.
*Which I think is a accomplishment in itself.*
*Of course I tried not to feel anything either.*
Liz hardly talked. Mostly only to the Sheriff and Kyle. She rarely answered any questions that anyone asked. Especially on how she was feeling. *So sick of that question.* Always declining any invitation to go out. She could sit with everyone now with out having the urge to run away. *Hence, movie nights.* No one demanded anything from her. In return she excepted their presence. A silent treaty. She knew they were all worried about her and that they wanted so much more from her. So much that she couldn't give at the moment and she feared that she never would.
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
True life went on and each day she went on too. Still not deciding what to do. She had came to realize that she was scared of the answerer. Even though she was pushing them away. Terrified that she could be putting them in danger. That she would get them killed. Even a little part of her afraid that she herself could get hurt more. Slowly realizing she was truly afraid of the fact that she would have to leave them someday. Have to give them up. That she would lose them forever. That one fact alone. *Scares me the most.*
*Should I still be here? Should I have left and not have gotten attach?*
*Can I?*
So, it just brought her back to were she was. Standing still once more. Just with a diploma now and no real idea of what to do next. With everyone putting their lives on hold. Waiting to see what she was going to do.
Consuming
Confusing
This lack of self control
My fear is never ending
Controlling
Not slowing down in the slightest as she past the old abandon gas station.
Conversations in the past going through her head.
Her and Kyle in the park. Seeing the others hanging out under a tree. Seeming to have a panic. Knowing right away that Kyle or his father most likely called them. Telling them where they were headed. Michael starting to wave at her before Maria pulling his arms down. Obviously trying to give her room once more but wanting to be there with her all the same. Kyle waving back as she forced a smile on her face. Knowing it came out weak. *They were trying. Have to give them credit for that. Sitting down on a swing several yards away from them. Not being able to bring herself to go to them.
"It's hurts doesn't isn't." Kyle sitting down on the swing next to her.
Looking up at him questionably.
"Not being with them. To relax and goof around."
"More then you will ever know." Whispering back. Looking once more at them as Maria and Alex started to playfully fighting about something. *How easy it is for them.* She longed for it. Just didn't know if it was right or if she could get it.
"Just go to them."
"I can't."
"Why not? You all belong together." Kyle losing patients with her.
"I..." Faltering as tears came to her eyes. Blinking them away. "can't."
Regret filling his voice. "I'm sorry. I just want to see you happy."
Looking at them once more before looking away. "I just want them to be safe. To be happy." Looking at Kyle once more.
"They would be happy with you."
"But are they safe?" *That was the question.*
"Are they any safer with out you? Your making it all more difficult then it has to be."
"Am I?" Looking at them once more. Her and Max locking eyes.
"Don't you think it should be their choice."
"There choice?" Not taking her eyes off Max.
"You know. Their decision. It's their life too."
Pulling herself out of the thought. Slowing her pace as she started to pull her back pack off. Not the one that she kept so she could leave at a moment notice. It took her a few weeks to actually leave it behind. The insulated one that the sheriff bought for her. Small enough that it contained two water bottles and a couple granola bars. Plus her new cell phone Alex gave her. "For just in case." With strict orders that she wasn't allowed to run without it. It wasn't often that the Sheriff pulled the guardianship card. Always doing what he asked when he did.
Pulling out a bottle of water as her vision started to blur slightly with the setting sun. Closing her eyes and drinking almost all of it. Pouring the remainder of it over her face. Feeling slightly better.
*It's hot.* Opening her eyes to look around her. *Even this late.* Too far away to see the gas station and Kyle any more. *How long have I been running?* Searching in all direction around her for any signs of how far she had gone. The rock formations starting to strike out more to her left. About a hundred yards off the road. Feeling the heat hit her once more as she looked back down the road to where Kyle was waiting at the gas station. Suddenly the way back looked to long. Looking once more at the rock formation and the little shade that they offered. Her vision starting to blur once more. Closing her eyes and taking deep breathes. Slowly opening her eyes. *Little better.* Knowing that she had to get out of the heat. * Just for a few minutes. The sun would be fully set soon. Then I can walk back.* Feeling the exhaustion start to over come her. Slowly start to make her way to rocks as she silently cursed herself for going so far. For pushing her body to the limits without taking care of it. Lack of food and sleep finally taking it tool on her.
Controlling
I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
"Do you ever sleep?" Kyle coming to stand behind her at the window. Both looking out to the setting moon. Dawn only a couple hours away.
"Sometimes."
"When?
"When I absolutely have too."
"You need to get some sleep. It's been 6 days." Feeling his eyes on her.
"I remember when I sleep."
"I thought the point of it was to remember. That you forgot almost everything about yourselves."
"Sometime."
"Sometimes not?"
"It's hard to tell what's a dream and what's real."
"Nightmares?"
Nodding her head. "Mostly."
"Doesn't Isabel dream walk or something. Can't she help?"
"No. Besides, I wouldn't want her to see what I've done."
"It's just a dream."
"It's reliving the past."
"It's that bad?"
"Worst."
"I know it's bad Liz." His voice dropping lower. "But you can't go on like this either. It's in the past. It's over now. No one is going to let anything happen to you again. I promise your safe here."
*Am I safe from myself?*
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
Dropping to her knees and crawling the last couple of feet. Up to the little shade that the rocks offered. A little cubby hole that she could fit into. Pulling her bag alone behind her.
Against my will
I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting
After she talked to Kyle. She had given into sleep that night. Woke to the whole house shaking. It took Max and Michael together to get her powers under control again. That was 8 days ago. She hadn't allowed herself to luxury of sleeping since.
Dizziness over coming her once more as she stumbled with her bag. Pulling out her water and once more drinking half of it. Feeling it rise up and threaten to come back up. Taking a few deep breathe as she settled into the little cubby hole. Willing the water to stay down.
*Am I making this all more difficult then it was?* Wondering again if Kyle was right.
Consuming
Confusing
*I just want to be right. I have to be sure.* Feeling her eyes sliding shut at the setting sun.
My fear is never ending
Controlling
*But I'm not going to know unless I make a choice. It's the only way to truly know what's right. If me stay or going will put them in danger. We if can make it together or a part.*
I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
"Either way I won't know until it's too late." Her body finally giving out to the exhaustion. Feeling herself be pulled into sleep against her will. With the words of the song.
I felt this way before
So insecure
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I hope you like it. I know it jumps around a lot. But lets face it. Liz is not that stabble. Plus I wanted to fill in the blanks a little. Let me know if you have any questions.
CHAPTER 26A
LIZ'S POV
Running. Head phones on. Linkin Park's Crawl. Set on loop flooding through her ears. *Isn't it amazing how you can always find a song to fit your mood. To explain. To put into words just how you feel. When you thought there were no words or explanation to to your thoughts and emotion.*
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
Turning up the volume.
Conversations of the past going through her head.
"I don't know what to say Liz. We all need to live our lives. We all make choices." Watching Kyle shrug his shoulders. "I guess there is no real right or wrong answerers in life. Just consequences for our actions. Of our choices."
"What does that mean?"
"Have no idea. But it sounded really smart though." Huge grin on Kyle's face.
Both start laughing.
"Thanks Kyle."
"No problem. Pulling her into a hug.
Time went on as time always does. Seemly unaware of the joys and tragedies around it. It had been more then a month now. With no real change had come. Everyone did back off a little like Max said. They still hovered but from more of a distance now. Actually giving her real time alone. *Sometimes.* She went on as best she could. With everyone falling into a routine around her.
Her mind wondering as she looked out at the stretch of desert ahead of her..
Searching for something. Looking out at the field. Something tugging lightly in her mind. Something that she forgot. That she needed. Wanted. Loved. Walking a few more steps out. *Bunny?* The picture of the bunny flashing though her mind gone a second later. *What happened? Where had it gone? Was it ever really there? Was that what I'm looking for now?*
*No.* Feeling the soft tug once more. *The bunny was gone but I need something else. Something more.*
*Did I ever have it? This more?* Not knowing a name for it. Not knowing what it was exactly that she was looking for.
*Zan? Rath?* Feeling getting stronger.
Tugging in her heart. *Zan...*
Tugging slowly turning to pain. *No. That can't be. There no love there. They left me.* Pushing away the feeling.
Feeling HIM behind her. Losing the feeling all together.
HIM speaking softly. "Don't get attached to anyone or anything. In the end you will have to leave it. Be prepared to get up and leave any place at any time. No matter how much you love it or them." One of the few times he looked at her sadly. Guilty even. Regretful. "Your not meant to here." Sorrow in his voice. Actually showing her a little compassion. Putting his hand on her small shoulder.
"My bunny?" Looking up at HIM. Knowing it was some how gone forever. Just making sure that it existed in the first place. That the flash of memory was real. *I lost so much time this time.*
"Wasn't meant to be." Started walking away from her.
*Then why? Why give it to me in the first place?* Not daring to voice the question out loud. Settling for the fact that it had indeed existed.
"It's dangerous for anyone to be around you. More dangerous for you. He wants too much from you. Far more then I thought he did." HIS words floating through the air. Almost missing them all together.
Shaking her head. Chasing the sad memory away. *Why did HE do half the things that HE did?* Still not any closer to finding the answerers then before. *Everything that HE did didn't make sense. Why?*
There's something inside of me
That pulls beneath the surface
Consuming
Confusing
I can't seem to find myself again
My walls are closing in
Feeling her hair and shirt sticking to her shirt. Making her want to run a little longer.
I felt this way before
So insecure
In the morning she would jog out to the old gas station some time even farther then that. Sometimes again at night. Like tonight. She felt too restless to stay at home. To close to giving into the sleep that would soon come.
Kyle always running with her. Liz figured it was because he was the only one that could keep up with her. The days that she went farther Kyle usually stayed at the gas station. Finding some excuse as to why he stuck around. In her mind she really thought it was because everyone thought she would lose it or never come back. That she would just keep running. Sometimes she felt she so close to doing both.
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
It got to the point that she didn't say anything about why they were hanging around and they quite making up lame excuses. She had became accustom to them as she has done with everything in her life. Liz adapted. She endured. Nothing more.
*Like tonight.* It was Friday night. She knew everyone would come over and watch movies all night. *Like every Friday and Saturday night now. Routine.*
Conversation once more slipping through.
Earlier that afternoon. "You need to live Liz."
Looking up from the window at the Sheriff.
"I am."
"Are you?" His voice taking on a concerned soft tone.
Nodding her head. Not really knowing what else to say.
"No. I don't think that you are." Shaking his head sadly. "Your standing still. Your surviving. Nothing more. Your not really living."
Feeling the tears start to sting her eyes. Before blinking them away. "I don't know what to do." Not knowing what else to say.
Sheriff signing. "I know it's not easy. Life never is. You safe here. Safe now. I think it time you start planning a future."
"I don't know what that is yet."
"I was never the one that believed in destiny or what a person was suppose to do in their life. Never believed that one's life is all mapped out. Like I said before, life is not easy. It's always throwing you something. Something that a person didn't expect or plan for. I also believe. That what doesn't kill you. Makes you stronger. From what I've seen and was told. I would have to say your about the strongest person that I know."
"I don't feel very strong." Looking back out at the window.
"That may be but it doesn't mean that it's not true. I think what you need to do is trust your self."
*I'm the one person in this world that I shouldn't trust.* Not voicing the though out loud.
"You've got your self this far."
*No. HE did.*
"HIS voice flooding her head. "Your alive because of me. You would be dead right now. Or all alone in a cage being experimented on. Your here because of me. You do exactly what I say and maybe you will survive. Maybe you won't hurt anyone else."
Pulling herself out of the thought.
....Pulled itself upon me
Distracting
"Do exactly what I say" HIS voice breaking through once more.
*What am I doing?*
Against my will
I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting
How I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
After the run she would make breakfast. Some times for just the Vilenti's other times for who else was there. Depending on who decided to drop by that morning. Usually Michael. She insisted that she cook all the meals. Cleaning up afterwards. Cleaned the house. Trying to help out and keep busy. She still took long showers. Sometimes she read books that she got from the library. Some times she went to the park just to simply watch the children play. Listened to her music. She still hardly slept but it hadn't rain.
*Which I think is a accomplishment in itself.*
*Of course I tried not to feel anything either.*
Liz hardly talked. Mostly only to the Sheriff and Kyle. She rarely answered any questions that anyone asked. Especially on how she was feeling. *So sick of that question.* Always declining any invitation to go out. She could sit with everyone now with out having the urge to run away. *Hence, movie nights.* No one demanded anything from her. In return she excepted their presence. A silent treaty. She knew they were all worried about her and that they wanted so much more from her. So much that she couldn't give at the moment and she feared that she never would.
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
True life went on and each day she went on too. Still not deciding what to do. She had came to realize that she was scared of the answerer. Even though she was pushing them away. Terrified that she could be putting them in danger. That she would get them killed. Even a little part of her afraid that she herself could get hurt more. Slowly realizing she was truly afraid of the fact that she would have to leave them someday. Have to give them up. That she would lose them forever. That one fact alone. *Scares me the most.*
*Should I still be here? Should I have left and not have gotten attach?*
*Can I?*
So, it just brought her back to were she was. Standing still once more. Just with a diploma now and no real idea of what to do next. With everyone putting their lives on hold. Waiting to see what she was going to do.
Consuming
Confusing
This lack of self control
My fear is never ending
Controlling
Not slowing down in the slightest as she past the old abandon gas station.
Conversations in the past going through her head.
Her and Kyle in the park. Seeing the others hanging out under a tree. Seeming to have a panic. Knowing right away that Kyle or his father most likely called them. Telling them where they were headed. Michael starting to wave at her before Maria pulling his arms down. Obviously trying to give her room once more but wanting to be there with her all the same. Kyle waving back as she forced a smile on her face. Knowing it came out weak. *They were trying. Have to give them credit for that. Sitting down on a swing several yards away from them. Not being able to bring herself to go to them.
"It's hurts doesn't isn't." Kyle sitting down on the swing next to her.
Looking up at him questionably.
"Not being with them. To relax and goof around."
"More then you will ever know." Whispering back. Looking once more at them as Maria and Alex started to playfully fighting about something. *How easy it is for them.* She longed for it. Just didn't know if it was right or if she could get it.
"Just go to them."
"I can't."
"Why not? You all belong together." Kyle losing patients with her.
"I..." Faltering as tears came to her eyes. Blinking them away. "can't."
Regret filling his voice. "I'm sorry. I just want to see you happy."
Looking at them once more before looking away. "I just want them to be safe. To be happy." Looking at Kyle once more.
"They would be happy with you."
"But are they safe?" *That was the question.*
"Are they any safer with out you? Your making it all more difficult then it has to be."
"Am I?" Looking at them once more. Her and Max locking eyes.
"Don't you think it should be their choice."
"There choice?" Not taking her eyes off Max.
"You know. Their decision. It's their life too."
Pulling herself out of the thought. Slowing her pace as she started to pull her back pack off. Not the one that she kept so she could leave at a moment notice. It took her a few weeks to actually leave it behind. The insulated one that the sheriff bought for her. Small enough that it contained two water bottles and a couple granola bars. Plus her new cell phone Alex gave her. "For just in case." With strict orders that she wasn't allowed to run without it. It wasn't often that the Sheriff pulled the guardianship card. Always doing what he asked when he did.
Pulling out a bottle of water as her vision started to blur slightly with the setting sun. Closing her eyes and drinking almost all of it. Pouring the remainder of it over her face. Feeling slightly better.
*It's hot.* Opening her eyes to look around her. *Even this late.* Too far away to see the gas station and Kyle any more. *How long have I been running?* Searching in all direction around her for any signs of how far she had gone. The rock formations starting to strike out more to her left. About a hundred yards off the road. Feeling the heat hit her once more as she looked back down the road to where Kyle was waiting at the gas station. Suddenly the way back looked to long. Looking once more at the rock formation and the little shade that they offered. Her vision starting to blur once more. Closing her eyes and taking deep breathes. Slowly opening her eyes. *Little better.* Knowing that she had to get out of the heat. * Just for a few minutes. The sun would be fully set soon. Then I can walk back.* Feeling the exhaustion start to over come her. Slowly start to make her way to rocks as she silently cursed herself for going so far. For pushing her body to the limits without taking care of it. Lack of food and sleep finally taking it tool on her.
Controlling
I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
"Do you ever sleep?" Kyle coming to stand behind her at the window. Both looking out to the setting moon. Dawn only a couple hours away.
"Sometimes."
"When?
"When I absolutely have too."
"You need to get some sleep. It's been 6 days." Feeling his eyes on her.
"I remember when I sleep."
"I thought the point of it was to remember. That you forgot almost everything about yourselves."
"Sometime."
"Sometimes not?"
"It's hard to tell what's a dream and what's real."
"Nightmares?"
Nodding her head. "Mostly."
"Doesn't Isabel dream walk or something. Can't she help?"
"No. Besides, I wouldn't want her to see what I've done."
"It's just a dream."
"It's reliving the past."
"It's that bad?"
"Worst."
"I know it's bad Liz." His voice dropping lower. "But you can't go on like this either. It's in the past. It's over now. No one is going to let anything happen to you again. I promise your safe here."
*Am I safe from myself?*
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
Dropping to her knees and crawling the last couple of feet. Up to the little shade that the rocks offered. A little cubby hole that she could fit into. Pulling her bag alone behind her.
Against my will
I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting
After she talked to Kyle. She had given into sleep that night. Woke to the whole house shaking. It took Max and Michael together to get her powers under control again. That was 8 days ago. She hadn't allowed herself to luxury of sleeping since.
Dizziness over coming her once more as she stumbled with her bag. Pulling out her water and once more drinking half of it. Feeling it rise up and threaten to come back up. Taking a few deep breathe as she settled into the little cubby hole. Willing the water to stay down.
*Am I making this all more difficult then it was?* Wondering again if Kyle was right.
Consuming
Confusing
*I just want to be right. I have to be sure.* Feeling her eyes sliding shut at the setting sun.
My fear is never ending
Controlling
*But I'm not going to know unless I make a choice. It's the only way to truly know what's right. If me stay or going will put them in danger. We if can make it together or a part.*
I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
"Either way I won't know until it's too late." Her body finally giving out to the exhaustion. Feeling herself be pulled into sleep against her will. With the words of the song.
I felt this way before
So insecure
Dig my grave,
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
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Chapter 26B
MAX’S POV
“Hey Max. Liz and Kyle are still out for their run.” Answering his question before he had a chance to ask. “Are all of you staying the night?” Looking past him to his friends coming up the drive way.
Following the Sheriff’s eyes to Michael, Maria, Isabel and Alex. All carrying various bags and boxes containing snacks, soda, movies, and pizza. “I think so.” Turning back to the Sheriff. Following him into the house.
8 days ago. Liz woke with a nightmare. The house basically coming out of the ground. Kyle and the Sheriff thought it was an earthquake.
Liz’s powers seem to increase in strength with every new nightmare. *Which made sense considering their emotions had an effect on our powers. Explaining Michael’s lack of control of his as he grow up. Liz’s increase of strength and loss of control during a memory or nightmare. Which could mean that her nightmares were getting worst. Could it be any worst then what Liz already remembered?* Shaking his head at the thought. Not wanting to explorer that particular idea at the moment.
It took Michael and himself to get Liz’s powers back under control again. Not to mention fixing all the damage that Liz caused. Ever since then Michael and his self have been taking turns sleeping on the couch. While on movie night the others joined them too. Becoming a big slumber party. *One of which Liz didn’t sleep.* Which worried him. Not as much as the idea that his and Michael’s control wouldn’t be enough next time to help Liz.
“How are things?” Covering the questions. Is Liz all right? Any change? Anything happen while I was gone? Anything out of the ordinary? Anything new that I should be worried about?
Since he agreed to back off. Leaving Liz alone as much as possible but being there if she needed him too. Was becoming most difficult. Liz had not moved forward. After the last nightmare he had felt her retreat back even more. Spending more and more time alone in her room. A place that Michael and his self had agreed. Was off limits to them. Unless an emergency arise. Hoping to give Liz a feeling of ownership. Self control. Privacy in her life. *It just doesn’t seem to be working that well.* Feeling that Liz had not gain any of those things.
The only activity that Liz took part in was watching movies at her house. Which became movie night. They were up to 4 nights a week now. The rest of time was spent practicing control of their powers and following Liz’s lead.
Talks of the future have yet to be discussed. The whole excuse of taking some time off to relax and find them selves. Was only going to last the summer with their parents. Alex’s and Maria’s parents were starting to question about college and their future. At least having his parents know and understand helped. Feeling some relief there.
“Fine. I’ll be at Amy’s most of the night. Probably late if you need me.”
“Please my ears.” Maria coming into the room. Giving the Sheriff a quick kiss on the cheek. “Mom said not to forget the egg rolls.”
Having to smile at the relationship that Maria and Jim had formed. *It was great to see her except him in hers and her mother’s life.* Recalling that the idea terrified Maria before the Sheriff found out the truth about the them.
Sheriff giving a soft laugh. “I won’t. Listen Max. Try to get Liz to eat a piece of that.” Pointing to the boxes of pizza that Maria was holding.
“Liz didn’t eat today.” Knowing the answerer before it even slipped out of his mouth. *When did she ever eat?* Watching her push her food around her plate and not eat it more times then he cared to emit.
“Kyle said he couldn’t get her to eat anything today. I’m pretty sure that she didn’t eat yesterday either.”
*Damn.* Watching a scowl form on Michael face as he listened.
“How does she have the energy to run. Kyle said she runs farther then the old gas station.” Isabel heading into the kitchen.
“I have no idea.” Sheriff shaking his head.
“Don’t worry. We will get her to eat. Even if we have to force feed her.”
Frowning at the thought. *I don’t want to force Liz to do anything. She has been forced enough in her life.*
“That might not be that simple. It’s most likely a control factor with her.” – Alex
“A what?” Isabel coming back into the room carrying a pop.
“A control factor. A person with anorexia….” - Alex
“Liz is not anorexia.” Michael cutting Alex off. Automatically coming to Liz’s defense.
“Michael.” Maria touching his arm.
“Liz has lost a lot of weight Michael. She’s what? 85 pounds now. A strong wind can knock her over.” Isabel shaking her head. “Have you seen the clothes that we bought her? She’s swimming in them. I don’t think we can get clothes in style any smaller for her.”
*Is that what Liz was doing? Not eating as a way to feel in control?* Having touched on the subject in health class. Thinking back on the subject.
“I’m not worried about her clothes Isabel.” Michael clinching his teeth. “She’s not anorexia.” Stating the words as if that alone would make Liz not so.
Alex lowering his voice. “All I’m saying Michael is that Liz could be using food as a way to feel in control of her life.”
*Liz defiantly had all the signs. Why didn’t I see it before?* Feeling guilt go through him. Answering his own question. *Because I didn’t want anything else to be wrong that I couldn’t fix.*
“LIZ IS IN CONTROL! ALL WE DO IS FOLLOWER HER AROUND! TAKING HER LEAD!” Michael walking the length of the room.
“But that doesn’t mean that Liz feels in control herself.” Maria trying to explain what Alex was saying.
“Look at her Michael. She doesn’t eat. Doesn’t sleep. Runs like crazy. Constantly cooled. Wrapping herself up in Max’s jacket. Take that off her. Liz is skin and bones. The closes Liz’s is let us get is wearing Max’s jacket. Like it or not, Michael. Liz is retreating away from us again.” – Isabel
“I’m not sure she was ever here.” Seeing Michael’s eyes fill up with tears as he turned away from them.
Making his own chest tighten. Knowing it killed Michael not to have his sister open up to him yet. To let them in.
After a moment of silence. “All I know is something has to change soon. Liz can’t go on like this much longer. I talked to her today but I’m not sure I got through to her. Maybe you can all try again tonight.”
“Like an intervention?” – Alex
“I thought we were suppose to back off and not pressure her. I thought….”
Michael getting cut off by the sound of the Sheriffs cell ringing.
“Vilenti…… Kyle?” Taking a step away from them.
“That hasn’t been working Michael.” – Isabel
“Kyle just calm down.” - Sheriff
Feeling the hairs on his body stand.
“How long has she been gone?”
Stomach dropped.
Sheriff look at his watch. “Ok. Stay put. Where on our way.” Sheriff turning to look at him. “No, stay put.” Hanging up the phone.
“What?” First time he spoke since he came in. All ready backing up for the door.
“Liz has been gone for an hour.”
Out the front door. Turning to get into his jeep. “And.”
“Kyle said the longest he has ever had to wait was 45 minute.”
“15 minutes. That’s not long. She’s just late.” Maria’s voice betraying her words.
Long enough.
“Doesn’t take long…” Sheriff leaving the sentence hang.
“I’m coming.” Michael getting into the SUV that Liz gave to him.
Remembering past conversation.
“Why a white SUV? Obviously Nesado had money. Why that? Why not something smaller for you?” Alex asking Liz.
Obliviously sharing his thoughts that the SUV was to be for her.
“The SUV is perfect to protect us from gun fire. Plus it tends to blend in now a days.” – Liz
Spitting out his juice he was drinking.
“That’s a comforting thought.” – Alex
Did Liz need that protection now? Is she hurt. FBI. Kaviar. Did she take off on her own. There were so many different variable that could have happened.
“Take different cars in case we need to split up to cover more ground. Two in a car. Make sure you look out into the desert too. Liz might have wondered off the road. Alex.” Pointing to his jeep. “Go with Max. Isabel you stay here in case Liz shows up or calls. Everyone make sure your cell phones is on. Nobody panic. This could all just be nothing.” Sheriff getting in his car. Siren blaring as they followed his lead.
*So many things could have happen. Could have gone wrong. Doesn’t feel like nothing.* The sinking feeling in his stomach not letting him go.
*Please just be alright.*
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LIZ’S POV
Her body and mind slipped from one conscious level to the next unchecked. To exhausted to fight against the current of memories and emotion that came forth to play havoc on her mind.
The harsh sting of the slap. Send her flying to the ground. Tasting the metallic taste of blood. Staying down. Not bothering to defend her self. As HE started to rant and rave above her.
*You know this is your fault. You did something wrong.*
Searching her mind for the offensive mistake that she had made. Nothing coming to mind. Having done nothing that seemed so bad to her. Anything different.
*Had to be something….*
“Aveana come here.” Standing now across the room from her. Finally control of HIS temper.
Slowly getting up from the floor. “My name is Liz.” Shocking her own senses by the sound of her own voice. Sounding foreign to her own ears. Being the first time hearing her own voice. Having not spoken since the incident at the gas station with the women. Soon after coming out of the pod.
Time had past for her slowly in that time. Moving from place to place. Being the only sense in time past. Teaching her the ways of this cruel world. How she was expected to be. What and who she was. In that time watching HIM kill two men. For reason beyond her capability of understanding. Taking beating as HE saw fit with out defending herself in the least. Trying to understand it. To make sure she didn’t make the same mistake again.
Seeing the fleeting moment of shock on HIS face. Emotion that she had never seen before on HIM.
Taking a step back. Fear fueling her once more. *I shouldn’t have said that.*
“Don’t” HIS words as hard as ice.
Stopping her retreat.
“Weakness.” Disapproving tone. Stating that she should know better.
The one word making her stand a little straighter. Keeping her from looking away from HIM. To lower her head. HE would not tolerating weakness from her at all. To not give her enemies any kind of advantage over her. *I can bleed. Just not cry.* Learning that rule early on.
HIS eyes intensely on her.
“Liz. I would like to be called Liz.” Stating the name again.
“Liz.” Taking a step towards her.
Fighting the urge once more not to back up. *Most not be flawed.*
“I’m not Aveana.” In HIS eyes Aveana was perfect. A true queen. She felt anything but.
Slowly stepping around her. “Your not?” A mocking tone in HIS voice.
Knowing that HE required an explanation. “I don’t remember her. Me.” Correcting herself immediately.
Silence
Watching HIM contemplate the name. “I’ve told you all about your past life.”
“I don’t remember any of it.”
Silence once more.
“Liz then.” Nodding HIS head. “At least you can speak.” Turning to walk out of the room.
Time and images shifting.
Staring out the window. Blinking back the tears that willed themselves to be set free.
*This was her fault. She did this.**
Coming out of the haze of his control. Like waking to a bad dream that never let you go.
Finding the man in the suit dead out side. As if a blow torched was taken to him. Dead from her own hand. Her own powers. Not entirely sure of what happened. Just knowing without a doubt that she was the caused.
Regret. Guilt. Fear filling her. The lifeless body filling her mind. *I did this. I destroy….*
“Don’t.” HIM coming up behind her.
*Not suppose to feel anything. Not suppose to care.* Not wanting to anger HIM any more then she probable was. “I wasn’t.” Stumbling over the words.
As another wave of guilt ran over her. The picture of the women at the gas station along with the suited men filled her view.
*My fault…. I did this…*
“Let it go Liz.” Demanding voice.
Shaking her head no. Trying to convince HIM that she wasn’t thinking about it. “I’m…. not…. “ Stumbling over the words. Wishing the images would vanish with the pain that was rising high. Threaten to consume her. Destroy her.
“Let it go.” Feeling HIS hands on either side of her head.
Coldness filling her.
“We do what we have to do to survive.”
“But….” He didn’t do anything. Leaving the rest unspoken. Knowing it was useless to argue. That HE would kill who ever got in his way. No matter how small.
Pressure and pain filling her head becoming unbearable as HE entered her mind. Blocking the knowledge of what took place. Leaving the skill of the power she used. To defend herself with out thought if the moment a came.
Time and images shifting once more.
“Are we going to find them?”
HIM stopping at the door to her room. Silent so long she didn’t think HE was going to answer her. Like so many times before. “Why would you want to?” Not bothering to turn around to look at her.
“He’s my king and my brother.”
“Who left you alone to die.”
HIS words sending pain through her heart. Swallowing the lump that formed in her throat. “We still belong together.” Her words not nearly as strong as before.
“No. You don’t.” Walking out of the room.
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MAX’S POV
10 minute drive becoming 3. At first glance Kyle wasn’t at the abandon station. Taking upon himself to run out more. Taking less then a minute to reach him. With no Liz in sight.
Everyone pulling to a stop by him. “Kyle, I told you to wait.” His father out of his car beside him.
“I just couldn’t sit there doing nothing, Dad.” Kyle trying to take in deep breathes.
“How fast can she run?” – Michael
“On a good day? Liz can clear a mile in 4 minutes.” - Kyle
“Your kidding me.” Maria leaning over Michael in the SUV.
“No.” Kyle shaking his head. Still trying to catch his breathe.
“It’s true. I’ve seen her run.”
“And today?” - Michael
“Not so fast. She looked tired to began with. I tried to get her to stay home, but she said she needed to clear her head. I yelled for her to stop at the station but she had her headphones on. I got the impression her mind was in her own world.”
“Come on.” Pulling back on the road. Driving another twenty mile. Taking a little more time. Careful searching the out stretch highway and the desert on both sides. Seeing no sign of her. All the while silently praying that Liz was alright.
*Liz where are you.*
Others pulling up behind him. Everyone getting out.
“Did she have her back pack?” Liz wouldn’t have took off on her own with out it. Survival instinct that Nesado instilled in her. The only time she didn’t take the back pack now. Was when she ran. With that only starting 2 weeks ago. Thinking at the time that it was a improvement.
“No. Just the one that Dad gave her.” Kyle shaking his head no.
“So that means she didn’t take off on her own.” Michael sharing his same thought.
“So she has water and her meal bars I gave her.” Sheriff seemly to like the idea.
“Yeah.” – Kyle
“What about her phone?” - Alex
“I guess. I’m not sure. Dad told her to keep it on her.”
“Call it.” Sheriff
“All ready on it.” Michael with the phone to his ear.
Everyone waited as the phone rang and rang until finally voice mail which on. Michael hanging up and hitting redial.
“Now what?” – Maria
“Kyle did any cars pass you?” - Sheriff
“No. I did hear one coming either.”
Sheriff walking back to his car. “I’m going to out a ABP on Liz.”
“I’m not sure that’s a good idea. We aren’t sure what we are dealing with yet.” *Did she take off on her own . No. I’m sure that she wouldn’t leave her bag. Kaviar? Did he some how got to her or was it the FBI. Or some one that worked for Kaviar.* Looking out the long stretch of high. Still no sign of Liz at all.
“I don’t have a choice. The State high ways can cover more ground right now. If Liz was taken she could be miles from us.” Picking up the radio. Sending out the information.
“It’s not raining. That has to be a good sign.” – Maria
“Unless she’s unconscious.” –Alex
*Was she hurt? Unconscious some where? Both?. Either wouldn’t be good.*
“Oww.” Alex yelling from hit Maria gave him.
*We need more people on this. Roswell was small but still had a lot of ground to cover. James.* Taking out his own phone. Pressing the keys that would put him through to James.
“Max?” – Michael
“Calling James. I want him to put his people on it.” Off the phone a moments later. Giving James the brief details that he needed. With orders that they were to look for Liz. Not to approach her if they did find her. To call him immediately.. See if his spies had any information. All with strict orders to not give Liz’s identity away.
“Us?” – Alex
“Keep calling Liz every 10 minutes. We need to split up. One should go to town and search. Two for both roads out of town. Best to cover more ground as possible.”
“The other highway is on the other side of town.” Disbelief in Alex’s voice. “There is no way she could have taken it. Not to mention they would have had to pass Kyle.”
“I didn’t see anything.” - Kyle
“We are dealing with Aliens here. No telling what they are capable of. Or what they can do. We have all proven that.” Not knowing what powers different aliens processed. Knowing an alien could have mind warped Kyle and he wouldn’t have know the different.
“Liz could have…” - Maria
“No. Liz hated to do that. She wouldn’t.” Shaking his head no. He knew in his heart that Liz wouldn’t.
“She wouldn’t.” Michael agreeing.
“What if she didn’t have a choice?” – Maria
*Liz wouldn’t. It would kill her.* Remembering how much pain it caused her to just show them what she could do. “Liz wouldn’t.” Leaving no room for argument.
“That’s even if it was an Alien. It could be something else all together.” - Alex
“Better to cover our bases.” - Sheriff
Everyone nodding there heads.
“What about Isabel dream walking Liz?” – Alex
“It’s worth a shot.”
MAX’S POV
“Hey Max. Liz and Kyle are still out for their run.” Answering his question before he had a chance to ask. “Are all of you staying the night?” Looking past him to his friends coming up the drive way.
Following the Sheriff’s eyes to Michael, Maria, Isabel and Alex. All carrying various bags and boxes containing snacks, soda, movies, and pizza. “I think so.” Turning back to the Sheriff. Following him into the house.
8 days ago. Liz woke with a nightmare. The house basically coming out of the ground. Kyle and the Sheriff thought it was an earthquake.
Liz’s powers seem to increase in strength with every new nightmare. *Which made sense considering their emotions had an effect on our powers. Explaining Michael’s lack of control of his as he grow up. Liz’s increase of strength and loss of control during a memory or nightmare. Which could mean that her nightmares were getting worst. Could it be any worst then what Liz already remembered?* Shaking his head at the thought. Not wanting to explorer that particular idea at the moment.
It took Michael and himself to get Liz’s powers back under control again. Not to mention fixing all the damage that Liz caused. Ever since then Michael and his self have been taking turns sleeping on the couch. While on movie night the others joined them too. Becoming a big slumber party. *One of which Liz didn’t sleep.* Which worried him. Not as much as the idea that his and Michael’s control wouldn’t be enough next time to help Liz.
“How are things?” Covering the questions. Is Liz all right? Any change? Anything happen while I was gone? Anything out of the ordinary? Anything new that I should be worried about?
Since he agreed to back off. Leaving Liz alone as much as possible but being there if she needed him too. Was becoming most difficult. Liz had not moved forward. After the last nightmare he had felt her retreat back even more. Spending more and more time alone in her room. A place that Michael and his self had agreed. Was off limits to them. Unless an emergency arise. Hoping to give Liz a feeling of ownership. Self control. Privacy in her life. *It just doesn’t seem to be working that well.* Feeling that Liz had not gain any of those things.
The only activity that Liz took part in was watching movies at her house. Which became movie night. They were up to 4 nights a week now. The rest of time was spent practicing control of their powers and following Liz’s lead.
Talks of the future have yet to be discussed. The whole excuse of taking some time off to relax and find them selves. Was only going to last the summer with their parents. Alex’s and Maria’s parents were starting to question about college and their future. At least having his parents know and understand helped. Feeling some relief there.
“Fine. I’ll be at Amy’s most of the night. Probably late if you need me.”
“Please my ears.” Maria coming into the room. Giving the Sheriff a quick kiss on the cheek. “Mom said not to forget the egg rolls.”
Having to smile at the relationship that Maria and Jim had formed. *It was great to see her except him in hers and her mother’s life.* Recalling that the idea terrified Maria before the Sheriff found out the truth about the them.
Sheriff giving a soft laugh. “I won’t. Listen Max. Try to get Liz to eat a piece of that.” Pointing to the boxes of pizza that Maria was holding.
“Liz didn’t eat today.” Knowing the answerer before it even slipped out of his mouth. *When did she ever eat?* Watching her push her food around her plate and not eat it more times then he cared to emit.
“Kyle said he couldn’t get her to eat anything today. I’m pretty sure that she didn’t eat yesterday either.”
*Damn.* Watching a scowl form on Michael face as he listened.
“How does she have the energy to run. Kyle said she runs farther then the old gas station.” Isabel heading into the kitchen.
“I have no idea.” Sheriff shaking his head.
“Don’t worry. We will get her to eat. Even if we have to force feed her.”
Frowning at the thought. *I don’t want to force Liz to do anything. She has been forced enough in her life.*
“That might not be that simple. It’s most likely a control factor with her.” – Alex
“A what?” Isabel coming back into the room carrying a pop.
“A control factor. A person with anorexia….” - Alex
“Liz is not anorexia.” Michael cutting Alex off. Automatically coming to Liz’s defense.
“Michael.” Maria touching his arm.
“Liz has lost a lot of weight Michael. She’s what? 85 pounds now. A strong wind can knock her over.” Isabel shaking her head. “Have you seen the clothes that we bought her? She’s swimming in them. I don’t think we can get clothes in style any smaller for her.”
*Is that what Liz was doing? Not eating as a way to feel in control?* Having touched on the subject in health class. Thinking back on the subject.
“I’m not worried about her clothes Isabel.” Michael clinching his teeth. “She’s not anorexia.” Stating the words as if that alone would make Liz not so.
Alex lowering his voice. “All I’m saying Michael is that Liz could be using food as a way to feel in control of her life.”
*Liz defiantly had all the signs. Why didn’t I see it before?* Feeling guilt go through him. Answering his own question. *Because I didn’t want anything else to be wrong that I couldn’t fix.*
“LIZ IS IN CONTROL! ALL WE DO IS FOLLOWER HER AROUND! TAKING HER LEAD!” Michael walking the length of the room.
“But that doesn’t mean that Liz feels in control herself.” Maria trying to explain what Alex was saying.
“Look at her Michael. She doesn’t eat. Doesn’t sleep. Runs like crazy. Constantly cooled. Wrapping herself up in Max’s jacket. Take that off her. Liz is skin and bones. The closes Liz’s is let us get is wearing Max’s jacket. Like it or not, Michael. Liz is retreating away from us again.” – Isabel
“I’m not sure she was ever here.” Seeing Michael’s eyes fill up with tears as he turned away from them.
Making his own chest tighten. Knowing it killed Michael not to have his sister open up to him yet. To let them in.
After a moment of silence. “All I know is something has to change soon. Liz can’t go on like this much longer. I talked to her today but I’m not sure I got through to her. Maybe you can all try again tonight.”
“Like an intervention?” – Alex
“I thought we were suppose to back off and not pressure her. I thought….”
Michael getting cut off by the sound of the Sheriffs cell ringing.
“Vilenti…… Kyle?” Taking a step away from them.
“That hasn’t been working Michael.” – Isabel
“Kyle just calm down.” - Sheriff
Feeling the hairs on his body stand.
“How long has she been gone?”
Stomach dropped.
Sheriff look at his watch. “Ok. Stay put. Where on our way.” Sheriff turning to look at him. “No, stay put.” Hanging up the phone.
“What?” First time he spoke since he came in. All ready backing up for the door.
“Liz has been gone for an hour.”
Out the front door. Turning to get into his jeep. “And.”
“Kyle said the longest he has ever had to wait was 45 minute.”
“15 minutes. That’s not long. She’s just late.” Maria’s voice betraying her words.
Long enough.
“Doesn’t take long…” Sheriff leaving the sentence hang.
“I’m coming.” Michael getting into the SUV that Liz gave to him.
Remembering past conversation.
“Why a white SUV? Obviously Nesado had money. Why that? Why not something smaller for you?” Alex asking Liz.
Obliviously sharing his thoughts that the SUV was to be for her.
“The SUV is perfect to protect us from gun fire. Plus it tends to blend in now a days.” – Liz
Spitting out his juice he was drinking.
“That’s a comforting thought.” – Alex
Did Liz need that protection now? Is she hurt. FBI. Kaviar. Did she take off on her own. There were so many different variable that could have happened.
“Take different cars in case we need to split up to cover more ground. Two in a car. Make sure you look out into the desert too. Liz might have wondered off the road. Alex.” Pointing to his jeep. “Go with Max. Isabel you stay here in case Liz shows up or calls. Everyone make sure your cell phones is on. Nobody panic. This could all just be nothing.” Sheriff getting in his car. Siren blaring as they followed his lead.
*So many things could have happen. Could have gone wrong. Doesn’t feel like nothing.* The sinking feeling in his stomach not letting him go.
*Please just be alright.*
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LIZ’S POV
Her body and mind slipped from one conscious level to the next unchecked. To exhausted to fight against the current of memories and emotion that came forth to play havoc on her mind.
The harsh sting of the slap. Send her flying to the ground. Tasting the metallic taste of blood. Staying down. Not bothering to defend her self. As HE started to rant and rave above her.
*You know this is your fault. You did something wrong.*
Searching her mind for the offensive mistake that she had made. Nothing coming to mind. Having done nothing that seemed so bad to her. Anything different.
*Had to be something….*
“Aveana come here.” Standing now across the room from her. Finally control of HIS temper.
Slowly getting up from the floor. “My name is Liz.” Shocking her own senses by the sound of her own voice. Sounding foreign to her own ears. Being the first time hearing her own voice. Having not spoken since the incident at the gas station with the women. Soon after coming out of the pod.
Time had past for her slowly in that time. Moving from place to place. Being the only sense in time past. Teaching her the ways of this cruel world. How she was expected to be. What and who she was. In that time watching HIM kill two men. For reason beyond her capability of understanding. Taking beating as HE saw fit with out defending herself in the least. Trying to understand it. To make sure she didn’t make the same mistake again.
Seeing the fleeting moment of shock on HIS face. Emotion that she had never seen before on HIM.
Taking a step back. Fear fueling her once more. *I shouldn’t have said that.*
“Don’t” HIS words as hard as ice.
Stopping her retreat.
“Weakness.” Disapproving tone. Stating that she should know better.
The one word making her stand a little straighter. Keeping her from looking away from HIM. To lower her head. HE would not tolerating weakness from her at all. To not give her enemies any kind of advantage over her. *I can bleed. Just not cry.* Learning that rule early on.
HIS eyes intensely on her.
“Liz. I would like to be called Liz.” Stating the name again.
“Liz.” Taking a step towards her.
Fighting the urge once more not to back up. *Most not be flawed.*
“I’m not Aveana.” In HIS eyes Aveana was perfect. A true queen. She felt anything but.
Slowly stepping around her. “Your not?” A mocking tone in HIS voice.
Knowing that HE required an explanation. “I don’t remember her. Me.” Correcting herself immediately.
Silence
Watching HIM contemplate the name. “I’ve told you all about your past life.”
“I don’t remember any of it.”
Silence once more.
“Liz then.” Nodding HIS head. “At least you can speak.” Turning to walk out of the room.
Time and images shifting.
Staring out the window. Blinking back the tears that willed themselves to be set free.
*This was her fault. She did this.**
Coming out of the haze of his control. Like waking to a bad dream that never let you go.
Finding the man in the suit dead out side. As if a blow torched was taken to him. Dead from her own hand. Her own powers. Not entirely sure of what happened. Just knowing without a doubt that she was the caused.
Regret. Guilt. Fear filling her. The lifeless body filling her mind. *I did this. I destroy….*
“Don’t.” HIM coming up behind her.
*Not suppose to feel anything. Not suppose to care.* Not wanting to anger HIM any more then she probable was. “I wasn’t.” Stumbling over the words.
As another wave of guilt ran over her. The picture of the women at the gas station along with the suited men filled her view.
*My fault…. I did this…*
“Let it go Liz.” Demanding voice.
Shaking her head no. Trying to convince HIM that she wasn’t thinking about it. “I’m…. not…. “ Stumbling over the words. Wishing the images would vanish with the pain that was rising high. Threaten to consume her. Destroy her.
“Let it go.” Feeling HIS hands on either side of her head.
Coldness filling her.
“We do what we have to do to survive.”
“But….” He didn’t do anything. Leaving the rest unspoken. Knowing it was useless to argue. That HE would kill who ever got in his way. No matter how small.
Pressure and pain filling her head becoming unbearable as HE entered her mind. Blocking the knowledge of what took place. Leaving the skill of the power she used. To defend herself with out thought if the moment a came.
Time and images shifting once more.
“Are we going to find them?”
HIM stopping at the door to her room. Silent so long she didn’t think HE was going to answer her. Like so many times before. “Why would you want to?” Not bothering to turn around to look at her.
“He’s my king and my brother.”
“Who left you alone to die.”
HIS words sending pain through her heart. Swallowing the lump that formed in her throat. “We still belong together.” Her words not nearly as strong as before.
“No. You don’t.” Walking out of the room.
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MAX’S POV
10 minute drive becoming 3. At first glance Kyle wasn’t at the abandon station. Taking upon himself to run out more. Taking less then a minute to reach him. With no Liz in sight.
Everyone pulling to a stop by him. “Kyle, I told you to wait.” His father out of his car beside him.
“I just couldn’t sit there doing nothing, Dad.” Kyle trying to take in deep breathes.
“How fast can she run?” – Michael
“On a good day? Liz can clear a mile in 4 minutes.” - Kyle
“Your kidding me.” Maria leaning over Michael in the SUV.
“No.” Kyle shaking his head. Still trying to catch his breathe.
“It’s true. I’ve seen her run.”
“And today?” - Michael
“Not so fast. She looked tired to began with. I tried to get her to stay home, but she said she needed to clear her head. I yelled for her to stop at the station but she had her headphones on. I got the impression her mind was in her own world.”
“Come on.” Pulling back on the road. Driving another twenty mile. Taking a little more time. Careful searching the out stretch highway and the desert on both sides. Seeing no sign of her. All the while silently praying that Liz was alright.
*Liz where are you.*
Others pulling up behind him. Everyone getting out.
“Did she have her back pack?” Liz wouldn’t have took off on her own with out it. Survival instinct that Nesado instilled in her. The only time she didn’t take the back pack now. Was when she ran. With that only starting 2 weeks ago. Thinking at the time that it was a improvement.
“No. Just the one that Dad gave her.” Kyle shaking his head no.
“So that means she didn’t take off on her own.” Michael sharing his same thought.
“So she has water and her meal bars I gave her.” Sheriff seemly to like the idea.
“Yeah.” – Kyle
“What about her phone?” - Alex
“I guess. I’m not sure. Dad told her to keep it on her.”
“Call it.” Sheriff
“All ready on it.” Michael with the phone to his ear.
Everyone waited as the phone rang and rang until finally voice mail which on. Michael hanging up and hitting redial.
“Now what?” – Maria
“Kyle did any cars pass you?” - Sheriff
“No. I did hear one coming either.”
Sheriff walking back to his car. “I’m going to out a ABP on Liz.”
“I’m not sure that’s a good idea. We aren’t sure what we are dealing with yet.” *Did she take off on her own . No. I’m sure that she wouldn’t leave her bag. Kaviar? Did he some how got to her or was it the FBI. Or some one that worked for Kaviar.* Looking out the long stretch of high. Still no sign of Liz at all.
“I don’t have a choice. The State high ways can cover more ground right now. If Liz was taken she could be miles from us.” Picking up the radio. Sending out the information.
“It’s not raining. That has to be a good sign.” – Maria
“Unless she’s unconscious.” –Alex
*Was she hurt? Unconscious some where? Both?. Either wouldn’t be good.*
“Oww.” Alex yelling from hit Maria gave him.
*We need more people on this. Roswell was small but still had a lot of ground to cover. James.* Taking out his own phone. Pressing the keys that would put him through to James.
“Max?” – Michael
“Calling James. I want him to put his people on it.” Off the phone a moments later. Giving James the brief details that he needed. With orders that they were to look for Liz. Not to approach her if they did find her. To call him immediately.. See if his spies had any information. All with strict orders to not give Liz’s identity away.
“Us?” – Alex
“Keep calling Liz every 10 minutes. We need to split up. One should go to town and search. Two for both roads out of town. Best to cover more ground as possible.”
“The other highway is on the other side of town.” Disbelief in Alex’s voice. “There is no way she could have taken it. Not to mention they would have had to pass Kyle.”
“I didn’t see anything.” - Kyle
“We are dealing with Aliens here. No telling what they are capable of. Or what they can do. We have all proven that.” Not knowing what powers different aliens processed. Knowing an alien could have mind warped Kyle and he wouldn’t have know the different.
“Liz could have…” - Maria
“No. Liz hated to do that. She wouldn’t.” Shaking his head no. He knew in his heart that Liz wouldn’t.
“She wouldn’t.” Michael agreeing.
“What if she didn’t have a choice?” – Maria
*Liz wouldn’t. It would kill her.* Remembering how much pain it caused her to just show them what she could do. “Liz wouldn’t.” Leaving no room for argument.
“That’s even if it was an Alien. It could be something else all together.” - Alex
“Better to cover our bases.” - Sheriff
Everyone nodding there heads.
“What about Isabel dream walking Liz?” – Alex
“It’s worth a shot.”
Dig my grave,
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
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LIZ’S POV
Man with cold blue eyes. Staring at her. Wanting something from her. Demanding it. Making her go cooled inside. He terrified her. Not entirely sure why. She had never met him before.
*Did I?* Trying to search her memory. So many things were hazy anymore. So much forgotten.
Feeling the slight tug in her head. Eyes. Cold blue eyes slipping forth in a memory. With the feelings of fear and panic. *Danger* A moment later came the pain. Splitting her head in two. Part of her searching for the hidden answer that she seek. The other fighting against. Not wishing to remember at all. Terrifying her even more. Making the pain sharper as the battle waged on.
Tumbling off the chair. Reaching blindly for her bag as darkness threaten to consume her. Pain increasing.
“What is wrong with her?”
“Head ache. Part of her is trying to remember.”
*Need to get my pills.* Not the first time it happened. The sudden headaches coming out of no where. Knowing she only had a certain time to take her pills before the pain was to unbearable. Leaving her defenseless. Unable to think. Sooner she took the pills. The better off she would be.
“WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?” Man’s voice sounding like steel above her.
Causing her to fumble with her bag before finding the pills. Shaking two out. Hands trembling.
“What was necessary for her to survive.”
Swallowing the pills with out water.
“By messing with her head?” Man’s voice lower then before.
Closing her eyes and waited.
“Aveana can not deal. It’s not in her nature. She would end up cationic or in a padded room. Which would you have preferred?”
“Careful. Remember where your loyalties lie.”
“I’m sorry my lord.”
“What have you blocked?”
“Everything.”
Darkness receding. Pain slipping away.
“Everything that deals with you and killing.”
“What’s the pills do?”
“I can’t erase what has taken place. Just lock it away. Sometimes the memories try to slip through. Her own defenses fight against it. Her strength in self preservation is amazing. It’s as if she is split in two. Her mind fighting against it self. Causing the pain. I can’t keep messing with her head. She will die. The human brain can only take so much. Each time I block something it in dangers her. The pills help block what I have already done. Relaxing her in the process.”
“She doesn’t remember me at all?”
Pain. Fear. Warnings. All slipping away. Replacing it with numbness.
“Nothing. The last in counter was to traumatic for her. I had to block everything about you.”
“Good.”
Looking up at HIM and a man with the cold blue eyes. Cold smile on his lips.
In the deep recesses of her mind a small warning went unnoticed.
MAX’S POV
Two hours had past since Liz had gone missing. Having searched the town. Sheriff having every man and state patrol searching it. Along with the surrounding high ways. Not to mention all of James contacts too. All coming up with nothing so far.
Michael and Maria on the way to the pod chamber now. Hoping that she might have gone there. Isabel, Alex and him in Liz’s bedroom. Getting ready to have Isabel try to dream walk Liz.
“Just lay back and relax.”
“Max. I don’t think I can do this.” Seeing the fear evident in Isabel’s eyes. “What if she’s not asleep?”
“Then at least we would know and have something to go on.”
“And if she is asleep?” - Isabel
“Try to find out where she is. If she is all right.”
“But I don’t know that I can do this.” - Isabel
“Yes you can.” Alex taking her hand. “I’ll be right here.” Sitting down beside her on the bed. “You can do this.” Alex having full confidence in her.
“But I have never done this unless I knew with out a doubt that the person was sleep. What if she’s hurt and unconscious. It’s not the same thing.”
“Isabel.” Kneeling before her. “I really need you to do this for me. Please.”
Isabel nodding her head yes. Giving in. Slowly laying back.
“I’ll be right here.” Alex not moving from his spot.
“We both will.” Trying to reassure Isabel as much as possible.
“I’ll need a picture.” - Isabel
Quickly taking out his wallet. Pulling out the picture that Maria had taken of him and Liz more then a month ago. They were all at the park. Both sitting under a tree. He was looking at her. While Liz was watching the others goof around. Liz had a small smile on her lips. She looked beautiful. He had the same picture in a frame next to his bed at home.
“Max?” Isabel’s hand out stretch towards the picture he was holding.
“Sorry.” Handing the picture to Isabel.
“I’ll find her.” Isabel giving him an encouraging smile.
“Thank you.” Blinking back the tears that threaten to fall. *Please just let Liz be all right.*
“I’ll be right here.” – Alex
Isabel taking a deep breathe. Placing her finger on Liz in the picture. Falling immediately to sleep.
“How long?” Alex saying in a low whisper. After a few minutes.
Standing up. “Could be a while. Is. will first have to shift through the dream orbs to find Liz’s. To find out if she is even asleep. Then she has to find a way in. We might be here a while.” His voice matching Alex’s. Careful not to disturb Isabel.
“Is it hard to get in?”
“Usually with humans no. They don’t even realize that she is there. But with me and Michael we learned to block her. Isabel can’t just come popping up when she wants too.”
“So Liz could be blocking Isabel?”
“Could. But highly unlikely. Isabel has never dreamed walked Liz before. I don’t think anyone else has.” Having Liz never mention it when they discussed the different powers that everyone processed. “There’s a chance that Liz might not know.”
“But for Isabel to talk to Liz.”
“Liz would know.”
Looking around Liz’s room. It was exactly like she left it. Including her bag on the desk chair. The sealed envelope that Nesado gave her on top of the desk. Liz still not being able to bring herself to open it. Kyle telling him that when he asked Liz about it. Liz said she couldn’t handle learning anymore then she all ready had for now. *Another sign that she hasn’t moved on.*
*How could he do this to her? Raise her this way. Did he really think he was helping her. That what he was doing was for the best? How could he just hand her over to Kaviar? Was he just plain crazy?* Opting to believe that explanation more then anything else. *How could I forget about you? Why didn’t we find you soon? Why didn’t I just wait for you.* Having the same thought over and over again since Liz found them. Along with the guilt that followed. *I promised I won’t let any one ever hurt you again.* A promise that he has made over and over also. He just prayed to god that he wasn’t failing it at this very moment.
LIZ’S POV
“It’s beautiful.” Looking out to the setting sun. Sky filled with reds, purple, yellows and blue.
“Not as beautiful as Antar. That is where you belong. Some day we will return. Bring peace to our worlds. The right way of life. Standing by your rightful king. The people will rejoice. You will be where you belong and all will be right.”
Looking up at HIM. Seeing the far away look in his eyes. Small smile on his face. That she ever rarely saw.
“Some day. This will all make sense to you. All your sacrifices that must be made. You will see. This will all seem like a distant dream. You will see.”
Images and scenes changing.
“Kaviar is coming. I did it. I contacted him. The pitiful humans were actually on to something.” Smile on HIS face. “It’s going to work. Kaviar just needs to find the right body. My lord Kaviar will come and find us. We are so much closer to finding our way home. To think I was actually starting to wonder if we were actually stuck here forever. There’s a lesson there.” Turning HIS eyes to me. “Never give up.”
Nodding my head as if I was agreeing with HIM.
“All this running around and searching. Not just keeping you away from them. Kaviar will actually destroy them.”
“Them?”
Turning HIS eyes on me once more. As if HE forgotten about me. Staring at me for a moment.
Taking a different route. “Kaviar?” *I thought HE said my king was Zan. Why is HE calling Kaviar my lord? Who is Kaviar?*
“Yes. Kaviar. Your rightful king. Kaviar loved you. You were suppose to be with him. Betroth to him. Before Zan took you away. Destroying your life. Messing with your head. Not protecting you. Zan put you in danger. He was the reason you died. The reason you suffer today. The reason you are here now.”
“The reason I am here now?”
“On this planet. With these humans.”
“I thought I was part human.”
“Inferior part of yourself that you must learn to over come.”
“How?” Still not any closer to understanding.
“I’ll show you.”
“I don’t understand.”
“You don’t have too.”
Scenes and Images changing once more.
Kaviar hand around her throat holding her up against the wall. Feet dangling in the air.
“YOU LISTEN TO ME! OBEY ME!” Slamming her head into the wall with ever word. Pain filling her head with each crack. Bring black spots to her eyes. “YOU DO WHAT I COMMAND AND WHEN I COMMANDED IT! YOU ARE MINE!”
Bringing his mouth down to hers. Forcing his tongue into her month. Invading it. As he pushed his body up against hers. Feeling his desire for her pushing into her.
Forcing down the vile that burned her throat.
“MINE.” Biting her lower lip. Causing it to bleed. As his free hand roamed her body. Forcing his hand up her shirt. Crushing her small right breast. Causing her to whimper.
Sticking his tongue in her ear. “You belong to me.” Hot sour breath on her face. “Your body.” Running his hand down her body. Easily sliding it inside her pants. “Your mind.” Feeling his fingers penetrating her. Pushing hard and deep. Tearing her.
Screaming out in pain. Vaguely aware of the objects starting to fly around the room.
“Your soul.” Biting into her shoulder.
“OH GOD. LIZ!” Isabel scream filling her mind.
Feeling herself detach itself from her body. To be standing beside Isabel. Watching Kaviar attach her body. Hearing herself cry out. Recalling the burning pain as Kaviar assaulted her. Knowing what was to come next.
“LIZ, OH GOD.”
Isabel’s screams pulling her attention to her once more.
Turning to see the horror on Isabel’s face as she watched the seen play out. Ignoring her own screams of herself in Kaviar’s hands. Walking in front of Isabel.
“LIZ!” The horror and fear in Isabel’s eyes. As they looked past her. To her other self.
Knowing what was happening with out turning around. How Kaviar licked her blood off his hand before throwing her on to the bed. Just to began ripping off her clothes. How she willed herself to go numb. To lock herself away. Just to be unable too. Feeling everything.
“YOU WILL BE SCREAMING MY NAME BEFORE THIS IS OVER!”
How she finally silently prayed for someone to save her as he began penetrating her. Over and over again. Seemly to go on forever. How her screams filled the room. How the room began to shake. How he began to hit her because she wouldn’t say his name. Only scream. Till their was no voice left to scream. Finally thinking it was over. Just to feel him take her from behind again. How her last thoughts were always on Zan. The act of betrayal that she just committed. That even if there was a small chance of him wanting her. It was gone now. Lost forever. Wanting to die now more then ever. As the room bust into flames.
She knew because each night she slept. The dreams would slip from one memory to the next. Until they finally fell to this one. Revealing more and more detail each time. More and more pain. Not entirely sure that it was all memory but nightmare now. Some figment of her demented imagination.
*Because how could have I survive that? How could I have not died? How could I live with myself after this.*
“God Liz.” Isabel’s eyes once more on her. Tear filled eyes holding pity and fear. Reaching out to her.
Filling her with shame. Never wanting any one to know what she had done.
“You don’t belong here.” Holding up her hand. Forcing Isabel out of her mind..
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LIZ’S POV
Man with cold blue eyes. Staring at her. Wanting something from her. Demanding it. Making her go cooled inside. He terrified her. Not entirely sure why. She had never met him before.
*Did I?* Trying to search her memory. So many things were hazy anymore. So much forgotten.
Feeling the slight tug in her head. Eyes. Cold blue eyes slipping forth in a memory. With the feelings of fear and panic. *Danger* A moment later came the pain. Splitting her head in two. Part of her searching for the hidden answer that she seek. The other fighting against. Not wishing to remember at all. Terrifying her even more. Making the pain sharper as the battle waged on.
Tumbling off the chair. Reaching blindly for her bag as darkness threaten to consume her. Pain increasing.
“What is wrong with her?”
“Head ache. Part of her is trying to remember.”
*Need to get my pills.* Not the first time it happened. The sudden headaches coming out of no where. Knowing she only had a certain time to take her pills before the pain was to unbearable. Leaving her defenseless. Unable to think. Sooner she took the pills. The better off she would be.
“WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?” Man’s voice sounding like steel above her.
Causing her to fumble with her bag before finding the pills. Shaking two out. Hands trembling.
“What was necessary for her to survive.”
Swallowing the pills with out water.
“By messing with her head?” Man’s voice lower then before.
Closing her eyes and waited.
“Aveana can not deal. It’s not in her nature. She would end up cationic or in a padded room. Which would you have preferred?”
“Careful. Remember where your loyalties lie.”
“I’m sorry my lord.”
“What have you blocked?”
“Everything.”
Darkness receding. Pain slipping away.
“Everything that deals with you and killing.”
“What’s the pills do?”
“I can’t erase what has taken place. Just lock it away. Sometimes the memories try to slip through. Her own defenses fight against it. Her strength in self preservation is amazing. It’s as if she is split in two. Her mind fighting against it self. Causing the pain. I can’t keep messing with her head. She will die. The human brain can only take so much. Each time I block something it in dangers her. The pills help block what I have already done. Relaxing her in the process.”
“She doesn’t remember me at all?”
Pain. Fear. Warnings. All slipping away. Replacing it with numbness.
“Nothing. The last in counter was to traumatic for her. I had to block everything about you.”
“Good.”
Looking up at HIM and a man with the cold blue eyes. Cold smile on his lips.
In the deep recesses of her mind a small warning went unnoticed.
MAX’S POV
Two hours had past since Liz had gone missing. Having searched the town. Sheriff having every man and state patrol searching it. Along with the surrounding high ways. Not to mention all of James contacts too. All coming up with nothing so far.
Michael and Maria on the way to the pod chamber now. Hoping that she might have gone there. Isabel, Alex and him in Liz’s bedroom. Getting ready to have Isabel try to dream walk Liz.
“Just lay back and relax.”
“Max. I don’t think I can do this.” Seeing the fear evident in Isabel’s eyes. “What if she’s not asleep?”
“Then at least we would know and have something to go on.”
“And if she is asleep?” - Isabel
“Try to find out where she is. If she is all right.”
“But I don’t know that I can do this.” - Isabel
“Yes you can.” Alex taking her hand. “I’ll be right here.” Sitting down beside her on the bed. “You can do this.” Alex having full confidence in her.
“But I have never done this unless I knew with out a doubt that the person was sleep. What if she’s hurt and unconscious. It’s not the same thing.”
“Isabel.” Kneeling before her. “I really need you to do this for me. Please.”
Isabel nodding her head yes. Giving in. Slowly laying back.
“I’ll be right here.” Alex not moving from his spot.
“We both will.” Trying to reassure Isabel as much as possible.
“I’ll need a picture.” - Isabel
Quickly taking out his wallet. Pulling out the picture that Maria had taken of him and Liz more then a month ago. They were all at the park. Both sitting under a tree. He was looking at her. While Liz was watching the others goof around. Liz had a small smile on her lips. She looked beautiful. He had the same picture in a frame next to his bed at home.
“Max?” Isabel’s hand out stretch towards the picture he was holding.
“Sorry.” Handing the picture to Isabel.
“I’ll find her.” Isabel giving him an encouraging smile.
“Thank you.” Blinking back the tears that threaten to fall. *Please just let Liz be all right.*
“I’ll be right here.” – Alex
Isabel taking a deep breathe. Placing her finger on Liz in the picture. Falling immediately to sleep.
“How long?” Alex saying in a low whisper. After a few minutes.
Standing up. “Could be a while. Is. will first have to shift through the dream orbs to find Liz’s. To find out if she is even asleep. Then she has to find a way in. We might be here a while.” His voice matching Alex’s. Careful not to disturb Isabel.
“Is it hard to get in?”
“Usually with humans no. They don’t even realize that she is there. But with me and Michael we learned to block her. Isabel can’t just come popping up when she wants too.”
“So Liz could be blocking Isabel?”
“Could. But highly unlikely. Isabel has never dreamed walked Liz before. I don’t think anyone else has.” Having Liz never mention it when they discussed the different powers that everyone processed. “There’s a chance that Liz might not know.”
“But for Isabel to talk to Liz.”
“Liz would know.”
Looking around Liz’s room. It was exactly like she left it. Including her bag on the desk chair. The sealed envelope that Nesado gave her on top of the desk. Liz still not being able to bring herself to open it. Kyle telling him that when he asked Liz about it. Liz said she couldn’t handle learning anymore then she all ready had for now. *Another sign that she hasn’t moved on.*
*How could he do this to her? Raise her this way. Did he really think he was helping her. That what he was doing was for the best? How could he just hand her over to Kaviar? Was he just plain crazy?* Opting to believe that explanation more then anything else. *How could I forget about you? Why didn’t we find you soon? Why didn’t I just wait for you.* Having the same thought over and over again since Liz found them. Along with the guilt that followed. *I promised I won’t let any one ever hurt you again.* A promise that he has made over and over also. He just prayed to god that he wasn’t failing it at this very moment.
LIZ’S POV
“It’s beautiful.” Looking out to the setting sun. Sky filled with reds, purple, yellows and blue.
“Not as beautiful as Antar. That is where you belong. Some day we will return. Bring peace to our worlds. The right way of life. Standing by your rightful king. The people will rejoice. You will be where you belong and all will be right.”
Looking up at HIM. Seeing the far away look in his eyes. Small smile on his face. That she ever rarely saw.
“Some day. This will all make sense to you. All your sacrifices that must be made. You will see. This will all seem like a distant dream. You will see.”
Images and scenes changing.
“Kaviar is coming. I did it. I contacted him. The pitiful humans were actually on to something.” Smile on HIS face. “It’s going to work. Kaviar just needs to find the right body. My lord Kaviar will come and find us. We are so much closer to finding our way home. To think I was actually starting to wonder if we were actually stuck here forever. There’s a lesson there.” Turning HIS eyes to me. “Never give up.”
Nodding my head as if I was agreeing with HIM.
“All this running around and searching. Not just keeping you away from them. Kaviar will actually destroy them.”
“Them?”
Turning HIS eyes on me once more. As if HE forgotten about me. Staring at me for a moment.
Taking a different route. “Kaviar?” *I thought HE said my king was Zan. Why is HE calling Kaviar my lord? Who is Kaviar?*
“Yes. Kaviar. Your rightful king. Kaviar loved you. You were suppose to be with him. Betroth to him. Before Zan took you away. Destroying your life. Messing with your head. Not protecting you. Zan put you in danger. He was the reason you died. The reason you suffer today. The reason you are here now.”
“The reason I am here now?”
“On this planet. With these humans.”
“I thought I was part human.”
“Inferior part of yourself that you must learn to over come.”
“How?” Still not any closer to understanding.
“I’ll show you.”
“I don’t understand.”
“You don’t have too.”
Scenes and Images changing once more.
Kaviar hand around her throat holding her up against the wall. Feet dangling in the air.
“YOU LISTEN TO ME! OBEY ME!” Slamming her head into the wall with ever word. Pain filling her head with each crack. Bring black spots to her eyes. “YOU DO WHAT I COMMAND AND WHEN I COMMANDED IT! YOU ARE MINE!”
Bringing his mouth down to hers. Forcing his tongue into her month. Invading it. As he pushed his body up against hers. Feeling his desire for her pushing into her.
Forcing down the vile that burned her throat.
“MINE.” Biting her lower lip. Causing it to bleed. As his free hand roamed her body. Forcing his hand up her shirt. Crushing her small right breast. Causing her to whimper.
Sticking his tongue in her ear. “You belong to me.” Hot sour breath on her face. “Your body.” Running his hand down her body. Easily sliding it inside her pants. “Your mind.” Feeling his fingers penetrating her. Pushing hard and deep. Tearing her.
Screaming out in pain. Vaguely aware of the objects starting to fly around the room.
“Your soul.” Biting into her shoulder.
“OH GOD. LIZ!” Isabel scream filling her mind.
Feeling herself detach itself from her body. To be standing beside Isabel. Watching Kaviar attach her body. Hearing herself cry out. Recalling the burning pain as Kaviar assaulted her. Knowing what was to come next.
“LIZ, OH GOD.”
Isabel’s screams pulling her attention to her once more.
Turning to see the horror on Isabel’s face as she watched the seen play out. Ignoring her own screams of herself in Kaviar’s hands. Walking in front of Isabel.
“LIZ!” The horror and fear in Isabel’s eyes. As they looked past her. To her other self.
Knowing what was happening with out turning around. How Kaviar licked her blood off his hand before throwing her on to the bed. Just to began ripping off her clothes. How she willed herself to go numb. To lock herself away. Just to be unable too. Feeling everything.
“YOU WILL BE SCREAMING MY NAME BEFORE THIS IS OVER!”
How she finally silently prayed for someone to save her as he began penetrating her. Over and over again. Seemly to go on forever. How her screams filled the room. How the room began to shake. How he began to hit her because she wouldn’t say his name. Only scream. Till their was no voice left to scream. Finally thinking it was over. Just to feel him take her from behind again. How her last thoughts were always on Zan. The act of betrayal that she just committed. That even if there was a small chance of him wanting her. It was gone now. Lost forever. Wanting to die now more then ever. As the room bust into flames.
She knew because each night she slept. The dreams would slip from one memory to the next. Until they finally fell to this one. Revealing more and more detail each time. More and more pain. Not entirely sure that it was all memory but nightmare now. Some figment of her demented imagination.
*Because how could have I survive that? How could I have not died? How could I live with myself after this.*
“God Liz.” Isabel’s eyes once more on her. Tear filled eyes holding pity and fear. Reaching out to her.
Filling her with shame. Never wanting any one to know what she had done.
“You don’t belong here.” Holding up her hand. Forcing Isabel out of her mind..
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Dig my grave,
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
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MAX”S POV
Isabel woke with an earth shattering scream. Bolting her self up right in bed.
Sending fear and panic in his heart.
“Iz. Calm down.” Alex’s voice strained but in control.
“HE’S HURTING HER! OH GOD!”
At her side at once. “Who Isabel? Who is hurting Liz?”
“OH GOD! OH GOD!” Wild terrified look in Isabel’s eyes.
“Isabel. Calm down. It’s alright.” - Alex
“Iz. Calm down please.” Knowing he wouldn’t be able to get anything out of her like this. *I need answers now!*
“OH GOD! OH GOD!” Tears streaming down her face.
“Max…” Alex’s voice full of pain.
“She going to be alright Alex.” Not taking his eyes off Isabel. “Isabel.” *If I can just get her to calm down.*
“Max…” Alex voice full of desperation.
Looking over to Alex. Finally noticing that Isabel froze his right side. Including the bed in her panic. *God.* “Sorry” Running his hand over Alex and the bed. Returning it to normal temp.
“Thanks.” Grateful look in Alex’s eyes turning concern once more as Isabel releases another cry. “Isabel. Baby you need to calm down.”
“God. It’s so terrible.” Tears still sliding down Isabel’s cheeks.
Alex taking Isabel in his arms. “Shhhh…. It’s alright… It’s going to be alright. We are going to take care of it.”
*What did she see? What is Liz going through?*
It was killing him to let Alex take the time to comfort Isabel. To give her a chance to get back in control once more. Seconds seemed to be eternity. Finally her cries becoming whimpers.
LIZ’S POV
Never had Liz remembered or dreamed like this before. Always feeling the pain and emotions that took place. Ever hit. Every kick. Every touch. Every emotion with every thought. The words would always spilling from her own lips as is she was there her self. Reliving that exact moment. Not being able to escape into herself as she had done at the time the events actually took place.
It was her own private hell.
But now… It was like she was just watching what took place. Observing it all. Untouched. Still knowing ever thought. Ever pain. Just not feeling it for herself this time.
Just watching.
Waiting.
Observing.
For what? She couldn’t be sure.
Walking into the room. A large man in the door way. Stopping her in her tracks. Not entirely sure what she was expected to do. No one knew they were there. *Did they?* Having been there over 6 months now. HE had not left her side once.
“Aren’t you happy to see me?” The man stepping into the room.
*He knows me?* Not caring for the thought at all.
“Do you not like my new look?” Holding his arms out wide. Turning slowly so she could view him.
*New look? Was it different before?* Confusing her.
“I see you don’t remember once more.” Smirk on his face. “Never could handle anything could you?” His question coming out more of a statement then a question. “Then I guess the last time was a bit much. I see you healed nicely. I almost thought you didn’t make it. You were quite the broken mess.” His cold blue eyes raking her up and down. “I see that my seed did not take either.” The man moving a few steps closer to her.
*Seed?* Not liking the sound of that word at all. *Didn’t take? What was that suppose to….* The dots connecting. Taking a step back. *No. God no. I didn’t We didn’t. I would have remembered.* Feeling the bile rise in her throat.
*No. I wouldn’t.* Her own words mocking her.
Raking his eyes over her once more. “I was hoping to have the start of my heir. No matter. I fit better with this one.” Holding his arms up. “Do you care for this one better? You didn’t seem to like the last one.”
*Last one? Heir….*
“Liz.” HIM coming up behind her.
“Her name is AVEANA.” The man’s voice turning to steel.
“Kaviar.” Pulling her swiftly behind HIM.. Shielding her from the man. HIS body ridged. Becoming defensive.
“Don’t you mean my lord.” The man’s voice taking on a mocking tone.
*Lord? Seed? Heir?* Her head beginning to bang. *Zan….* Knowing in her heart that it wasn’t him. Confusion. Fear. Filling her.
“You can’t have her.” HIS voice as hard as steel.
“She’s already mine.”
“NO.”
Blast knocking HIM into her. Knocking the wind out of her as they both hit the ground.
“SHE IS MINE YOU INSOLENT IDIOT! AVEANA WAS BORN MINE!”
Pulling herself out from under HIM. Seeing the large hole in his shoulder. His face starting to change in random. Past faces he used before. “Run” Single word that he never spoken to her before. More blood spilled forth. Soaking the floor.
Shock filling her. Never seeing HIM hurt before. *I thought HE was invincible?*
“Run.” Coming out like a gasp of air this time.
*Run?* The word confusing her. “We don’t run. We stay. We fight. We kill. We do what we have to do to survive. You are a queen. Strong. Demand people to bow to you. You do not run from beings lower then you. That are unworthy of even being in your presence.” HIS past words going through her head. Her head pounding more. Part of her willing herself to listen and run.
“I WILL NEVER LET HER GO. DID YOU REALLY THINK YOU COULD HIDE HER FROM ME?”
Looking up at the man that hurt HIM. The blue spiral of energy forming in his hand.
*He’s going to kill HIM.*
“THAT I WOULDN’T FIND YOU? THAT YOU COULD KEEP HER FROM ME? THAT YOU COULD REALLY STOP ME?” The man’s voice full of arrogance.
“Kill…. Him…..” HIS weak order.
*NO.* Shaking her head no. *I can’t…*
“AVEANA IS MINE. TO DO WITH WHAT I WANT. WHEN I WANT. YOU INSOLENT WORTHLESS SERVANT. I NEVER SHOULD HAVE LEFT HER IN YOUR CARE.”
Blinking back the tears that blurred her vision.
“Be… Alone… Will…. Kill…. You….” Weak whisper.
“I NEVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD TURN ON ME.”
*No…..* Even now with her own life at risk she couldn’t do it. Wouldn’t do it. Not to save her own life. “No…” Tears slipping down her checks.
“Lizzy..” HIS last plea.
*Save HIM.* Her conscious screaming at her.
Placing her hand on the HIS wound. Mentally wishing it away. Feeling the burning pain making it’s way into her shoulder. Blood seeping through her cloths swiftly. *Main artery. Bleed to death. Can HE beat him?* Realizing that she might have just killed them both. The wave of pain causing her to let go of HIM. The next sending her into welcoming darkness.
MAX’S POV
“Isabel?” Kneeling before her. Not being able to wait any longer.
Watching her pull away from Alex’s arms to look at him.
“I know it’s hard but I need to know.”
Watching Isabel nod her head weakly. Stifling back the new set of tears that threaten to consume her.
“Was she asleep or unconscious? ”
“I…. I don’t know.” New tears making their way down her cheeks. “It was like no dream I ever experienced before. Oh god…. It seemed so real.”
“Isabel.” Placing hands on either side of her face. “I need you to be strong.”
Nodding her head again.
“It could have been Liz remembering. You said her nightmares were bad.” Alex looking at him.
“But Liz wasn’t awake.”
Isabel shaking her head no.
*Ok. That’s something.*
“Drugged?”
“No.” – Isabel
“Good.” Letting go of Isabel’s face. “What did you see?” Not sure he really wanted to know himself.
Isabel taking a deep breathe. “It was… he was raping her.”
“Who?” - Alex
“I don’t know… I’ve never seen him before.” Isabel looking from Alex back to him. “He had real cold blue eyes. I’ve never seen eyes like his before.”
*Kaviar.* Knowing at once that it was him from the memories he received from Liz before. “Isabel think.. Were they in a wood cabin?”
Watching her think a minute before nodding her head.
*She was just dreaming. Remembering what Kaviar did to her.* Feeling no comfort in the fact that she was just dreaming. “Were you able to talk to her?”
“Yeah. One minute Liz was there being…..” Covering her mouth.
“It’s alright. Isabel.” Alex rubbing her back comforting.
“No. No it’s not. I mean.. I know what you told me Max. That Kaviar raped her. But.” More tears spilling down her cheeks. “What he did to her…. Her screams..”
Isabel’s image began to blur. Blinking a few times to clear his eyes. Not even realize that tears were running down his own cheeks.
“Isabel what did Liz say? Did she tell you where she was? If she was ok.”
“No.” Isabel shaking her head no. “One minute I was watching him with…. Then she was standing in front of me. God Max. The look in her eyes….” Taking a deep breathe. Looking away from him.
“Isabel…”
“She said I didn’t belong there. She pushed me out.” Isabel getting upset once more. “I can’t go back. I’m sorry. I don’t know where she is.”
“So where does this leave us?” – Kyle with his father at the door.
Alex pulling Isabel once more into his arms. “With the knowledge that Liz is asleep?” Alex sounding uncertain. “Unconscious at least. Might mean she’s still in Roswell. That no one has taken her or that she didn’t just leave on her own.”
*Iz is going to have to try to dream walk Liz again.* “Isabel”
Thundering and lightening opening up the peaceful sky. Shaking the house. Cutting him off.
*Liz.*
“I don’t think she is asleep anymore.” - Kyle
“It also means she still in Roswell.” – Sheriff.
Sky lighting up once more.
Isabel woke with an earth shattering scream. Bolting her self up right in bed.
Sending fear and panic in his heart.
“Iz. Calm down.” Alex’s voice strained but in control.
“HE’S HURTING HER! OH GOD!”
At her side at once. “Who Isabel? Who is hurting Liz?”
“OH GOD! OH GOD!” Wild terrified look in Isabel’s eyes.
“Isabel. Calm down. It’s alright.” - Alex
“Iz. Calm down please.” Knowing he wouldn’t be able to get anything out of her like this. *I need answers now!*
“OH GOD! OH GOD!” Tears streaming down her face.
“Max…” Alex’s voice full of pain.
“She going to be alright Alex.” Not taking his eyes off Isabel. “Isabel.” *If I can just get her to calm down.*
“Max…” Alex voice full of desperation.
Looking over to Alex. Finally noticing that Isabel froze his right side. Including the bed in her panic. *God.* “Sorry” Running his hand over Alex and the bed. Returning it to normal temp.
“Thanks.” Grateful look in Alex’s eyes turning concern once more as Isabel releases another cry. “Isabel. Baby you need to calm down.”
“God. It’s so terrible.” Tears still sliding down Isabel’s cheeks.
Alex taking Isabel in his arms. “Shhhh…. It’s alright… It’s going to be alright. We are going to take care of it.”
*What did she see? What is Liz going through?*
It was killing him to let Alex take the time to comfort Isabel. To give her a chance to get back in control once more. Seconds seemed to be eternity. Finally her cries becoming whimpers.
LIZ’S POV
Never had Liz remembered or dreamed like this before. Always feeling the pain and emotions that took place. Ever hit. Every kick. Every touch. Every emotion with every thought. The words would always spilling from her own lips as is she was there her self. Reliving that exact moment. Not being able to escape into herself as she had done at the time the events actually took place.
It was her own private hell.
But now… It was like she was just watching what took place. Observing it all. Untouched. Still knowing ever thought. Ever pain. Just not feeling it for herself this time.
Just watching.
Waiting.
Observing.
For what? She couldn’t be sure.
Walking into the room. A large man in the door way. Stopping her in her tracks. Not entirely sure what she was expected to do. No one knew they were there. *Did they?* Having been there over 6 months now. HE had not left her side once.
“Aren’t you happy to see me?” The man stepping into the room.
*He knows me?* Not caring for the thought at all.
“Do you not like my new look?” Holding his arms out wide. Turning slowly so she could view him.
*New look? Was it different before?* Confusing her.
“I see you don’t remember once more.” Smirk on his face. “Never could handle anything could you?” His question coming out more of a statement then a question. “Then I guess the last time was a bit much. I see you healed nicely. I almost thought you didn’t make it. You were quite the broken mess.” His cold blue eyes raking her up and down. “I see that my seed did not take either.” The man moving a few steps closer to her.
*Seed?* Not liking the sound of that word at all. *Didn’t take? What was that suppose to….* The dots connecting. Taking a step back. *No. God no. I didn’t We didn’t. I would have remembered.* Feeling the bile rise in her throat.
*No. I wouldn’t.* Her own words mocking her.
Raking his eyes over her once more. “I was hoping to have the start of my heir. No matter. I fit better with this one.” Holding his arms up. “Do you care for this one better? You didn’t seem to like the last one.”
*Last one? Heir….*
“Liz.” HIM coming up behind her.
“Her name is AVEANA.” The man’s voice turning to steel.
“Kaviar.” Pulling her swiftly behind HIM.. Shielding her from the man. HIS body ridged. Becoming defensive.
“Don’t you mean my lord.” The man’s voice taking on a mocking tone.
*Lord? Seed? Heir?* Her head beginning to bang. *Zan….* Knowing in her heart that it wasn’t him. Confusion. Fear. Filling her.
“You can’t have her.” HIS voice as hard as steel.
“She’s already mine.”
“NO.”
Blast knocking HIM into her. Knocking the wind out of her as they both hit the ground.
“SHE IS MINE YOU INSOLENT IDIOT! AVEANA WAS BORN MINE!”
Pulling herself out from under HIM. Seeing the large hole in his shoulder. His face starting to change in random. Past faces he used before. “Run” Single word that he never spoken to her before. More blood spilled forth. Soaking the floor.
Shock filling her. Never seeing HIM hurt before. *I thought HE was invincible?*
“Run.” Coming out like a gasp of air this time.
*Run?* The word confusing her. “We don’t run. We stay. We fight. We kill. We do what we have to do to survive. You are a queen. Strong. Demand people to bow to you. You do not run from beings lower then you. That are unworthy of even being in your presence.” HIS past words going through her head. Her head pounding more. Part of her willing herself to listen and run.
“I WILL NEVER LET HER GO. DID YOU REALLY THINK YOU COULD HIDE HER FROM ME?”
Looking up at the man that hurt HIM. The blue spiral of energy forming in his hand.
*He’s going to kill HIM.*
“THAT I WOULDN’T FIND YOU? THAT YOU COULD KEEP HER FROM ME? THAT YOU COULD REALLY STOP ME?” The man’s voice full of arrogance.
“Kill…. Him…..” HIS weak order.
*NO.* Shaking her head no. *I can’t…*
“AVEANA IS MINE. TO DO WITH WHAT I WANT. WHEN I WANT. YOU INSOLENT WORTHLESS SERVANT. I NEVER SHOULD HAVE LEFT HER IN YOUR CARE.”
Blinking back the tears that blurred her vision.
“Be… Alone… Will…. Kill…. You….” Weak whisper.
“I NEVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD TURN ON ME.”
*No…..* Even now with her own life at risk she couldn’t do it. Wouldn’t do it. Not to save her own life. “No…” Tears slipping down her checks.
“Lizzy..” HIS last plea.
*Save HIM.* Her conscious screaming at her.
Placing her hand on the HIS wound. Mentally wishing it away. Feeling the burning pain making it’s way into her shoulder. Blood seeping through her cloths swiftly. *Main artery. Bleed to death. Can HE beat him?* Realizing that she might have just killed them both. The wave of pain causing her to let go of HIM. The next sending her into welcoming darkness.
MAX’S POV
“Isabel?” Kneeling before her. Not being able to wait any longer.
Watching her pull away from Alex’s arms to look at him.
“I know it’s hard but I need to know.”
Watching Isabel nod her head weakly. Stifling back the new set of tears that threaten to consume her.
“Was she asleep or unconscious? ”
“I…. I don’t know.” New tears making their way down her cheeks. “It was like no dream I ever experienced before. Oh god…. It seemed so real.”
“Isabel.” Placing hands on either side of her face. “I need you to be strong.”
Nodding her head again.
“It could have been Liz remembering. You said her nightmares were bad.” Alex looking at him.
“But Liz wasn’t awake.”
Isabel shaking her head no.
*Ok. That’s something.*
“Drugged?”
“No.” – Isabel
“Good.” Letting go of Isabel’s face. “What did you see?” Not sure he really wanted to know himself.
Isabel taking a deep breathe. “It was… he was raping her.”
“Who?” - Alex
“I don’t know… I’ve never seen him before.” Isabel looking from Alex back to him. “He had real cold blue eyes. I’ve never seen eyes like his before.”
*Kaviar.* Knowing at once that it was him from the memories he received from Liz before. “Isabel think.. Were they in a wood cabin?”
Watching her think a minute before nodding her head.
*She was just dreaming. Remembering what Kaviar did to her.* Feeling no comfort in the fact that she was just dreaming. “Were you able to talk to her?”
“Yeah. One minute Liz was there being…..” Covering her mouth.
“It’s alright. Isabel.” Alex rubbing her back comforting.
“No. No it’s not. I mean.. I know what you told me Max. That Kaviar raped her. But.” More tears spilling down her cheeks. “What he did to her…. Her screams..”
Isabel’s image began to blur. Blinking a few times to clear his eyes. Not even realize that tears were running down his own cheeks.
“Isabel what did Liz say? Did she tell you where she was? If she was ok.”
“No.” Isabel shaking her head no. “One minute I was watching him with…. Then she was standing in front of me. God Max. The look in her eyes….” Taking a deep breathe. Looking away from him.
“Isabel…”
“She said I didn’t belong there. She pushed me out.” Isabel getting upset once more. “I can’t go back. I’m sorry. I don’t know where she is.”
“So where does this leave us?” – Kyle with his father at the door.
Alex pulling Isabel once more into his arms. “With the knowledge that Liz is asleep?” Alex sounding uncertain. “Unconscious at least. Might mean she’s still in Roswell. That no one has taken her or that she didn’t just leave on her own.”
*Iz is going to have to try to dream walk Liz again.* “Isabel”
Thundering and lightening opening up the peaceful sky. Shaking the house. Cutting him off.
*Liz.*
“I don’t think she is asleep anymore.” - Kyle
“It also means she still in Roswell.” – Sheriff.
Sky lighting up once more.
Dig my grave,
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.
Dig it deep.
Marble stone,
From head to feet.
And on that stone,
Place a dove.
To show the world,
I died for love.