Now That I'm With You (AU,M/L,MATURE) Pt28 -AN 10/05/04[WIP]

[channi bella]

hey all im back im sooooooo sorry about the long long wait had some issues but now im back with a new part
thanksies for the feedback and hi's to the new readers hope you like......

chapter 27

I have lost everything when I thought it couldn’t get any worse it did. Putting on my jeans and t shirt whatever was clean whatever was there I didn’t care any more. Back to good ole WRH were everyone new my name and knew I tried at the big time and crashed back down to public education again. Don’t get me wrong there is nothing wrong with the school system just its inhabitants.
Kids who teased me about being stupid and naive with Kyle will also now tease me about not cutting it in private school. That Liz Parker is a loser.


I walked down the halls of my old school it wasn’t long before the whispers started. I could hear them but it didn’t matter. Max broke my heart I was almost raped my dreams all were flushed down the toilet the friends I thought I made gone. So whispers behind my back don’t hurt, its just numb.


I don’t want to over react on this thing I know the situation is heavy that a lot of crap was just piled on top of me at once. But I’m a survivor I have done the crying and the running I have stood up to myself and all that stuff. Now I need to move on my desire to leave this town and never look back stronger then ever. I just look at these last few weeks as a hurdle, a hurdle full of love friendship heartache and pain but a hurdle none the less.


My first day back seemed to go in slow motion everything was just slowly paced. When the day finally ended I came home to my loving home to a note.
Justine sister sick gone to see her back in couple of days dad
That’s all but I’m used to this by now. I don’t even think Justine has a sister. It’s just a dirty weekend for my precious daddy and his blow up doll.
I look at my cell phone which was turned on silent all day. 9 missed calls from Isabel and 4 sms from her
Too

WHERE R U??
R U OK? DO YA NEED A LIFT?
WATS WRONG MAX WON’T TELL US CALL
RIA & I WORRIED WATS WRONG CALL US PLEASE

I should call they have no idea what’s going on but I cant bring myself to talk to them. This is why they invented sms to say what you cant speak…

IM OK I LOST SCHOLARSHIP BCK AT WRH! SORRY I WORIED U GUYS CANT TLK BUT WILL SOON

There short and sweet and not giving away to much. Its sent and now comes the panic of will they ring? Or what will they answer back? Aughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my house phone rings and it sets in the deep panic until I realize I never gave them my home number.
“Hello”
“Hey Liz”
“Brendan hey how’s the new place how’s Ava oh is New York beautiful?”
“Great great and yes”
“Sorry its just good to hear from you”
“You ok babe ya sound a little….”
“I’m fine B just tell me about everything”
“Well everything is great Ava is studying hard and we both got great jobs but your worrying me a little you sure your all right?”
“Yeah B I’m just I lost my scholarship and I there was a guy and well I had some Kyle issues but besides that I’m great! So tell me about your apartment?”
I’m such a bad liar and Brendan is my forever friend who loves me.
“Kyle issues as in Kyle valenti that son of a bitch who used you?”
Ah crap
“Ah yeah he sorta at the Academy but hey they kicked me out of there so it’s no big deal”
“What happened?”


and I told him basically everything my rocky quasi relationship with Max my new friends and Kyle except for the party incident.
“So its sounds like you and Max where doing good what happened?”
“Umm there was a party and some stuff happened?”
“Stuff like what exactly?”
“Kyle”
“Son of a bitch mother fu…. What happened lizzy do I need to come down and kick his sorry ass?”
I couldn’t help it I started to cry Brendan and Ava were my life.
“No yes I no B he was drunk and he tried to ….. I he pulled me in a room and tried to get back with me he said we told me he was sorry and that he wanted me back”
“Did you tell that loser where to go?”
“I I did and he wouldn’t stop he was drunk and he he oh god Bren he didn’t mean to I think he just the alcohol and he was fighting with his girlfriend he he…
“He didn’t touch you did he Liz babe calm down ok did he hurt you?”
“No, yes I don’t know he tried to kiss me and I don’t know he was so heavy he pushed me down and he was on top of me but nothing happened Max came in and beat him pretty bad and..”
“shhh Liz don’t cry AVA AVA COME HERE shhh Liz its ok don’t cry”


I couldn’t help it he was telling me not to cry but the floodgates had broken. I could hear his heavy breathing he does when he is angry and he was calling Ava to the phone I could here them in the back ground. Ava asking what happened and Bren saying that the son of a bitch Kyle almost raped me. I could hear the anger in his voice still
“Liz you there Brendan just told me babe are you ok?”
“he didn’t rape me I don t think that was his intention I I’m sorry I cried its just I lost my scholarship too and I met a guy who turned out to be two faced and pretentious bastard”
“shhh girl calm down- boy a lot has happened all our news is we unpacked boxes and ate take out again”
“Thanks Ava I’m sorry I got Brendan all worked up”
“He loves you we both do and we miss you so much girl. He is ready to come to Roswell and kick his ass you know”
“Yeah but I’m ok and after talking with you guys I feel a whole lot better”
“I love you call anytime but now I have to go and calm my man down”
“I love you too I’m sorry I got him worked up do you want me to talk him down a little”
“Sure thing Liz and don’t worry I have some very effective techniques to calm him”
“ewww thanks for the visual Ava luv ya”
There is some ruffling down the line and I admit I feel lighter after talking to my family
“Liz I can be in Roswell by the morning “
“B calm down I’m ok really but thank you for caring”
“I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you”
“You are there for me right now here you are and I love you for it!”
“I love you to Liz
“Goodnight”
“Night”
And I feel like I can sleep all night tonight. a peacful sleep could not prepare me for the day i was about to have.........




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channi

[channi bella]

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chapter 28

I woke up in the morning early to open the crashdown before school. As I was walking down the stairs I could hear loud commotion out the front. I ran downstairs hoping with everything in me that I wasn’t to do with me. I walk to the back doors open them with my heart in my throat to the sheriff trying to break up a fight. It wasn’t any one I knew.....


I didn’t know if I am relived or not? In a way I’m that I don’t have to deal with it. And I m also a little sad that there was no fuss. It’s kind of anti climactic all this stuff happened my life was great and it got flushed. And what do I get a note to say my dad has gone on a dirty weekend with his life size Barbie doll and a few text messages.
I walk back inside a little upset that Im not worth the fuss. Jose is working the grill already and must have opened the door because I can hear the early customers in the café. How long have I sat back here feeling sorry for myself?
“Liz you better serve Angus aint here yet”
“Ok Jose”
So it’s on with the waitress uniform over jeans and singlet top. Knot my hair and put on the stupid antenna I walk out and there isn’t many people just the sheriff nursing a coffee and a man in a suit with his back to me.
“Hey welcome the crashdown do you need a few minutes?”
“Um yes I need a few minutes of your time Liz?”
I look up when I hear my name. Out of all the people I was expecting out of all the confrontations this was not what I was expecting….
“Mr. Evans what could we possibly talk about?”


I don’t know what happened all the pain from the past few weeks just hit me and I was no longer set at the situation but angry as all hell
“Look Mr. Evans are you here to eat or to piss me off? Because I can’t take it I’m sick of it all! I took all your crap at the hospital but not now! If you came here to tell me I’m beneath you and your family I have heard it and I sure as hell felt it… God what is the point I haven’t seen your son since the day you and your wife called me a common whore so if you don’t mind order your food or get the hell out of my café”
To say he was stunned is an understatement he is not even looking at me but behind me oh great who’s there I didn’t even notice with my rant going
“What is your wife behind me to push me down and call me a slut….”
Well when I did turn around it shocked me down
“Max?”
“Is this true?”
Still a little shocked at Max standing behind me with a bouquet of white daises I didn’t understand the question
“Son it was a misunderstanding with the whole Sarah ordeal and you in hospital your mother was upset I actually came here to apologies”
Ohh he wasn’t talking to me still shocked they kept talking but I didn’t really hear what they had to say


“Liz Liz will you look at me….
I looked right into those beautiful sad eyes. I never realized how sad they really were, guarded innocent eyes.
“Liz I’m sorry I don’t know why I acted the way I did I was scared confused I have never really had a girlfriend before I mean there have been chicks but you its different I feel like a real person not Maxwell Evans son of Philip Evans high powered attorney not rich not poor nothing matters- except smelling your hair tasting your cherry lip gloss and holding your warm hands”
I didn’t know what to think? Is this a dream? I wanted this yes I did. But how come it doesn’t feel right?
“Liz IM A BIG JERK remember???? And I got you these please can you forgive me please…”
He handed me the flowers they were so pretty they were tied together with a pink ribbon.
Those innocent unknowing eyes beautiful brown pleading for my forgiveness. Max in his school uniform shirt untucked at the back, he can never tuck it in his hair sticking out on the sides needing a haircut. The way his mouth has those little tucks in the side. His shirt button open tie hanging loose.
Me in my crash uniform and jeans holding the daises the man I love gave me in apology
“I cant Max you hurt me more then your mum calling me a whore more then Kyle almost raping me when you walked away from me I just cant take your flowers and expect everything to be ok…"


I cant believe these words that were coming out of my mouth I wanted to hold him ever since he walked in the door but I cant do it any more its too painful
“I’m sorry Max it just too much its not meant to be like this”
“Like what Liz I know this isn’t easy but please give me us another chance
“Max please don’t look at me like that I gave us a chance you lied to me, yelled at me accused me of making Kyle attack me like I was asking for it and you ignored me you walked away from me without looking back that hurt… you hurt me”
I can’t help it I cry I don’t even realize I’m doing it its happened so much that the taste of my tears have become familiar.
“Liz I love you please I do love you its crazy we hardly know each other and all of our dates have ended with us screaming at each other and crying but I love you and I have never been in love but I know for a fact its wacky its not all perfect like in the movies.”
“I love you too Max but is it supposed to hurt like this it doesn’t feel right. This isn’t how I thought we would confess our love for each other ”
“I think its perfect you love me and I feel perfect”


And he looks it I wish it was that easy he is smiling that bright smile and his eyes don’t seem that sad anymore I see the sheriff at the bench listening with a frown and Max.’s dad smiling at his sons happiness, I cant stop looking at Mr. Evans that day at the hospital he seemed harsh and sterile but here I see where Max gets his smile from, I wonder what its like to have a father care so much about you who smiles because you do??
“Its not perfect Max I’m sorry I love you but I don’t want to be with you”


And with that his smile faded its like someone turned out the light. Its funny the things you think about when you just broke someone’s heart. I realized it’s late and I missed first period English. That not only had the sheriff and Mr. Evans watched us but Jose at the grill and the whole gang are sitting on the other side of the café Michael with his head down and Isabel and Maria almost in tears. I walk away because I can’t fight for something that is just going to hurt me
“NO”
I turn to a booming voice of Max. He walks up to me takes my hand and we enter the small storeroom in the back. He hasn’t spoken or looked at me its cramped the lighting is low and I can hear his breathing
“I cant I wont Liz I love you you love me not to sound cheesy and at the risk of being corny love is all you need”


He wont look at me, he is looking everywhere but at me which is hard since there isn’t much space. I grabbed his face his warm stubble face and made him look at me I wanted to tell him we cant that its to hard.
But those eyes he makes me want to question every thing I need to know if he is worth it.
“Skip school with me today lets just go out the movies eat ice-cream and just have fun?”
“Liz I I don’t understand??”
“Me either but I need comfort food and lets just go please?can we get out escape for a little while”
We walk out the back way and ignore the waiting questions in the cafe, cause right now there aren’t any answers



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[channytell]

hey guys its me chantelle Channibella i had some probs with my old user name and had to switch so im now channytell.
its been awhile and i wanted to know if anyone is interested in this little story still and if i should complete it?
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chantelle