All That I Am (UC,Ky/I,CHILD) 1/1 [COMPLETE]

[FallenFaerie]

All That I am (Song Fic)
By FallenFaerie
Email: fallen_faerie_twilight@hotmail.com or @yahoo.com
Spoilers: Isabel/Kyle
Rating: CHILD

Disclaimer: I don't own any of this. Roswell belongs to Jason Katims and Melinda Metz. And the song belongs to Mindy McCready and the songwriters.

Author's Note: This is a Prequel to a polar song fic i wrote. Let me know if you want that one posted.This one is named after the song "All that I am" by Mindy McCready.

Summary: After Max died at Meta-Chem he didn't come back. Mr Wheeler looked like himself only younger and Max is just gone. Maria has left for New York permanently. Amy and Jim are married. Kyle, Isabel, Michael (art scholarship), and Liz are all attending the University of Las Cruces and are home for christmas break in the middle of their sophomore year.


First Alex, then Max what next? No she shouldn't even ask that. Asking that question was just inviting trouble

Isabel had been walking around in a haze since Alex died. Jesse had been a high point in her life until Max died at meta-chem and he had found out about her alien status.

Life after that had taken another turn for the worst. Jesse couldn't handle the fact that she was an alien, couldn't deal with the life or death situations, alien crises', and lying to everyone they loved. So he'd asked her for a divorce and although she insisted that they try counseling and working through it nothing had helped. So she'd finally given in and signed the papers.

After Max's death, her, Kyle, Michael and Liz had become what was left of the group. Maria had found her freedom with Billy and trying to persue her dreams in New York. The remaining four had become very close knit over the last year.

Even though it was the four of them they got along fine by themselves and in pairs. Michael and Liz became best friends, as did Isabel and Kyle, surprisingly. Isabel and Michael had always been good together because they were like brother and sister and Kyle and Liz became like brother and sister needing the support each could provided. But what was most surprising was the sister like bond that had developed between Liz and Isabel.

Shopping and girls nights out were one thing but when that bond had progressed to teary nights watching movies and discussing boys, everyone knew that nothing could touch what had developed between the girls.

So when Isabel needed advice now more than ever there was only one person she knew she could turn to. And that person was her surrogate sister, Liz.

Walking in to the Crashdown cafe, Isabel took her group's usual booth and not seeing Liz, took and napkin and began fidgeting with it.

Seeing Isabel from behind the employee's lounge door, Liz smiles, thinking that she knows what's got her surrogate sister so riled up.

"Hey Izzy, what's up?" Liz asks after walking over and taking a seat across the booth from Isabel.

"Umm...not much, Liz" Isabel answered distractedly.

"Iz, talk to me. You're a bundle of nerves what's wrong?" Liz prods.

"Well, there's this guy and I've known him for a long time and really like him, but after all my relationship disasters, I'm not sure if I can trust what I'm feeling." Isabel stated in a rush. It was almost as though if she didn't say it fast she wouldn't be ablt to say it at all.

Seeing her best friend in such a frazzled state made Liz want to laugh. But her normally cool and levelheaded best friend would not appreciate that so she held herself in check. Liz knew exactly which guy Isabel was refering to and thought that it was a great turn of events and gave her hope for herself and a certain someone.

"Iz, could this guy be Kyle?" Liz asked.

The shocked expression on Isabel's face was too much for Liz. She couldn't help but laugh. She quickly got herself under control and took her 'sister's' hand.

"Iz, its ok. I only know because I've come to know you so well and you get flustered around him and he seems to know when you need something whether it is someone to make you laugh or someone to hold you when you're sad. And you can't tell me that there's anyone out there that can make you laugh like him. Can you?"

"No, I can't." Isabel admitted quietly. "Liz, I'm so scared what if he doesn't feel the same?"

"Then he's an idiot and blind"

"That's not funny"

"I know its not but its true and anyone could see how much he loves you by the way he looks at you. He's just never known if you wanted anything after Alex and Jesse."

"Oh god do I. I miss having someone but most of all I want Kyle in my life not just as a friend."

"Then you need to tell him Iz."

"How?"

"Leave that to me I know how to knock some sense in to the lug head"

"Lizzzzzz....." Isabel started

"No now Izzy….., trust me. Just be here tomorrow night at 6 in a knockout outfit and I'll stay over at Michaels. My parents will be out of town so you'll have the apartment for .......whatever you need it for." Liz winked.

“You know Liz, if I didn’t love you like a sister, I’d be scared of you sometimes.” Isabel said only half joking.

“HA!!! You should still be scared of me sometimes.” Liz laughed

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“Alright, Liz, what is this all about?” Kyle asked impatiently. He was planning on surprising Isabel with chocolate and movies at his place tonight. He didn’t want her to go to bed early if she had nothing to do.

“Kyle, just follow me. I need your help with something.” Liz explained, half dragging Kyle up the stairs from the back of the Crashdown to her parents apartment.

“Could this be a Michael thing?” Kyle asked.

Liz blushed and said “No.”

“Then What is it?”

“This……” Liz stated as she pushed him through the door at the top of the steps.

“Wha…..” Kyle trailed off after walking in and seeing Isabel standing, looking exquisite next to Liz’s dining room table wearing a knee length emerald dress.

Liz smiled at Isabel and winked before slipping quietly out the door and back downstairs to lock up and leave the love birds alone.

“What is all this, Iz?” Kyle asked after regaining his voice.

“This was all Liz’s idea. I needed to tell you something and she thought a nice elaborate dinner would be good.” Isabel said, wringing her nervous hands behind her back.
“What do you need to tell me Iz?” Kyle asked, hoping for the best but prepared for the worst.

“Dance with me?” Isabel asked. C’mon girl, golden opportunity, TELL him, Isabel’s mind told her. I can’t, replied the scared part of her.

“Ok, Isabel, I thought you’d never ask.”

Using some alien mojo, Isabel got the cd player to start, praying that Liz had put in a good cd.

As one of the songs that Isabel had been listening to a lot lately started playing she manipulated it so that it played the right song and closed her eyes as she stepped into Kyle’s waiting arms.

I can be tough, I can be tender
As strong as a saint, weak as a sinner
But when I’m in your arms I’m so complete
You bring out what’s inside of me

“Thank Buddha.” Kyle thought, dreams really do come true. Kyle had been thinking about holding Isabel like this, his arms wrapped around her waist, her arms around his neck, for the longest time. Their new, smaller group had become very close and even though Kyle had always thought Isabel was good looking he had come to know her and fall in love with the person beneath the Ice Princess exterior she put on for everyone else.

A woman with a mind, a body with her soul
A heart full of love won’t let go
I love the way you understand
All that I am

“Kyle……” Isabel started, keeping her head against Kyle’s shoulder too scared to look in to his eyes. “I’ve been wanting to talk to you for a while now. There are things that need to be said between the two of us…..” Isabel paused feeling Kyle’s shudder and seeing the goosebumps on his neck where her fingers were running through his hair unconsciously.

I’m a member of the modern world
But sometimes I’m still an old fashioned girl
You make me laugh and let me cry
I finally found a man who’s not afraid to try

Pulling back from Isabel, fearing that if she continued talking and breathing on his neck, he would embarrass both of them. Tilting her chin up, he saw the doubt shimmering in her eyes and something deeper, something her hoped he’d get to see but never really thought it would happen.

“Isabel, I don’t know how to prove it to you. But I’m not going to be like Jesse and I don’t want to try to replace Alex. But I know I love you, have loved you for a while and I’m hoping that this whole display tonight was because you wanted to tell me the same thing. Or did I just completely emotionally expose myself only to get shot down?” Kyle asked with a smile.

A woman with a mind, a body with her soul
A heart full of love won’t let go
I love the way you understand

A woman with a mind, a body with her soul
A heart full of love won’t let go
I love the way you understand
All that I am

“Oh Kyle, I was supposed to be the one making the confession. I love you, too.” Isabel confessed on a sigh, feeling like a weight had been lifted as warmth flooded her heart.

Hold on as long as I can
And keep loving you with all that I am

A woman with a mind, a body with her soul
A heart full of love

Holding her around the waist, Kyle hoists Isabel up in the air and spins her around with her hands braced on his shoulders. Laughing out loud and tossing her head back, Isabel has never looked more beautiful to Kyle than at that exact moment.

A woman with a mind, a body with her soul
A heart full of love won’t let go
I love the way you understand
All that I am

All that I am
All that I am
(a woman with a mind, a body with her soul)
All that I am
(a heart full of love won’t let go)
All that I am...

Sliding her back down to the ground, Kyle’s mouth finds hers in a breathtaking kiss as their bodies align as though they were always meant to. As the music stops they are still locked in a passionate embrace and swaying to the music only they can hear.

Hours later after talking all night and dozing in each other’s arms, Kyle turns to Isabel and kisses her on the nose asking “Well now that we’ve gotten our crap together, do you think mullet head and lil miss scientist will ever get it together?”

“I think that’s a whole other story……” Isabel quips pulling Kyle down for another kiss.