Chapter Three: Blood Is Thicker Than Whine
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Of hornets and great wasps that buzzed and clung,
Weak pain for weaklings meet, --and where they stung,
Blood from their faces streamed, with sobbing breath,
And all the ground beneath with tears and blood
Was drenched, and crawling in that loathsome mud
There were great worms that drank it.
-- from Dante Alighieri’s
Inferno in ‘The Divine Comedy’
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Harry knew he had probably felt more uncomfortable before. Seeing Cho burst into tears on their first date was pretty disconcerting; having the words ‘I will not tell lies’ engraved in the back of his hand was undoubtedly disturbing; having people automatically look up at his scar instead of into his eyes was as irritating as it was inevitable. All of these occasions had probably been just as bad, maybe worse, than his present one, but that still didn’t stop him from feeling suddenly ill.
Lupin was doing his best to make it seem like it didn’t bother him but Harry knew that the pale and sickly look on his face wasn’t just because it was approaching that telling time of the month. People were staring. Not at Harry, but at
Lupin and it certainly wasn’t with awe. More people than usual were staring at him, and with quite open dislike which Harry couldn’t comprehend. Lupin was one of the people he respected most, perhaps even more so than his late father and even Sirius. A frizzy haired witch wearing a terribly loud lilac robe with matching pointy hat ploughed into them from behind, almost knocking Lupin to his feet in her haste.
“HEY! Watch where you’re going…” Harry snapped as he glared after her. Her wrinkled face shrivelled up until her bottom lip was almost brushing against the pointy tip of her nose. Harry tried not to grimace at her facial acrobatics and narrowed his gaze. She mumbled something that sounded like ‘stupid half-breeds’ but he turned his back to her, making sure his former professor was still standing. After all, every time Lupin saw Harry he seemed to be getting weaker.
“Quite a shoulder that one. What do you think, Harry? Was she a beater for the
Old Crones? Perhaps the
Shrieking Shrews? I hear those old bats pack quite a punch…” Remus smiled and Harry felt his anger ebb slightly. He smirked back up at his father’s old friend.
“If she’s a beater I think she’s been hit in the face by one too many bludgers.” Remus bit his lip to suppress a smile.
“Now, now Harry there’s no need to be unkind. When someone is not as attractive as one would like, it is best to focus on aspects of their personality to objectively compliment them.”
“Oh right so when I called her bludger-face I should have been calling her a bigoted, rude cow?”
“That’s the spirit, Harry.” Remus muttered, Harry laughed as they approached their destination –
Flourish and Blotts. “Hmm…oh no…I forgot. We probably should have picked a better day…” Lupin commented with a slight frown.
Harry looked up at what Lupin was reading. A sign was hanging over doors of the busy store reading: ‘BRIGIT GOTTE, SIGNING TODAY!’ A few wizards bumped into them as they clamoured up the steps, gleaming smiles and curious eyes, they attempted to rush into the store but were held back by the crowd bustling inside. Harry could hear their excited murmurs. If this Gotte character was anything like Gilderoy Lockhart, Harry would much prefer to go home and come back tomorrow.
“Uh I’m supposed to be meeting Ron and Hermione at the twins shop, do you think—”
“I’ll meet you back here, Harry, in say, an hour?” Harry agreed and made his way past familiar shops – Ollivanders, Quality Quidditch supplies and Madame Malkins. He smiled as a new and fairly distinct sign came into view.
WEASLEY’S WIZARDING WHEEZES
The messy script was clearly charmed onto the piece of wood – the letters shined in an assortment of colours – red and blue and gold and green and purple and aqua and puce and even orange (though Harry could distinctly remember Fred telling him he detested any colour that was so closely affiliated with his hair, unlike Harry’s best friend Ron). Not only did the sign change colours but it flashed between the name of the store and anagrams of the letters, like: Lizard, Whee, Sleaze, Zing and Swindle. Excitement bubbled inside Harry as he read the excited faces of a half a dozen young faces charge out of the store peaking into their bags and chuckling with mischievous glee. The Weasley twins must be so proud imparting their mischief making genius onto a new generation of trouble makers. Someone had to give Peeves, Hogwarts resident poltergeist, a little competition in the chaos stakes, especially after last year.
The Weasley twins had jumped on their brooms after creating a swamp in a fifth floor corridor. They were caught after fleeing the scene by the toad-like headmistress, Professor Umbridge. Harry scowled at the thought of the woman who had tried to give him a lifetime ban from Quidditch. The twins had shown her – not only did they instil their last days as Hogwarts students with chaos, but their jubilant exit in the face of her oppressing rule had inspired the entire student body to rebel against the impostor until Dumbledore returned. She had caught them during their last prank and threatened to reintroduce whipping just to punish them ‘accordingly’, but they’d summoned their brooms and rode off into Hogwarts legend. Ensuring of course, not only that they’d be talked about forever, but that their new store would have a rather large fan base of consumers to rip off.
As Harry walked inside the store, he grinned. ‘Skiving snack boxes’ were stacked up close to the entrance in preparation for a new school year. A cluster of students stood around the assorted truanting kits with looks of apt concentration on their faces.
“What do you think Hannah…nosebleed nougat or puking pastilles?”
“Stay away from the messy ones, get poxy pills or fainting fancies – that way you don’t ruin your new robes just because Snape is a git.”
“HARRY!” The smile on his face widened as Fred (or George – Harry still couldn’t tell) rushed toward him. “If it isn’t our little financial backer come to make sure his moneys gone to good use!”
“Don’t give him any ideas, Fred,” (‘yes, got it right!’ Harry thought with glee) “he may change his mind about that partnership and want a cut of the profits.”
“Profits?” Harry asked. George looked quite affronted and Fred laughed.
“We are
shamelessly flying in the face of Weasley convention, always told our mother we were mavericks, we did. Next thing you know the Malfoy’s will go broke!” George grinned with pleasure at the thought.
“If only…” Harry started and then smiled as another familiar face walked into the shop from some place out the back. “Hey Ro—what’s on your head?” Ron stopped dead in his tracks when he heard Harry’s voice, his face flushed red and one hand moved to touch the ever redder beanie on his head before he quickly snapped it back to his side.
“H-hi there Harry, mate…I thought you would be a little later…” Harry looked curiously at Fred and George at this unexpectedly sour reception. They seemed to be trying valiantly (and rather uncharacteristically) to suppress laughter, though their eyes fixed excitedly on a flushing Ron.
“Did I miss something?”
“NO!” All three of them replied rather quickly.
“Harry, Ron, Fred, George!” An excited voice squealed. Harry recognised the voice straight away and turned with an ever-widening smile on his face.
“Hermione, Hermione, Hermione, Hermione!” George and Fred squealed in unison, jumping on the balls of their feet as she rushed forward and embraced Harry. Harry laughed as they mocked her and she glared at them over her best friends shoulder.
“Don’t forget you don’t wear your prefect badge in
this store Hermione or we’ll be forced to suspend you from the premises!” Fred chided.
“It’s so good to know we can inspire delinquent behaviour without our little friend threatening to give us a detention.” George chorused.
“Or write home to our dear mother…” Fred sniggered, recalling the incident in fifth year that had frightened the twins into good behaviour.
“I tell you what, she was shouting out a different tune when we took those galleons home last week. Being naughty is a profitable venture – you should try it some time, Hermione.” George winked and then walked toward the cash register where Hannah and her friend had decided on fainting fancies with a side of blood blisterpods (just in case they were desperate to get away fast).
“I get into enough trouble without looking for it, thankyou very much,” She called after George, smiling up into the blushing face of the boy somehow responsible for attracting all that ‘trouble’.
“You’re next Ron.” Hermione said before rushing to crush Ron with a very eager hug. His face turned so red it was indistinguishable from his beanie and then her bushy hair had concealed it completely from Harry’s view.
“Hello Hermione…” Ron said and pushed her away after a moment to smile down at her faintly.
“What’s that noise?” Hermione asked looking up at Ron with furrows appearing between her brows. He stepped back abruptly and stared at George with narrow and accusing eyes. Harry didn’t say anything, even though he could have sworn he heard a strangely familiar tune for a second there as well.
“W-what noise? I didn’t hear a noise…” Ron smiled at her. She frowned for a moment and then launched into an account of her Summer in France. The normal platitudes were made, they were glad to be together again and Harry felt a familiar comfort from just being close to friends again.
“So, Hermione dear would you like to try some chocolate?” Hermione looked up to see Fred smiling down at her, his reptilian grin matching the dragon hide on his feet. She glared at him suspiciously and crossed her arms over her chest, making no move for the tempting looking treat. Fred smiled at her and tugged on the lobe of his ear.
CRACK!
Harry couldn’t help but laugh when a halo appeared floating over Fred’s head. Shimmering with the innocence that Hermione believed in about as much as she supported elfish slavery.
“That just convinces me
not to try some…”
“I’ll have some, if you want.” Harry said and reached out for a broken piece of chocolate with a little heart embossed on the top. Fred’s eyes widened and he jerked the plate out of Harry’s reach.
“No…that’s ok Harry, it’s not that we don’t appreciate the bravery, but we’re still too grateful toward you to have you growing hair in inconvenient places.”
“Nice to know I’m so appreciated!” Hermione huffed.
“Don’t worry Hermione it could have been worse…much worse.” Ron said gloomily.
“Hey steady on Hermione, you might have looked appealing with a moustache, there’s no need to get snippy.” Fred grinned. Harry was beginning to think Hermione had become the twins’ favourite target to tease now that they weren’t in contact with Filch any more.
“Happy mischief making!” George’s voice could be heard from the front of the store as he passed the two girls a neatly wrapped red parcel. They beamed at him. “Now we want a full report of every successful prank – so feel free to owl, or you can howl us in the unlikely event of failure. We’re particularly dedicated to starting a collection of detention slips to add to our fan-mail.” He gestured up to a board on the wall. Harry followed the gesture and saw to his delight a glowing letter about W.W.W. In fact there were many of them. Like wizarding photos, the letters changed. As soon as you had finished reading one, it was replaced with another. Hannah was about to accept the proffered package but George didn’t let it go immediately, “you don’t suffer from haemophilia or other blood clotting conditions, do you?”
“So Harry,” Ron said drawing him back to the conversation, “how was your first birthday away from the Dursley’s? Did you like my present?”
“Every day away from the Dursley’s has been my birthday. Dumbledore’s still not really happy with me but for some reason Sirius doesn’t seem to mind the disapproval.” Hermione mumbled something but Harry chose to ignore her. “And of course I loved the extendable ears, bloody brilliant invention.” Hermione’s scowl deepened at the mention of another Weasley product but she wisely said nothing. “The sonorous amplifier was a good touch as well but I think it might have been a little heavy for Pig – you’re lucky that owl never seems to run out of energy like Errol did.”
Ron smiled at Harry and laughed, in truth he was hoping the heavy load would tire the hyperactive owl, but unfortunately Pig had flown back to the burrow the very same night even more active than normal because Harry had given him some chocolate for the return journey. Pig had bounced off the walls until Ron held a pillow over the struggling ball of feathers and threatened to make sure it never flapped its irritating little wings again.
“Unfortunately your mum comes to every meeting of the Order so I haven’t been able to use it yet.” Ron frowned and Hermione did as well, her natural curiosity was enough to make even her excuse Harry’s rule breaking behaviour when it came to the Order of the Phoenix. “She’ll slip up eventually though.”
“Don’t count on it, not with Fred and George as her sons…”
“Hey! I heard that!” Fred shouted as he showed a couple of fourth years the brand new line of Dolores Umbridge Curse Katchers (the twins had explained the device to Harry in one of their owls. Apparently it was like a dart board except you practiced aiming curses at the toad-like face of their former headmistress and inquisitor, the louder she screamed the more points the mystical board awarded you. It was apparently really popular with Hogwarts students.) Harry smirked.
“Where is Snuffles?” Hermione asked. Harry sighed.
“Dumbledore owled him on some urgent business…” the bitter tone of his voice told anyone who was listening of his scepticism on that count.
“Maybe he’s trying to convince Sirius to let you stay with the Dursley’s, after all Harry—”
“Lupin came with me,” Harry pointedly ignored her, “I’ve got to meet him at Flourish and Blotts if you want to—”
“I’m not going to be seen dead near that wretched place!” Ron hadn’t spoken. It was Hermione again. Harry blinked. He looked at Ron who was staring back at him just as dumbfounded. As their eyes met, they knew. This wasn’t Hermione. Someone had clearly put her under the imperious curse, it was lucky they found out before they said anything too damaging in front of her.
“Huh?” was all Ron could say.
“But…Hermione…it’s a book store…” Harry was just a little more articulate.
“I don’t care!” Hermione snapped; her face was growing quite red in anger.
Harry and Ron found they had nothing to say. Harry was half inclined to jump in the air and yell excitedly, while the other half of him knew that this wasn’t a good thing. He was glad for an interruption when the twins finally returned to their side grinning with glee.
“I knew it,” Fred smiled, “putting that much pressure on herself she’s bound to crack before sixth year. Pay up George.”
“I’m not cracked—”
“Yeah. She was mental
before, if anything she’s
normal now! Although it is a pity we won’t be able to get her help with essays anymore…”
“Oh just shut up Ron!” She hissed and crossed her arms over her chest scowling at him. “That wretched woman is there, selling her stupid book if you must know!”
Ron frowned. “You’re going to have to be a little more specific,” he said as he reached up and scratched at his head beneath the red beanie. For a moment Harry could have sworn he heard muffled noises coming from under his hat. Ron quickly pulled his hand out when he saw Harry looking at him. Fred and George smiled wickedly at each other again.
“What book Hermione?” Ron said, studiously looking away from his friend.
“Brigit Gotte’s stupid little book! I read about her book signing in the Daily Prophet, she’s written complete trash that has been at the top of the Daily Prophet best seller list for
seven weeks, can you believe it?! It’s preposterous! Even now that he who must not be named has been exposed…I thought people would turn against that sort of bigotry, not seek it out in droves!”
“It’s a book…not a political rally…” Harry tried to soothe her.
“It’s called ‘The struggle of Wizarding Lineage: Pureblood pride and muggle whine’ – she is basically trying to use
muggle science to prove their genetic inferiority!” Ron blinked, not having understood any of what she had just said.
Harry understood a little better from living in the muggle world until he was fifteen years old. She stamped her foot in agitation and though Harry sympathised and even agreed somewhat, he was still beginning to have flashbacks of SPEW. He was imagining Colin Creevey and Justin Finch-Fletchley being shoved by Hermione into a picket line. She was marching them up and down Diagon alley in his head, screaming: ‘don’t listen to that devil spawn, equal rights for muggle born’.
“…She’s a despicable woman trying to stir up hatred for muggleborns and muggles alike, as if there wasn’t enough bigotry as it is!” She looked between them and Harry felt decidedly uncomfortable, knowing that she wanted them to be as passionate about this latest upset as she was. But Harry found he had too many other more important things on his mind.
“Do you want me to get your books for you?” He offered the conciliatory gesture with a boyish grin as he adjusted his glasses. Hermione opened her mouth and Harry stepped back, thinking she was going to yell at him for his inconsiderate attempt to distract her, but instead she just sighed heavily and nodded.
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“Where did he say to meet him?” Ron didn’t bother standing on his toes. He hadn’t stopped growing since the second year and now was at least a foot taller than Harry (and most of the people in Flourish and Blotts). Harry shrugged his shoulders as Ron scanned the excited masses, the crowd didn’t seem to be thinning.
“All this nonsense the critics have been saying about reinforcing old hatreds with unfamiliar and confusing methods is a load of pig-posh if you ask me,” a witch close to them was screeching in her most superior tone, “it’s got nothing to do with all that you-know-who stuff, everyone knows there are differences, naturally – hatred doesn’t even come into it!” She stepped closer to her friend, “although I must admit I’m glad a ministry witch finally found the sense to point out certain natural…
inferiorities.” The witch flicked her brown hair over her shoulder with a tinkling little laugh that made Harry want to smack her on the head for making his scar pulse in irritation.
“Harry…” Ron nudged him in the shoulder.
“I’m sorry…did you say something?”
“Let’s just get our books, he’s probably gone to do something, he’ll be back.” Harry nodded and pulled out their class list.
He wasn’t sure if it was intentional or merely accidental but they had both always chosen the same classes. Now they were studying to be Aurors – the only job Harry thought he’d be good at and the only job Ron found interesting (perhaps through association). He was glad not to be doing divination anymore and was even more pleased that he’d received an Outstanding O.W.L for Defence Against the Dark Arts and thus was able to participate in the advanced class (which had extra lessons of ministry level training). The only class he wasn’t really looking forward to was Potions. His loathing for Snape had only increased, despite the sympathy he’d felt after seeing how his own father had mistreated the slimy git when they attended Hogwarts. If there was one good thing about returning to those dreary dungeons to freeze in the icy dwellings of snakes and bristle under even icier glares it was to rub his potions O.W.L in the potion masters rather long nose. Harry wasn’t sure how his ‘Exceeds Expectations’ allowed him to take Potions when Professor McGonagall had assured him that Snape never accepted a mark beneath Outstanding. Probably Dumbledore interfering again. Harry, strangely enough, didn’t feel grateful for the gesture even if it meant he could smirk as he sauntered into the class Snape had basically promised he would never be sitting in again.
Lost in his thoughts he only vaguely registered Ron tearing his own book list in half. He held out one half for Harry saying, “We can wait for Lupin out the front, this makes it faster. Don’t forget we’re buying for Hermione as well, I’ve got her list it shouldn’t take me too much longer to pick up the extra books.” At the thought of Hermione, Harry rushed to collect the textbooks; who knows what Fred and George were testing on her while her two friends were absent?
When Harry had collected the books and paid for them (grateful for the weightless and minimalising spells that Flourish and Blotts shopping bags had on them) he waited for Ron, who looked a little flustered as he bumped through the crowd. It was hard to ignore the temptation to acknowledge that a book signing was occurring around him, after all, Harry Potter was nothing if not naturally curious. He restrained himself however when he pictured Hermione’s angry face. Brilliant and Scary was how Ron liked to describe her and Harry was disposed to agree. To keep his eyes away he started scanning books that weren’t necessary for him to buy. Probably a first for Harry, without the added motivation of Hermione dragging him along that is.
From Gilderoy Lockhart’s book on wizarding grooming for the mentally challenged, to Fascinating Flobberworms – Harry wasn’t particularly moved to buy anything until…
A smile spread across his face as he looked over the various titles on the topic. He could picture the many faces of Dumbledore’s Army gleaming up at him as he flicked through those pages. He felt the rush of the forbidden stroking up his back and tried to bite the massive grin on his face back. He felt Hermione possess his body and his heart palpitated so strongly with the excitement for knowledge that he could have been soaring around a Quidditch Pitch with the snitch fluttering about before his outstretched hand. His hand was stretching out, ready to pick up the book of interest—
“Well, well, well…this is the last place I expected to find
you!” The venomous voice was positively gleeful. Harry went to turn around in alarm when a hand shoved his shoulder, pressing him into a wall.
FLASH!
Harry blinked as he was rendered momentarily blind. He rubbed his fingers under his glasses, adjusted them and looked up with displeasure as the victorious smirk on the face of the person before him. She had glasses, red hair and an unpleasant but attentive look about her that he remembered only too well. He found himself longing for Hermione again, to wave that little glass cylinder in this woman’s face and watch her turn pale. Rita Skeeter. He finally registered that she was laughing softly with the man beside her, a cameraman – which explained the flash. Fear clutched at Harry and he turned around. In horror he saw a giant poster of a pretty black haired witch, the name Brigit Gotte flashing with an equally bright ‘applause’ rising up the wall behind him. He would never underestimate the ability of this woman to twist the truth to suit her own needs.
Oh Hermione where are you…
“What brings you here on this fine day, Mr Potter?” Skeeter flashed him a saccharine smile that made Harry glower. The cameraman laughed, his teeth were so pointed they could have been a crocodiles; he certainly had the wide, crooked grin to match. His dull eyes pinned Harry with crude expectations that Harry was positive he didn’t want to know about.
“I’m here for my books.” Harry looked around impatiently for a sign of Lupin or Ron. It was unlike both of them to just disappear, especially Ron.
“Yes, I find it very interesting that you would share the views of the pureblood lineages over the place of muggleborns in our community, or is this change of heart sprung from the heartache you experienced because of a certain spirited muggleborn witch?” Rita Skeeter’s eyes flashed. He knew she was perfectly aware that Hermione had never been his girlfriend.
“I just told you I’m getting books for Hogwarts, but I wouldn’t expect someone like you to pay attention to reality when fictions seem to amuse you so much more.” She smiled at him and Harry’s stomach lurched in a far from pleasant manner. She ignored any part of Harry’s sarcasm that should have been construed as vitriolic.
“Of course dear, because you’ve been so dedicated to your studies in the past, it’s funny I thought the Hogwarts books were found over there.” She gestured to the academic section of the store which had been set up so students could find their texts easily. She had a victorious glimmer in her eyes again.
Well Harry had no choice but to wipe the smug look off her face. He stepped toward her and was pleased when she didn’t back away from him straight away. Reaching past her he picked up one of the books that had caught his interest and made sure she saw the title.
“What can I say, I felt like a little light reading…who knows when these books could be of…
assistance in the future.” Harry’s eyes were shining with malicious victory as he watched her face pale slightly; she swallowed and then smiled at the cameraman as if nothing was wrong.
“Is she bothering you Harry?” A voice growled over his shoulder and Harry grinned with recognition, he laughed a little.
“Well, I see you were waiting for your companion, I’ll leave you to it, shall I?” With that she turned, her head held high with dignity, dragging a very disappointed crocodile behind her – he’d smelled blood and been denied.
“Well what was all that about?” Ron asked as Harry turned to him and winked.
“What does that woman do whenever she gets around me and my stupid scar?”
“Ah…should we be expecting your ugly mug on the cover of the Daily Prophet again? Perhaps detailing your passionate affair with Loony Lovegood?” Ron smirked.
Harry shook his head and slammed the book he was holding into Ron’s chest. Ron turned it up to his face in interest and smiled as he read, ‘How to spot an animagus by Aspec Tuckle.’ He laughed with Harry and looked in the direction she had walked hoping to catch her looking fearfully at them with her beetle-like eyes just so he could wave smugly.
“Ah, there you are Harry and Mr Weasley too, pleasure to see you again Ron.” Professor Lupin breathed, his forehead was quite sweaty and he was clutching a book to his chest as he looked at the crowd from which he must have emerged. Harry’s eyes narrowed.
“Hello Professor Lupin,” Ron smiled and handed the animagi book back to Harry. Lupin’s eyes followed and also narrowed.
“Well, I dare say, Miss Granger is waiting for you both somewhere, if you’d like to lead the way Mr Weasley.” Lupin smiled with friendly ease and Ron didn’t complain as he pushed through the crowd. Lupin held a hand to Harry’s chest and stopped him from following directly. “We can blame it on the crowd, I want to talk to you…” Harry knew what was coming and wished again that it had been Sirius at his side. Sirius would never caution Harry about daring to extend his abilities. He knew Lupin was about to do just that, so to prevent the lecture Harry shoved the book back on to its stand and made after Ron slowly. If Lupin was surprised it didn’t register on his face, but he followed Harry, keeping pace.
“You didn’t actually buy one of those books did you?” Harry snapped in irritation.
Lupin looked at the large tome in his hands and flushed a little. “I did Harry,” he stopped anything that Harry was about to say by continuing calmly, “it’s a very interesting theory and it’s always good to understand what the enemy is using as propaganda, no matter if that was the original intention of the work or not.” Lupin sighed. “Don’t lay judgements on a person you’ve never met and a book you have never read. It’s a foolish thing to do, to judge anything on the testimony of others. Don’t dismiss something until you understand it completely.” The patronage of the words was completely disarmed by Lupin’s generous and warm smile.
Harry would never doubt a word of what Hermione said, even if she could be an irritating and domineering know-it-all, the fact that she knew so much made Harry value her opinion above the opinions of many. After all, if he hadn’t listened to her about contacting Sirius, he might have rushed to the Department of Mysteries a few months ago. Who knows what would have happened had he been foolish enough to do so. Harry knew Hermione would have read the book already and that was enough for him no matter what Lupin said.
As they emerged into Diagon Alley again, he could see Ron walking toward a very disgruntled looking Hermione. She had her head in her hands, drawing them over her face, saying something to him. Ron’s face flushed red and he turned around looking for something. Harry began to walk toward them in curiosity when a book was slammed softly into his chest.
Harry looked down and let Brigit Gotte’s book fall into his hands, he opened the cover and smiled at the neat writing over the first page. “Does understanding propaganda include the study of signatures and the symbolic meaning of little kisses and hugs?” Lupin snatched the book back as he flushed and slammed it closed.
“Sirius and I went to Hogwarts with Brigit,” he said shakily after a moments recovery, “she was a year above us. Ravenclaw I think, nice enough girl and it’s a very interesting theory even if it’s a little overdone.” Harry scoffed, so Lupin continued, “it’s not all about
muggles. It’s not all about racism and
hereditary conditions…” His voice trailed off to a mutter and he looked over to where Ron was now being restrained by Hermione. Harry wanted to run over there and demand an explanation. Before he could launch himself down the steps of Flourish and Blotts, Lupin stopped him again, Harry actually groaned.
“What is it? Something’s happening with Hermione and Ron…”
“Yes, I can see that, Harry, but there’s something I must tell you that is important and I want you to listen to me. Sirius is a good man, but he often gets his priorities confused with his desire for amusement.” Harry didn’t immediately defend Sirius because he knew how much the two men respected and loved each other, so Remus must have been saying this for a specific reason. “You are not your father and you do not need to feel that you have to fill a void in Sirius’ life just as he cannot fill the void in yours. It’s best not to seek out trouble at a time like this, when trouble has a habit of finding you all on its own. I’d hate to think you added any more concerns about your safety to the Order, especially when such concerns may be avoided by utilising your very good judgement Harry.”
Remus sighed, his hand reluctantly squeezed Harry’s shoulder and he looked away from Harry’s eyes before walking away. Harry didn’t know what to feel – he felt his pride rattling a cage that the Order had tried to enclose him in ever since Voldemort came back to power; he felt amused that Remus could lecture him so effectively without mentioning the word ‘animagi’; he felt a desire to prove to the man who taught him his most effective defensive magic that he could do whatever his father had done just as well.
“Now what seems to be the problem here?” Lupin’s warm voice distracted Hermione as she looked up in surprise. Ron used her distraction to his advantage and broke free.
“Come on, Harry!” Harry took off after him without being asked twice and he vaguely heard Hermione saying ‘Oh no’ behind him. Ron was running toward the Leaky Cauldron and Harry almost grabbed the back of his cloak to ask him what he was upset about but they fell through the doors of the pub before he could close his hand around the flapping material. Breathing heavily Ron looked around. Harry noted with amusement that his hands were clasped over the red beanie on his head, quite desperately. He paused in his survey of the room and his jaw clenched. Harry followed his line of sight and felt his own jaw grinding his teeth together. He didn’t need to know what had happened, the sight of the smug grin striding out of a booth to meet him was enough to make his violent urges all but overwhelm his common sense.
The doors to the Leaky Cauldron flew open behind them. Lupin and Hermione burst in, breathing heavily but Ron and Harry didn’t stop glaring at the silver haired boy in front of them.
“Don’t! He’s not worth it!” Hermione gasped out between breaths.
“Still alive there Potter, I see…” Draco Malfoy was now only a few feet from them, Harry’s eyes narrowed and he didn’t back away. “I wouldn’t count on staying in that unfortunate condition for too much longer.”
“Six years and nothing has changed, Malfoy. You must be
mental not to register how little you scare me.” Harry said with as much malice as his counterpart.
“Come to defend the honour of your little mudblood girlfriend?” Ron made a sudden vicious stab at the air with his fist and Malfoy stepped back laughing at him as Lupin grabbed the back of Ron’s cloak effectively restraining him. Ron gagged, his face went red and he stopped struggling immediately.
“I see you’re here with your delightful mother, Mr Malfoy, perhaps you should return to her. She seems impatient for your company.” Lupin said as pleasantly as he could in a last attempt to diffuse the tension. Everyone but Draco and Harry looked to the elegant woman sitting in the booth Draco had vacated. In actual fact she was surveying her own reflection in a tiny compact mirror which was whistling at her in overzealous appreciation of her beauty. Hermione looked confused and Harry rolled his eyes. Narcissa indeed. Draco and Ron continued to glare at each other even as Draco replied to his former professor.
“She is impatient for you to be removed from her sight…
professor.” Malfoy enunciated the last word the same way he said ‘the famous Harry Potter.’ Remus smiled faintly at him and Harry wondered at the man’s self restraint. That tone made Harry want to crack Malfoy’s skull (then again it didn’t take much with that pointy little face scowling at him). “I’m surprised you can even stand the humiliation to be seen in public with those rags on…you give the term ‘mangy’ a whole new depth of meaning.”
Ron made a growling noise but Lupin’s hand hadn’t abandoned his cloak and he wasn’t stupid enough to choke himself just to hit the ruddy bastard. Yet.
“Then again,” Draco continued in the same condescending drawl, “you are better than some…” His dagger-sharp blue eyes flicked to Hermione’s flushed face, his lip curling in disgust, “did you like my present Granger? You must have, why else would your little friends come bounding in here? Jealous were they? It’s Ok
Ronald, dogs may titillate your fantasies but her kind’s never been present in mine.” Ron seemed lost for words and instead he could only splutter a string of curses and gibberish as he tried to crane his head around and slap Lupin’s hand away. Hermione’s chin tilted and her eyes darkened with hate.
“Three hundred pages of kindling for my fire –
very much appreciated Malfoy.”
“Three hundred pages of reasons why you’re not worth the dust I walk on!” Draco sneered and Hermione glared harder.
“No, she’s not worth the dust on your feet – she’s worth
ten times your whole ruddy family!” Ron roared and Draco merely laughed at him.
“Careful there Weasley when discussing things of financial value, I know how unfamiliar you are with the concept of money.” Malfoy hadn’t even smiled smugly at his well aimed diatribe when his face suddenly distorted in pain and he made a convulsive grab for his left arm. It stifled whatever retort had been in Ron’s throat, as four pairs of eyes narrowed on Malfoy’s arm in suspicion. Malfoy straightened himself. His face became pale for a moment and Harry knew he must have become aware of what he’d just revealed to them. He looked to his left and right – but he didn’t find his bumbling bodyguards Crabbe and Goyle, Harry’s eyes glinted with a mad desire to crush his enemy into the ground.
“Following in your fathers footsteps are you, Malfoy?” Harry couldn’t resist. Draco made a jerking motion for a moment as if he’d been about to launch himself at Harry but thought better of it. Harry smiled. “How is dear old dad? I bet you’re glad the dementors are working for your boss now, your father wouldn’t have lasted a week with them, he’s probably mumbling to himself already as it is.” Malfoy’s bottom lip was trembling, a vein was throbbing at the top of his head. Harry had never seen him look so ugly, or so mad, he’d never before left Draco
speechless and felt a little sick at the thought of saying something so horrible that it could have such an effect.
“I can’t wait for you to follow in the footsteps of your own father, Potter. At least my father’s
still alive,” Draco spoke with a quiet precision after a lengthy pause, “your father was so
pathetic his own friends killed him just to be rid of his ugly face!” Harry wasn’t sure who moved first, all he knew was that Ron was suddenly free and flying through the air, Harry reached for his wand while Draco tried to draw his own. Remus had even drawn his wand before stopping himself and tucking it back into the sleeves of his robe. Ron tackled him to the ground and collective gasps went about the Leaky Cauldron as all eyes were drawn to the weekly scuffle between a Malfoy and a Weasley.
“Get off him, Ron!” Harry roared, trying to aim his wand at Malfoy’s ugly mug. Lupin grabbed his wrist and shook his head, hissing that he was forbidden to do magic outside of Hogwarts, then he reached forward and pulled a struggling Ron off an equally enthusiastic Malfoy. As Ron was heaved backwards, Malfoy saw his opportunity and punched Ron across the jaw. The impact made Lupin collapse backwards with Ron on top of him, and Ron’s red beanie finally came loose.
A whooshing sound came from Ron’s scalp and a blinding red flash engulfed the room for a moment. Malfoy gave a startled and high pitched yelp, fearful that Ron had sent a curse toward him before he realised something very odd was happening and gaped at Weasley’s unusually bright red hair. Harry and Hermione were likewise staring while Lupin pushed Ron aside and rolled away. He too, started to stare quite openly when he regained his footing.
“Oh,
kill me…” Ron muttered softly and moved to collect his beanie quickly before…Draco snatched it from his hand and threw it across the floor, watching with malicious pleasure as Ron’s hair began to stand on end.
“Ron?” Harry said. His red hair was standing straight up in the air, appearing more like fire then it did normally. Then as if it had been merely stretching in preparation for the real performance, his hair began to sway from side to side like a red wave, the colour suffused into Ron’s cheeks and a collection of high pitched voices began to sing. Harry and Hermione let out startled yells as a few snake heads appeared amongst his hair, it seemed that they were responsible for the voices:
“I feel pretty
oh so pretty
I feel pretty and witty and gay--"
Ron bound across the floor and grabbed the beanie trying to haul it onto his head as the voices rose louder and louder and stiffened in rejection of the hat that had kept their voices muted all day. Laughter erupted all about the room, but none laughed as loud as Malfoy from his position on the floor. He didn’t bother standing up and Harry had the unnerving impression that if he had stood up, he would have fallen back down with mirthful convulsions from the torrent of glee he was experiencing at the expense of Ron’s pride. The twins had done it now. Harry looked at Lupin and Hermione as Ron ran from the Leaky Cauldron back into Diagon Alley. The song continued even as he ran, his hair stretched backwards as if reaching toward the biggest audience it could find despite Ron’s desire to find a place of solitude.
“Serenading suckers?” Was Lupin’s only comment before Harry darted out after his friend, trying to ignore the fact that all of the patrons in the Leaky Cauldron had unwittingly taken Draco Malfoy’s side in their laughter.
**
Harry was in a bad mood by the time he got back to the head quarters of the Order of the Phoenix. Those feelings became even fouler when he saw two large eyes shining from beside the staircase, madly. He hated Kreacher. That horrible little house elf almost succeeded in sending him to certain doom at the Ministry of Magic last year. Who knows what would have happened if Harry hadn’t thought to open the package that Sirius had given him at the last minute. He’d been plotting how best to dispose of the elf with Sirius over the break, they couldn’t give him clothes because he knew too much about the Order. But Hermione had been scandalised when she heard and had become Kreacher’s protector (even from a distance), no matter how many times the ugly little thing called her ‘a mudblood befouling the house of Black’. In the end Sirius had ordered Kreacher to not move an inch from the Black house and Kreacher had obeyed (Harry was almost one hundred percent sure).
“Where’s Sirius?” Harry asked impatiently.
“The master has retired…” Kreacher said with the vaguest hint of a bow, before he muttered in quite a loud voice, “why does it talk to Kreacher? Horrible boy, Kreacher hopes he falls down and hurts his nosy head, Kreacher does.”
“That’s nice, Kreacher,” Harry said conversationally as he jogged up the stairs toward Sirius’ room. He knocked on the door. There was no response. Harry could hear Buckbeak scratching around the room across the hall so he leant closer, pressed his ear to Sirius’ door and knocked again. Silence. “Sirius?” He opened the door a crack. The room was in darkness and Harry felt the urge to say ‘lumos’ but quickly squashed it, he longed for next year when he would be an adult wizard and finally understood why the twins went spell happy when they achieved their full wizard licences.
Harry opened the door wider. The dying sunlight that managed to creep through the restrictive venetians revealed Sirius’ neatly made bed. Sirius’ leather recliner was facing the window, it wasn’t moving and seemed to be unoccupied, an ominous silence tickled Harry’s ears to full alert as he took one step into his godfather’s room. He made a startled noise when the crackle of breaking china sounded like a thunderclap beneath his foot. He jerked his foot back and looked down at the vase shattered near the door, there appeared to be several other delicate treasures laying in pieces by the doorway. Harry was truly worried now, what if his godfather had been taken by Death Eaters? What if they’d found a way to track down the headquarters of the Order? He knew it was ridiculous even as he thought it, Dumbledore was the secret keeper of the location and he would never tell anyone unless he had the upmost faith in them but that didn’t stop his heart from pounding or his hand from shaking as he pulled his wand from within his robes.
“SIRIUS!” He bellowed, fully expecting silence to greet his plea. Instead the chair by the window rotated until it was facing Harry in the dim lighting. Harry could vaguely make out a figure. He was slumped back into the cushiony surface of the upright recliner. The sunlight that bled through the venetians made the roots of his hair shine with whisps of gold, while his face became a dark inscrutable shadow. Harry took a breath but the fear didn’t retreat as he tiptoed over the crunching china and stood just inside the room. He felt the biggest urge to say ‘why didn’t you answer me when I called you?’ but thought he’d sound like a selfish little pillock so he just shifted on his feet trying to think of something else.
“What did Dumbledore say?” The chair gave a slight squeak, then silence. “You don’t have to tell me I guess but I just want you to know that if he told you to send me back to the Dursley’s again…that’s the last thing I’m going to do and it’s not his decision it’s ours.” Sirius leant forward in the chair and gazed at Harry, Harry still couldn’t make out the expression on his face.
“Dumbledore would never force
you to do anything, Harry, above all things he supports a person’s right to make their own choices.” Sirius chuckled very darkly indeed, “Even if he intentionally withholds vital information frequently, the knowing of which could prevent disastrous consequences.” Harry was a little startled by the bitter response from a man who usually esteemed Dumbledore enough to smother his temper under the much heavier weight of respect and admiration. Harry found he couldn’t say anything, the need to know what Dumbledore had told him was almost burning the back of his skull.
After a long pause, Harry went to walk closer to Sirius – to comfort him – to talk to him – to see the expression on his face that he was hiding in the shadow…but Sirius leant back in his chair automatically. He spoke in a strained whisper, “I’m tired Harry, I’ll talk to you tomorrow.” Before Harry could say anything else the recliner had pivoted again and Harry was left staring at the back of his godfather’s chair.
**
Picture this. Open your mind.
The boys eyes are a looking glass. Now come closer, lean down and understand how to remember the long forgotten. Time has made that looking glass fractured. It bounces, so as you look through the images are not only blurred but moving up and down in a sickening swirl of colour. Unfocused.
You can see a hand stretching out clumsily as the images rush past you. Finely manicured, tiny fingers, pale skin. He stumbles, the ground rushes up toward you. Darkness for a moment then light starts to appear in blinding little stars. Disorientated lids open. For a moment you don’t feel so motion sick because he is shocked out of delirium. The ground is a stone grey colour filled with dirt, cracked and obviously old. Darkness again as his lids close and though you don’t sense his movement, when they open you see two cherub hands push against heavy looking doors, ignoring the gold trimmed handles shaped like a snake with its underbelly puffed out toward you. He finally manages to open one and for a moment all you can see is finely polished red wood as he squeezes through the tiny gap he’s made.
Not a stone floor inside but smooth tile. Indistinguishable colours are blurred peripherally but even though you’re curious about this cold place, the looking glass disappoints you. He’s rushing, the feet that fly beneath his sight are wearing tiny black boots – dark smears across an otherwise grey picture. A staircase, green carpet, smudged pictures on the landing up above. Opaque figures seem to move on the canvas but you cannot see their faces. Perhaps they aren’t even there, just a peripheral hallucination that he has injected into his memory through his desperation. Perhaps desperation can not be observed, but you can certainly hear it…
Listen closely.
The harsh breathing is irritating for its coming from lips beneath the eyes you’re looking out of, in a face that you’ve never seen. He’s crying, but not in pain, he’s crying a name. If you block out the swirls of colour that are making you motion sick you can almost hear it, like a whisper beneath overwhelming static. It starts with M but is otherwise indistinguishable amongst the frightened shrieks, the panting and the sobs.
In a sudden jolting movement of clarity the vision you are seeing clears. He’s stopped moving. You can see a banister, stretching up one more flight of stairs to the second floor, the green carpet beckoning you closer for a look. He’s reluctant you can tell because you can see his hand on the banister now, clutching tight until his knuckles are white and the pads of is fingers are blue-red. As if knowing the method you used to try and decipher his cries, he closes his eyes and now you can’t see a thing.
Listen instead.
“No! PLLLEASSSSE! DON’T…no...Den...! DEN STAY AWAY!!” A woman screams.
Eyes snap open but you can’t see a thing. The paintings beside you are a streak of colour. There are no footsteps. You are flying through sensations and not absorbing any of them. On the landing you turn abruptly, following a sound that has already died. A door stands clearly amongst the distorted images, it’s flying towards you as you move closer. Faster. Faster. Just behind it. Heart pounding. A little closer. Tiny cherub hands reach out and –
“ARGHH!!” Michael lurched out of bed, hitting the ground with a resonating thud. His body was covered in sweat, a grey T-shirt clinging unpleasantly to his skin and he knew he had sweat patches under his arms and a telling V down the back of his spine. He was breathing heavy and he wondered why. It had only been a dream, he hadn’t exerted himself. Pulling himself abruptly to his feet he perched on the side of his bed with his head in his hands, felt a cool stickiness over warm skin and struggled to recall any details. Nothing. He found it very hard to recall dreams but tonight he at least could excuse his amnesia because he couldn’t stop thinking about the pulsing pain in his temples. This headache must have woken him up. He rubbed his fingers in slow circles across his temples until the pain abated a little.
His jacket was lying in a crumpled brown heap on the ground beside his feet. He picked it up quickly, shoving his arms into his sleeves. Disjointed bursts of snoring and wheezing could be heard through the thin linoleum door of this closet space but Michael wasn’t listening. He congratulated himself on not owning pyjamas. Sleeping in your jeans was much more convenient when you did this often. He disappeared out of the window with a rather loud thud.
**
“Ouch….shit…” He swore and then clamped his lips shut in a thin line. A stinging sensation swept over his skin. He looked down at his left arm and frowned, rubbing the thin scratch slashed in dribbling red across his under arm.
When did this bush get so damn big and grabby? Michael thought as he tried to avoid molestation from the wooden beast. “Max…” The room just beyond the last branch, above the dilapidated flower bed that he had long since destroyed with his work boots, was in total darkness. “Psst…”
He contemplated throwing a rock at the glass but immediately stepped on the idea. He didn’t want Max to get the wrong impression about any urges motivating this meeting. Plus, he wasn’t known for his physical restraint – he could hear the glass breaking in his head as he stared down at his feet. It was freezing and since when was Max a heavy sleeper? A shiver curled menacingly down his back. He stiffened and even realising how much of a cliché it would be, he could feel the hairs on his neck prickling to a stand. A twig snapped and Michael wasn’t entirely sure he had done it. He was just about to turn and look behind him when the window in front of him swung open.
Max’s eyes were glazed, his hair seemed to have shifted to sit disproportionately on the left side of his head, his face pale features were twisted into a sulking pout. He didn’t say anything.
“I couldn’t sleep…” Now Michael felt completely stupid, but then again, he usually did whenever he came here. That didn’t stop him from needing something out of this, whatever it was. Max grunted and stepped back, falling back on to his bed ungracefully. He made a couple more fatigued noises and didn’t bother saying anything else. Michael climbed in after Max and finally turned around to look behind him.
Nothing. He sighed and ran a hand through his tussled hair. Paranoia. The shiver was still curling up his back, but it was spreading like a horrible and seductive hand around his abdomen. He tried to ignore it. Michael closed the window and wrapped his arms around himself, he felt choked down by something and wondered again what his dream might have been about to put him in this state. Perhaps it was just one of those days when he wanted to punch his hand through a glass window just to see the blood spurt from damaged arteries. Just to see if Max would heal him like he’d healed Liz. Just to know if he mattered that much to his friends as well. He could almost hear his foster fathers voice demeaning him in his head as another shiver raced down his back. Perhaps it was just a cold night and cold nights make you remember all the bad things when there’s no warmth left to cling to.
“Max…do you…I don’t know…
feel that?” He almost blushed at the stupidity of the statement, but he knew his features would give nothing away. Max grunted a barely discernable ‘goodnight’ before there was silence. Michael sighed. He was being silly, whatever he was feeling was probably brought on by the cold, he’d just curl up, go to sleep and forget. But as he sat down, for the first time in a long time, the presence of his best friend didn’t calm his anxiousness and he lay awake, his eyes wide and wondering. Wondering why he felt like he would never be happy again…
TBC
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