


Will you still love me?
Author: StargazerUK.
Email: dj.meade@btinternet.com
Category: A/I & C/C.
Rating: Teen
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of these Roswell characters, I have borrowed them.( If I did Alex & Isabel would be living happily ever after. )
Author's Note: I would normally start by telling you when this is set but as it involves time travel I don’t want to ruin the surprise. Trust me, by the end of the Prologue and Chapter1 you’ll know what is happening, when and why. I’m a Gazer so it will be A/I but I always try to involve M/L & M/M as much as possible. I’ve taken one or two minor liberties with the original TV show storyline so it will fit nicely with my planned story, nothing major.
Thanks to Kath7 who, amongst her many roles, is now my official sounding board and title provider.
Prologue
“What!” Isabel exclaimed, unable to believe her ears as she stood in the doorway to her bedroom. Surely she had just misheard her mothers call.
“I said…Liz Parker is here to see you.” Diane Evans shouted to her daughter for a second time while trying to hide her slight embarrassment. The thought that Isabel was unwilling or unable to hide her shock and distain that this unfamiliar girl had the audacity to call at her door did not sit well with Diane.
She glanced at the petite brunette as she ushered her in and closed the front door behind her. She didn’t seem to be the type her daughter would normally associate with, ‘mores the pity’, She thought to herself. It was only then that she understood the reason behind the surprise in her daughter’s voice upon hearing the news that this unexpected visitor was here to see her. Diane knew high schools had circles and groups of friends that were not meant to intermix so this Liz Parker was clearly crossing a boundary of some sort.
Diane loved her daughter, and son, more than life itself but she was aware more than most of the differing personalities the two possessed and of Isabel’s little traits, to put it politely. She knew her daughter could be extremely loving and giving…at times, but she also knew she chose those times carefully and they were few and far between, sadly. Isabel would go out of her way to help people as long as it never became personal. She would organise a charity drive for the homeless or a bake sale for the local hospital but she would drive past someone stuck at the side of the road with a flat tyre, not just because she would shy away from getting dirty but also because she never looked to connect with a person on a one to one level. That realisation would always be a cause for concern in Diane Evans’ eyes.
Liz simply exchanged a silent but polite smile with Mrs Evans. She, unlike Diane, knew exactly what Isabel’s reaction to her calling at the house would be before she had even walked up the path. It was simple…in September 1999 she and Isabel weren’t friends, weren’t allies, weren’t anything. However, she had more important things to think about than hurt pride or a damaged ego. She hadn’t travelled back in time to make friends with Isabel all over again. She was here to prevent a sequence of actions and reactions that would eventually overtake all of their lives and would result in the death of not only one of her closest and most beloved friends but also the destruction of the lives of everyone else she had come into contact with.
That was what she was here to do, no matter what the personal cost. Her life had been saved and, in turn, it had set off a cascade of events that cost Alex his life and her other friends their futures. The sacrifice she was going to make this afternoon would put all of that right and put things back how they should have been the first time round. That way, maybe, she could finally find some peace.
Chapter 1
Isabel stepped down from the final step that led from upstairs and stood in the hallway, not taking her eyes off of Liz Parker. They were so far from being friends that she couldn’t even begin to think what on earth she could want or what would drive this girl to call at her house, of all places, to see her. She wanted to curtly ask ‘What do you want?’ but she knew her mother was watching and she wouldn’t appreciate the tone or abruptness of her question so she relented…a little. “What is it you want to see me for?”
To Isabel’s surprise Liz simply smiled at her. That wasn’t the reaction she had been expecting. Now that she thought about it not only was that not the reaction she was looking for but it only now dawned on her that Liz was looking right at her and hadn’t averted her gaze since she had come down the stairs. Where had all of this bravery suddenly appeared from and why wasn’t she accompanied but her freakish friends Deluca and Whitman? Those three were normally joined at the hip and it was rather disconcerting to see one without the other two.
“I know you’ll probably be surprised to see me here but I need to have a little chat with you.” Liz finally broke her gaze away from Isabel and glanced at her watch before looking back at the much taller girl. “Actually, I need to speak to you quite urgently.”
Liz’s last comment had been tinged with a hint of desperation. ‘Maybe she isn’t as brave as she first thought.’ Isabel commented to herself in triumph. She glanced at her Mom who gave a gentle nod towards the stairs. Isabel almost huffed out loud at the thought that her mom wanted her to take Liz Parker upstairs to her room.
Diane, being a little more mature and a lot more of a people person, had noticed the shift in demeanour in their visitor when she glanced at her watch. She was clearly pushed for time and in need of an urgent and private conversation with Isabel, if the notion that she was willing to call at her intimidating daughter’s house was anything to go by. “I’ll leave you two alone.” Diane finally said as she smiled politely to Liz and began to turn away. “It was nice meeting you, Liz. I hope to see you again one day soon.”
Liz smiled and nodded as she watched Diane disappear down the hall and into the kitchen. It was only then that she turned back to face Isabel.
“You need to talk to me?” Isabel asked incredulously. “You’re not confusing me with someone else are you?”
Liz shook her head before glancing at her watch again. “I don’t want to appear rude but I’m a little pressed for time so if we can get down to it…”
“You’re a little pressed for time?” Isabel repeated. “Well why didn’t you say? I’ll drop everything I’m doing and hang on your every word.” Her voice was now unmistakeably dripping in sarcasm.
For the second time in a matter of minutes Isabel was surprised to see Liz smile at her comments rather than recoil, which had been the desired reaction to her biting comments.
“I tell you what.” Liz stated rather impatiently. “I’m in a rush and the longer this takes the more difficult it becomes so I am going to go up and wait in your room and when you are ready to afford me some of your precious time we’ll talk!” And with that, Liz stormed off upstairs.
It didn’t happen very often, but Isabel was lost for words.
After a moment of stunned silence Isabel regained her composure and leapt up the stairs after Liz. By the time she had reached the doorway to her room Liz was already standing by the window, looking out into the backyard. “Now wait a God damn minute!” Isabel began.
“I don’t have time for this, Iz!” Liz cut in forcefully as she turned round.
Again Isabel was shocked into silence but she didn’t know if it was the ferocity of what her petite visitor had just said or the fact that she had just called her ‘Iz’. Something was wrong, very wrong.
Liz looked at her erstwhile friend and let out a heavy sigh. “Look, Isabel. I’m sorry. I know you have no idea what is going on here but I need you to do me one small favour and once you have done it I will be gone from your life…” Liz turned her head slightly and hushed her tone. “…quite literally.” She mumbled to herself.
To Isabel’s astonishment her next comment wasn’t a resounding ‘No’ or ‘Go to hell’ but…”What is it you want me to do?”
For a third time Liz glanced at her watch. “As strange as it seems I need you to go to my parent’s restaurant and bring Max and Michael home, right now!”
Isabel frowned at how innocuous Liz Parker’s request was. With the way she had been acting she felt sure she was going to ask her to do something stupid like rob a bank or ask her to ask her brother out on a date on her behalf. That last thought set Isabel thinking. “Aside from the obvious comment of ‘Why can’t you do it yourself’? I’m also confused as to why you are here. My lame brother and his not so little friend normally make a point of hanging out at the Crashdown after school and I can’t believe it’s for the good food. I can’t think why but my brother seems to have taken a shine to you.”
Liz had to fight her natural reaction to defend her parent’s restaurant. They served good food at reasonable prices in a warm and friendly environment…what more could people ask? She ignored Isabel’s cutting remark about her brother. Liz of September 1999 would have been shocked and embarrassed to learn that Max Evans had a crush on her but both she and Max had left that more innocent time a long time ago. It seemed a lot longer than the nearly two years that it had actually been.
“Focus, Liz!” Liz blurted out loud, causing her to blush slightly at the odd look Isabel gave her. “Look, Isabel. There is an easy way to do this and a very, very hard way. I don’t have time to explain myself nor do I have time for an alternate plan. I can’t go there myself for numerous reasons including being unwilling to try and break the laws of physics. If I had known that this was going to be so difficult I would have simply come up with another idea but I no longer have the luxury of that option.” Liz pulled herself up to her full height, which was a few inches shy of a foot shorter than Isabel and put on her game face. “Just answer me one question…are you going to do this for me or not?”
Isabel slowly and purposefully folded her arms across her chest and tilted her head slightly to the side as she gazed at Liz Parker. “That would be a No!” She smirked in triumph.
“Fine!” Liz cried. “The hard way it is!”
Isabel watched Liz advance on her. Her first thought, despite how ludicrous it would seem to any sane person, was that Liz was going to attack her. She couldn’t deny the relief when the petite brunette barrelled past her towards the open bedroom door. “Had enough, have you? Going to run away?” Isabel asked victoriously.
With what happened next Isabel lost not only all sense of victory but also all sense of what had passed for normal in her life so far. She had secrets that only a couple of people on this earth could understand but what followed in the next few minutes shot all of that thinking to hell.
Liz closed the door firmly and made a point of turning to look at Isabel as she placed her free hand over the lock. As she fixed Isabel with an unnerving glare she concentrated on moving the barrel of the lock.
As Isabel watched open mouthed Liz Parker did the one thing on this earth Isabel would never have believed she would or could do. As a low glow emanated from her hand that now covered the lock a ‘click’ sound broke the deathly silence as the bedroom door locked shut.
It would be useless to say Isabel was speechless, as she had been in the previous ten minutes, because this went so beyond speechless it wasn’t funny. If she had been wholly human and not in the possession of alien powers she didn’t think she could have been more surprised to see what Liz had done. The fact that she wasn’t completely human and did possess special powers made her all the more surprised and therefore destroying her previous assumption. Liz Parker couldn’t be like she was, she’d have known wouldn’t she?
That being the case it threw up more questions than their could possibly be answers but none of that changed what had gone before. Liz Parker had just locked the bedroom door using powers she could not possibly own.
“I don’t understand.” Isabel stated in a whisper as she took an involuntary step backwards as Liz approached her.
“I barely understand it myself and I have lived it these past two years.” Liz replied with a gentle smile on her face. “Iz, I don’t have the luxury of time to sit you down and explain everything that is going on. All I can tell you is that you are safe and nothing is going to happen to you. I know you have a million and one questions but I need you at the Crashdown in a matter of minutes or my coming here will have all been in vain and I can’t let that happen, there’s too much riding on the outcome of your actions.”
“Are you like me?” Isabel continued to speak softly as though in a daze, which was unsurprising given what she had just witnessed. Suddenly she shook her head violently to lift herself out of her stupor. “What am I saying? Of course you’re not like me. This is some kind of trick that Max and Michael have put you up to and it’s not funny!”
“It’s no trick.” Liz shook her head solemnly as she continued to inch nearer Isabel. She slowly held out her hands towards her frightened companion. “Isabel, I need you to trust me and take my hands. All will be explained in a moment but I just need you to take my hands.”
“You’re freaking me out now and I want you out of here!” Isabel went to move past Liz but she moved across to block her path. “I know you’re frightened, Iz. If I had time to sit down and talk you through what is going on I would but I don’t have that time and I need you to trust me.”
“Trust you?” Isabel repeated. “I don’t even know you!”
Liz slowly reached into her pocket and pulled out some piece’s of paper and offered them to Isabel. Isabel tentatively reached out, not seeing the harm in taking a few pieces of paper, when she slowly realised as she accepted the offering that they were pictures only face down.
If she thought her weird afternoon couldn’t get any weirder she was wrong. Staring back at her when she turned them over were the faces of Max, Michael and even her own smiling face. Amongst the others in the photo were Liz, Deluca, Kyle Valenti and some blond girl she didn’t recognise. Even in the midst of all of this, things got stranger still because standing on the end with his arms firmly wrapped around her waist was Alex Whitman of all people. More than that she could she from her body shape that she was not only leaning back into him and smiling broadly but she had her hands firmly clasped over his as he held her. It was very apparent that she not only wanted to be in his arms but she was very glad to be there.
Tears were now gradually trickling down her cheeks as she slowly flicked through the other pictures. There were pictures of Max and Liz together, she and Alex together and even more unbelievable were the pictures of Michael and Maria Deluca together.
“I’m from the future, Iz.” Liz suddenly cut in causing Isabel to look at her directly. “You let us in on your secret and we became friends, even family to one another but things went wrong. I need to stop us all from making the same mistake again and that way I can keep us all safe.” Liz reached out again. “If you take my hand I can show you.”
Isabel was torn. What Liz Parker was saying couldn’t possibly be true, could it? She knew people could do amazing things with computers nowadays but these pictures really did look real. Even if they had been altered it didn’t change the fact that it was her in the pictures and she didn’t ever remember looking so happy…that she would have remembered for sure.
“My time has run out, Isabel.” Liz offered softly. “I need to connect to you now and show you what has happened so you know what I want you to do and more importantly, why!”
Isabel absently placed the pictures on the side and reached out and took Liz’s offered hands. “I’m sure you have done this type of thing with Max and Michael so there’s nothing to be afraid of. The only thing is there’s a lot to get through so don’t try and take it all in at once. Let the images and feelings flow over you. Once I have passed them over to you there will be plenty of time for you to sort through what has happened.” Isabel almost managed a gentle smile as she nodded her understanding with Liz. “Just look at me.” Those were the last words Isabel heard before the flashes began.
Isabel had connected with her brothers for various reasons in the past but it wasn’t something she ever wanted to get used to or something that she encouraged. They were teenage boys after all and the less she knew about what went on in their heads, the better however, this was more, so much more. The images and feelings flew into her faster than she could possibly imagine. She caught an occasional scene for a spilt second or a momentary feeling of love or regret but as fast as she picked it up it was gone.
The one thought that she later realised was being firmly planted in the forefront of her mind was of an accident at the Crashdown, a gun shot! Then Max leaping over the counter to help someone, Liz…it was Liz who was shot and he was risking everything to save her!
Suddenly Liz broke them apart. When Isabel was able to focus on Liz after catching her breath she could see beads of sweat on her friend’s brow. ‘Her friend’s brow’ she repeated that thought over and over in her head. ‘Her friend, Liz Parker was her friend’. She didn’t know how she knew but she just knew. She felt it.
“We have to go.” Liz grabbed Isabel’s hand and moved to the door. With a flash of power the door was unlocked and they were off down the stairs. “You need to borrow your mom’s car or we will be too late.
Without hesitation Isabel darted in to see her mom and a few short moments later she reappeared clutching a set of car keys. Both girls moved quickly and silently to the car on the drive and jumped in. A few agonising seconds later they were on their way. Isabel now fully understood the need for urgency but something wasn’t quite right. She had so much going on in her head right now she could barely drive let alone make rational conclusions but there was something nagging at her that wouldn’t let go.
As they pulled in a little down the street from the Crashdown it hit her like a runaway train. She turned to Liz, panic on her normally beautiful face. “You want me to stop Max from saving you rather than for me to stop the shooting? that makes no sense. Why do you want me to let you die when I can save you?”
“All I know is that in the first timeline I would have died if Max hadn’t saved me. From that point on things began to spiral out of control. I can’t take that risk a second time. My powers are only just coming to the surface, which is how I have been able to come back. They were a direct result of Max healing me. I don’t know I will get that chance again in this timeline so I need for it all to go as it should have first time round. That way Alex will live a long and happy life and you will remain hidden from the authorities. It’s what is meant to be.” Liz added solemnly at the end.
“I still don’t fully understand why you haven’t just gone to see Max directly.” Isabel asked in confusion. “From what little sense I have been able to make of the flashes you sent me I now know how he felt about you so why wouldn’t you go direct to him rather than me?”
Liz gave the distraught Isabel a comforting smile. “That’s the whole problem, Iz. The very love that Max has for me may point to him being the one person I should go to for help in times of crisis but equally it was that same love that meant he wouldn’t just stand by and watch me die. That was the very trait within Max that started this rollercoaster ride in the first place and it is the very thing I have to prevent from happening again so we can sort out this mess.”
Isabel knew her next comment would appear to be a selfish one but she couldn’t help but ask. “Does that mean you see me as the type to stand by and watch you die?”
“On the contrary.” Liz reached over and clasped Isabel’s hand. “In this instance I am relying on you not to let your heart rule your head as it would Max. You might have to let one life slip away but trust me when I tell you that you are saving many more in the long run, else why would I do this?”
After climbing out of the car Liz took a couple of steps towards the Crashdown but soon stopped. “I can’t go any further, I can’t risk it.” She took another glance at her watch before turning to Isabel. “You need to go in and you need to stop Max making a mistake which will ruin all our lives including mine.”
“But…” Isabel hesitated. “I just need a second to think.”
“You don’t have time to mull this over, Isabel.” Liz insisted. “In a matter of seconds a fight is going to breakout and a gunshot will sound out and Max will do what he did last time. It was a loving and noble gesture but it had an adverse affect on all of our lives that eventually led to the death of Alex Whitman, a man you grew to love.”
“You can’t ask me to choose.” Isabel pleaded.
“There is no choice for you to make.” Liz stated firmly as she took Isabel’s hand and gave it a gentle squeeze. “You have to stop Max and let things run their natural course else all will be lost!”
Isabel stepped forward and pulled Liz into a brief hug. Things were happening so fast and she had lost all semblance of control the second Liz Parker walked in her front door but if she was going to do this it had to be done now. Isabel stepped back. “What will happen to you?”
Liz almost shrugged. “Once the timeline is changed I will no longer exist. I’m hoping for some majestic fading into nothingness rather than some burning flames and an explosion.” She joked. Her face suddenly turned sombre. “Remember, Iz. This is what I came here to do. I’ve made my peace with what is about to happen and it is the right thing to do.”
The two girl’s broke apart and Isabel turned for the Crashdown.
“One last thing...” Liz called causing Isabel to look back. “…I don’t know how you will manage it without arousing suspicion but can you give Alex a hug for me?” Tears were now streaming down her face. “If I had thought this through properly I could have arranged a final meeting with the Alex of this timeline. He would have been none the wiser but I could have had one last hug from those long arms and a final look at his cheeky grin.”
“I will.” Isabel nodded as she wiped at her own tears. She then turned and headed up the sidewalk and with one final look back at Liz she stepped inside the Crashdown.
Liz leaned herself back against Diane’s car and glanced around. If she was going to suddenly explode or disappear into the atmosphere she wanted to make sure she didn’t give some passer-by a heart attack while doing it. She took a deep breath and thought about what she was doing and she knew it was the right thing. She had known more love, thanks to her family and friends, in her brief sixteen years than most people did in a lifetime. She was thinking, of course, of the version of herself inside the Crashdown. The one who had absolutely no idea that she was about to die or that just across the way from her as she served her customers was the very love of her life. Still, at least in her original lifetime she had learned what true love really was and she was pleased to report it was everything she hoped for and more.
Suddenly the sound of a gunshot rang out pulling Liz back to the present. A moment later she saw the doors to the Crashdown burst open and two sadly familiar looking oafs came dashing out, running off in different directions. A moment later she was surprised to see Isabel step out onto the sidewalk and look back down the street at her. She lifted her hand to wave at her tall friend when she noticed something odd.
She smiled to herself as her raised hand became translucent and she felt herself drifting away in a serene manner. Her last conscious thought was one of gratitude. Thankful she was leaving in a peaceful way with dignity and composure rather than the clap of thunder she had feared.
A moment later, she was gone.
To be continued…