
Deny thy Father
Burningchaos
Polar Challenge issued by Jezebel Jinx
Rated M for sexual situations and language
Disclaimer: I do not own anything associated with Roswell and the title is Shakespeare.
No warnings
Summary: This is AU. Liz was never shot. She never became a member of the ‘I know an Alien club’, She never dated Max, and Tess was in Roswell from the start. Maria never dated Michael, the FBI never showed. Liz’s guardians had her home-schooled once her powers came in to existence; she is still friends with Kyle, Maria and Alex and she never dated Kyle. The ‘club’ still comes to the Crash Down every day. Michael is still emancipated, but works elsewhere. Nasedo doesn’t come in to this story. Also Tess’ ‘parents’ died and she now lives with the Evans family.
Chapter 1
Memories tangled in my mind, the silken webs that bind me
Scents old and long forgotten follow as you pass
Captured by you, there was never anyone else
Forbidden, nothing was as sweet as your touch
Breathing deeply, swallowing longing
I ache for you to see how it should be
There is nothing I wouldn’t do to stand beside you
Sabine felt the wind against her face, the heady sent of hyacinths in the air. It was strange to see the alien flower doing so well here, but then her father had always had the taste for the unusual. It was the one thing she felt she had inherited from him. Walking down the garden path she spotted Rath and as always her heart clenched. He was everything she wanted and the one thing she would never be allowed to have. Her father hated the royals with a passion to rival all else. Unable to help herself she walked over to him, he looked angry, his posture was ridged and his face tense. She knew without a doubt her father had been the cause, he was the only one able to provoke such a response in a man as controlled as Rath.
Rath heard Sabine walking behind him, her perfume was subtle against the background of the flowers, and he knew he could only smell it because it was so familiar to him. Inhaling the spicy fragrance he had come to associate with Sabine, Rath turned and watched her walk; no, walk was not a sufficient enough word that conveyed the grace that was innately hers. He had no word to describe her actions she almost seemed to float.
Sabine gave him a small, soft smile. It amazed him how she always was around when he needed to be alone, yet the instant she appeared that need always seemed to vanish. In truth he knew why, she had some how come to own his heart. Which was as incredible to him as he had swore never to fall in love. Love was a weakness he couldn’t afford. Worse yet Sabine was Kivar’s daughter. He would never be allowed to have her, never.
“Rath, why are you frowning? This garden is too lovely for such a display. Besides you might make the flowers all wilt and wither.” Sabine’s tone was light and playful. Rath couldn’t help the smile that played across his face. “There now that is so much better, no longer the menacing gargoyle.” Sabine walked so she was directly in front of him, he was so much taller then she. So much so in fact that she had to bend her head back to look in to his eyes, which she was doing now. She loved Rath’s eyes, so deep and full of life.
“Sabine how is it you know just what to say? You always manage to bring a smile to my face.” Rath reached out and brushed a lock of chocolate coloured hair from her face as he spoke.
“It is my job, seeing as how I am sure my father brought the frown.”
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Liz arched up and gasped, those dreams again; she was having then almost every night now. Rath was almost always present, and her father. She was afraid of him in some ways and not in others. She knew he wanted to destroy the Royals; it was his life’s goal. He had Antar, but it wasn’t enough, he had killed the royals once but that wasn’t enough either. Kivar would never be happy, he didn’t know how.
Liz climbed out on her balcony to refresh her self and to gather her thoughts, they unsettled and the weight of her choices crushing. Liz looked at the winter sun; it was faded and tired even as dawn broke. She wrapped her arms around herself, a mocking self hug to stave off the loneliness she felt. She felt as though she was being pulled under, drowning. This wasn’t about a lack of courage, or fear. She needed more then this. Liz lifted her eyes to the stars that were starting to wane through the brightening sky and she silently cursed them. She had been in this place to long, trapped and she was feeling like a stranger inside her own skin. Tears began to burn behind her eyes. She had to do it and now that the decision had been made it was even more painful then she thought.
She wished for Alex, he would have understood in ways she knew Maria never would. He would have hugged her and said something witty. Anything to make her smile. Liz frowned again, she couldn’t remember the last time she had laughed or smiled.
Liz shivered; she knew it was time to go face reality. She knew this cold that had seeped into her wasn’t just from the winter weather, it went bone deep and came from her soul, from the lack of solid ground to stand on. It came from her inability to escape the darkness she now lived in. Change was here though, she thought as a breeze caused her hair to flutter she could smell it.
