Hey guys,
I know some of you have been wondering what was going on with me lately, so I thought that I would just stop by and give you some clue... I really didn't mean to go MIA, but let's just say that basically my life sucks right now... on top of some personal stuff I have to deal with, going back to work as proved to be way harder than what I had already expected... or more like suspected
Most of my colleagues have changed this year and well, I didn't think I would miss those who left so much... and I'm not only saying that because they had become very good friends with time, but because at least they knew how to work and do their jobs!!
Those I have now suck big time, plain and simple... out of the 4 new persons I have to work with now, one is an aggressive nut who not only doesn't let you explain anything to her (even when you've been here more years than her and know how things have to be done

), but can't even have a normal conversation with anyone without blowing everything out of proportion or simply pissing you off... the other one is some nice okay but crazy guy who obviously have a problem with himself and he's so insecure that every time you tell him something he just feels like everyone is ganging up on him, or whatever... I don't even understand him, I'm just kind of tired of hearing him whine (yes he whines, I swear, I'm afraid one of these days we're even gonna make him cry and sorry, I'm usually a nice and understanding person but I'm no babysitter!)... the next one he's so
'peace and love' and so
'cool' that what I do in ten minutes he takes an hour and a half to repeat,
when he understands what we're telling him of course or just doesn't completely forget that that was what he was supposed to do (seriously I'm not kidding, he's fun and all but dammit, couldn't he just pay attention and do something right so I don't have to check every ten minutes that his job has been done, or just done 'correctly'!)... and well the last one, let's just say that I have seen him once, the first day we started back, and he's been on sick leave ever since, which has been leaving us with one person short for 3 weeks now.
What does that mean for me? Well, basically that since I'm the older one in this group (or at least I'll be as of one more week since my dear other coworker, who's the only normal one left

, is taking her maternity leave) everyone expects me to kind of 'supervise' the others and pick up their messes( I'm so tired of hearing, 'hey, that one doesn't know how... could
you just... ). And no one is wondering if it isn't too much for one person to check after 4 other people... no, why would they? I'm working 35h/ a week, and honestly my job is usually not the most straining of jobs, far from it, but this is just driving me crazy... I'm no wonderwoman, and I can't be at 5 different places at the same time, and even less do with everyone else's temper, problems or attitude.
Why am I telling you this? Well, because as of now, I have simply no life

... I wake up, I go to work, and when I come back home I'm so tired that I barely can do anything else but eat and go back to bed again... which brings us to the fact that I've barely written anything since coming back from my vacation. Add to that that being so tired doesn't help with the inspiration either and you have your answer as to why I haven't provided any chapter for any of my stories so far. I try to write a little here and there when I'm at work which with the conditions I just described you can imagine isn't much, but that's basically it. I'm just hoping that things will settle down a bit from now on, since after all they won't be considered as newbies for much longer right?... but till then don't be mad at me for not coming back

.
I'm not forgetting about any of my stories, and believe me when I say that I truly regret not being able to do more, but I'll be back, I promise... don't know yet with which story but I will!
In the meantime I hope you'll be patient enough to not forget completely about me
I also know that I still have some PMs I have to answer to, and I will, too, don't worry... just give me some time, and I'm sorry for not getting back to you sooner
That's it... sorry for the long boring note, but well, I guess you deserved to know what was going on... and I just needed to vent some
Thanks again for your support. You truly are the best.
Hugs,
Rebecca.