Raychelxluscious – I’m so happy you caught up! What can I say except that I am enjoying writing this Challenge, well you know that already, I tell you all the time. Oh and evil tricks…I’m working on a few more :evil: love ya!
Anonymousarfan – Max’s self esteem is low, but don’t worry I’m working on it.
Behrsgirl1230 - Let’s just say there are few more awkward moments to come J
Vampyrax – just remember Liz is not mean…she’s just confused J
Roswell 10/2/00 - I’m back with more! Hopefully you’ll like.
Cowgirl – Thank you…hope you enjoy!
FSUMSW94 – Max could definitely teach her…that’s all I’m sayin’ LOL! muah
Alien614 – Everything out in the open…sounds like a plan J
Lazza – Ya know you hit the nail on the head…here ya go. Hope you like.
roswell3053 – M W’s all around!
Cherie – I’m glad you like Kyle…I’m going to make a serious attempt to do him some justice. I’ve never written him before (not if you count like the 5 seconds he was in one of my other fics) but he is going to play a bigger part in this story pretty soon. Love you too!! *muah*
Dreamer06 – Ah…how many? Never ask a question you don’t want the answer to is my motto LOL!!
Erina258 – I’m so glad you have faith in both Max and Liz…I do too!
ILYMEFOREVER – Communication is the key…let’s see how they deal with that.
frenchkiss70 – Tiph…*gasp** I am not evil…okay don’t look at me like that. One word…Dariana *LOL*
begonia9508 – No worries there will be problems and Max is not perfect…neither is Liz.
Mareli – You can doubt Liz…just not on everything…have a little faith
POM – Demons in the closet for Max? Maybe…maybe not J
Timelord31 – Did I say Jimmy was gonna be in the story? Hmm…I didn’t…but will he or won’t he, that is the question.
VeronicB – Your tip was right on the mark…let’s see how it plays out J
Heavenli24 – Nope, Kyle is not Alexis’ father…but then who is? Everyone wants to know…but everyone is going to have to wait lol
Bixie – Kyle did stir something up in Liz..hmm… Anyway I’m doing a little better, thank you for caring and listening *hugs*
sylvia37 - No win situation…but let’s see how these adults handle it
guelbebek – You’ll have to read to see how the conversation ends.
Earth2Mama – Sexual Frustration…that’s the best kind my dear *muah*
tijuana_lady – Jules you could never hate me, I’m way too nice for that LOL!
RoswellScripter – Mai…moving forward sweetie!
Ellie – Very perceptive and yes he did sign away his rights…but IF he comes back in the picture, does that mean he wouldn’t want to cause problems…and IF so…why? Hmm…
BehrObsession – Oh I know…I’ll have mercy on them don’t worry. It will be rough at times, but making up is the best part, no?
Hazz – I’m not really that evil…am I?
Rigel – Ah yes the past…but is that all there is or is there more? You’ll have to wait and see.
Jason's Lover – Relax Crystal and breathe…or yawn…whichever works LOL! (You know I’ll never let you live that down)
linliz68 – You’ll find that at times, Liz is a walking, talking contradiction.
Finally...any Lurkers...hope you enjoy!
I need to put a little warning on this part...it seems to cross over to Adult territory just a bit...
Chapter 19
“How many girls have you been with?” The question echoed in his mind. He couldn’t possibly answer her. Not only did he not know, but also ever wanted her to know.
Max shut his eyes tightly, threw his arm over his face and willed the ache in his chest to subside. This was his worst nightmare come to life. He’d never been asked that question to begin with, but coming from Liz, from the one woman he’d ever truly cared about, just about broke his heart.
“Max?” Liz’s voice was shaky, just above a whisper when she finally spoke. Why had she asked it? Her mind screamed at her. She hadn’t meant for that question to come out, not the way it did anyway. Now Max looked hurt and she couldn’t help the tears that sprung to her eyes immediately.
“Max,” she tried again, this time reaching her arm out to his. He couldn’t even look at her, how could he? He knew no matter what answer he gave it would hurt her. He willed his heart to stop pounding in his chest and the migraine throbbing in his head to subside, but they didn’t.
Liz decided that she needed to think of something quick to rectify the situation she had caused. She managed to pull his arm away from his face, but he still hadn’t opened his eyes.
“I didn’t mean it like that, Max.” She tried to explain but to her utter surprise, Max leapt up to his feet and began pacing. Frustration and anger etched across his masculine features, and at that moment she wanted to kick herself for opening her mouth.
“What did you mean it like then, Liz?” Max stopped and pinned her with an incredulously glare. He wasn’t mad at her, he was mad at himself. If he’d only taken his own advice, the very same advice he had offered Kyle, he himself would not be in this predicament.
“I just…” She began but realized she hadn’t given much thought to what she was going to say in the first place. Therefore, how could she explain it? She adverted her eyes and that only successfully managed to get Max to begin pacing again.
“You what? You want to know how many girls I’ve slept with in my lifetime? I think you have a pretty good idea of what the answer to that question is. What I can’t figure out is why you would ask me that?” He stopped in front of the couch at the other end of her room and sank into it tiredly. Was she trying to hurt him? Or herself for that matter, because that was the only thing he could imagine her reasoning behind the question as being.
“I never meant to hurt you, that was not why I asked.” Liz quickly scrambled off the bed and headed towards him. She couldn’t help the sob that escaped her lips as soon as she kneeled before him. Tentatively she reached out her hand to him, and to her utter and never ending gratitude, he didn’t pull away.
“Then why? You still haven’t answered me? You haven’t said anything,” he ground out between clenched teeth. Their eyes met for the first time, and he saw the tears. He hated to see her cry, he knew she’d probably cried enough tears to last her a lifetime. She didn’t need any more. He never wanted to make her cry.
“Liz,” he reached out to catch her tears but she moved away slightly. God, she doesn’t want me to touch her, he thought.
“I’m so sorry, Max. I was just scared.” She watched as confusion settled in his features and she couldn’t help but cry harder. Max quickly slipped off of the chair and kneeled down next to her. He hesitated for a moment, but then reached up and caressed her cheek gently, willing her to look at him and explain.
“What were you scared of baby?” he asked softly.
“I’m scared that I won’t be enough for you. I mean, when we get to that point, not that I’m ready, but…” Liz rambled and Max couldn’t help the small smile that crept up the corners of his mouth. He now understood her reasoning, it wasn’t to call him out on his past, it was simply because she was afraid that he’d compare her to other’s, which couldn’t have been further from the truth.
“Liz…”
“And what if you regret it? What if I regret it? Or what if you don’t tell me it’s not good or…hmm,” her words were successfully halted by his lips slanting against hers. His heart thumped rapidly his chest like a sledgehammer. Max was flooded by so many emotions, but above all he knew beyond a shadow of a doubt, that he loved Liz. He was in love for the first time in his life.
They pulled away panting against one another and somehow Max had managed to cradle her against his body, settling her firmly in his lap. “Liz, look at me.” He placed a finger beneath her chin, gently lifting her gaze to his. He loved her. God, did he love her. It was a revelation that was not only exhilarating but also terrifying at the same time.
“I…Liz…I…” he couldn’t tell her. What if she wasn’t ready to hear it and he managed to destroy what they had worked hard at building thus far? No, he would wait for the right moment to tell her. For now he needed to ease her worries.
“What?” Liz was mortified at her inexperience in everything.
“I want you to know that I would never compare you to anyone else that I’ve been with. And I never could, because they couldn’t even come close to you.” Max began to explain his feelings but Liz interrupted him. He’d forgotten how stubborn she was.
“How can you say that, Max?” she hissed out. “I’ve only been with one guy and that lasted about as long as it takes to brush your teeth. I don’t know what I’m doing and you do, how am I supposed to deal with that?” Liz asked feeling the blush that crept up her cheeks at that moment.
Max wanted her to understand that it wasn’t important, but how could he do that without hurting her feelings? He framed her face and placed a soft kiss on the tip of her nose before continuing.
“Liz, I might have experience, but did you ever think that maybe I’m terrified about that?” He looked at her and thought she looked adorable when she was confused. He hugged her tighter against his chest.
“Liz, I think about it all the time. What if I move too fast for you? What if I make you uncomfortable with something I’m doing to you? What if I don’t live up to your expectations? And God, what if I hurt you? I would kill myself if I did,” he whispered out and Liz quickly looked up and cupped his cheek in the palm of her hand. Is that how he really felt? One look into his eyes told Liz the truth. A sense of relief washed over her and now that he put her worries at ease, she needed to do the same for him.
“Max, I know you would never hurt me. You make me feel safe, and you make me so happy. It might scare me but I know that I never have to fear you. I just, I should have told you how I was feeling. This is all new to me,” Liz confessed softly while plucking at the neckline of his shirt.
“It’s all new to me too, baby. But Liz, we’re in a relationship, which means we can’t keep things from each other. It will only destroy us in the end. I need you to just be honest with me and I’ll promise to do that same.”
“Is that what this is?” She looked to him in awe. Yes, of course if she seriously thought about it, she’d know that they were in fact in a relationship. However, never being in one before she wasn’t sure what to call what they had.
“Jesus Parker, what the hell did you think we were doing?” Max scoffed playfully, knowing she hadn’t defined their situation. Hell, he hadn’t until today.
“I don’t know.” Liz shrugged, still not sure if Max really wanted her that way. No man ever wanted her that way.
“Do you want to be with me Liz? Because I want to be with you more than anything.” Liz’s ears and eyes perked up at his question. God, it was true. The one thing she’d always desired was that someone would want her just as much as she wanted them.
“God, yes. I want to be with you, Max. I never wanted anything more,” Liz smiled past her tears. Max let out a shuddering breath and crashed his lips against hers. He ran his hands through her hair and gently settled her back, until he was lying completely on top of her. He rested his weight on his elbows, as not to crush her. Opening his eyes, he smiled down at her tear stained face.
“Don’t cry baby.” He leaned in and kissed her again, this time he felt her wrap her arms around his neck and felt her tongue slide against his bottom lip. It was one of the first kisses she’d initiated to go further with, and his heart soared.
Liz felt completely consumed by Max once again. It was so easy for her to get lost in his kisses and caresses, everything that made him Max.
After a few minutes, Liz felt Max pull away. She watched panting, as he rested his knees on either side of her and then gently he leaned over and lifted her effortlessly in his arms. He crossed the room with her and placed her in the center of her bed.
“Tell me if I’m going to fast, okay?” he asked gently removing his shirt and dropping it to the floor beside him. Liz swallowed thickly as she watched through hooded lids as Max climbed up on the bed and laid against her. His body was perfect. She’d seen him without a shirt before, but never had she actually been able to feel him against her. Never had she been able to run her hands up and down his back and feel his taunt muscles flex beneath her fingertips.
“Liz, God…” Max moaned out softly against her neck. At first touch of her fingers against his back, Max thought he’d never felt anything as delicate as that. He tried to focus his attention on her though. Tonight was all about her, and making her feel special.
Slowly he began to kiss the sensitive skin at the base of her neck and then trailed upwards. He could feel the quick puffs of air escaping past her sweet lips and onto his shoulder. His body was quickly responding but he fought the urge to grind his body against hers. He needed to take his time with her; she was different in so many ways. And most importantly she meant the world to him.
Liz couldn’t believe what she was feeling, he was driving her crazy and she wanted…no she needed more of him. Tentatively, she reached down and brought her hands to his hips and then lower. She felt him tense and thought she might be doing something wrong. Just as she was removing her hands, Max stopped her with his words.
“Don’t stop, Liz. You have no idea what you make me feel, please don’t stop.” Max moved so that he faced her. Her features were flushed and her lips were swollen, she never looked more beautiful to him. Max slowly ran one long finger down her neck, down between the valley of her breasts and then reached around to grasp her hip. He watched as she threw her head back and moaned softly, she was so responsive to him. That drove him crazy with want, but he still needed to take it slow with her.
Max pulled back slowly, her eyes were closed and her chest rose and fell quickly, almost in tune with his own racing heartbeat. She had to be the most exquisite woman he’d ever laid eyes on, and she was his. It was enough for him to fall in love with her all over again, and run away at the same time. Deep down he still felt that maybe she would wake up one day and wonder what she was doing with someone like him in the first place.
“Max?” Her pleading voice broke him of his reviver.
“Yes?”
“T-touch me, please.” Liz finally gave into the feelings she had for this man. A man who seemed to be everything she wanted and needed in her life. At her words, Max raised himself back to his knees in front of her and slowly he ran his large hands up her legs. She was soft, softer than he ever imagined she would feel. He watched her watch him, as he ran his hands over her thighs and slowly parted them. He massaged the soft flesh and relished in the soft pleas that escaped her lips.
Liz felt as though she was on fire. Never had any man touched her this way, it was almost too much, and yet not enough. She wasn’t ready to have sex with him, but she wanted to feel his hands all over her body. Deciding that Max wouldn’t move any further until she gave him the affirmation, she reached out her shaky hand and placed it atop his.
Max’s eyes snapped to hers as if to confirm what he believed she wanted him to do. One look was all it took, and soon he found the elastic waist of her panties and slid them down her trim legs. He had to swallow thickly a few times, trying to fight the passion and lust he felt for her in that instant, otherwise he would have taken her at that moment.
Slowly he leaned over and kissed her lips, loving her mouth the way he wanted her body. Her soft tongue glided effortlessly over his. He needed to touch her, now that she was giving herself over freely to him. With their lips still sealed, Max ran his hands down over the soft swell of her breasts, down the flat expanse of her stomach and then lower, until he reached her center.
Liz tossed her head side to side, resisting the urge to thrust her hips into his hand. His hands were magic against her heated skin. It wasn’t enough and so she wrapped her arms around his neck, bringing him that much closer and thrust her tongue into his mouth. Max realized quickly that she needed more. Tentatively he cupped her sex in his hand and his eyes nearly crossed when she grinded her hips down into his hand. He could feel her wet heat against the palm of his hand. That combined with her writhing beneath him, Max knew that he wanted to feel and see her come apart in his arms.
“Max…please…” she begged softly and because he couldn’t deny her anything. He gently parted her folds and slid a finger over her. Instantly he could feel the wetness and knew that he couldn’t wait any longer.
“Liz, look at me.” He panted and waited until she opened her eyes. What he saw there blew him away. It was unequivocal passion; she wanted him as much as he wanted her.
“You’re so beautiful, Liz…”
“Max…” she moaned out and arched her body as he slipped a finger inside of her moist heat.
“God, Liz…so beautiful,” he kissed her nose, her mouth, her cheek, any place he could reach all the while increasing his ministrations below. He felt her body tense and he knew she was close. Watching her moan out in excitement was bringing him to the brink, he’d never released without a being immediately involved in a sexual act. She wasn’t even touching him and he was about to explode.
Max added another finger and began to pump them into her body, over and over until she screamed out his name as her body convulsed and tensed beneath him.
“Oh God…I’ve never felt anything like that before,” Liz sighed as she rested her head against his chest, after switching positions a few minutes later.
“Me either.” Max smiled and kissed the top of her head. He pushed her hair back and ran his hand down her arm, trying to get his breathing under control.
“What…what about you?” Liz didn’t look him in the eye. Still somewhat uncomfortable about being half naked and having him touch her body so intimately.
“Liz, look at me.” And she obeyed.
“That was the single most amazing thing I’ve ever experienced. Watching you like that was incredible. I’ve never…God…I’ve never been more turned on in my entire life than I was by watching you.” Liz blushed.
“Really?” She still wasn’t sure if she had done everything right. It felt right, but what if…
“Hey, stop doubting yourself. And just to prove you wrong, because I know you know how much I like it when I’m right, take a look.” Max nodded down to his still hardened erection. He had already removed his pants, leaving him only in a pair of boxers.
“Oh.” Was all she said, as a smile played on her lips.
“Yeah. Oh. So baby, next time you think that, remember this moment.” Max smiled and pulled her against him for soft kiss.
They lay in bed together, holding one another until they both fell asleep, but it was Max that woke up first in the middle of the night.
Should he stay or should he go? He never spent the night with a woman before and just slept, and moreover would Liz want him to? He was torn between what he wanted to do, and what he thought Liz would want him to do. Max turned over slightly, but stopped immediately when he heard her sweet voice.
“Max, don’t go. Don’t leave me,” Liz whispered out, half asleep. She knew that Max had probably never slept in a bed with a woman without having sex with her. Liz wanted what he had with all those other women to be different than with her, and therefore she couldn’t let him leave.
Max turned and pulled her against him, watching as she cuddled up against him and rested her head against his chest. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, wrapping his arm more securely around her. He reveled in the feel of her resting her hand against his chest and the feel of her naked leg slung over his equally naked one.
They were perfect together, that was his last coherent thought before falling into the most restful sleep of his life.
TBC…
Last note…I just wanted to thank all of you who have nominated this story for Best Challenge Response and Favorite Portrayal of a Child for Alexis and any other category I'm forgetting. It means a lot to me that you take the time to acknowledge this fic (and any of my others) in any way. See you next week!
That's why she's my new beta...she can whip me into shape LOL! Thank you for your help and not letting me give up...and helping me see things differently! Love you!!
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