Michael
I sleep restlessly, dreaming still of Maria, and of Liz. At one point I think I hear footsteps, but equate it to the creaks and groans of an old house, falling, briefly into sleep again.
Later in the night, I feel a weight on my bed, and I crack my eyes to see who it is. It's Liz, and she just sits there silently, looking at me, so I pretend to sleep, watching to see what she does.
She hugs her knees to her chest, and whispers to me, “I’m sorry…”
Taking that as my cue, I open my eyes to look at her, completely calm.
"For what?" Hopefully this is a sign that she remembers something, because I don't know if I'd be able to take it; having her memory completely gone. Theres a lot she needs to know, including that I love her. She's my sister, and that will never change, no matter how scary this afternoon was.
"Do you remember?"
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*Liz*
"For what?" he ask after opening his eyes. I look in his eyes and he looks like he a shame that I am his sister. 'Michael if I could go back in time I would, but I can't so there nothing I can do.' I said in my head. The one thing no one in this world shouldn't have go through is that look Michael gave me. I feel a shama to me at this very moment.
"Do you remember?" he ask me and I nod slowly. I do remember and I wish I didn't, but I do.
I look at him as tears fall down my cheeks, "I'm so sorry. I didn't mean anything I said. I was just so upset and just lost control." I sob hard.
I look at him, "Michael I need help, just look at me? Do thing I'm okay? I almost killed myself because of a reason and that reason is that I didn't believe you listen to me. I really sorry" I said as I cover my hands over my face.
"For what?" he ask after opening his eyes. I look in his eyes and he looks like he a shame that I am his sister. 'Michael if I could go back in time I would, but I can't so there nothing I can do.' I said in my head. The one thing no one in this world shouldn't have go through is that look Michael gave me. I feel a shama to me at this very moment.
"Do you remember?" he ask me and I nod slowly. I do remember and I wish I didn't, but I do.
I look at him as tears fall down my cheeks, "I'm so sorry. I didn't mean anything I said. I was just so upset and just lost control." I sob hard.
I look at him, "Michael I need help, just look at me? Do thing I'm okay? I almost killed myself because of a reason and that reason is that I didn't believe you listen to me. I really sorry" I said as I cover my hands over my face.
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"Liz," I say, sitting up on the bed. "Liz, I forgive you, and I understand you were under a lot of stress," I tell her patiently, moving her hands from her face.
"You're gonna be fine, you just need to tell me things from now on, okay? I'll listen, I promise," I continue, patting her back comfortingly.
"Liz," I say, sitting up on the bed. "Liz, I forgive you, and I understand you were under a lot of stress," I tell her patiently, moving her hands from her face.
"You're gonna be fine, you just need to tell me things from now on, okay? I'll listen, I promise," I continue, patting her back comfortingly.
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*Liz*
Michael move my hands from my face so I could look at him, "You're gonna be fine, you just need to tell me things from now on, okay? I'll listen, I promise," he said.
"Michael I wish it was that simple. Michael I need help...I am depressed and I show it by being insain. Michael something deeply wrong with me, I know you see it. Hell I feel everyday...In my mind and heart." I said as more steam tears ran down my face.
Michael move my hands from my face so I could look at him, "You're gonna be fine, you just need to tell me things from now on, okay? I'll listen, I promise," he said.
"Michael I wish it was that simple. Michael I need help...I am depressed and I show it by being insain. Michael something deeply wrong with me, I know you see it. Hell I feel everyday...In my mind and heart." I said as more steam tears ran down my face.
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Michael
"I know you're depressed Liz, I've been noticing changes for a while. If you told mom and dad though, they'd send you to a doctor or put you on meds, is that what you want?"
I hand her a tissue from my nightstand to wipe the tears away, and speak again. "We can work it out, even if it takes a while."
"I know you're depressed Liz, I've been noticing changes for a while. If you told mom and dad though, they'd send you to a doctor or put you on meds, is that what you want?"
I hand her a tissue from my nightstand to wipe the tears away, and speak again. "We can work it out, even if it takes a while."
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*Liz*
"I know you're depressed Liz, I've been noticing changes for a while. If you told mom and dad though, they'd send you to a doctor or put you on meds, is that what you want?" he said grabing a tissue and wripping my tears away, "We can work it out, even if it takes a while." he said.
"No. That's not what I want. Michael do every wonder why I hate the Parkers? It's because I think they're trying to replace our real parents. I don't know, I can't explain it, but some how I believe they wanted me to hate them. And I took it that way because I don't want them to replace them. I know I don't remember, but I know I love them. I just know it."
"I know you're depressed Liz, I've been noticing changes for a while. If you told mom and dad though, they'd send you to a doctor or put you on meds, is that what you want?" he said grabing a tissue and wripping my tears away, "We can work it out, even if it takes a while." he said.
"No. That's not what I want. Michael do every wonder why I hate the Parkers? It's because I think they're trying to replace our real parents. I don't know, I can't explain it, but some how I believe they wanted me to hate them. And I took it that way because I don't want them to replace them. I know I don't remember, but I know I love them. I just know it."
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Michael
"I feel it too, for our real parents, but the Parkers are all we've got for now," I say quietly, smiling at her. "So we've got to put up with them, no matter how crazy or super nice they are."
"We've got Alex too, don't forget," I add, pointing out the door towards her room. "He's like a brother."
"I feel it too, for our real parents, but the Parkers are all we've got for now," I say quietly, smiling at her. "So we've got to put up with them, no matter how crazy or super nice they are."
"We've got Alex too, don't forget," I add, pointing out the door towards her room. "He's like a brother."
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*Liz*
"I feel it too, for our real parents, but the Parkers are all we've got for now,So we've got to put up with them, no matter how crazy or super nice they are.We've got Alex too, don't forget, He's like a brother." Michael said.
I nod, I wasn't in a smiley and a fake mood. "Ya...I know he is like our brother and your best friend. But it doesn't change the fact I have no one. Michael don't say I got Alex, he is a guy so are you. I don't have any female friends or any other kind friends. Michael really happy for you that you have Alexs and start making some real friends. But I'm never going change who I am and put on a pretend face for them. I'm not you."I said.
"I feel it too, for our real parents, but the Parkers are all we've got for now,So we've got to put up with them, no matter how crazy or super nice they are.We've got Alex too, don't forget, He's like a brother." Michael said.
I nod, I wasn't in a smiley and a fake mood. "Ya...I know he is like our brother and your best friend. But it doesn't change the fact I have no one. Michael don't say I got Alex, he is a guy so are you. I don't have any female friends or any other kind friends. Michael really happy for you that you have Alexs and start making some real friends. But I'm never going change who I am and put on a pretend face for them. I'm not you."I said.
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Michael
"I know you're not me Liz," I tell her, my voice at a near whisper, because I don't want to wake the parents.
"You could always try talking to Maria, or Isabel...some of the girls at school aren't that bad. Well, okay, so most of them are, but not Maria," I say, thinking back to tonight. Definitely not Maria.
"And what about that new Tess girl? You know, you don't need to be fake, people will accept you as you are. Just talk about your problems instead of holding them in," I add, sounding like a therapist.
"I know you're not me Liz," I tell her, my voice at a near whisper, because I don't want to wake the parents.
"You could always try talking to Maria, or Isabel...some of the girls at school aren't that bad. Well, okay, so most of them are, but not Maria," I say, thinking back to tonight. Definitely not Maria.
"And what about that new Tess girl? You know, you don't need to be fake, people will accept you as you are. Just talk about your problems instead of holding them in," I add, sounding like a therapist.
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*Liz*
"I know you're not me Liz," he said in a whisper and I just look at him not saying a word.
"You could always try talking to Maria, or Isabel...some of the girls at school aren't that bad. Well, okay, so most of them are, but not Maria," he try encouraging me to talk to one of them. But it's not that easy. I want to be myself no matter if I have to reveal my true self. I don't want to be afraid. I don't want to hide in a dark corner and die from my insanity.
"And what about that new Tess girl? You know, you don't need to be fake, people will accept you as you are. Just talk about your problems instead of holding them in," he said trying give me some advise. But I don't think that going to help any of the feelings I have been feeling.
I mean Maria is nice she really is and that knows about our secret now, but it not easy for me to open up and share whats on my mind. I have always been like this since I can remember. I just can't change myself, it's impossible. I been like this since a small child. I just happen to learn one day and I haven't let go of it since.
I look at Michael sad as the tears ran down my cheeks some more. I really wish he understood me but he can't. He's not me or a women for that fact. I guess that book is true. "Men are from Mars, women are from Venus'.
"I know you're not me Liz," he said in a whisper and I just look at him not saying a word.
"You could always try talking to Maria, or Isabel...some of the girls at school aren't that bad. Well, okay, so most of them are, but not Maria," he try encouraging me to talk to one of them. But it's not that easy. I want to be myself no matter if I have to reveal my true self. I don't want to be afraid. I don't want to hide in a dark corner and die from my insanity.
"And what about that new Tess girl? You know, you don't need to be fake, people will accept you as you are. Just talk about your problems instead of holding them in," he said trying give me some advise. But I don't think that going to help any of the feelings I have been feeling.
I mean Maria is nice she really is and that knows about our secret now, but it not easy for me to open up and share whats on my mind. I have always been like this since I can remember. I just can't change myself, it's impossible. I been like this since a small child. I just happen to learn one day and I haven't let go of it since.
I look at Michael sad as the tears ran down my cheeks some more. I really wish he understood me but he can't. He's not me or a women for that fact. I guess that book is true. "Men are from Mars, women are from Venus'.