Every step I take whisks me farther away from the only home I’ve ever known. Memories of Liz and I keep popping up in my weary mind. The good. The bad. It was all worth it to me, but it wasn’t to Liz. I should have never put her through all of this. It wasn’t fair to her. Swallowing harshly, I realize I’m finally content with a past I regret. Even though my heart feels heavy I know that I did the right thing. I've found the inner strength I never knew I’d lost during this great moment of weakness.
I know it sounds crazy ,but I think I’m finally at peace with myself. I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long. She doesn’t want to be with me so I have to accept that. Still, that fact doesn’t cease the dull aching pain. I never dreamed that my place beside her would end up where I don't belong. Looking back on our time together I realize that I loved her with all that I had ,but I didn’t think about how much she would have to sacrifice. I was so in awe of her that I wasn’t thinking about how being with me affected her life.
Apparently, I had to lose everything that I’ve ever valued to figure out my destiny. I was meant to be alone. Maybe one day she’ll be able to forgive me for what I’ve done to her. "Max!" I hear a shout in the distance. I continue my path to redemption. "I cant live without you Max." It is then that I recognize the voice of my angel. Pausing I whirl around to see her plead, "Max please don't go. There will never be another you. Your my world. You always will be."
Her words are everything I’ve ever wanted to hear, but I’m afraid to trust them. I can’t take the hurt of being rejected again. It’s just to much for me to bare. She stands and breaks into an all out run. I stand still fearful of breaking the spell. Before I can say a word she presses her sweet lips to mine. When she breaks the kiss and looks deeply into my eyes I can do nothing but break into a smile. “Liz, I want to be with you, but not if it causes you so much hurt.” I reveal hoping that she won’t take her admission back.
