Starting Again (M/L AU Mature) Chap 10 11/27/06 [WIP]

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Starting Again
Author: HunniBehr505
Couples: M/L and CC
Category: AU without aliens
Rating: Mature
Disclaimer: Sadly I don’t own anything. For if I did Alex never would have died and Tess wouldn’t be evil
Summary: When the new girl comes to town, Max is instantly drawn to her. Liz is everything he ever wanted. But she also has a secret. A secret that’s been haunting her. Can Max help her move on?
A/N: This is the first story I’m posting so feedback would be appreciated.

Prologue

Max Evans was wasting away. He needed a change. Everyday was the same. He had great friends, loving parents, and perfect grades. Yet he wanted more. He wanted someone to love. Someone he could share everything with. Yet he could feel change in the air. Somehow he just knew something was going to happen.
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“Well we can’t just leave! Jeff her therapist says Liz still needs counseling.” Nancy Parker screamed at her husband who was making no sense.

“Nancy have you seen her? She’s just letting herself go. Her friends have abandoned her! Liz needs this. We all need this. Her therapist agrees with me Nancy. She says the change will be good for her.” Jeff said gently. Nancy relaxed a little and Jeff pulled her into his arms and placed a kiss on her forehead. “Nancy you know we need to do this. You can go into business with Amy Deluca just like she had offered. Liz can make new friends. We can be happy again.”

“You’re right Liz needs this.” Nancy looked up the stairs and sighed. “Lizzie, can you come down here for a minute?”

Liz parker had been curled up against her door listening to everything her parents were talking about. For the first time in months she felt hopeful. She stood up and walked down the stairs to her parents.

“So where are we going?” Liz asked her parents. Jeff and Nancy smiled at her and enveloped her in a huge hug.

Nancy smiled at her daughter. “Roswell.”




So what do you think? Should I continue?

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A/N I just wanted to get Chapter one and I should be posting every Friday or Saturday. So look out for my posts. Also I know the prologue makes Liz seem like she's crazy. She isn't, it will all be explained. As always leave me feedback.


Chapter One

Max POV
“Max! Guess what?” I roll over to face my energetic sister. Even though I’m annoyed that she woke me up, I can’t help at my sister. She gets so excited all the time. “Let me guess. There’s a sale at the mall? Isabel gives me an exasperated sigh. “No, we have new neighbors. They just moved in behind us.” I raise my eyebrows at Isabel. “So?” Then she groans at me again. “So! They have a daughter our age. Mom said to get ready we’re going over their house to welcome them to the neighborhood.” With those words she took of down the hall to her room.

A new girl normally we get an old couple. This should be different. I am happy for Isabel. I know how she always wanted a best friend to talk to. She does have Tess and Maria, but they are closer to each other. She has Alex her boyfriend, but she can’t talk to him about girl stuff. So I really hope this works out for her.

Oh yea Max you just want a best friend for Isabel. Please you want this to be the girl for you. Wow Max, calm down you don’t even know this girl.

Diane Evans was busy putting the cookies she had baked for the new neighbors when Isabel walked in. “Hey mom, are those for the neighbors.” Diane turned to look at her daughter. “Yes they are. Honey what are you doing in sweats?” Isabel shrugged at her mother. “Well I figured they have a girl my age, maybe she wants some help unpacking.” Diane smiled at her. “Oh that’s so sweet of you. Now go call your father and brother tell them we are walking over now.” Isabel nodded and went to go get them.

The Evans walked over to the house behind them and knocked on their back door, and was greeted by a huge yellow lab. Max and Isabel bent down to pet the dog. From the front of the house came Nancy Parker.
“Hi I’m Nancy Parker.” She smiled at the new family. “This is my husband Jeff.” She motioned to the man who came behind her.
“Hi. I’m Diane Evans. This is my husband Phillip, and these are our children Max and Isabel.”
“We have a daughter your age. Her name is Liz. How old are you?” Nancy asked.
“We’re both seventeen.” Isabel answered.
Nancy smiled. “That’s so perfect Liz is seventeen. Nancy walked towards the stairs. “Liz, honey come down here.”
Max POV
Isabel and I look towards the stairs as Liz comes into view. I feel my breath catch in my chest. She is beautiful. Long brown hair flowed to her shoulders. Her eyes are bright and full of life.

“Liz these are our new neighbors, the Evans. This is Diane, Phillip, Max, and Isabel.” She smiles at us. “Hi.” Isabel smiles back and I can tell she is going to break the ice. “Hey. Do you need any help unpacking?” There we go damn that girl moves fast. “Yea that would be great. Come on my room is this way.” She grabs Isabel’s hand and leads her up the stairs.

“Well Nancy, it looks like the girls are going to be fast friends.” Diane exclaimed.
“Yes it does. I’m so glad we don’t really know anyone here. I was worried about Liz.”
Phillip looked at Jeff. “Hey Jeff you need any help bringing stuff in?”
“Sure do.”
“Hey Max come help us.” Phillip said. I nod and follow my dad unable to take my eyes off the direction they went in.

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Chapter Two

Liz POV

“So Liz, why did your family move to Roswell?” Isabel asked. I can’t really tell her why we move so I just shrug my shoulders. . “Oh my Dad got a job offer out here, and my mom is going into business with Amy Deluca. They’re good friends from college.”

“Wow that’s so cool. Amy’s daughter Maria is one of my best friends.” Isabel smiled. “You would love her. Then there’s Tess, Kyle, Michael, and Alex. Oh I can’t wait until you meet them.” Wow I really like this girl. She is so sweet and open. I think I could be really good friends with her. I walk over to my CD and hit play.

“That would be great. I don’t know anyone here so I could use some friends.” I give Isabel a huge smile. “Ok it’s settled. You can meet them once you guys are all settled in. And I officially love your room. The hard wood floor is so perfect. OH! You know what would go great. We should get you a nice rug. So how about tomorrow we go to the mall.” Isabel heard the first notes of the music and started bouncing up and down. “Oh I love this song so much!” OK I officially love this girl. “I do too!”

You think that I go home at night
Take off my clothes, turn out the lights
But I burn letters that I write
To you, to make you love me

Yeah, I drive naked through the park
And run the stop sign in the dark
Stand in the street, yell out my heart
To make, to make you love me.

Isabel grabs my hand and I have no idea what she is doing. Then she starts to dance so I do too. I’m getting really into it too, so I grab my hairbrush and decide to sing into it. Have I mentioned I love this girl? She grabbed one and started singing too.

I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Super goddess
Average every day sane psycho

You may not believe in me
But I believe in you
So I still take the trash out
Does that make me too normal for you?

So dig a little deeper, cause
You still don't get it yet
See me lickin' my lips, need a primitive fix
And I'll make, I'll make you love me

I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Super goddess
Average every day sane psycho
Super goddess

See me jump through hoops for you
You stand there watching me performing
What exactly do you do?
Have you ever thought it's you that's boring?
Who the hell are you?

I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Super goddess
Average every day sane psycho

Average every day sane psycho
Super goddess
Average every day sane psycho

Average every day sane psycho
Super goddess
Average every day sane psycho

Average every day sane psycho.

As the song finishes we take our final poses and I look up to see Max standing in the doorway. Well this is great. Now the first cute guy I met must think I’m just some psycho. Fantastic! I decide to break this rather uncomfortable silence. “Yes well I guess you can see I am just a little crazy.”

Max POV
Oh boy I am in way over head. What have I known this girl two minutes? Yet she already has a hold on me. Come on Max don’t just stand there SAY SOMETHING! “Yea, just a little bit.” Oh great Max real suave. Tell the girl she’s crazy. Wait is she laughing? Is she finding this whole embarrassing ordeal funny? Ah crap my ears are turning red again. To my surprise she gives me the most surprising answer. “Max I can see this is going to be the beginning of a beautiful friendship.” All I can do is give her a smile. Of course my mother has to interrupt our moment. Moment, how lame am I? “Izzy! Max! We have to go.” Isabel leans in and gives Liz a hug. “Ok so tomorrow how bout 12 o’clock?” Liz smiles her beautiful smile once again. My god, Max get a hold of yourself. “Yup works for me.” She walks us down the stairs. “I’ll see you tomorrow Isabel.” Then she turns and looks at me. “Bye Max.” I smile at her. “See ya later Liz.”

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Chapter Three


Liz POV

“Good night Kayla.” I start to walk out of the restaurant but she calls me back. “Liz, could you bring the trash out to the dumpster before you go?” I smile and nod. I take the bag and go out into the alley. I have to get home it’s my mom’s birthday. Wait what was that? “Hello? Is there anyone there?” I call, no one answers. I must be hearing things now. I keep walking. Ok Liz almost there. Now I’m sure I hear footsteps. So I walk faster. I’m almost out of the alley when I’m pulled back. I try to scream, but my voice doesn’t seem to be working. I’m being pushed against a wall, I push back but he’s stronger all I can do is cry. His hot breath is on my skin. Why is this happening to me?
“You keep quiet or I swear I’ll kill you.” His voice is harsh and cold, but also calm. Deadly calm. I have to fight back, I kick him. He looks at me, and all I feel is a searing pain as his fist comes into contact with my face.

“NO! NO! Stop please!” I struggle against whatever is holding me down. “Lizzie shhh it’s okay sweetie, it was just a nightmare. It’s not real. He’s gone.” I sob in my mother’s arms. When will the nightmares end? Every time I go to sleep I see that night over and over. Will I ever be able to live free of that memory. “I’m okay mom go back to sleep. I’m sorry I woke you up.” My mom nods, kisses my forehead and walks back to her room. The pain has to start to fade eventually, right?


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“Oh Liz look at this one.” Isabel yells out. I walk over to where she’s standing, and see what she’s looking at. It’s a cozy little couch. I know this is perfect for my room. It will be perfect for writing down my thoughts. “Izzy, it’s perfect!” I squeal and give her a hug. All my friends at home just stopped talking to me after they find out what happened to me. It’s good to be able to talk to someone my age again. I don’t worry about the price because my parents said go crazy. “Let’s go back to my house.” Isabel says when we’re done. “Works for me.” We get into my car and drive back to her house. Of course as soon as I walk in the door who do I walk into? I mean literally walk into. Max! Yes, that’s right. Ok now floor if you were ever going to open and swallow me whole, well now would be the perfect time. Oh even better he doesn’t have a shirt on.
“Well you certainly make a first and second impression.” Max states with a grin. Ok I was totally serious about the whole hole in the earth thing. Ok why the hell can’t I formulate any words? I mean it’s not as if I like him or something right. Well you kinda do, an annoying voice in my head says. “Yea I’m cool like that.” Well Liz could you be any lamer. To my surprise he smiles, and I melt right on the spot. Wait melting? I am not melting. I do not like this guy. LIZ YOU DON’T LIKE HIM!! No, you don’t like anyone. Alone Liz you need to be alone for a while. Yea keep telling yourself that. Oh boy I am in trouble. “Ok well nice chatting with ya Max but Liz and I are going to my room. Later.” I smile and wave as Isabel drags me into her room.

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Isabel and I are sitting on her bed listening to music and relaxing. “Liz, can I tell you something?” I look up and nod. “Well I don’t know how to say this exactly.” No, please she can’t already be sick of me. “I sort of think of you like my best friend.” She looks unsure of herself. Well I was not expecting that. The truth is even though I just met her yesterday, I feel like I can tell her anything. “Really?” I have to ask to make sure I’m not being punked or something. “Yea, I mean I don’t know you that well, but I want to. For some reason I trust you. Believe me I don’t trust easily.” Suddenly I feel tears pricking at my eyes. “Isabel I feel the same way.” Then we are both full out crying and hugging like babies. It feels strange hugging people again. But I feel safe with her.
I have to tell her what happened to me. I have to see if she’s gonna stick around me. I don’t want this to be some stupid fantasy, and when reality comes a’knockin I have to be friendless again. “Izzy?” She looks up at me and smiles. “Yea, I have to tell you the reason we moved out here. I don’t want to keep anything from you.” She looks puzzled. So I take a deep breath and start.
“Well four months ago I was coming out of the diner I worked at, and I was pulled into an alley.” I need to stop and catch my breath because I am seriously sobbing now. Isabel nods urging me to go on. “Well that night I was raped.” I see the shock in her eyes. This is it. I’m about to lose the first real friend I’ve had in months.

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Hey You guys I'm Back with a new part!!! For all of you wondering the song in the last chapter was Extraordinary by Liz Phair. Thank you all so much for feedback. Keep it coming!!!

Chapter Three


Liz POV

“Good night Kayla.” I start to walk out of the restaurant but she calls me back. “Liz, could you bring the trash out to the dumpster before you go?” I smile and nod. I take the bag and go out into the alley. I have to get home it’s my mom’s birthday. Wait what was that? “Hello? Is there anyone there?” I call, no one answers. I must be hearing things now. I keep walking. Ok Liz almost there. Now I’m sure I hear footsteps. So I walk faster. I’m almost out of the alley when I’m pulled back. I try to scream, but my voice doesn’t seem to be working. I’m being pushed against a wall, I push back but he’s stronger all I can do is cry. His hot breath is on my skin. Why is this happening to me?

“You keep quiet or I swear I’ll kill you.” His voice is harsh and cold, but also calm. Deadly calm. I have to fight back, I kick him. He looks at me, and all I feel is a searing pain as his fist comes into contact with my face.

“NO! NO! Stop please!” I struggle against whatever is holding me down. “Lizzie shhh it’s okay sweetie, it was just a nightmare. It’s not real. He’s gone.” I sob in my mother’s arms. When will the nightmares end? Every time I go to sleep I see that night over and over. Will I ever be able to live free of that memory. “I’m okay mom go back to sleep. I’m sorry I woke you up.” My mom nods, kisses my forehead and walks back to her room. The pain has to start to fade eventually, right?


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“Oh Liz look at this one.” Isabel yells out. I walk over to where she’s standing, and see what she’s looking at. It’s a cozy little couch. I know this is perfect for my room. It will be perfect for writing down my thoughts. “Izzy, it’s perfect!” I squeal and give her a hug. All my friends at home just stopped talking to me after they find out what happened to me. It’s good to be able to talk to someone my age again. I don’t worry about the price because my parents said go crazy. “Let’s go back to my house.” Isabel says when we’re done. “Works for me.”

We get into my car and drive back to her house. Of course as soon as I walk in the door who do I walk into? I mean literally walk into. Max! Yes, that’s right. Ok now floor if you were ever going to open and swallow me whole, well now would be the perfect time. Oh even better he doesn’t have a shirt on.

“Well you certainly make a first and second impression.” Max states with a grin. Ok I was totally serious about the whole hole in the earth thing. Ok why the hell can’t I formulate any words? I mean it’s not as if I like him or something right. Well you kinda do, an annoying voice in my head says. “Yea I’m cool like that.” Well Liz could you be any lamer. To my surprise he smiles, and I melt right on the spot. Wait melting? I am not melting. I do not like this guy. LIZ YOU DON’T LIKE HIM!! No, you don’t like anyone. Alone Liz you need to be alone for a while. Yea keep telling yourself that. Oh boy I am in trouble. “Ok well nice chatting with ya Max but Liz and I are going to my room. Later.” I smile and wave as Isabel drags me into her room.

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Isabel and I are sitting on her bed listening to music and relaxing. “Liz, can I tell you something?” I look up and nod. “Well I don’t know how to say this exactly.” No, please she can’t already be sick of me. “I sort of think of you like my best friend.” She looks unsure of herself. Well I was not expecting that. The truth is even though I just met her yesterday, I feel like I can tell her anything. “Really?” I have to ask to make sure I’m not being punked or something. “Yea, I mean I don’t know you that well, but I want to. For some reason I trust you. Believe me I don’t trust easily.” Suddenly I feel tears pricking at my eyes. “Isabel I feel the same way.” Then we are both full out crying and hugging like babies. It feels strange hugging people again. But I feel safe with her.

I have to tell her what happened to me. I have to see if she’s gonna stick around me. I don’t want this to be some stupid fantasy, and when reality comes a’knockin I have to be friendless again. “Izzy?” She looks up at me and smiles. “Yea, I have to tell you the reason we moved out here. I don’t want to keep anything from you.” She looks puzzled. So I take a deep breath and start.

“Well four months ago I was coming out of the diner I worked at, and I was pulled into an alley.” I need to stop and catch my breath because I am seriously sobbing now. Isabel nods urging me to go on. “Well that night I was raped.” I see the shock in her eyes. This is it. I’m about to lose the first real friend I’ve had in months.

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Chapter Four

I prepare myself for the ‘Oh that’s too bad. Okay bye now.’ It doesn’t come. The next thing I know Isabel has me in a fierce hug and it doesn’t seem like she plans on letting go. “Oh my god, Lizzie I’m so sorry.” She has tears in her eyes. It starts to register that she isn’t leaving me alone to deal with the pain myself. For the first time in four months, I feel like I have a real connection with someone. I feel comforted, to know that my new friend isn’t going to leave me alone. Suddenly I find myself gripping onto Isabel, reluctant to let her go. We break apart, and I wipe my eyes. Isabel gets up and gets a box of tissues. I gratefully take one. Isabel looks at me. “Do you want to talk about it?” I nod slowly, because I really need to tell someone my age and have them understand. “Wait! Don’t say anything yet. I’ll be right back.” She gets up and rushes out of the room. I hope that she will be right back.

About two minutes later, Isabel rushes back in. This time she has a pint of chocolate ice cream and two spoons with her. I guess I look surprised because she looks at me and just say, “Ice cream fixes everything.” I laugh freely for what feels like the first time in forever. “I guess it does.” I decide to dive in and tell her everything. She cries with me. She feels my pain. When I tell how all of my friends wanted nothing do with me after they found out, she grabs my hand. “Liz, I want you to know that I won’t abandon you like they did. I get what it’s like to not trust people.” I feel a smile light up on my face. “How do you know what it’s like to not trust anyone?” Isabel tells me how she and Max were adopted. How their real parents just abandoned them in the desert one night. She tells me how for the longest time she never trusted anyone. She was always afraid how everyone would just leave her alone like her real parents did. I realize why I was so drawn to her from the beginning. She knows what it feels like to be alone. I know that from now on the two of us are going to be best friends.
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“Hey mom.” I give my mom a kiss on the cheek to say good morning. “Well good morning. What’s with the cheery mood?” I can tell she’s surprised. I am too. I mean last night was the first night in four months that I haven’t had a nightmare. Maybe I needed to come here to be free of those memories. Well maybe not be free but at least able to live again. “What are your plans for the day sweetie?”

“I figured I’d head down to the pool.” I mean what else is there to do. Our air conditioner isn’t set up yet, and its ninety-five degrees outside. I need to cool off somehow. “Is Isabel coming with you?” I shake my head. “She’s spending the day with her mom today.” Ok it is so hot in here; I need to get to the pool now! “I’ll see you later mom. I love you.” Before I make it to the door, she calls me again. “Lizzie, please be careful.” I smile and nod, and them I’m gone. I need to clear my head. I get to our community pool to find it’s empty. I like it this way. I dive right in not really caring if it’s cold or not. I start swimming laps. I always feel free when I’m in the water like nothing can get in my way. Well that’s how I felt until I bumped into something. I look up and guess who it is? Well if you guessed Max you were right. “Liz we can’t keep bumping into each other like this.” He has this smirk on his face, that makes me want to hit him and kiss him at the same time. “Well, maybe you shouldn’t get in my way.” I joke right back at him. “Oh okay then.” He turns to walk away and in a second I’m up in the air and being thrown back into the water. I surface again and shoot him a death glare. He doesn’t see because he’s laughing too hard. I dive quickly under the water, grab his leg, and pull under with me. “I can’t believe you just threw me in.” I laugh at him. “I can’t believe you pulled me under. So I guess we’re even.”

I don’t even know this guy yet here I am joking around with him. “So Liz what brings you to the lovely town of Roswell?” I do the same thing I did to Isabel when she asked me that question. “My dad got a great job offer out here.” I smiles and nods. “So have you gotten a proper tour of Roswell yet? I shake my head no. ”So how about tomorrow I show you around?” He looks at me, and I swear it’s like he’s staring into my soul. That scares the crap out of me. I don’t trust the opposite sex anymore. Not after what happened. I have to get out of here. “Yea you know what I got to go.” I jump out of the pool, and I run out of there. I hear Max calling my name, but I don’t turn around. I keep running until I get home. This is insane. I can’t even let a guy give me a tour of the town. Will I ever be over this?

Maybe that’s why all my friends left me. I didn’t want to be near them anymore. I start to cry because I can’t let go of this pain. I can’t trust yet, and it scares me. So many things scare me. I don’t hear the knock on my door. I didn’t even realize that someone was in my room until I’m wrapped in a hug. I look up and see Isabel. I break down completely and sob. She just strokes my hair. “Why can’t I let go?” I ask her praying she can answer, and give me the magical cure for my pain. “Liz, you don’t just get over something like that. It stays with you. It hurts like hell, and after awhile you can move on again.” I nod and keep crying. I finally let go of her. I need to get a hold of myself. “How did you know I was here?” She smiles. “Max told me you guys were at the pool and you sort of flipped out on him. He sent me to check on you.” I bury my head in my hands. “I feel like such an idiot. I mean he only asked me if I wanted a tour of the town, and I totally lost it.”

“Hey you are allowed to lose it. We all have our moments.” I smile and nod. “I guess I need to apologize to Max.” Isabel smiles at me. “Yeah. He was pretty upset. He asked me ‘Do I have that bad of a personality?’ I felt bad

I had to laugh at him.” She starts to laugh and I laugh with her. “Is he home now?” She shakes her head. “Nope. He’s at the basketball court.” I sigh and get up to go and try explaining my actions to Max. Oh this will be fun. I can see how that conversation will go. ‘Hey Max. Sorry I went all crazy on you before.’ Yup my life sucks.

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Chapter Five


I see Max, and I feel so bad that I hurt him. He’s just sitting on this bench looking like he has the weight of the world on his shoulders. I walk over to him hoping he understands that I have some issues I need to work through. “Hey.” My words come out as a whisper. He looks up at me. He doesn’t smile or anything. “Hi.” That’s all he says to me and I don’t blame him. I basically made it seem like I was so against the thought of hanging out with him that I had to run away. “Can I join you?” He’s going to say no. I know he is. He just nods to me. I sit down right next to him. He tenses up a little bit, and I can’t help but feel guilty because I made it this way.

“Max?” I get his attention and he looks at me. “I’m sorry about how I acted.” He nods and says nothing. For five minutes I just sit there. I’m about to get up and leave and then he speaks. “Yea, what was that? I mean you could have just said no. You didn’t have to run away from me like I was the plague or something.”

Silent tears start to roll down my cheek. I have lived here a week and I’m already alienating people. “It’s not that. I just can’t. I, um.” I can’t finish what I’m about to say. The tears are coming harder then before, and before I know it I’m just sobbing. I feel so alone. I wish that night had never happened. Maybe things would have been different.

I feel Max pull me into his arms. The scary thing is that I’m not scared of him touching me. He’s different. I sob into his chest. “It’s going to be alright Liz.” I keep crying. “I’m sorry Max. I didn’t mean to hurt you. I’m so sorry.” After a while I calm down, but I still hold onto Max. “I’m sorry I flipped out on you. It’s just that, I have some things I’m going through. I just sort of lost it today.” I let go of him, and I feel cold. “Do you want to talk about it?” I shake my head no. “Thanks though. I just need to deal with my problems by myself.” I look at my watch and realize it’s almost eleven. My parents are probably flipping out.

“I should go. My parents are probably about to send out a search party.” He smiles at me, and I get up to leave. I really don’t want to walk alone. I hate being alone in the dark now. “I’ll walk you home.” I sigh in relief as he says that. We walk together in a comfortable silence. “So now that you’re feeling better how about that tour.” I’m still not sure, but I realize he didn’t try anything tonight. He wouldn’t do anything to me during the day. I am going to take a leap of faith for once. “Sure. What time should I be ready?”

He smiles at me, and I smile back. “Around twelve. I have to take you to the Crashdown.” I laugh at that. “What?” He looks flustered and it is so cute. “Nothing. It’s just my mom co-owns that place now. I haven’t had a chance to go there yet though.” He laughs. I like his laugh. “Well at least you can feel at home there.” I giggle, and all too soon we are at my front door. “So I’ll see you tomorrow.” I lean in and kiss him on the cheek. He looks at me stunned. “What was that for?” I smile at him. “For just being there for me tonight. For understanding.” I smile at him once more and walk into my house. Tomorrow will be very interesting.

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Max POV

I collapse on my bed as soon as I get home. What happened to Liz that she just broke down like that? It has to be something bad. I mean when I asked her to let me show her around Roswell, I saw the fear in her eyes. Who put it there? Still no matter how strange it seems, I feel myself being pulled in. I want to be the one who makes her tears go away. I want to make her laugh. What is it about her? Why do I feel the need to get close to her? I walk over to my window. Did I mention that Liz’s room is right across from mine? I realized that the night I met her. I notice she’s on the phone, and I hear Isabel in her room so I figure they were talking to each other. The two of them were pretty much inseparable now. Isabel had been so excited when I asked her how their day of shopping went; she hopped into my arms and said that she and Liz were best friends. Well at least she got what she wanted.

Now all I can even think of is how broken Liz was tonight. I really hope she’ll open up to me. She goes to sit out on her balcony. She pulls out a book and starts writing. I can’t help but wonder is she writing about me. Is she thinking about what happened today? I know I am.
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Liz POV

Did you ever feel like you were wearing a mask? You hide yourself from the world because you don’t want people to see your pain. That’s what I do. I hide myself because I know if people see me, I mean really see me, they won’t want to be near me. I mean that is why I hate letting people in. If you don’t get attached then you won’t get hurt.

Maybe that’s why I flipped out on Max. There is just something about him that makes me want to show him who I am. So I guess I just shut down. I told Isabel everything and she understood, so why am I afraid to get close to Max. Is it because he is a guy? Am I still afraid to be near them? My therapist told me that I shouldn’t be afraid but I am. I mean one guy did that to me. So of course I don’t want to get near them. I don’t want to open myself up. I still need to live though. I need to take control of my life. That’s why I said yes to Max. Tomorrow I take the steps I need to get my life back under control.

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Chapter 6

Liz POV
I pace around my room, trying to think my way out of this. Come on Liz, focus. You can make up an excuse. To my personal disgust, I can’t. I hear the doorbell ring and I reluctantly get up and answer the door. The minute I open the door and I see him every doubt I have goes speeding out of my mind. How does he do that? How can one look make me forget everything? All of the I can’t’s and I won’t do its just fade away. I look in his eyes and a great wave of peacefulness wash over me.

I’ve always been a firm believer in fate. Everything that happens happens for a reason. Maybe one act of hatred against another person can set in motion a chain of events that leads them to where they are now. I realize as I stand here I’m at a crossroads. I can either make the first move to recovery or I can stay where I am and wallow in my own self-pity. I’ve always hated pity. Maybe that’s why I lost all my friends. They weren’t really seeing me they just saw me as the girl who was raped. They played their ‘Oh Liz I’m so sorry,’ card to the best of their ability. In the end they figured I was a lost cause and one by one stopped talking to me. I guess they weren’t really my friends. Isabel was right though, when you’re ready to let go you’ll let go. I’m ready let go.

“Hey Max!” He smiles at me and once again my legs feel like they can’t support my weight. Again I ask, how does he do that?
“Hey Liz, are you ready to go? I nod and pet Jake my dog goodbye and close the door. He walks me to his car and smiles proudly.
“This is Bob.” I start to crack up because Bob is a raggedy old jeep. I keep laughing and Max looks at me like I’m crazy. I point to the jeep.
“You named this hunk of junk.” I keep cracking up and Max pretends to be offended.

“Hey little missy, don’t be dissing on Bob or you can walk.” I regain a little composure and pat Bob on the hood. “I’m sorry Bob can we be friends.” I jump as the horn honks. I look up and Max has his mischievous smirk on. We both start to crack up. I’m surprised at how easy the conversation is going. He helps me into the car, and then gets in himself. He turns on the radio and my favorite song comes on so of course I immediately begin to sing along.

I saw fireworks from the freeway
And behind closed eyes I cannot make them go away
'Cause you were born on the fourth of July, freedom ring
Now something on the surface it stings
I said something on the surface
Well it kind of makes me nervous
Who says that you deserve this
And what kind of god would serve this?
We will cure this dirty old disease
if you've got the poison I've got the remedy

Max begins to sing with me, and I can’t help but laugh at how ridiculous the two of us must look.

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

Max POV
I’m glad she’s having a good time. After last night all I want to do is let her forget about her troubles even if it’s just for a little while. I also want her to be able to open up to me like she seems to have opened up to Isabel.

I won't worry my life away.

I won't worry my life away.


I heard two men talking on the radio
In a cross fire kind of reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
They were counting down the ways to stab
The brother in the be right back after this
The unavoidable kiss, where the minty fresh
Death breath is sure to outlast this catastrophe
Dance with me, because if you've got the poison,
I've got the remedy

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.


I won't worry my life away.

I won't worry my life away.


Liz POV
Isn’t it funny how a song can say exactly you’re feeling. I don’t want to worry forever. I want to be my own person.

When I fall in love I take my time
There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you why

Because

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won't worry my life away.

I won't worry my life away.

I won't and I won't and I won't

We pull into a parking lot. I look around and see a sign that says UFO CENTER. “What is this?” I ask him and he grins at me. “This Liz is Roswell’s UFO museum.” I raise my eyebrows at him.
“Are you serious?”
“As a heart attack.” He tells me
“Well then lead away.” He offers me his arm and I link mine through his. Being this close to him feels weird and comforting at the same time.

We walk into this dark building with pictures of UFO’s and I can’t help but laugh. “Yea laugh it up Liz, you do realize the Crashdown is just as bad right. I groan inwardly at that. I had a feeling the Crashdown was going to be cheesy. How could it not be? I mean I moved to Roswell for crying out loud.

After walking around for a while Max drags me out of there and across the street to the Crashdown. I walk in and start laughing at the interior. Max laughs with me and I grab onto him because my legs might give out right now do to the laughing.


“Hey Max, over here!” I see Max smile at the group of people and takes my hand and leads me over to them. I feel a lump in my throat as I realize this is the group of friends Isabel told me about. Well it’s the moment of truth. Will they accept me or reject me?

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Chapter 7



“Hi. I’m Liz.” Wow that’s all I can say is Hi. I am such a loser. I should just go crawl in a hole right now. Before I can even make a run for it I’m being brought into a hug. “Hi. I’m Maria. Oh my gosh Isabel has told me so much about you. I couldn’t wait to meet you. And now I did.” She keeps on going on and I really like this girl. I mean she can talk as much as me.

“Geez, Deluca take a breath.” I look to a boy with spiky brown hair as he says that.

“Oh no, you did not just say that to me Michael. I will seriously kick your ass from here to high heaven if you give me attitude again. Who do you think you are?” I watch in pure amusement as she goes into another tirade. Michael leans in to shake my hand.

“I’m Michael the inconsiderate asshole of the group.” I crack up at his words. “I’m sure you’re not that bad.” He winks at me then goes back to listening to Maria.

Next a tall lanky kid stood up. “Hi, I’m Alex.” So this is Isabel’s Alex.
“Ah so you are the famous Alex. I’ve heard a lot about you.” He looks at me with a quizzical look on his face. “What? Isabel is my best friend.” He laughs and then to my surprise he pulls me into a hug. I’m shocked because I don’t feel scared or anything. “Welcome to the group Lizzie.” I feel tears of joy welling up in my eyes as I realize I’ve just been accepted by them.

Another boy stands up with brown hair. “Welcome to Roswell Liz, I’m Kyle Valenti, and this is my girlfriend Tess Harding.” I smile at the girl with stunning blue eyes, and she looks me over as if trying to see who I am. Before I know it she also hugs me. That was a shock let me tell you I swear for a minute I thought she was going to incinerate me with death ray eyes.

“Hi, I’m Tess. Isabel has told us a lot about you.” I smile nervously. “All good I hope.” Tess smiles at me. “Of course. So I’m having Maria and Isabel over Friday night. It’s sort of like a tradition, Friday night is girl night. So since its obvious how much everyone likes you already, you’re invited.”

“Wow, Tess its okay I don’t want to be a burden.” Tess gave me a look of shock at the thought she was doing this to put on a pity party.
“Ok first off, I wouldn’t invite you anywhere if I didn’t like you. Second off, I need to get to know the girl who stole Max Evans heart away.”

Ok that last statement threw me for a loop. I look at Max sitting down joking around with Maria. No he couldn’t possibly feel anything for me.

“What are you talking about?” I try and laugh but on the inside I’m turning to mush at the thought of Max Evans.
“I can’t tell you now, that’s what girl talk is for so tomorrow night 7:30.”

I nod at go to sit next to Max. He smiles at me and leans into whisper in my ear. “They all love you already. Isabel’s gonna be ecstatic.” All I can do is smile at him. “Where is Isabel anyway?” Max looks to Alex who is getting up to greet someone. I turn to look as Isabel walks into the crashdown. As soon as she sees me she squeals and I get up to give her a hug.

“I see you’ve met the gang.” She gestures to the group.
“Yup, they are great.” I smile as she hugs me again. I sit back down next to Max. I can say for once I feel as if really belong somewhere.

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“Come on Liz, we’re gonna be late!” Isabel yells at me from downstairs.
“Ok Isabel keep your pants on.” I laugh as I come down the stairs. I give my mom a kiss goodbye and head out to the car with Isabel.

We get to Tess’s house and it is huge. Holy Crap I would get lost in a house like that.
“I know it’s big but believe me it’s actually really cozy.” How does she do that it’s like she can read my mind. Tess opens the door and gives each of us a hug. I gotta tell you I’m not used to this lets talk about boys thing. I never had girl nights. I never really had close bonds with anyone.

So two hours later we are sitting in Tess’s bedroom and then the subject of boys comes up. Oh what fun.
“So Liz, it seems you have Max quite smitten with you.” Tess states and smiles.

“No we’re just friends.” I try to shake off that comment but I can’t. I really want him to like me, but I don’t think I’m ready to be with anyone seeing as I am an emotional train wreck at the moment.
“Yeah sure and I’m really the Santa Claus.” We laugh at how she says it so bluntly.

“Do you like him Liz?” I look away and I can’t lie because I really do like him so I just nod my head. The screeches that come out of them are enough to make my head hurt. Good lord I only admitted I like the guy. It’s not as if we’re getting married.

“Ha I knew it! Didn’t I tell you Maria? I’m always right when it comes to these things. Twenty bucks you’re together by next month.” After that we all watch a movie and relax. So this is what girls night is. Well I gotta be truthful I love it. I can’t believe I actually made friends here already.