Author: ultimatepickupline (Reese)
Couple: All CC mainly M/L
Rating: Teen
Disclaimer: Yeah....I don't own it, which is probably a good thing. The first chapter specifically contains lines from EOTW, or rather it contains very close paraphrases. I obviously didn't come up with those by myself.
Summary: Liz made a possibly bad decision before Future Max left, and now her future seems to be even worse than giving up her soulmate.


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Chapter 1
Liz stared at the ceiling from her sprawled out position on the bed where she had collapsed earlier. She didn’t even know how much time had passed. All she could think was “How could this happen? How could I allow this to happen to me?” She turned her head to stare at the bathroom door. It seemed to draw her attention and say “Your life is changed forever”. As if she didn’t already know it would be when she helped Future Max with his plan to save the world. But she never dreamed that it would end so terribly for her. Sure she knew that she was going to be giving up her happiness with Max, but she didn’t think that it would end up taking her own personal dreams away too. If anything it should have given those dreams back. If she wasn’t with Max she wouldn’t have to worry about any of the alien business and she wouldn’t have to worry about running away from the FBI. She would be free to pursue her life-long dream of going to Harvard and getting her degree in molecular biology. But when she helped Future Max change what was suppose to be, she became so devastated that she had made a stupid mistake. A very stupid mistake that would now change her life forever. Now she would still have to give up her educational goals and dreams and deal with the stupid alien business. And this time Max wouldn’t even be there to help her deal. Or to make it seem like the whole thing wasn’t really that bad and totally worth it.
Liz got up and went back to the bathroom door. After pausing with her hand above the handle for a few seconds, she opened the door and walked in. Then she picked up the pregnancy test. Yep it was definitely positive. Like she really needed to look at it again. She had already checked it five times and it wasn’t even the only one. It was the third pregnancy test she had taken. As if she didn’t already know what the outcome would be with the first. A week and a half ago she had started to crave tabasco sauce on everything, burgers, fries, ice cream, fruit and her personal favorite right now, in her chocolate milk. On top of that she had started to exhibit powers a week ago, accidentally changing the color of her shirt, opening locked doors and lockers without really trying, warming up cold food on accident without realizing it. But the final straw had been this morning, when she got out of her shower and looked in the mirror to discovered a tiny silver hand print on her stomach. Yep that was the one that took the cake. She had assumed that the first two symptoms were just side effects from sleeping with Future Max two weeks ago, that maybe she was just changing, becoming more alien, but with the hand print she couldn’t just assume that anymore. She had immediately called herself in sick to school and went to the drugstore to buy the three pregnancy tests that now littered her sink.
Liz put down the pregnancy test she held, looked into the mirror and lifted up her shirt. It was still there all right. That little, tiny hand print still glowed half under the top of her jeans. This symptom might be a little harder to cover up than her craving of tabasco sauce or her small powers. She would have to start making sure that she always kept her pants pulled up and her tops pulled down. Well hey at least this would definitely make sure that Max stayed away. Being pregnant definitely proved that she had slept with someone. Wait what was she thinking? She wouldn’t be able to tell Max or any of the other aliens. They would figure out sooner or later that her symptoms were not normal, and she couldn’t afford to have them find out who the real father was. In a weird way, that might bring Max closer, and that was just not acceptable.
“What am I going to do?” Liz panicked. She had to get out of here. She had to get away. But she couldn’t just leave everything she’d ever known. And she wouldn’t be able to do this without help. She would need an ally when she gave birth. She obviously wouldn’t be able to give birth to the baby in a hospital with it being half Czechoslovakian, especially with her recent signs of powers. Who knew what was actually going on in her body right now?
Suddenly all the stress caught up with her, and Liz was exhausted. “I’ll just go to sleep and I’ll deal with this in the morning” Liz thought. Liz changed into some pajamas and walked over to the bed where she sprawled out, and gave herself over to a fitful sleep.
*****
Max was restless. He didn’t know what was going on, but for the past two weeks he had been on edge. “Of course, I’d be upset” Max thought “Two weeks ago I saw Liz in bed with Kyle!” Max had been completely devastated. In fact he still was. He couldn’t believe that Liz had just slept with Kyle like that. She wasn’t one to just jump into bed with someone. And despite her attempt to get him together with Tess, and then her speech about not wanting to die for him, Max felt that things had begun to get better between the two of them. At least they had been, up until the night he had gone to serenade her from the street below her balcony. He just couldn’t figure it out. That night seemed to be a turning point, but he knew that there was nothing he did that night to change anything. He had planned that night out meticulously. The only thing that had gone wrong was the color of the rose. And that was such a minor glitch which he had quickly remedied. He just couldn’t figure what went wrong. He couldn’t wrap his mind around it. “Why would Liz just sleep with Kyle? I just can’t believe she would do that” And that would actually be the problem. He had seen it with his own two eyes, but he still wouldn’t accept it. It couldn’t be true.
Actually he was suspecting that more and more as time went on. When he first saw Kyle and Liz in bed together, he could only focus on the pain that consumed him. He thought about it every waking second. But after a few days he started to realize that something was different. The usual connection he had with Liz since he had saved her had changed somehow. He wasn’t exactly sure how it changed or why, but he was reasonably sure that it didn’t have to do with the Kyle thing. Or at least he was pretty sure that the change in their connection wasn’t a result of the Kyle thing.
Max was sick of thinking of this, but at the same time he couldn’t stop thinking about it long enough to actually do anything else. “Maybe I’ll take a walk” Max muttered under his breathe. He grabbed his jacket and rather than disturb his family at this late hour of night by walking through the house, he climbed out his window and started his now nightly walk. After an hour Max found himself at the bottom of the ladder to Liz’s balcony. Big Surprise. This is where he found himself every night. And as every night, he wanted to go up, but couldn’t face it considering what he found the last time he had gone up.
*****
In her sleep Liz could feel Max close by, although she didn’t realize she knew it, but her dreams reflected this unconscious knowledge.
“Ugh, the look on his face. I hurt him. I hurt him” Liz cried. She couldn’t deal with the pain of hurting the person she loved most in the world and collapsed on the rooftop.
“Liz stop,” Future Max said picking Liz up and carrying her to the lounge chair, “you can’t beat yourself up about this. I asked you to do this. You needed to do this. The fate of the world depends on it. I will always l love you, not just as I exist now, but as I did in this time. I know this hurt you, but I thank you, and I’m proud of you.”
Liz looked up into Future Max’s eyes and couldn’t stop herself from reaching up and gently kissing him on the lips, thanking him for his comfort, even if she knew that the comfort would only last temporarily. Max couldn’t believe that she kissed him. He had just kissed his wife! That was something he never thought he would do again. Unfortunately, he didn’t think he could stop with just a kiss. Not when he would never be able to be with Liz again, and not when she didn’t try to stop him. Liz couldn’t stop Max. After what she had done tonight, she would never be with Max again. She would never kiss him again. She would never get her perfect wedding. And she would never be able to get back what she felt die in her when she saw the hurt on his face. After that there was no way she could stop Max, and she didn’t even want to. She wanted more. So as Max picked her up again and carried her to her bed, she didn’t stop him. And when he looked into her eyes with a question, she nodded and pulled him down to the bed on top of her. She at least wanted one night with Max and if it couldn't be her Max, Future Max would do.
Outside below Liz’s balcony, Max sighed in pain and turned around to go back home. Upstairs, Liz’s dream shifted.
Liz woke up inside her dream. At first she didn’t know anything different, but then she realized that she was sore and naked. And it all came flooding back. Her mission with Future Max, fake sleeping with Kyle, hurting present day Max, and finally seeking comfort by sleeping with Future Max. What had she done? What was this nightmare? She had told Future Max that she wasn’t ready to make love to anyone, and she was telling the truth then. And now Future Max had disappeared, and her Max might as well have disappeared, because he was never going to talk to her again. The grief was unbearable, and sobs wracked her body.
With this Liz woke up. She was sobbing just as she had in her dream, which was really more than a dream. It was a nightmare. It was a nightmare because it was exactly what had happened. And now it was the reason her individual dreams had to die too. But at least that one night was going to leave her with a piece of Max. It was weird that it wouldn’t really be a part of her Max, but Liz’s son or daughter would be a piece of Max. And even with everything that Liz was going to have to give up, and with everything she would have to deal with now, it would be worth it, because she would still be able to feel close to Max in some way. Now she just had to find a way to deal. And she would have to find a way to get someone on her side. Liz was done with her grief, she had a future to think about, and a child to care for, and she would do that to the best of her ability. With that decision made, Liz went back to sleep, and this time she didn’t dream.